#and i think i ruined her mood

[ash-and-starlight]

modern au and esen’s honkers are haunting the instagram feed

#id in alt text #yea this was inspired by That watermelon smashing vid #if u don’t know what i’m talking about you’re living a more peaceful life than i am #at first I was like hm maybe this is a bit too ooc for ouyang #then I remembered the 'doEs GeNerAL Xu pLAY thE FLuTE???' and I was like nah ok it checks out #no filter & accidentally revealing how much of a gayass he is is how he rolls #also rip Ma she's just trying to hang out with her boygf and that hideous Pest that Wretched Thang that useless twink #just manifests wherever zhu is and ruins the mood #she deserves to hatecrime him as much as possible #also I don't think esen is 100% aware he's posting blatant thirst traps. his insta is mostly pics of his horses and his beautiful eagle #then one vid of him doing mounted archery that breaks the internet for 3 weeks #rinse and repeat #also yeah wang's special skill is starting shit in the comments section #he would absolutely thrive in the toxic waste that is social media fights #ty for reading this far. more unhinged takes at 5 #esen-temur #zhu yuanzhang #ma xiuying #general ouyang #the radiant emperor #she who became the sun #he who drowned the world #my art

[ladysophiebeckett]

this actually changes things bc i forgot they had this conversation the day of the junta.

she was gonna quit and break up with him privately after they committed fraud again. whether she was gonna tell him she knew about everything, is still up in the air. personally, i dont think she was. i still think she intended to quit quietly and disappear and he would still go crazy.

#ysblf #mario still got to him in that conversation in his office--thus ruining the good mood armando had that morning #at the prospect of cancelling a wedding so he can be his betty #the alarms should have gone off in armando's head when betty said 'yeah i also think we need to talk' #he got so blindsided by the consensual makeouts in her office. he really thought everything was gonna be okay. poor fool.

[toytulini]

god I know this is like The Wrong Stance on AI. I know its not about whether the art is Real and Human or If It Has A Soul and how a lot of the arguments against it are the same bullshit arguments people made against digital art like I Know. I Knowwww. but god, I'm really sorry, not to post like one of those annoying poetry bloggers I cant stand (yall are valid, live your truth, theres nothing wrong with what you post I'm just a petty bitch who hates poetry. unless I dont hate it.)

But theres just something about the way AI art will almost certainly never be able to mimic the exact way my pencil leaves an indentation in the paper, the way some of the lines I can never fully erase cause I pressed too hard, theyll have to at least train them to draw with a physical pencil first, and sure, they could train it to draw with a pencil and even erase the exact same piece I drew, line for line, on a piece of paper with a robot arm powered by AI, but they can't replicate. idk. the lineage of lefty bitches in my family, and the way I grew up going through school with my entire left arm silver with graphite, from doodling on my schoolwork. not yet anyway. but I guess I do live for the day we make the ai sentient enough that we can traumatize it by giving it homework after kneecapping its executive functions so it copes by drawing a big tiddy lobster monster. sure

#toy txt post #reblogs OFF i dont trust yall to be normal with this one i do NOT want it getting notes #i posted part of this before in a chat to a friend but im feeling it again. so #i havent drawn my big tiddy lobster bitch in awhile i should draw her again #also yea SORRY im sure this is The Wrong Feeling To Have About AI but also sometimes im a little grateful that i dont think my style is #smth a lot of the ppl coding ai to make art find to be worth trying to replicate except maybe as like a fake progress shot on a piece #which is smth i used to be really insecure about. how unfinished all my art looks bc it isnt to the point i cant fucking watch #like speedpaints and shit bc i just start feeling stupidly insecure about all the points in the video where I Would Have Stopped and been #like. im not touching it anymore i dont want to ruin it #and ive been insecure about my inability to really do digital art with like a stylus and shit like the way i do it with a pencil #and i know that is just me needing to Practice it but being too frustrated by it #anyway i know its just a Tool and its Fine and the problem is the art theft and the labor problems of it but liiiiiiike #i just. #im sure there will be unique things and usages of ai as a tool and i genuinely hope that ppl can figure out a way to make one that isnr #isnt* just full of stolen content bc theres unique fuckin shit about like digital art programs u can write stupid poetry that you hate #about it. or stupid poetry that i hate. cos im the poetry hater. listen. i cant stress this enough: its fine. youre fine. keep posting your #poetry and reblogging shit that speaks to you. im just a Bitch okay Ignore Me #i should go draw bokrae like. eating a computer about this #the real reason for that graphics card shortage was bokrae ate them all when she was in the mood for a crunchy snack

