HI HI MAC. I JUST WATCHED THE NEW GEMINI VIDEO (was going 2 watch it this morning but i forgor 💀) HOLYYYY SHIT i am so creeped out EAUGH it was so good. creepy faces fuck me up AUGHHH. many thoughts head full. also i apparently love drawing characters as teru vash plush bc i started drawing teru vash and then realized oh iam just. drawing patton. so then i drew el woowoo 2 keep him company!! holds out my hands and places these guys in ur palm <3
OH FUCK LITTLE GUYS...... ohbtheyre so perfect. squeezing them like stress balls. <3333
UGH THE GEMINI HOME VIDEO. GOD. I KNOW. i rewatched it like 3 times this morning. that bit after it says the deal is broken with the body that gets progressively more shriveled up made me feel soooo fucking crawly. also the comeback of the jack dialogue. fuck yes. jack do you see me... i have become something else... im still in here dont leave me you bastards..... god that bit was so cool. the face jn the window at the end was what absolutely broke me last night tho like holy fuck thay shit gets me so bad
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(fights off the succession horrors by thinking of will clinging to mike's arm with both hands) (fights off the succession horrors by thinking of mike putting his hand over will's and telling him they won't let an eldritch monster hurt him) (fights off the succession horrors by thinking of dustin peeling lucas and mike off of will to hug him in the hospital) (fights off the succession horrors by thinking of lucas saying he's going to kill himself if he gets another three musketeers) (fights off the succession horrors by thinking of dustin holding will's hand without shame) (fights off the succession horrors by thinking of will asking jonathan if that's why he doesn't have any friends) (fights off the succession horrors by thinking of mike asking holly if she likes her grapes) (fights off the succession horrors by thinking of introvert joyce saying she has plans and then settling in with some lasagna and wine to watch her shows) (fights off the succession horrors by thinking of malewife murray and his apron and his flamethrower) (fights off the succession horrors by thinking of mike hugging his mommy when the going gets tough and it hurts too much to possibly talk about) (fights off the succession horrors by thinking of character of all time to ever jonathan byers who i would die for any time anywhere no hesitation) (fights off the succession horrors by thi—
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honestly writing high fantasy where your pantheon is like physically real and people can visit the gods is so funny it gives you so many new ways to traumatize your ocs
yeah i'm talking about idhren "the gods are real and they don't like me" athealin again. as usual
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i know its unrealistic and nonsense to feel bad bc im not as good as i could be within a hobby bc a hobby is supposed to be fun and occupy your time but i cant for the life of me not feel guilty about not drawing and not improving
like.. i have most of the resources. i often have the time. i have almost a thousand pictures in my reference folder to be used to practice and learn. i have an internet connection to be inspired and learn from those better than me and yet... i just don't feel like drawing. and i mean drawing something grand.. not just the dozens of doodles and oc refsheets i keep churning.. i want to do standalone pieces like i used to and look at them fondly and feel proud of something. but i just dont have the flame to do it for months and months on end
i mean obviously this is much more likely to happen when it has been your primary hobby for over like 7 years contrary to, say, webpage coding which i just started to learn like a year ago. what's keeping me from wanting to draw though? its so frustrating to know you Have the Potential to be a good artist and knowing How you could become more but just.. not feeling like it. and telling urself im gonna draw tomorrow and tomorrow comes and its one of those days you'd rather stare at a wall the whole afternoon and it just keeps going and going and you stay stumped
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