#and it scares sirius so bad bc he’s never seen james so…quiet and he hates it. so he tries his best to make sure that never happens again

[padfootastic]

Hey!!

I’m a big fan of your blog as I am a fellow James and Sirius apologist. I feel like there aren’t enough people out here that love these two and their bond so finding someone who feels the same is like nothing short of a miracle. Especially one who is active on here. Also, I’m a big fan of your stories you are an amazing writer. ❤️

I was just sitting here thinking about how Sirius could have put an end to Lily’s relationship with James with a snap of his fingers if he felt so inclined. Like James and Lily are “soulmates” in canon but not the same soulmate level these two guys are on you know? I think back to your fic Shovel Talk in regards to this and how Sirius basically tells Lily as much. It just makes me sorta giggle (is that wrong?) because it’s just so true lol. Like James and Sirius were operating on a whole different plane of reality than everyone else I swear. I just I love those two boys so so so much.

If you wouldn’t mind sharing I would love to just read your thoughts on these guys. Like just to read you talking about them and their bond in whatever capacity you want. Weather it be what you think of them, how you see them, who you think they are, how you think they’re perceived by their friends just any and all thoughts you feel like sharing. This is only if you don’t mind. I just live for these two codependent lunatics and love getting to see other people love them. 💛💙

anon there is something in my eye and u might be responsible for it 🥺🥺

i don’t know where i’m getting this prongsfoot attention from as of late but i am absolutely not complaining because it is the best thing ever and i will never tire of talking about my baby boys. thank u so much for liking what i write (and thinking i’m active lol) :”)

also!!! another shovel talk fan!!! listen every time someone references that story, it makes my heart do this giddy little spin because it’s literally one of my favorite fics/hcs and i genuinely thought people wouldn’t like it but they do and it’s amazing.

you’ve given me such free reign that i don’t know where to start lol my mind has suddenly gone blank trying to think of something i haven’t already talked about before

hmmm ok let’s see. i know i skew towards sirius leaning on james a lot but i fully believe it was a relationship of equals. james was equally besotted by and reliant on sirius as the other way around. so i mentioned this in the last ask a bit, but i see james as someone who’s constantly burning bright and it’s…not exactly easy but very possible to snuff that light out completely. and i think lily had the potential for that bc of her sharp tongue & self righteousness. and she wouldnt think to tone herself down for james, either, because she sees what everyone else does—a spoiled, happy go lucky, privileged dude who doesn’t need to be treated with kid gloves. fair, yeah? except. sirius has seen this boy inside out, knows how fucking sensitive he is, and will do anything it takes to make sure james doesn’t shrink himself to fit the world. and this isn’t like—a huge thing, not for sirius. it’s in the little actions—cutting someone off when they might say something hurtful, turning him away from people who don’t like him, casually blocking hexes cast behind his back etc etc. sirius doesn’t have blinkers on, he knows first hand how ugly the world is and he doesn’t want it to touch his james. (sure, that might mean putting up with his big headed ass but he’ll take that any day over a subdued james potter) and we know from swm that he’s not scared or hesitant to go against james if needed so he’s the perfect person to both keep him in check and protect him ykno? (very grumpy one protects the sunshine one of me)

another thing i love thinking about is how unconditionally they love each other!!! james has a mean streak (often powered by ignorance/arrogance) and sirius genuinely has a whole dark side bc of his black heritage (so many thoughts on that ughhhhh) and it means the absolute world to sirius that james accepts all of him. his family doesn’t like him being a ‘muggle loving traitor’ and the people at hogwarts are scared/wary of his name and anger and sometimes he’s seen it even in his friends’ eyes and he’s sick and tired of having to hide parts of himself to be palatable so it’s like a fresh of breath air to be around james who never ever judges him. i’m such a sucker for unconditional acceptance lol both sides of sirius are fundamental to him and he can’t separate them from himself so whenever james steps up to him without hesitation or fear, it heals a part of him.

