#and im writing like That on Purpose Again

[topaziraphale]

"Stop saying Crowley won't help Aziraphale in S3 he'd go back to him in a HEARTBEAT and nothing would stop him" I get it no one likes the idea of Crowley being bitter after what happened for a long period of time but like can we at least acknowledge that he's currently going through probably the most emotional pain in his life since falling? Can we agree that he's opened his heart entirely - something you couldn't pay him to do unless the world is literally ending and he's desperate - to Aziraphale, and got shot down? Can we understand that he did it AGAIN only to lose Aziraphale again? Not that what Aziraphale did isn't without Crowley's own shortcomings (hiding the truth of Heaven's cruelty from him) but like,,,,

The appeal here isn't Scorned Crowley Doesn't Love Aziraphale Anymore, or Never Wants To Help Him Again, the appeal here is Crowley learning enough self respect to not just walk back right to Aziraphale like nothing happened after Aziraphale has had a pattern of consistently refusing him. Going years ping-ponging between "We're not friends I don't even know him" to "That's what friends are for right?" and "We're friends, why would you even say anything?" and "Friends? We're not friends. We are an angel and a demon!"

Like I get it, Crowley is a heartbreakingly forgiving person. Of course he's gonna forgive Aziraphale, I'll be surprised if he didn't forgive him by the time he walked out the bookshop door, but gdi he could at least grant himself the luxury of being at least a little irritated for longer than however long it takes to make a globe and some books float and angrily cry out to God in his flat. But due to the change of pace and dynamic that is establishing part of the conflict for Season 3, I just really like the idea of him for ONCE prioritizing himself and being like "Okay, fine. We'll get back at it when you're ready, then," instead of just taking Aziraphale back like his words and actions meant nothing to him, when clearly they have an effect on him.

What is Aziraphale going to learn if Crowley just accepts what he did so quickly, like he always has the entire time they've been friends? Idk maybe I'm just projecting too much darkness on their dynamic but I mean, if the pattern of Aziraphale pushing Crowley away/disrespecting him one day and then being fine with his friendship the next + Crowley never stopping to be like "Hey, that's not cool, at least give me a little credit" or smth was fine all along and will continue to be fine in the future, then why, after 6,000 years of being friends and loving this demon, can Aziraphale still not accept that Crowley is just fine the way he is, and instead got excited to promote him to an angel in a heartbeat once the opportunity presented itself? You can't blame all of it on Heaven when Aziraphale has demonstrated his free will/defiance to Heaven so many times. Or, I don't know, I guess maybe we can? Maybe I'm just craving too much angst to the point where I'm letting it cloud my analysis of canon. Idk.

#derpy speaks #good omens #good omens 2 #no i dont think crowley is gonna ever hate aziraphale for what happened but he's allowed to be angry #he's allowed to be done with it all. he's allowed to be exhausted. just look at his face when he drives away. #meh. idk. but i dont know how i'll feel if crowley just INSTANTLY accepts aziraphale back in a situation involving #idk - ''hey help me stop the new apocalypse'' #at least. without like. SOME pushback? it can even be something small like ''are you SURE you want ME to help you? do you really need me?'' #doesnt have to be a straight refusal but i'd like SOME kind of action to show that crowley is putting his foot down for once #he deserves that self respect #do NOT reply saying that im insinuating that aziraphale is actively malicious or doing it on purpose. #everything he has done up until now is his own complicated response to all the trauma and guilt he's been through #but despite that crowley is STILL allowed to be upset... it's messy. i can write a whole paper about how this whole thing #is just unfortunate on both ends. again. we didnt get queerbaited we got communication baited 😭 #but help me out here. am i just too fandom-brained to have these expectations from the story? #is there something obvious im missing that is making me sound like a complete asshole here? do i need to get my head out of the gutter? #someone please explain it to me if so because whatever it is‚ i can't find it #not queued

[onethousxndvoices]

whoaaaaaa omg they added a new hi fi rush character haha when did that get there (real) (not clickbait)

uhhh hi i finished hfr the other day and absolutely freakin loved it. chai stole my heart the minute he was introduced i couldn't NOT do some oc x canon shenanigans :] this is mocha she works for vandelay HR and pretends she doesnt hate it but shes probably exploding the nearest person with her mind always. i dont have much else for her (for now) but she comes in post-canon when chai's already working as the project armstrong ambassador

(close ups under the cut!)

