#and in his mind: what happens when high school ends and he isn't the quarterback anymore

[jellyfishlilith109]

Third wheel for life!?

Chapter 1

I woke up in a daze, not remembering much from the night before, but nothing important ever happens to me anyways, so it's not like I'm missing anything.

We just went out for drinks anyways, my best friend from highschool said she had great news and wanted to go out and celebrate. What are we celebrating? My forever single life and her engagement, rather fitting that Jessica is finally engaged to her high school crush while I'm still married to my job. I love my job don't get me wrong but, sometimes I just wish that there was someone to come home to.

I've tried the dating thing, over and over and over again. Every time they turn me down for one reason or another. They always say "Your too loud.", "Did you dress up at all?", "I don't want a working woman, so you'll have to loose the job to get with me.", "I'm not interested in anyone over x weight.", "Put on a little more makeup and I'll consider a second date.", thats how they always ended, before the second date. Not once have I ever even had a second date.

Some may say I'm jealous and jaded over everyone around me seemingly finding love out of thin air, and their damn right, but for Jessica I understand. Jessica never had to look for love, well not for herself but she definitely enjoys playing matchmaker for me. Our first day into high school, while walking to first class together. she tripped on a crack in the concrete and fell right into the arms of the man of her dreams. Personally I never really liked John, but for Jessica's sake I was cordial with him. John and Jessica were the ideal couple for most people, the star quarterback and the head cheerleader. Being the third wheel had never really crossed my mind until they started inviting me less and less.

After graduation they left for college and I spoke to them occasionally for two years. Just last week Jessica messaged me about going out for drinks in celebration, and right now I'm wishing I would have took it easy on the drinks. My head is killing me and the light coming through the curtain makes me want to snuggle into the cool bed and just go back to sleep, but I have to get up and-. What time is it!? It's already eight in the morning, I'm late for work! Why didn't my alarm go off?

I throw off my covers and head to the bathroom, quickly swallowing some pain relievers for the headache and brushing my teeth. I rush into the closet and grab a pair of black heels, skinny jeans, a tank top and an oversize sweater. Hopefully my boss won't care that I didn't have the energy to dress up today. As I walk out I put my shoulder length brown hair in a ponytail, spritz myself with some perfume and grab my stuff from the bowl by the door.

Checklist of things I can't leave without: phone check, wallet check, keys check, other wallet check. Wait other wallet, where did I get-. I glance up at the clock on my wall and just say screw it I'll have to figure it out later, my boss is gonna kill me. I throw everything in my pockets and rush out to my car, she's not much but she's mine, a black kia forte. I turn the ignition, buckle my seatbelt and take off.

I finally get to my job at eight thirty, after getting stuck in traffic, and rush to my desk. Being a receptionist and assistant isn't what I had in mind when I graduated but I couldn't turn down the pay. My boss is probably already fuming so I need to get everything started now and head to his office as quick as I can. I empty my pockets into the bottom drawer of my desk and lock it, sliding my key into it's hiding spot, before heading over to the room where we keep all the food. My boss loves coffee and snacks and doesn't mind sharing with me so he leaves it unlocked for me to get what I want and bring him some too.

Two iced honey buns and a carmel macchiato with four spoons of sugar and three dashes of creamer, I still have no idea why my boss likes his coffee so sweet, but I've made it like this every working morning for over a year now. As I walk into his office, I notice he isn't there and it's already almost nine, bad sign number one. I place the honey buns on the desk and the coffee on the coaster and turn around to leave when I notice an open file on his desk, bad sign number two. My boss has never told me what he does, and honestly I really didn't care when I first started working here, let alone leave something just lying on his desk. The man locks up everything possible in his storage room and spends a good amount of time making sure everything is organized on top of that. Leaving this out means it's either not important at all and will need to be taken my me to shred once he redacts the neccesarily details or this is important and something more important needed his attention. Either way I need to wait for him to tell me what he needs done for the day, every day it is something different. Some days there is nothing to do but sit at the desk and entertain myself because he's organizing his files, others I've scheduled every open slot and have the day bleed into overtime. Today has nothing on the schedule, so it might be a lazy day, just what I need for this headache to go away.

