#and its kinda triggering him

[jemmo]

Making sense of love for love's sake: the game

Despite all the things i absolutely adore about how the plot unravels and expands in love by love's sake, upon first watch, there's some things i couldn't piece together, which @lurkingshan echoes in their post:

'The way the author was messing with Myungha and forcing cruel choices on him really does not track with a desire to help him find happiness.'

And to preface, this is not something i fully get yet either. I think i'll need a good month and a sizeable reading list of relevant resources to understand just what/who this author/sunbae is and what his role is and how he is associated with myungha. But as always with the best shows for meta (aka bad buddy), as a plot unfolds, you can always find a better understanding by looking backwards and re-contextualising what you've already seen. so i watched ep 1, specifically the scene between myungha and his sunbae at the bar. And i will talk about how everything said in this scene has a whole new meaning now we know the full story, but for now i wanna focus on that question that they keep coming back to; "Then... will you change it for him?".

When you watch the show for the first time, your brain follows the simplest, most obvious version of the story you're being told, one where myungha has been pulled into the world of his sunbae's novel that's being turned into a game and given the opportunity to fix the thing he didn't like about it; making yeowoon happy, and thus you just think the rules of the game are imposed by the author, and so when these cruel choices first come up, you see them as the difficult roadblocks that are nevertheless necessary to any kind of game, forcing the player to make an impossible choice so that the game can continue in a certain direction and its only after that you learn whether it was the right choice or not, or there is no right choice, it simply changes the game you are playing.

And when its revealed what this game actually is, at first i tried to interpret these cruel choices, namely the choice between yeonwoon and myungha's grandma, and at best i could come up with the concept of this being a choice between staying stuck to the past aka choosing his grandma, even though he knows that choice doesn't mean she's safe bc he knows the future where he loses here, its an inevitability, but thats the small happiness he knew before it was taken away and thus that happiness is known and safe, theres no risk, versus choosing to pursue a new happiness, a love of yeowoon and thus himself, which he doesn't know, he hasn't experienced yet, and could be risky. Its a happiness that isn't guaranteed like his grandma, but its a happiness that looks to the future and has hope in it that he can find a new happiness to pursue despite what has happened in his past.

And that fits nice, okayish. But then i watched ep 1 and heard that question "Then... will you change it for him?" And watching through the rest of the eps, we come back to this scene at the bar and each time we get a new run up to the author asking this question, either new dialogue is added or we hear a different piece of the conversation entirely. It starts at the beginning of ep 1 as:

"Because Cha Yeowoon is the only one who's miserable." "It can't be helped that some people's lives are like that" "The fact that some people are destined to live that kind of life is what's vile."

Then a bit later in ep 1 we go back and its expanded.

"It can't be helped that some people's lives are like that" "The fact that some people are destined to live that kind of life is what's vile." "Why? Do you think you'd write it differently?" "Yes, definately. Someone like Cha Yeowoon, or someone like me with an awful life, can also be happy."

And then all the way on in ep 6, we get this new dialogue.

"I don't like talking about destiny." "Why?" "Because it means everything is predestined." "Then do you not believe in fate?" "Fate and destiny are the same. My grandma likes to say that. She said life is like a written book, and how you'll live and die are written in it. (...)I don't like things like this. Even if fate is already destined, I think it can still be changed. Otherwise, there's no point in trying." "Really? Then Myungha..."

