#and its just festered

[blee-bleep]

girls night out

ft. me trying coloring and lightings again

#diakko #dianakko #lwa #little witch academia #atsuko kagari #akko kagari #diana cavendish #bleeart #posted this on the wrong blog again anyway #what would you do if you if a pretty genki girl offered you her favorite drink? #for me i would pass away #also its cramming season and my innate undergrad need to consume alcohol is festering #so this is just projecting at the highest

[butch-reidentified]

I'm noticing more and more a certain pattern so I'm just going to put my cards on the table and be real with yall.

prioritizing and centering your hatred of and/or anger toward men - no matter how deeply justified those feelings are (and they sure fuckin are) - over your capacity/desire/actions of supporting and uplifting women... is still centering men. you're still focused on men. you're still giving the male sex the majority of your energy. it has its place, our pain and rage toward men, but when that goes unchecked to the point that you are no longer able to see your actions clearly or of applying yourself to the needs of women and girls, you have stopped contributing something impactful and meaningful to female liberation.

pain can be useful, but there is a crucial difference between pain that is infected, festering, untreated, and the measured pain of a slowly healing wound. I have known enough of both to tell you that only one of these can be a source of strength and building something new and better. the other can only necrotize and decay everything around it from within.

if you have not worked/do not continue to work on your own healing, coping, emotional regulation, etc., especially given that the wound is still taking damage outside your control as worldwide female oppression and our heightened awareness of it continues, it will, sooner or later, turn septic.

#this is specifically about letting pain and rage fester and rot #and influence your thinking and behavior #and letting it get in the way of what really matters - women #this is not about hating men in general on its own #obviously im all for that lol #just check my KAM tag for proof 💀 #mine #anger #women's anger #KAM

[dirtytransmasc]

^^ screenshot, not actually my post, I could never say such a thing ^^

I don't really get this take, it's not the first time I've seen it, and it's just... I don't even know.

green is the color of war for her house, but it's also just her house's color, and for a girl ripped up from her life as a hightower and made a Targaryen Queen of all things, she started wearing her house colors compared to her color (blue) or the Targaryen colors (red) probably to cling to some sense of normalcy and identity.

not only that, but from a costuming perspective the symbolism is right there, you're just missing it. it's not about war, that one dress had been war, that's why the comment is made. the color is Alicent no longer trying to be a Targaryen, no longer changing herself and ignoring the pain she's in, and instead being her own person despite her position. she starts wearing green instead of red, the two colors being opposites, when she stops trying to pander to her lost friend, stops trying to fit in and be this new person. she took a stand with that dress, she declared 'war' on this false identity and the fruitless effort she had put in to try and smooth the tensions in the family.

after that, the green is showing she remains herself, a Hightower. not a Targaryen.

I love her green, I love how she holds onto that piece of her, she doesn't let anyone take it or change it. she holds true to herself in this one simple way as to wear her house colors.

also how can you deem a character boring just based on the colors they wear... it's just such a boring and outlandish take.

#she wears different shades snd styles with different accents snd accessories #esch one has its own story own meaning #the symbolism in her costuming fsr outweighs that of Rhaenyra's #even if she wears less colors #plus #greens her color. nothing ever looked better on her #just say you don't like to see my girl slay the green better then Rhaenyra did any of her own colors and get on with it #alicent hightower #anti team black #anti team black fans #pro team green #pro Alicent in green and green only #(though I would have killed to see her blue again. don't get me wrong) #its so integral to her character #even if you go with the “signaling war” idea for every dress #her and her kids were a beacon of war because of the Targaryen's sround her donned in red #she was signalling war #the war Rhaenyra brought by abandoning her causing her to give up her red garb and take on her how color #causing her to need to protect her own #causing the divide that festered into war #I may not love the concept as much as the the one I mentioned earlier in the post but it has good standing

[lesbianviolet]

lord of frenzied fail

#vyke #elden ring #festering fingerprint vyke #art #artists on tumblr #imsorry im so mean to him i really do like him a lot #i just think its funny to make fun of the failmen of elden ring #and i liked the non flamey version too so u guys get both. as a treat

