#and im realizing now that every single time I've had to shake someones hand

[scariusaquarius]

Hey, just wanted to say; big fan of your content!

Also I was just wondering if I could request for Leon taking care of a gender neutral Reader who is possibly coming down from an anxiety attack. (Hes a big comfort character of mine and I've been having a rough time lately cuz of the holidays and whatnot so I'd really enjoy this)

Anyways you don't have to do this if you dont want to/its not your style or you're too busy.

A/n: Hi bby! I'm never too busy for my babies, i just suck at keeping up interaction sjsbsjs Im so sorry that the holidays have been hard on you. They have been hard on me as well, but we are in this together and ilysm! Leon to the rescue. this is written on my phone so im sorry if formatting is weird! I hope this was okay for you, and if not, let me know and i’ll rewrite it for you!

TW: descriptions of Anxiety attack, PTSD

Being an agent had its ups and downs. While the pay was great, you got to meet and befriend the president, and work alongside your long-time partner, Leon Kennedy, the downside was that you were almost always away from home, you never knew if you would even come out alive, and the sleepless nights in between it all because of the haunting memories.

The holidays never helped either.

Christmas was always the hardest, but the New Years was a strange time for you. While you were happy to get the time off to spend it with your partner, there was a part of you that hated the jolly lights, the hustle and bustle of holiday cheer, and the pressure that came with the days.

The holidays were a time to be spent with family, but for you, you never were able to have that. Your family was, well, trying. Most of your family never spoke to you and you respected it. Your parents were always out; traveling to some new place on the globe you'd probably been to hundreds of times before, and your siblings were typical younger siblings that didn't find joy in hanging out with the eldest who was just never home.

With the inner yearn for a normal family, for someone to introduce your boyfriend to, for simplicity, the pressure of the holidays tended to ruin any joy within you.

Currently, Leon was out to the store to restock on some eggnog and alcohol so you both could have a normal New Year's, but you were hiding in the bathtub as the fireworks in the distance boomed and made your poor body jolt and shake with each distant explosion.

Your vision was blurred from tears, hands covering your head as if you were scared the ceiling would come down, and your breathing was erratic. You were trying to calm down, to get your breathing under control, but every single worry that you had been bottling up since the holidays had approached was crashing down onto you. 

Your chest was tight, body aching from sitting in a fetal position too long, but you just couldn’t move. Why now? Why did it have to hit you now at all times? The feeling of hands on your arms made you jump, and your head shot up to see Leon leaning over the edge of the tub, blue eyes worried as he called your name again. 

“(Y/n), I need you to breathe.”

You hadn’t realized you were hyperventilating. Leon crawling in the tub with you, gathering you up into his arms as he kept a firm hold around you. Tucking your head into his shoulder, he whispered softly, slipping his hand beneath your shirt to rub the skin of your back soothingly. 

“It’s okay. I’m here. I’m right here.”

You sobbed into his shoulder, Leon simply letting you get it out of your system as your anxiety attack hit its peak, and he kissed your temple firmly. Rocking the two of you gently, the motions and kisses and his tight hug slowly began to calm you down, and you sniffled, holding onto him tightly. 

“Do you want to talk about it, sweetheart?”

“I just...I fucking hate the holidays...I wish my family wasn’t fucking terrible...i hate this fucking job, but I just can’t see myself ever being able to have a normal life doing anything but fighting the undead. I want to be able to enjoy the holidays with my family, introduce them to my partner, and be fucking normal, but I can’t and I fucking hate it.”

Leon sighed softly, shoulders sagging just the slightest. Leon knew where you were coming from, understanding you perfectly, and he murmured into your ear softly, still rubbing your back. 

“I know, and I hate that I can’t give that to you either...for now, this can be our normal: sitting in the bathtub, drinking our weight in eggnog and spiced rum, and waiting until Chris and Claire show up.”

You pulled back, sniffling and asking. 

“Chris and Claire are coming over?”

“I might have forgotten to tell you.”

He seemed sheepish, but there was a smile on his lips, and you gently kissed Leon, feeling the tears fill your eyes all over again. 

“I don’t deserve you. I don’t. I love you so much, but I feel like I shouldn’t be allowed to.”

“Since when did you ever play by the rules anyway?”

You giggled, and Leon looked proud, kissing your nose. 

“There they are. Why don’t we open the eggnog and rum, and we can show those Redfields how real agents drink?”

You smiled as Leon wiped your eyes before he kissed you, whispering softly before he held you in his arms tightly again. 

“I love you.”

#skdkfj;aslfj i almost blanked writing this #but i wanted to get this done for you #if it's not up to par then let me know! I'll rewrite it for you!! #Resident Evil #Leon Kennedy

[cottoncandy-jester]

✨Lie down darling, it's time for a dream✨

Stuffed (incubus!nishinoya x reader x priest!asahi)

Okay so for the longest time i didn't know what to write for them but after listening to three yagami yato audios back to back I realized Im a sinner..so yeah have this

This story contains: nasty unprotected sex, Double penetration, aheago, feral nishinoya, breeding kink,asahi losing his shit during sex, asahi calls you mommy a few times, light degrading, preluding to semnophilia

As much as I adore male reader cause I'm a boy but, this will be a female reader worry not I'll be spamming out some male reader stuff after this for a bit

"father, I have done a terrible thing.. something horrible"

The sound of your voice from the other side of the confessional made asahi twitch slightly before he calmly leaned back to listen to you. You were innocent, sweet and pure but lately he's noticed changes that worried him greatly, your clothes that usually were modest now revealed a teasing amount of your thighs or chest so of course when he heard your words he was alert yet calm..just what did you do?

"this is a judgement free zone, speak your mind"

"I've let a sinful demon tempt me.."

You what?

Hearing your words made the priest grip the white beaded cross necklace hanging around his neck as his mind started to get foggy at the thought of a demon hurting you in any way, you were too sweet and adorable for this!

"tell me, what has this demon done to you? Has he hurt you?"

Asahi's voice was laced with worry that quickly turned into fear when he heard a small embarrassed whimper from the other side. After a few seconds he heard your quivering voice

"E-Every night the demon comes into my window, he touches me in ways that I've never been touched, every night he-"

"has he fucked you? Does he fill you up? have you kissed him?"

Asahi spoke in a low tone with a shaky breath. He should feel worry for you but instead a feeling of pure jealousy burned through him, the thought of someone seeing your face twist with pleasure or the thought of someone kissing your soft skin while pounding you made him see red.

"yes father, am i too late to be saved?"

Your soft helpless tone made asahi shudder as his mind drifted to unholy thoughts. How would you look sucking him off? What face would you make when he eats you out til you are shaking? How would you taste against his tongue?

"father asahi?"

"ah you're not! Its never too late to be saved! You said it comes every night? How about I spend the night in your home so when the demon comes I'll deal with it"

His plan made you smile brightly before you let out a joyful giggle. You couldn't help but sound so cute as you thanked him before leaving the wooden box.

So day soon turns to night, asahi laid on your couch asleep before a creaking sound stirred him awake. He checked the time only to see that it was two in the morning, the male let's out a low sigh as he stretched before going to your room to check on you only to hear sounds of a creaking bed along with voices.

"oooh [y/n] your nipples are so hard and perked for me, hehehe do you like it when I flick them like this?

Asahi couldn't recognize that voice so he softly opened the door and peeked inside only to see you tied with your hands above your head and your clothes completely ripped off with an incubus straddling your hips. Asahi should burst in there, he should be slamming the door open and throwing that demon off you but he couldnt help but watch as this demon leaned his head down to lick and suck your nipples

"n-nishinoya-"

"this is the first time you called out to me like that..do it again"

So the demon's name was nishinoya? Why did you know that? How did you know that? Asahi was curious about such details but his mind blanked when he heard a loud whimper escape your lips, when he turned his attention back to you the demon in question has his face shoved in between your legs licking and sucking at your clit as if his life depended on it.