And while we don't hear the author ask the same question, I feel like him getting cut off like that insinuates that the conversation leads to that same ending point. All that is to say, every time we hear this question being asked, its like we learn more and more about what this whole thing is, what the game is, what myungha is saying he will do by agreeing to do what the author asks. And every time, we see myungha being more defiant against the idea of yeowoon being resigned to his miserable ending. He starts off thinking that kind of life is destined, and while it's miserable, its not something he can fight. Then he says he'd want to write the story differently, bc yeowoon, or even him, could be happy. He challenges the idea that yeowoon, and thus himself, is fated to be miserable, and opens up the possibility for happiness for them both, but doesn't yet have the means or resolve to do it, its like he knows its possible on a fundamental level, but doesn't see it as something he can actually achieve. But then we circle back to the idea of destiny and books, both of which came up in the previous quote, and seems incredibly pertinent seen as this whole thing is about a novel this author has written. Myungha talks about how he hates the idea that life is a book where everything written is predestined to happen, from the moment you live to the moment you die. He says "Even if fate is already destined, I think it can still be changed. Otherwise, there's no point in trying." That vile way of life he described before that he said was destined, he is now saying it can be changed, and that possibility is now something he's holding onto, its what he sees hope in so that he can keep trying, bc now he finally is trying, he has the resolve, he's trying to realise this thing, this impossibility of rewriting the life he thought was destined through the way he loves yeowoon.

And coming back to those cruel choices, given this fresh context, it made me think. bc this isn't actually a game that myungha has been put into where the rules are dictated by an author completely separate from him. He said himself, he'd rewrite it, he'd change things for yeowoon. And when you start to think of it less as him fighting against a rigid, removed system and more like him being a character in a story he is trying to rewrite himself, that has both the author and his own limitations, or just his own if you're in the school of thought that the author is some figment or part of myungha himself or his conciousness, then you can start to see where these cruel choices might come from. They could be myungha, the author making edits to this new story, imposing his own doubts and limitations on himself. When he says he has to pick between Yeowoon and his grandma, what if that's the new author myungha seeing this story unfold and thinking no this isn't right, he can't have it all, i'm not deserving of this much happiness.

And what makes me like this idea even more is that when we get that second choice between ending after 14 days or getting 100 days back at the cost of resetting Yeowoon's affection to 0, that whole conversation happens in what I think the bar actually is which is this frozen moment in time where myungha is in the water with this extension of a voice in his head that is talking through these things. That conversation in itself needs its own post, but when you look at it both as a decision to break up or not or a decision to hold onto life or not, you can see how the author is just this soundboard relaying the decisions myungha is going through in his head. The author's voice is his own, weighing up his decisions. And if he is the author here, it only reinforces that the person making the rules of this game is him. You can even extend it further to the idea of the debuffs, where he puts in place this thing that makes it so he causes harm to yeowoon when he's around, and its only by garnering affection that he can prevent it. He gives himself a reason from the get go to stay away from yeowoon and reason it as him doing it for yeowoon's safety, when in fact the only way to make yeowoon safe is to increase his affection, which he can only do by being near him. Its a system that at first gives myungha a reason to stay away aka not like himself, but ultimately says the only way you're going to make yeowoon like you, or the only way you can like yourself, is if you accept risk. And that in itself screams to me of a myungha writing in these game systems that are trying to encourage his own-self love while falling at the hurdle of his own lack of self-worth.

The idea is still messy in my head even for me, but i just really like the idea that myungha could be trying to fix this thing both as a character and game master, and that both these versions of him have these flaws that manifest in their different ways to cause the events we see. It kinda is the definition of being your own worst enemy, the idea that in order to work towards loving yourself, the biggest obstacle you have to encounter is yourself, bc we are the ones holding ourselves back, making all these rules that make it harder to like ourselves and pursue our own happiness. The voices in our head telling us that we aren't good enough and aren't deserving are our own, and while the things that happen to us can inform what they say, we're the one's reinforcing those words. And what this show teaches us is that, if we're the one holding that pen all along, we can choose to change what those words are. If we make the rules, you don't have to create a game with concrete ultimatums, you can create a game where rules don't control you. Instead, you make the decisions, and you can make the ones that make you happy.

