#and it makes me anxious as a whole

[psqqa]

yes, yes i know edgeworth’s big wet eyes and loser boy personality have captivated us all, but listen. listen.

phoenix wright

phoenix “genuinely unable to reconcile the girl on the stand with the girl he dated for eight months, a cognitive dissonance so profound it’s ultimately explained by them being literally two different people, but which he first sits with for five years and does not talk about at any point to anyone” wright

phoenix “don’t mention that name to me. i don’t want to talk about it. i don’t want to think about it. i am just going to keep myself in this state of perpetual crisis mode focus on other people’s problems until eventually i die and get to hang out with mia on the astral plane and never have to deal with any of these emotions ever again” wright

phoenix “overnight loses his career and reputation and sense of identity while gaining an adopted, probably pretty traumatized eight-year-old daughter, and rather than leaning on his friends for help, or getting therapy, or taking any time to process any of this, he *checks notes* spends seven years dedicating all his free time and energy to investigating the weird fucking circumstances around it and maintains a friendship with the guy he suspects was behind it all” wright

phoenix "runs across a burning bridge and falls through it, half a day after the game establishes that he is terrified of heights, because his friend is on the other side of that bridge" wright

phoenix “i sure felt surprised. maybe i had my poker face on” wright

phoenix “looking back on it that was actually a pretty dark period in my life” wright

phoenix “don’t ask me how i got started. i don’t remember” wright

phoenix “only you stood still, your eyes calmly watching” wright

phoenix “sometimes, life just sucks” wright

just

phoenix wright

crunchiest man in the world

and all i wanna do is chew and chew and chew on him

#ace attorney #where are all the people gnawing on phoenix's bones so white?? #i need to find the phoenix bone-gnawing corner of this fandom PLEASE #this is me asking for the Phoenix Fic btw #where is the fic meditating on phoenix's whole mental state in general? #where is the fic about how it's phoenix's cageyness and poker face and flat affect under stress that is the hurdle? #the relationship ramifications of being actually really fucking hard to read when it comes down to it? #where is the fic about the week of his disbarment? #the one detailing the panicked blow by blow of it rippling through his social circle while he stands in the eye of the storm? #the one that ends messy and anxious and unresolved because it's week 1 of 7 years? #where is the birth of phoenix wright: poker legend fic? #where is the art school/theatre major phoenix fic? #no not the able to art/act phoenix fic but the kind of person who chooses to go to art school/study theatre phoenix fic #where is the supremely disinterested in pop culture phoenix fic? #where is the actually incredibly meticulous and competent phoenix fic? #capcom can tell me all they want that he's essentially an adhd disaster flying by the seat of his pants making it all up as he goes #but that's not what they're actually showing me #they're the ones who created an in-fiction legal system that functionally necessitates that #and the nature of the game is that phoenix is almost always proven right so rather than him coming off as hare-brained #his opponents rather just come off as short-sighted. either negligently or maliciously so #and the choices the writing makes in service of retaining mystery and audience suspense in fact function to make phoenix a person #who is astute and puts the pieces together but is cautious in his conclusions #i will grant them that phoenix does tend to lose sight of his overarching goal in getting drawn into proving or disproving minor points #the fact that edgeworth on the other hand never loses sight of this or where the various arguments stand in relation to it #is his sexiest trait as a character by far #but those minor points are actually functionally critical to the ultimate argument phoenix makes #so even though i do read that trait through the game mechanics i do also judge the other characters for being dicks about it #my point is phoenix wright does in fact have the character of a lawyer and is conventionally good at his job fucking fight me #my point is that you all have had 20 goddamn years to Rotate this man #my POINT is that there should be Intricate Fucked Up Meditations On Phoenix that rewire my fucking brain and i NEED to know where they are!

[simmyfrobby]

"The Terre Haute Planetarium Rejected My Proposal" by Paige Lewis

#haha im so happy hockey is back im having so much fun watching my little guys get hurt or hurting others and waiting for the refs to step in #only for that to #not happen #I love sports #this is fun for me #hockey poems #nhl wide #I also had too much coffee thinking it would make me get up & clean but it only made me anxious so that's my excuse #poem rocks though go read the whole thing #all time fave poet

[impulsive-fantasylander]

okay, /srs time. how would yall feel if i made a dsmp discord server. well less dsmp and more, for us ya know? the dsmp fans. like i feel like my dsmp obsession is going strong and, idk how to articulate this lol, but yea ig just, would any of yall be down to join in and talk about this minecraft roleplay? lol.

