#and it wasn’t hurting anyone

[mitskiluvr]

soulmatism is phoenix only knowing miles for like 2 years in elementary school yet IMMEDIATELY knowing that something is horribly wrong when he sees miles in the newspaper years later being called a demon prosecutor

#ace attorney #phoenix wright #ace attorney trilogy #miles edgeworth #narumitsu #wrightworth #my stomach hurts thinking about them #like maybe it’s just me but i barely even remember the names of people i knew in fourth grade #the fact that phoenix kept trying to reach out to miles too??? for like??? fifteen years??? #and never gave up and decided to go to law school to confront miles years down the line #it probably wasn’t his only reason for going to law school #But like. Come on #they are chained together by the red string of fate #AM I CRAZY FOR THIS #i just think i wouldn’t remember anyone from grade school the way that phoenix remembered him #Ok maybe this is ridiculous #Guys tell me im not the only one #this is soulmatism

[aalghul]

I don’t think it makes sense to assume that Jason was mocking Mia’s past. At all. The thing that got jason painted as violent back in the 80s was his anger against rapists…how does that turn into mocking a victim? and that entire story was written by winick. Do we honestly think winick intended to communicate that? The same writer who made Jason’s first kill a man who was trafficking children? Who had Jason pause in his mission of madness to make sure those kids were found by the right people so they wouldn’t be in further danger?

#let’s knock on our skulls and kick our brains back into gear okay? #you can maintain that it wasn’t well executed or that the role mia played here bothers you #but you can’t say jason was mocking her for that or even seriously trying to hurt her physically #he was bsing like 90% of the story with his constant ‘we should all kill anyone who inconveniences us! speedy and GA should try to kill me #if they want to win’ like we understand that yes? #but that last part of his convo with Mia was the one serious part #he was wrong! of course he was wrong about ollie. but this was also Jason’s first time meeting ollie #it was ridiculous and unnecessary on his end and it put mia thru the emotional wringer for nothing #but that wasn’t the Intention. it was a stupid thing done by someone who never expected anything to come of it but still said what *to him* #was a way of offering advice #and as for the ppl who go ‘stop reaching abt jason being a victim and just read Mia instead’ #a) there’s more to Mia’s character than her past. anyone who thinks that fits Jason’s past wouldn’t necessarily like mia bc they’re not the #same character #it’s the same way that if jason was confirmed to have been a victim of SA as a kid then all of Mia’s fans wouldn’t love him like they love #her? this is common sense. anyways stop being assholes online and just recommend characters too ppl nicely #b) more than one character can have experienced a similar form of abuse. also common sense #c) it’s not an unreasonable hc #d) it doesn’t hurt you personally. none of this killed your grandma #once again: hate whoever you like but choosing the interpretation that doesn’t make sense just to make up a #‘valid’ reason is serious loser behaviour

[thebookworm0001]

I just think the fandom’s nastier responses to the bg3 men is wildly interesting

like. you have three men who are coming out of highly unhealthy relationships.

One of them gets super sexualized and infantilized at the exact same time. literally people put him in the bdsm harness while simultaneously misinterpreting elven cultural norms to say he’s mentally no more mature than a teenager despite having been a whole-ass local judge who died because he gave out corrupt rulings and got his ass jumped because of them.

the other gets treated like he’s an incel because he catches feelings quickly, despite being wildly respectful when you turn him down. Half the issues were due to a bug, the other is that this man is so starved for validation because his goddess - whom has paid special interest to him since he was a toddler - kept him constantly feeling lesser-than because despite calling him her Chosen, she gives him none of the power we see Chosens be given by other gods. Not to mention she sends her other ex - his mentor and friend - to tell him to off himself to earn her forgiveness. For some reason his attempts to gain god-like power are received worse than the borm-sexy-yesterday-vampire despite both of them having the goal of being safe from manipulation and control. I assume because the vampire gets a sex scene when you let him destroy his soul for power and the wizard does not.