[scifur]

old au has come back to haunt me + some random scrlmis

#genshin impact #lumine #corrupted lumine #what makes this different from abyss lumine is that its traveler lumine getting affected by festering desire/ gods' wrath #i just wanna see her betray or fight her new teyvat friends #scaramouche #scaralumi #im so great at drawing swords :'D

[possamble]

do you have any particular thoughts regarding marcille being a half-elf? its interesting to me considering the fact that she seems self-conscious about being a half-elf, but denies it when its brought up

i remember marcille looking visibly uncomfortable over laios simply asking her how old she is, which i think the only reason she might feel nervous about this is because it might reveal her as a half-elf to him.

she's never corrected anybody whose called her an elf either.

never mind the circumstances of the reveal, in which thistle goes on about how half-elves are inferior and accusing her of wanting to become full blooded elf, she seemed particularly upset like he struck a nerve-

i wish the half-elf thing was built upon more. also, underrated marcille line:

okay so i revisited this sequence just to make sure I could back myself up and it's just... man. there's a lot going on.

the first reaction we get from Marcille is this huge panel that takes up half of the page

she is viscerally affected. flushing to the tips of her ears with the intensity of it. and we see it again, a few pages later

so it might seem like she's embarrassed about it and lying to herself, but... I really think it's just that Thistle is accidentally hitting sore spots. If you really look at what he says to get these reactions

"you'll live out your entire life [...] and die that way too"

"a hundred years from now, nobody will be there"

Hear me out. I think, if he stuck to harping on about her inferiority without bringing up how terrifyingly long-lived she is, she wouldn't have been as bothered. But right now, Thistle is accidentally hitting all the marks on Marcille's deepest fears-- and this is after the Winged Lion promised her that her dreams could come true in an extremely vulnerable moment, so it also hits her slightly guilty conscience as well.

I do truly believe that Marcille isn't bothered about being a half-elf the way that people assume she'd be bothered by it. To her, the biggest problem with being a half-elf is that it's isolating.

On one hand, it's not hard to imagine why she'd distance herself from elves in the west. A lot of them can clock her as a half-elf on sight, unlike other races, and therefore she's always branded with this weird stigma of being Othered -- I would even say that she considers herself lucky for being born outside of elven culture instead of having to grow up in it. I mean, just... look at the way elves talk about her.

Skipping past the uncomfortable implication of what 'not tolerating the existence' of half-elves would actually entail, this is incredibly fucking annoying. You can see why she wouldn't want to be around elves much. You see a lot of Marcille reacting badly here, but honestly, almost all of it can be attributed to her freaking out that her bluff completely failed. She's honestly more paying attention to Izutsumi's footsteps and trying to coordinate an opportunity to escape.

And in the end, you see her built-up frustration at being asked if she wants to be a full-blooded elf like 2-3 times in a row.

Yeah, yeah, "the lady doth protest too much," and all. But we know Marcille. We know that she's a lot more embarrassed and horrendously unconvincing when she's being prodded about something she's actually self-conscious about.

Moving onto the flipside of things, it might seem weird that she "pretends" to be a full elf around other races, but it's not really that strange if you think about it. Again, people are weird about her being infertile or whatever, and a lots of them don't even know much about what sets half-elves apart from everyone else. I mean, look at how uncomfortable Laios is just asking her about it

and look at how exasperated and resigned she looks

And like... she's right. Where would that come up in normal conversation? Why would she go out of her way to tell them? She's functionally a normal elf to other races anyway -- got the ears, the abnormally long "childhood", and the huge mana capacity. Unless it's directly relevant or important for people to know, I don't think it's all that strange or indicative of insecurity that she prefers not to bother with it.

(This combined with her sense of being an "outsider" to elf culture also explains why she thinks elf superiority is embarrassing. She sees the way elves treat short-lived races from the "outsider" perspective nonetheless, and thinks it's obnoxious; especially more so because she usually has to play the elf around short-lived races and deal with the reputation of arrogance that elves have built up.)

