#and idk how to organize any of it

[mumbledramblings]

i had a vision from god the other night

anyway i love how some of wolfwood's first character-establishing scenes in both animes is him trying to scam people

#trigun #trigun stampede #tristamp #trigun 98 #tri98 #trigun fanart #nicholas d wolfwood #nicholas d. wolfwood #mid draws #idk if anyone has done this yet #had a full on eureka moment earlier about how wolfwood's cover for being a gung-ho gun isn't being a priest #it's being a con artist pretending to be a priest #like it is SO obvious he isn't a real priest/undertaker that people just immediately think “oh this guy is just a con artist” #and they don't think any further #so the reveal of “oh hey i'm actually part of an anti-human terrorist organization (though not necessarily willingly)” is an actual surpris #because you think he's just a con man who's really bad at his job #i feel like the last person to come to this conclusion 😶 #genuine character analysis? in MY memes? it's more likely than you think

[infriga]

It's funny to me how Jesse is somehow the most normal weird person and the most weird normal person simultaneously.

#Control #Jesse Faden #Control remedy #Control game #Like she is not a normal person by any means #she became the boss of a super secret supernatural organization by accident #and talks to a mysterious benevolent lovecraftian being in her head #But also her thought process is so much more normal than most of the other people at the FBC #and she's fully aware of how bizarre her career projectory was even for the FBC and is the only person who seems to acknowledge that #Idk how to articulate it exactly lol #But she's both extremely normal for someone at the FBC but also extremely not normal for someone at the FBC #If that makes any sense

[novantinuum]

random post, but there's like... only a single point of SU canon that I outright ignore, and that's the tiny moment at the beginning of Monster Reunion where Steven somehow "mends" a plushie as their re-introduction to his healing powers.

i think this is very lame and personally ignore the idea that he can "mend" matter that isn't organic or gem in nature completely, because i just don't see how it makes sense. i would've far preferred him re-discovering his powers by healing a wilting flower or something

#*shrugs* idk man i just don't think it makes sense #it's Too Powerful an ability if he can just fuckin mend any object #keeping it shackled to organic or gem only falls more in line with how literally ALL of his other powers work #with him straddling both of these worlds- and thus being able to influence both of them #this is also why healing the geode in House Guest might not've worked to begin with #like... IS it gem in nature? it's a bit fuzzy #jen rambles

[shadeswift99]

Hot take: How chill an MCC streamer is about possibly having to replay a game due to technical issues is a pretty accurate indicator of how fun they'll be to watch overall

#mcc #shade rambles #like on a surface level i get why somebody might be disappointed if they were doing really well，I would be too #but idk it just really puts me off when people are Overly Mad about it #oh my mind because of how chill hbomb is being about all the tech issues #I've never watched him before but that's a good sign i think #compared to Some Other Streamers in the past #it's kinda embarassing to get super mad about stuff the organizers can't control especially if there's this weird implication of like #''this issue is sabotaging Me Specifically'' #glad to not see any of that this time #that i know of

[lord-squiggletits]

I need to reread the comics again to have specific arguments/evidence for this, but like

I feel a bit like I could've been sympathetic to the way other Cybertronian colonies view Cybertron, if it weren't for the fact that at least several of them (as in, ones that get notable dialogue/screen time) are so low-key self-righteous?

Like, idk... there's a lot of criticism of Cybertronians because they're so "warlike" and how their obsession with violence and vengeance is just dragging the whole galaxy down with them, but uh. The Autobot-Decepticon war was basically a product of societal ills bubbling over for like 6 million years beforehand and then finally boiling over into a 4 million year war that lasted as long as it did because the people involved had immense social/psychological trauma from being "raised" in an oppressive society.

So when the colonists come in being all 'omg you people are so violent and uncivilized why don't you just like, stop fighting' it kind of pissed me off a little bit as a reader/person like. Idk the colonists really came into this society of people full of massive amounts of trauma where even before the war society was super oppressive and no one has any experience of living "normal" lives unaffected by violence and bigotry. And the colonists were like "ummm wow why don't you guys just??? stop fighting???." Like idk it wasn't EVERY SINGLE MOMENT, in fact I think that when it was played for laughs it's quite a funny "fridge horror" type element. It was just annoying because like.... IDK???? It's just really annoying to watch a bunch of people who lived relatively sheltered lives on their own planets come to a different planet full of traumatized people and be like "omg why are you people so fucked up" IDK BRO MAYBE BECAUSE THEIR SOCIETY WAS OPPRESSIVE AND THEY LIVED THROUGH A LIFELONG WAR???