I've waited about 5 minutes before I glance over at the file. Maybe I can just glance over it and see if it needs to be shredded, if not I can just wait at my desk. The file looks to be just a few papers, I can skim it in a few seconds and be on my way.

I take a seat in my boss's chair and flip to the front of the first page and some of it has already been blacked out. All I can make out is that this is a conversation between the boss and someone else and that there is something the boss doesn't want to sell but the other guy won't take no for an answer.

I flip to the back of the first and the front of the second pages, and find the same thing. More redaction and still going on about not wanting to sell such an important asset, but willing to negotiate for a redacted amount.

As I flip to the back of the second and first of the third pages, I glance up at the clock. I need to hurry up before he gets back. I can tell this is where the boss left at, the redactions stop and I can read clearly on the third page. I can't believe what I'm seeing, it's a contract with my boss's signature, and the asset being sold is me.

"Lilith, I've been looking for you, there's someone I want you to meet."~

End chapter 1

Comment if you want more or found a mistake in my grammar

#chapter 1 #fnaf #moon fnaf #moondrop fnaf #fnaf security breach #sun fnaf #daycare attendant fnaf #sundrop fnaf #this is my work of fiction #please don't steal #im a simp

[theghostofashton]

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#honestly it makes me kind of sad that people completely write off finn's arc through s3 #bc it is.....scarily accurate to how most hs seniors are dealing w the overabundance of 'what do you want to do with your life' q's they get #i remember having no fucking idea when i was 17 #and i think it's such an important conversation about how we place so much pressure on these literal kids to know #when most people graduating college still don't fully know #i also think w finn in particular there's something to be said about status and reputation #thinking about quinn's idea of being a lima loser and the life she'd resigned herself to and almost what is 'expected' of them? #peak in hs and just go downhill afterward #you're the quarterback in high school and everyone loves you and you're consumed w that you don't really think about much else #but what happens when all that goes away who are you without that #everyone heaps all this praise on finn as the quarterback and the leader but who is he really and what does he want to do #and in his mind: what happens when high school ends and he isn't the quarterback anymore #this is honestly where most of my issues w finchel come from #from the beginning rachel has seen him as an idea a symbol she wanted to date the quarterback that meant something to her #but the quarterback is a person and he has feelings and things he deals w that may not be easily reconciled w the Quarterback #and i really wish they'd deconstructed this more in s4 this like.....tendency to fall in love w ideas over people and struggle #when people don't meet your expectations #especially so young #they touch on it w klaine too at the end of s4 and i wanted more #but that's another post basically i really love finn i wish this was talked about more lmfao

[99sshithouse]

Boseon Choi

BM | Matthew Kim

Age : 24

Alias(es) : Big B (Z), Baby B (J), Bumble B (parents only)

Place of Birth : Seoul, South Korea

Eye & Hair Color : Brown | Natural Brown

Height & Weight : 6'2" | 215lbs

Sex & Gender : Male and Identifies As Such

Orientation : Heterosexual

Marital Status : In A Relationship With Zuleika Nam

Personality

Oh, You Just Keep On Using Me, Until You Use Me Up

Boseon is made up of part neighborhood jock, part golden-star son, part chaotic mess. He was raised in a strong family dynamic, his mother and father loving him and supported him and everything he did. Singer? Sure! Artist? Absolutely! Dancer? Of course! They spent a life working hard to give their son every opportunity they hadn't been able to afford when they were kids. While sometimes their love and care could be a little embarrassing, he wouldn't ask for any other set of parents, because he knows no one would be better than his. Plus, they kept him close to his heritage, which he hopes to pass down as well whenever he has children.

