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lovely-stalker · 11 months

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MY SOULMATE

Ilang araw ko na tinatype ito, to translate all my feelings and thoughts that I have into words. Ilang araw na kong ganito, gusto ko na lang tumulala araw araw. lol

di ko alam na possible sakin magkafeelings to someone kahit I have GF. Di ako magmamayabang pero I can say na isa ako sa matitinong tao sa mundo na I won't even look at the people, or even magka friends kasi focus ako sa GF ko. I'm not even going to any social gathering kasi i prefer na ung time ko ehh bigay ko na lang sa GF ko. That's how extreme I am.

At first, I was in denial. I thought isa lang siya sa mga taong nakakagets lang sakin dahil sobrang pareho lang namin. Meron din naman na instances and bagay bagay na di kami pareho pero we complement each other, we are like 2 pieces of puzzle that fit together. All I can say is the connection I have with her is undeniable. this is proven, kasi may mga taong nakapaligid samin na nagsasabi na tingin pa lang namin ehh nagkakaintindihan na kami, or we complete each other sentences. yes, Ganun siya ka extreme. I thought, I'm not going to find someone again like this after my 4yrs ex, but unfortunately pareho kaming may GF.

Though 1 thing for sure, she's genuinely my bestfriend. I can tell everything to her, I can be myself in front of her. I can tell whatever in my mind and in my heart without being judge. I found my peace and comfort from her. Yung feeling na napaka safe ng heart ko sa kanya, na, I can be a baby anytime I want. I trust all her words and her mind kaya every feedback and advice from her means so much to me. We started calling each other bes, or like twin sa sobrang pareho namin. It's pure friendship from my part (maybe she's too) super comfortable lang din talaga na I can tell her even the worst part of myself. It's funny kasi she's older than me at usually and unconciously nagkakagusto ako sa younger sakin, kasi I have this in me na gusto ko ako nagdadala ng relationship but if siya ung magdadala ng relationship I dont mind.

I'm questioning Him bakit ganitong situation ko natagpuan ung soulmate ko, but then I realized I'm very thankful to Him because he let me meet HER. Napaka swerte ko lang na makakilala itong napakaganda, napakabaet at napakatalinong nilalang. I just really love her brain, the way she think and how strong she is. I know she's unwell in a lot of aspects kaya I want to be that someone at least to support and give her happiness in my own simple way.

there's also this instance (di ko pa sinasabi sa kanya to kasi di din ako makamove on coz it's overwhelming at nakaka speechless) nung niyakap niya ko ng mahigpit, suddenly nagflash sa mata ko ung future namin. bigla ko nakita na magkasama kami na nagtratravel at magkatabi kami sa sofa kahit may kanya kanya kaming ginagawang work tapos nagcucuddle kami sa higaan. it's fucking scary at nakakaiyak but very satisfying sa puso. gahd, nakakaspeechless talaga.

It's tragic para kaming pinagtagpo pero di tinadhana, or like right person in a wrong time. Still kung di man sa life na to, sana sa another life or parallel universe. I know naman na we're both tied with our situations and our path right now, but obviously, I'm staying at her side whatever happens, kasi deep inside, i'm hoping and wishing someday, one day, magkaroon kami ng Chance... PUHON.

If EVER dumating man ung chance, it will not be easy, especially we need to consider a lot in our lives, but I hope and pray na whatever happens piliin namin ung isa't isa over anyone/ anything else.

My soulmate, you told me di mo ko derserve but you want to deserve me. Same, I WANT TO DESERVE YOU. Alam kong feeling mo na daming mali, kulang at gulo sa buhay mo ngayon, but please remember, that's what makes you, YOU at dun kita nagustuhan.

I love you and your flaws.

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blueteller · 2 years

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How I rate stuff (because, why not?)

I enjoy fiction a lot. While most of the time I don't strictly put things in categories (also, my tastes and opinions might change over time), I thought it would be fun to make a post about how I rate different series and works of fiction that I like – or don't like.

So here's a couple of examples, on the scale of 0-10:

(Remember this is based on my enjoyment, not objective criticism! Beside I'm a pretty lax critic, I truly start to dislike things only like, 3 and below. So have mercy on me! I'm just being honest)

10/10 - I have very few complaints, nothing more than nitpicks. Otherwise I enjoy everything about it. (Example: Avatar the Last Airbender - love everyhing about it)

9/10 - I have one major issue or a couple minor ones, but apart from that it's similar: I love it (My little Pony: Friendship is Magic - surprisingly, I love most of it)

8/10 - I have some issues which I consider visible, but still liked it a lot (Star Wars series - not all of it, but the best of it)

7/10 - I have a significant amount of issues, but still mostly liked it (Harry Potter series - my favorite bashing series, so many plot holes to tear through, it's hilarious)

6/10 - liked it, but probably wasn't a fan (Pokemon franchise - my childhood, but not nearly on the top of my list)

5/10 - I didn't dislike it, but I wasn't invested either (Star vs Forces of Evil - I liked the Eclipsa plotline at first but otherwise, ehh)

4/10 - something bugged me about this, so I dropped it (Attack on Titan - I'm like, nope, canibalism is a big no no for me, sorry)

3/10 - something bugged me and probably made me mad, definitely dropped it (the Twilight saga - the romance is GROSS, but at least it's so bad it's funny)

2/19 - I really don't like this and I have strong feelings about it! (Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian the movie - it's personal, they completely ruined one of my favorite books ever, why did they make Caspian and Peter into emo jerks??)

1/10 - oh I HATE this (that one Robinson Crusoe movie adaptation I saw once in class when I was 11, where they turned the MC racist for drama: I am still full of rage because that book was pretty cool, so like, whyyyy)

0/10 - I am in denial of its existence and happier that way. (Last Airbender Live Action Movie. There's no movie in Ba Sing Se.)

Other series I enjoyed:

Fullmetal Alchemist (Manga/Brotherhood): 10/10, very well structured, engaging, funny and 100% satisfying. Never gets old.

My Hero Academia: 10/10, love the world and the characters. Can't wait for the conclusion

The Chronicles of Narnia: 10/10, the first book series that wasn't for school that I ever read by myself. Still my favorite series of all time

Lord of the Rings: 9.5/10, I only love it less than max because it's very long and Narnia is my 10/10 fantasy series. Sorry LOTR, there can only be one favorite, even if I admit that LOTR is factually better quality-wise. I'm subjective, you know?

Danny Phantom: 7/10, it has many problems but the premise is GREAT and it has killer aesthetic. It's kinda unforgettable, even.

Some recenty found series:

Trash of the Count's Family: 10/10, recently found it, fell in love pretty fast. The characters alone are enough for me, but the story is honestly great as well

Solo leveling: 8/10, interesting, fun, simple in enjoyment. Not too long either. My biggest pitpick would be that the story was a bit simple, but it's exactly what it's supposed to be.

Suicide Hunter: 7/10, interesting, very funny at places, still too brutal for me (sooo much suicide and mindbreaking stuff... but I get why people like it).

Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint: 5/10, don't kill me for this, I have reasons! It is interesting, and I like most of the characters, but I'm just not a fan of the main plot. There's just something unappealing for me about the whole "gladiator premise" (where a superior power creates the scenario where random people are forced to kill each other). Same reason why I never liked the Hunger Games (which I'd probably rate 4/10) and I'll never watch Squid Game.

The S Classes That I raised: 6/10, it is interesting, fun and hilarious in many places, but the supporting cast somehow didn't quite click for me just yet. The rating might change in the future, who knows?

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