#and im nb

[chainmail-butch]

I met an older nb queer (I estimate early 50s) at the club last night. It was a religious experience. We talked about mushrooms, AIDs, and Terry Gilliams movies.

They told me about identifying as a sissy when they were a kid because that was the only term they had for an effeminate man. We talked about gender and the way the world has changed then they passed me a very strong joint.

As the night wore on they leaned over and told me how good it was to meet a butch for the first time in a long time. They told me that when they were 16 and sneaking out of the house to go to gay bars the butches were the ones who took them in.

I had to hold back tears in the club.

There are futures for all of us. And if your future involves tophats with feathers, silly songs, and trippy jackets, then there's a future for you too.

#meeting older nbs is amazing and im still riding the high

[fairybasketsxo]

guys will be like this edible’s not hitting :/ and then five mins later be bent over panting writhing moaning squirming begging rutting whimpering groaning humping grinding shuddering trembling

#trans nsft #t4t nsft #nb nsft #ftm nsft #gay nsft #posy #im so high this took me an hour to write hekshks #im trying to set up our fansly and it’s.. so hard for me rn HDKDGSJS

[enbycreature]

If you wanna fuck me just tell me outright please Im autistic and subtext goes over my head, i need to know if i can put my mouth on your junk

#t4t nsft #t4t ns/fw #trans t4t #nb ns/fw #nb nsft #im just thinking #trans nsft #queer nsft #queer ns/fw #trans ns/fw

[titanofthedepths]

Society if people stopped using “he” for characters that use they/them or it/its

#im mostly thinking abt p03 but ive seen it so fucking many times #like i am going to kill you with a rock. ok #like as an nb person who uses he/him as part of its pronouns. if a character is canonically they/them or it/its dont fucking wipe that

[itzz-salem]

Honestly, one of my favorite things is pup x pup. Just two little puppy's having a play date while their owners are chatting. It starts simple and playful. Yapping, playing with toys, play wrestling. Till one pinns down the other in a show of pup dominance.

That's just what puppies do are all! And they start to whine and rut against each other, rubbing themselves over their thighs and puppy parts. They don't know any better. they're just little puppy's playing.

Eventually, it ends with the stronger pup breeding and pounding away into the other. The owners chuckling and cooing at the two, thinking it's cute that they are so simple and instinct driven..Ugh...just.. ｡:°puppy play datesﾟ:｡ ૮₍ ˶>⤙<˶ ₎ა

#dumb puppy #petpl@y #pup rambles #puppy thoughts #nsft puppy #pet pl4y #petpl4y #pup #puppy sub #pup x pup #puppy play dates #two pups #nb nsft #trans nsft #t4t nsft #puppy x puppy #need more of this #bd/sm puppy #puppypl4y #it really feels like im in heat..gosh #puppy rambles #rambles #imagine #salem speaks

[inkskinned]

something bad happened to you, and you died, and you came back wrong.

not wrong all the way. the little ways. you forget important dates, stopped going out with friends. it's harder to make you smile. you're apathetic towards things you used to love, afraid of places you used to go to cheer up. quieter. flinching. different.

you came back for love. you're still here for love. what pulled you back was a brightness so loud that even death couldn't outshout it. death heard the call and smiled at you and said okay. go home. somebody is waiting for you.

but you came back different. like lot's wife; you've turned into salt. you used to chirp through life in hops and skips; but now you lose skin just standing up. you have to move slower, skimming across this world without-touching-it. most things feel dull - until they're suddenly all-too-much. life, and being alive just rushes up and over you and you get hopelessly crushed.

you try to explain it to them: it is ugly, but this is what you are, now. the huge golden hoop of your halo now a little bronze ring. you are still watering your plants and wearing the same clothes. after all, you worked hard to come home. this life; so odd and off-color, now that you are wrong.

but they waited for you - it's just that they wanted the "you" that happened before this. the "you" that could sing in the show and hug people tight and look at a blade without breaking down to cry. the you with a smile in pictures. god, holyshit, it's like looking at a completely different person, isn't it. that other-you; the one they actually wanted.

you are the consolation prize. you are the body that forgot the ghost. you are the memory of the bad thing, and the death after; like you are wearing that memory as a banner. you are a fragment, an assembly. simulacrum. you don't make eye contact in mirrors, afraid the light will glance off and your true nature will flash back at you.