It also doesn't help that the colonies were literally founded based on imperialism and conquest so like, it's fucking rich to hear colonists scolding Cybertronians for their violence ruining the whole galaxy while literally sitting on planets that their Primes colonized from others. The hypocrisy of this is briefly mentioned in Unicron (literally the FINAL STORY OF THE SERIES) but like, that's basically the only time Cybertronian characters are given a reprieve of sympathy from other characters in universe and it's so tiresome.

I've talked to other people who didn't like the colonists and thought they basically (narratively speaking) existed just to shit on the existing characters, and it's actually really easy for me to sympathize with/outright agree with that assessment of the story considering how much of exRID/OP seems to be preoccupied with "Cybertron/the Primes/Optimus sucks" with very few reprieves for anything positive happening and even fewer chances for characters to get to explain themselves and experience a little bit of justice? Like, as the audience, it's just very frustrating to see the characters you spent hundreds of issues keeping up with get shit on by a bunch of "literally-who"s and then not really get a chance to ever defend themselves, either by literally defending themselves in conversation or having some sort of narrative thing happening that vindicates them at least symbolically

#squiggposting #paused work to muse about this which i prolly shouldn't have lol #oh well i'll still get stuff done #like idk an example of this is how pyra criticized OP for using religion to manipulate people #(lets just ignore how she said she would teach OP but never actually did) #but in the story there's never any sort of confrontation where pyra learns about history or talks with OP #and OP gets to be like. yeah on my planet primes fucking sucked and i'm the only one trying to redeem their image #also ive been fighting an endless war that lasted 4 mil years in which me being a shining figurehead was basically #the sole motivating force keeping my army from just collectively succumbing to endless despair #and i also had to use this shining figurehead image i had to keep the opposing army from genociding a bunch of organics #like not once does OP get to express his side of things he's basically just shit upon endlessly by other characters as he keeps doing plot #i feel like i had another example but i can't recall who/what was involved lmao #like idk it's not just that barber's writing is depressing and dark and edgy. i LIKE stories that do that kind of thing #it's just that it feels a bit as if the story is ENDLESSLY depressing and dark and edgy with almost no reprieve #as if it's mostly presenting the flaws of the characters with no chance for them to justify or redeem themselves #idk i feel like there was another better point/example i was gonna make but i can't remember it #like idk i guess a dark depressing story would've been better if the characters at least got to defend themselves #bc as is it basically feels like they (esp OP) get shit on endlessly and never once get to express anything about it #so like. they get shit on in universe. but also as the reader since there's never a contradicting viewpoint or the character defending them #it's as if you're supposed to take this one-sided criticism of them at face value and it just doesn't seem fair AS THE READER #if i read about OP getting shit on by some people and defended by others and also him expressing his opinion on himself #then that just feels like a normal fair narrative where i get to take sides #but if it's just OP being shit on and he hardly expresses much about it #then it feels like i as the reader am expected to agree with the portrayal being shown? #but in reality the portrayal just feels negative and unfair and one sided to me #and why the fuck do i want to read a story that's just the characters i know and like on an endless shame parade #also shout out to 'literally who' aka slide calling OP 'literally fascist' lmao #one of the most cringe moments of the entire comic. wait no. i can think of a more cringe Slide Moment #when unicron is about to destroy the planet and trypticon is getting shot and dying(?) in the background #and the story decides to pause and focus on Slide so she can monologue about how evil and tyrannical OP is

[byanyan]

stuck on this idea today of byan playing animal crossing and becoming absolutely obsessed with designing and decorating their island... like, spending hours and hours setting everything up perfectly, exactly the way they want it... spending hours even just making their own patterns to pull everything together... and it looks incredible when they're finished, it's aesthetic and it's stunning, you can tell just by walking through a section of the island that they poured a ton of work in and had a load of fun with it.

but then i'm also thinking about them playing stardew valley and it's the complete opposite... their farm is absolute chaos, there's no organization whatsoever and half their crops die bc they forget to water them. they spend most of their time in the mines and fishing and have probably only spoken to a lot of the characters once bc they can only focus on a few specific aspects of the game at any given time otherwise it's too much and they get overwhelmed. giving gifts?? developing relationships?? uhm, no thanks, that's way too much to fuckin remember