[beedreamscape]

I think what is missing with 4-sided Dive that Talks Machina had was a third party to have those character discussions with. It's not the same with a fellow PC. Also someone with interviewing abilities, sometimes I feel like they meander so much.

And I do like to watch them talk, I do watch old episodes of AWNP, fireside chat, etc, but for discussing the game/campaign I think the mechanics of it muddles with the flow.

I personally feel no value is added from the tower of inquiry or the cup questions, though I don't mind the game playing at the end since at this point who had their curiosity satisfied can simply leave, but answering while playing which they tried doing at least once I watched didn't work at all.

Edit: Btw when I say no value is added I mean the format (being in a cup, pulling from the tower) and not the questions themselves.

#and. idk about y'all. but the broom bit just goes over my head #does anyone actually find that funny? #i can see some of them either don't want or don't like 'hosting' #them reading off the teleprompter also ruins the mood #i wish there was someone prepared to guide them through these conversations #maybe not dani bc she's prone to adding her own insights. which i like! but not in a host #SOMEONE TO CONTROL SAM #i *love* him but he derails so much #anyway. I'm not saying 4sided dive is doomed. but I think it has a *long* way to go before it's on TM level #unless you hated brian then all I'm saying must sound like bs xD #AND btw i have no nostalgia for TM. I hopped on this train in c3 and I haven't watched c2 #i just really enjoyed their conversations #talks machina #4-sided dive #critical role #cr stuff #4 sided dive #(late addendum: this was written b4 the shitty dude's debacle. im really sad he ruined to show for everyone that admired him in the past #BUT i still recognize the value it had. not just from his hosting but from the format. the questions submitted #while my opinion remains. my admiration for him does not. i still wish for a host for the new show. obviously someone different)

[tillbonesshow]

Hey everyone back on another episode of why the fuck is my mother like this?

#ok rant time #i was thinking about enjoying a movie since i haven't in a long time and she was sleeping #i turned off the lights and sat down to watch it but she woke up and got into the room asking why I'm in the dark multiple times in an- #-aggressive way and turned on the lights #she then started asking 'what are you hiding from me you would only be in the dark if you're hiding something' #she ruined the whole mood and my night and then fucked off to sleep again #i can't enjoy a movie or really anything anymore cause she's glued to my fucking hip #if i smile at my phone she asks what I'm doing if I'm texting with my phone she asks who I'm talking to if I'm laughing she asks what I'm- #-laughing about if I'm watching something she asks what I'm watching if i woke before here she asks what i did and what i ate before she- #-woke up #stop just fucking stop i don't want to see your stupid fucking face anymore shut up get away from me I'm a fucking adult leave me alone #I'd be happy with her being annoying if she wasn't a terrible fucking human but she is i fucking hate this so much just shut up shut up #i fucking hate this house so much i want to burn it down with me in it #why the hell do i have to live with her constantly annoying me venting to me taking out her anger on me but my siblings can have their own- #-lives outside of this #this isn't fucking fair i never fucking asked for this any of this why why the hell is it always me that has to suffer #why the fuck is it me that got bullied and hit by my eldest brother for years but then i got threatened to be kicked out of the house by my- #-mother i was a fucking child why the fuck do she always side with anyone else that isn't me then has the fucking nerve to demand i treat- #-her like a friend she will fucking never be my friend i won't forget what she did and what she does she will never be my fucking friend

[theanomily]

Flicking through Dreadnought trying to find that scene with Ms Leon, the Colonel, and the Professor when a couple things struck me.