you hear them talk about it in their hushed, desperate whispers. sometimes they even admit it to your face; harsh and violent, acid thrown at christmas dinner. god, can you just fucking be normal again. you do not remember what normal is. you had to climb so far to get back here; you are far too exhausted. you want to open the glass door of your heart and show all the gears. can you help resolve whatever got messed up?

you try so, so hard. you came back for them. because you believed they would love you, even when you were so horribly broken. because you believed they would be patient. because you believed unconditional meant "without exception." you cannot do things the same way. you just get tired too quickly these days.

you want to put them on a couch and pour them the tea with hands that shake more than they remember. you want to line them up and draw them a map of where you have had to wander. you want to show every bruise in a backsplash; the little helpless ant of your soul carrying all that weight, over and over. you want to say: yes! it is different! but i did it for love!

you want to say: "i'm not the same, but i'm yours and i'm here. can that be enough?"

#this is very obviously about my battle with #ptsd #but i think it's also like a pretty apt metaphor for a lot of things like setting boundaries or going to therapy or choosing recovery #i was thinking about the 'comes back wrong' trope and i was like. oh no i have feelings about this bc i have mental illness #and once i stopped masking - i was WRONG. i was different #here's the good news: i am now INNUNDATED with love. fucking swimming in it. excelling at it. the people who stayed #learned my new self. my new different body and how i am different but i am trying. they have held me so tightly #and my life no longer feels quiet. it is not based in my suffering. it feels like i have been growing a tree in my chest #and now it is flowering. #it is so lovely to be surrounded by people who have said - oh! you cut off so many branches i was worried you weren't the same. but now... #... this is just a new you. and i love you. and i love that you're different and happy. #(but yeah also im nb so i was absolutely influenced by Trans things)

[kingzombear]

Can i may have some zooble × gangle plsssssssssssssssssssss

Trying to get back into the groove of posting, have some Google <3

#nb rizz is real btw the ladies love me (liar) #CHAT IS THIS REAL IM SHAKING #bear king draws #tadc #the amazing digital circus #tadc jax #tadc zooble #tadc gangle #tadc pomni #tadc ragatha #abstragedy #tadc google #zooble x gangle #gangle x zooble #ragapom #fast food jax

[999999999inadream]

toby fox needs to add like a bit of narration in deltarune abt kris like "they themmed they/themily down the stheirs" cus i cant go on seeing them constantly get he/himmed in yt comment sections

#this is my punishment for actually looking at yt comments isnt it #deltarune #kris dreemurr #maybe im looking too much into things but... #it also feels sorta. misogynistic when ppl default to he/him for androgynous/non binary characters #like ive seen multiple ppl use “well its understandable that ppl assume kris is a he when they have such masculine behaviours/hobbies” #the masculine behaviours and hobbies in question are being a prankster #i shit you not #like they called pranking... masc?? huh #can girls and others not get their silly on anymore?? #also like i said before with the exception of like frisk and chara like almost every nb character is masculinised #like napstablook monster kid #god there has to be more but my memory is shit atm and i also have to go eat dinner #but i wanna talk more abt like why it feels so misogynistic to me #i thinnk it has to do with the fact that defaulting to he/him just makes women feel like an afterthought. ig like unless its confirmed then #they must be a guy to be relevant or smth #and also like how much they gender entirely non gender specific things (see: pranking) #ofc it wouldnt be BETTER per se if they imagined these characters as girls but its smth ive noticed and i just get frustrated cus #it feels sexist but i cant FULLY articulate why #i feel like i had the answer a lil while ago but i forgot #i might come back to this who knows #wow ok rant over #for now

[yearning-gay]

babe is it ok if i want to fuck you. is it ok if i wanna suck you off and eat you out while my hands grope and grab your hips bc i want to hold you closer. is it ok if i kiss your tummy. is it ok if grind my thigh against your dick clit etc bc it kinda makes you whine and it flips something in my brain. is it ok if i need to rail you so bad i wanna cry abt it. is it ok babe you've been staring at my cock the whole time and not answering

#jack.txt #t4t nsft #nsft trans #trans nsft #nblnb nsft #nb nsft #nblm nsft #nblw nsft #im the most sopping wet top available :)

[skelebutch]

who wants to make out til i whimper in your mouth and you take control and flip me on my back, not being able to resist anymore, then unzip my pants and feel how wet i am for you already and then fuck me til i come undone all over your fingers…