The fairytale prince route, despite typically being very popular, is being called boring and dull and while, yes, he has less drama than some of the others, is still compelling and has high stakes for that character. He’s sold his soul but he thinks the price is worth it and he’s made his peace with the personal cost because he’s helping people. The only real difference between this character and others who are willing to sell their souls for the good of their lands is that this time around, he’s Black

#bg3 #baldur’s gate 3 #fandom critical #I guess? #like Wyll’s shit seems to genuinely be people are racist and not realizing or caring to realize #he’s a delight! he wants to dance with you! he’s a sweetheart going by the fairytale chivalric code #meanwhile he’s literally made a deal with a devil to make the princely thing happen #it’s good! he’s the vanilla ice cream route and it’s very lovely #literally his route is so similar to Alistair in the choices to give up your life for the world #I love astarion and he is in fact very sexy #and he likes sex when he has the final say in whether it’s happening #but that damn tombstone has some people acting creepy as fuck #yes it’s sad how young he was but he was also a whole adult man when he died #and Gale… you can argue very easily he was groomed #and even if he wasn’t - this man has isolated himself for a /year/ trying not to hurt anyone #yeah he’s gonna get attached to the first people he gets to hang with #he’s hurt when you turn him down but he’s not a dick #then he becomes your ride-or-die #he’s a sweetheart #Halsin has his own shit going but he seems to a companion solely because people thirsted so hard #but he’s also worked through his shit and is decently mentally stable #not letting ppl reblog this because I don’t need people acting a fool on my post

[shorthaltsjester]

begging twitter to stop showing me tweets of people with no reading comprehension misrepresenting things I said but since i was going to make this more in-depth post Anyway .

when i say imogen is better read as a metaphor for generational trauma than she is a metaphor for queerness or chronic pain, i’m not talking about legitimate traits she has as a character. obviously she is queer. obviously she experiences some form of chronic pain (though i would argue her magic better suits chronic illness not pain because she states that it’s Not always painful, but it does always influence how she lives her life).

when i talk about how well she’s understood as a metaphor, i’m talking about when i’m looking at her as a part of a story, as an arc that i am witnessing rather than in the more typical fandom way of this is a fictional person who interacts with exandria as real people do. and that is a fun way to interact with characters, i enjoy it a lot! but when i say imogen (to me, as i for some reason have to clarify on my own blog which implies that these are my own opinions and not absolute fact that needs to be accepted by people on the internet with different experience and opinions than me) is best read as a metaphor for generational trauma, it isn’t a dismissal of her queerness or her illness, it’s just me thinking looking at her from that angle is more compelling.

imogen has been one of my favourite characters and least favourite characters in campaign 3 because i tend to analyse her through a lens of generational trauma and she ends up looking extremely familiar to me as someone with a family that carries their’s heavily which is as comforting as it is frustrating.

for me the main thing that looking at imogen through a queer lens of literary analysis fails to account for is harm. on the one hand - the harm that imogen experiences, not because of how people treat her for who she is, but that exists simply as a factor of her being ruidusborn. on the other hand a the harm that imogen causes. not to say that she is some malicious villain waiting for her chance to harm others, but that there are things about being ruidusborn that very much do incline her towards violence in a way that she might not otherwise be - i think about the conversation after she went nuclear and chet brought up people being scared of her connecting that to her father keeping distance. the only harm that queerness provides comes from society, and that isn’t the case in exandria. even metaphorically, the thing that society fears in ruidusborn people (while it has certainly been exacerbated by centuries of superstition and practices like we saw in zephrah) is a tangible threat. imogen’s magic when not controlled can wipe out a city block, but queerness poses no threat.

that’s why i’m not compelled by imogen’s backstory as a queer metaphor. not because i’m some imodna anti (i very emphatically am not but this fandom kinda makes me wish i was sometimes) or because i think exandria’s lack of homophobia/transphobia means that characters can’t be viewed through a queer lens or that critical role doesn’t contain some of the most compelling queer metaphor i’ve encountered. imogen just isn’t one of those characters, not because she isn’t queer, or because i think her story shouldn’t resonate with queer people, just because i find the generational trauma angle more consistent.

it’s similar with the chronic illness angle, which i will refer to as illness but you’re welcome to emphasise pain, we all have different vocabularies for the experiences we face. but just to give context i’m running off laura’s comparison of imogen’s powers to her own sensory issues and anxiety which while often Lead to pain, fall more into chronic illness in imogen’s context to me. and i do think there’s substantial comparison for imogen’s story as a metaphor for chronic illness, but i think that was much more true earlier in the campaign than it is looking at her from the current context. her beginning motivation being her search for knowledge about her powers really resonated with me as similar to someone experiencing symptoms of chronic illness but who could neither figure out how to treat them or what they were caused by.

