#and i thought they were bad in english

[carolinelikesdinner]

Me having to genuinely pause the audiobook after Kendra or Seth say something that aged Really Poorly for the 10th time in one hour

#i get it was 2006 but i feel like at least some of this was bad even then 💀 #seth laughing at coulter being misogynistic….thats not my son!!!!!!!! #i raised you better than this 😔 #'and here i thought you were just the chinese housemaid' #'do you speak english' #'his skin was the closest to truly black she had ever seen' #'do you have any drinks from egypt' #please. god. #😕 #- #fablehaven #kendra sorenson #seth sorenson

[screwpinecaprice]

I know it’s not a question but i can’t help but appreciate the fact that you draw adult Steven as a chubby guy! We big boys need some positive representation in here. Also, i’ve been following you for almost a year now!

Btw sorry for my English lol.

Hi! It's very pleasing to know you've been around for as long! 😁😁😁 I absolutely appreciate the appreciation! And no worries, your English is super fine! 😁 (Relatable actually. I am also apologizing in advance if I can't exactly have my point clearly across because I'm not well at English myself! lmao)

It took me quite some time to learn how to draw chubby characters but it's so satisfying to have eventually. ( *`u*) (I mean, there's still so much to learn, but still.)

Having a chubby main protagonist is so wonderful to have. And a good kid at that. (Ngl I'm attracted to kindness. haha So of course it's very important to me that he's fat AND kind.)

Also design-wise, I personally think it fits his character so well. Soft and huggable, shaped like a friend. Thick arms to hug people with snuggly. Body wide like a shield. etc. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

And I just really like to capture these elements when I draw him as an adult. Also that it's just fun to draw.

Simply personal thoughts about it, nothing against any other ways he's being portrayed by others of course.

#And it's not even because English isn't my first language. Just generally bad at language. RIP #I had this conversation with someone once where they headcanon he'd get lower back pains if he slim down because of how his gem will #poke or stab his spine #I really like that he's chubby/fat just because. and that he's happy and confident about it #but him being fat not entire by choice is an interesting angle to look at. #I mean obviously he's naturally chubby because of DNA too but you get when I mean. or I hope you do. ;u; #Yo I had a theory.... or at least a headcanon about how his gem is arranged inside his body and how it's practically designed so it can be #passed down eventually without killing him. But I never get to a cohesive written explanation about it so I kept procrastinating. #I like to think the Pink Diamond gem will become like an heirloom. But I digress. #Steven Quartz Universe #Connie Maheswaran #I guess implied connverse #connverse #TFW growing up in media where 'look at us we're different but we are all friends!' And the differences were just personalities and status i #society but the body shapes are practically the same. 😆 #They were the same shape because the merch used the same mold. ^^; But I think that contributed to messing up my perception. #Like. The level of unawareness I had in drawing fat characters is crazy back then. #when I thought I drew a chubby character but the reality was that she was still slim! I still have her saved in my Deviant Art account #Nobody would've known because she's my OC. #If I were to argue with that past me that she's not chubby. Past me would be extremely confused because she is totally convinced that she #drew a chubby character. Mind you I was above 18 then too. #I had another OC I wanted to be really chunky but I was so bad at it that I found an excuse why she's so slim so I can avoid drawing chunky #I did eventually made her chunky but I almost never posted any of my OCs lol. She also have a black and pink theme. 🤔 #Same with skin color but it happened in my own Sona. I have a tan skin tone and I thought I gave my Sona the same skin...but like... Bruh. #I'm even looking at it now. That is kinda pale. RIP #It still baffles me how different I've been seeing thing in the past. Eugh I'm digressing again. :/ #sc answers #ask #luisnavarro04 #meme

[radlegowaffle]

now that we have our own lil housing system, sky should implement a mail or letter system

#i need to tell my friend who probably passed out irl that we can do stuff later I DONT WANT TO LEAVE THEM #THEYRE 16 HOURS AHEAD OF ME I CANT STAY HERE ALL NIGHT MY IPAD IS GETTING INSANELY HOT #I WISH I COULD THOUGH #sky: cotl #sky: children of the light #s:cotl #thatskygame #sky children of the light #sky cotl #rad.txt #met them doing dailies and they were just following me #theyre so nice ;;-;; #theyre also japanese and the in game translating is so nice #i feel so bad its an extra step for them but slightly easier for them to talk in their native tongue #also flex some of my japanese for the first time ever 😎 (literally basic sentences) #its so cute though. we both go back and forth saying stuff in japanese and english #we were looking for winged light to go through eden and i think they fell asleep irl #now we're both just passed out by the doors in valley #its so loud i wish i went somewhere quieter or with nicer music #i hope theyre doing okay #also never thought about how 'rad' would translate into japanese until today