#wow look at me writing actual kinda thought out meta #also something something about how the pen being in his pocket wasnt a pen given to him by the author its a pen that was his the whole time #look even if this isnt the right interpretation as intended by the author i just kinda adore this headcanon ive come up with and i cant wai #to rewatch the show again through this lens and see if it holds up #i just adore the idea of this whole thing being this manifestation of a flawed doubtful person trying to navigate through their own messy #nonsensical thoughts to find their own happiness #bc yes thats what triggered me thinking of this whole thing. me seeing that post and thinking yeah that doesnt make sense7 #but then again when you tell yourself things an put your own mental blocks in the way they dont make sense either but you still have to fin #the ways to work around them in order to find happiness #like those things dont go away we just find the loopholes or the ways to overcome them that mean we can be happy #the game is your own mind - deal with your own existential crisis as you wish #anyway this is only part 1 in what i hope will be a very extensive meta analysis of this show - stay tuned #love for love's sake

[descendantofthesparrow]

Halloween C4 artworks-commissioned by @benjaycaptain for one of their fics.

#disney descendants #my art #art #mal descendants #evie descendants #carlos descendants #jay descendants #commission work #im so happy with how Evie turned out LOOK AT THAT TULE #that shit turned out so good like WOO #im real happy with jay's too #like super happy with just his anatomy #and the gold band desgins #the pants were based off cursedthings concept for the pants #i did a snake kinda design but it triggered a thing for them so i just did their concept design #Carlos is just slutting it up and you know what-good for him #Evie made him put it on and his compromise was wearing his boots #hes gonna steal Mal's jacket #i gave mal lil pointy ears #yes its christmas and i drew halloween shit leave me alone

[don1t1red]

I know that this is a very unpopular opinion but hear me out!

I think not enough people consider Corvo as an unreliable narrator. We see the story from his point of view and all we know about Jessamine Kaldwin comes from his perspective. So, to think on that, do we really know how good Jessamine was as the Empress? 

I know that she is usually portrayed as a good person if not a saint but what if it wasn't that way? A lot of people in the streets are indifferent towards her image, if not hostile; the situation with Delilah; how both Geoff Curnow and Corvo are treated because of their nationality; two hatters recalling how greatly Corvo dealt with workers uprising under her command  – a lot of things are a tell-tale signs that something is not quite right. 

And at this point I have to clarify that I'm not saying things like "boo no I hate Jessamine". No, it's actually quite the opposite, I love her character. But the way it is usually portrayed seems to be so dull and static. Let her not be a saint. 

Let her be manipulative. Let her tell Corvo that "he is not like other serkonans, he is sooo special and that's why he is where he is and not somewhere deep in the silver mine", while being (just as any nobility in Gristol) not very welcome to any outlanders. 

Let her be power-hungry and afraid to lose this power. Remember a bonecharm in her hidden room in the Tower? Who knows how it ended up here! Maybe she knew (or felt) that Delilah was coming, capable of overpowering and taking everything from her. Maybe Jessamine was so afraid to lose her posh life that she was ready to use some kind of a black magic! 

Let her be disloyal. Obviously, she and Corvo developed some kind of codependency. But along with that, she was the Empress so who could stop her from having an affair or two? And Corvo was just the safest option, with a way less unnecessary risks and questions. 

Let her be an imperfect person. 

Obviously, Jessamine could be easily born a perfect ruler and a perfect loving woman for her chosen one and her daughter. But maybe she had to learn it the hard way. 

Maybe she changed along with Corvo. Maybe the plague was a critical point for her character, maybe those months without Corvo made her rethink a lot of things. 

And isn't it tragic, finally understanding and becoming the Empress everyone wants to see in you, just to be killed the other day, because all those changes have been seen as a weakness? Have nothing but faith in your closest one, faith that these people will be more wise than she was? 

Give her some development, give her some motion! She could easily  be a saint, static point.  But in my opinion, she deserves to be not perfect but in constant motion. Trying and learning, understanding and making mistakes. She was too young when she became the Empress, she was a part of gristolian nobility, not so kind to anyone but themselves, she literally had no prerequisites to become a good person. And yet somehow she did. 