also, this might seem obvious, but i think they genuinely liked each other in a way that u don’t always see. like, they were each other’s favorite persons at all times, no questions asked. the average person might get sick of spending so much time with one person, even if it’s their best friend (i know i couldn’t lol) but not these two. they happily welcome every opportunity they have to be together. that’s why detentions are fun—hours left alone to goof around while working off their energy? sign them tf up. they genuinely look forward to talking to each time, every single class they share, nighttime when they can crawl into the others’ beds etc etc it’s all horribly codependent and perhaps not the healthiest (definitely not in a non-prongsfoot universe) but it’s james&sirius and even if they were stranded on an island together, they’d be happy about it

wrt to the james/lily/sirius thing—god, yes. sirius *knows* that he only needs to say the word and james would listen to him over lily and that’s so much power and sometimes he’s equal parts terrified and on top of the world bc of what he holds in his hands but it only makes him more determined to not abuse that trust and faith james places in him. i think this would happen with any potential partner, if only a bit harsher w lily bc of their experiences. james will always, always turn to sirius first and that can be a good or a bad thing, depending on how u look at it. u just know that remus and peter were envious of this dynamic but i think, over time, they overcame it and just resigned themselves to it. i can even see them (particularly remus) actually being a bit thankful it’s not them because let’s be honest, a friendship as all encompassing & overwhelming as this? not easy at all. u need to be able to completely open ur heart and soul up, break down even the smallest pretence of barriers, accept that you’ll always be part of a whole and that’s neither simple nor desirable most of the time. and i truly don’t eee remus laying himself bare open like that, not even for j or s. so i think he’s actually a bit relieved that these two tide over their most intense behaviours with each other and you get a more toned down version of them around others lol (does any of that make sense? i’m just rambling here tbh)

i’m gonna stop here bc i have no clue of any of this is even like, coherent. i erased and wrote the whole thing 2-3 times bc it kept growing a mind of its own and Not Cooperating so i hope this draft is,,,okay ykno?

#sirius black #james potter #prongsfoot #obligatory disclaimer that this is mainly headcanons bc i don’t want anyone coming @ me #been more hesitant on here lately bc i’ve been vagued by someone and it’s not fun lol #we all know bad faith interpretations r the only way people operate here eh? and i rly don’t like it #but anyway yeah. this is how i see these two and i’m rly not apologetic about it #why can i never stop myself from going off on these long drawn tangents smh #i have Thoughts re a confrontation w say lily that causes james to shut down and doubt himself so bad he’s like a ghost of himself #and it scares sirius so bad bc he’s never seen james so…quiet and he hates it. so he tries his best to make sure that never happens again #THIS WAS THE BEST ASK EVER ANON #thank u so much 🥺🥺🥺 #i love love love talking about these two (in case it wasn’t obvious from all the rambling hehe) #they have my entire heart #also think others look at these two and just genuinely get so baffled bc…how can two people be so happy together? it’s almost cartoon-ish #i’m not saying they didn’t disagree (well….) but it wasn’t like. A Thing. ykno? #and they always always respected & loved each other first no matter what the situation. didn’t like being away or fighting #so it was always in their best interests to make up as soon as possible #fic: shovel talk #ppb #pen’s asks

[futurewriter2000]

Secrets and lies ~ Part 2

A/N: Holy shit this is good. I mean i wanted to end it with part two but nonway bc this is going deeper. Yeah this is going deeper and you better get ready. Get ready bc you have no clue what I have planned for this. (Also I’m writing and posting this on my phone bc I don’t have a computer but as soon as I get it I’ll change the appearance to cuter.)

PAIRING: Sirius Black x reader Lupin

WARNING: betrayal, arguing … Idk..

TAGS: @huflerin , @shadyladyperfection , @geeksareunique , @nadinissavage

Other parts ---> MASTERLIST

Xx

His eyes haven’t left your side. Not a week, not a day, not an hour and not a minute. He was with you every.single.second., yet Sirius was nowhere to be seen. It was like that day he fell from the face of the earth.

Where was Sirius, you had no clue. He left you and he left Remus. Not a single trace of his disappearance. James maybe knew and since he avoided you, Lilly promised to be the one to crack him.

So now, now you were faced with your #1 fan. Your older brother.

Like any day, today was no different. You were studying for your Charms exam and Remus hasn’t left your side since the big discovery of his and was now sitting right across you, his eyes set on you like a hawk.

“I swear John Lupin, if I look up from my book and see your green eyes watching me, I will and I mean I WILL dig your eyeballs out.” you threatned him and looked up from your book.

“ You don’t scare me little sister. I mean what were you thinking, dating a guy like Sirius. He’s my best friend Lu. My best friend! And from all the guys in school you decided to date him.”