[derpinette]

english used to be the normie filter & how you could tell someone was a Trve Internethead but after the DAMNED 2020 quarantine for obvious reasons EveryBody & They Momma is acceptably fluent so now i have to learn swedish or something. -_-

#already been spending time this past year & a half i only need someone to actually speak it with IRL for maximum efficiency #technically i want to say 2019 people were already turning to english at least in my city. 7 year old me would be so happy but #ARRRRRRGHHHHHHH #YOU ARE POSERS I HAVE NOTHING IN COMMON WITH YOU & I NEVER WILL. has me feeling so ♯DECEIVED #native english speakers will probably never understand this feel #speaking english now is just as cringe as i thought being francophone was a decade ago Yes even as a child i was against normies #i was forcibly taught.by my millennial older brother i had no choice but to abide by that line of thought & so here i am today #well he was right. not anymore he ain't but he used to be #but technically you can say this new wave of self taught anglophones are going against the current & remnants of colonialism so well #it is a good thing objectively i just miss the ease of recognizing Real back in the day TT_TT like you just KNEW they shared your interests #& weirdness they knew your references it said something about what their social status likely was too ETC ETC. But not anymore... #i enjoyed it tho i had a bestfriend whom i mostly spoke english with & we were known for it we were outcasts #i distinctly remember this fag who got so mad at us & harassed us for it during middle school recess. like fluency was a bad thing #we were not even gossiping about him Altho we should have been. & that was the best part is that it was a barrier #so you could talk about anything out loud & nobody would be able to understand you & at the time it was just us & our older siblings #+their friends

[notjusthespongenextdoor]

Every single post about the american education system, at least, that's like "you did learn this in school you just weren't paying attention lol" severely overestimates the amount of things the average usamerican is actually taught in school

#spongesound.txt #one of my English classes was taught by a guy who decided to just read out loud one of the books he was currently reading #because he thought it was interesting #it got so bad that the STUDENTS went and complained to the other teachers that the class was a waste of time #and we weren't reading anything #and then suddenly we started reading some Shakespeare plays in that class by some strange coincidence! i wonder what happened lmfao #(the english teacher then proceeded to constantly explain the extremely simple sentences to us #and then when it got to the really complex ones that were hard to understand he just glossed right over them #like hey my guy. do you actually know anything about this or.) #sj stuff ????

[bogkeep]

this may be something i might change my mind about later, but i don't actually Hate artificially generated aesthetic pictures that are like "fungus themed couch" "art noveau inspired camera" "stained glass bathtub" "gothic style platic chairs" or "really fancy sky" tbh. like i think there's lots of room for playing around with ideas and concepts using - applying some good faith here - public domain source photos or otherwise ethically/consensually acquired images. what DOES drive me up the wall is that every time i come across a set of pictures like that there's NO mention that it's artificially created. sometimes there's no source listed at all, which is really common for ~*Aesthetic Pictures*~ anyway. what's worse is when it's like, [Name Of Creator, Name of Collection, 2023] as if it's a legitimate art exhibit, with no mention of the program used to create the pics. that's actually pretty upsetting - the underhandedness of it all. ugh.

#my general current opinion is that i have nothing against ai as tools in and of itself #my big problem is that we live in a capitalist hellscape where the powers that be and the general population has no respect for craftmanshi #and all the problems artists already experience are exuberated by AI and how it's being used so far #you can't??? replace artists with AI?????? that is fundamentally misunderstanding what an artist does #it's not to Create Something Pretty it's to Create Something With Intention #'once AI can generate a movie it's over' an AI could only create an extremely bland and formulaic movie #like a marvel superhero movie or a disney live action remake. which are created by exploiting CGI labour and pumping out content constantly #an algorithm could never create everything everywhere all at once or undertale or something that has anything to say #(fun fact there's a recent scandal in norwegian schools where they made fake poems by a fake poet for english exams for students to analyse #and the poems are SO BAD the english teachers thought they were created by AI. they are ALLEGEDLY written by a real person but the problem #is the Exact Same as if it had been artificially created. it's a fucking venn diagram. it's a lack of respect for craft #and lacking workers rights.) #sorry about this the discourse is exhausting and i try to avoid it #people kept sending me the fungi couch :( i really like the fungi couch :(