B has always been a little more rough around the edges when compared to the rest of his friends. He was always louder, a lot more open and flirty, straight forward and can sometimes seem mean, but the ones who know him and love him know that 'mean' is the last thing he tries to be. He's extremely protective over his friends, and if someone tries to bother them, he isn't afraid to square up and knock them out. He has a habit of being decent at everything he tries. From dancing to sports to arts n crafts. He likes trying new things, especially if it's something someone he cares about is passionate about. He has this natural charm around him that can be similar to one might imagine a star quarterback would have. Personable, Outgoing, Charsmatic.

At this point in his life, there is a lot more confusion than there is understanding. He finds himself constantly questioning himself, his worth, his looks, the way he acts, the way he dresses, he just can't seem to find a place where he is comfortable anymore. While he tells his bro as much as he can, he finds it awkward to complain when it seems he has everything he could ever want. A girlfriend who loves him, job he cares about, a nice apartment, a good family, but when things come down to it, so much of it is fake that he doesn't even really know what's real anymore. He feels lost and incomplete, but who would really get it?

He's got a cute side to him. He's sweet to the girls all the time, B&J as a pair are just annoying enough to be quite a sweet pair. He's passionate about what he does with a little disaster sprinkled in on top.

Employment : Part Time At Local Roller Rink

Has held this job since he was 19, and usually hands out the skates and acts as the disk jockey for the rink. Sometimes he works behind the snack bar, but that's only if they're short staffed.

Criminal Specialty : Vandalism | Graffiti

Skills & Abilities

Tall & Ripped | The boy has spent years perfecting his appearance, and gaining both strength and flexibility | Not the Brightest Most Days, But Makes Up With a Huge Heart | Bilingual : Speaks Korean and English Fluently

Incredible Dancer | Leader of Dance Crew | B is incredibly passionate about dancing and, more specifically, dancing with his crew. He is the best dancer of the group, the most dedicated of the bunch, and was made the leader because of it.

Good Roller Skater and Skateboarder | Picks Up Sports Easily | Badass Gamer | Able To Stitch Up Tears in Clothing and sew on buttons | Actually a Pretty Good Artist

Authoritative Presence | There is just something about B that makes it easier to listen to him tell you what to do. It could be his deep voice, his threatening height and build, the fact that he's so damn passionate, but throughout his entire life, people have always considered him a leader, not a follower.

Strong Bonds With Others | Boseon has always been able to create strong bonds with others, being both open and honest with people about who he is and who he isn't. There is something very straight forward about the way he greets people, pulls people into big bear hugs, doesn't hide his affection toward others, that makes people like him more often then not. His friends thank his parents, who are more saints than they are people.

Disabilities & Disorders

Easy To Embarrass | The boy is quick to hide his face when he feels he's being teased or someone is making a joke at his expense. Jitae affectionately refers to him as his blushing Baby B.

His Relationship | He's been with Zuleika for almost 10 years now, and while most people would be proud of this fact, especially at their age, he knows the two of them have gone stagnant. On the outside for the whole world to see, they play the happy high school sweetheart role well, but once behind closed doors, there is mostly silence. Not fighting exactly, but complete and utter quiet. They have drifted apart, and to be far, Boseon assumes that he is part of the problem, he can't but also feels let down by Zu-Zu as well. But he doesn't end the relationship because Zu-Zu is all he's ever known, and fears the lonliness that may follow such a break up. Plus, how does one end a relationship with their best friend?

Low Self-Confidence | Once a brimming with ego, he know finds himself questioning his appearance and the way he acts. What has he done for his girl not to be attracted to him anymore? That question plagues his mind at all times.

Naturally Destructive | Sometimes he just breaks stuff. Doesn't matter what it is, he just breaks it. It's usually what happens when he's bored, and he'll just pick up something and break it. He's had to replace multiple phones, he only breaks his own, as well as pays for broken plates, tables, glasses, etc. Everyone yells at him for it.

Known History

Crime

Fighting | 2 Counts

Both happened when he was 17 and were wiped from his record.

Vandalism | 1 Count

Graffitied a large phallic symbol on a billboard. The mugshot was passed around by his friends because he looked so smug. Did 1 year of community service.

Gang Initiation : B basically gravitated towards the gang lifestyle once he became more and more engulfed with his graffiti. He also enjoys the family aspect of being a close knit group.