Although definitely not to the extent of Anastasia, Pietor sure does know what he's doing psychologically. I swear, in all his exchanges with Raven, he's just insulting her- weak, slow, lazy, sloppy, etc. And it really does read as though he thinks that. I can't recall a single instance where he degrades another person to the extent that he does to Raven. It seems that he purely hates her, but he doesn't. He even says outright that he both respects and fears her. However, he needs to make sure she underestimates herself for his own gain. He does this in Zero Hour perhaps more obviously when he explicitly tells Raven stuff like "you are too slow to do that" as she is actively formulating plans, nipping them in the bud before they can blossom. It's not elaborate, but it is efficient...

For then my eyes settled upon another scene. It's after Pietor spars with Raven, when she is alone and whispers "where are you, Max?" It's a plea. In fact, given its quiet, personal nature and that what she essentially wants here is some kind of intervention, it could be argued that it reads almost like a prayer. Obviously, at no point ever in the series is Raven depicted as either dependent or religious. She is literally one of the strongest characters in the series, if not the strongest. Yet when it comes to the Furans, she does not seem to believe she can free herself. Before, her only solo escape plan was basically suicide. In this moment now, it needs to be Max- who had saved her from them in the past- or nothing short of a miracle. And it's heartbreaking.

#ofc its then three men sent to kill her but end up accidentally freeing her #so now my new favourite dreadnought crack theory is that they symbolise god (think the trinity) #still havent found the scene but tbh i ruined my lighthearted writing mood anyway lmao #ok but for real though this scene is underrated as hell

[enchanting-grom-fright]

can’t listen to so many songs anymore bcs they just like immediately transport me back to sixth grade breaking down after most interactions with my mom and having every single thing i did be reduced to the things she didn’t want me to be doing and i feel so bad bcs like she’s a good parent i’m just a bad daughter but now i like can’t be around her without feeling scared and she can tell and i feel so sorry i know i shouldn’t be this way but i can’t not be after everything she said and still does but i could never tell that to her bcs of the above so we just go in circles so it just gets worse everyday but 🎶🎶

#“u never open up to me” #hmmm i wonder why #it’s not like u spent years calling me selfish and say i’m ruining ur life and other stuff #but like #i know she cares #i mean i complain abt my dad not caring and then complain when she does so she’s probably right i am just an ungrateful bitch #but i can’t fix it now when u r constantly accusing me of doing stuff #which just makes me think abt everything even more #hhhhhh it is what it is #i’m not at her house rn idk why i am thinking abt this i was in a good mood and now i’ve messed that up oops #(iiii need to be productive today so i will get it back totally totally definitely definitely)

[one-winged-dreams]

This is why I need to stop letting WoW thoughts enter my mind, I get angry over literally everything Blizzard writes.

#i just missed her because I saw her on my vg dashboard and then my mood was immediately soured thinking of that fucking questline #you ruined a perfectly good feral bitch is what you did

[running-in-the-dark]

I had a doctor's appointment this afternoon and just came back. some thoughts:

I love driving. it's amazing, it's great, it's the only time I really feel free.

... that is, until there is even a single car anywhere behind me. then I want to kill and murder and explode

those fucking insanely bright LED headlights should absolutely be illegal. half of the drive back I could not see anything because the fucker behind me had those.

this appointment could literally have been a phone call. I drove thirty minutes there and back and all he did was read the report from the MRI and say it's all good, see you in 6 months

my mother is so fucking dramatic. I dropped something off on the way back and said I don't have time to stay because we're viewing an apartment soon (my husband was already there on his own, I just wanted an excuse to leave). she asked where, I told her, and she kept repeating "oh [my real name]" in this melodramatic heartbroken tone. I was like ??? and she said that's too far away. it is literally 20 minutes from her house (vs 10 where we live now).

