#and i'm yeah sure but remember that time he cheated on you with a 14 yo he should be in fucking jail

[bullshit-bulltrue]

☆ hawk talk 8/14/23 ☆

so i found out that my school practically treats PDA as The Big Bad Sin™️

like literally in our handbook it says it is NOT tolerated under ANY means

so like

even if i had the courage to hug my friends

i fucking can't

unless the monitors aren't paying attention but like

what if one day i'm like crying in the hallway and my bestie sees me and wants to give me a hug

but like they can't 0_0

and vice-versa

FUCK

okie. anyway.

lanie is out of town visiting family :(

BUT I STILL GOT TO EAT LUNCH WITH SOMEONE

and if you've been following along, you would know the person i ate lunch with is Delgado

✨️✨️✨️

we'll go back to that in a sec, i promise (highlight of my day)

so since it was an odd day i went to history & geo first

so we get there and we have a debate on whether school should start earlier/same time or later

and i of course backed up my reasoning with evidence unlike everyone else

they're all dumbasses

and the sleezy hoebags behind me started trying to fuck with my hair

but then i hit one of them <3

so then mr. m had us go over the fire drill and where to go in case of smth happening during his period

so we went outside and lined up where we would in case of an emergency

and then the desk buddy bitch asked for the answers to a quiz and i gave her the wrong ones <3

so then that was it for history & geo

andddd it turns out that delgado passes the math room on his way to his next period so i have to make sure i don't look like utter shit BEFORE MATH TOO

i felt bad tho bc i almost hit him 😭😭

so when i was walking towards the math room my back was turned to him so i obvi didn't know it was him when he tapped me on the shoulder

and it scared the crap outta me cus the recent school day (last friday) some dick did that to me and i hit him

and i thought it was the same guy

but it wasn't, it was delgado <3

and he just wanted to make sure we were still good for lunch and this is how the convo went:

d: *taps my shoulder* hey so lunch today, right?

me: *puts fist down after i realized it was him* yeah!

d: oh and also what do you have for first period?

me: [insert history & geo teacher's name]

d: oh cool. where you going next?

me: math with Mr. H. right here *points at door*

d: *groans* i just came back from math. that's my first fucking period 🙄

me: *laughs* ahh it's my 2nd. well, technically 3&4 but ykwim (if you need me to explain the schedules lmk)

d: Okay well i gtg

me: yeah me too, see you in like an hour or some shit *smiles and waves*

d: *smiles and waves back*

sooooo

then math

these bitches at my table

are fucking horrible

i'm trying to do a placement exam

and they keep talking

like BITCH I DID NOT MAKE IT TO AN ACCELERATED CLASS JUST FOR Y'ALL TO BE THE REASON WHY I FAILED

TAKE YOUR ASSES AND CHEAT ON THE EXAM SOMEWHERE ELSE HOES

I DO NOT HAVE TIME FOR YOUR BULLSHIT

"wElL Mr H sAiD wE CaN tAlK" "We ArEnT eVeN bEiNg LoUd"

SHUT THE FUCK UP

HE SAID WE CAN TALK ABOIT MATH AND UR LITERALLY TALKING ABOUT YO UGLY ASS FACE

so that was fun.

oh and also Mr. H (the teacher) draws so we can like give him a photo and he'll draw like the outline and give it back to us to color and then hang it up in the room!! so i'm gonna ask him if he can draw Stitch or smth so i can color it and hang it in the classroom!

yk if i remember lol

oh and like towards the end of class i went to the bathroom to fix myself up a little bit™️ bc on odd days i have

✨️english class✨️

after math <3

so i put on my favorite lipstick and tamed my hair a bit more and just made sure my clothes looked alright and shit lol

i also cleaned up my boots too while i was at it <3

i love my boots so much

i want moreee

like

actually i don't want more

i NEED more

if i had the money, i would be a doc martens addict and i'd have hundreds of pairs

but alas

bitches are expensive

*sads*

okeu anywayy

i get back to class and these hoes are still talking about the girliest shit ever i literally was going to kill myself if i had to listen to anymore of it

so then we started packing up and then we left

AND THENNNN

ENGLISH CLASS TIME

so we all lined up outside the door bc the teacher wasn't in yet (Mrs. K)

and i tried to stand next to him (delgado) but this bitch got in line RIGHT before me so she was in-between us :/

but thats alr cus he sorts slowed down in line and i caught up so we walked in the room around the same time

and i was wearing a shirt with a Mexican food place and Mrs. K was like "oh my gosh that's my favorite Mexican restaurant in [insert location]!!" and i was like "yeah its pretty good. well, for white people cooking the food. the only real Mexican food you get is from Mexico, or your mamás kitchen" and delgado looked at me like he knew lol so that's when he sorta started catching on that I'm Mexican too

it's nice not to have to tell someone about my ethnicity for once and them figuring it out on their own

so yeah <3

and we had to finish these state mandated tests bc we got only like halfway done on friday

so me and delgado were writing each other notes and doodles to help keep ourselves awake and not fall asleep during that godforsaken fucking test 😭😭

so after we got done (we finished our tests around the same time lol) Mrs. K let us kinds do our own thing as long as we weren't disruptive

so i read DPS and he was playing some game on his Chromebook

and it was so funny bc he had his chromebook on mute but you can tell when he lost and stuff bc he would make a fist and be like "noooo" really quietly

idk

it was funny to me, at least

and there was someone's alarm going off and it sounded like the beep a bomb makes before it goes off

and ofc my mind immediately went to JD <3

and then me, delgado, baseball guy, and d's short bestie all looked at each other like "you hear that 👀"

and then me and delgado crossed ourselves and said "el padre, el hijo y el espíritu santo" but he said it in english lol

and like he's so sweet

so not only did he double check we were still eating lunch together in the hallway but he also asked again at the end of english class

ik it may not seem like anything to you but it means a lot to me

bc i'm always the one to make sure plans are still plans and i feel annoying for asking so many times and that i'm bothering the other person and it just feels nice to have someone else take the time to ask, yk?

so it also turns out our lockers aren't that far away from each other's so even though he's English Class Crush™️ he also qualifies as Hallway Crush™️

speaking of hallway crushes

yk Luca? his locker and also Mikey's (Michael, but we all call him Mikey) lockers are close-ish to mine

so yeah that's great/sarc

it is, in fact, not great.

BECAUSE THAT MEANS I CANNOT RISK LOOKING LIKE SHIT IN THE MORNING

i mean i make sure i always look somewhat good before i leave the house

BUT STILL

anyway

we go to lunch and his friend Alex comes along and im like ooo cool i get to meet his friend

and i sat down and saved us some seats while they went to get the food from the lunch people

so when they come and sit down i was hoping that i would sit next to delgado bc that was the whole fucking point of eating lunch with him

but Alex sits his ass right in between us

but like ig Alex is a protective friend or smth?? idk but like yeah i didn't take offense or anything bc id be the same way

we were stil able to talk tho <3

and anyway they come and sit down and the lunch for the 14th was grilled cheese

but lemme tell you

that, was in fact, not grilled cheese

it looked like two soggy pieces of bread with orange food coloring in the middle

that cheese? was NOT cheese

and i was like oh hell nah no way is Boy Bestie™️ eating whatever the fuck that government looking waste was

so i was like dude have what you want out of my lunch, there's no way you're eating that on my watch

and i was like hey Alex you can go ahead and eat my lunch too

so Alex took the dragonfruit and smth else i think

and delgado had the tortillas mi mamá packed for me

again, i wasn't hungry at all because i had thrown up earlier but i forced myself to eat something before i passed out

oh and forgot to mention

delgado fr said "AYYY MEXICAN STYLEEE" bc i had the tortillas wrapped up in tinfoil and some chorizo con papas y huevos and i was like "HELL YEAHHH"

idk if the white people understand this or not but like this was a bonding moment for us bc there aren't a whole lot of mexicans at our school

so like to see that we're apart of the same culture is really nice

oh and he was also like "my mom makes that like every morning!" and i was like "my mom made it yesterday and decided to pack me some for lunch!"

i would've given him like a fist bump or smth but i wasn't gon put my arm across Alex to get to delgado cus like

just no

so anyway sometime in the middle of lunch i was eating my food and then

poof

woosh

*shimmery sound effects*

THEY'RE GONE

I DON'T KNOW HOW OR WHEN BUT THESE BITCHES JUST VANISHED

SO THEN I WAS LIKE NO NO NO I'M GONNA HAVE TO BE ALONE FOR THE NEXT 20 MINUTES WHYYY

but i didn't wanna move and go look for them bc not only are we not allowed to i also thought maybe they just needed to go the the bathroom

so i just sat there looking like a kicked puppy with sad eyes because i'm not fucking tall enough to look for them in the crowd of gross teenagers

so i just sit there and text my friend because when i lose my friends (and this has happened since elementary) i get really aggressive bc i get overstimed so yk i texted my friend to calm myself down

anyway

lunch over

i get my shit from my locker and head to gym

we go over where we will sit for attendance

and then we go over fire drill procedures and shit

and then we spend most of our time doing jackshit

and like the last 20 minutes of class coach was like okay you can play basketball with the boys orstand around idrc bc we only have a little but till the end of the day

so i channeled my inner white girl and just watched delgado play basketball

and like he's one of the only guys who actually knows how to fuckin play 😭😭

also this one kid got hit in the back of the head and fell straight forward and on his face like a looney tunes character

comedic gold right there

and at the end of phys ed me and delgado were walking the same direction bc our lockers are near each other's and it looks like we're gonna have lunch again on Wednesday since that's the next time i have 3rd lunch <3

so yeah i hope i was midly entertaining

it's 1:36am and i gotta get up at 6:30am so goodnight and sorry for not Finnishing this earlier, i got caught up in something

#☆ hawk talk

[what-if-nct]

hellooo today's reminder is one: key and renjun hiking together what is this friendship I'm obsessed i need to see so much more of it and two: hosh and taemin doing the god of music challenge which. whom should I be jealous of, my husband or my son? I'm gonna go with husband because they probably filmed him doing taemin's challenge on the same day and that means he's heard the song already and i NEED it to come out asap because the teasers look SO good. also i was thinking about it and i realised this will be taemin's first solo album since he was discharged, which is i think nearly two years ago now. I'd expected they'd have him on his insane promo schedules instantly, but it looks like they've given him time to prepare, and i know there's a lot of his own input in his music and i absolutely can't wait because i feel like this will be the spiritual successor to criminal and idea in a way that advice just wasn't

also re: k pop fans being annoying. i saw a reel that explained it perfectly yesterday. i can't find it anymore but it was basically this girl saying k pop is so fun if you ignore all the 14-year-olds who think it's a lifestyle. like i have silly little photocards in my phone and i giggle about grown men cheating in games and when I see my bias with my friend's bias, I'll send it to said friend saying "us". and honestly she's so right, k pop is super fun if that's as much as you immerse yourself. I've been very careful to avoid any and all drama for a while and I'm having a blast

I really wanna know more about Key and Renjun's friendship it feels so random like key being friends with Ten, of course that makes sense they're the same person. But I need key and Renjun to have a cute little show together I need to see their full dynamic. Aww, your family has come together, and Taemin was so cute and looked so happy. Oh wow yeah he's had a pretty long break before any solo activities of course the shinee comeback had to come first. But I'm glad he had such a long time to prepare and I am so excited to see and hear everything it's going to be amazing. Also wayv's newest track video is sooooo good, like Wayv has never disappointed they just give us hit after hit and I can't wait for the main track mv. And Riize!! I knew I'd love it but I really love it and Taro clearly already my son, Anton my new son. But Sohee, like it's hypocritical of me to say he's too young when I've dated someone his age, it was horrible and I'd never do again, younger is not safer learned that the hard way I still can't accept what happened but none the less Sohee, all I can say is he has my undivided attention. Someone said he looks so 2nd gen and he really does.