Known Affiliations

Parents

Rose Choi - Mother [Citizen]

Jiwoon Choi - Father [Citizen]

Friends

Jitae Bae [Best Bro]

Haenim Sohn [Best Friend]

Zuleika Nam [Best Friend/Girlfriend]

Affiliation | Tigers

#Boseon Choi #B Choi #Tigers #99s characters

[junker-town]

Football's next generation isn't as worried about concussions as you might think

We asked high school football players how they feel about concussions. Some players are worried, but plenty aren't.

In January, Bo Jackson told USA Today that he never would have played football “if I knew back then what I know now” about head injuries. Jackson was a Superman athlete, and he wanted his kids to be athletes in literally any other sport.

“Even though I love the sport, I’d smack them in the mouth if they said they wanted to play football,” Jackson told the newspaper. “I’d tell them, 'Play baseball, basketball, soccer, golf, just anything but football.’”

It’s a familiar refrain among players and ex-players over the last few years. Brett Favre doesn’t have a son but would be “leery” of him playing football if he did. Troy Aikman doesn’t know “that I’d be real inclined” to have a 10-year-old son play. Longtime NFL linebacker Bart Scott was as succinct as anyone when, in 2012, he said he played football so his son wouldn’t have to.

High school football remains a force. There are more than a million high schoolers playing football in the United States in a given year. We can’t know how all of them feel about head injuries, but we can guess that they feel differently from older players who are now leaving the game.

SB Nation interviewed dozens of players who are just embarking on their football careers at camps this spring, in the hope that we could get a sense of the range of opinions among them. Here’s what we learned.

The players seemed, for the most part, not worried

Alex Kirshner - SB Nation

“I think football's kind of getting soft a little bit, to be honest.” - Jackson Carman, five-star offensive tackle

I don’t really keep up with the helmets and the gear and whatnot. But everyone’s like, ‘Ah, you know, we got the [Riddell Revolution Speed helmet], so we’re good.’ But a lot of the guys in our locker room, they’ll just say, ‘Oh, I don’t do the keep-the-head-up thing when I tackle. I wanna put his head in the chest,’ and those are what farm boys from Kentucky do anyway.

— Drew Zaubi, Crestwood, Ky., quarterback in a wing-T, run-heavy offense, Class of 2018

Some players said concussions aren’t a popular topic in their high school locker rooms.

I think football's kind of getting soft a little bit, to be honest. Football wouldn't be football without the elements that make it football, which is physicality, hitting, explosiveness, and I think a lot of the new rules take away from that. Of course it's to protect people, but that's the risk you take being out here on the gridiron.

— Jackson Carman, Fairfield, Ohio, 2018's top-rated offensive tackle

If I’m coming across the middle on a slant or something, if I’m thinking about that, I’m not thinking about catching the ball, you know? It never really crosses my mind before, during, or after a play.

— Cade Musser, Saint Joseph, Mo., slot receiver, Class of 2018

Four-star St. Louis defensive end Trevor Trout thinks concussions are “easily preventable” if players “take care.” But even if they don’t, there’s still football to be played.

If I have a serious concussion, and I know my team needs me that day, I know I’m going to take limited snaps to the head, but I’m going to play.

— Trevor Trout, St. Louis, defensive end, Class of 2018

Many players think they can do a fine job protecting themselves

How does a player protect himself? The most obvious answer is to wear a mouthpiece and a helmet with appropriate padding on the inside, to keep your head up, only hit what you can see, and don’t lead with your head.

We don’t really talk about it that much, just because you don’t want it to happen, especially. I started football in seventh grade. I started late, just for my head injuries — not that I’ve had any — but just to protect myself from more, because some kids are starting in third grade. It’s never been a huge issue for me because I’ve got myself protected.

— Aidan Hutchinson, Dearborn, Mich., Four-star defensive end committed to Michigan, Class of 2018

Trust in a good helmet is a common thread.