[yuuma-reincarnated]

Guys I'm tired and glad it's Saturday, also when you are sick don't stay up late, not only did I stay up kinda late I woke up early. I'm also glad it's Saturday because the kids at my school are annoying, especially the ones in my band class, most of the annoying ones are boys tho

#band kids #I play clarinet #i'm being serious #some kids were kicked out for being bad #The kids in my English class are really nice thought

[meatmensch]

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#thinking again abt the horrible things he said to me bc some of them were so stupid and mean i will never truly get over it until i go to #his house with the hammer!! #'why are you interested in the yiddish language' 'well first of all most yiddish speakers are dead it's a dying language it's a fucking #murdered language and i think it's important to preserve plus it's cool' 'well by that logic most english speakers are dead too' here's #what i should have done in that scenario. get up grab my things grab my keys and leave. versus what i did. continued to try to explain to #him why i'm passionate about the culture for hours and he never truly got it. #and it was so funny because the next day HE was all mopey. i was like 'what's your problem' he was like 'i think i feel bad about some of #the stuff i said last night...' here's what i should've said. 'yeah you rat bastard you should feel really bad you suck i hate you beg on #your knees for forgiveness.' versus what i did. a simple dose of the silent treatment #i will never get over this i will never get over this because no one i have cared so much about and thought was so kind and understanding #has been so stupid he's just an antisemite. i was like he's not a nazi he's just dumb. girl when u gotta ask urself 'is he a nazi' get out #of there pronto. and of course i feel stupid for still having feelings about this a year later. but i don't need to feel that way it's ok. #ok i'm tired. goodnight #personal log #back again. reread the texts i sent to my best friend immediately after that conversation like righttt i'm not crazy that WAS mean. thank #you melanie from a year ago!

[diogoatjota]

Cant even yap about uni because id need to post an half an hour voice note on here

#nothing bad btw i just want to yap 😭 #esp about pre and proto history #actually let me tell you ONE story i went to my british pronunciation class today and when the teacher read out the names with mine (my name #is jana btw) jjj.... yyy....yyy and i had to correct her not even an embryo of an attempt to jana [ CROATIAN LASTNAME] #and she said oh! i thought that was a smudge 😊 A SMUDGE IN THE SHAPE OF A PERFECT V ON A PRINTED OUT PAPER? #as in š or č or ž i mean #and THEN she wanted us to introduce ourself and say if we were abroad (in an english speaking country for au pair etc) #and i said i am from CROATIA so i spend a lot of time THERE and she literally went i dont care about that i didnt ask :| #TWO THINGS LADY YOU LITTTTTERALLY DID AN MICROAGRESSION IK YOU DIDNT MEAN IT THAT WAY #SECOND THING I MIGHT HAVE A CROATIAN ACCENT WHILE SPEAKING ENGLISH THEN INSTEAD OF A GERMAN OJE #im soooo mad because she lowkey is fun etc but after she mansplained that she wanted to hear about english countries #i said yes i know :) and we STARED at eachother #GOD HOW EMBARRASSING! BUT DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHY I DID IT??? LIKE I CANT NOT SAY THAT!!!!! AND NOW IVE BEEN #SITTING LIKE A SIM THATS CONSTANTLY EMBARRASSED ALL DAY ON THAT STUPID INTERACTON #INFRONT OF THE ENTIRE CLASS #sham!s rambles

[da-proti-toku-grem]