Yes! Like I was a 16\17 year old kpop fan but I don't remember us being this horrible. And they're so puritanical it's ridiculous. There was a video and it was saying all the things that were apparently banned as a kpop fan, being over 25, being delusional for fun and saying an adult idol is sexy while said adult idol is being sexy. Cause you're sexualizing them. I want all kpop fans to remove sexualize from their vocabulary cause they don't know how to use it properly. It's wild an adult can't find another adult sexy. Also pretty sure most of bts is 30 or will be 30 soon. Jin and Yoongi are actually older than me. Hell Taemin is older than me by a few weeks. Like kpop isn't even a hobby, it's genuinely just an interest it's not serious at all. Just silly fun. Ignoring everyone under 22 is the best bet and won't lead to a headache.

[tokyo-daaaamn-ji-gang]

Roasting tokrev girls: part 1, hinata (99% percent about her relationship with takemichi because these are the parts i hate the most hhhhh)

these are only my negative opinions and i'm still being negative about them

So i will start from beginning, i think takemichi only liked her because she was popular and loved him not because of who she is and combined with hinas live at first sight its not convincing me that its a type of love that will last twelve years and be healthy at the same time. At some times it even seems that takemichi isn't in love with her but more with the symbol of her: the only girlfriend he ever had, the person he's trying to save, the person that truly remembered him. (Although i think that changed later a little it still has other problems)

the most common critique about her relationship with our hero (i promise i'm going to talk about other things). Takemichi is 26 and she is 14 (i think?) Which makes their whole relationship....weird, i am not going to talk too much about it but it makes me really uncomfortable

I hate the fact that her beating up takemichi is portrayed as funny or deserved by michi the biggest ones i remember are the scene where she beats him up for cheating (i also think the whole concept of this scene is weird but this a whole other matter) or for breaking up with her i don't remember much from this scene but when i read it it was just...uh i don't know why a person like hina couldnt understand takemichi breaking up with her

She has no thoughts of her own about anything other than takemichi and arguably emma this is understandable with really minor characters but she is the reason this manga exists (or is she? Well even if not she was in that role for 3/4 of the story) but she is used in the story like a plot device a few stepps away from being a macguffin

God this is not nearly enough text for a character like hinata but i just can't squeze more if i think of something else i will just send another ask

Side question i would also like to do emma but first i want to reread some moments of the black dragon arc do you know where i could do it?

(last thing if i made you uncomfortable in any even very small way please say)

Ok I do a lot of positivity posts so I think it'd only fair we roast them too, gotta have that balance.

I actually do agree with the first point, I don't think past Takemichi really really loved her, this could partly be because he's only a teenager. But he definitely didn't seem to respect her a lot especially since he was definitely about to cheat on her with Emma before the switch. He definitely seemed to take her granted. I think he did love her in his own way though, after all she was what he thought of when dying. I also think when he first travelled back he wanted to save this idealised version of her like you said, almost like he had nostalgia for his only girlfriend. I do think that changed as he spent more time with her and got more sure of his goal though, it's like travelling back reminded him of everything good about her.

Yeah the violence bit is a little weird especially since she's supposed to be a pacifist. I think that's just Wakui's way of showing her strong emotions, like she was so upset she broke her own character and her own code. Definitely not cool though, it's definitely not a great trope.

Unfortunately she's mainly reduced into the love interest role so most of her characteristics will be based on Takemichi. Especially since she's mainly shown with him.

(Mangadex tends to be the best)

#tokyo revengers #tokrev #tachibana hinata #hanagaki takemichi #tokyo rev #tokyo revengers spoilers

[piecesofreeses]

I'm Sorry, I Can't Help It

This is PART 4 of I’m Sorry, I Can’t Help It.

I highly recommend going back to read part 3!

This is an age regression fanfic! Hate will not be tolerated, so take your bullshit somewhere else.

Awsten is struggling with his mental health and turns to age regression with a coping mechanism.

After failing to keep it a secret, what will happen between him and his band mates?

DISCLAIMER:

Age regression is a completely nonsexual coping skill. It is represented appropriately and correctly as it relates to my life. Regression can be positive in many circumstances, but not all. If you are struggling with your mental health or involuntary age regression, talking to a professional is always the best choice.

Chapter Four: The Sun on His Face

In which Awsten explains the origin of his regression.

Thanks for the support guys, all the comments and kudos really do mean the world! PLEASE read the trigger warnings in this chapter, because we really get into some childhood trauma. If you feel the need to skip this chapter, that’s okay! You’ll lose some character backstory but you’ll still be mostly in the loop for following chapters. 

I was listening to Bags by Clairo when I wrote this and I think you should too, but I can’t say they are totally connected by actual content, just vibes. 

TW: Discussion of childhood (14) sexual assault, discussion of past rape by deception, swearing, past cheating, discussion of PTSD, discussion of being called “stupid” while regressed, mild sex jokes

“So,” Geoff says, “You’re allowed to call me Dada, does that mean I can call you cute names too?” Awsten blushes at the mention of calling his friend Dada when he’s regressed, but recovers quickly.

“Yeah I guess. What are you considering?”

“I have a lot of ideas. Should I just list them?” Geoff laughs.

Awsten responds and Geoff can hear the eye roll in his voice, “I mean yeah, sure, go for it.” 

“Baby, bubba, bubs, sweetheart, little one, honey–”

“You already called me that,” Awsten cuts off the list.

“It was an accident! I was panicking!” Geoff says, exacerbated. 

“Yeah, yeah. That’s enough you can stop. Those are all fine and I’m sure any other shit you come up with will be too.”

“Can I ask how this started happening?”

“My regression?” Awsten tries to clarify.

“Yeah,” Geoff confirms.

“Yeah that’s fine. I mean I’ve gotta share so you can care? God, that was bad. Sorry,” Awsten says with a laugh. “I think I was maybe ten when it happened for the first time? That's kind of silly I know – a ten year old regressing even younger – anyway, I would just get stressed out, like the whole world was just way too big and I was way too small. And that's what would happen. Then I would all of a sudden be way too small. I didn't know what it was but my words wouldn't come out and I would feel like I was shrinking in on myself. When I was younger, it was all involuntary.”

“Not always now?” Geoff cuts in. “Oh shit sorry. I interrupted.”

“No it’s okay. Yeah I can do it on purpose sometimes. If I feel like I need it. I couldn't always do that because I didn't know what was happening before. I used to be so ashamed because I had no idea what was going on with my head. I would just get all fuzzy and feel stupid,” Awsten tries to explain. His eyes go soft and Geoff can see him remembering something.

“My mom is wonderful, but I’m thinking back to being thirteen years old at an amusement park. It was so late and I was so hungry and so tired and I just couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't get my words to come out right, so I guess I was kind of ‘baby-talking.’ She kept asking me questions that I knew I should know the answers to, but I was stuck so deep inside my head. She told me to “stop pretending to be dumb,” and it’s always stuck with me. It hurt so much because I knew the age appropriate part of me was in there somewhere, but he wasn't in control and there was no one who could tell me why. Even if there was, I don't think I would've asked. I was far, far too scared they would laugh or that I was permanently fucked up in some way. I guess I am, but I wasn’t ready to hear it when I was thirteen.”

Geoff almost wants to cry listening to the story. “Awsten. You’re not fucked up.”

“It's okay, Geoff,” Awsten scoffs. “I find it comforting to call myself fucked somehow, I think. It'd be hard to explain but I’m sure if I said that in an interview there would be people out there who knew what I meant.” Geoff just listens, sitting quiet and hoping the younger will continue. 

“When I was 14, I came across agere content on the internet for the first time. I knew it resonated, but I didn't want to encroach on a community I wasn't sure I was apart of, so I convinced myself I related the same way I would comment “same” on a TikTok of a piece of bread falling over, but soon after that, I met my first boyfriend and he regressed too. He was already well aware of what it was, so when it happened around him the first time, he took care of me and then after basically smacked some sense into me, telling me what was going on. The first time it happened was actually in our math class. I remember crying on the floor in his lap while they were going over systems of equations. That boy was an absolute piece of shit, but he never did fuck with my regression. I don't think I’ll ever be able to forgive him for what he did, but I’ll always be grateful he didn't hurt me while I was small.”

“Awsten…” Geoff fights against the cracks in his voice. “I am so sorry.”

“Don’t be sorry. It wasn’t you,” Awsten replies matter-of-factly. 

“Awsten? Can I ask what he did to you?”

It seems as though there may even be a glint of a tear in his eye as Awsten responds. “He was older. He didn’t… he didn’t do anything I didn't want– at least at first, but he lied to me about a lot of it,” He says quietly. “He didn’t listen when I told him he was hurting me during… things. I’m still not sure what to call what he did to me. I just didn’t want to lose my virginity to a hookup, so I made him promise he was going to stick around, but he was cheating on me the whole time.”

Geoff waits because it seems like Awsten has more to say. He does, but he continues just barely above a whisper. “One friend called it ‘rape by deception.’ I just– I feel like that’s too strong of a word for what happened, but anything else just discounts what he did. I have fucking PTSD from it, it must have been something.”

“Honey,” Geoff says. He stops after just the one word though, unsure how to continue. 

“It’s okay, Geoff. It’s been twenty years. I can get over myself. God, I’m sorry about this fucking tangent. you just asked how i started regressing.”

“I knew that might be a charged question, Aws. It's fine. Go ahead,” Geoff tries to reassure.

Awsten wipes any hint that he may have cried away and shakes his head as if trying to clear the thoughts. “After that, I regressed a lot. I couldn't help it. It happened for hours each day as I just tried anything to be okay again. Sometimes, it would happen in class and later I would find little drawings in my notebooks or chemistry notes that appeared to have been taken by a five year old. Since then, it just fluctuates. When times are tough, it happens more and it’s more likely to happen involuntarily. When things are okay, I don't need it as much. If I just want it, sometimes I’ll regress intentionally. That can be nice sometimes,” Awsten seems to finish.

“Oh wait,” he starts. “I wanted you to know you're the only person who's ever known about this other than that boyfriend.”

Oh my God. He must’ve been terrified when I found out originally. I can't believe he's letting me be his carer after what happened. Fuck, I’m never leaving this motherfuckers side. 

“Oh Aws. Thank you for trusting me.”

“You got it, man,” Awsten jokes. “Seriously though, thank you. The way you held me? I think you healed half my childhood trauma just like THAT,” he snaps his fingers and chuckles.

Lost in thoughts, Geoff asks another question. “Have you ever written a song about it?”

“Man, you're full of questions today,” Awsten teases. “I think I've referenced it, but never in a way you couldn't deny. In Peach when I say ‘hating myself for needing someone so bad and feeling dumb dumb dumb dumb?” Yeah, that's sort of about being clingy and desperate when I feel small. I think I talk about it a little in Hawaii? Yeah, yeah it's some line about feeling in slow motion or something. I think if the fans knew, they would think some stuff like Fruit Roll Ups or some shit is about it, but it’s not. I definitely write about it in ways people wouldn't notice or expect.”

“You know I’m going to start watching out for it now, right?” Geoff says.