It's always so easy to be a "saint" from the very beginning. And it's always so hard to learn how to become one.

#dishonored #jessamine kaldwin #imo all women deserve to be evil #(as a treat) #and esp disho women #ngl i kinda feel as a great part of Emily criticism could be applied to Jess as well #which doesnt make either of them a bad character #just as a fact #oh and also - while im still there - its not a bad thing to write Dauds development as a reaction to her death #but i feel like it was rather a reaction to the *changes* that her death triggered #i understand that she is a “woman in the refrigerator” trope in canon but we all are better than this #so again imo but it would be better to concentrate Dauds character growth aroud those changes and leave this poor woman alone #i really want to write a separate post about him rn lol #anyway thanks for coming to my ted talk #dt (stands for doni talks)

[cheridraws]

POINTS. ITS HIS BIRTHDAY!!! if everyone doesn't clap and cheer ill blow this whole website up

...kidding. But seriously, I can't believe its been a year since this dude took over my brain, wtf

#i would make him pay rent but he kinda already offered and. well. its awkward now #danganronpa #danganronpa trigger happy havoc #trigger happy havoc #kiyotaka ishimaru #kiyotakaweek2023 #chdoodles #ive been wanting to do taka week SOOO bad but ive had college classes and. yeagh #i worked on this for like three days bc the background wouldn't cooperate w me lmao #anyways #enjoy my indecisiveness in colors. i put both versions :P

[lloydfrontera]

related to that last post that's kinda why i think cpsm revealing that javier had died three years earlier than lloyd is poignant in a very understated way.

javier's original fate was to live when everyone he cared about didn't. he was meant to be the protagonist of that world, to face all kind of threats and survive all of them, but with no one at his side.

he's the narrative's favorite but the narrative's love is not gentle and it is not kind and it will hold you close until you suffocate under its themes and parallels. for the world would bend itself for javier to be at it's center but it would not allow him the comfort of sharing that spot with anyone else.

he was always meant to be the last one standing. fate won't kill him but it won't allow him to die either.

and then comes lloyd with his plot breaking meddling saving everyone around them and shoving his way into the protagonist role, sharing the burden javier wasn't even aware he was carrying. and fate tries so hard to correct itself, it tries by all means possible to put things back the way they were meant to be, but in the end the best it can do is to try and make it so there will only be one main character in the world. the way it was always meant to be.

it concedes. it won't take away everything from its favorite anymore. but it won't stand for there to be two of them.

and the thing is. it wins. it gets what it wants. in the end javier can't save lloyd, he can't take his place, he can't keep him alive, he has to stand and watch him sacrifice himself for everyone else. for javier himself. in the end when the battle is over javier is again the last one standing.

when lloyd comes back and the fate restoration doesn't start up all over again, he thinks it's because lloyd frontera's original body disappeared and he came back in his own body. i don't think it was that. i think the reason fate didn't try to restore itself again is because it had already achieved what it wanted.

the narrative won. not completely. not the way it was originally meant to. but in the end javier ended up as the lone protagonist who watched his loved one die before his eyes.

only then was it satisfied and allowed javier to leave its grasp. only then was he allowed to become a person and not just the main character.

a person who could spend a lifetime with all of his loved ones and when the time came, die peacefully in his sleep, knowing at least the person he came to care the most about will outlive him. at least this time, he won't be the one left behind.