EDIT: ITS HERE BOY. GET IN https://discord.gg/zMETsBjazs

#dream smp #dsmp #discord #discord server #interest check #one thing i will say. i am not comfortable with the dre/blr community so this server would be for everyone except dre/am fans. sorry #the whole. thing just makes me so fucking jittery and anxious and i do not want to think about it but i should mention that #martin speaks #anyway sorry #tell me how yall would like the channels and categories be set up

[hatekawa]

Do you mind if I have a message to the Anons? (you can just ignore this ask if you don't wanna post it)

My Dear Anons and everyone here present

Plz Let Kawa Cook and Chill a little

As you could see from the last posts, she didn't had a nice time lately, so she deserves to just sit and enjoy her drawings If she will be ready to show us some of her gorgouse work, she'll show it

Guys plz remember that asking Artists "When will be the next chapter of this and that", "What are you cooking there" isn't always a good thing, there are a lot of us here, it can make the artist tired and it (in my opinon) doesn't really help to get more motivation if everyone is asking these questions

Guys! Some mistery from the Artist side is good! It will hype us more!

(Again Kawa, you can just ignore this Ask if you are not comfortable with answering it, I hope that you feel a little better then before)

Okay, so.

Today was my first day in a new school. Im very anxious about this. New people, new surroundings, new stuff to learn and new responsibilities.

Because of my school year starting, I'll have less time for myself which means less time to draw and write :(

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Im planning on some stuff for you, but I dont wanna tell you what it is. I want you to have a surprise & its much less pressure for me!

& I dont mind asks, comments, dms, requests or questions. I like when you talk to me!

Just please be patient with me, and thank you!

HAVE A NICE DAY/NIGHT/ANYTHING!!!!!!🩵🩷🩵🩷🩵🩷🩵🩷omg the hearts are so pretty what yhe hell

#anon ask #ok time for stuff im too embarassed to say out loud #the whole attention and kind feedback makes me feel accepted and important even which i dont feel on daily basis #i do realize its internet and not real life which makes it impossible for me to get attached to but its still very nice #im flustered when you guys get hyperfixated over my stuff or when you create something because i inspired you #its just. #so cool to see you make stuff #also im not joking. asks dont make me feel pressed or anxious at all #btw the thing im working on is smiliar to arcane crossover :) #i hope i will finish it LMFAO my ass just cant focus on finish one thing at a time /hj

[alucardsathomewife]

Seras = Charlie

Integra = Vaggie

#the background is 10× harder than the actual art #this was suggested to me in the comments in the Alestor Alucard art #drawing the whole cast would be heck but if this gets a lot of enjoyment #i can do it #these have brought so much joy i hope nothing bad happens #hellsing #hellsing ultimate #sir integra fairbrook wingates hellsing #sir integra #seras victoria #seras hellsing #ik its traced over the art adding another fandom but its 3 am making this and i cant help but feel anxious that tumblr has a metal bat #hazbin hotel #hazbin art #hazbin vaggie #hazbin charlie

[allthoseotherworlds]

It's honestly pretty frustrating sometimes how I feel like so many people say they love Martha, but mostly what I actually see people saying about Martha is how much she probably does/should hate the Doctor for not returning her crush, or sometimes how much people hate Blink/Family of Blood/Last of the Time Lords because they were hard for her.

And like, the former of those is frustrating because a) Nobody is obligated to return someone's romantic feelings, b) Being oblivious to someone having a crush on you might suck for the other person but is not actually a moral failing and c) Martha was sad about it but like. She didn't leave because she was furious at the Doctor for not returning her crush? She left because she knew her crush wasn't reciprocated and wasn't going to be, but couldn't get over it on her end while travelling with the Doctor. And also because the past year had been pretty traumatizing for everyone, including her and also the Doctor and also everyone else who was on that ship thing.