The sad thing is, this all means that... she doesn't actually fit in anywhere. She doesn't like going out West much because of how elves treat her. But she's also an outsider in the continents she was born in, treated like this exotic long-lived alien choosing to live among short-lived races for some reason. She is always an outsider, the Other, no matter where she goes. Add in the fact that she'll live longer than literally anyone she knows, and it's honestly kind of heartbreaking.

And I think that's the crux of it. Marcille really doesn't act like she's at all self-conscious about being a half-elf because of any feelings of inferiority or being half-made or whatever. She considers herself a perfectly legitimate being and might even, in some ways, consider herself superior to normal elves because she's not blind with elf supremacy or whatever. (And whatever "elven biases" she displays, all of them are born more out of the fact that she's kind of bad at conceptualizing how other races age and mature compared to herself, not that she actually considers herself better or more mature simply for being an elf.)

I think that whatever self-consciousness Marcille has about being a half-elf is, instead, related to terror and loneliness. The reminder that it ensures she'll never truly belong anywhere for the rest of her very long life. The reminder that, in truth, even she's not actually sure how old she is by other races' standards (hence the discomfort when asked how old she is). She doesn't want to not be a half elf, or be a full elf or full tall-man-- in her ideal world, she's still a half-elf. She just gets to live out her life at the same pace with the people she loves and doesn't have to say goodbye again and again and again until she dies.

and one last very important panel, right after Mithrun tells her that all her desires would be devoured

In her ideal world, she's still a half-elf and reality magically starts marching at her pace. But failing that, the second best thing is that she's still a half-elf-- but one who is able to accept reality and let go of her fear.

(But the rest of the story pans out the way it does because, to Marcille, taking reality apart and reshaping it was less scary than simply and fully reconciling with it.)

#asks #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #marcille donato #manga panel analysis #this is probably riddled with typos sorry #readmore cut bc it got long lmao #i ended up babbling about it bc it's such an important character detail to me #bc like... wow. she's so normal about it. she's literally just chilling. #the only thing that really bothers her is the material reality of it and how people treat her #the stereotypes the stigma etc. etc. #otherwise it just.. #literally doesn't factor into her criteria for self-worth at all #the basic truth is that marcille likes herself on a fundamental level #she's not plagued by a deep and festering self-loathing the way a lot of characters in her archetype are #she likes herself and is proud of her successes and accomplishments #its just that shes terrified of failure and can have *episodes* of self-loathing when she fucks up #but who doesn't yknow #i know its a very slight nuance that makes very little difference in how her 'overachiever' problems manifest but its there #the sword of abandonment issues that hangs over her head has nothing to do with her self-worth or self-esteem or meeting her own standards #it has to do with the fear of not living up to *other* people's expectations and not being useful enough to be worth keeping around #she's good enough for herself but she's always so so so scared that she's not good enough for other people #i wont say much about what ryoko kui is saying using this as an allegory for real world racial biases but #dungeon meshi's treatment of marcille's relationship with her being half-elf is so incredibly important to me because it gets it so right. #a trauma about inferiority or being a half-being isn't inherent to the experience of being 'of two worlds' at all #that's something that's unfairly drilled into people by their environment #the *inherent* anguish is the loneliness. the constant longing. the fact that you are always homesick no matter where you are #always just a little bit of an outsider and never fully at home #and dungeon meshi gets that. #edit: cleaned it up a little

[junadeo]

this might be a hot take but maybe we shouldnt be mean or shitty to people we consider to be members of a "privileged" or even a "oppressive" group, like men, white people, cishets, etc.

#especially considering how arbitrary being privileged or oppressive can be #people are only that if the society they live in is organized in such a way that those people are given the capacity to oppress or #be privileged #and thats it. theres nothing about being white. for instance. that makes a white person inherently oppressive. for example; there #is no gene inside a white person that makes them racist or privileged or whatever #its just that our western societies place white people above everyone else. and thats literally it #dealing with oppression and bigotry and so on does not require dealing with the current oppressors or whatever #dealing with oppression means dealing with oppression head on!!! such as the institutions and laws and such that allow it to fester #post

[dailykugisaki]

Day 105 | id in alt

Kugisaki is as much of a menace as Inumaki is sometimes.

