#and in how I present myself

[charliebugz]

When Izzy first walked out I was worried that he would be made into a joke that the crew would laugh at

but then he started singing and the dancing began and I realized that he wasn’t meant to be a joke at all. This is the most open and happy we’ve ever seen Izzy and the show treated it that way. Not mocking him but instead celebrating this moment.

When we talk about queer representation it’s usually just focused on queer relationships, but what I love about this episode is it shows other sides of being queer. That moment where Izzy saw Wee John doing his makeup and had a realization that he wanted that too? That is what being queer means to me. The crew singing along and cheering for him? That is what being apart of the queer community means to me.

What i love about this show is that it shows queer joy, not in a sanitized way, but in away that is messy, beautiful, and without any mockery or shame.

#the fact i expected him to be made fun of just reflects how queer people are usually presented in media #i was preparing myself for an awkward scene full of secondhand embarrassment for izzy #but then it didn’t happen. And it just made me immediately feel so warm and fuzzy inside. #like he can express the not socially acceptable parts of himself and not be outcast for it #and that’s just so fantastical to me #our flag means death #ofmd #ofmd spoilers #our flag means death spoilers #ofmd s2e6 #izzy hands #rambling #i speak!

[crimeschild]

the barbie (2023) experience as an afab non binary person is just [reconnecting with your femininity and love for pink bc you couldnt when u were younger bc being too girly will get u made fun of] [feeling guilt bc u dont identify with being a girl but girlhood is so inherently beautiful and magical and no experience is truly like it] [healing the inner child in you by allowing yourself to enjoy dolls and pink and maximalism] [unapologetically letting yourself wear pink and be stereotypically girly in a society where being non binary means you have to be presenting androgynous 24/7] [getting your grown-up heart shattered and then put back together again by your inner child using sparkly glue over and over in the span of two hours] [realizing that no matter what you do you have somewhat experienced girlhood and it shaped you to be the person you are today and you will never get to erase that experience or truly disconnect yourself from it] [appreciating and understanding your mother in a way that you thought wasnt possible without experiecing motherhood]

#my brain has permanently been altered by the barbie movie #ALSO THE MOMMY ISSUES IN THE MOVIE GOD FUCKING DAMN #when barbie said that the old woman is beautiful it makes me not fear getting old anymore #it's just all this time i feel so guilty like nothing but guilt when i present myself as femme and act all feminine but then identify with #being enby #and when i vocally advocate for feminism and all that but theres a little voice in my head going #but youre not a part of that club anymore you left them #BUT I KNOW ITS NOT WITHIN MY CONTROL BC I DONT HAVE CONTROL OF MY GENDER AND HOW I FEEL ABOUT IT #barbie #barbie movie #barbie 2023 #ken #margot robbie #ryan gosling #mine #queer #woah 1k????? #1k #2k

[maxpawb]

i contain multitudes (lions)

#art #furry art #furry #furry fandom #fursona #maxlion #maxwell the lion #these are all self portraits depending on which version of myself was present/how i felt at that time

[omaano]

"Kriffing hell, he’d fallen asleep. On Boba.  They’d stayed back to back, but Din’s head had leaned over onto Boba’s shoulder. The poor guy had been holding Din’s weight for—a quick check of his chrono eased some of his guilt; it’d only been ten minutes." Mand'alor Cabur chapter 14 by @nautilicious

This is one of my all-time favourite BobaDin fics, please give it a read and heap some love on the author, they really deserve it! (Their Boba is amazing. He isn't actively present all that much, but even then he has a presence, you know? and it's so good, I love him so much there!!!)

#also happy (slightly) early birthday to me! I'm getting all my presents early this year apparently even from myself XD #I honestly didn't think I'd finish it by the day but turns out I'm even a day early... thanks to dog sitting taking up all my time lol #bobadin #boba x din #boba/din #boba fett #din djarin #the mandalorian fanart #tbobf fanart #my art #star wars fanart #tbobf #the mandalorian #digital art #digital illustration #fanart #It's not exactly what I'd imagined but I'm so happy with it! #as well as how I could stick to the greenish palette through the process #I tweaked the colours a little once it was done #because I grow self conscious about it feeling too warm and yellow but I think it looks nice #I'm keeping all my blues and reds and purples and browns to another painting #another 3 but you know. one project - so one painting

[black-and-yellow]

#Saw a man bite straight through a chicken bone on YouTube. #I was gripped. In awe. #A jaw strength rivaled only by - I thought to myself - Present Mic #can't even remember how I got onto the video but it's stuck with me ever since #he had a captivating positive vibe. I would enjoy a meal with him. The chicken looked a little underdone though #bnha #mha #shouta aizawa #hizashi yamada #present mic #bnha comic #not even technically a comic this bad boy is two slides #always thinking about the rooftop gang naming Sushi like 'whats everyones favourite food?' #and Yamada says 'fried chicken' like that would be the best name for a cat- actually. you know what. that is a pretty good name for a cat #Might call my next tarantula Fried Chicken. Who knows? #Edited the last panel to take out the speech bubble cause it looked like I was implying it was weird to eat bone marrow #But I meant the entire bone itself like the crunchy bit #But apparently they do that in some places so I thought that it might come across as a bit insensitive and I didnt wanna get cancelled. #eat bones if you want I would love to eat bones but I'm a coward #It's not really a thing in the UK I don't think. I've never seen anyone do it. I guess we just produce a lot of food waste. #so nobody was going to tell me you could eat bones? I just had to find out myself on Youtube?