I wish I didn't hate new/unfamiliar places so much. that made me want to move very very far away.

if I do decide to change my name legally, there's no way I can do it before my mother dies. hearing her say my name makes me feel disgusting. I can not have her ruin another name for me

I spent maybe 5 minutes tops in my mother's house but that was still long enough to make all my clothes stink so bad. it's a mix of cigarette smoke, her fireplace, pets, and food. it's the worst smell on earth and I hate it so much

but when I came home and sat down, this happened immediately, so I feel better now 😌

#I've also got a rainbow high doll to unbox soo that definitely helps too lol #it's so funny though. I was gone for over two hours and the one thing that ruined my mood was those 5 minutes with my mother. #but now it's time to pet my cat and not think about her. yay! #personal

[ichika39-ln]

I'm Ichikamaxing right now. I memoryholed my middle school years due to social issues so fucking badly that I don't even remember which years I was in middle school for.

#I made a joke here but actually I want to kill myself. #All I can remember about it is that first I had a really bad friendship and then in the final year I had no friends at all #I want to die #Why am I just Ichika #This shit literally sucks ass?? #Every time I get into one of my Moods I just cry about L/n for half an hour? #Recently I tried to fix a relationship using techniques on the basis of me being able to 'Ichika and Saki to Shiho in main story' it #Then that didn't work so I had a meltdown about just how delusional of me it was to think that I could do the same thing #And it was founded on the idea that the Saki in the equation is my friend at the time #He's not Saki. Never has been. He's just some stupid fucking overgrown lizard. To call him Saki is a disgrace to her memory. #Yet everything I did with him was on the basis that I could pretend he's like a Saki equivalent. He used to be so fucking similar. #The entire reason I identified with Ichi/Icchan in his presence was dumb copium bullshit in that vein. #On one of my worst days I painted a little IchiSaki picture at a school event and it had kind of made me feel better. #And he dropped me for his boyfriend #That's how I knew he's actually nothing like Saki. Saki would never do that to someone who carried her on their back during such dark times. #And that like. Ruined me I guess.

[eeunwoo]

so crazy how my mom repeatedly fatshames random ppl either on tv or real life like out of nowhere like im not RIGHT there

#she thinks she’s fat and she’s 40kg like get a grip you are crazy ? #she also made some kinda weight loss comment as in like. telling me I should visit this new place that opened in our town #and after I explained to her that you don’t just lose medication weight gain she did a 180 and was like I meant for me! #like … #she didn’t used to be this awful about things but the last few years have been hell in terms of the bigotry and these casual shitty comments #my entire life I’ve tried to teach her not to do that. god knows it’s not like she taught me not to be an awful person I had to go thru #everything myself and take care of myself in that regard #and like she hardly processes anything I say but then she’s like I’m not racist/fatphobic/homophobic etc #while being exactly that #it’s .. frustrating and it ruins my mood and then she’s mad at me for that like it’s my fault she’s the way she is lmaodnsndn. #anyway sorry but wow #mrow.org

[noburden]

when the very small amount of people in my life who know i’m a lesbian still talk about me dating guys 😃 like