We get our helmets redone every two years. It’s still a big problem, but it happens to everybody. If it happens, it just happens.

— Chris Tyree, Chester, Va., running back, Class of 2020

I take pride in training on my neck, because the neck is most important. The stronger your neck is, the bigger it is — it doesn’t prevent it — but the least likely it is to have a concussion. So when I go in for a tackle, I really don’t worry about it.

— Juan Wallace, Washington, D.C., three-star linebacker, Class of 2018

In the weight room, we try to build up our necks, because that reduces the impact and it can prevent concussions.

— Logan Lee, Orion, Ill., tight end, Class of 2019

Elijah Collins, a three-star running back, said he thinks about concussions regularly, and he and his coaches talk about head injuries often.

It’s the way the game is played. Most people who get those injuries are playing the game the wrong way, improper, and leading with their heads and things like that. If you play the game the right way, you should be avoiding things like that.

— Elijah Collins, Detroit, three-star running back, Class of 2018

To avoid serious head injuries, many players take a proactive approach.

Actually, I think that we as linemen, especially offensive linemen, I feel like we have the lowest concussion rate, you know what I mean? I feel like DBs, linebackers, safeties, those are the guys that are running across the middle head-butting guys. If you have the right technique, at least, I feel like you definitely have a low concussion rate as an offensive lineman, if you know what you’re doing.

— Josh Jefferson, Washington, D.C., three-star center, Class of 2018

If a DB almost did hit me like that, I could tell him, ‘Watch out.’

— Quinton Gregory, Virginia Beach, Va., wide receiver, Class of 2020

Some players are worried, while some would rather not think about concussions at all

Alex Kirshner - SB Nation

“If you got the yards, man, step out of bounds. Fight to live another day.” - L’Christian Smith, four-star wide receiver

I try not to talk about it. I don’t wanna think about it, because it’s gruesome; it’s bad. It happens to everybody. It happens all the time, but you just have to be safe.

— Jebril Murray, Mechanicsville, Va., wide receiver, Class of 2018

I kind of worry about it. I kind of didn’t worry about it last year, my sophomore year, because I thought, like, ‘I can’t be tackled.’ But now that I sit down and think about it and see the injuries that happened on my team, I kind of gave it a second thought.

— Joseph Scates, Dayton, Ohio, four-star wide receiver, Class of 2018

L’Christian Smith, a four-star Ohio receiver, says the topic “comes up all the time.” He takes part in a two-day session on hitting and player safety at the start of each season.

As a wide receiver, we really don’t get hit that much. I mean, we get hit, but not like the running backs or the guys in the trenches. But that one time, that’s all it takes, so it’s just all about playing safe and not doing extra. If you got the yards, man, step out of bounds. Fight to live another day.

— L’Christian Smith, Dayton, Ohio, four-star wide receiver, Class of 2018

To whatever extent head injuries change football, this generation of players will live through it

It’s not clear how much change will come, or when, however. The NFL has adopted a concussion protocol that is susceptible to fake-outs by players who don’t want to sit. College conferences have their own protocols — there’s no NCAA-wide rule about handling concussions, but the organization has a “best practices” guide. The National Federation of State High School Associations has “suggested guidelines,” but it doesn’t make policy. Different teams may have different rules at any level of the game.

That’s the state of play: NFL teams working within a flawed system, college teams under a patchwork of rules sort of overseen by conferences, and high school teams going off suggestions from local sports governing bodies and their own intuitions. That’s a lot of real estate for any reform to cover.

Maybe there will be fewer players one day if parents like Bo Jackson pull their kids away from the sport. Enrollment in the high school game has fallen in this decade — 27.7 percent among players aged 6-14 — though it rebounded somewhat in 2015.

But football players will still be football players ...

I don’t ever have that creep into my mind, because I don’t wanna play scared or be worried about getting injured. I’ve never had a concussion, so I guess if I had one, that might change my thought about it.

— Cade Musser, Saint Joseph, Mo., a 5’9 slot receiver

... making blocks, running routes, or throwing tight spirals will always be foremost on their minds.