#oc x canon #oc #this was a nice break from doing big pieces back to back. i feel like a sane person again (lie) #also i named her mocha for the sole purpose of calling their ship name latte. im a genius /JOKE #i might write some lore for her i might not. we'll see #this is so self indulgent LMAO #hi fi rush oc #skip's art

[sollucets]

guys i am trying Really hard not to have public opinions about of this morning... pray for me

#i work really hard not to do that. genuinely. every single time i reblog a meta or post my own opinion or write more serious tags #it is Vetted #i keep these things to my friends & my discord & such on purpose because. because. it's better for everyone #but im hanging on by a thread today i guess :') #for now.... just.... people need to remember that when youre debating fiction like this #the characters are fictional but the people listening aren't #and you can cause real fucking harm by talking about demographics the way people have been #rowan chatter #(if i see someone fucking say ray can't love again i'm going to kill. it's directly to murder i will be committing crimes) #(AND if i see another implication that he should've had to get sent to prison it'll be arson also) #fuck you all you dont get to have ray anymore. im taking him he's in my pocket now #do people even know how rehab & therapy fucking WORK #okay. okay. okay okk okokokkok mission failed a little #but we're far enough down in the tags now. reblogs are off. don't eat me

[theangryweasel]

Every time I watch gurren lagann it reminds me that I've NEVER seen anyone acknowledge that this

Is potentially an intentional parallel to this

Given that, yknow. That's kamina. The guy who wears the shades Bro and Dirk's are based on.

(I know hussie claims that at bros conception they hadn't watched GL but by this point like. Very possible. Also some things just make an insane about of sense, character wise, if you read it as Dirk looking up to Kamina. Like TOO much sense. I have Opinions on that.)

#i need to rewatch gl again w the express purpose of writing notes about dirk strider fr #gurren lagann #homestuck #dirkjake #kaminayoko #if anyone else wants to talk about these two works PLEASE hmu #im dying bc like 1 other person (that ive seen) actually seems to make these connections #shoutout to cringefail-clown #youre a real one

[xiewho]

i love love love the way you draw gorgug!! you give him so much personality :)

ouhhh omg thank u so much 😭😭 he’s my favorite bad kid so i tend to overthink a lot when i draw him haha but im really glad u like the way i draw him :’)

#‘gorgug from fh’ WRONG. he is actually my oc #out of all the bad kids hes actually the hardest one for me to draw #which is painful cause hes my fav but its ok we ball #i have so many hcs so if i draw him different every artwork uhh it is what it is #my thought process when i draw him is like ok yeah he’s cool but like #hes also so lame 2 me #i cant make him look too cool .. . . i wont allow it #sometimes i gotta reign it in guys #glasses gorgug is so real to me Btw #so funny to think abt tho. glasses goggles And headphones #where do u keep all that…. #i forgot what the original purpose of these tags were i just like talking about him #bro i still havent figured out the logistics of his tusks #idk how to do certain shorthands for mouths anymore cause im always like. #where do the tusks fit into all this. #and i really enjoy rendering eyes so the fact that goegug is js so ⚫️⚫️ is so funny to me #i cant spell but im not writing that tag again #ill stop here HAHAHA #thank u anon <3 #asks

[realperson022]

Shadow's favorite flowers are Lantanas...

according to the internet, I possibly can see why:

they require the full sun

Prefers well-draining soil that is neutral, slightly acidic, or slightly alkaline (really got to take care of them)

leaves display antimicrobial, fungicidal, and insecticidal properties (so they're great for medicine use, especially in cancer, skin itches, leprosy, chicken pox, measles, asthma, and ulcers)

they're invasive (smother and destroy native vegetation and are impenetrable to animals, people, and vehicles)

they've been the focus of control programs for a century because of their invasive nature, and as of recently, biocontrol agents have allowed for few successes in controlling them

#my point is he's probably been exposed to the plant before and took a liking to it because...well. why not? #anyway just some fun details about shadow's favorite things again #im always on the hunt for this stuff during twitter takeover season :) #ALSO. i can keep track of this for *writing purposes* #shadow the hedgehog #twitter takeover #sonic the hedgehog