#dailykugisaki #jjk #kugisaki nobara #itadori yuji #i like making Kugisaki a bully to Itadori in a not sukuna way but also she hold a bit of a hate to him #she dosent want him dead its just....tbh ill explain later ive been wanting to draw what im elaborating on for a bit! #i forgot to color her phone in yhe second part so please just imagine its red #to elaborate a bit more lemme say that i personally thingk Kugisaki festers horribly at Itadori's selflessness and choices

[stupidscav]

don't mind my last post

i made a twink

ehehehdh it/any robot

yeah it's supposed to be an iterator oc but oops it's just me

@kosss369 grabbing you hi

s/h scars vers under cut

#scavs silly misc #my art #ummmm need new art tag #help i just combined the word fest and art and. its literally just fart why #ok fine i give into the only thing ive been able to think of #festers fuckery #yeah that works🔥 #iterator oc #rw iterator #rw oc #rain world

[miraculouslumination]

I might go further into detail on this and I haven't really looked much in the tag to see if anyone else has offered this idea, but, like

Here's one of my biggest theories regarding the shenanigans in Welcome Home, summarized in one sentence:

Wally is sick.

#Jean mumbles #Welcome Home #The way he acts in those hidden bug videos. #The way he seems so unresponsive and out of it when people are talking around him. #He doesn't make jokes like he used to it seems. He isn't ACTING like he used to. #The only one we've really seen acknowledge this is Barnaby in that video where Barnaby talks with Home #Frank and Julie just seemed... uncomfortable when Wally appeared during that musical snippet #Also!! That black GUNK that festers inside/under Home?? and how it seems to be the same stuff that attached itself to all those journals? #I think that's what's making Wally act the way he has #Because like. In the hidden audio clips. He seems...so frustrated and confused. But not outright aggressive #But then there's that one audio clip #The ''LET ME IN'' one #But...I don't know if that's Wally Darling being himself #I wonder if that's the illness - the gunk - taking over and using him. as a PUPPET. to spread its sickness further #I don't know #But I do find it an interesting thought #I'll probably slap this all in an actual post someday #Maybe #I can't wait to see what more may come of this down the road

[n4rval]

I LOVE YOUR PFP thank you that is all <3

HI FREAK thank you! here's the entire thing for future reference on this post.

it is a rather small picture, so i figured i'd hold off on posting it until i managed to compile a couple more self insert illustrations to go along with it. oh well

#artwork #inbox #freakbullet #I PROMISE I AM REPLYING TO THE OTHER ONE I JUST HAVE A HUGE WALL OF TEXT TO BE DONE WITH #it will be so worth it #we are an old fashioned vintage-goth couple #your grandparents but your granny is black and white mary poppins and your grandpa is if gomez addams was a raging asexual #and also a meta entity from another realm ig #wingdings and me #wd gaster #gaster #UPDATE JAN 31st: i know i said gomez addams but thinking about it he's really an uncle fester #which is great bc fester was always fave #it even rhymes!! its literally two letters away!!!! how is this possible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[uncanny-tranny]

It's always weird when people are like, "Oh, you being [x minority] made me stop hating/reconsider my bigotry toward [minority]!"

Not only is it weird from the standpoint of "wow, you hated me?" but it's weird to know that you displayed some type of behaviour that proved your humanity to them, and that if you stop displaying that behaviour for any reason, it's possible they'll just slide back into their hatred because they haven't fundamentally challenged why they hated you and your people.

It's fine to grow out of your bigotry, yes, but I'm completely understanding of people being weary of those who are so brazen about how much they hated people like you.