Asahi felt his cock twitch in his pants as your lewd moans ringed through his ears. His entire body started to shake as he bit his bottom lip roughly. He wanted to be the one to make you moan like that, he wanted to be the one making you screaming his name.

Just as asahi was going to burst in he watched as the demon pull back and both his and asahi's eyes locked before nishinoya gave a sly smirk while licking his lips.

"her pussy tastes like whip cream, so sweet and yummy so why don't you come and get a taste instead of watching like a pervert or are all preists this sinful?"

Asahi tensed up at his remark before standing up straight before opening the door and closing it behind him. His eyes travelled to you who couodnt even look him in the eyes.

"f-fathe-"

Nishinoya shoved his demon tail down your throat with a light shudder. He gazed at you with a sadistic gleam before a sly smile was on his face.

"hush babe, the grown up are talking so just be a good girl and suck on my tail like it's a nice juicy cock okay? If you promise not to bite I'll fuck you extra hard tonight"

His words shook both you and asahi but you did as he said and started to suck his tail which filled your mouth nicely while nishinoya tried not to shudder and show just how good that felt.

"d-demon! I've come to exorcise you! P-prepare to go back to hell where you belong!"

"funny how you say that but where's your Bible? Your holy water? Holy items? not even a single talisman..all you brought is a big bulge so let's just be honest here hmm?"

Asahi felt a wave of embarrassment wash over him as he glanced down only to see that he was fully hard, he took a step forward his mind clouding with lust as he watched you suck and moan against that filthy demon's tail.

"A-as a priest I'm supposed to take you down, I'll warn you once to release her from your captivity and surrender"

Asahi's shaky words were met with nishinoya letting out a loud chuckle before his eyes travelled to you before he reached our and trailed his finger along your drenched slit which made you shudder with bliss before he decided to stick two fingers inside your sopping wet hole.

"listen here, father she let's me do this cause she wants to, hell she would die without my cock stretching her wall each night. Ive cummed inside her so much It would be no surprise if she was pregnant"

His words made your walls clench around his fingers which cause the male to release a low growl, he definitely needed to fuck you soon or else he was gonna lose his mind.

"Ooh she likes to think of being pregnant, how about instead of trying to fight let's share this night hmm? Come onnn look at her she's just begging for a cock to fuck her so two would drive her absolutely insane. Give into your urges"

Asahi didn't know if it was demonic magic or his mind just snapping but before he knew it he was stripping down while walking towards you and nishinoya. His eyes were clouding with lust as he left himself in only his boxers

Nishinoya licked his lips before simply took his tail out your mouth before feeling you of your binds. You sat up now looking at the two men with a look of worry, you could barley take nishinoya and his thick cock but now two of them?

"alright pretty girl! Here's what's gonna happen, me and Mr holy over here are gonna fuck your brains out until the smell of cock and cum become your natural scent okay? Okay!"

Nishinoya and his cheerful tone made you shiver as you watched his tail wag side to side like he was some excited puppy. Asahi looked confused on what to do so he gave nishinoya a panicked gaze which made the demon burst out laughing

"are you a virgin?! Pfffft! Hahahah! Oh my! Okay, I'll tell you what to do only cause you look so cute! Lay down on the bed and princess here will get on top"

Just explaining what will happen made asahi blush before he gulped harshly and did as he was told. What was this going to feel like? He wasn't sure but he knew it would be better than touch himself in the late hours of the night.

"n-nishinoya I don't know about this, I mean-" you were cut off by the demon's loud whistling as he yanked asahi's boxers down only to see his çock spring up.

"talk about a long boy! Sorry I got you beat in girth though, but I guess it's not bad right princess?"

Nishinoya turned to you who was just staring with a look drowning with lust. Nishinoya knew that look on your face and moved to you only to lick the drool dribbling down your chin

"now now you hungry slut, you can choke on his cock next round but for now let's fuck that cute pussy to oblivion"

His words made you whine before he gave your ass a hard slap before pointing to a nervous looking asahi

"now, hands and knees above him don't you dare put him in you without me saying so, or else I'll have to break you even more than I already am about to"

Nishinoya watched as you crawled into of asahi before shakily looking down at him. You've had sex many many times next to nishinoya but also fucking asahi scared you since he was your priest.

"so fragile, you're shaking lets not be scared alright?"

Asahi's soft words made you melt as you felt him reach up to touch your cheek. You leaned down and gave him a soft kiss only to moan harshly against his lips as something thick slammed into you. With a shaky breath you pulled away only to glance back to see nishinoya on his knees behind you with a fake innocent grin.

"oops- sorry did I ruin your moment?"

Asahi looked at your face only to feel something snap in his mind, the way your face became flushed and your eyes tightly closed made him shudder before his body moved on its own. He wrapped his arms around you before pulling you against his chest only to shove himself inside you along with nishinoya.

You let out a loud shocked gasp our reaction was nothing compared to asahi who was gritting his teeth with eyes rolling back slightly, how could someone be so tight?!

"feels good huh? Oh this is nothing..come now father, can you really not move? Well if you're not gonna move I will"

Nishinoya started to thrust roughly in and out of you with a shaky sigh as he felt his and asahi's cock rubbing against each other, not only that but you were clenching so tight that he could swear he could see stars.

"ngh- demon.. you're rubbing against me like that"

Asahi's choked words were followed by his thrusts, he wasn't as rough as nishinoya but he was thrusting quite fast. he just couldn't stop his body from thrusting up against you over and over again. You both were slowing becoming a mess, drooling and whining came from you both as you two locked eyes

"[y/n]! So tight! Your pussy is so tight and wet I just can't take it! Do you hear it? That wet sound? Ahh it's so lewd! This is so lewd! [Y/n]! I cant stop- don't make me stop please please please!"

Asahi was losing his mind while he slammed his hips wildly and to make it worse this chaotic energy was only riling nishinoya up to the point where he was a snarling mess now digging his nails Into your hips while slamming in and out of you

"fuck! You are so good! Such a good girl..the way your pussy is miking me, beg for me princess beg for my demon seed come now beg for it already or I'll fucking stop"

The utter thought of stopping made you whine louder than you already were and you wiggled your hips desperately like a bitch in heat

"please! Noya! Asahi! Fuck me more! Ahh- please please! Breed me so good!"

Just like that your words caused the two men to lose their sanity even more. Asahi was in tears as he rapidly thrusts in and out of you like a rabbit now having breeding on his mind. He forced you to look at him as he gave you a sloppy messy kiss that left saliva on you both

"m-my baby! Have my baby! My baby mine not that demon's but mine! Ahh- please [y/n]! Bear my children!"

His whining sobbing pleas seemed to annoy nishinoya who pulled you back against him while his hand gripped your throat. He thrusted deep inside you while licking your neck along with biting at it.

"his baby? Fuck no. Have mine. My demon spawn would look so cute growing in your tummy, fuck princess it's gonna be me who gets your pregnant okay?"

Your mind was starting to go blank as your climax was coming close and just as you were were gonna turn to kiss nishinoya you felt hands cupping your breasts. You turn to face asahi who now sat up to hold you as well his mouth drooling and slobbering all over your breasts as he felt close. His hair was a mess but the look in his eyes was that of a desperate needy man losing his mind.

"be the mommy to my baby, you right that right? Mommy..please please please! Ah I can't wait to see your breasts swell with milk so please..ah! Please I'm gonna cum!"

His loud whines and use of the word mommy did something to you that you didn't know could happen to you but you felt your climax building up but before you can announce it nishinoya simply grunted lowly in your ear as his grip around your throat tightened.

"I can feel it, cum already cum around our cocks like I know you want to, you want us to fill up your needy pussy, you're so desperate for cum that your drooling and sticking your tongue out like a bitch so cum already"

His harsh words were the last thing you needed before your walls tightened and you climaxed with a loud screaming moan.