but then imogen got more information, specifically about her mother, and her priority became not understanding her powers but understanding her current state as a person - how had she become the person she is, inclusive of her powers but very much emphasising her lack of a mother who became more and more present in the unweaving web of ruidusborn lore. that’s when i was less compelled by the chronic illness reading and more compelled by viewing her as a metaphor for generational trauma. had that not been enough on its own, imogen’s visit to relvin and her recent thoughts on her mother would be enough to convince me.

the part that makes me hesitant about this post is that generational trauma is so intensely linked to the contexts under which it is created and perpetuated. so i can’t really point to specific scenes as evidence of specific things that prove generational trauma is the most compelling and i don’t really want to unload that much of my own experience to clarify my thoughts on a character. but vaguely, i will say that imogen’s relationship with her parents is obviously the clearest source for my reading her as a metaphor for generational trauma. the fact that relvin, the only person in her family without the thing that draws society’s ire, is also the person that she has the most willing anger at is also indicative of this to me. in general, imogen’s rage that so easily transitions into sadness and vice versa comes out a lot in conversations about parents. most recently, i think about ashton’s lovely speech about found family and his distrust about parents and how as they were speaking, laura seemed to be playing imogen as sadly in thought versus months ago when fearnes parents showed up with striking similarities to liliana and imogen’s words of wisdom were let’s hurt them all.

and like. to me that angersadnessvengeancegrief is particularly evocative of the feelings that arise when you are in a family with generational trauma, especially when you are aware of it. because imogen can and has followed the logical steps that have led her and her family to where they are. early on when recounting her relationship with her dad she seemed wistful but understanding of the distance between them. in nearly every encountered with a parental figure imogen seems to be some level of distrusting for the most part, but she’s still holding out hope that her mother will see the good side. and further, there’s the complication of how dire her losing her powers seems to be, and how inextricable her powers are from every aspect of her life. she’s also southern and from a blue collar family. this means nothing except it also means a whole lot.

this is messy and not well organised but if you want a good essay you’re gonna have to pay me money for it but tldr: i say things i believe on my This Is My Opinion Blog and i don’t think i need to explain my thoughts to strangers on the internet but this was already half written in my drafts and if people are gonna shit on my opinions please at least do it in good faith and shit on my actual opinions not the ones you’ve decided i have.

#it’s just the. your mother leaves and you know nothing you don’t even know that she Chose to leave you just know she’s gone #and your father is there in every way he can be which isn’t Enough #and then. you do the same thing your mom did and you find the answers she found but. you’re finding a way out of it . not Completely . #and not Perfectly. but enough that you’re angry that the world wasn’t kind enough to her to give her a way out #and you’re angry that she probably wouldn’t have taken a way out if she found it #and you’re just. getting hurt by her over and over and you’re putting your life and friends at risk over and over in the thin Hope #that this time when she hears you out she’ll actually Hear you #also . just in general. i do not worship the ground of the mn campaign for anyone to accuse me of thinking cr characters can’t be queercoded #i’m stronger than you . i see the queerness of fjorester which only people with real reading comprehension understand . #anyway this is all light hearted if i was actually like . Mad this would be like. one sentence long #imogen temult #cr3 #critical role #the temults #cr meta #listen man. imogen is personal to me i hate her i love her i want to hit her i want to hug her i can’t look at her i wanna study her #my posts

[ickypuppi3]

say what you want but billy and steve have canonically seen each other’s dicks so who’s really winning at the end of the day

#billy hargrove #steve harrington #harringrove #(it’s billy) #(he’s winning) #they’re also in love but that’s neither here nor there #this isn’t aimed at anyone or about anything in particular btw #it’s just that it’s SO funny to me that that’s a true statement #like i just thought about it and #billy made the whole situation so much gayer than it had to be #specifically picked a shower next to steve #smiled at him like THAT when he wasn’t looking #made the effort to touch him and call him pretty #and the fact billy just had his little flip flops on #i know it’s like a ‘no one’s meant to look’ kinda deal but ​billy definitely sneaked a peek #and steve stared a little too long while billy walked away bare assed is all i’m saying #cannot stand either of them tbh #me when i remember all the times they’ve touched for no good reason #and how billy straddled steve while fucking his face up #good for them both a little homoeroticism never hurt anyone #(… don’t) #(i don’t wanna talk about it) #(s3 doesn’t exist to me) #ickyspeaks