#is that similar to how I play stardew? ...yeah. there's too much in that game for me to play it to it's full potential I stg #anyway idk I'm just thinking about byan enjoying cozy games today for whatever reason #and there's no in between with them: they're either amazing at it or they miss half the game #everything is either perfect and organized and gorgeous or it's an absolute mess and there's no organization to any of their storage #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

[apostaterevolutionary]

You know what would be really funny, is if people came together to have an anti-crab day. A day where every user who joined prior to automattic’s acquisition logged off for 24 hours to show that yes, actually, older user retention is important and you should listen us just as much as new users

The users giveth, the users taketh away

#this isn’t about the sidebar btw I’ve already said I don’t mind the sidebar #I think it could be a better sidebar like the 2014 tumblr layout which was great #but it’s Fine (tm) #this is about live and the new post editor and the apparent avatar removal bs ‘experiment’ #and it’s also about how these big overhauls keep being done meanwhile we can’t have like. a search function that works #or the queue reordering tools that already exist on mobile web applied to any other platform #you know. all the little stuff that’s comparatively easy to implement yet they ‘don’t have time’ for because they’re too busy #with these massive overhauls and ignoring all the asks that go to wip #also I don’t expect anyone to actually do this and I’m sure as hell not organizing anything cause that’s a lot of work lmao #but I think giving them money pre-emptivelt just showed they can do whatever they want and we’ll fall for it #taking away money would be more effective #idk I don’t think current staff are any better at running tumblr than yahoo was #they’re just better at the ‘we’re quirky and relatable just like you guys uwu’ bit #and a lot of us fell for it but I think the illusion is starting to lift #anyway idk it sucks here but all the other sites are either worse or empty so what can we do #(genuinely wtf can we do this nonsense is getting bad) #text #misc #shut up nerd #new layout stuff

[sskk-manifesto]

Atsushi's back in the game!!! ۶( ˆ o ˆ )

#And Kouyou!!!! #Also. I can say Steinbeck is kinda 👀👀👀 #King of the specific category of “I forget I like him until he's on screen” #I'm seriously unlocking memories with this rewatch. Like I haven't thought about it in two years– #but I just know when I was watching the anime for the first time I was being like #“Of COURSE the villains need to spend several minutes each episode explaining in detail how their own superpowers work so that the– #protagonists can get a perfect idea of how to best counter them. Why are villains made so freaking stupid in this show” aljhvwslchvqliyqwb #But. Eh. I guess that's just bsd to you. #Alsoooooo random thought of the day: I don't really favour how Tanizaki's ability was adapted in the anime. #I very well understand they were going for this green Matrix-like illusion effect‚ but every time someone says “... Snow?” #I'm like please explain where do you live that has snow glowing green. #Aamsjgvfaskjhfv sorry this is me being very. Cranky and nitpicky and having terrible audience etiquette in refusing to– #engage in suspension of disbelief. It just bugs me akvakcvqkyb I just feel like... Green is such a non-snow color– #that quite of completely disrupts the Light Snow / Sasame Yuki aesthetic. I would have liked it much better light blue or simply white. #What else. The way the Guild just goes on at stereotypes still troubles me a lot. The “usamericans can't be touched by laws– #because they use money to corrupt anyone” “foreign criminal organization come in our country to corrupt our pure and untouched soil” #Idk. Maybe all of it is true. Can it still be deemed a stereotype when it's objectively something that's happened before– #and will probably keep happening? #I suppose I'm just not a fan of the constant hostility against any foreigner. Idk. #This situation besides is extremely ironical. If you meet me irl it probably won't take long to see me being very outspoken about– #how much I despise usa cultural colonization of all other countries. It's something that really bothers me‚ how rooted and pervasive– #their influence is. So in a lot of ways I can relate to the author's sentiment #I just feel that. If you start treating them as stereotypes and ignore the complexity of a country and the wide spectrum of causes– #that contribute to its attitude in international relations. You end up practicing precisely what you're trying to criticize. #Okay this is the last time I'm getting into the politics of the Guild arc lol #random rambles #This time I took watching the episode slow I feel a little late

[tibli]

go download seek by inaturalist right fucking now that shit is addictive its like trying to fill out a pokedex but the pokedex includes plants and fungi as well

#biology #botany #zoology #idk if its 100% accurate but it shows a comparison photo of the organisms you capture #and it seems fairly accurate to me #i discovered the app a couple weeks ago and im obsessed #bc every other identification app i find requires you to pay #but seek doesnt and it also rewards you with little badges based on how many species you identify!! #idk if it has any glaring issues but i havent seen anything so far!