"yes, yes yes yes yes! [Y/n]! Yes! It feels..so good!"

"hah- ah, damn priest you moan like a little whore..it's so fucking hot!"

As the two cummed inside you at the same time you felt your mind breaking and it left you twitching and shaking in their arms.

When you three laid down on the bed nishinoya glanced at you and asahi who were both making such a lewd face that his cock twitched. He honestly wasn't even close to being finished but it seems that humans get tired so he was greatly annoyed to see you both start to fall asleep.

Nishinoya sighs as a smile graced his face before he cracked his neck while hovering over you and asahi's cuddling bodies.

"sorry sweeties I'm not done yet, but don't worry you can enjoy your nap"

#yuu nishinoya #asahi azumane #haikyuu imagines

[one-spidey-boii]

BUMMER SUMMER || peter parker; ch six

read ch five here

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an; heyo everyone. online schooling is kicking my ass, my cat doesn’t like me anymore, and i keep sleeping until 3pm. no worries tho, cause yesterday i got some starbursts. let me know what you think of this chapter! hearing your feedback is super encouraging :)

**italics indicate flashback**

warnings; mentions of battle wounds (i.e. blood/scars/etc), future smut, mature language, fluff, angst, both peter and oc are 18+!!

word count; 2.7k+

peter's pov

my blood runs cold as soon as the weight of edie's body falls into mine. her limbs are limp and heavy, making it awkward to keep her steady as i gather her in my arms. everything around me is buzzing. every noise is drowned out by the pounding in my ears, the drumming of my heart beat in my chest.

"oh- oh my god. edie." i rush out with a shaky breath as her eyes struggle to stay open, "look at me, please. please keep looking at me, okay? don't close your eyes." i plead.

she gazes up at me, more like through me, as her head lolls against my chest. i pull her into me and lift her off the ground. i try to control my breathing, knowing how i handle these next few minutes will mean more than anything i've ever done before.

edie's eyes wander around the hallway and i make my way to the medical room with bounding strides. she lets out an occasional whimper when i jostle her too much and my stomach drops every time.

when there, i flip the light switch on and take in the room around me. i've never needed to be here before, making me wish every wound i ever endured had landed me in here- just so i can take better care of the girl in my arms.

i move over to one of the two empty beds that resembles those you would find at a hospital and place her down softly. she stares up at the ceiling, her eyelids grow weaker and heavier as time passes. i bite my bottom lip and grab at my hair. i really don't know what i'm doing.

"my side, pete. 'm hurts." she whispers and rolls her head so that she's looking at me now.

i swallow my fear and put up a strong facade for her, "i know, e. just keep looking at me. can you do that?"

edie just barely nods her head and her eyes follow me as i gather the right supplies to address the source of the bleeding. my hands fumble around as i set everything on the cart next to her bed.

"e, im gonna have to take your suit off, okay? i have to get to your side to stop the bleeding." my voice can't help but shake as i mutter the words to her. she just stares back at me with misty eyes that hold no objections.

"m'kay, jus' press the button." edie instructs, her lips parting as her breaths become softer and weaker. with that, i search for the emblem on her wrist and press it lightly. her suit expands and hangs loosely around her frame. i hesitantly begin pulling it down her shoulders, letting out a sigh of relief when i see the dark purple bra covering her chest.

finally able to get a good look at her side, i try to hold back a gasp. along the length of her torso, a gash runs from just under her ribs on her back all the way to her hip bone in the front. no longer being compressed by the suit, the bleeding gushes faster.

i look over at the supplies i’ve gathered and realize none of it will be much help. this is so much worse than i originally thought. i finally move my eyes from the wound and scan the room once again. so many machines that i have no idea how to operate just stare back at me, taunting me as i stand here helpless.

a hand clasps around my own. edie stares up at me with pleading eyes, small whimpers leaving her lips. i hold back a sob as i squeeze her hand back and reach for my cell phone.

the phone rings three times before he picks up, i don't breath until then.

"hello?"

my words are caught in my throat. "uh, m-mr. stark, i need help. edie's hurt and she must have gotten stabbed or something and there's so much blood and i-i don't know what to do or—"

his voice cuts me off, remaining calm and stern, "are you putting pressure on the wound?"

i let go of edie's hand and grab the gauze from the cart, moving to follow orders. "y-yes, sir."

"peter, you need to go to the back right corner and in the first drawer is a device that looks like a pen. grab it and hold it over the wound. press the side button and let it do its thing." mr. stark explains everything to me slowly. i do as he says, grabbing the small device and removing the now bloodied gauze from edie's side.

as i click the side, a blue light emerges from the tip, analyzing the wound before a cluster of lasers move over the length of it. slowly but surely the horrific gash starts mending before my eyes. i grab edie's hand and squeeze. after a few seconds, i feel the gentle press of her fingers against mine.

"everything okay, kid? give me an update here." tony says into the phone i had put down to tend to my best friend.

"yes, mr. stark." i call out.

edie's eyes flutter to meet mine. they're glassy and wet, unshed tears sitting on the brim of her lower lids. i glance at the healing device, taking notice that it has turned off automatically after it finished its job. i shakily put it down and latch onto edie's hand with both of mine.

"hey. hey, there," i whisper to her. she smiles weakly and closes her eyes, finally letting a single tear slide down her flushed cheeks, "you're okay now, yeah? how do you feel?"

she just squeezes my hand one more time before her body releases all the tension it's holding and she falls unconscious.

"peter, what the hell happened?" i jump when mr. stark's voice sounds from the phone again. hesitantly, i move edie's hand to her side and cover her almost naked chest with the blanket draped at the foot of the bed.

i pick up the phone and take a deep breath before giving an answer.

"i-i don't know, sir."

-

edie's pov

i never realized how often i put myself in danger. when i go out into the city at night, the thought rarely crosses my mind. it was only when i was face to face with the possibility i wouldn't make it home that night, that's when i realized what wearing a suit really entails.

before i even open my eyes, i'm aware of how cold the air feels around me. it bites into my cheeks and the tip of my nose, making me wiggle it uncomfortably. i can tell i'm not alone too. i hear soft breathing come from a few feet away, the source is asleep from what i can tell. finally, i open my eyes.

my heart swells at the sight of peter sprawled out along the hospital bed next to mine. he lays on his stomach, one hand draping over the side of the bed as his other supports his head. i keep my eyes on his peaceful face- and suddenly i find myself fighting the urge to wrap my fingers around his and hold his hand. i lift my hand away from the side of the bed and i gasp at the pain that shoots from my ribs to my hip.

it's excruciating. my skin feels hot and the red flash of pain brings tears to my eyes. slowly, i move my hand to the blanket covering my torso and push it aside. i raise my head slowly to see a horrible looking scar stretched along my side. it's red and angry and makes me sick to my stomach. i fight to keep a sob from escaping my lips, but the sight of the wound makes it nearly impossible. i let out a whimper and the events of the night before replay in my head.

-

i stay close to the dark alleyways of the city. my lack of web-slinging and flying makes it difficult to remain discreet, but sticking to the alleyways where most of the crimes take place seems to work well for me. the streets become quiet after rush hour hits and the city is lacking its usual light atmosphere. i've been walking for a while and have yet to find anyone who needs help.

once one am rolls around, i stumble upon a younger couple arguing a few meters down the alley. the man is shouting and seems to tower over the girl. she's scared, that i can tell, but something about her seems tough and hard to crack. i hide behind the corner and bend down to wrap my fingers around the knife in my left boot, ready to make a move if necessary.

the man begins backing the girl up against the wall and making large gestures with his hands. he must've said something the girl didn't like because she takes her hand and brings it down across his face with a sharp crack. he stumble back, hand to his cheek. i tense when he looks back at the girl and growls at her like an animal.

as he raises his hand to hit her, i jump from around the building and sprint in their direction. i manage to grab hold of the man's fist before he brings it down to meet the girls' face. his head snaps in my direction and his attention is suddenly on me. i shoot a quick glance at the girl, pleading with my eyes for her to run.