feeling like a total asshole today 👍

#an aunt's mom passed away yesterday night #i didn't really know her that much just spoke to her a few times for the typical merry christmas & happy new year you know #so when my mom told me i felt bad for my aunt bc i knew they were really close but i don't feel SAD #but my parents seemed to be like so shocked and sad and my little brother even started crying #and i felt absolutely nothing #idek what my mom saw in my face but she went like 'don't you feel anything?' and like wtf am i supposed to feel #like. i'm sorry for my aunt and everything but i just????? #that already made me feel like an absolute asshole but now we have to go there (like 2hours away by car) #and because i am an adult now i *have* to go to the funeral home (?) today and to the funeral tomorrow #and i REALLY don't want to and thought it's making me so fucking anxious bc i haven't been there since my grandma passed away 2 years ago #i really don't want that feeling that i felt back then to come back #not right now #not when i've been starting to feel a bit better this past week #but i'm already failing at that because they started to come back the moment i was told i have to go #and i feel like a fucking asshole because my aunt's mom literally passed away and she (and her whole family) must be heartbroken right now #and all i can think about is that i'm anxious #i'm anxious to go back there. i'm anxious just thinking that i'll have to express my condolences to people that i don't even know #i'm anxious because i'll have to TALK to people and at least try to look a bit SAD but i can't just fake it #bc if i don't look sad my brain tells me that i'm an asshole that doesn't have feelings like apparently everyone around me has #but if i fake it my brain tells me that i'm an asshole bc why tf do i have to fake my fucking personality #why can't i just express my fucking feelings like normal people do and the only thing that i know how to do is fucking complain #like. i know i rant a lot here but it's literally the only place where i talk about my feelings #i NEVER talk about my feelings with anyone because idk HOW to do it #i have like a million things in my mind that i want to tell my mom or my therapy for example but when i finally convince myself to do it #i just CAN'T. the thoughts won't leave my mouth because i don't know how to phrase them properly #so nothing ever leaves my mind unless i make a post here bc apparently writing my thoughts in english (my 2nd language) #is easier than talking in spanish #and at least if i write them here they don't just stay bottled up in my mind #but i'm too tired of myself and my stupid brain that tells me that i do everything wrong :/ #i'm gonna shut up now bc i once again reached the tag limit

[timegears-moved]

hellooooo, totk rant anon here again! i'm not feeling so good right now so words hard, but i can't just not send in an ask when you've gotten to the terrako credits/true end and the dlc, both of which i love dearly!

fun dub fact: depending on which language you're listening to the terrako revival cutscene in, revali either chuckles at terrako's antics OR sighs in relief. honestly not sure which one i prefer because both options are really sweet?? good revali moment either way!

and yeah!! revali's part in the credits is still incredibly cute!! though i also love the champion's ballad reference at the end. it's got to be a reference because the characters' positions match the final champion's ballad cutscene almost perfectly. (except for all the other characters being there, of course. special shoutout to rudania climbing all over hyrule castle and no one doing anything about it. they're gonna wake ganondorf up 100 years early if they're not careful.)

and now... the dlc. it's got quite possibly The best revali content in the game (the ultimate proof that he's good with kids! and he glances at teba right before he starts laughing too so it seems like he might have caught on to the fact that teba was worried about tulin making a good impression with him and did it on purpose to lighten the mood...) but having played that prior to totk's release definitely made my disappointment about revali not being referenced at all worse. there was so much buildup in that one cutscene for tulin's role in totk ('someday i'll master the great eagle bow', 'it won't be long before you're master of the wind just like me', etc.) that it definitely felt like totk dropped the ball there in particular.

anyway, on a more positive note, there's actually a compilation on youtube of all dubs of that cutscene if you are interested in that! (or if you just want to hear teba awkwardly try to pretend he's coughing and not laughing and/or revali & company laughing their heads off in 6 different languages.)

aaaaaa i hope you feel better soon anon <333 take care of yourself!!

OH MY GOD??????? i just tried listening to the japanese version and it's a little hard to tell with the others laughing but i think???? i can hear it???????? you're right though regardless it's very sweet either way. revali being secretly nice is gonna fucking kill me.

and yeah when i was watching it i saw how the positions perfectly matched the picture from the champion's ballad perfectly!!! also what the fuck rudania hasn't hyrule castle been through enough recently jahdghdwohwhd

part of me wants to say that the reason revali is so soft on terrako is because he views it as a little kid. honestly shout out to aoc for making "revali has a huge soft spot for kids" canon because i saw it being tossed around in fanon a few times before aoc came out so to see it fully realized is kinda insane. also i noticed that he glances over at teba right after tulin thanks him and it comes across like a nervous glance?? like he's not used to the praise?????? and god i knooooow totk was such a huge disappointment in this regard. not mentioning him was already bad enough but retconning his legacy to be about a sage who you would literally have to hold me at gunpoint to force me to care about is actually horrific to me.

watching it rn!! teba trying to stifle his laugh is so goddamn funny (also i love how that aoc got writing young kids right with how funny and cute tulin is).