#politics #ask to tag (genuine) #like i've expressed this before and it was like people were assuming i was ungrateful for their growth??? #but it's like... /have/ they outgrown their bigotry if they're almost jovial about just how hateful they were toward minority groups? #i feel like true growth from bigotry is understanding how harmful bigotry is and how you played into that... #...no that doesn't mean groveling about your past and performatively 'apologizing'... #...it means challenging the beliefs you held and learning how to spot them if they try festering back in your mind... #...because groveling isn't the same as growth and neither is pretending like past bigotry is amusing or funny or quirky... #...in my mind both those thought processes still center the 'reformed' bigot and not the people they hurt and held bigoted beliefs about... #...i think both those things are selfish and show (to me) that they may well do still hold those same bigotries but they're hiding them... #...and it will only be a matter of time before that bigotry festers and takes its mask off... #...like that is PRECISELY why bigotry against ~bad people~ is JUST AS BAD as bigotry toward ~good minorities~... #...like transphobia against a trans person who is a terrible excuse for a human is still transphobia. it doesn't matter how bad they are #(just as an example of what i mean)

[grimalkinmessor]

So one of the biggest things I've taken from this is that Reigen Arataka could not beat Light Yagami in a verbal spar because Reigen is only ever able to out-argue reasonable adults

#light is childish and petty and stubborn #plus hes better at being passive aggressive than reigen lmao #but mostly reigens just looking at this festering void of matyred arrogance and desperate self-righteous coping mechanisms like #wtf am i supposed to do with that??? you think murder is okay as long as its YOU doing it??? #death note #yagami light #reigen arataka #mob psycho 100 #the mob psychos

[sapphorror]

Okay but my favorite GIR moments are ALWAYS the ones that imply he's just aware enough of what's going on to know that the thing he's doing will fuck up Zim's day, and he still does it anyway, possibly specifically for that purpose.

#invader zim #gir #iz posting #natterings #most times its not even malicious #or not like SPECIFICALLY malicious beyond gir being a gremlin who enjoys chaos in general #i think a lot of the time he just wants to secure zims attention and making him mad is the easiest way to do it #(+ i mean zim kind of models this strategy all the time so can he really be surprised girs learned it—) #or sometimes the terrible thing will eventually end up leading into accomplishing something useful #and its easy to say this is just fools luck and totally inadvertent on girs part #but there are rare moments that suggest he mightve a little bit done the thing on purpose and im obsessed with that #that one comics issue where he impersonates dib torments zim for days on end and then wheedles zim into praising him for it #lives rent free in my mind #BUT ANYWAY I ALSO THINK THAT MAYBE SOMETIMES IT COULD BE A LITTLE MALICIOUS #given that gir in his natural state isnt really CAPABLE of resentment or anger or even dislike #and the one time he was able to feel those things he turned on zim in less than 24 hrs #in a way that was clearly very personally motivated (note to self write meta about gir goes crazy and stuff i have so much shit to say) #which suggests to me those emotions probably are there festering on some inaccessible level and yknow #imo a little healthy sadism is a GREAT outlet for that #zim absolutely deserves it

[fiovske]

listen. as much as I know (and love) that this doctor who special was v much trans rights save lives in the very blatant way that leaves no room for doubt for any wilful misinterpretation with the erasure of transness from the narrative esp in the terf supreme climate which was very necessary and important, and as much as I understand that dw is abt logical reasoning things making sense in a very (emphasis on very) abstracty hand-wavey way and you'd come up blank if you try to get into specifics ... i have just one question.

why did Donna and Rose Noble tell the doctor "we just let it go. you wouldn't understand as a male-presenting doctor." like.. that bit truly ???? me and I just didn't understand like... what does. male-presenting have to do w anything.. I am genuinely asking. i get the logic of the rest of the things: Donna passed down the metacrisis (sp? it's been years since doctordonna ep so I'm rusty) thingy to rose so they're both able to be share the weight of it without dying.. is it the extra regeneration energy theyre able to let go without any hassle? that's such a skill issue for a male-presenting doctor? ... if that then,, why so? what does being male-presenting have to do w anything is. my question. bc the logic is supposed to be handwavey I know.. but that part just puzzled me like is there some secret caveat I'm not getting?