#i talk a lot <3 #tged #the greatest estate developer #tged spoilers #javier asrahan #lloyd frontera #i always thought the ending of tged was kinda weird #cause it felt like the main issue wasn't really addressed?? #like. everything lloyd accomplished was still there. his soul was there. his rp his titles his effects his summons his abilities #everything was still there. why would the body he was in be the problem?? he's still the same person that disrupted the fate of the world #does that mean that if he had isekai'd in his own body the restoration of fate wouldn't have been an issue?? #he could've changed the plot in its entirety and fate wouldn't have had a problem with that?? #so personally i think his death. the even itself. had more to do with it than anything. #him dying was like. a trigger event for fate to be satisfied. #it couldn't stand having two protagonists and all of its plot disrupted. so when one of them died leaving the other one with 'tragedy' #it counted it as good enough and finally stopped trying to give the main character the tragic backstory and traumatic events #he was meant to go through. #does that make any sense to anyone. does it. #anyway it does to me so that's my headcanon ajshdksda #can you tell. i like metanarratives. and fate as a character onto itself. #can you tell i come from the [OMITTED] fandom ajhdjaadsf

[petorahs]

personal opinion i dont think akechi's a tsundere i feel like he's just inexperienced in receiving genuine deep intimate affection from someone he values. his first response was to turn away and run you'd be kinda hard pressed to see him flustered in any capacity actually. bro would literally rather die than be seen vulnerable 😭

#the only standout flusteredkechi moment that we had in the game was that one (1) time at the cultural festival. #takoyaki moment #i think thats thte only time we see him humbled so to speak #the only time he was socially awkward in some way #otherwise hes nearly in control and calm with his emotions all the time #even when he's in a trigger happy murderous state (3rd sem metaverse) he still makes sense and keeps his wits about him #he's always been tactical #when during darts he scold u for telling him to be calm cause he's 'always calm' its true! he really is #i think thats why i think he gets genuinely embarrassed after the engine room breakdown lol help he did Not mean to do that #anyway point is #akechi is goated #at many points in the story it was eerie how in control of his emotions he was #he got so far in life due to being flawlessly pragmatic 😨 burying his true emotions and all. no one could ever do it like him #as opposed to joker wearing his heart on his sleeve kinda. #calm as he is joker makes it a point to be himself regardless if hes cringefail nerd in the eyes of society like none of that was faked. #his joker persona is just him being a theatre kid. #akechi the type to correct someone like #'im actually a psychopath not a sociopath ^.^ theres a difference' #what a mesmerizing character #goro akechi #aishi.docx #aishi.txt #literally just my take on him though i think hes so complex i learn more quirks to his character day by day

[shepards-folly]

Like an angel crushed underneath god’s boot [+ wip images under the cut]

#shep arts #content smp #csmp #arathain #mason arathain #tw eyestrain #cw gore #<- its very mild I’d say. i kinda just fucked up one of their arms... in my defense it was annoying to draw so I just didnt draw part of it #the eyestrain isnt too bad either in my opinion i just wanted to tag it just in case #honestly just tell me if this needs more tws I'm awful at knowing what I need to trigger warning and what I dont #okay uh art rambling time so i made him a bug for this one honestly just cause i thought it looked neat #this was a really fun for a drawing that took like an hour to sketch and a million years to finish #it's just an experiment in coloring a lil different and using layer styles other than multiply and add... #there are add and multiply layers in there if i remember correctly but its mainly color/linear burns and hard/soft light i think #fun fact there was supposed to be more paint but uhm I got lazy and it was already a pain trying to balance the values on this one #so yeah its just the pink splatter behind his head there. imagine that there's more pink paint there for me pretty please #I have a dozen versions of this with various overlay layers will probably end up adding those to this post in a rb or something #this post was supposed to go up earlier but yeah I was comparing overlays for like two hours... #honestly im surprised my procreate didnt crash in the middle of this since it crashes everytime I do anything with a lot of overlays #it did die immediately after I finished it though so then I had to wait several hours to just sign the damn thing :/

[queenlua]

during my bird walk this morning it was so crazyfuckincold outside that all the grass n such was still choked with hoarfrost

which looked so metal that i, who know nothing about photography, was compelled to snap these photos b/c hell yeah

#kinda rare for it to get this cold here! #even rarer for it to be this CLEAR #anyway we saw a kingfisher get a fish and then a crow steal it from him #and also enough hooded mergansers that ebird triggered its Are You Fucking Sure routine #so 10/10 morning glad i wore like four layers