#asks #if you told me a few years ago i would come to really appreciate how aoc wrote revali after That scene made me quit the game i would've #thought you were insane #That scene is still like. bad to me but for the rest of game he's actually really great #and i know now that a lot of it still has to do with how the english translation took some Ls with his character #anonymous

[wild-at-mind]

I’ve been thinking about the reason I feel so weird about people on tumblr who aren’t living in the UK making jokes about how great it would be if the UK split up and abandoned England (where I live) and made the great Celtic aliance and whatnot....like, I acknowledge I really have no good social justice approved reasons for feeling weird about this. I’m English in England and I do understand the long history of England oppressing and colonising all the other nations. This isn’t in question. I’m sure it would be better for all the other nations if they left England, and if there was a way it could be done very easily and quickly for everyone, then I’d say do it in a heartbeat. It feels really daft of me to be like thinking about actual logistics because of a fucking joke post which no one really needs, but I always do for some reason and it’s just so stressful to think about. The UK is fucking falling apart right now, it can’t manage anything. Our last Prime Minister lasted 49 days. No one has been elected as PM for like a decade, they all just take over from the last failure in this fucking endless conservative government. It feels never ending. I feel like it was also really easy for people outside the UK to judge Brexit as a terrible idea, but from the inside it was never that simple. It was a really bad idea for sure, and it caused this massive influx of xenophobia, but while it was going on it was all so complicated and there was so much shit on both sides. You would think it would be easy to say like ‘I don’t want to be on the side of xenophobia so I’m anti-Brexit’, but then you would get accused of being in an ivory tower and not affected by the employment issues concerned caused by EU workers or w/e. Someone would write a thinkpiece calling you classist or something, using the exact same emotive language people deploy all the time on here for their good causes. It’s not so easy to be like ‘ok this is good emotive language making me think the right thing, and this is bad emotive language making me think the wrong thing’. In reality, of course, it was never a case of just working class people wanting Brexit and just middle class people wanting remain, that was more fucking propaganda and it was sooooo much more complicated than that. I hope this is starting to get across the problem a bit. A few people were even arguing that Brexit was good because more workers of colour could come into the country if we stopped having so many white EU workers so Brexit could actually be anti-racist. (As if the current government would willingly do anything like that...lol.) What I’m trying to say is it split the country in so many ways, it was a really ugly time. I have heard similar things from people living in Scotland about the last push for Scottish Independance. Whether you were pro or anti, it got ugly and caused massive painful rifts. Now, i do think at some point Scotland will gain independance and I will cheer them on. But it won’t be an easy split, because they never are. The other thing I think gets glossed over is that we aren’t a very big country, of course there’s a lot of movement, many people in England have very recent roots in Scotland, Wales and/or NI. When you make it more distant roots, then it’s a vast percentage. And it’s worth noting that identifying as English specifically, if you live in England, has some connotations of racism and xenophobia against immigrants. (England for the English, that kind of fucked up thing.) People who do not want those connotations who live in England will tend to use the term British to self describe. I don’t know what it means to be ‘English’, specifically, without racism coming into the frame pretty quickly. I think that’s why these posts also read a bit as if annexing England will free the other nations from racism, whether or not that was the intention.

#uk politics #english politics #politics #this post was probably a bad idea i know #i'm being 100% sincere in it if that helps it's not irony poisoned #i think it may be something to do with the fact that it's always weird when people who don't live where you live talk about it #i remember in 2011 during the protests in egypt my housemate who was anglo-egyptian and had lived there for several years #was really bothered by the press coverage and i think this was part of the reason why #because he often couldn't really identify what was bothering him other than the focus on brits leaving (v fair) #but it wasn't just that i think it was also the way Egypt's politics were talked about from an outside perspective #obviously i;m not saying the UK is like Egypt! #in any way other than this specific thing #americans also quite rightly hate the way other nations use them as the butt of a joke about the country being regressive #like there aren't real people there who are living it #it makes me cringe tbh i hate that brits and other nations are so obsessed with the 'lol Americans!' jokes #so there you go that's my ill thought out post

[vogelmeister]

omg your tags on the reblog of my post - that's word for word how i feel and i HATE it, things have felt artificial to me since 1989, reputation was better but ever since lover it's felt like that 1000x more idk.. it just sucks but yeah you're not the only one feeling that way :')

THANK YOU! It's really nice to see that someone else has been feeling this way and I really begun to think deeply into why I feel like this. And you're right, it has really been since rep that it has felt... idk, less authentic.