[yarrowleef]

as this continues to be relevant yeah idk I just think this whole RiverClan nonsense conflict would have been less annoying for me to read if RiverClan had actually descended into true chaos. a situation like Redscar’s field guide story where several cats try to claim authority. but in this case, it goes beyond just two cats fighting and the clan starts splitting into mini factions supporting one self-appointed candidate or the other. the problem being presented as “we all forgot how to do chores without a teacher permission slip :(” is so weird and lame. give me blood shed eat each other alive so i believe your plight ffs!!! 

#warrior cats #asc #yarrow speaks #a starless clan #warrior cats sky #warrior cats shadow #wc criticism #uh i dont think this is spoilers? its the same as last book #sorry i take back that old post saying i didnt want to read about RiverClan brushing off Mothwings authority in this situation #turns out they really SHOULD have so that this plot would make more sense #bc as it stands i cant comprhend why she was unable to just point at Literally Anyone and ask them to organize some patrols for the day. #thats not appointing a leader its Just Doing Chores. switch off who does it every day who cares but how is it this much of a problem #i cant engage with this conflict at all with how its presented #idk first they said some senior warriors were *quietly and passively* gesturing to Frostpaw that they would like to be leader #but then later they said that no senior warrior would step forward. which is it. i just cant stop thinking of all the many many times- #-rando warriors were given temporary patrol organizing duties. it happens all the time. i just. #you cant rly tell me not One Single Cat here can organize some chores for a month or two #bc if thats true and mothwing is unable to just point at any warrior ask them to pick some patrols for the day- #then that suggests the problem is not lacking a starclan chosen leader the problem is apparently every single cat in this clan- #-is too incompetent for the job. and being officially appointed isnt going to suddenly give them that skill if they cant do it now #hence why i wish there had been some bloody fighting over this #but sitting around staring at the wall and doing nothing is cool too ig

[xisanamii]

liu wei featuring his homie (gay) and homie (platonic)

#liu wei #moriyama yoshitaka #kagari erika (oc) #moriliu #salmon arts #if i put the fandom tags after five it won't show up in the tag right lmao #idk how tumblr has changed. whatever #i believe that the... unique way i write liu wei was the foundation for this rarepair because like. canon doesn't have much material #i took a lot of creative liberty with this man #apologies for any other liu wei stans out there #anyway erika and liu wei are like bickering siblings they will claim exclusive privileges to annoy each other #as for moriliu. well liu wei is a no-nonsense flirt and moriyama is a nonsensical flirt i think they're a perfect match personally #(this is the long way of saying liu wei is also a nonsensical flirt actually) #i adore everyone. sighs #knb #kuroko no basket #i don't remember which knb tag i used for my blog so i have to use both every time i post a knb thing i guess. cursed with organized chaos #i'm also listening to hakumyu in the background as i draw and despite it being an otome game there's a lot of gay moments here #also the erika shoving the xiaolongbao into liu wei's mouth is a redraw from four years ago #... old art should not be perceived here #but i am getting very brave with the hands lmao #it's been eleven years... my brain has accepted i cannot leave knb just like hakuouki #god i have a lot of drawing ideas with my yosenverse and vocaloid songs too #all my brainrots coming together

[shoezuki]

I really wanna hit up another counselor/therapist but I'm broke n the last time I hit up a counselor at my university he basically like. Any time I'd try to talk about my difficulties w talkin to people and the fact there's 'ways' to talk to ppl I don't know and all that crap he kept jus going 'you're not weird tho/other ppl have social anxiety too' so I don't have high hopes for that rn

#negativity #i wanna handle my hangups n struggles w talkin to people n socializing and like. how i cant Connect w ppl #but that dude was not helpful tbh #'but youre talking to me!' thats becauze we are in a labelled and preconstructed situation and habe clear roles #every therapist ive had never seemed to like. get what i mean when id try to explain it n idk maybe thats me #its like i am very lonely and cant figure out how to exist organically outside my immediate family. but also #any forms of speaking n socializing ppl is extremely uncomfortable n i cant seem to hold on to any relationships