Anyways

I just wanted to talk for a bit about the things I like about Martha, or that are interesting, that are unrelated to those points above.

I think she's the first companion in New Who to join Unit, and I think still the only one to be a medical doctor with a strong scientific backing. Which is cool!

I think it's interesting that in the first episode she appears in, her family is shown to be kind of messy and kind of frustrating, and it feels like that's something she's a little glad to be getting away from for a bit when she travels with the Doctor (though it's not the reason she travels with them). And then, at the end of the season when her family is in danger she prioritizes their wellbeing enough to snap at the Doctor about it. If I remember correctly their phones were tapped or something and it wound up making things a bit worse, but I appreciate the nuances of her relationship with them and how important they are to her despite the messiness.

Despite all the ado made about her crush on the Doctor, I really loved how she really seemed to get the point of travelling with the Doctor. I think that she nailed both the joy and excitement of the unknown, and the compassion and sense of care that motivates the Doctor's travels, and which I think is vital to all of my favourite companions.

It also contrasts in interesting ways with how her personality shifts after she stops travelling with the Doctor - she still cares about people's wellbeing and seems to value the things she learned while travelling, but working with Unit and Torchwood does make her more military, and then of course doing freelance alien fighting (? or something?) in the End of Time.

I think Martha and the Doctor are an interesting duo because they contrast each other in interesting ways. They're both compassionate, hopeful but practical, and good at what they do, but they reflect those qualities in ways that almost, but don't quite, fit together nicely. They don't conflict, really, but they're not quite sustainable either.

They work well together and care about each other, but they're too similar in some ways and too different in others to ever quite see eye to eye, which is why they end up going in different directions. And I think that's not anyone's fault, or indicative of any deep flaws in either of them. Or even really a tragedy, because Martha seems to be doing new and interesting things every time we see her, with plenty of options available and a decent rapport with the Doctor whenever they show up.

Anyway this got way longer than I meant it to. Tldr: There are so many more interesting things to say about Martha than just "She must hate the Doctor". Here are some of them.

#Also I didn't have room here but. I understand hating the family of blood stuff but. John Smith is not the Doctor. That's the whole point #John Smith is absolutely rude to Martha and I dislike him as a person. But he is also not the Doctor #And I absolutely do not believe that the Doctor handpicked the persona and went “Yeah. Making him rude and racist and like guns” #I think they just got out the chameleon arch and said #“Here's the time and location that gives us the best shot at avoiding the family of blood. Give me and Martha random identities. Thanks” #That said it's actually not an episode I particularly like so I don't know why I'm rambling about it here #I get anxious about things where characters are Not Themselves and being rude and mean in ways they aren't #And also found the ending a little Too Much personally #Anyways I'm just monologuing now #Doctor Who #Doctor Who Meta #Martha Jones #I am talking #I am just some guy (gender neutral) #This post brought to you by another person joking about how Martha is so strong for putting up with the Doctor because of the crush stuff #And me as an aromantic not enjoying the implication that I am something to put up with and that the most interesting thing anyone can say #about a dynamic between two people is how much it sucks that one of them didn't know the other had a crush and 'led them on' #or whatever. But just ranting about that again didn't feel constructive so I tried to say more interesting things instead

[geo-bby]

How we feeling Beatles people?

#tbh I’m anxious #biopic #like… not to sound like a beatles fan (stfu that’s exactly what i’m going for) but there’s just so much nuance to the four of them that you #like. REALLY need to know the beatles in order to do this right #i’d hate for them to be sugarcoated for the purpose of making their story more inspiring or positive or whatever #like no give me the drama! let the normies know about ringo’s raging alcoholism and all the pettiness from all four members after the split #and please for the love of GOD don’t lean into the whole ‘quiet beatle’ thing for george. with peace and love that man didn’t shut the fuck #up sometimes #we love him for it!! #the casting also worries me…. manifesting that whoever’s in charge of all that understands the ethereal beauty of the beatles in the 60s #also please please please don’t let them be a bunch of sexist dick heads about yoko. no she did not break up the beatles 🙄🙄 #but for all my worryong i’m equally excited i think. because if they do these right they have the potential to be really cool : #i’m only so anxious because i want this to be good so bad 😭 #the beatles #thoughts

[caterpillarinacave]

Shin has come to terms with being eaten by a Tylosaur in his sleep.