I remember during the red and 1989 era, taylor was doing a lot of shit that actually showed how much she loved us. And by all means, she didn't have to, but it was little things such as the hidden notes in her album lyric books that made me feel a bit more connected to her. Not to mention stuff like swiftmas, the secret sessions and of course t-party all made us feel like one big family and that she was actually thankful for us. She didn't gain anything out of this, it was all "for the fans" and it made being a swiftie loads of fun, especially those hidden messages, which lbr costed nothing to keep doing. (1989 was her last i think)

Nowadays, when she does it, it feels more calculated and less authentic and I get maybe it's a safety thing that she can't do secret sessions and swiftmas etc anymore, but now even when she does things for the fans, it's stuff like releasing loads of versions of the one album so we all buy it (see, the midnight clock), and because we have this relationship we built up with her, we feel we owe our loyalty. It feels like she does these things to show she cares, but she wants our money in return. And believe me, there's other ways you can show it. The wiping of her social media defs slightly killed her authenticity, I think. Even though I understand why she did it, it certainly didnt help her relationship with the fans or it's authenticity. I do believe she still is thankful for us, but I can't help but notice the business aspect creeping in, and I just wish a lot of swifties knew you don't have to buy in to it. She's human, she has flaws, you don't have to always defend her, or buy her merch. It's almost business at this point, and I hate it.

I hate it. And I hate it more because I almost understand why its like this.

#during red taylor could say she was thankful for us and i would believe her #now i believe her but with a hefty grain of salt!!! #i do think the merch thing can also be an issue with swifties bc apparently if you don’t own her merch #or buy all 55 copies of folklore you’re not a fan #i had a friend who was constantly telling me i was less of a fan and she always wanted my merch #the merch was my red tee from when she was in sydney and even then that brings up something else because her merch quality has gone down #and the prices have gone up and that shirt from 2013 has survived. i mean it is defs aging but it's survived the trenches #but like taylor is fully playing into this and ppl fall for it bc she apparently loves us #i may have been 12 then but at least it didn’t feel like she was constantly trying to get me to buy shit #there were lots if bad things about being a swiftie then but hey at least Taylor’s love actually felt genuine!!! #and not like she wanted my money as well as my loyal #loyalty** wow lekker bezig vandaag #also i do buy her albums on cd but thats more a me thing its a tradition with a friend i had that i plan on continuing with speak now tv #bc i like owning physical copies #also sometimes i struggle with organising my thoughts so i hope that all makes sense and nothing is lost #english is my first language i just am slightly neurodivergent #i only just organised my thoughts on loreens eurovision win. im still sad abt it but im happy for her. #also hello fellow southern hemisphere person!!

[morgana-pendragon]

can i verbalise a selfish thought for a moment. dont read the tags if thatll bother you or anything

#what with all this talk of colonisation and whose land what is it does make me wonder about what the bigger voices in these convos would #have to say about my country. like im genuinely curious bc idk how to categorise us at all. context bc i dont expect anyone to know: #the indigenous people of the land i live on were the arawaks & lucayans. however when this land was first colonised they were all genocided #and who are now known as 'bahamians' were brought over on ships. and then somehow we went from the spanish to the english who colonised us #as well. now my worry is purely hypothetical bc we are an independent and sovereign state right so there's no 'threat' #but would we be considered 'indigenous' ? i can't think we would?? #but maybe my issue is that i'm looking at this philosophically rather than politically. cause politically we probably would #but while the us-israel-colonisation convo is a political one the stances are philosophical so ?? #like (again. hypothetically) if the same thing were to happen here ig i just wonder how we would be dealt with #and then the land ownership convo as well baffles me & it has for a while. since at least 2020 when the whole 'cottagecore is bad' convo #took place with the arguments that the aesthetic romanticised stolen land and i wondered even then like ? are we in the same position?? #is the land still considered stolen if the people inhabiting it were displaced themselves?? and didn't steal it?? #and moreover if the people it was stolen from no longer exist to take it back?? man idk #im stunningly bad at articulating my own thoughts so if this was a mess im sorry and thanks for making it this far #and also pls tell me if this comes off in the same light as americans making this about their election. i really dont want it to. im just #thinking. i guess idk #stop talking abbie

[aurantia-ignis]

Every now and then I see screencaps that people take of C-dramas with English subs and...... Good heavens. The translations are so bad and inaccurate and often sound awkward/unnatural... that I wonder if non-chinese viewers actually understand the writing/story they just watched....