[arolesbianism]

Oh yeah that’s right other oni characters exist uhhhh Ashkan and Nails Jumpscare

#keese draws #oxygen not included #dylan nails winslow #ashkan seyer ali #the scientists ofc not the dupes #ashkan is my specialist lil boy even if he has literally no dialogue <3 #well ok technically he Might but there’s no evidence that he’s any of the unnamed speakers #most of the unnamed speakers in the logs are biologists and while he likely does work with biologists he seems to primarily work in robotics #although considering banhi and how closely she’s been able to work with bubbles it’s not imposs #ible that he could have worked on one of the bioengineering projects #nails is also a bit tricky to pin down because they seem to be a bioengineer but in their personal log they seem to not rly work with any #organisms directly so maybe they’re more akin to a technician idk #but yeah I adore nails their log is like one of my absolute favorites I Adore it #I was going to draw nikola and ellie too but then I remembered that they’re blond and I hate them <3 #no no I regrettably adore them I just lost motivation lol #yknow I really wish we had any proper ashkan characterization but we really don’t despite him being mentioned quite a bit by oni standards #unfortunately we only get second hand mentions of him and nothing straight from his mouth #we know jean fucked him over a bit by accident and we know some of his work but that’s abt it #speaking of jean I also adore them I should draw them sometime

[seilon]

more and more it makes me kind of uncomfortable (for lack of a better/softer word) to call my own characters ‘ocs’. because like. they’re from a completely original universe and from completely original intertwined stories and all that. so why would i have to specify they’re original in the same way someone would when referring to a character they made for a pre-existing non-original universe/franchise/whatever? by that logic every fiction author ever would be referring to their characters as ocs rather than just. their characters. you know.

#i guess you could say it’s different or something because I haven’t published any one Solid Official Work yet or anything but. #I don’t think that particularly matters? cause then you just get into policing what does and doesn’t count as Real and Official and that #inevitably doesn’t do anything good #idk man I know the term Original Character isn’t technically incorrect in my case but. I just feel like that term was created to separate #fandom creations from their source’s canon. or maybe to describe characters that don’t come from any particular established universe #or story at all (fandom or otherwise). #cause otherwise. why shouldn’t I just be calling them my characters. the characters from my universe and my works. which are #established and incorporated. it’s definitely not properly organized or set up for true publication (at least not yet. definitely possible #I’ll publish something as a consumable structured thing someday) #you just don’t hear established authors calling their characters ocs. because why should they? the original part is sort of a given. #hopefully anyway #anywayyuyyyyyyeuyyyhh sorry this is not important just has been on my mind the last few weeks or few months or more #kibumblabs #I guess there’s also a difference maybe between making characters for the sake of making characters- and those being ocs- versus #characters that are developed as part of a larger work/story #I definitely feel like there’s a difference between the two and how they should be labelled (but im not saying one is more valid than the #other or anything like that.) #like when I see a poll that’s like ‘how many ocs do you have’ I just kinda sit there cause that question. doesn’t make sense in #my situation at all. because it’s the same as asking the author of a fiction novel that question. what do I count as my ‘oc’ #would that mean my primary characters? or vaguely my primary and secondaryish ones? or do you mean every single character mentioned #regardless of importance or prevalence? every single named parent or grandparent or boss or childhood friend or one night stand or etc etc #I feel like it’s weird to call those characters ‘ocs’ in the way the question is implying. but then what DOES count? it just doesn’t make #sense for something like this. right? it irks me a little

[vienicks]

Chrissy Cunningham x reader masterlist

I went through the whole tag and here are all the fics! :) 💗

ao3 pairing link / another different pairing link on ao3 that’s the same thing

Chrissy offers to do your makeup and she winds up sitting over you as you lay on her bed

it’s right before the big game, and you’re tasked with helping your girlfriend put the finishing touches on her makeup

Chrissy doesn’t know what to do when she’s apparently in love with two people, lucky for her, she might have fallen in love with the two perfect people. (Eddie’s here too)

Chrissy’s grades start to drop so the school guidance counselor suggests a tutor. Chrissy forms a little crush on her tutor and finds herself making more and more excuses to be around her

you and chrissy are basically soulmates but she can’t bring herself to be with you

chrissy is complaining to you about how jason can’t satisfy her, so you offer to show her how it’s done.