[plsleafmelon]

kay seems like all the 5th (or is it 4.5... idr anymore hais) anniv stuff on cn is out and zuo les kit looks sick as hell (or smth id use at least) man will have a very pretty place in my roster. shu on the other hand... man suiknights is expensive bro dont do this to me

#i barely have all the siblings to trigger her talent #idh nian so its like gang gang hao 3 sui sibs #everyones complaining that its expensive and ya they r so right i hope i get a free sui sib (cope) #the skins are surprisingly neat tho #new skin brand drop: devotion (for vday) #harmonie now has huge badabonkandokoners and arene looks like a toxic yaoi ml #100% building arene just so i can use that skin cos its so pretty #chongyues skin looking kinda eh tho not a fan rly #lin cant see too well so ig ill just wait till the sprite drops ig #so hyped for zuo le ngl i wish i cld get him too..... #gotta wait for that 6 months again

[rivalsilveryuri]

let’s him walk around on my palm

ruby and sapphire

#VOICEMAIL #funny 2 me that viz just. made his reoccuring...........bathroom joke into him pourign a can off of rooftops. but everyone else is still #reacting like he's killing someone while he's likr 'i love recycling :)' and emptying a can of pepsi or somethign #sorry that its what first comes 2 mind with him. #but i DO like emerald.... he's kinda the only hoenn dexholder i ... like??????????????? not in the way i DONT like the other 2 i just don't #have much 2 say on them. but also because reading rs may actually trigger my ptsd i think. a little. ummm. so i dont remember basically any #of rubys half.. i remember saphs just fine thoguh. but yeah what was i on about. umm. oohhh yeah i like emerald thr best #kinda makes me mad how people just infantilise him and look over. basically everythign about him. like his sibling relationship with crys #+ his backstory + the shit under the surface for the way he acts.. #+the interaction they have as a trio because i find it kind of fascinating but its honestly the shortest amount of time 2gether a trios had #idk. it feels likr 2. people out there are actually interested in *emerald* himself #and everyone else just likrs. ............how everyone else sees him in universe.... and the rest see him how emerald wants to be seen. idk #always shy about character analysis cause i always worry im pulling at nothign and cooking nothing but i feel decently confident that- #-thats the whole point of emeralds character and his childhood and behaviour n etc. #i have NOT read oras though. umm. heard mixed things about it but who knows. itll take me 50 years 2 get there n e ways... #also emerald and wally. wish they interacted at LEAST cmon. unless ive brain fogged it but whateva........ #how did me talking about piss jokes turn into character analysis

[skeletons-in-ur-closet]

i wish i was a man tbh

#i dont HATE being a woman i just dont. feel like one. #mannnn the stupidest thing fuckin triggered me abt this too #idk if u guys ever heard of everymanhybrid but its this old online horror series/arg from back in the day #i was just studying listening to a video abt it in the background and THE GUY THAT PLAYS EVAN???? im so so so jealous of him #esp later on in the series when he gets kinda jacked and starts wearing baseball caps WHY CANT THAT BE MEE??? #like wym i cant be a short skinny early 20s man in new jersey in the early 2010s???? #him and that frank iero dude. dont show me dudes from new jersey i cant take it. #idk im probably never gonna do anything abt it bc its not THAT strong 90% of the time #i mean honestly i can try looking more masc i just dont think id look good at all

[perenlop]

i wonder if age plays a part in chatot bashing tbh. bc im realizing that as i've grown up, i appreciate the nuances of chatot's character more and more and recognize that he's basically a guy who desperately needs a vacation to unwind. meanwhile i also hate watchog more and more as i age