“Yeah I know because you're a little bitch,” Awsten snaps back.

Pretending to smack Awsten in the back, Geoff laughs out a “Says you!”

Sarcastically, Awsten drags out the bit. “Okay, okay. How do you cope with your shit then, Geoff? If you don’t mentally return to the state of a child, how on earth are you dealing with your feelings?”

“Actually? You,” Geoff replies, slamming the door on any humor lacing their conversation. 

Maybe I shouldn't have said that. 

Processing what his best friend just said, Awsten watches how the sunlight strikes his face through the translucent curtains in their hotel room. He looks soft. He looks like there should be hands cupped around his jaw and a thumb stroking his cheek. His hair looks like someone should be running their fingers through it.

I wonder what runs through his head as he thinks about me, Geoff thinks as Awsten stares. Geoff watches how the sun hits the back of Awsten’s head and makes the rays filter through his colored hair. It makes the unruly bits appear to glow like embers and the fluff in the front casts pale orange onto the white hotel sheets.

It feels like hours they just sit and look at one another, but in reality, it's only seconds before Awsten responds. “I’m glad I help. I want to be there for you, you know.”

“I know,” Geoff says softly as he reaches a hand up to smooth the tufts of Awsten’s hair down, unable to resist. “After the shows on those few nights when you just talk and talk? I love those. I just get to sit back and listen. I love listening to you, Awsten. It gives my brain a break, I guess.” He tries to say it jokingly, but the truth shines through. Geoff knows Awsten can tell he wasn’t fucking around. “I really loved caring for you too. It was nice to feel needed.”

“It’s really not annoying? I understand that you care about me and you might do it anyway, but you genuinely enjoyed it?” Awsten questions almost incredulously. 

Geoff smiles. “Yes, Aws. I really liked it. You’ve got such big stuff going on all the time. It was so nice to see you relaxed and calm. Seeing you melt into my lap when I was holding you? You looked so at peace and I don't know if I’ve seen you like that since we were teenagers. And I could fix all your problems. You have no idea how much I hate when I know you’re dealing with something and I can’t do shit about it. When your biggest problem was wanting something in your mouth and I just needed to help you put your thumb in your mouth and you’d feel better? It was so great.”

Awsten’s eyes widen briefly before he gets it under control. “Jesus, that's embarrassing for me.”

“Yeah, yeah. You're cute small!” Geoff says and Awsten makes a whole show of his aversion to being called cute. 

“You’re worse than the fans calling me babygirl!”

“No, that's hilarious.”

“Oh you motherfucker,” Awsten shoots back. Then he pauses. “Do we need to get on the bus?”

Geoff checks his phone to find messages from Jawn, Lucas and Otto. “It appears so.”

Awsten laughs and flops back down on the bed. “Fuck, man!”

“Awsten! Why are you laying back down? We need to go!

“Carry me?” Awsten jokes, batting his eyelashes. 

“And you wonder why they call you babygirl,” Geoff responds, rolling his eyes. At that, Awsten drags himself out of bed and throws on a back tank and some gray jeans. “You’ll kill the fans if you let them see your arms, Awsten. Don’t you have any sympathy for them? They might not survive.”

“I know man! It’s hilarious because Jullian can perform shirtless and none of them bat an eye and as soon as they see my arms we’ve got people unconscious in the pit,” Awsten adds.

“Okay,” Geoff continues. “They definitely bat an eye when Julian takes his shirt off because I bat an eye when Julian takes his shirt off.”

“Geoff! Dude! Since when do you say that shit!?” Awsten yells, losing control of his volume while throwing his things into a bag to bring down to the tour bus. “I’m telling him you said that. No. Better yet, I’m going to tweet that you said that.”

“Go for it. You’ve ruined your credibility after tweeting that I was drawing selfcest of you and soulsucker,” Geoff quips. 

Awsten dramatically glares at the floor. “Damnit. If it isn't the consequences of my own actions.”

“Hey assholes, hurry it up, we're all waiting on you,” comes Jawn’s voice through the door. Sharing a glance, the two hurry out, Geoff apologizing profusely and Awsten explaining graphically the kind of sex they were [not] having with the utmost dramatic sarcasm. 

Geoff listens to the jokes and walks just a few steps behind, just content to watch how awstens mouth curls when he laughs at his own jokes. 

I’m screwed.

Two updates in 24 hours? I'm spoiling you guys!

Love you all!

Reese

#awsten knight #awsten waterparks #waterparks #geoff wigington #waterparx #awsten #otto wood #parx #age dreaming #age regression #agere little #sfw littlespace #fan fiction #awsten constantine knight #fluff #no smut #hurt comfort

[samazingly]

How does one fight imposter syndrome? Long, don't read. I don't even know why I'm posting this. I should just save it in a GoogleDoc and call it a day. This is also a cluster fuck of thoughts.

This has been hitting me hard lately. Honestly, for a while now actually. And it's not just one thing, it's everything. And It's come to the point where I don't feel like I deserve what I have in life. I'm not good enough. First, I want to preface by saying, my husband is a freaking saint. He's the best, he works so hard, he's so caring, and kind, and handsome, the BEST freaking dad, and husband. What person would stay by someone after 2 years of a dead bedroom? Not many, that's for sure. I do NOT deserve this man. Also, the dead bedroom was COMPLETELY me. I'm not exactly sure why it started or what happened to end it. And if he did cheat during that time. One, he deserves whatever touch he needed. And he's freaking superman. I don't know where he found the time or energy. I'm not good enough for my amazing husband, or my super awesome kids, or the house over my head, the pets we have. Nothing. Why do I feel I don't deserve any of it. What makes me think I'm trash that all this shouldn't be mine. Probably because I have nothing to show for all of this. I suck at keeping up with housework, and yeah, I can say it's the adhd, the depression, the anxiety, whatever, but I haven't done anything to get better at it.

And one might think, how can you think you don't deserve your husband, he must think the world of you, you've been together since 2006. True, but I know so many couples who have "stayed together for the children." And while I'd like to think that's not the kind of person my husband is. That if he didn't love me then he'd leave and not suffer. He's also the kind of guy that knows that if he left me. I'd have nothing, I've been a stay-at-home mom for 14 years. I have no education outside of high school. (I am attending college now, but I'm only in my first year) The last time I had a legit job was in...2009? Maybe, maybe 2008. Legit don't even remember. I've done little to no volunteer work anywhere. Let's just say my resume is very sparce and dated.

Then to top it all off. I'm huge, like fat fat. Does my husband care, does the person who sees me naked care. No, he calls me beautiful, hot. But do I believe him, no, I scoff, I roll my eyes, I call him crazy or blind.

I hate that I feel this way. I hate that I for the most part know what I need to do to feel deserving.

So, I think, what's something he could do to help me feel worthy. Honestly, I have no idea. Or maybe, what does he do or not do that makes you feel this way? I don't know, I often feel he's not interested in what I do. But I don't do anything. Legit, at home taking care of the few chores I actually do, make sure the kids and animals a fed. Give the kids rides to and from school, go to class, and play bg3. Like every day. It's the same. Always the same. Maybe it's because I don't know who I am. I mean, yeah, I'm a mom, I'm a wife. But what else? Nothing, I am nothing without those people. I want to be known for more than being my husband's wife or my kid's mom.

Okay...I think that's good for now. When I finally see my therapist again, I think I'll be bringing this up. And probably try and talk things out with my husband. I'm just so tired of feeling this way. Or, when I start to feel better, I'm slapped in the face with these stupid thoughts again.

[servin-up-surveys]

survey #168

What was the last liquid that you choked on? Water; I took too big of a sip and it didn't go down well, scared Girt a bit lol.

Did you or have you had sex with the last person you slept with in bed? Not literal genital sex yet, no. We want guaranteed privacy for that and living with parents doesn't offer that much.

When you sign your name do you use your middle name? Not unless it's requested.

Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower? I start immediately outside of it, on a towel, but for more space to dry my body I eventually move into the carpeted sink area; the bathroom itself is VERY small, just a shower, tub, and toilet, very claustrophobic, then there's a long sink area with lots of cabinets and even a random closet behind you if facing the sink. It's much more comfortable to finish drying there.

Was your last kiss initiated by you or the other person? I don't remember, we were in bed and a lotta it happened, I dunno who exactly prompted the last one.

Whan getting dressed do you put your pants or shirt on first? Almost always pants first.

Who was the last person you saw totally naked? My boyfriend, I'm sure.

Is your toilet paper on the right or left side of the toilet? Left, for both bathrooms in our house.

Name all the cards that you carry in your wallet. An incredibly expired driver's permit, Covid vaccination card, social security card, insurance card, American Red Cross blood type card, a yellow ribbon suicide prevention card that has a sweet message and then relevant hotlines, and two tattoo artists' personal cards; I've kept them because I kinda wanna collect those by all who tattoo me. Maybe. I'm already missing multiple, so idk.

Do you use a handrail on stairs if there is one? Yes, once upon a time they were basically mandatory for me to stay balanced and I still do feel safer when I'm holding onto it.

What is your favorite drinking game? I've never played one.

Do you have any tattoos that you don't like anymore? Yup. It's a big reason I've gotten MUCH pickier with what I'll allow myself to get tattooed.

Who was the last person to sleep in your bed? Girt, with me.

Do you have a shower curtain or door? Mom's bathroom shower has a door, but the hall shower is curtained.

Who was the last person from your high school graduating class you saw? In person, uhhhhhhhh... I did a quick Facebook friends list scroll and that would be my old friend Tommy, he works at the guitar place where I took my old guitar for pricing advice on selling it. Cool dude and the husband of another friend Rachel.

Favorite farm animal? Either pigs or cows. I kinda think I like cows more nowadays.

Have you ever been sedated or put under anesthesia? Yes. It's still insane to remember JUST how quickly it hits.

Have any of your friends ever cheated on somebody? I know at least one friend who has.

How many instruments do you own/have you owned? I've owned three: a recorder, flute, and electric guitar. Well, I suppose actually four; me and my sisters had one of those electric keyboards, the kind whose keys would light up red to teach you how to play lots of songs, however we ultimately could've made up our own stuff, though we never did.

Do you own or rent your home? Rent.

If you have a significant other, how old were you when you first met them? 14 or 15?

Have you ever felt like you were someone’s rebound? No.

Who is the first person who broke your heart? My dad.

Who would you want to be the flower girl at your wedding? Odds are it will probably be Emerson, my youngest niece.

Do you know anyone with a service dog? I don't believe so.

Who is the most important person in your life (besides yourself)? Girt.

If you have pets, are any of them rescues from shelters? No.

When was the last time you talked to your most recent ex? Over a year ago.

When was the last time you kissed someone who was younger than you? Not since Sara and I were dating.

Would you have sex with someone of the same gender as you? Yeah.

Were you born with hair on your head? Pretty sure yes.

Would you rather have a home birth or hospital birth? I'm going to the fucking hospital and getting an epidural, this is not debatable for me.

Who were your best friends in high school? Summer, Hannia, Alon, Girt, Megan, and Maria. Maybe others, but those are who I remember very well.

Have you ever dated a twin? No.

What was the last food or drink you made for someone else? Last Friday I made my mom a peanut butter sandwich; we were watching my sister's kids and her blood sugar dropped severely and very quickly. This isn't unusual sadly, but it was definitely scarier than what it normally is because she was fighting fainting in front of three little kids that don't at all understand diabetes.