"mind your business, lady." the man hisses through clenched teeth. i hold my ground, focusing on keeping his attention on me so the girl has a chance of getting away. "are you gonna say anything? or just stand there?" he continues. when i don't answer again, he lunges at me.

quickly dodging his attempt at an attack, i slash my knife along his forearm. he gasps and grabs at his now bleeding arm, holding it to his chest. i sneak one more glance at the girl and let out a sigh of relief to see she has fled the scene. the man makes another move and runs towards me. i grab his injured arm and spin him around to face the nearest wall. with all my strength, i push him against the bricks and hold him there while digging my fingers into his cut flesh.

"let's see how you like it, huh, tough guy?" i speak from behind him. he rests his forehead against the brick wall and begins to laugh. it’s a horrible sound. the noise is surprising and unsettling, but i do my best to remain present for the task at hand. i open my mouth to speak again, but all the comes out is a muffled yell as i feel something sharp tear into my side. my grip weakens and the man slides away as i crash forward into the wall.

it feels like someone has tried to sever my body into two pieces. the pain completely overtakes my senses and i no longer have any control. my glassy eyes move to see the man standing behind me, still clutching his arm. next to him is the girl from before, holding a gnarly looking hunting knife by her side. blood drips from the tip of it onto the concrete below. my blood.

the girl comes towards me and kneels next to me on the ground. i stare into her eyes with numb shock, so thrown off by her actions. she smiles at me. a wide, bright white smile that takes up half of her face. she grabs a fistful of my hair and pulls me towards her.

"see what happens when you try to help people? maybe some people just don't need help from someone like you. go along, try getting back to your secret hideout with this, little girl." her words mean nothing as soon as she pushes me onto my back and delivers one heavy kick into my side, leaving me breathless as she and the man turn to walk away.

-

images keep flying through my head as i stare down at the scar. i can't look away. this thing is a part of me now and i can't bring myself to terms with it yet, not that i expect it to ever be easy. i slowly move back down until my head hits the pillow. i stretch one hand towards peter as the other one falls along the marred skin of my side. my fingers are just centimeters away from peters limp hand, i try to close the distance but fail as shots of fire emerge from my side.

hopeless and in pain, i finally let a wet sob leave my lips. i squeeze my eyes shut and let all the failure and defeat roll along with my tears. it's embarrassing. i take pride in myself for being a trained fighter both physically and mentally. yet, i had been so blindsided by the situation and it came back to get me, leaving me with a scar to remember it.

clammy fingers meet mine and squeeze tightly. i roll my head to the side and see peter kneeling next to the bed. his eyes are soft and tired. seeing his face makes me cry even harder with both relief and sadness. peter parker is here for me, holding my hand and rubbing the back of it with his thumb as i cry and cry and cry.

eventually, i have nothing left but empty sobs and quiet whimpers. peter has moved closer, his head resting atop of mine as he places soft kisses in my hair. it's intoxicating and warm and i want him to do it for hours on end, but i need to get myself together. as scared as i am right now, i know he is even more so.

"help me sit up, peter, please." i more demand than ask. he obliges and wraps one arm around my shoulders and the other continues to hold onto my hand. i bite my lip to hold in any sounds of protest as my body shutters and writhes against the unwanted movement.

"i need to call mr. stark and tell him what happened. you need to know too." i whisper.

"maybe you just need to rest a little while longer-" peter tries to say.

"no. just... please find my phone." i plead. with a hesitant nod, peter rummages around the floor and comes back up with my phone. he dials mr. stark's number and sets it on speaker.

as it rings, i look over at peter again. he’s sitting on the edge of the other bed, feet dangling a few inches from the floor. i take notice of the empty feeling in my hand. "peter, just listen as i tell mr. stark. i doubt i'll be able to tell it more than once."

the ringing stops and tony starks' voice booms through the speaker.

"edie? are you okay?"

i let out a breath of air i didn't know i was holding, "mr. stark. i-i'm okay." i say weaker than i want to.

"what the hell happened, wolfie?" he asks, almost in a whisper, his voice is laced with sadness and worry.

with that, i tell him. i explain every little detail as best i can. peter lets out a tiny gasp when i get to the part about being stabbed, which makes me glance in his direction. he won't meet my eyes.

mr. stark doesn't say a word until i'm finished.

"im sending happy over. no, yanno what? i'll come myself." my eyes widen at his words. i immediately want to protest, but he wouldn't have it.

"i'll be there in four hours." he says and ends the call. peter and i finally make eye contact. the tired look in his eyes is still there, now laced with sadness and something else. i can't let either of us be sad for much longer. that's not what i want at all.

conjuring up my best smile, i speak with a chipper voice that only cracks once, "well, parker, looks like the boss man is coming home. we better make this place look presentable."

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[blanc-to-my-noir]

I've never requested anyone from that post so im not sure if im doing it properly but could you do (when you have time) situation 14 with sentence 28 with seunghoon please? :3

Thank you for your request!^^ I legit almost died writing this dkjfldskfa

Scenario:14 - Stuck together for a long period of time

Sentence:28 - “If I kissed you right now, what would you do?”

It’s not like you didn’t fear every single time you came into this storage room that the door would just fall shut and you’d get locked in, but with your luck the one time you didn’t, it actually had to happen. Your boss sent you here with that one coworker you rarely ever see cause he works in the other building, to get some documents from years ago that he needed right now this instant. Whatever it was that made him need those so suddenly, you cursed it. Because by that one coworker you meant the only dude that isn’t twice your age in this company and actually looks decent enough. Do you have a crush on him? Maybe, but that’s really not your greatest worry currently, though it probably should be, because that guy somehow managed to get you two locked in. You’d think two people would easily manage to keep the damn door open - which by the way can only be unlocked from outside, but not from the inside, or else it wouldn’t create the right amount of suspense whenever anyone has to go into this room - but no, he had to let go of it. Then again, what other choice did he have? Watch those boxes full of documents and records fall over to bury you alive while you were just trying to get out the ones your boss wanted, which are by the way in the lowest of the boxes? Of course he saved you, kept a catastrophe from happening even. If all those papers had fallen out, who knows how long it would’ve taken anyone to correctly sort them back in and find the ones you were originally looking for? But by avoiding that problem, you are now stuck with another one, as the heavy door fell shut within seconds.

“So, how do we get out of here now?” you ask, glaring at the handle as if that would magically open it.

“Is it… locked?” your coworker guesses correctly and you nod. “Then… you surely have some sort of key on you, right?”

“Do I look like I do?” you return, trying hard to hide your annoyance with the whole situation.

“…I guess not.” You both sigh.

“Do you have a cellphone on you or anything we can use to contact someone else with to get us out?” you ask, adding as an explanation, “I don’t have mine with me since I shouldn’t use it at work anyway.”

“Ahh, so you don’t get tempted?”

“Basically.”

“Me too.” Great. Only one thing you can do now. You walk up to the door and start banging your fists against it.

“Shin… Seunghoon, right?” you guess.

“Yes…”

“Help me out here.”

“I think that door is soundpr-”

“Then we’ll need to just be louder!” you protest, very very angry at this point.

“…I don’t think you know what soundproof means…” he comments under his breath, but joins you anyway, for whatever reason. Though when he comically and drained of all motivation starts shouting for help, you feel the need to punch him.

“Take our situation seriously, will you?” you scold him and shake your head.

“We’ll just have to wait until someone misses us and goes looking for us here,” he states. “So let’s just sit down for now.” You sigh, having to admit to yourself that he is probably right.