[extra-somethin-somethin]

hey so do you think wtv keiko had to deal with growing up with yusuke could be considered a type of parentification

#god chapters where barely anything happens except a character's realization about things can be hard ... #im writing another keiko pov chapter and it's hard because well!! #keiko was never really a main focus in the series and as time goes on she gets even less of a focus so i have to fill in these spots #in her personality and views that aren't really explored. im taking a lot of liberties lets say #and idek if it's gonna read as in character cos of that #anyway im tryna say that like. pre series keiko was basically this presence in yusuke's life and he saw her as a pain but he cared #she was there to scold him and cajole him into going to his classes and she was his only friend #now we know atsuko was negligent and idk how involved the yukimuras were in his life but i feel like keiko #whether directly or indirectly was given this duty like you have to keep him outta trouble #you're smart you're mature he needs someone like you. this responsibility just kind of put on her before she can understand the weight of i #and she can't really comprehend that weight until it's abruptly taken from her. yusuke dies and there's no one to shepherd #i feel like keiko should get to be mad about this. this realization of the nature of their dynamic. keiko planning things around yusuke #who's never done that in his life. not because he's purposely being thoughtless but bc he was never the one to have to plan #to think about what their future looks like. he just kinda drifted along and keiko tried to do damage control. it wasn't fair #yusuke is keeping secrets from her she is scared of high school and that he'll die again without her knowing why and it's unfair #so she should get to be mad also because girls getting to be mad is one of my favorite things 👍🏼 #the realization that yusuke won't be lost without her so she shouldn't hinge her life on the expectation that he will be #she worries about yusuke a lot i think. especially after he comes back from the dead. and i think kuwa's presence would help ease that #dread in her heart. it doesn't have to be just me. there's someone who can be there with him always and it doesn't have to be me #the guilty relief of not having to be the sacrifice. but kuwa doesn't mind so maybe it's okay this way #idk just rambles about my fic while i puzzle out how to word it #character analysis #yukimura keiko #yu yu hakusho

[bodyfrmabalcony]

actually sorry to be back at this again but i did have slightly more to say about tim and jason (see last post i reblogged)

that post does a lot of analysis that i enjoyed re: their read on what tim is dream hallucinating jason saying re: his own death and i had a couple thoughts i wanted 2 add to that. tldr they r saying that this is wayy more about tim than it is about jason and i super agree. i said something about jason's line saying he killed himself in my tim post from last week, but it was kinda reductive, where i said basically yeah that sure sounds like like a way bruce might describe it!! but i don't really think that's the whole story - my more genuine nuanced take on that is a little more like: it sounds an awful lot like what a scared kid might imagine that bruce saying about what happened to a robin who fucks up, i.e., not something bruce said about jason but something tim is afraid bruce would say (or think) about tim if tim went the same way as jason

being a martyr and a cautionary tale and a failure - his own or bruce's - are all stacked up on top of each other w/ jason, and tim just kind of. has all that. to deal with. the linked post gets way into how tim is reacting to his mom's death, which is so so interesting to me, bc tim is clearly soo scared of his grief disqualifying him from everything else he wants and feels like he needs to do. he's scared he won't be able to be robin bc bruce sees him compromised by his grief, so he's got to grieve Just Right, at the same time that he's basically trying to take on bruce's grief for jason. the kid is in the poster house for Grief Alters Your Life In Ways You Can't Control and he's still trying to grieve correctly. oof.

and back to tim's relationship to jason post-jason's death, it's so interesting in every direction, but specifically a big thing to me is that on some level jason is not real. like he is, obviously, but tim didn't meet him and he's never going to. he's not dick, a man tim can remember as a child and whose apartment he can break into as a slightly older child. he's not bruce, a guy whose basement tim can end up standing in if he tries hard enough. he doesn't! exist! you don't get to meet dead men! jason doesn't need to be pinned down as tim's hero or tim's fear or tim's resentment, bc the most important thing is that he's just a story. he's just an idea.

and then, of course, what do u do when the idea puts a knife to your throat. or puts on bright yellow tights to beat u up in front of your friends. things get really silly!! quoting my own tags on the first linked post just to have them here as well:

#i think constantly constantly about the car crash disaster of #all the things ppl did in their grief after jason died and then #jason comes back. and sees things he was never meant to see #and it's specifically sooo interesting for the ppl who got caught up in the grief but never even met jason #tim looking at the memorial case #cass sitting at jason's grave on his birthday with bruce #like wtf is jason supposed to do w all that grief from ppl he doesnt know for a person he only sort of was #and on the flip side! wtf r the ppl who grieved a story supposed to do when the story walks up to them! #and in some cases. walks up to them holding a knife. #anyway just thinkin

#just saying things about tim and jason once again #i could probably write a whole post about cass at jason's grave too but that's. a whole other kettle of fish #talking tag #sorry for stream of consciousness typing up my thoughts #anyway #tim drake #jason todd #oh god also x3 there's the whole issue where batman fear gas hallucinates jason and almost kills tim #idk how relevant that is but im thinking about like #the times tim puts himself in jason's shoes on purpose #the times he tries his ass off to be in some other shoes entirely #and the times someone else hallucinates him into jason's shoes and almost beats him to death

[josephslittledeputy]

Something, something, Jacob had to leave Miller to the wolves to survive, something, now he trains wolves so they’re never out of his control and can’t turn on him like they did before, something

#ok to rb #i know everyone takes this story as cannibalism and youre valid for that but ALSO lets make it angsty and think about how jacob felt a loss #of control in that extremely traumatic moment where he had to sacrifice miller to save himself. now fast forward to meeting joseph again who #gives him purpose. a direction. CONTROL. his men never disobey. they never question like Johns do. They're obedient. Just like the wolves he #trains. Because if he has control of everything (especially the wolves that im sure haunt his dreams) then nothing can go wrong #anyway this is just my jay cub analysis folks take it with a grain of salt i love old sad man hours <3 #tbd #possibly #also thinking of how control and trauma relate UGH #ill stop writing an essay in the tags now..

[raayllum]

also - bc i can't believe i have to say this - if you link someone's meta/posts when they've 1) blocked you and you know it and/or 2) just to rebuttal them and disagree with them over something it's already clear - and okay!! - that you have fundamentally different interptretations on, you're being kinda rude at best and an asshole at worst

#like don't get me wrong different interpretations is not a bad thing #making a new post and linking back to an old convo is not bad #but if it's something that's already been made clear that you Fundamentally Disagree on #if you have beef #just leave each other alone #don't link my posts just bc you don't think you can adequately summarize what im saying #and again: if all u have time for is disagreeing with ppl and clowning on them #it's a pretty sad meta existence #i'm off to write about ez and rayla bc i was lying awake last night like 'huh' #fandom nonsense #me explaining why i don't think callum omitted stuff from the spell on purpose #is not a personal attack #and me exploring how i would interpret if i was looking at it from that angle is also not an attack #it's all chill

[caffeinatedopossum]

Yknow... I've spent so long focusing on me- what *I* want, what *my* reason for being alive is, that I think I completely forgot I can never separate my life from others- no matter where I look, other people are always at the core of what's important to me. Like yknow what? Maybe I don't want to be alive, maybe I don't see the value in life and it means nothing to me- but other people do. Other people *want* to live, for reasons that I simply don't have. And I think if me dying, or just trying to explain to explain how I think and feel even, would make that worse for someone else, then I don't want to. Because they deserve to keep the things that matter to them. Because I don't have a lot of faith in the meaning of life or hope that I'll have a happy future... but what I do have is faith in other people. Even if I shouldn't, I do and I'm not sorry for it.

#even if all ill ever get from other people in the end is disappointment #at least disappointment isnt the worst thing that life can throw at me #maybe if it happens- if when the day comes that i have to die and every last person has let me down- maybe ill have to accept it #but until that happens i wont accept it at all #ive already been let down by too many people to count. by stranger who dont even know I exist #and i know all of you readjng this have too. if anyone is reading this #but maybe i havent... maybe one of you has faith in me. and maybe thats enough to make it not matter how shitty other people are sometimes #because i know thats true for me. i look up to a handful of people and thats so important to me #idk... this feels egotistical. i doubt im anyones source of hope like that. but who cares #this train of thought doesnt feel complete but i know from oast experiences that if i have even the slightest sort of #*positive* breakthrough then i have to write it down IMMEDIATELY while im still feeling the feelings of it #otherwise I'll never be able to grasp the concept again #so i hope this serves its purpose even if its not the most coherent post 😅