Have you ever auditioned for something? What was it, and how did it go? Yeah, elementary school chorus. I got in. I remember how insanely nervous I was, I've never been the type to sing in front of others.

Have you ever seen your ex’s new partner? If so, what do you think of them? I have no idea who anyone is dating and don't care.

What was the last piece of candy you ate? Uhhhh just a few M&Ms that were left over from something my mom made.

When was the last time you did something “meant” for children? Do you think it’s okay for adults to do these things (ie. watch cartoons, have stuffed animals, dress in cute clothing, etc), or do you think there’s an age beyond which it becomes unacceptable - and if so, why? A couple weeks ago Girt and I played more of Spyro 2 from the "Reignited" trilogy. I VERY firmly believe that if you're not hurting anyone, adults engaging in "childish" passtimes isn't even remotely wrong, and the fact that people are shamed for that sorta stuff is just foul. Let people have fun.

Do you believe there used to be dragons? No, I'm quiiiite certain we'd have found fossils by now...

Who was the last friend you saw, and what did you do together? Girt and I played some of Elden Ring and also watched the first episode of a Netflix show called The Rain.

Who tends to show up in your dreams? Do you ever wonder if you appear in anyone else’s dreams? My mom and boyfriend, and sometimes still Jason. Honestly most of my dreams feature people I don't know whatsoever or am merely acquaintances with, at least that I remember. I don't often do so anymore when it comes to the people in my dreams.

What is something you do to feel better when you’re scared? Talk to Girt or Mom or try to find something to distract myself with on YouTube.

Do you have someone who is protective of you (father, brother, etc.)? Definitely my mom, as well as Girt.

Where was the last place you went, that you hadn’t been to before? The house of I think at least one of Girt's uncles, maybe more though; it was a double-purpose party with a big tent between two houses, and jesus FUCKING christ about ten trillion people were there it felt like, and I know people went into both houses.

When was the last time someone surprised you with their reaction or behaviors? Nice timing, I think it'd actually be when I was with Girt's paternal family. The way he, his sister, and mother have described them, I expected to be much more intimidated by them than I was; they were just some redneck as ALL hell type of guys that were super hospitable, friendly, and goofy. I've been told they're VERY unafraid to hurt your feelings and be just painfully honest and know how to hold grudges that they shouldn't have to begin with, but they seemed nice enough.

Have you ever reached out to a crisis center for mental health support? If so, how was the experience? [TW: DRUG OD/SUICIDE] I tried once, via a suicide hotline's one-on-one chatroom because I was too afraid to physically call on my phone. They were of course busy, and after waiting a pretty long time (I'm talking no less than 30 minutes, pretty sure more) without connecting to anyone, I gave up and overdosed.

Describe the last thing you reblogged? How many posts do you tend to reblog during a day? It was some super cute fanart of Richard and Paul, and this varies quite a lot. I don't aim for a certain number, sometimes your dash is gonna be spammed by me and some days I don't share anything.

Whose house did you visit last? Girt's.

Have you ever played Geoguessr? I personally haven't, but I've seen people play it. It's not a kind of game I would be even remotely good at.

What is your favorite way to eat chicken? As tenders/strips/whatever with whatever dipping sauce I'm feeling at the time.

What style of pizza do you prefer (thin crust, stuffed crust, deep dish, Detroit style, etc)? Pan pizza. Stuffed crust is also good.

Can you see your favorite animal from where you are sitting? (on an article of clothing, a figurine, a stuffed animal, etc...maybe even alive?) Yes indeed, I have a weighted meerkat plush on my desk.

What was the last celebrity gossip you got sucked into? Obviously as a very invested fan of Rammstein I know the dumpster fire that's going on regarding allegations against their singer, and I've kept up with what's going on in concern for all of them since they're all affected by this. I'm just glad it seems to be dying down, there's an investigation going on but they've already said Shelby's "case" is basically non-existent given the lack of immediate evidence, and apparently she doesn't have a great reputation.

Do you own any merch from concerts/comedy shows/broadway shows, etc? I did get a shirt from the Alice Cooper concert, but I'll never fit that again. I of course kept it as a souvenir type thing.

What was the last bug you killed? An ant.

Who is your favorite Star Wars character? I don't care about this franchise whatsoever.

What kind of cheese do you put on your sandwiches? American.

Who was the last person to give you a gift? Girt got me flowers when I "graduated" from physical therapy.

If there was a real Jurassic Park, would you visit it? I'ma be full real... I KNOW I would lmao.

#survey #surveys #random questions #personal questions

[the-firebird69]

He was joking but then he went into some sort of minion skit and he said the minion are going and they get both food so they went in and they got a dolly and they wielding his big boxes and cylindrical things so tons of food in it we had a whole bunch of bananas and a bunch a little bit of the food cuz it's so much of it and we all fell asleep on the concrete floor and Trump walked in and he was not laughing like we were he was expressionless and said silently we did the right thing and then we pushed the plate to him on a big one full of cooked food and he smiled and ate it and felt better and we know it to do and he fell asleep on the floor with us and Chris rolled over with a big belly and the front was pushed out and it was huge and now everyone's smelling it and complaining and saying traitor and putting their fingers and you can't tell what they're saying so he's just laughing it happened all the time

No not the big belly farting thing and BG was cheating is just bringing air into his anus and pushing it out and everyone's saying TMI

Jenna

Are you sure that you shot the right one Mangler

Zues Hera

I'm pretty sure this is saying it's not really stupid maybe I should see if my gun works

Justin

Fake gun what she says that you didn't do anything to her when I say it's probably did something she doesn't remember it and the one flopping around back there was Lily and our friend knew it

Trump

Stop calling me that no not really stop calling me the other thing and stop acting like one that's fine good we'll be together in the end yeah I'll be questioning you along with John remillard and BJ on my side

Shut the f****** Uncle Chris

Lily

Good job Hit girl and not me you idiot like I have to get you more and more busy pretty soon you're not going to be able to do anything and stop doing this big fat ass black girl thing I guess it takes time up

Zues Hera

This is what we're dealing with the like family says a bunch of moisture rolling in it's probably time you have from the empire so I can get out and get that bastard give me a bunch of those Storm chasers

Mac

We're going to get you in mac daddy we need to get you one now those types the real truck and we may we build one and we build them he said he wants some real beefy so I put my six wheels on there now no I did not 14 Wheels and it's coming down now to your drop off site and you want to and we'll bring you two. It has stuff on it and you didn't want it and didn't ask for it but that's too bad you weren't listening. She was electable person and she painted and felt better.

We brought something too to help your men and put it in the back it's a new invention and the second one doesn't have it it does have one of bills and wheels Storm chaser devices and yeah be careful with it. And we meet up a new device it's in the back of Max truck and they're about 15 cases of them and their individual drinks because if you need a storm chaser you go grab one and their people in their profession and they're crazy a little bit like our son because if he had a truck and it was rated he'd be out there dodging and leaping about and turning on the cameras and the equipment red German wants one and we called Jason should be at your place shortly Brad. And our son says Viva la revolution. Well I'm going to celebrate tonight McDonald says and we're going to drink the storm tracer to drink and hits it's smack daddy who said that and it is an alcoholic drink no it's an alcohol drink okay my son put that there and it's me Thor with Freya know her you're not speaking now believe it or not but he hears you a little bit but you're always in stealth mode here's a pretty good she said she made the most of the ingredients and wants to announce it so she shall

Thor Freya

He asked me to I thought it was a good idea so I did it and he likes it he wants the Virgin version and was sending that out so people can add what liquor they want and it does take liquor or a hard alcohol yes in our version has whiskey whiskey sour two different types of whiskeys is what that is wrong vodka and triple sec and for ingredients it has iced tea raspberry and it's not flavoring it's real fruit strawberry and it's not flavoring it's real fruit and blueberry and a hint of banana and storms remind everybody of the tropics and tornadoes remind everybody of Toto and Toto is an African term it means storm. And we put one bottle up in front on the seat and it says drink me grandma no he said just drink me cuz we think it's about her in the movie that she made those movies and she just has to clicker heels and she comes out when she means is her voice come and save her

Hera and that was me yes above

Zues he adds to it but not the whole thing just a little piece in there but he's here and there

[pastelbatfandoms]

Ex boyfriend survey

1. What’s your ex’s name?

I'm going with one of the good one's, Valenn.

2. When did you guys date?

November 2006-January 2007

3. How long did you think you’d last?

Forever tbh, We were supposed to get married in September 2006

4. If you would have had kids with him/her, what would have been their names?

Glenn (after Danzig) & Severina.

5. Do you still love him/her?

Not in the same way, I admire him more than anything. But I don't hate him anymore either.

6. Would you get back with them?

We're both married to our twin flames, so no, plus he lives a long distance away.

7. Was he/her your first love?

No 

8. What did your parents think of him/her?

Mom was kinda in between about him.

9. Did you get along with his/her friends?

yeah, some a little too much...

10. Did he/she get along with your friends?

Mmm No.

11. Why did you break up?

Miscommunication, Cheating (on my part), Impulsiveness, triggers, he was a twin flame catalyst.

12. Was it a “Clean” Break up?

As in mutual? No, he broke up with me, I left because I couldn't stay there after that.

13. Do you still talk to this person?

For the past two months, yes.

14. If they were right in front of you what would you say to them?

Wow...I feel like I've said alot to him already.

15. Where did you meet?

Through My then Boyfriend. At their friends house.

16. What was the best part of your relationship?

It was fun in the beginning and our anniversary and holidays were the best times. He was also my first.

17. Would you be able to wake up to that face every morning?

I mean probably lol he's not unattractive.

18. Did your siblings like him/her?

My sister did.

19. Would you rather him/her text you, or call you?

Either.

20. Do you wish she/he called/texed you right now?

lol it's midnight, but sure

21. What are your latest thoughts of him/her?

I hope he's better after all the BS of yesterday.

22. What’s your favorite memory with that person?

Um the break up sex? LOL Probably watching fireworks together or our first Christmas together.

23. Remembering all that, does it make you miss them?

Somewhat

24. Now, Honestly, Do you still love him/her?

In a way. But we do have a soul connection.

#ex boyfriend #survey #gemini

[gaal-dornick]

being in love with someone and being loved back sounds... so fake tbh

#today's reflection: am i aro or people around me have such fucked up relationships i'd rather be single forever than put myself through it #who knows #i see couple 1: we're so in love! #and i'm yeah sure but remember that time he cheated on you with a 14 yo he should be in fucking jail #couple 2 broke up 4 times in a month but swear they're in love #you don't even look like you enjoy each other's company dudes #not even as friends so why are you insisting on this #idk idk #couple 3 where one swears being together is the best thing but the other was literally drinking with another girl on his lap #on a pub in my street because it's secluded and i think he thought he wouldn't cross anyone he knew #this is stupid af but like #how do you want me to believe it's possible when all i see is this? #how am i expected to trust anyone when people routinely behave like this? #personal

[faye-the-traitor]

Heyyy i just wanna say i love your writing!

Can i get some Monty and Freddy with a male!s/o that is Dominican and wants to teach them how to dance bachata y merengue

"I Don't Dance" (Freddy x M!Reader x Montgomery)

A/N: Heyy!! Thank you so much, I'm glad you like it and of course. Because of this request I know now the basics of Merengue dancing after watching like 14 tutorial videos and following along. I hope you enjoy the story hun!

Summary: Who doesn't love a dance lesson? Montgomery...He doesn't. At least not a first.