“Fine. Let’s wait then and hope we’re not stuck in here the whole day.”

You look at your watch. The sigh you let out makes Seunghoon turn his head to you.

“How long…?”

“Almost three hours now,” you inform him. “I can’t believe nobody started looking for us yet.”

“Maybe they are searching, but haven’t thought of looking here yet!” he suggests, but you shoot him down.

“No. This wouldn’t be the first time someone gets locked in here. They should know by now.” In exhaustion you would’ve almost leaned your head on his shoulder, as you’re sitting side by side, leaned against one of the huge shelves, but stop yourself in time. Hoping he didn’t notice, you are instantly proven wrong.

“What was that?” Seunghoon asks with a smirk, the cheeky look he’s giving you sending an involuntary shiver down your spine.

“What was what?”

“You were about to rest your head on my shoulder, weren’t you?”

“N-no? What are you talking about?” you utter, looking away to hide the blush you feel creeping onto your cheeks. You can hear him laugh next to you.

“Hey, I’m fine with it. Go on, feel free,” he invites you, but that only makes you blush more. Well fine, maybe you do have a crush on him. A massive one at that.

“No, we shouldn’t. We’re coworkers, okay?”

“Really?” Somehow you feel like his voice just changed, just a tiny little bit easy to miss, but you’re sure you heard some kind of change. A bit insecure, you look at him and find a suddenly serious expression on his face. You gulp. “Then, tell me…”

“Tell you what?” you ask.

“If I kissed you right now, what would you do?”

“You’re crazy,” is the only response you can think of. You see his expression soften, his lips forming a smile, and suddenly you can’t focus on anything else BUT his lips.

“Do you think I didn’t notice your eyes are always on me whenever we come across each other somewhere?” You don’t really know what to answer to that. You know he’s right, you like staring at him a little too much - especially from a distance when you used to be so sure he wasn’t aware. Turns out you were very wrong about that. Too late do you realize you’re caught up in your own thought process that keeps slowing down the longer you stare at his lips instead of giving him some kind of answer - then again, this is probably an answer as well. When the touch of his hand lifting up your chin tears you out of your daze, you have no more time to back away from him connecting his lips you’ve been staring at with yours. Not that you would’ve wanted to. What starts out as a rather timid kiss, testing out if you would even return it or not, soon turns into hands in each others’ hair, tongues fighting for dominance, leaving little space for breathing in between. You’d have almost lost yourself while running your hand over his chest, but him pulling away from you for air kicks some sense into you - the both of you as it seems. For a while you just stare at each other, both panting heavily, when you hear something. A sound that you should be happy about, that you would’ve been happy about if it wasn’t for the last however many minutes you spent making out.

“There you are!” the lady sharing her office with you exclaims as she pushes open the door, bright light shedding into the room. Hoping she wouldn’t suspect anything, you stand up.

“Thank you! We thought we’d be stuck in here forever…” you say, then look back at Seunghoon, who is about to get up too, doing his best to act as if nothing happened. “Come on, let’s get out of here!”

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[ee1af]

You first met Jimin with your best friend Jungkook at a party. It was the farewell party of your senior Yoongi, who had helped you alot through your years in college. He was transferring to another country along with his family and requested you to especially attend the night. So you did.

You didn't really like parties and had zero experience as to what you should wear. So you ended up wearing a golden turtle neck sweater paired with dark high-waisted jeans and heels. Your hair was tucked in a high pony tail and gold earrings adorned your ears.

The party was held outdoors of a luxurious hotel since yoongi was quite rich. Entering the venue, you felt awkward with all the stares from random strangers, but immediately spotted jungkook. However, he wasn't alone, but had a rather handsome company with him.

As you approached them, jungkook's face lit up at the sight of you, but suddenly started laughing, saying,

"Oh my God y/n! Don't you have any party clothes? I could've bought you some."

The handsome guy beside him smirked at you and you felt your cheeks redden with embarrassment. You remembered seeing him at jungkook's place once.

Jungkook was right. Everyone except you was dressed in formal attires; pencil skirts with button-up shirts, elegant dresses, gowns and suits. But did you care?

"Jungoo, you know that I don't give a fuck about clothes. Besides, it's my first time attending a party so kindly shut the fuck up." You said - annoyed.

The handsome guy laughed at your sarcasm and Jungkook felt the need to introduce you both.

"Oh y/n! This is an old friend of mine, Jimin." You smiled at him; his name suited him perfectly. "And Jiminsii.. This is the girl I've been telling you about." Jimin smirked at you and offered his hand for you to shake. "Nice to meet you y/n," his voice was smooth as honey.

"Same here Jimin," you said and shook his small hand with yours. You wondered what did Jungkook tell him about you.

The party was going pretty well and you gave Yoongi the gift you'd brought for him. "Haha y/n. I've never seen you dress up like this. You look so cute aegoo." He squeezed your cheeks while making fun of you. You just rolled your eyes playfully at him.

Since jungkook was mostly busy with jimin, you spent your time drinking. Yes, you loved alcohol and had quite a high tolerance. Which is why after chugging a whole bottle, you felt just a little bit tipsy. But it was enough for you to trip on your high heels as you tried getting up. Jimin, who was glancing at your side from time to time, immediately made his way towards you. He helped you get up, supporting you in his strong arms. You muttered a quiet thank you as you rested your head on his shoulder. Jimin, upon seeing your messed up state, glanced back at jungkook; who only gave him a nod and a thumbs-up. He took you to his hotel room; since he had only come for a few days from Seoul, and was staying there for the night.

He gently laid you on the King- sized bed and took off your heels. All the while, you couldn't help but stare at his face and wonder how could someone be this handsome. You didn't know if it was the alcohol or the sudden undeniable attraction for the man in front of you, but you held his hand in yours.

You let out a low "jimin".

Jimin's eyes widened at the sight of your entwined hands. You looked so vulnerable and submissive that he couldn't help but think of all the things he could do to you. But he did not. He didn't want to take advantage of a girl in her drunken state, let alone his friend's best friend.

"Y/n... You should sleep now." He gave you a half smile and left the room.

You sighed. You weren't that drunk to be taken advantage of. One thing you found utterly sexy was jimin's intimidating stares that could kill people. He kept looking at you throughout the time you'd been drinking and you had caught him a few times but he looked away immediately. Strange.

Well, you tried dozing off but could not. Thoughts of jimin clouded your mind and you just wanted him to be there. You checked your phone only to find jungkook's numerous texts asking if you were okay. You smiled as you read them; your best friend certainly was the best.

But there were messages from another number too, so you checked.

Unknown: hey y/n...

Unknown: it's me jimin.

Unknown: dw I'm not a stalker. Jk gave me your number.

Unknown: well, just wanted to tell that the medicines are in the left drawer. And if you need anything else, you can call back.. sleep well!

As much as you were loving the attention from this attractive stranger, you couldn't tell why he was being so nice to you. And what did jungkook tell him about you? Anyway, you replied.

Y/n✨: thankyou for the concern jiminsii... but im not that drunk to need medicines.

Y/n✨: also, tell jungkook im alright:)

Jimin replied immediately.

Hotstranger: jungkook just left. But I'll inform him.

Hotstranger: you don't need to go home. Sleep. I'll be back soon.

You blushed at how domestic that sounded. You imagined jimin saying that to you and somehow it looked so sexy.

But what did he mean by I'll be back soon? Was he staying there too? On the same fuckin bed? It was an expensive hotel and of course he was not gonna pay for another room. Besides, you honestly did not mind a hot stranger sleeping by your side anyway.

A few minutes later, you heard the door creak and someone -well - jimin entered the room. You shut your eyes immediately, and your heart was thudding in your chest. He went to the bathroom to change. When he came back, he sat at the far side of the large bed, busying himself on his phone. You couldn't help but flutter your eyes open, only to see jimin wearing a white t-shirt with black sweatpants, hung low at his hips. The shirt was almost see-through and a bit damp at places. You could see his stomach through it.