#no cause i’m gonna tell u guys abt this convo i had w my sister the other day #we were talking abt her dating older guys cause she has a type lmao #and i was like what would you do if i was dating someone more than like 4 years older then me #and she was like ‘i would punch him in the face’ #dramatic asf #and i was like ummmmm him ? 🧏‍♀️🧏‍♀️ #and idk maybe she just got confused cause we WERE talking abt older guys but like i mentioned a hypothetical situation where i was dating #someone and she immediately assumes it’s a guy ….. #i know it sounds stupid but like i’m out to less than 3 people i know irl and she just blatantly disregards my gayness ??? #GODDDDDDD #like i have to talk about men all the time with EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY FRIENDS AND HER !!!!! #and one of the very few times i talk abt myself and bring up my own dating life ….. and she says hypothetically id be dating a man #it makes me wanna scream just thinking about it again #it immediately ruined my mood #it sucks having no lesbian friends in real life 🤭 like actually devastating sick to my stomach can’t recover type shit #but yk what #one day i’ll make it to one of the like 5 lesbian bars that there are in the US and i’ll meet some friends #ITS GONNA HAPPEN #i’m manifesting it #maybe once i get to college i’ll meet less straight ppl and more LESBIANS #I WANT LESBIANS !!!! #and also i was talking to this other person who’s pan #and they asked me what my sexuality was and i was like im a lesbian #and they go “i like everybody. which unfortunately includes men😪’ #bitch …… 😕 you’re kidding me rn #ur joking #pls never say that to me or any lesbian ever #bc i promise u i’ve DREAMT abt the idea of being attracted to men and how much easier that would be #obviously it makes me nauseous thinking abt it but at the same time if i had a CHOICE #since when is there a 30 tag limit i’m trying to rant

[yoohyeontual]

I thought I would have a nice day today, but it turn into a big fight how great

#my mom is constantly saying we don’t care about her and that we won’t let her express herself #but the way she need to express herself hurts both me and my dad so we kindly tell to not do it please #but she get offended cause she take it that we don’t care about her feeling and take the side opposite of her #but once we tell her she dosen’t consider OUR feelings she repeat that we don’t care about HERS #no you’re the one only caring about your feeling #I’m exhausted I’m already so stress and confused about what to do I need money and the store won’t call back so I need to find somethin #but there’s nothing around my house that won’t end with me having having panic attack everyday like at my old job #but she won’t hear a word we say if we ever tell her she does something to hurt us she takes it as an insult #she says to take her as she is and she will never change even tho we tell her it hurts us but we should change and and absorb everything #todays conversation was one we have often and I feel the same way she does about the subject but I hate talking about it we don’t have #to keep talking about it what is done is done no matter how much we talk against it it just hurt #even when I told her it was mentally the worst time of my life she still thing that I should listen to her complain non stop and have #to think about it when it just hurt #i feel like Imm just repeating but imm so tired of everything and don’t wanna go in detail I hope it still clear #we had plans today and everything is just ruin #i would continue playing my game and stay distract but this ruined my mood so bad #tomorrow is probably gonna be bad to cause my botch my parents are stubborn especially my dad and he won’t talk to her now and probably #won’t tomorrow neither and she’s gonna be mad and say that he should get over it #i would cause I hate to fight I just want peace but he’s not like that #i love them but they are exhausting sometimes #i wish I could just leave but I have no one to meet and I’m scared if I leave they are going to fight even more today or tomorrow #or that my mom will get offended idk #i wish I wasn’t coming back to complain but I need to ‘’speak’’ somewhere or I’ll break down 😭 #I’m not here often and I don’t feel like scrolling you can tag me in things if you want it would help or use my tag for your content 💕 #I’ve been stalking a tag for a couple of days that’s why I couldn’t resist reblog that nice Eri post when I came earlier and keep reblogging #alex.txt #tw negative

[longagoitwastuesday]

Do you have favorite actors for the various roles in "Cyrano de Bergerac"? I would love to hear your thoughts!

I do! I actually rambled a lot about this while I was watching the different productions I could get my hands on (I tagged it "Cyrano de Bergerac" and "I talk too much").

My favorite productions are the one with José Ferrer and the one with Benoit Solès, and those actors make the best Cyranos in my opinion. Though that's probably something in part beyond the actors' choice, their dynamic with their respective Roxane and Christian are the best ones, I think, and I find how Cyrano moves around these two particular characters at the core of a good Cyrano characterisation.