Warnings: Foul Language, Sexual Humor, Fluff

Word Count: 1712

~

"Yeah! Just like that! Swing your hips!" You chuckled, gently squeezing Freddy's hand as he stepped to the music. It was a way you could spend a little time with you boyfriends but you couldn't find Monty so you gave up and just decided to teach Freddy how to dance.

"A-Are you sure, Superstar? I feel silly, like I'm doing it wrong." He was scared to step on your feet, hurting you in the process but you had assured him that he was doing just fine.

"1,2,3,4..." You counted out for him, watching Freddy slowly get more comfortable with the dance as the music played on, filling the room. "5,6,7,8..." Freddy was a fast leaner, but he was too shy and too nervous.

"Freddy, you're not going to hurt me. I've practiced with men bigger than you." You laughed sweetly, your warm hands holding his tightly.

Freddy began to pick up his pace, finally matching yours and you squealed with excitement.

"Yes! That's it! Just like that! Keep going!" You encouraged as the door to Freddy's room opened, a furious looking gator standing in the door way.

You and Freddy both stopped, not understanding why Monty looked so furious. You weren't doing anything wrong, after all. With work being as stressful as it had been ad with the place being a little too short staffed you had been missing the two boys and you wanted to teach them a dance you learned from your family. Being Dominican there were plenty of danced you learned from family, friends, and even neighbors and you thought it was a good way to share a piece of you with the both of them. You knew everything about them, so it was time they learned about you.

"Montgomery. Is everything okay?" Freddy asked, his arms slacking from their position with yours following in example.

"Oh shut up FazFuck. I thought you were fucking him and I was coming to make sure you didn't break our deal." Monty huffed, moving to sit on the couch. He flopped down, sitting on his tail just like everyone told him not to do. He pulled down his shades to peek at the both of you.

"Oh shut up FazFuck. I thought you were fucking him and I was coming to make sure you didn't break our deal." Monty huffed, moving to sit on the couch. He flopped down, sitting on his tail just like everyone told him not to do. He pulled down his shades to peek at the both of you.

The deal. You chuckled at the memory of them making their promises. Monty didn't like Freddy much but you remember when things came to light about a year ago when they both came forward, fighting for your attention but you couldn't choose between the two. You were the one who proposed you dated. Monty and Freddy would never but they both liked you and were willing to share you if that meant they got to have you as theirs. It was actually cute to seem them work things out and when you walked into Monty's room a month after the whole thing started He and Freddy were in the middle of making an agreement that they wouldn't do anything risque without the other present, to save on the jealousy and it was rather endearing to see that compromise made.

"Of course not, Montgomery! What do you take me for?" Freddy had a look of hurt on his face. Freddy was a lot of things, but a cheat wasn't one them.

"Y/N was just showing me how to dance the merenuge! It's actually very fun and you should come learn! He is an excellent teacher!" Freddy beamed at you, looking proud of how well you taught and how much fun he was actually having with you.

"Why? There's a whole plex of things to do and you chose to dance?" Monty questioned, leaning his head back on the couch and breaking the eye contact he had been holding thus far.

"Well, yeah. I know everything about you guys. I figured it would be a nice way for you guys to learn something new about me and my people." You grinned, running to Monty and grabbing his hands, a pleading look in your eye as you you begged him to come learn how to dance. He looked back at you, shaking his head 'no' in the process.o

"Well, yeah. I know everything about you guys. I figured it would be a nice way for you guys to learn something new about me and my people." You grinned, running to Monty and grabbing his hands, a pleading look in your eye as you you begged him to come learn how to dance. He looked back at you, shaking his head 'no' in the process.

"Sorry Toots. No can do. I don't dance." Monty refused, however he never pulled his hands from yours.

You weren't going to take 'no' for an answer and you began to pull, your entire body leaning back as Monty didn't budge.

"Please~!" You whined, "Just learn the basics and If you don't like it, I'll never ask you again!" You begged, giving him the most pitiful puppy eyes that made Monty squirm under your gaze.

"Ah fuck. Fine. But you gotta promise you won't ask again." He demanded, finally letting you pull him to the middle as Freddy took his seat on the couch to watch.

"I pinky promise!!" You giggled and positioned Monty in the starting position.

You took his hands in yours and gave them a gentle squeeze, reassuring him that things would be alright and he would do just fine.

"Start with your right leg and follow along. I'll lead you, okay?" He nodded, refusing to take his eyes off your feet.

"All we're going to do is march in place, just like this." You began to march, gently swaying your hips in the process to show him what you meant.

Monty began to slowly follow your example, picking it up a bit quicker than Freddy had. You squealed and began to pick up the pace just a little bit to see if he could keep up with you and he did.

"Good! Now start swinging your hips a little more, like this." Your hip moved in a more exaggerated manner and Monty followed along very quickly. You were delighted to see him actually doing well and you couldn't wait to teach the both of them a more complicated pattern.

You encouraged Monty to start moving around the room but as soon as you tried to step in a different direction he messed up, badly. His impressively short fuse went off and he let go of you, throwing his hands in the air. He turned, walking back to the couch.

"Nope. I'm done. I tried." You pouted, upset that he quit after one mistake but you made a promise that you wouldn't ask again and you didn't try to beg him to try again.

He flopped back down onto the couch and you asked Freddy to come back. Without any hesitation, he did. He practically lunged from the couch, wanting to try again. You went back over the basics as Monty watched from the couch, angry that he had messed up to quickly. he'd never admit it though, but he loved watching you dance. You had the largest smile on your face, and you looked so happy but a pan of jealousy shot through him as he recognized that you were so happy while dancing with Freddy instead of him.

Monty watched in silence as Freddy learned more of the dance with you, twirling you out and away from you arms. The smile you wore and the adoring look you gave to Freddy was enough for Monty but instead of leaving he went right up to the both of you, disconnecting you two and shoving Freddy away.

"Teach me again." He demanded and you couldn't help but giggle at the sudden desire to learn again but nonetheless you began to go over the basics again.

This time, every time Monty messed up he muttered a small "Damn it" and tried again, picking up the moves rather smoothly and before long he was twirling you away from him and you giggled at how quick you both were dancing. You were having too much fun to stop and you didn't think it could be anymore fun than it already was.

Oh how wrong you were...

In an instant Monty spun you out, your arm reaching out and you paused for only a second when you felt a hand grab your only free one while it was extended away from you. Freddy grinned and pulled you in, Monty willingly letting you go as you began to dance with Freddy around the room. Back and forth, Freddy and Monty were passing you back and forth from the one to the other. The speed had picked up quicker than even you were used to and on your own short comings you missed Monty's hand and fell back onto the floor, splaying out like a star fish.

"Oh dear! Superstar! Are you alright!?" Freddy panicked, running and dropping to his knees by you, pulling you into his lap as Monty kneeled, pulling his shades off entirely with a worried look in his eyes.

"Yeah! Yeah I'm okay! Just a bit dizzy." You chuckled, holding your head and smiling like an idiot.

"Are you sure Toots? I should have caught you, I'm so sorry." Monty apologized, holding your face in his hands as he looked you over, making sure you weren't hurt.

"Monty, I promise I'm okay. I had a blast! You guys were just going a little faster than my brain could process." You grinned, placing a kiss on his snout. His body almost instantaneously relaxed with the kiss and you turned slightly to kiss Freddy's jaw.

"I had so much fun. I hope you'll both dance with me a little more often." You hoped, giving them a soft, and needy look.

"Of course we will darlin~" Monty gave a toothy grin and you couldn't help but snicker.

"I thought you don't dance."

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A/N: I didn't proof read. I'll fix it in the morning because Im posting this at 11:18 p.m and I'm exhausted.

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[exovapor]

I'm OBSESSED with your writing. Can you try.. Maybe, Donnie being a filthy boy being an 'stalker-ish' of his long time crush? Be checks their FB for new posts, saves every picture of them he finds? He doesn't mean to be a creep, feels guilty, but just doesn't know how to ask for more than friendship?

Good afternoon Anon. Here is my short story in relation to your ask.

I wasn't sure where you wanted me to take this, so I had to do a bit of guessing on my part. I hope this something like you were wanting.

I will admit that this ask was a bit of a struggle for me, not knowing a clear direction to take it outcome made me a little unsure of my writing and guessing abilities LOL. However, I will admit to crying along with the characters in this story more than once.

Thanks again for the ask and the initial compliment. I hope to continue to earn your favor in future posts.

· Stalker [noun]: 1a person who harasses or persecutes someone with unwanted and obsessive attention. 2a person who hunts game stealthily.

· Donnie stared at the definition on his one of his monitor screens while his various other screens were busy flashing receipts of files downloaded, text trail streams from your phone, notices of any social media post/update/like/heart/emoji, a GPS line grid of your routes today (overlayed over the routes you’d taken previously), and data search hits of anything and everything that pertained to you.

· At this point, the boy had literally every picture you had ever posted, anywhere, of yourself. In fact, he had all the pictures that other people posted of you in them. He had even gone through the effort of designing a face recognition program that picks you out of the background of total strangers’ pictures and, yeah, he had those in a file too.

· He has special file folders that compile things that you like, things you don’t like, things that make you happy, things that make you sad. He is your own personal Pinterest and you didn’t even know it… and maybe that is the part that keeps bothering him so much.

· He sits staring at that word and definition and chewing his bottom lip. True, he knows the word and the meaning, but he needed to LOOK at it, analyze it, mull it over in his guilt ridden brain.

· He just KNEW the word Stalker couldn’t apply to him.

· After all, he isn’t harassing or persecuting you, you don’t know! So, it isn’t necessarily ‘unwanted attention’. It is just…unknown attention.

· Stealthily, hmmmm, did that part apply to him? Well, He isn’t EXACTLY being stealthy.

· If you knew about technology like him, then you would probably see his programs running on your devices and be alerted to his activities. AND, if you shared his love and view of technology, then you would probably be more understanding of his activities and not consider them stealthy…just data mining. In fact, you might applaud him.

· ‘Ok, that was taking it a bit too far’, Donnie thinks to himself and he feels a band tighten and squeeze around his infatuated heart.

· He is almost certain that you would be shocked to learn of his extra curricular activities and how they revolve around every aspect of you.

· Regardless of how he tried to spin the truth and wiggle out of the definition of stalker, Donnie still felt guilty for invading your privacy. However, he honestly couldn’t help himself…at least not anymore.

· He has fought the urge, the nagging thoughts and the burning need, to know more about you for what seemed like an eternity.

· Listen to him, he is starting to sound dramatic like Mikey! What is his turning into? He is losing his rational edge!

· To be accurate, it hasn’t been an eternity. In fact, he has known you 1 year, 36 days, 14 hours, 11 minutes, and 23 seconds to be exact. However, you started occupying space in his mind 2 minutes into meeting you and your claim over his mind has grown exponentially over time.

· You were quiet and reserved during that first meeting, so there wasn’t much to go on. It started as a simple visual interest with a thought of ‘Oh. She’s pretty’.

· However, then you started talking and that changed everything.

· You opened up more and more each time you hung out with their little group, revealing layers and layers of interests and personality. You were fascinating…and that’s when his thoughts about you really started to snowball and spiral out of control.

· You went from being a simple pretty face to being a walking embodiment of everything he seriously ever dreamed of having in a mate.

· Early on, there were three sticking points that really made Donnie’s feelings problematic. 1. He was a nearly seven foot tall walking talking turtle and you weren’t. 2. You had a boyfriend that you were deeply in love with and adored. 3. Donnie was too insecure about #1 and how you felt about inter-species dating to let you know that you had started to OWN his heart.