"Uh..jimin?" You startled jimin with your voice and he practically jumped, but composed himself quickly.

"W-what? I thought you were asleep." He scratched his neck shyly.

You chuckled at how cute he looked. "Can you please lend me some of your clothes? Mine are too uncomfortable to sleep in."

"Yeah, sure."

Jimin went to his closet and picked a loose white button-up and shorts. You thanked him and went to his bathroom.

When you were done, you peeked out of the door and said, "umm.. The shorts were too loose for me so ..umm.. I only wore the shirt. Thank you again."

"No it's okay y/n." Jimin's eyes subtly followed your exposed legs as you make your way to your side of bed. You plopped down on the bed and got into the sheets. God! Everything smelt of jimin's intoxicating odour. Was it his shampoo, body wash or just his natural vanilla smell? You couldn't figure out. All you knew was that it aroused you in so many ways. You didn't know how you'd ended up in this awfully attractive man's bed, but your drinking proved to be a blessing in disguise.

Jimin put his phone on the side table, shaking the bed as he got under the sheets too. He couldn't bring himself to sleep. Not when you-his crush for quite a long time-were laying beside him, in his shirt.

Jungkook had wanted you both to meet up and spend some time together. Both jimin and you were single and workaholics. So jungkook thought it would be cool if you both had a liking for each other. Besides, he was aware of jimin's small crush on you, which he had developed when he first saw you at jungkook's place.

Jungkook told jimin about your likes, dislikes, and how you were totally different from other girls.

Jimin kept rejecting girls, proly because of his busyness in work. You on the other hand, never really hung out in bars or cafes as they were not your taste. You liked libraries; and you often visited one after work. Jungkook often teased you that you'd die alone and he'd have to bury you in a library.

There was no spark in your life, but jungkook was sure no one could resist a man like jimin for long.

And so here you were, completely drunk in his intoxicating aura.

When you turned to jimin's side, your lazy eyes met his brown ones. Fuck... His eyes widened instinctively.

"Haha," you laughed dryly. "Seems like we both can't sleep tonight."

Jimin gulped. Seeing you wear his shirt was doing wonders to him.

"Y- yeah. The shirt looks really nice on you."

You blushed and looked down; only to realize how loose it really was. So much so that the collar had slipped down one of your shoulders; thereby exposing your flesh. Well, shit!

When you looked back towards jimin, you found his eyes roaming all over your body, tracing each and every curve as if memorizing them.

"Y/n," his deep voice caught you off guard. "You're not wearing a bra huh." His lustful eyes were burning holes in your body.

Suddenly you felt like a deer caught in headlights. You couldn't help but let out a moan and he hadn't even touched you yet.

"You're so hot... y/n." Jimin closed the painfully long distance between you two, placing his hand on your bare shoulder. His fingers started rubbing small circles on your skin, and nothing had ever turned you on more.

His other hand went to the nape of your neck to keep you close to him as he placed small kisses on your shoulder up to be back of your ear. Then he whispered seductively, "jungkook was right. You're fucking hot."

Wait, what?

"J-jungkook said what?" You asked, mouth agape.

Jimin chuckled darkly and whispered in your ear, "that you're hot y/n."

You could not believe your ears anymore. How could your best friend... Wait... Was he deliberately trying to hook you both? Did he want this too?

You looked back at jimin, who was staring intently at you. His jaw tightened when you bit at your bottom lip and he closed his mouth on one of your earlobes. He licked the soft flesh, swiping his skillful tongue down your neck. You let out a whimper as your hands tugged at his blonde locks. You felt so vulnerable under his seductive gaze; it left an aching in your heart. Never had anyone made you feel that way in such a short period of time. Jimin's teasingly slow tongue finally reached your bare shoulder; where he started sucking and biting on your flesh. You let out soft, pleasurable moans near his ear, tugging on his hair harder. He let go of your shoulder and shifted his eyes to look at yours.

Damn.

His sweaty damp T-shirt was pressed to his chiseled body and you could see his chest and abs through it. You gasped when his hand went to the neck of your-his- shirt and unbuttoned a few buttons. He started kissing your collarbone;  open-mouthed kisses that made your breathing shallower. Jimin slowly made his way down to the beginning of the curve of your breast; stroking the soft skin with his plump lips. Slowly, he pinned you down on the matrice; hands on your hips as he got on top of you. The soft creaking of the bed made your insides flutter.

Jimin looked straight into your widened eyes; studying the features of your face. He then dipped his head into the crook of your neck, whispering near your ear sensually,

"you make it so difficult for me babygirl. I couldn't stop staring at you through out the party"

You whimpered at the nickname; clutching his T-shirt tightly.

"Mhm... what will I tell jungkook now.. huh? That I fucked his best friend?" Jimin softly kissed your earlobe; his actions and words contradicting.

You kissed his jaw; arms wrapped around his neck as you whispered against his skin,

"I don't care what you tell him. I just care about what you might do to me."

Jimin practically shuddered at your words; while retracting his head from your neck and looking at you.

"Y-you're so irresistible baby. I swear I could make you cum for days." He leaned in to kiss your lips, lips just brushing yours as his hot breath teased you.

"Then...then do it jimin. Don't stop."

Your lips met his in a hot, messy kiss. His tongue swiped over your bottom lip and you gave him entrance. Jimin's skilled tongue tasted you like a cannibal; your hot moans swallowed by his mouth.

Your hands made their way under his shirt, feeling the muscles of his back tighten. You slowly lifted his shirt and jimin threw it off. His melanin skin looked ethereal in the moonlight coming from the thin curtains and your fingers roamed all around his body in a feather-like movement.

Jimin shuddered and unbuttoned the rest of your shirt buttons in one smooth motion.

"You're so beautiful," jimin whispered; taking one of your nipples in his mouth. You moaned at his wet lips exploring every crevice of your body. One of his hand gripped your thigh, traveling upwards to your silk panties. Jimin's fingers worked their way inside and removed the piece of clothing in a single tug.

You wrapped your legs around his tiny waist; one hand at the nape of his neck and the other tugging on his smooth hair. Jimin put his hand on your shoulder now, slowly moving it over the length of your arm upto your hand. The silky fabric on your arms dropping swiftly as he did it to the other arm too. His smooth movements made you shiver vulnerably.

Jimin got off of you and took off his sweatpants. You could see the outline of his painful bulge through his grey boxers. Your hands instinctively went to his length and started palming him over the way-too- tight fabric. He groaned and removed your hand; getting rid of his boxers too.

Jimin's weight was back on you as his fingers found your entrance. You whimpered at his thick finger thrusting into your hole; stretching. The cold metal of his ring caused heat to erupt in your stomach.

He adjusted his length to your entrance; looking at you in desperation.

"Y/n, are you on birth control?"

"Yes." You nodded.

Jimin entered you in a single thrust of his hips, letting you adjust to his size. His throbbing length filled you completely, causing a strangled moan to erupt from your throat.

"Ah.. y-you're so fucking tight baby.. Fuck."

Jimin's deep-ass voice made your insides turn.

"J-jimin.. you can move now." He nodded and started thrusting in you, his pace getting faster with every moan coming from your mouth. He started kissing the crook of your neck, breathing heavily near your ear. You tugged at his hair harder with every thrust.

"F-faster... please," you breathed. Jimin obliged and started thrusting into you at a wild pace. You could feel your orgasm building inside you.

"Mhmm.. is it enough for you babygirl?" he whispered deeply in your ear; kissing it several times. You nodded, unable to form any coherent words in your state of pure bliss.

Suddenly, jimin's phone went off. You whined when he stopped his movements to pick up his phone from the nightstand. "Fuck..It's jungkook," jimin said looking at you. He picked up the call immediately. "Hey jungkook...y-yeah.. She's alright now." You started teasing jimin by moving your fingers along his chest and abdomen. He glared at you.