#I feel so bad for everyone involved #I saw someone say that Till The End of the Moon's writing was bad #and my initial thought was 'wow your taste absolutely sucks' #but now I wonder if it's actually because the subs didn't manage to convey the actual story properly #TTEOTM was not a masterpiece overall #but it did a lot of things right #particularly in the characterization of tantai jin #Blue Whisper was spectacular apart from a bit of pacing drag in the middle #but no one ever talks very much about it #and maybe that's because the subs were inaccurate too #Mandarin Chinese is not an easy language to sub into English #to keep the cps low enough and yet keep the poetry in the words and also not sound weird #but damn #I get that it's probably partly because the subbers are given tight deadlines and a script without much explanation or context #but what is the point of subbing something so badly that people walk away with only a shallow understanding of the story #such an absolutely pity #my thoughts

[yuribalisms]

Essentially what it is all boiling down to is I have fully realized I am bad at being a person, that will always be true, and I don’t know how to handle that

#I’m going to be depressing and self depreciating in the tags so. fair warning to anyone who reads them #I’ve known for a while now that I don’t know what to do with my life. I’ve thought of a few ideas but none of them seem to be working. and I #think a good chunk of what it’s boiling down to is that I am quite literally just stupid when it comes to an actual useful real life skills. #and it’s frustrating because I can’t even talk to ppl I know and confide in them that I feel dumb and stupid without them being like ‘nooooo #don’t say that! you’re not stupid! you were top of your class in hs!’ (that is their favorite thing to fall back on) but like. the thing is #I wasn’t even smart in hs. sure I did good but that’s because I cheated my way through and got lucky a lot. I never actually learned anythin #I never understood what I was being taught or how to apply it. I was good at English and art classes and that was it those were the only one #I truly felt I knew what I was doing in and grasped the subject matter well. I know I’m good at those two things and smart when it comes to #those subjects. but the thing is. in real life. both of those are useless skills. I can’t make money with them and it is highly unlikely #that will ever change. and yes I know not being able to make money with it doesn’t mean it’s useless but like it kinda does. capitalism #sucks. I know that. we all do. but that doesn’t change that we live in a capitalist society and it’s unlikely to actual change in my lifetim #so I’m stuck to try and figure out how to live in it. but I have no skills I can make money with so I will live my entire life poor and #miserable and working dead end jobs that make me want to kill myself. I’m not good at socialization I’m so fucking bad at it so I can’t work #any kind of job that hinges on networking or sales or human interaction which is MOST JOBS but I’m also too stupid for anything related to #STEM. I tried two different stem degrees and flunked out of both of them because I am a FUCKING IDIOT and I know there’s no point in trying #to go back to school for another one. but no degree in anything I naturally have a knack for will help me find a decent well paying job. ill #just be wasting my money to go to school for something like that. and then like. I don’t even think I’ll ever get married and I def won’t #ever have kids. so I can’t even put any hopeful stock in just being happy with a family one day. I know a lot of ppl who don’t like their #careers but they’re fine with that because they’re happy with their family but like I don’t even have that and I won’t ever have that. I #have NOTHING to strive for and NOTHING I am good at that’s meaningful I’m going to fail at having a career and a family and I know that #doesn’t mean I won’t be happy in theory but by societal standards I am and always will be a fucking failure of a person and since I do live #in this society yeah. it’s kinda fucking true. and I don’t know what to do about that. I’m just tired. I’m tired of being afraid and #struggling and going through patches of wanting to kill myself because of this because like what’s the point. I’ll never have anything #better so what in the actual hell is the point of me existing. and I know I’m being ridiculous and my brain is eating itself and none of #this is probably even true but that doesn’t change that it FEELS like it is a lot of times and esp right now and I don’t know what to do #to anyone who reads this I’ll be fine tbh prob as soon as tomorrow like dw about it I just need to get it out so I stop stewing in it. #I’m just. yeah. not having a great time rn but I left work so I’m gonna cry and then maybe sleep for a bit and hope that helps #kaz rambles