[autistic-katara]

there r fics that make u insane (so amazingly good it’s removed ur sanity) and then there’s fics that make u insane (you need to fistfight the author for how they did a specific thing that caused u to rant for hours)

#i know i just posted that other thing but ffs that is NOT how u handle someone in that situation everyone involved made everything 10x worse #yet it’s being treated like the right thing to do (which again ofc they’re cops they don’t understand harm reduction but still) like #seriously everything’s so forceful like u seriously think forcing ur friend to talk to u or forcing a patient to talk to a therapist under #the threat of being admitted to a psychiatric hospital is gonna make her feel comfortable talking to u? or anyone? she’s just gonna trust u #less and get better at hiding it and speaking of which the taking away all sharp objects thing makes sense in theory but like think abt it #for a minute she confirmed she isn’t suicidal and this is her only way of coping so do not just forcibly take away all her coping mechanism #like yes she is hurting herself but it’s a COPING MECHANISM. she’s coping with something. help her with that don’t just take away her penci #sharpers or whatever (which btw since she’s an adult she could easily buy more stuff and yk learn to hide it better) which again has to be #voluntary it isn’t gonna work if u force someone to do smthn they don’t want to like as ur friend u could’ve made it clear u care abt her #and wouldn’t judge her for anything and r here if she wants to talk don’t just say “you have to talk to me” and casually threaten #hospitalisation when she isn’t ready in the moment like seriously if this wasn’t a badly written fanfic she would completely stop trusting #bcz given that this wasn’t even done out of panic i would like ffs u are NOT doing any of this right #oops sorry ranted abt the bad fic in my tags- #it’s not where the author’ll see it and know it’s about them i don’t feel bad abt it #this was my first time even looking at stuff for this fandom so #cw self harm in tags #idk if i need to tag anything else for that 😭 #fanfic #ao3 #ryan shut the fuck up

[boag]

I’ve been getting such bad intrusive thoughts lately and they’re always so disturbing and shocking and out of left field that they make my stomach turn and it can be so hard to redirect my thoughts to something else and stop upsetting myself and I can never talk about it to anyone bc like wtf why would I speak that shit aloud

#I’ve never been diagnosed w ocd bc it wasn’t too bad or obstructive #so psychiatrists and therapists usually just like noted in my files that I displayed obsessive compulsive thoughts and behaviors #and I haven’t talked to anyone about it in so long but I think it’s just getting worse the older I get….. #it was always harmless when I was a kid #but now it’s actually hurting me I think 😭😭😭😭 #like…. making it harder for me to connect with people

[deityofhearts]

I have so many thoughts about mlp, especially trixie

#deity dialogue #mlp had an ‘I hate magicians’ agenda #justice for trixie all she wanted to do was put on magic shows to entertain and inspire :/ #she quite literally wasn’t hurting anyone until someponies showed up and started acting like she was being an evil liar #y’all ain’t never heard of magicians??? :/ #I feel like in my own imagining of mlp it would go like this #twilight thinks there’s right and wrong ways to do magic and doesn’t like how trixie does magic and gets upset about that #limited worldview that she needs to move on from #applejack would see the act as deceitful and lying and get upset #pinkie would love the show because she knows what acts are #fluttershy would also find it nice #rainbow dash supports her friends and if they’re mad so is she basicaly #idk where rarity stands #and basically the episode would be about acknowledging that sometimes you’re wrong and can just hurt people and lash out because of it #and like basically them going ‘hey we were really rude and hurtful to trixie’ #like hey started shit first from what I remember then trixie acted accordingly #like idk y’all started bothering her at her own damn show unprompted for what reason? yeah she did magic shit to y’all but it can be argued #that one it was because it was a part of the show to her and two it was because y’all were acting out first #thank you for coming to my Ted talk

[deadlyeyez]

do you think she gave up on a family in that attic?

how long did she feel unloved?