· Now, thanks to his surveillance, there were only two sticking points….#1 and #3.

· He still remembers the feelings of that day, 44 days ago, when the blip of information popped up on this screen alerting him to the fact that your boyfriend was starting to stray.

· Donnie had severely conflicting feelings bombard him at once and it was overwhelming.

· The initial knee jerk reaction was elation, one of the problems blocking him from you may soon be null.

· However, the feeling of elation only lasted for a second or two before the intense anger and sadness set in. Donnie was honestly shocked at the depth of his anger, he didn’t even know he had that level of malice in him. Had he been in physical proximity to your boyfriend at that moment in time, Donnie isn’t sure that he wouldn’t have hurt your guy…or worse.

· How COULD this guy do this? WHY would he? He HAD YOU! What the heck was this guy thinking? Not only did he have you, but you thought the world of him. When you spoke about him you would smile so genuinely, your eyes would shine and gaze off into a bright imagined future. Donnie was always so jealous to watch it happen, he wondered what it would be like to be THAT GUY. And here the idiot was throwing it all away and meeting up with another girl!

· WHAT THE…(yes, this called for a curse) HELL…IS WRONG WITH HUMAN MEN?

· As the anger set root in his heart, the sadness engulfed Donnie like an all-consuming wave. He realized he was going to have to share this information with you, somehow, and that he was going to have to watch as it destroyed you.

· At first, Donnie had a plan to try and save you both from that fate. True, it would hurt him more to save your relationship, but he would rather be the one facing the pain and not you.

· He TRIED to circumvent the situation. He sent anonymous messages to your boyfriend stating that he knew about the infidelity and that he would tell you if needed. However, it didn’t seem like your boyfriend cared because he sent messages back stating Donnie could, basically, go fuck himself.

· Life had cruel sense of irony, thought Donnie, that is exactly what I do since this moron has the woman that I love.

· So, after trying for nearly two weeks to stop what was happening behind your back, Donnie had no choice but to let you in on the secret.

· Donnie couldn’t come right out and tell you that he caught your boyfriend cheating by hijacking your data streams and the data streams of those around you. So, Donnie intercepted some texts between your boyfriend and his mistress and he then sent you a text, under the guise of your boyfriend, telling you to meet him at a specified restaurant for a date.

· It had been a gut wrenching night for Donnie. He remembered watching it all play out on camera feeds from around the restaurant and street outside. He watched you dressed up in your pretty dress get out of your cab in front of the restaurant. You had such a lovely smile on your face, you must have thought you were in for a romantic evening.

· He watched as you walked inside and how the hostess got flustered and confused by a 2nd girl showing up for your boyfriend’s seated-for-two table.

· Donnie stopped breathing as your eyes found the new couple holding hands and giving each other sweet kisses across the table. Hands and lips that were supposed to be yours were touching some stranger.

· Donnie watched your smile and eyes die…the light of your inner sun go out…

· …and it killed him.

· He’s not sure who was crying the hardest, you standing there in that restaurant witnessing the scene or him back at the lair watching your world crush around you on his monitor.

· It had taken a while for you both to recover from that night.

· His brothers noticed his melancholy mood for a couple of weeks but Donnie wouldn’t tell them what was bothering him. And you stayed in your bed, refusing to face the world, for nearly as long.

· Eventually, the group began to notice your silence and absence, so April stopped by your apartment to check on you. She was the one to pull you out of bed, get you to shower and eat. She visited everyday and made sure you had someone to vent to and a shoulder to cry on.

· Donnie was glad that April could be there for you when he couldn’t. He didn’t think it was appropriate for him, a male, to be your confidant at that time. Especially since he felt so much guilt over having to be the one to expose you to that pain.

· No, he didn’t CAUSE the pain, but he did have to make you face it and he didn’t like not being able to protect you from it. You were such a rare, precious creature and watching you in pain felt like he was suffocating slowly.

· There were some points during those first few weeks that he questioned if he did the right thing, but logic told him it would have eventually come to pass with or without his involvement. It was better to rip the bandage of quickly and let you start to heal than it was to let you linger and drag out the inevitable.

· Donnie did secretly check on you every single night during patrol. And, of course, his surveillance feeds were always running. He watched from a distance as his beautiful phoenix burn down to ashes and, eventually, started to rise again.

· Now, it’s been over 3 months and you’ve begun to be more like your old self. Donnie can tell there is a silent sadness there, but you are able to laugh and smile with the group during your get togethers. And each time you two are left alone, his mind nags at him about those last two sticking points.

· Would you be at all interested in him? And HOW does he go about telling you that you have become the center of his world?

· Still staring at the monitor and the Stalker definition, Donnie sighs and rubs the bridge of his snout to release of the pressure now pushing against the inside of his head. The memories of what has happened, the emotions of what was and what is, it was all starting to be too much.

· “Bro, what’s all this?”, Mikey says standing behind Donnie’s chair, talking around a mouth full of pizza.

· “NOTHING!”, says Donnie, voice breaking from the stress of being caught. A startled Donnie quickly taps some keys on his keyboard and the screens revert back to the standard lair camera feeds.

· Mikey may look or even come off as naïve at times, but he’s no fool, he can sense that his older brother is trying to hide something. “Dude, seriously, what was that? I’ve been standing back here reading the screens. I saw Y/N’s name and that looked like her phone number on that other file…, you know the file that looks like texts messages. And why is there a plotted map of the area around her apartment, her work, and to the lair? What’s up?”, Mikey said giving a disapproving look at being thought a pushover.

· “Just standard surveillance, Mikey, nothing to worry about.”, Donnie says trying to placate Mikey’s curiosity. Donnie hates lying, especially to Mikey, but he’s feeling so guilty about being such a…(inward sigh)…stalking creep that admitting the truth is hard to do.

· Mikey stands there staring at Donnie and, as he does, Donnie begins to fidget with his computer chair armrests.

· Mikey stuffs the remnants of the pizza slice into his mouth and does his best Leo impersonation by crosses his arms and staring down at Donnie as sternly as his jolly face can achieve, “Dude, I’m not going to ask you again. You’ve been weird for months. We’ve let it go for the most part but now you are hiding things from me…from ME, dude! You and I, we’re like peanut butter and jelly, we’re ice cream and chocolate fudge, we young dudes have got to stick together. Trust me, bro, I’ve got you!”.

· Donnie stared at the floor, too ashamed to meet Mikey’s eyes any longer. He gave a heavy sigh and reluctantly started to speak, “Sorry Mike, I…I honestly don’t know what’s come over me lately. I’m doing things I never thought I would do, I’m feeling so guilty about it, but I don’t know if I can stop doing it either. I feel…lost.”.

· Mike relaxed his leader stance and leaned against one of Donnie’s lab tables, “Bro, I can tell you’ve been carrying some heavy stuff lately. You need to let it out.”

· Donnie felt the heat rise up through his body like he was suddenly being consumed by a fire and he ripped his glasses off his face and drew them down on the desk in frustration, “Mikey, I’m in love with Y/N. I have been for a while. I have been…”, Donnie hangs his head in shame, “…tracking all her digital foot prints and watching her. In fact, I’m the reason she found out that asshole boyfriend of her's cheated.”

· Mikey’s mouth drops open at Donnie’s demeanor and use of the word ‘asshole’, “Whoa, dude, why didn’t you say something earlier?”.

· Donnie can feel a stinging at the corners of his eyes, this was so embarrassing, so frustrating, so…..so many things at a once. He didn’t have a response for Mikey, all he could do was shake his head.

· Still with his head hung down and staring at the floor, Donnie starts to hear Mikey chuckle. Donnie looks up to see Mikey’s eyes on him and for some reason they are full of merriment at his painful dilemma. Donnie stares at his, normally, very considerate brother in astonishment, this isn’t like Mikey at all!

· “Mikey, I’m more than serious here, now is not the time to make fun of me. What is so funny?”, Donnie asks exasperatedly.

· Mikey shakes his bald head and claps his brother on the shoulder with his green hand, “Bro, she thinks you’re cute.”.

· “W-What?!”, Donnie stammers out.

· Mikey, still chuckling, says, “Yeah, dude, that’s why I asked WHY you didn’t say something about liking her sooner, she’s always thought you were cute. She and I talk about it all the time.”.

· Donnie just stares at his jolly brother in silence. His mind is too blown to form a sentence.

· Mikey turns to leave stating, “And by the way, dude, stop watching her like that…that’s just creepy.”.

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[someguyiguess]

Every multiple of 7

7:What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?

I dunno. probably move on or something idk

14:Is there someone who continuously lets you down?

my parents

21:Is anyone else in the room with you?

just the worm

28:Is anyone ignoring you right now?

I don't think so

35:How many more days until your birthday?

fourteen dozen

42:Are you available?

I mean yeah I guess but I'm aroace so don't expect much

49:Was your last kiss a mistake?

I've never kissed anyone

56:Do you own anything from other countries?

I have a small knife I got in costa rica, a hat I got in italy, a different hat I got in canada. I think that's it.

63:What was the last movie you saw?

WAIT IT"S NOT THE MATRIX I FORGOT it was christopher robin (2018)

70:Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships?

I dunno I'm not really a relationships person at all. to each their own.

77:Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour?

I'm not sure this was the best ask game to do apparently

84:Last time you slow danced with someone?

sophomore year homecoming. not a hugely fun time.

91:If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?

actually yeah sometimes I do find myself wishing, but alas.

98:Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?

not yet

105:If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?

idk do sexy people even exist or are allos just making that shit up

112:Does someone like you currently?

idk probably not I've never been the type of person people are into I don't think.

wow that was a lot of them thank you though. gonna have to remember to not use this ask game again though. not fit for my lifestyle.

[sapphire374]

Soy Sol: Chapter 2 (Gossip that Spreads like Wildfire)

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Luna is stunned by what she's just witnessed. She'd never expect Matteo to be cozying up so close with a random girl, especially after everything they've been through together. Luna started having doubts and her fears just came rushing over her like a waterfall. She couldn't believe that he would do this, all because she was late

When Matteo sees that it was Luna who opened the door, he immediately got up ignoring Viviana, as if she wasn't there. "Luna, I've been looking everywhere for you. You promised you would be here for my last show and you know how important this is for me. Why were you late.... again? You even promised to watch the entire show this time." Luna just stood there, staring at Matteo. Her rambunctious thoughts were clouding her judgement. She doesn't want to think about it, yet she already is. What if Matteo is cheating on her?

Matteo's face quickly changed when he saw a depressed look on her very pale face. "Que to pasa mi amor? What's the matter my love?" Matteo asks Luna in a very worried tone. Luna shakes her head from a terrified trance. "No nothing, I just came to tell you how proud I am. The arena seemed packed with loads of people. Umm yeah and I also wanted to apologize for being late. Too late it seems." Luna tries to not think about what she noticed yet the random girl staying in the room isn't making Luna feel any better. "I'm sorry who are you?" Luna questions the girl sitting on the couch who seems to not feel bad for listening on their conversation.

"I'm Viviana Marcel. Some people like to call me a very famous actress and rising singer; but if I'm being modest, I've only been in like fifteen movies," Viviana brags to Luna, showing off. "Really. Well sorry I had to ask is just I've never seen you on TV or in anything," Luna says sincerely which brings an enraged frown onto Viviana's face. "Oh, would you look at the time, it's getting late. I don't want to arrive home late since I have a very important meeting at Laix tomorrow. You know the place where famous people work together. I wouldn't be surprised if you didn't know it since you're not, well a celebrity. Ciao Matteo, I'll talk to you later." Viviana leaves after giving a wink to Matteo.