You put down your book and took his hands in yours. “I didn’t decide John. It happened. It just happened and I really like Sirius. Like I really like him.”

“I just can’t. What if the two of you break up. I’ll have to choose between you and Sirius.”

“Not necessarily.” you simpered.

“I would choose you in a heartbeat.” he blurted out and walked around the desk to you. “You are my baby sister. My everything. The one who knows all my secrets and shares all my memories with. ”

“Remus…”

“I can’t… You need to break it off with him.”

You stood from your desk in a light second, throwing his hands away and pushing the chair so fiercly it almost flew on the other side of the library. “WHAT!?!” you boiled in anger as you saw his face.

His eyes avoided your gaze as he clasped his hands together. “I’m trying to protect you.” he spoke quietly and calming.

“Well stop it! I’ve done nothing than be a good sister to you. I haven’t done anything to embaress you, I took care of you John when you couldn’t! I loved you when you didn’t even love yourself and I still do!” you shouted through the whole library.

“Damn it Lu! Stop it! Stop rebelling and stop calling me John! it’s Remus! REMUS!”

“Well my name is not Lu! It’s (y/n)! (Y/N)!” you mocked him and leaned on the table.

He was standing up by now. His eyes glaring at yours as his frown growing angrier than ever. “Break.it.off.” he growled and leaned even closer. “If not, I’m telling him about Regulus.”

After hebspoke those words you felt your knees collapse and your heart sting. It was like all of a sudden the knife stabbed you in the back by a person you thought you will always feel safe with. With a person who you trusted the most.

He was serious. He was angry and he would do amything by now to keep you and Sirius apart. You realized that.

Your knees couldn’t hold you anymore so you fell on the nearest chair you saw. You looked at your brother, tears starting to gather in the corner of your eyes. “Why?” your voice cracked as you said it in a quiet whisper.

“You will break up with him and you will avoid him. He is not the one Lu. At least not for you. If he was, he would be here with you. But he’s not. As much as I hate to say it, you deserve better. ” he finished and walked away.

He felt terrible. He felt like he just did something so sinful that it could never be forgiven. The secret about Regulus that you told him in full confidence….. He used it against you. That is something he knew you won’t forget nor forgive. But Sirius, he may be his best friend but he wasn’t for you. He just wasn’t.

He wasn’t. He wasn’t. He wasn’t.

You watched him walk away. It felt slow, so slow and after he was gone, you still saw him walk away. It felt like the time has stopped and you just lost a piece of yourself. It’s dumb. It sounds dumb. It feels dumb.

But…

He was your brother, your best friend and your most trusted person. Him you told everything from day one. The two of you had a bond no siblings had. Or did. You didn’t know.

But it was Remus. Your older brother Remus who you would have given your life for. The one who makes you angry and smile in two seconds. The one who knows when you’re sad or hungry or when something is wrong. The one person who made everything so bright and happy when everything was dark.

That person.

The one you looked up to. The one who made you laugh and smile when nobody else couldn’t. The one you thought you could never live without.

That one.

Yes, you may have loved Sirius but your brother. He was someone who needed to be in your life.

Needed.

-ed. Past tense.

The one who was needed was suddenly needed no more.

You cried… Of course you cried. You cried for two hours now and you couldn’t stop.

Until it hit you.

“Why am I crying?” you suddenly realized. Your hand blue from the cold and the book was completly soaked in your tears.

‘Did I do this?’ you asked yourself and touched the wet pages of the book.

Your let your fingertips brush against the rough and wet paper, feeling the words written on the pages. You lifted your fingers and took a moment to see the black ink on your fingertips.

Somehow, someway, you cried. You cried so much you messed up the book by stains and smudges of ink covering the whole page.

You chuckled to yourself and looked around if anybody was watching.

'So this is how Regulus must have felt, huh?’

Funny. Isn’t it? How bad karma can really hit you.

You never understood why Regulus distanced himself from you but now you did. Because now you felt the betrayal of someone you loved also.

But you weren’t that weak. No. You were crying over the fact that your sibling threatned you. That’s what siblings are supposed to be right. Arguing, bickering, never on eachothers side…

A smile.

A smile made its way on your lips. A mischievous, evil smile that made you realize. If dear John wants to play it that way, then lets play.

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