#deadlyeyez art tag #qsmp tallulah #qsmp #qsmp fanart #qsmp eggs #tallulah #tallulah does things to me i swear #that poor baby deserves the world and if anyone hurts her i’ll cry #i really want to know why she was up there #why wasn’t she with the other eggs? #hereward thinking thoughts hours

[insignificant457]

“Remember when you told me Octavia never allowed you sweets? First chance I got, I took you to that candy emporium on Eros and piled a stack of credits in your hand. That look on your face when I said you could buy as much as we could carry…”

#red rising #light bringer spoilers #light bringer #cassius au bellona #lysander au lune #Cassius you were such a good guardian don’t let anyone tell you otherwise #he loved him so much…they loved each other but the love wasn’t enough #genuinely I want to die #I had a feeling it was coming but it still hurt

[electric-friend]

alright so to start off with- this isn’t a theory at all, it’s just a silly AU concept. but stede has such a strangely varied response to violence and his sense of guilt is sort of confusing and unpredictable? even way back in season one his response to violence varied from being sickened to being incredibly enthused and fairly detached. so i’m sure someone else has already said this but it’s sort of a bit odd how stede is very rarely completely alone except for when nigel and chauncey died, he was alone with them? anyway, in season two when stede (defensively, untruthfully, i know, but still) said he couldn’t remember his fight with izzy, i remembered something i’d thought about before once or twice when i originally saw the first season when it first came out.

i’ve had this thought before and i’m sure it’s probably not entirely original… and not to be all edgy and silly but think it would make for an entertaining AU if stede had somehow fought or overpowered nigel and chauncey on those occasions and killed them himself? and he’s misremembering to try to cope. you could take that in a creepy direction or an incredibly angsty direction or a dark comedy direction, idk…

point being that i am so sure someone has probably thought of this before, but like… i’ve never seen the fic or the post or anything. the fandom could play with this idea more than it has, i reckon. might be fun. just saying.

#stede bonnet #ofmd #i don’t really want anyone to talk about the opinion that stede killing ned was a positive moment of character development for stede #i think we can all see it hurt him and he was trying to be someone he wasn’t and we didn’t see enough of the repercussions of that #due to screen time

[sad-endings-suck]

“Zuko would have jumped in front of Azula’s lighting bolt for anyone!”

Yes! And? Katara would’ve given the “I’ll make sure your destiny ends right then and there, permanently.” speech, to anyone who threatened the life of a loved one. Whether it be Aang, Sokka, Toph, Hakota, etc. Hell, she’d defend an innocent stranger that way, and she has. Besides, it’s not like we haven’t seen Zuko take a lightning bolt for someone else besides Katara— oh wait, we haven’t (he still would though ofc).

Regardless, it’s the same point, inverted.

“Zuko would die for any of his friends” and “Katara would kill for any of her friends” are foil characterization traits; not opposing arguments.

#nvm that katara kind of HAS to say she’ll kill anyone who hurts aang because he’s the avatar and the fate of the entire world hinges on him #not to state the obvious but some yall need basic reminders like ‘‘katara’s entire life revolves around aang’s success in defeating ozai’’ #so here we are #alright #gonna leave this here and run away like cartoon character after placing a very obvious bomb 🏃‍♀️💨 💣🧨 #i hate that i can’t just say something in this fandom without there being a 50/50 chance someone may react to it as if they have rabies #whatever #i’m in the trenches #we are all racoons #we’re all in the same dumpster together #so let’s get the dumpster fire going. alright who’s got the matches? #atla #atla meta #atla discourse #katara #zuko #zutara #aang #kataang critical #i guess #zutara meta #anti anti zutara #it’s all so stupid tbh i wish this wasn’t even discourse #zuko atla #katara atla #aang atla

[love-hope-faith-feels-like-a-lie]

This is hard. This is really hard and I wished it wasn’t because I want to be okay and I’m really not

#we broke up #and I don’t really know what the fuck to do with myself #I knew this wasn’t going to last forever it was a given but fuck #haven’t told anyone because just writing the first tag hurt so much #makes it too real #and I don’t want it to be real right now

[junniieesbby]

Why are you bragging about buying albums and spending so much money. You sound spoiled.

Been staring at this for a while now. I don’t know how to answer it because I’m just so shocked. I am sorry to whoever sent this my intentions weren’t to make anyone feel bad. I posted it while I was literally half asleep and was just stating how irresponsible I can be sometimes at night.