[steelycunt]

do you have already some ideas for pride au s? i need to know what is going on in that blender that ur brain is. do u see him with high waisted levi’s and crop tops??? is he a total doormat for smiths enjoyer r??? i need to know more

hi omg yes! yes i do! s' deal is slightly different to r's, in that r has no parallel/does not correspond to any character in the original film, so i'm basically inserting him as a figure into the narrative (although as irrelevant as this is, to me he is. closest to bill nighy's cliff if cliff was a young man in the eighties xx), whereas s more or less fills the position that mark fills in the film. but other than that he is completely free 4 me to characterise and i think he will be so fun honestly! from the thoughts ive had so far hes sort of a mess of a guy at least to begin with. he is kind of moving at a hundred miles and hour + throwing himself into organizing this thing but if you were to slow him down and put him under a microscope hes uhhh. quite lost + lonely in a way. i expect it will not take him very long to become quite embarrassingly gone for r i think he will consider him the best thing since. sliced bread within hours of meeting him he is imagining them both as the two maidens of pompeii its. a really poor performance from him. he thinks r’s accent is sooo sexy every time he talks s is twirling his hair like omggggg. say that again or please elaborate please tell me more…please…..

also i am looking forward to dressing him up in fun outfits again because he is first and foremost my barbie i am just not sure what yet! i am not as familiar with the eighties as i am with the seventies in a lot of ways so. the setting and everything that comes with that will be really fun to research xx although i am struggling to decide on s' music taste!! r lends himself very well to eighties music i think i could build him a record collection easily (including the smiths sad but true) whereas. s seemed to fit better in the seventies :-/ i am not sure what hes listening to in the eighties apart from seventies records he hasnt let go of yet!! and despite the much more glaring aspects of this fic i have yet to turn my attention to frankly. deciding what silly little songs s wants to listen to is currently one of my main priorities xx

#also in relation to s serving as the mark figure and any instance where the characters are directly reflecting a figure in the film #although for the purpose of the narrative they're inhabiting specific roles (e.g. leader/founder of lgsm / paddy considine's role of the #miner they have sort of. first contact with) they're in no way intended to inhabit or comment on or. reflect the characters of whichever #figure they correspond to in the film. if that makes sense. as in their actual characterisations are purely fictional + the only link they #have to the characters in the film is the fact that they are serving the same narrative role! other than that theyre completely fictional #and that is the only sense in which theyre based on the film characters (and therefore the real people the film characters are based on). #hopefully that makes sense but seeing as im like knee deep in research + interviews + articles + documentaries about this now i am #ever more #conscious of the fact that pride is based on real people and therefore just wanted to be. super clear that none of the characters in this #au would be based on the film's portrayal of those real people in terms of the way they are characterised! #they fulfil certain positions that reflect real events as required by the story but as characters they are. purely fictional :-) anyway #sorry for this long winded way of making a very simple comment hopefully i dont have to say the word narrative again but. yeah #if i do write this i wanted to b super clear about that right off the bat :-) s is going about things in a singularly s way #(<- pathetically and cuntily) #god this is. sooo sorry for how long every part of this post is anon this is so embarrassing. no one ever can accuse me of being concise #anon #telegram #pride au

[hella1975]

no bc like. trk is SO hard to read. like. Thanksgiving. That SceneTM. boy. i read aftg in a single week when i was fifteen and i regret doing it at that age so much bc MAN that was a hard couple scenes to read

right?????? and there's nothing inherently wrong with writing scenes like that i just always think nora misses the mark with how it's handled. like even AFTER that reveal in trk about What Happened To Andrew And Why He Acts The Way He Does, he still gets treated as some soulless maniac? and that's so damaging to any victims reading that also - god forbid - dared to respond to that trauma in a 'bad' way