Sleepovers in your house would never be allowed if your parents knew that someone you were dating was staying the night. The two of you being alone, locked away in your room, with endless possibilities would never happen.

let me in (to your heart)

Secrets (1) (2) (“extension of this unfinished series”)

Chrissy and Y/N grow closer after she saves Chrissy.

what’s the point of being a supporting character in someone else’s heart?

Right There

Missing You (1) (2) (3)

You and Chrissy are at the same high school party and notice how Jason has been treating her all night long. You don’t say anything until you find her in the bathroom crying.

Studying with Chrissy would include

bette davis eyes

“I really want to kiss you right now.” - “Then do it.”

The Queens of Hawkins

life is ours, we live it our way (Chrissy x female Reader x Eddie) (1) (2)

“i wanna try that.” she tells you, soft voice dropping in pitch, big innocent eyes blown wide with lust. and then, that’s when you notice that the strawberry blonde one is the one between the other’s legs.

The Geekification of Chrissy Cunningham (1) (2) (3)

You’ve been best friends with Chrissy since freshman year but recently you couldn’t ignore your true feelings for her.

Chrissy Cunningham - SFW Alphabet

Eddie x Chrissy x Reader

I think we’re alone now (blurb)

Chrissy x Reader x Eddie (mermaids and Eddie’s a sailor)

Masterlist with Chrissy fics on it: more is in the “Chrissy Cunningham x reader” tag on the blog

Chrissy going to prom with you

More mermaids! Same op as before

After Chrissy accepts Jason’s invitation to the Spring Formal, the reader is left heartbroken

using Chrissy’s face as your personal throne

Chrissy x fem goth reader

Just friends?

I think we’re alone now

Why did you ask me out?

Anorexia comfort

Be yours

Big titty goth gf

Chrissy x Eddie x reader nsfw

#Chrissy Cunningham x reader #only doing this for Chrissy bc there aren’t many!!! #this is a mess sorry I didn’t know how to organize it 😭😭😭 #did this all on my phone lmk if I missed any 😭 #there’s a read more but idk. it’s temperamental 😭💀💀💀 #t

[ilovedthestars]

honestly the biggest Competing Access Needs issue that I personally have run into in online spaces is this:

people need, deserve, and should have space to complain and critique. that includes critiquing things that I (and they!) care about and find valuable, in order to make them better. those conversations are often necessary and healthy, and they should be allowed to happen.

however, I find those kinds of conversations incredibly stressful, often outright upsetting. especially when it involves people I like/respect arguing with or criticizing other people I like/respect. my instinct is to try to mediate and smooth things over and acknowledge the points of both sides, but often that’s either not my place to do or would be actively unhelpful. so I just end up torn in the middle of what feels to me like a barrage of negativity, filled with the unhelpful desire to be like “can’t we just all get along????”

the only and best solution to this is for me to just remove myself from conversations like these, and I’ve gotten better at that, but. It’s still difficult for me to deal with, even though I know that despite my hangups, it’s sometimes better for those conversations to happen than not.

#stars rambles #yes this is partly about convos that have happened on discord but I want ppl to know that I’m not @ing anyone specific about this #like i don’t think anyone’s in the wrong here #even though I would like to avoid any semblance of conflict. I know that would be bad for other people #but I did want to say this because I feel like. idk. in the moment the best thing I can do is shut up and walk away #so I wanted to express this outside of that very charged context #it’s not just about discord to be clear #sometimes it’s about things I see on Tumblr (or complaints on Tumblr that have been exported from discord) #sometimes it’s about irl organizations that I’ve been a part of where I’m like #I love this space deeply #and I know it has flaws and that there should be room for critique #but I want to defend what I love about it #this is definitely an area for personal growth for me too #but it’s not gonna go away overnight #and i've also seen it come up with other people in ways that just aren't avoidable #sometimes you love something and want to talk about how you love it #and someone else is annoyed by it and wants to talk about that #and there's no easy way for both of those conversations to happen in a way that doesn't hurt someone #and i don't feel like that kind of competing need is one that i see brought up a lot #anyway #vent #drafted this and left it to sit and now i am queuing it for the future so it will not seem associated with any one conversation #because it's not really about one thing #q2q