(entirely inspired and based off this post by @dawnquafam )

#Not a word about the quality. Or the style. Or the shading. Or the coloring. Or the anatomy. I drew that whole thing in 2.5 hours #whilst in mild agony. My art is usually better than this I swear. #shoutout to that profile picture which I drew with my finger because my Apple Pencil died and my iPad was super low onpower #Shin seems like the type of guy to have his dorky college grade photo as a profile #Also the type to add two mediocre science puns in his username and @ #He thinks “biLOLogist” is the funniest thing ever. It’s not. #Orm marius #stephen shin #Mine #Posting art makes me deeply and irrationally anxious #Aquaman #dceu

[midnight-moth]

My brain is on fire and it is just thinking about the stupidest things. Like why do the deer need to eat the grass close to the highway? There’s nothing special there. They could find grass somewhere safer. Maybe something better like an apple tree. Is it like a deer memento mori, eating by metal death machines flying by you? I just refuse to believe they can’t find grass in the other direction. Also - Tylenol has a very nice aesthetic. I always considered myself an Advil person. Ibuprofen whatever. Acetaminophen is for suckers. But I gotta say, all the Tylenol pills are the same shape and they’re very vibrant colours. The normal extra strength ones are a nice shade of red. And the cold and flu are pretty teal green. And when I spilled them everywhere I couldn’t help but think hmm raindrop coded pills.

#I’m sorry I will throw my phone off the balcony #I just feel weird and it’s making me anxious and tumblr occasionally feels like a tether to humanity ykwim #is that even an acronym? ynwim? #well I meant you know what I mean and I really did just defeat the whole purpose of it #my fever is 39.4c which is like 103f and I would like to surrender my adulthood and have someone come hold my hand and feed me soup #update it’s not an acronym cause I fucking spelt it wrong ykwim…..

[saturnvs]

things are tough at the moment and art isn’t easy either, i’m hoping to push past the creative block but i’m feeling very overwhelmed by anxiety and pressure surrounding my art right now :(

#i’m anxious all the time #i wake up and my heart is already pounding and there are a million thoughts in my head #i’m really only happy when i’m with the horses so maybe i should try to focus on that #and let the art come when it wants to come #i’m unhappy with a drawing before i even put my pen against the paper #idk why i’m making a post about it i don’t think people actually expect anything from me #it’s just that good old internal pressure #i should get better at drawing for Me #maybe i should draw for a whole week and not post it until i Want to post it #also thinking of it using instagram anymore but that’s a problem for another day

[fidgetspringer]

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#I hate how packing makes me feel great and genuinely helps with dysphoria #but i always get too anxious to wear it around people #like c'mon man that's the whole point #always end up wearing my baggiest hoodie so my crotch is covered #kind of defeats the purpose though #:(

[katsigian]

Kinda hurts a little when you've spent years creating a specific character in a specific universe for hardly anyone to see them, only for someone else to do the exact same concepts and get applauded for it. Did I just do it that badly or something

I remember when I first made all of my OCs supernatural in early 2022. I was one of the first people in [redacted] fandom who made it canon and talked openly about how my OC were vampires. And I got harassed for it endlessly. People were in my asks and dms telling me it was cringe and overpowered and lame, and that I was dumb to think anyone would care. Regardless of all of that, I kept them around and didn't stop talking about them. And then everyone else caught on and also made supernatural OCs because I helped to normalize it. Which isn't the problem, make as many supernatural OCs as you like, I'm not telling people to stop. That's not what bothers me (I have to add that disclaimer bc someone will undoubtedly try to get offended).