José Ferrer's use of his voice, which is arguably Cyrano's true most characteristic feature, is unmatched imo (although McAvoy does a very good job with this too), and he manauvers very well several of the different aspects of the character, such as his playfulness, his shittiness and longing. By the end of the play you believe he is the most beautiful man on Earth. Cyrano, however, is a bit pathetic (not just in a "pathos" way), and I'd say Ferrer gives off an air full of dignity very fitting of many scenes, but that eats almost entirely this aspect of Cyrano; Benoit Solès manages this very well, while also playing well with some of the other ones, such as the playfulness, the longing, the pain and the despair. Both Ferrer and Solès are hilarious, tender, a bit shitty, vulnerable, playful and sad. Albeit neither of them portrays 100% what Cyrano is, I think both come pretty close in slightly different flavours, and by the end of the play one ends up being terribly fond of them.

My favourite Roxane is Clara Huet in the production with Benoit Solès, but Mala Powers in the 1950 film is a close second. I think they portray wonderfully Roxane's spunk, and her mix of honest playful cheerfulness and her haughtiness, her intelligence and wit, and how much like Cyrano she is.

I've not come to love for now any Christian as much as I've loved Ferrer, Solès, Huet and Powers, but again I think the Christians in the 1950 film and the Solès productions are very very good. I love the dynamic they have with their Cyranos, especially the one Christian and Cyrano have in the 1950 film, enhanced positively by the added scenes (they actually work so well in showing their developing as friends, their deep love and care for each other!). I don't want to expand too much on this to avoid spoilers (beyond the already known 'Christian dies' ones I mean), but some things they do with both these Christians are a thing of genius, and both feel vulnerable, kind, ready to fight and truly desperate at times; I like when they do that.

There's an Italian production which has a Cyrano I truly enjoy as well, despite how they dumbify him more than I usually like my Christians. His mix of anger and deep pain when he discovers Cyrano's feelings for Roxane were so well made, and his physical presence makes you identify who Christian is even before the play starts.

The Podalydès production has two different Christians. The one in the version on youtube isn't bad, but @ride-a-dromedary likes Éric Ruf a lot. I actually adore him based on the clips and gifs she's posted of him, but I haven't been able to find the version with him online, so I can't know. But he truly seems one of the best. Based on what little I've seen, I love his intense gazes and subtle gestures.

I'm not entirely sold on any Le Bret, De Guiche or Ragueneau yet.

I think the German musical has a decent Ragueneau in vibes, and the 1990 French film does as well. I found his poem made song for what I think is a Spanish production (I'm not sure if it's a fan creation based on the Spanish production), and while I've not been able to find that production online, the song works well in vibes too I think.

The German musical's Le Bret in vibes is very good. He encompasses well his deep love and worry for Cyrano while also being done with his shit. They truly feel like close friends. The 1950 film kind of combines Gaston de Castel-Jaloux and Le Bret into one character, which sadly changes Le Bret's dynamic with Cyrano a bit, but that's a very good Le Bret as well. The one in Solès' production is pretty good too. He has my favourite delivery of the scene in which Le Bret chastises Cyrano for risking his life sending letters.

De Guiche is complicated. I think productions often make him too pathetic and laughable or too bad, so bad it makes the last act kind of not make sense. The 1950 one, the 1990 French one, the Kevin Kline one and the Solès one are all good, but I am not passionate for any of them either.

And basically that's it!