#which is weird bc you'd think id hate him more as a kid. but no i think hes all the more pathetic to me as an adult #bc hes a guy power tripping and berating children. nd children specifically. like he specifically gets pleasure from it #hes a lot more. specifically triggering for me in that way i think #meanwhile i never got the vibe that chatot specifically gets pleasure out of what he does. i mean hes not like begrudgingly doing it #but its more neutral. like its a part of his job. hes very matter of fact. at most hes kinda snippy #and the worst thing he does also just doesnt even make sense with the worldbuilding. like... you should have apples to eat at that point #theres a restaurant you can go to #so its like a thing you can very easily write out. which i do personally lol. but you cant do that for watchog #maybe its that less ppl have that personal childhood beef with watchog the way they do chatot #echoed voice

[greenelight]

flowers   are   kind   of   a   touchy   subject   for   mason   ,   since   his   abusive   ex   was   a   florist.   roses   are   especially   a   big   no   ,   as   those   were   the   flowers   brad   always   brought   home   for   him   before   shit   got   real   bad.   any   roses   he   gets   from   shows   or   friends   he   accepts   ,   but   tosses   away   after.   his   absolute   favorite   flowers   are   snapdragons   ,   but   he   also   loves   daisies,   hyacinths   ,   pansies   &   tulips.

#˗ˏˋ ᵃᶜᵗ ᶤ· ﹙ out of character ﹚ ﹕ boba tea refill. #tbd. #roses are such a big trigger to him #even with all the progress he's made it really makes him feel #kinda sick getting roses #so yeah don't do it pls #honestly just get him a card its the safest bet but if he likes you #and trusts you he'll tell you about the roses thing & if you get him #something he likes it really makes him so happy bc it means you #listened to him & care about his likes/dislikes :3

[rebellum]

My brain, inexplicably, when my boyfriend accidentally says something that upsets me: hey you know what we should do? Be deliberately and very clearly bad and manipulative so that he leaves us. That'll show him! And also show me because I'm broken and this will serve as proof. This is a very logical conclusion to me being upset.

#so obvs i wont do it #but like. in my defense for the extreme reaction #he accidentally kinda implied its my own fault for getting triggered by someone i follow reblogging rape kink stuff #he did NOT mean to at ALL like all he knows is that i saw an upsetting post not the specifics #like I just need to talk to him about it #but later when my brain is less whirlwindy.

[weenhands]

everytime i want a ryan profile pic while speedrunning my photo gallery through tumblr icons i remember ryan promising us three times that we'll have music on the way. after the demos dropped, sometime during 2016 when he'd release snippets on instagram, and during the era of joining z berg's proms and interacting with his current fanbase. Three times. in ten years.

#my past has ruined me so much that i have to ask. people to not say “i promise ill stay” it really triggers me now #lo and behold the last person who kinda stepped over that request ended up breaking it #but ryan is proof that people may not keep promises! im still holding hope years later but cmon boy!!!! cmon!!!!!!! its so radio silent!! #i know he needs to protect his peace cause the internet is crappy and with the stuff going on with brendon recently #people Wlll bring up panic!/brendon to him more often #but some jams :( just one...even just one #im gonna put on youre invited because of this actually

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Not liking Naruto as a character is a big red flag for me tbh

#it tells me u r not watching bc u want a show abt love and empathy saving the day #listen i was watching a video ranting abt naruto calling him lazy and entitled and stupid #and im like. how. how do u see something so different from me? #maybe i just get triggered bc naruto has neurodivergent energy and when ppl call him lazy and stupid im like: no. no. his brain just works #different and no one bothers to help him understand in a way that makes sense to him. it makes me so mad #its the system that deserves ur rage. not the boy #i kinda feel the same abt boruto. like i understand how ppl could dislike him but honestly im on his side 60eps in #like he just wants his dad to show him affection and attention and the village is draining narutos soul #and im supposed to think boruto is ungrateful? after all naruto as sacrificed? this is what he gets? a miserable life? #no. boruto is right. something is wrong here and he's rightfully lashing out. #oh god. im so tired. what am i doing? sigh... #naruto ramblings