[lotus-pear]

do you ever think about the tragic fact that odasaku's dying words to dazai were to become a good man, to be on the side that saves people.....which leads to the creation of the beast universe as dazai, in his grief and denial, finds the book and alters reality with the mentality "then....that means saving you too, right?"

#THE WAY THE TIMELINE SPLITS OFF JUST WITH THOSE LAST WORDS #how in the main timeline dazai is able to find the strength to move on with oda in his heart #but in another he is unable to bear the crushing weight of oda's death and finds the book to alter TIME and give oda a happy ending #beast is dazai's utopia. written exactly so that everyone whom he believes he wronged gets a second chance. a happy ending. #yet dazai himself is not present in his ideal world #there is just something so inherently fucked up about him having to kill himself in his own Eden #anyway i'm crying myself to sleep now goodnight sorry if i made anyone depressed w this #bsd #bsd beast

[stuckinapril]

I love girls who’re comfortable being feminine in male dominated stem fields. Such is the case for chemistry but it will not stop me from going to lab in a pink fit if that’s what I want

#My mom set this example for me as an engineer who never shied away from looking like a model every time she went to work #It’s gonna be professional obvi and I’m not the type to always be going in pink #I feel like I’m more on the fence w how I present myself where it depends on the day #But I’m not self conscious ab being in a male dominated space in like a skirt or a dress like I #Deserve to be here and I’m equally as passionate if not MORE passionate ab research than u. Sorry #And yeah you’d think misogyny is tired by now but I have seen men get condescending to women who present themselves this way #Literally explode

[neon-ufo]

October 2023

I turned 30 on October 13th

I've felt like my recent art has been lacking something personal, and I feel a strange distance from most of my works, it's something that's been bringing me down a lot lately.

I feel like I hit a wall, and I need to break a hole through it so that I can emerge as something new on the other side.

Big Challenges

Album of the month: - Song of the month: Moon River by Audrey Hepburn

#luv diary 2023 #idk at what point i started to feel like personal expression / vent art is embarrassing but i want to destroy that part of me #i feel like i've been so concerned with how i present myself online that i've become my username instead of myself #i almost don't feel like a whole person #i shouldn't be afraid to show vulnerability #i genuinely don't know why i'm so scared #experimental art #oc art #luv #illustration #original character #oc

[tariah23]

One of the main reasons why I used to avoid Isekai’s, and fantasy works in general, like the plague is because of how over saturated they’d become with things that didn’t feel like they even belonged to the genre to begin with… it’s not too hard to find works that stand out but so much of those works have been pushed down and forgotten, it just sucks.

#one of the many reasons why fantasy in general outside of a few things has never stuck with me or have even been a go to genre to engage #with if it was simply just that and nothing else added to subvert the genres 🧍🏾‍♀️ #at least enough for me to enjoy myself… and I’m an insanely picky person too so… #isekai’s really did get turned into incel shit and sm of them are pedo/incest pandering as well #the amount of times I’ve run into an isekai where the warrior ends up marrying his daughter at the end of the series- #never got over that one where the son was falling in love with his mom bro that series could’ve been so fun #and a lot of the scenes with them would have them almost appearing as though they were a couple… the Romantic scene on the beach 💩… #kms rn- #and sm fantasty stuff is full of assault as well because they want to be like berserk so badly uhhh #it’s kinda crazy #rambling #I’m mostly desensitized to a lot of this stuff in fiction depending on how they’re presented but I usual usually scroll by/read the things #as quickly as possible just to get done with it #I don’t rly skip most things tbh :( #DM is refreshing though it’s very charming and colorful #I don’t have much to say for frieren since I never really cared to get into it but I’m sure it’s endearing for most

[mistydragonflyart]

Cheers to always learning new things about ourselves and happy pride month!!

#pride month #pride #pride month 2022 #my art #art #digital art #comic #lgbtqia+ #queer #lgbt #gender #genderqueer #okay I'm going to rant a bit about gender here #I didn't realize how much pressure I was putting on myself when I identified as a woman #because once I started using genderqueer I felt a weight was lifted off my shoulders and it felt freeing #all the things that made me feel uncomfortable about being a woman is all gone #and for the first time I feel way more comfortable in my own body #I feel like now I can truly be whatever I want and present myself however I want without feeling like I need to explain myself constantly

[benkyoutobentou]