#i havent read trk literally since the first time i read it at FOURTEEN so i know this time will be worse bc ill understand it more #idk ive said it before and ill say it again the thing i love MOST about andrew is how 'extreme' his response to his trauma was #and by that i mean he actually had a very natural reaction but because he didnt do the coming-of-age broody love interest thing #of embracing '<3 peace and love and the power of friendship <3' in order to get better #his reactions are therefore labelled extreme & by a lot of the fandom too. like even andrew stans tend to write him off as uwu psychopath #like NO! he went through HORROR and decided TO HIS OWN DETRIMENT that if anyone crossed his 'extreme' boundaries #ever again then he'd fucking gut them. and he stuck to it with no fucks given for if it made him a 'monster' #and seeing that written is INCREDIBLE #regardless of how off the mark nora was like i know she did that by pure fucking accident #no way she has the respect for andrew's character to have done it on purpose #but yeah i just love andrew a lot he means a lot to me like even if i was too young when i first read aftg i still dont regret it #just bc of how much andrew and his mindset stayed with me and how important it is #so yeah im TERRIFIED for my raven king reread bc it's THE let's traumatise andrew book and idk if i can handle that again #<- acting like im being held at gunpoint to reread it when it is entirely my choice LMFAO #ask #aftg

[crebbyhermit]

found this in the drafts

#crebsketch #dumping here for archival purposes again #did i just post hell yeah im back again #ocs #venus #kurt #lea #vici #andrea #hugo #pulchra #how did i draw in this style....i gotta get it back LMAO #venus is a wild card and i am afraid of her but she's really fun to draw #airhead bimbo girlie with so much rage and mommy issues #i remember learning a way to make interesting characters is by designing them around a trope/stereotype #and then allowing them to subvert those traits with something deeper #. it was probably an uchikoshi interview i learned that from. #i have unconsciously done this for awhile actually LMAO #like i would go. okay i wanna make a character that's like the token airhead. or silly. or femme fatale #and then i play with them a bit and write around and find out. ah this is your deep seated motivation for everything #it sounds like i know what i was doing but no. i just wanted to create characters to pander to my friends LMAO #edit: DRUD I SEE YOUR LAST TAGS THE UNCONSCIOUS BEDE CODED OC IS CRAZY. MY ROOTS NEVER LEAVE. MF

[fatherkreiner]

i enjoy it a lot when its unclear if something is happening or not actually. what do you think is there supernatural involvement or is the narrator just losing his mind i don't care!!! i don't!!!! it's left ambiguous for a reason!

#wizardspeak #this is about eta hoffmann sandman again im getting annoyed at my classmates from like 2 weeks ago... #'yeah he was Obviously Crazy' 'no it was Definitely The Devil' stop it. stop we have more important things to talk about... #this is a story it's meant to fucking be like that most ppl dont write abt the supernatural just to be like would that be fucked up or not #even if it IS just The Devil or whatever theres a purpose to that being written... like u do know nathaael isnt real and as such #cant be haunted by a demon for realsies OR hallucinate for realsies. also this is Unexplained Stuff & Fragments Literature Movement...

[aethergate]

i have too many vanitas headcannons that i just have rattle around in my head

#mun in the moon [ ooc ] #i have no idea how he got to me so badly on this playthrough of KH #i think he only knows like. fire magic and maybe one or two other spells #i think he doesnt know healing magic at all #i know that boy doesnt know how to read and write he was raised in the KEYBLADE GRAVEYARD by XEHANORT #i think he doesnt do training matches he acts like hes fighting to the death in every fight ever #hence why he just fuckin #flops on the ground after so many fights in bbs #he just puts his entire strength and all his energy into every fight so viciously he doesnt keep stamina #so after it hes just absolutely winded #holding my head in my hands. boy whos anger comes from a deep sense of lonliness and envy because hes been alone all his life #and wants what ventus has so bad cause hes gotten so many looks into it #but he thinks the only way he can Stop feeling like that is straight up just dying. and becoming whole with him again #cause he hasnt been given the space to breathe and deprogram himself from thinking hes a monster not made to exist #which. it doesnt help in the bbs times darkness was way more villianized people didnt think you needed both!!! #so everyone would've just been like ew youre mad of darkness youre evil right away anyways even without the xehanort influence #i know he hates looking at his reflection and so many parts of himself cause hes like ew im just a mismash of ventus and sora #my boys lack of a sense of identity out of being a weapon or feeling like something not meant to exist #just meant to die to fulfill a bigger purpose and become someone else again #everyone else is trying to get out of the heart hotel hes trying to get IN #anyways. im normal now. #i have so many other thoughts but i cant word them just yet. boy who i adopted 3 days ago rotting my head