#im genuinely asking bc my memory of the whole doctordonna thing is very rusty its been YEARS. #and i like the handwavey logic of dw dont get me wrong. this bit just made things confusing for me like there's a caveat or smth #that is a skill issue for a doctor and if so.. why foes it have to do w male-presenting like i don't get it... #like the doctor too is trans all the way w gender funkery and so is rose so like... what is it that #a female-presentkng doctor would get that a male-presenting doctor wouldn't? #if anything i'd even say that fourteen is WAAY more emotionally adjusted than thirteen ever was lmao #she was the king of repression and roiling buried frustration at all times who never dealt with her problems and always let then fester — #you wanna tell me as female-presenting SHE would Get It abt 'Letting Things Go'?? LOL. LMAO EVEN. #but truly what was that line about. bc its the only wrench in the logic that makes me. not get the handwavey logic still. #doctor who #the star beast #edit: gotta fckin LOVE typos in tags that shit isn't confusing at fucking ALL!! 🙄

[toxooz]

omg i literally love wheelbitten as a comic and ur art is amazing

random question but how long have u been drawing as an artist and do u have advice.............

thank uuuu and I've been drawin my ass off since I could hold a pencil and I'm 24 (25 next month) now so this shit wasn't overnight by any means lmfao idk the way i did it was have A Thing that you like drawing and just draw the fuck outa it and eventually you'll get better for sure whether it be the desire to get better at drawing said thing makes you do research and study something to become better at it or just literal muscle memory from drawing said thing so much. I had lil spouts of taking time to get better at specific things like anatomy, shading, ect. by studying it but overall i just subconsciously got better by mentally picking up new things everytime i draw and analyzing the world around me. Even recently i got to see that with drawing tactical gear (that ive never really drawn before and never wanted to draw in my life) soley bc i just REALLY fukkin love Ghost and Konig

i went from being terrified and intimidated of drawing tactical gear (even trying to put a gun in front of it as if that was any better lmfao) it used to be vague as hell and my brain would shut down just trying to look at the references(i remember having a ''shit man am i even gunna be able to draw these characters???'' moment of dread the first time i was drawing Konig pffft) to absolutely loving drawing tactical gear and seeing how much more detailed i can make it with every new drawing, so a complete 180 but that's bc im just totally obsessed with the characters and drawing is how i express that sO thats mainly what i mean by just have a thing that you love and want to draw and the rest should follow with time, patience, and practice. I think it's about training your brain and motivation to pick up on details or a certain way something looks in lighting (or lack thereof) bc my brain is probably wired a certain way after art being like a centerpiece of my development to the point to where drawing is just What I Do and at this point if i dont draw for even a few days i start getting vaguely antsy and fidgety it's crazy lmfao SO idk if this is worded like i need it to but yeah art and the act of drawing can be frustrating as hell but it should be enjoyable and rewarding above all else at the end of the day!

#i drew bc the piece of shit im unfortunately biologically related to drew a lot when we were kids so id just copy her #then i drew winged wolves and dragons and the occasional horse for like 7 years then The Axel obsession started #where i drew axel from kindom hearts literally all the time and had 870000 aus for him where i would draw for all of them #when i tell you the obsession for him was catastrophic u best believe but it kept me drawing like a motherfucker until i made my monster oc #which was around the age of 15 is when i started consistently drawing humanoids #OH YEAH i had a whole lion king phase too in 2011 where i would strictly draw lions all the time and my first record of drawing online was #on the lion king fanart archive (which i still visit to look back its like visiting an old janky friend:') ) #but yeah then my heart was stolen by my ocs and all the potential designs i could make them #and thats where i am now aside from the festering COD masked men obsession boiling over in the corner AHA #so basically latch onto an obsession and pick up that damn pencil #even as a kid if i liked anything the immediate connection was trying to draw it #didnt matter how weird to draw or undrawable it was my ass would be in that notebook bc its the only way i know how to express myself lmfao #this is long as fuck but NOW im out peace skskksk