"Sh-she's asleep... yeah."

You wanted to get a reaction out of him and started thrusting your hips upwards, taking him deeper than ever. Jimin's moans were threatening to erupt but he managed. He placed a finger on your lips to keep you from making any sound; but you knew better. You licked his finger and started sucking on it; meanwhile looking jimin in the eye. You could feel his breathing become shallower and you smirked; he was falling apart..

"N-nothing jungkook.. really.. I'm alright... just.. just tired." Before you could do anything further, he said, "and yeah... your best friend is fucking hot."

Your breath hitched and you chocked on your air. You could hear jungkook chuckle at this, causing jimin to smirk widely at you. Jungkook is so dead you thought.

Jimin ended the call and threw his phone aside. His eyes bore into yours, holding a fierce glow.

"You almost got us caught y/n. Or shall I call you..y/n slut?"

His deep voice caused goose bumps all over your body. He leaned in and placed his tongue flat on your throat; licking and sucking the tender skin there. He thrusted his cock deep into you, making you clutch his shoulder blades for support. Your nails dug into his smooth tanned skin, leaving red marks. You moaned his name as the thrusts got more rough. "J-jimin I'm close." You were so close to your edge, you could feel it in your bones. Hearing you moan like this, his thrusts got faster and faster; until waves of euphoria erupted from your body, making you shiver under him. Jimin came undone soon after, spilling his seed inside you.

You both stayed like that for a while; sweaty bodies pressed together as you caught your breath. Jimin got off of you and laid by your side, arms secured around your tired form.

"That was amazing," you mumbled in his heaving chest. "Mhm.." His head lay in the crook of your neck as he played with you hair. "Next time.. I would really make you cum for days y/n."

His words made your insides tingle with excitement. Would there be a next time?  "Then I'll look forward to it jimin." You put your arms around his neck and stared into his brown eyes; that you've come to love. "Sure you would," he said as he cut the distance and attached his lips to yours, kissing you softly. You kissed him back, as you put your fingers in his unfairly silky hair. This was undoubtedly the best aftercare ever, and you were looking forward to more of these with jimin. But since that night, you never saw him again. Maybe he went back to Seoul? Or God knows where. But you missed your hot stranger a lot.

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[theeyeofmyneedle]

How I feel right now

So, people always aks me "why I love @taylorswift "

I couldn't answer cause there's a lot of variables, I could say I love her style, her personality, her music.

But recently I realized that I love her lyrics.

Every single word of her lyric and instruments its not just sounds good, more than that... it represents all my feelings the entire time.

Its not about broken heart in relationship between a couple.

But it can be anything, your friendship ruins, your life messing up and even your career.

I grow up with TS song since fearless, I used to think all of her song represents all my broken heart feelings when I broke up with an X, when I had a feeling with my crush, or the feeling when I truly deeply in love. But it was 10 years ago.

And now, I see and feel her song differently.

Its not just about a cheesy love with my crush, but its all about I can't have the one that I want.

Its not about truly deeply in love as teenagers, but its all about being hard to open my heart and not really sure want to feel like this anymore, but all I can do just remember the feelings.

And its not about broke up with an X, but its all about:

1. Feeling gray and blue all the time

2. Feels like you're all alone

3. Feels like you can not trust anyone

4. Feels like your bestfriend stabb you in the back

5. Feels like your adult life was a mess

6. Feels like your career stuck

7. Feels like no one even seen you around

8. Feels like you have a delutional relationship

9. Feels like everyone is playing on you

10. Feels like your heart shocking, your hands shaking and your life ruins

11. Feels like every single one is keep their secret from you. No one wants to tell you the truth.

12. Feels like a betrayal

13. Feels like a lot of affairs behind you

That kind of feeling that I know and still many more I couldn't mentioned.

This song : "You're not sorry"

I guess i knew it well, I used to think its about losing someone you love, you broke up because he cheat on you and you feel like stupid dumb ass trusting him in your life.

But what I feel right now was different its like: I think I've done everything to show that I am capable, I share my story cause I think he will feel what I feel and not just encourage me but giving me more chance to grow up and explore more.

I think he knows that not every one is the shining stars, I think he try to understand and giving the chance for a dim star to show her best, I think he knows that not everyone always step the right stone and not fall down. I think he knows that someone is rely on him and hope it change her world. I think...

I think Im wrong.

The truth is, always the shiniest star can shine the world. No mercy to them who has no privilege. No other chances to everyone who wants to take a step ahead. No one can be and show their true reflections the way they are.

And you will seen like that, even you had change the world you still be a dim star. Everyone plotting and tell someone new that you are a stupid dim star and made everyone believes that is you the entire time.

He ever mentioned to me that : He always feels like his step are slows and left behind, he feel that way everytime. But he should continue to walk instead of quits.

He says that I have to let go and move on, or I will always feels that Im a victims. I could not force what I want cause the world is not what I dream of. And its not my responsibility to control other pople's life and he says that I have to growpain to know it.

And I hate when I should believe what he says is true. And I hate to trust him dan rely on him which is not suppose to be that way.

Adult life is a nightmare.

Full of dissapointment and you have to had a two faces beside your ownself or you had to accept that you are a trash, just a dim star that had no life and never can be ambitious as everyone else.

So, the thing is... its not about loving Taylor Swift as I seen her before. But, I love Taylor Swift because I feel her lyric deeply with a different point of view and her lyric still walk me through this pain journey.

Jan 31st, 2021

#Spotify

[postymalonee]

Best Friend- Post Malone (AU)

Honestly Im shit! I started writing this and totally forgot about it, but thank you so much @breathflowers for the idea!!! This imagine was supposed to go up on valentines (well actually a long time ago) , but im trash so..Enjoy!

Austin and I had been friends ever since I have memory, we had watched each other grow , from when I got my period to when Austin got his first zit , when I say everything I mean EVERYTHING.We are now currently in highschool and ever since freshman year I realized i love Austin , yep thats me, the cliche girl who falls for her best friend , and everyone around them is aware except him.My friends Ethan and Hila, say I should make a move this friday , but I know his type , and I don't fit in his requirements , believe me , I've been there for every single girlfriend or hoe that Austin’s been with and I don't fit the profile. Sometimes i think to myself I should just maybe , move on , with maybe josh , this kid who allegedly has a crush on me.

“Hey! You going to Ethan’s this friday?” Austin asked , waking me from my daydream

“ Hell yeah , I need a break from this hell , might even make a move on Josh” I said , feeling weird for even mentioning Josh

“Josh? Why? I heard he’s a fucking moron , you better start shaking those ideas , pff.. Stupid Josh and my bestfriend I dont Fucking think so” he said in a tone that really sounded like he was jealous ...wait jealous? Nah can't be.

“Awwwe is someone jealous that Josh might replace them?” I joked

“Pfff.. no , Josh replacing me? Not a chance” he cockily rebuttal

“Whatever, later Post”

“Later (y/n)”

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This whole week (y/n) had been hanging out with stupid Josh, like did she forget about me her best friend? I’m going to be honest, I’m jealous of how close they are getting. What if I lose all my chances with (y/n) ? I’ve been in love with her for so long , I thought it was a stupid crush and it would go away if I dated other girls , but it’s as if I’ve grown to love her more. Maybe I shouldn’t worry so much about Josh, besides on Friday I’ll finally get to spend some time alone with her and tell her how I feel.