Luna's depressed look still stays plastered on her face. That girl almost reminds her of a celebrity version of Daniela, and after everything was finally going great for her and Matteo. "Luna, your smile has disappeared all of a sudden and hasn't come back. Please tell me what's wrong. I'm always here for you," Matteo states to Luna, expressing his concern. Luna almost stutters when she says, "Matteo why is Viviana here? What were you doing with her?" Matteo instantly takes a sigh of relief because he originally thought something unpleasant happened to her. "Oh, Luna you don't have to worry about her. She's just a friend I met through Rafeal. It's okay." "Matteo what would've happened if I didn't arrive at that moment," Luna asks anxiously holding on to every word she said. Matteo hesitantly replies, "Nothing. Nothing at all."

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Next Morning

Simón and Ámbar's House

Simón wakes up in his Buenos Aires home at eight o'clock in the morning. He's surprised to notice Ámbar is not there beside him. He pulls the sheets to their new bed and marches to the kitchen. Ámbar is sitting in the dining table doing some paperwork while drinking a café con leche. This brings a large smile on his face seeing how hard of a worker his soon to be wife is. "Buenos días mi amor. Good morning my love," Simón declares to Ámbar which also brings a warm smile on her face. "So, how's the paperwork going?" Simón asks Ámbar. "Honestly, it's not looking too good. I don't know if we'll be able to keep the Jam and Roller for so long especially since Vidia is considering on selling it to this company who wants to remodel it as a club and bar. They're the ones with the highest bid and if nobody comes soon to place a higher offer... we may lost it," Ámbar reluctantly replies to Simón.

"I can't believe this. First the separation of the Roller Band, then the separation of the Roller team, and now this. The worst part is how can we even tell Luna about this? How can we tell the rest about this," Simon complains while he and Ámbar give each other worried glances. "I don't know how we should tell her but one thing I know for sure is that we need to tell her soon cause what if she finds out and thinks we were lying to her this whole time. The one thing I've learned from my previous mistakes is that lying does no good and the truth always ends up revealing itself... but we'll think about that later. Right now, let's eat some breakfast cause I have a meeting to get to. Whatever happens, we need to find a backup plan to work somewhere else while I study to become a lawyer."

As Ámbar gets up from her chair, she turns the TV on. The news channel announces, "This just in! Viviana has been spotted AGAIN being very close to Matteo Balsano, the infamous 'Quiero Verte Sonreir' artist, yesterday night at his last concert for his Alla Voy Tour. Could this mean that Matteo has a new girlfriend and broke up with Luna Valente!" Ámbar and Simón both turn their heads and look at each other, shocked by what they just saw on the news. "I can't believe it! I wonder what Luna must be thinking watching this. It's just that this doesn't even make sense. Matteo would never do such a thing to Luna and even so she would have told me by now," Simón states confusingly. Simón and Ámbar are both confused and concerned about what they have just witnessed.

. . . . . . . .

Nina's Apartment

Nina accidentally spills her coffee after hearing what she just saw on the news. Gastón hears the loud noises in the living room, so he runs quickly to Nina from the kitchen to help her. "Que paso, what happened? Are you okay Nina," Gaston asks while helping her clean the mess she made. Gastón arrived last night from his job being an engineer. The company he works at has multiple branches, so he tends to travel all around the globe to set up meetings and build all sorts of new gadgets. Nina had also arrived from Oxford after finishing the semester early. She only has one year left to graduate and can't wait to travel with Gastón as a professional writer.

"Did you hear what was on the news? Apparently, Matteo has been spotted multiple times with this girl named Viviana. News outlets think that he broke up with Luna and replaced her with Viviana. I just couldn't believe it. I was so shocked I accidentally tipped over my coffee. Sorry for the mess," Nina states to Gastón. "No pasa nada. It's okay, the stain easily comes off but going back to what happened with Matteo... is this true, en serio," Gastón wonders, hoping Nina would say a 'no, just kidding' but sadly that was not the case. "Well we don't know if he did break up with Luna but the pictures that they showed of him with Viviana look very real and very close." "Esto no puede ser. This can't be true. I'm going to call Matteo right away. We have to get to the bottom of this," Gastón vividly expresses his disbelief right before turning his head and seeing the TV screen, in which he noticed the girl that's with Matteo. He doesn't for sure know who she is, but that girl appears very familiar to him. Then, Gastón remembered who she is and quickly runs to go call Matteo. After Nina puts her mug inside the sink, she rushes to go call Luna as well.

*BTW: Thank you guys for the support you've been giving Soy Sol in the last chapter. I really do appreciate it and hope you guys like the rest :D *

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[curseofaphrodite]

*digs up our last message because can't remember what we were talking about apart from crushes...*

Haha yeah, Penny is literally a dog in guinea pig's body once he grows to know you. He even licks your face.

Oh no, no no no, that's a bad coping mechanism, in any case. Don't ever again do that, I've seen up close what that does to a person.

Yeah, I don't think Joker is getting a redemption arch either because he's a person with APD (though if his story about his father would be true, his personality could be explained through that because childhood abuse does weird things to people... join Jenni's psychology class this Sunday at 3pm XD) but Pennywise (the clown, not hopefully my piggy) is just this supernatural evil entity who literally doesn't have a heart, isn't breathing, doesn't need food, drink, air etc, he isn't a human. Just some supernatural creature.

Yikes... people who push you into doing something are huuuuge red flags. I still am angry how women are sexualized everywhere and it's a norm that men are shamelessly looking at your tits and ass and might even compliment them even if you're a complete stranger and in some societies that's entirely acceptable??? Just now people have started talking that even if you're talking to your friend about someone that "ooh [name] looks so sexy, I'd like to fuck her", it's sexual abuse. And your ex-crushes brought my mom's ex to my mind. This scene is straight from a soap opera, prepare to laugh or gape, I don't know what I should think about this.

Soooo my mom met this guy in 2006, a year after she took a divorce from my dad. He moved in with my mom pretty quickly, and 11yo me was a bit confused about it because my mom usually spun things a lot before proceeding. But yeah, he moved in and seemed like a nice enough guy at first, later he didn't understand my mental health struggles though and yeah, I got a picture that he was relieved when I moved into a psychiatric hospital for teenagers and from that, a mental health home, which was kinda like an orphanage but for mentally challenged teenagers who can't live with their parents/foster parents. I'm not sure what it would be called in English, didn't find anything. So yeah, I didn't really like coming to spend time at home because he was here.

When I moved from that home to a similar home meant for adults (the place where I am now), he started saying that he believes that mom is cheating on him with someone and just claims to be with me, and demanded that mom had to put pictures of us together etc. I remember telling my mom multiple times that those are huuuuge red flags but she didn't listen.

Well guess what came forward in May this year? He had cheated on my mom with my mom's next door neighbor, and moved to her place in one day. After 14½ years old relationship with my mom, he did something like that. But plot twist!! Her kids weren't fond of him and he very quickly (within like 2 weeks) told my mom that it was a mistake and begged my mom to be taken back. Well because my mom wasn't hit hard enough, she took him back even though literally everyone around her said that don't take him back, but my mom was sure that she wouldn't get anyone because she's "too old to begin dating again and nobody wants her because she's so old" (she's 51...)

Well, my dad's funeral day came (August 7) and I was over to my mom overnight because it started at 1pm and we had to be there at 12pm to greet any funeral guests (side note, my dad's two best friends from his teen + young adult years came too as a part-surprise, I could have cried and hugged them if covid wasn't on because they cared enough even though they haven't seen dad in what, 20+ years?). I told my mom that I don't want to see her boyfriend when I'm there, because I'm still mad at him even if mom forgave him, so he went to stay overnight with his sister's family and told how they had went to a sauna with his nephew and even a group selfie of how they ate dinner together. And next morning, my mom caught him to be cheating with that same woman again, and he told my mom while sitting at the living room that because me and mom conveniently are away because we're burying my dad, he and his girlfriend had planned that they'd take his things and take them back to her apartment?? Because we're CONVENIENTLY BURYING MY DAD???? You could say that if me and my mom would be away on a cruise or an amusement park, but burying my dad......

So yeah mom kicked him out (literally, she kicked him until he agreed to leave her home, I had a temptation to kick him too but restrained myself, I just glared at him)

But yeah, now he lives next door and because covid is worsening here again (our restrictions started to pull out and for some people it meant that WE'RE FREEEEE SITUATION IS OVER, now our situation is almost the same as in spring 2020), mom can't get a new apartment.

But yeah, her ex has gone crazy now. He kicks my mom's door, sabotages her keyhole so she can't get in, has punctured my mom's car's tires, throws rocks into her windows, stalks her and literally hides in a bush if he's on a smoke when mom comes out from the building and when she passes him, he mumbles something along the lines of "boo-hoo, do you need a tissue from crying so much after me, hehe", and he's like 48? I think? He also NEVER ONCE said my mom is beautiful or praised anything in her personality etc during their whole relationship, only thing he praised was her ass.

I mean yeah I knew that he wasn't the best possible boyfriend who mom could get to herself, that came clear after he started to accuse mom of cheating etc, but I wouldn't have thought that he's turning out like that. Mom is laughing at him now because he has been so messed up now, and she's looking to date something else already. She already found one who she really liked but he had an early stage of Parkinson's disease and he came to a conclusion that mom wouldn't be able to take it because when Parkinson's progresses, it could get really difficult and he didn't want to risk it (and yeah I have to agree that I agree with him, and mom agreed too after she thought about it and her heart didn't break because she realized it herself). She's already looking for someone else.

I hadn't had celebrity crushes either before Freddy tbh :D But yeah I'm not jealous of Caroline. Because for one, Freddy doesn't know me and two, I wouldn't have any chances anyway. + They look so cute and happy together and it always makes me smile, sometimes I feel like answering everyone insulting Caroline and being like uhhh Free Rein wasn't a documentary or anything, Pin doesn't exist, neither does Zoe or Sam or Marcus or anyone else in it, and to those who are telling him to dump Caroline and date them instead, I'd tell that they do know that it would be pretty fucking illegal of Freddy to date a 12 year old or anyone who's below the age of 16 (16-18 is also kinda questionable imo as he's a decade older but one of my friends met her boyfriend when she was 16, he was 23, they have been together for 5 years now and they're still very happy so it can work too) and that in any case, it's really rude to come up and put such things to Freddy's post where he wishes Caroline happy birthday... or any post in general, but you to put them to her birthday post is rude x1000.

And yeah well hopefully I don't have to deal with him again. Otherwise I'll have to travel to some place which has like one street which looks like it could be in Ketterdam and go take photos when it's really cloudy or rainy and be like "Kaz took these pics of me". XD

(the clown, not hopefully my piggy)

HOPEFULLY NOT im wheezing- our penny would never, he's far too cute for that.

it may not be healthy but (insert a half-convincing excuse here). I don't think of Julie too much though, I guess that's smth 🥲

pennywise literally comes with a red flag. no wait thats a red balloon but lets just pretend its a red flag.

I still am angry how women are sexualized everywhere and it's a norm that men are shamelessly looking at your tits and ass and might even compliment them even if you're a complete stranger and in some societies that's entirely acceptable???