#i saw someone talking about how they had copies of the same book in multiple languages and i was like.... why tho #like i get collecting multiple language editions of a favorite of yours #but this was presented as specifically for reading in other languages #idk am i the odd one out here? #i will not read anything translated Into Japanese #the way i look at it is that i learn languages to get a deeper understanding of the author's original intent #but as of right now theres still a little bit of a language barrier #translation is already a type of barrier between you and the original work #so why would i want to be twice removed from what the author is saying #languages #langblr #studyblr #language learning #benkyou posting #polls #memes #studyinspo #polyglot #the only reason i can see myself reading a book translated into japanese is if i really want to read it but japanese is the only #available language i know #but even then #i always have so many books to read that it really wouldnt make a difference if i either a. read it or not #or b. waited for it to be translated into english #i do know that im weird about translations though

[nowandthane]

I have no words tbh I’m still freaking out about this 😭

commissioned the incredible @jazzajazzjazz ❤️

#SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP #mass effect #thane krios #tali'zorah #tali'zorah vas normandy #garrus vakarian #sarani shepard #commander shepard #three snipers and a shotgun #jazzajazzjazz #idk how I keep commissioning art and then getting the finished pieces around the time I should be having a breakdown #but tbh good on past zi for their timing #sarani saves the day once again #this is 26373829th divorce present I got myself :D

[supanuts]

#pit babe #pit babe the series #nut supanut #ping orbnithi #peteway #pitbabeedit #pbep12 #sasa gifs #pete how does it feel when ur crush cares for you like this #ur so strong #am i breaking this up in multiple posts bc i went over the 30 gifs limit? #i won't answer without my lawyer present #gaslighting myself into not caring about the subs (average pitbabe gifmaker experience)

[bluespiritshonour]

here's 18-19 year old aang sketches. been hearing aang is ugly discourse—no he ain't. he was just 12.

#i really wanted to take part in zukaang bingo but the urge to art struck me a little later #i still might make something else later #enough art for now #i'd try to participate in maiko week but i'm not sure #it's smack in the middle of end semester exams #ink blot #avatar fanart #avatar the last airbender #atla #artists on tumblr #fanart #avatar aang #why did i never use the pencil brush before?!?! i seriously have a personality flaw where i just don't explore stuff. #can you believe i've been using the same fucking brush for lineart ever since i started digital art? #anyways! i don't know how the pencil brush would feel like if i go for colours but this is impeccable. #I have more control over stuff and i love the result #so #i have promised myself i'd be fucking off this hellsite because i have a huge backlog of work that needs to be done #and i'm presently suffering from “can't help but art”. so #yeah. y'all would probably see me around maiko week. byeee! #if i deprive myself of drawing for too long it bursts out of me like this where i do nothing but draw #not healthy at all

[sysig]

for requestober !! can i ask for a crossover of vargas and tsp ? something like , stanley being edgar and scriabin being the narrator:3

Day 1 - Destruction

#My art #Requestober #Vargas #Scriabin #Edgar #The Stanley Parable #Watch out - I'm doing cool stuff with transparency again #And this time it actually presents cleanly on the dash hells yeah >:3c #Quick first thing that stands out to you about style stuff! #I've been feeling gums lately teeth and gums but especially gums #They are good for big expression work and they are also weird :) #I'm not used to it yet! But I think I like it! In like a mixed way lol #Very good for expression work I just fjdksalfjd they are very strange #Anyhow! #Been a while since I dipped into the Vargas/TSP well :3c #I decided to go with one of the tag-dialogue I had set aside for myself in the original doodle post haha #It's a good bit of dialogue ♪ Definitely one of my favourites it rides around in my head rent free #Just leaving it as their void untouched with such an emphasis on how wrecked the place is tho #That wouldn't do would it ♪ #What did you do Edgar? #Went and found a beasty who tore the walls apart haha #Either that or Scriabin did it and he's blaming Edgar - standard fare #It feels so odd! So strange to be drawing them digitally again! #I mean I've been drawing them traditionally all this time so that's not strange #And really it hasn't been That long since I drew them digitally it just feels like it #I'll just have to get back into the swing of it haha #A good start to the season :) Thank you! :D

[beesinspades]

why am i in witch hat atelier (this is the best thing that has ever happened to me) (please read witch hat atelier)

#witch hat atelier #wha #atuarto #atwert #chin hair in progress sdfjkln #@ my t shots: stop slacking off #COSPLAY ONE DAY???? but i can't sew and i don't have money :((((( but omg can you imagine #imagine if i was wearing his cosplay in that pic #also this pic was taken two weeks before i read tbna so I wasn't even trying!!! #my hair isn't always perfectly like this but it is on the day i wash them #the days after that it gets a bit wavier #bUT YEAH #I LOVE HIM SO MUUUCHHHH #whenever he's on the page i'm like this is both so weird and exciting because i can't unsee myself 😭😭 #when i go “i love you you're so pretty” at him i have to pause like wait. #is this how i start to self-love more #also it makes me feel so good about my gender presentation and my choice to go on t like....... #i'm only one month on t so there are no visible changes and yet i look like this sweetheart!!!! #and it makes me happy!!!! #how could i be wrong about going on t #it's just so unexpectedly affirming idk