#butch4butch #butch4both #butch4femme #wlw nsft #lesbian nsft #nb nsft #nblw nsft #dyke #hornyposting #op #im a bit needy rn if you couldnt tell

[enbycreature]

Google: how do I tell if my dom friend wants to actually fuck me or if they're just teasing me for fun

#t4t nsft #t4t ns/fw #trans t4t #nb ns/fw #nb nsft #im just thinking #trans nsft #queer nsft #queer ns/fw #trans ns/fw

[neptunebeetle]

the epic virtual carnival

#Sorry for old man yaoi except no im not !!!!!! Fuck #TADC #the amazing digital circus #pomni #caine #kinger #royalteeth #NB ART TAG

[meep--tm]

more like baldurs gay

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #baldurs gate #karlach #shadowheart #astarion #bg3 tav #bg3 oc #tiefling #bard #art tag #ofc im playing yabis. one of my oldest dnd characters. my beloved nb lesbian freak #art #illustration

[inkskinned]

we really didn't get violent enough about roe v wade being overturned. but and also - you're one person. you donated money. you went to the protest. you did what you could, which felt like doing basically nothing.

recently some big paper published an op ed (why did you even read it? you knew you'd get upset) about how it's gross that men can't find a partner because women don't want to suffer bad dates - they'd rather go to yoga class. you actually laughed - well, yeah! and it was funny until it wasn't, because something about it made your stomach churn. this is the thing, you want to say, but you don't have the words for what the thing is. just that men being bad at dating is your fault.

the thing is also on instagram. you don't know if it's a setting or algorithm thing, but these days, the most hurtful comments always seem to skim the top. simple reaction is don't read the comments but - you're human, so you're curious. you want to respond to every weird, sanctimonious one with replaying something a million times to find evidence they're lying about their gender is literally sexual harassment you shouldn't be proud of this or maybe get a fucking life you absolute dickhead but you've gotten into enough of these battles as a kid. nothing ever resolves. it just makes you upset.

your father was radicalized. the thing is - you go to therapy about it and yet never find the words for exactly the way that one hurts.

the other day your sister predicted that a commercial that aired during the superbowl was going to cause trouble. you wanted her to be wrong about that. this morning, while scrolling, you saw someone post exactly that - he got so angry i had to leave. it was terrifying. it reminds you, however bleakly: there are entire swathes of people who do not worry about domestic violence. who have no idea why you would put keys into your fist. who do not understand "it's better to be rude than dead." who have never googled am i being gaslit.

the other day you found out there's a bill that would make it so if you have a uterus and are braindead, you could fulfil your cattle purpose and carry a fetus to term. you think about the fact that the leading cause of death for pregnant people is murder. you think about ongoing and informed consent. you think about how, out of fear, if your ex boyfriend had pressured you, you absolutely would have said yes to it. in the comments, you write there is no way that these documents wouldn't be immediately forged. this is going to be misused. and then just delete it, sighing. get up and go to work.

the other day they overturned roe v wade. we weren't nearly violent enough about it. somewhere, a clock is ticking. it's been ticking a long time. you want to say it's time, but it's been time for a while, hasn't it.

#<3 time to get cancelled on the internet #btw this is trans inclusive author is nb #writeblr #i had a kind of argument with someone about that bill bc he was like ''oh but we do this for other organs'' and im like #okay so like the time it takes to safely extract an organ #versus NINE MONTHS of not having consent . not being able to bury the body. #my family unable to mourn. being used a host. #even if ALL OF THAT was NOT the case. #i do not believe for a fucking SECOND this would be use safely. i cannot imagine a world in which #it was not immediately and with gusto. used to abuse others

[wellfedfemme]

heavy as ever and never felt better 🥰

more below the cut ;p

#god DAMN im cute #and fat #and hot #but mostly big and cute ;3 #soft feedism #weight gain #nb feedee #gaining #chubby #feedee girl #wg #belly kink #fat girls #wg kink #wffemmepics

[warper-in-training]

Barbatos's room has a very strong soundproofing curse casted on it. not because of the weird portal-ish noises or sex but because he likes to sleep while he plays metal music with very loud speakers. and se

#im nornal about barbatos. i totally do not think abiut him 24/7. #obey me #obey me swd #obey me shall we date #obey me nb #obey me nightbringer #obey me barbatos #obey me headcanons #obey me hcs #kizhu #his curse is so strong the walls and even the whole part of the castle barb's room is in shakes and you cant hear the sound at all