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I currently found myself , having a surprisingly good time with Josh , we seemed to have a lot of things in common , we were dancing pretty close to each other if I’m honest , that’s when I felt it as if something was burning me , I look around and I saw Austin looking pissed? I waved my hand at him but he just dismissed it and left. Josh and I kept dancing till things started getting pretty heated , we were kissing as he was leading me outside when I feel his lips aggressively leave mine. As I look up I see a somewhat drunk Austin pushing him and yelling

“(Y/n) IS MY FRIEND , NOW FUCK OFF YOU FUCKING CUNT” with that being said Josh quickly left , just like we planned , now I had to play my role

“Austin what is wrong with you? Why’d you do tha-” before I could continue I was cut off by Austin kissing me , we stood there for a long time before he broke the kiss as said

“ (Y/n) I love you okay? I have loved you since we were 15 and I’m sorry if this ruins our friendship but I had to let you know”

“Austin I love you too” and with that I pulled him in for another kiss , just like I had planned it.

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So my friends and I broke into an abandoned school and i've never been more traumatized in my life. by oddliar

My three friends, Aiden, Blair, Alexia and I have all been a group for a little over a year. we've done everything and more together. I was driving through town one day and saw this abandoned building, it looked like a school. That's when i thought of the idea to try and get into the place for fun. I texted them and they seemed to be pretty hyped up and excited. So the next day, we planned to break in.

As we were walking up the path, we saw a few security cameras and it was raining pretty heavy, there was even lightning (cliché, right?) so we didn't waste any time debating wether to do it or not. We jumped the gate and ran over the the front entrance. the doors were locked and we heard a high pitched buzzing noise coming from inside.

"Let's break a window", Aiden said before we realized that all of the bottom rows of windows were boarded up. The only other windows were further up and we didn't have anything to climb. So we walked around the side of the building and noticed that there were large doors, but they were covered by some sort of heavy containers that were stacked up. We couldn't find a way in. That was until we found a tiny shelter/building thing that was connected to the building - I'm not too sure what to call it - and we saw doors at one side. To our surprise, they were unlocked.

Of course, we opened the doors. They were pretty stiff and it took all four of us to pull at the doors for them to open. They were all scraped on the other side. We all smiled at each other in a way that said, "this is pretty cool shit". We checked to see if the lights worked, but they didn't. There were tiny bits of light shining through into the halls though. I took a lot of photos with my new camera, i'm a very sentimental guy. We guided ourselves through the building with our phone's flashlights. We walked through the halls which were lined with doors to classrooms. We opened every single door and walked in, looking in the drawers of the teachers desk, looking in the storage rooms, it was so creepy and amazing at the same time.

At this point, it wasn't that light outside anymore, and there was still rain and thunder/lightning. We had explored most of the bottom floor, the last place we went was the big, empty sport hall before walking up the stairs. Me, being the most excited ran up the stairs before the others and i turned the corner where they couldn't see and immediately saw doors to the library and i turned around to show my friends who were right behind me. Except they weren't. I texted my friends a bunch of times and tried to call them but none of them were answering. I didn't know what to do. Do I go back where we walked in? Do I wait for them? Do I keep exploring?

I decided to walk back down the stairs and go through the halls, checking every room we entered until I reached the doors that we came through. They were closed, even though we left them open. I kicked and kicked as hard as I could but they wouldn't open. I heard Aiden in the distance, like he was upstairs. It sounded like he was talking to someone but I didn't hear any other voices and I couldn't make out what he was saying. I shouted, "Aiden?" and got no reply. I shouted again, "Aiden? Im literally shaking, please stop this isn't funny", and nothing happened. I know my friends very well, and I know they wouldn't keep a joke going on this long, and they definitely wouldn't do something like this. I was really freaking out now, so I ran through the whole school trying to get to the top floor where the windows weren't boarded up.

Eventually, I reached the third and top floor and noticed it was dark outside. I peeked through one of the windows and saw three little lights, and I realized it was my friends. I felt immediate anxiety in my chest. I knocked the window but they didn't react. They were all standing there; Alexia was crying while Aiden and Blair argued. They all looked shaken and/or worried. I picked up a piece of metal that was lying on the ground with the dust, other materials and debris. I banged against the window, trying to smash it and it wouldn't work. I even kicked it multiple times and nothing happened. Then I noticed handprints on every other window on this floor. As if other people in the past had their hands against the window, peeking out. Exactly like I was doing at that moment. I put my hands on my head in a moment of despair. I really didn't know what to do. I screamed at the top of my lungs, "FUCK". Then I heard footsteps around the corner. I stood in shock, and didn't move or speak or react at all. Then they stopped and a voice like Blair's spoke and said, "How the fuck do I get out of here?" It said in a frantic voice. A tear dripped down my face.

I walked down the hall and as I passed one window, and another, I heard a thumping on one of the windows and someone screaming for help. It was a female voice, much like Alexia's... I ran fast down the hall and reached some stairs and I was so horrified that I slipped on one of the last steps and fell to the ground. I cut my arm on a piece of debris on the ground. I screamed in pain and wiped my arm in my shirt. I was now on the second floor. Then, I continued and walked back down to the bottom floor and ran into the sports hall. There was no way out from there. I walked through and saw a small garden that I didn't notice was there at first.

The door was unlocked and I pushed it open, it wasn't too stiff. I walked through the garden and was getting drenched in the rain. I saw a path and walked along it, walking alongside the school dinner hall. These windows weren't boarded up, but some of them were so dirty you couldn't really look through them. Suddenly, a loud bang came from the window and i saw the silhouette of a human body against the window. It seemed to walk backwards and then suddenly ran forwards and slammed into the window. I stood in shock as this person or thing slammed itself into the window. It was so dark outside now, practically pitched black. I ran along the path away from the dinner hall windows and it brought me to the back of the school. I ran round the side that we didn't explore and saw gates. I tried to climb over them multiple times before finally getting over them. I ran down this side which brought me to the front of the building and I didn't see my friends. I screamed for them and got no reply. I sat for ten minutes thinking about where they could have gone. Then I heard panting. I heard running footsteps and it was Aiden, he climbed over the same gate that I did. He ran over to me and hugged me. A few seconds after, Blair came the same way. She saw us and cried. She was shaking like crazy. Alexia was still not here. The three of us stood in silence, waiting for something to happen. We heard a faint scream getting louder as Alexia ran into the gate that we had all jumped over. She began to climb it and eventually got over, before collapsing onto the ground and crying in front of us.

We all discussed what happened and that's when we all got even more freaked out. I'll tell you now. Alexia, panting, told us what happened to her first. She said, "After Henry (me) walked up the stairs, I ran up after him and couldn't see him in the hall so I turned round to where Blair and Aiden were walking behind me and they weren't there. I got lost and I walked everywhere. I went to the top floor and I saw you three outside. Then I heard banging on the windows. Then I banged on the windows and screamed for help but you couldn't hear me." - That's when she noticed that Blair, Aiden and I had our hands over our mouths in shock. "Thats almost exactly what happened to me," Blair started. Aiden put his hands on his head in awe and listened while Alexia had a confused look on her face. Blair continues, "Aiden and me were walking up the stairs to look for Alexia and Henry but we couldnt see you guys. Aiden went into one of the classrooms and I walked into the library. When I couldn't find Alexia or Henry, I walked out of the library and Aiden wasn't there. I was shaking, calling his name and asking him where he went but he didn't reply". Aiden then included, "Blair, when I came out of the classroom you were nowhere to be found. Neither were Henry or Alexia. I went looking on the top floor and just kept asking myself how the fuck could I get out". I told my side of the story and we connected the pieces. We were all in the same place; speaking, yelling, banging but none of us could see each other. We could hear each other, but not see each other. I heard Blair talking, Alexia banging on the windows for help, and Aiden talking to himself. We all heard each other, but didn't see each other.

After we finished talking and realised what the fuck had just happened, Alexia pointed out the front of the building. Some of the windows in the top floor that weren't boarded up had words painted on them. "L E A V E N O W". We looked at each other before sprinting out of the property. It's been months since that night and we still talk about it a lot but we have never understood why or what happened to us.

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