I think what upsets me is that it feels like I talk into a void sometimes and it sometimes feels like I don't have a place to share the things I'm proud of. I have an entire world that I made and this intertwined network of 10+ original characters and I just don't know where to talk about them or how to talk about them. I know we're "supposed to create for ourselves" and to "share it for good reasons", but it's really hard to put myself in that mindset. I don't do it for clout and I never will, I love my characters too much for that. Maybe I've just been doing a bad job of sharing anything about my world and characters, that is highly likely. I just can't help but remember the times I did share things and they went completely unnoticed

Just a little bit of acknowledgement would be nice. I think I'd be happy with that. Just a little bit of acknowledgement for the way I've had to fight to have my supernatural OCs exist in a cyberpunk setting in a hostile fandom. Just a little acknowledgement of the months of effort I put into my characters. And that would be all. Or maybe I'll learn how to just ignore everything and just keep doing as I have been. Putting my head and continuing on, savoring those small bits of genuine friendly interest when they come my way. That's good too

#let me make it clear that i am not begging for sympathy or notes #do not get that twisted #this is just a vent. me venting mostly to myself about my feelings on something. please don't take this as some sort of concrete truth #i'm expressing my own very conflicted emotions towards my experiences in this fandom and how i've had to fight just to be accepted #many people really did not want to accept that i created vampires in a cyberpunk setting #i am just very conflicted and anxious surrounding the whole thing. i don't know how to proceed #i just know for certain that i don't want to do it by myself and alone anymore #katsi.txt

[skeletoninthemelonland]

#i think i first listened to this song around the time Behind The Codes became an official project #My brain probably associated the feelings of excitement and fear with the song so ig that's why I love it so much #On one side. I love working on the Behind The Codes #there's an overwhelming amount of ways to tell this story: brainstorming. designing. animating. writing and rewriting until your brain- #starts to fry and get foggy with so many ideas. its both good and stressful to push your limits like this #On another side. I'm constantly anxious about it #I've always been afraid to admit the things I enjoy as well as the things that i create #You don't allow yourself to create and embrace new things even when you're essentially alone #and yes I'm aware of the fact that there will be people who won't enjoy the series- which isn't what bothers me #What bothers me is that I might regret certain decisions #'This is not the message I wanted to convey' #'This is not the story I wanted to tell' #The decision to share this song here is the clearest example of what I mean: #Part of me says: this song is so btc oh my god please put it at the end credits wait THERE IS A 2ND PART OF IT AND IT'S EVEN COOLER OOOAAAA #then there's the main thought: this song is so stupid. it's so corny in a way it makes me uhghu7ujhkjg.. #i won against my negative thoughts today. yay #this whole post is just me rambling and being anxious. i dont even know what to say hjdsfbwjkefkdsf #bye :waves: #starbstalks

[acewithapaintbrush]

I hate being an anxious "always waiting for the other shoe to drop, always considering the worst case scenario" type of person cause that means even though I didn't give the guy in front of my door who was claiming to be my gas provider any signature or infos that he didn't already have and even though I won't know if it was a scammer before I can call the provider tomorrow I am now convinced that I'll be robbed blind tomorrow and a complete emotional mess

#I didn't sign anything and he had all my info already so I think maybe he was legitimate #If he wasn't legitimate then he had a lot of personal data like birthdate and email etc etc about me #AND THAT WOULD BE CONCERNING FOR A WHOLE DIFFERENT REASON #Just an anxious mess right now #Didn't give him anything and still anxious #Make it make sense brain #Pray for me that the provider tells me tomorrow oh yeah we are sending people around #If not I gotta call the police or something #Guy gave me his phone number so I could get in touch so another reason why it's probably ok like y would he do that if he was a scammer? #Gah idk I'm stupid and anxious and angry #Just ignore

[arthur-kingsmen]

my intensely bad cramps and week long toothache have put me in an evil enough mood to FINALLY mute/block my situationship on all apps LETS GOOOO

#ive been in so much pain and so irritable and something in me snapped #we have been back and forth for SIX YEARS. SIX. YEARS. IM TIRED #i didnt even tell him i was muting him i just did. if he can ghost me like clockwork then i can do the same to him #it sucks. he sucks. this whole situation makes me angry. MY TEETH HURT. #i have two temporary crowns in so that whole side of my jaw is sensative. and i grind my teeth when im anxious. so this past week has been #but in a few months. i will have perfect teeth and i will not miss him. i will emerge victorious

[delarverie]

prof sent me an email asking for my phone number and told me she would call me later. i should've asked her to tell me "hey i'll call you at 5pm!" or something..... i hate waiting for calls.

#it makes me anxious #now my whole routine is about that phone call #man. #mon.txt