#I'm sorry for such a long reply‚ it wasn't my intention. In fact I tried to keep it short but oops #As an extra I'll say that the Japanese film based on Cyrano‚ Life of an Expert Swordsman‚ has a quite good main trio #The Christian character is pretty‚ noble and kind. The Roxane character is smart and well-versed in poetry and a writer in her own right #I loved when productions enhance these aspects of these characters #Kline isn't a bad Cyrano‚ but he is a bit too unbelievable to me. He is too pretty being too old. I already don't like these characters #being old because it makes it lose some sense (they're idiots in part because they are young) but he is so fit for a ~60yo which is like... #Really? The nose? A young man with the same traits is more believable to be self-conscious and think himself unlovable I'd say #I like that Kline comes off at times as a bit cruel and violent and I think it works well with how he is a lot of fun #But at times he is so much fun it ruins the mood‚ although this is a problem of the production in general and of it being based #on Burgess' translation‚ which is something I could ramble about on its own and that makes me kinda mad #I think Depardieu on the other hand falls short on being fun. He tries so hard it isn't funny and it often feels a bit pathetic to me #but not in the way Cyrano is meant to be. On the other hand‚ I felt Depardieu was too full of himself in this film and was too aware #of being he protagonist. The thing about Cyrano is that he doesn't think he is #All in all‚ the more I watch this film the less I like it and his portrayal of Cyrano. I also don't like their Christian and Roxane #(although she isn't as bad as the Klein production of Roxane‚ who is for me among the worst) #I'm not sold at all on the 2021 Roxane either‚ and this Cyrano is so much the dashing tragic hero that he isn't funny #which is one of Cyrano's main characteristics. So I don't like the 2021 Cyrano a lot either. But that's not due to the acting‚ #but because the musical does a poor work at being an adaptation of the play and its characters I'd say #The worst Cyrano out of the ones I've seen is perhaps the one in the Italian production I've mentioned that had a Christian I liked #Their Roxane was awful too but iirc Le Bret was good and Ragueneau was decent #I'm not into the Podalydès Cyrano at all. One of the Cyranos I enjoy the least I must admit. But at least he isn't that Italian one #I conclusion‚ and I always feel kinda sectarian‚ everyone should watch the Benoit Solès version #The José Ferrer film is popular enough not to mention #I talk too much #Cyrano de Bergerac

[invisibleoctopus]

hate feeling like a fucking conspiracy theorist for being anti diet anti stomach surgery and shit when its literally supported by actual science that the act of trying to lose weight or taking away your ability to digest food is whats actually Bad For You

#le p2iigh #had my mood ruined bc the streamer i was watching started talking about this surgery she got that will force her to do keto #(bc she'll be unable to digest carbs) and im just like. why would you do this to yourself #well !! i was waiting for my friday the 13th to turn sour. here it fucking is. #bc im such a butthurt triggered snowflake about weight loss culture that i had to stop watching something bc uwu problematic #im only saying triggered in that '''''ironic'''' internalized ableism tag bc my anxiety in fact got triggered hance my mood being ruined #hate that this shit is so pervasive and that i cant just ask ppl to stop talking about their diets #because Im Fat and I Don't Diet so the least i can do is listen to other people talk about their diets so i can feel guilty about being fat #because you know what people think when a fat person asks people to stop talking about their diets.

[aparticularbandit]

...hey, did anybody else forget that agatha totally was going to bang eve in her office and eve was not comfortable with that happening during work hours and suggested they do that later

...did anybody else forget that later hasn't happened yet

...because i did. ><

#musings #agave stuff #just another thing to add to the list of things i mean to write with them #like agatha going on her business trip and eve not going with her #(and the shenanigans that ensue from that) #maybe senior center shenanigans happen once agatha gets back #(but also agatha getting back exhausted but eve has been desperately missing her for a week #and agatha goes to eve's place but she just does not stay awake maybe) #and also EVE STILL HAS NEVER BEEN TO AGATHA'S HOUSE #and also brendan walking in on them #also at some point they explore kink but where does that start #also the growing pains of brendan being back— #wait that's probably when eve ends up going to agatha's house for the first time #because eve wants agatha so bad and brendan is always around and eve just feels uncomfortable with #there can't be the same sort of spontaneity because brendan's always there!! #just ruining the mood!! #how can she have sex with agatha in the kitchen when brendan could walk in at any moment and take an apple and walk back out without notice #and still ruin the mood!! #...yeah that tracks that's when eve goes to agatha's house for the first time #and i don't even think agatha invited her and i think she's super uncomfortable with her being there #and eve will end up having to confront just how much agatha is NOT over cian #which...will lead to some other stuff too