I wasn’t showing off. You don’t know me personally and you would know that I rarely ever spend money on myself. I have spent 3 birthdays since Covid until now where something ultimately happens and I don’t get to celebrate. When I decided I wouldn’t be doing anything this year I thought I would buy myself albums.

You don’t know this but albums bring me joy and happiness. And me spending MY OWN hard earned money on something that makes me happy doesn’t make me spoiled.

I know some people can’t buy albums or don’t have the means to buy albums but don’t make me feel guilty about it. Are you also going after the countless of people who make videos purchasing 30 of the same album? Or did you just decide to come to me about it?

Have a good day.

#it truly wasn’t my intentions to hurt anyone.

[transmechanicus]

Found this artwork I thought you'd really like (because android girlfriend)

[Inserting directly strictly for ease of reference here is the post on the artist’s blog, smash reblog for them]

Oh i LOVE this. @koyoriin ‘s art is gorgeous and i adore how colorful so many of their pieces are!!

#my stuff #asks #GOD ITS SO HOT #*HI* mrs business lady i am a very good android i’m ready to get my makeup LASER BURNED ON😍😫 #I love the little tears like yeah i bet it does hurt that’s the price we pay to get force femmed by this lady lmao #if anyone can find this piece on their actual tumblr blog that would be great i wasn’t able to find it after A Lot of scrolling

[blitheringbongus]

Can't believe Scar saw a rapidly approaching, dishevled mumbo and went "he's so cute." I need to run unorthodox experiments on them.

IKR SAME OMG

They’re literally perfect for each other <- delusional

But seriously they have so much lore together in my silly brain and the few interactions they do have (WHICH HAS BEEN INCREASING A LOT LATELY MAY I ADD) has been FUELING the fire rapidly and gods gods GODS do I have many thoughts about them

#literally making an illustration type comic on Mumbos whole vampire timeline #Scar will be next with his vex schenanigans.. #the worst part is I always cycle like three to five different backstory’s in my brain for these two I CANNOT decide #but now that I’ve written a short ficlet (that no one will see unless asked) abt a few scenes of Mumbos backstory I think I’m pretty set on- #-his part #Scar tho??? no clue #I have the Hotguy backstory (which I daydream about WAY too much) I have the apocalypse backstory. I have the single player raised by villa- #-gers for years and years cuz his mom dropped him off in the single player world when Scar wasn’t conscidered a player yet since he was an- #-infant cuz it was a teen pregnancy and she was too scared to tell anyone so she just dropped him off with the villagers never to be seen #again. and since it was technically HER single player world when Scar DID grow up old enough to be recognized as a player he couldn’t #access any of the 'exit world' stuff or anything like that since it wasn’t his world #and then like a watcher or smth pulled him out of it so that Scar could be put through the horrors of gun related things for experimentstuff #and then there’s the backstory of where scar IS a watcher. like not a person turned watcher he was BORN (if you could say that) a watcher #and like the other watchers wanted to do an experiment of basically 'could a watcher if stripped of its memories and placed in a people- #-world be able to produce its own feelings and emotions?' and so they did that to Scar but they didn’t place him there as a baby no. they #placed him there as a full grown man so bros even more confused. and when the life series stuff started he had exactly one ☝️ dream per #Series and it was tiny little snippets of his watcher self but he didn’t know that it’s him but like he felt a strange pull towards these #dreams so that’s basically the reason why he kept coming back to the life games even tho they hurt him deeply as we all know #and then when he won secret life the secret keeper asked him what his wish was now that he’s won and he didn’t ask to know who he was and #where he came from (since he just appeared one day as a full grown man with no identification) since he’s made peace with that maybe it is #better not to know. so instead he asked abt the dreams he always has in these series and wth their abt and the context and stuff #and then BAM the secret keeper just drops all that information on him and he has an identity crises :D #anyways. I put both of these guys through many horrors I just have so many ideas for scar specifically. oh also there’s that backstory where #hes an assasin guy and he feels rlly guilty abt it when he gets split in half (gtws and btws) cuz like he has morals now apparently?? also #it explains the scammer stuff cuz he was a HUGE scammer bacl them #asks #hermitcraft #goodtimeswithscar #mumbo jumbo #redscape