LOUDER 👏👏👏 It's disgusting, I mean especially if it's a stranger. Pretty and beautiful is okay but it's still a weird way to start a convo like "hi, you're beautiful" which makes them think that the only reason the person is talking to them is because they're beautiful.

i already hate that dude after reading the first para. he sounds like a ✨jerk✨

Oh hell no, overly suspiciously people are creepy. It's weird if he can't trust the person he's dating.

THAT DUMMY DID WHATT. He literally accused her of cheating and went ahead and did the cheating??? 🥲🔪 "Her kids weren't fond of him" HAH I CAN SEE WHY.

my mom caught him to be cheating with that same woman again

TF IS HE GOING FOR A RECORD- and he literally couldn't have chosen a worse time. I'm sorry you had to experience that. And I'm sorry for your mom too. Sending hugs for the both of you 🥺

pls your mom is cool, he deserves a good kick. glaring works wonders too.

OH WHAT he's your neighbour now?? holy shit he sounds really damn creepy too like, I think if your mom applied for a restraining order against him, she'll totally get one because being this involved with your lives even after the relationship ended ages ago, that's so, I repeat, so creepy.

Freddy deserves to be happy with his gf without his day being slightly ruined by 12 yos simping over him. Those type of obsessions can get dark really quick. I don't think they realize how sad even the smallest hate comment can make. Just because celebrities are popular doesn't mean they don't have feelings, ugh.

HAHA yes or just go to unsplash and download random street pictures.

#jenni the brilliant 🦢 #🏷️ : lovely people #tea with mutuals

[yeehawcomputer]

hal. can i ask every number for the 1-50 violation of privacy thingy??😁😁😁

1. Did you wake up cranky? - No, actually.

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? - Nope.

3. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? - Boys, I think. I'm not exactly sure why. But boys.

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? - Yes, and I do it often. In my state and town it's pretty common. Also waving and saying "hi how're you."

5. Can you commit to one person? - Not sure what this means. I don't think I could get by only being close to one person, though, if that's what it's asking.

6. How do you look right now? - Cute. Kinda a early 2000s Disney channel sitcom aunt that's probably a lesbian vibe. Also, tired.

7. What exactly are you wearing right now? - Wide leg jeans; socks with bees; graphic Sirius Black t-shirt; orange-y brown, blue, and white big flannel; two necklaces; a TON of bracelets and rings; one raddish earing and one skeleton earing. Oh and underwear of course.

8. How often do you listen to music? - Every single day.

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? - JEANS. WHAT EVEN ARE SWEATS.

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2014? - Um. I mean. *Checks watch* it's 2021?????

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person? - Antisocial.

12. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? - "Good for you! Feel free to talk to me about them" or something.

13. Are you good at hiding your feelings? - I have no idea. Probably not.

14. Can you drive a stick shift? - Can't drive at all.

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you? - Sort of? Like, I want people to like me, but it doesn't like hurt me if they talk shit about me.

16. Are you going out of town soon? - No.

17. When was the last time you cried? - About an hour ago.

18. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? - For sure. First impressions definitely count, but sometimes they're wrong. Happens fairly often.

19. If you could change your eye color, would you? - No way, I love my confusing eyes.

20. Name something you have to do tomorrow? - Go to school.

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having. - It's Tuesday.

22. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex? - The opposite of genderqueer is...? I mean, if we're talking boys, then yes.

23. Are you nice to everyone? - Pretty much. I try to be. Unless they're awful.

24. What are you sitting on right now? - A pillow that's on the floor.

25. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? - Yes.

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? - Yes.

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? - My mom or Frisk or @magic-weirdo , lol. My mom, for sure.

28. Do you get a lot of colds? - Not really.

29. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? - Swimsuit, yes. -_-

30. Does anyone hate you? - I'm sure someone hates me. I'm not sure exactly who, but someone does.

31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? - Once again. Opposite? But no. There is no one that I can tell everything to. :/

32. Do you like watching scary movies? - NO.

33. Are you a jealous person? - Sadly, yes.

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? - I think that this would mess with time, so I refuse to answer.

35. Did you have a dream last night? - Yeah, but I can't remember it.

36. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? - No. I already said no.

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? - DEFINITELY NOT.

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you? - 1, yes, Frisk. 2, yes, one of my best friends does and it's SUPER awkward. He doesn't know I know, though.

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? - Yeah. At least I hope someone is.

40. Did you have a good day yesterday? - Not really. It was a bit of an off day.

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship? - Yeah. Frisk.

42. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? - It's pretty different. Little things are the same, though.

43. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? - Cuddling and talking.

44. What’s the best part about school? - It fills my time.

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? - I don't have Facebook.

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? - Yes, lots in math. Also, we share Google Docs.

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? - Mhm. Sometimes that's good, sometimes it's bad.

48. Were you single over the last summer? - No. *hides under a bush*

49. What are you supposed to be doing right now? - I'm not meant to be doing anything, really. I could work on stuff for school, but I don't need to.

50. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? - Yes. You and Frisk are the last people that I messaged (who I know what they look like).

#you're a bitch #this took forever #but ily #mouldy mars #longpost #ask games

[vkookjamz]

⋆☽Kitten☾⋆

|| Prologue. 1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9. 10. 11. 12. 13. 14.

| 𝐽𝑢𝑛𝑔𝑘𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑥 𝐶𝑎𝑡-𝐻𝑦𝑏𝑟𝑖𝑑 𝐹𝑒𝑚𝑎𝑙𝑒 𝑅𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑒𝑟 |

"𝘉-𝘉𝘢𝘣𝘺 𝘨𝘪𝘳𝘭..?"

𝘑𝘶𝘯𝘨𝘬𝘰𝘰𝘬'𝘴 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘬𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘯. 𝘈𝘭𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩, 𝘰𝘥𝘥𝘭𝘺 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩, 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘢 𝘬𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦..

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Jungkook's POV

"Where is he?? Where the hell is Jin!?"

My voice raised with panic as I rushed through the front door of the large dorm, looking around wildly to find sight of the oldest.

Yoongi followed shortly behind me, breathing heavily through his nose with his nostrils slightly flared and his jaw clenched.

He was tired, I could tell he was. After all, the both of us hadn't stopped running the moment we got out of the car- but I couldn't let myself become exhausted so easily.

Adrenaline flooded my veins, possibly enough to fuel a pack of ravenous wolves.

"What?.."

Turning my head to the soft voice, I met eyes with y/n who was on the couch with Tae and Jimin.

The three were all bundled up on the couch watching a movie. Now all staring at me with confused expressions.

Taehyung sat up stretching out his arms letting out a tired sigh. "He left for the store about an hour after you two left- why? Did he upset you too??"

"And he's not back yet?" Yoongi questioned stepping forward looking between the two males seriously, ignoring Tae's salty remark as I grew frustrated.

"No why- wha-"

"Jungkook!- Hyung- they don't know anything"

Namjoon cut my sentence short while stepping out of Hobi's room as he spoke, Hoseok following shortly behind him leaning his shoulder against the doorframe.

"What's.. going on- is Jin okay?"

Y/n sat up more, her body turning directly to face the the four of us standing, her ears perked up in alert as she looked between Yoongi and me.

Her eyes looked so innocent, so puzzled yet concerned.

Surely she couldn't change, whoever this person was sending these threats and warnings- surely they had to be mistaken..

Namjoon glanced his eyes at me, then at her. He gave a quick side nod in direction to Hoseok's room, to which Yoongi noticed and went into with Hoseok himself.

"Yeah.. Jin's fine I just heard he was going to the store- I wanted to get back in time to ask him to get me certain things specifically-" I lied corner eyeing Joon, who gave a single nod resting his eyes shut for a moment.

"Well sheesh that sure was a dramatic way of doing it-" Jimin chuckled causing Taehyung to scrunch his nose.

I shrugged at the olders comment, watching as Tae got up heading towards the kitchen after slightly chuckling.

"Oh please you're one to talk, you literally once said we weren't friends anymore after I beat you in a game" he scoffed causing Jimin's mouth to go agape at his words.

Already knowing the twos bickering was about to start, both y/n and Namjoon rolled their eyes. With him heading back into Hoseok's room, and y/n getting up to come my way with a small cute smile.

Pursing my lips I attempted to return it as best I could, opening my mouth to speak before-

"YAH- That's because you cheated!! And you said you weren't cheating TO MY FACE. Even though you WERE" Jimin argued following Taehyung into the kitchen.

"Has it been like this all day?"

~Time Skippy~

"Hyung?? Hyung where are you it's been like 3 hours- And why do you keep sending me to voicemail?? Hello??" Jimin sighed ending his call and ran a hand through his slightly yellow blonde hair.

I felt myself tense again shaking my head, leaning forward to rest my elbows on my knees and my head in my hands.

"I swear to god if anyone-"

Without notice there was a loud thud from outside the room we all were currently in, followed by sounds of staggering footsteps and heavy breaths.

Namjoon's eyes grew with panic as he stood then looking to me.

"Where's y/n-"

"In Yoongi's studio with him- it's not them-" Hoseok replied quickly.

"YAH CAN'T ANYONE IN THIS PLACE HEAR ME STRUGGLING WITH THE DOOR?!"

The yell causing everyone to flinch slightly before quickly rushing out to see, as there stood Jin.

A thin layer of sweat covered his red flushed face as he let out a tired sigh, putting a bunch of groceries onto the counter and letting the rest in his hands drop to the floor.

"JIN"

"HYUNG"

"YOU PABO"

All of us shouted simultaneously rushing towards the eldest embracing him tightly.

His eyes widened looking down at all of us then giving each of the back of our heads a rough smack as we pulled away.

"That was to whichever one of you called me pabo"

"Jin why weren't you answering your phone you had us wo-" Jin raised his hand to cut off Jimin.

"When I finished shopping I went back to my car and I had a flat tire, when I opened my trunk to get the spare it was GONE because I remember SOMEONE WANTED TO SEE IF THEY COULD FIT IN IT AND HAVE JUNGKOOK PUSH THEM DOWN THE HILL AT THE PARK"

Jin's eyes narrowed as he huffed looking between me and Tae, who sat playing with his fingers avoiding eye contact with the older as much as I did.

"If it's any consolation Tae's ass didn't fit in the tire.."

"SHUT UP-"

"Both of you shut up and let Hyung finish!" Jimin complained nudging us both.

"THEN I had to call for a tow truck but my phone died right in the middle of calling for one, so then I had to go back into the store to use their phone, so I'm sorry I had you all worried" Jin sighed.

"No no it's alright Hyung, we just thought something bad happened to you-"

"I- YAH NAMJOON-AH THAT IS BAD" Jin scolded raising his hand up as if to slap the other as he just flinched in response.

"No Hyung- we mean someone was after you- the same people who had been threatening me about y/n- they left a note that made us think they were coming for you-"

I grabbed the paper from Hoseok's grasp handing it to him. He took the letter and read over it, his brows scrunching up as he shook his head.

"When did you get this-"

"I found it outside not long after you left why?" Hoseok moved to stand beside Jin, who reached in his side pocket shakily.

He pulled out a small crumpled sheet, opening it up after handing me back the letter. Then showing it to all of us as he pursed his lips.

Looking at the letter then the paper in Jin's hand, I tilted my head repeatedly darting my eyes between the both of them.

But my eyes weren't fooling me.

They had the same hand writing.

Turning, I noticed the others around me, all had the same blank frightened expression at the writing before they all looked at me, then at Jin.

"Because whoever wrote that, signed the receipt for towing my car"

A/n: Chapter 15 will be the last daily update of "Kitten" are you ready for tomorrow? ;)

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