#and just... the euphoria alone

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

shoutout to space/alien movies for continuously fucking me up in the best ways

#finally got around to watching arrival #what! a! damn! good! movie!!! #was sniffling all through the ending... #im mad at myself for never watching it before #for depriving myself of an alien movie where the aliens... are Genuinely Good? #and it Ends Well? #with STELLAR time travel & concepts and oasudasfuaoa #thats my favorite stuff.... the movie checked All of my sci-fi boxes #👀aliens... great time travel... fascinating cinnamon topography... an even more fascinating plot... positive ending #like the sheer hope and euphoria pouring from the end. damn #i love movies that say 'We Are Good. And There Are Always Good People Striving To Make Things Better.' #'And Maybe We Are Not Alone In The Universe. And They're Good Too. They're Striving For Better Things Too.' #THATS CATNIP TO ME BABEY #HOPE AND LOVE AND HUMANITY BABEYYYY #rewatched interstellar for the first time since like middle school too The Other Day #quite simply! i sobbed! #sci-fi space/alien movies just hit different... #movies with expertly done time travel hit Different!!! and incredibly hard! #time travel as an act of love and hope... HOWLING AND WAILING #absolutely unprompted #on a similar vein i just finished my sw:rebels rewatch and season four #DEFINITELY fits the bill for this topic #not quite to the extent of interstellar & arrival but still... #man and im rewatching eeaao As I Type #and its already fucking me up! this movie is so good!! i know im going to feel better about existing after watching!! #MOVIES!!! MOVIES ARE SO GOOD!! I LOVE THEM!!

[kkujo]

something i don't see people talking about is the way hyperfixations come in like stages and cycles like it's not just "i'm obsessed with this thing" it's like. euphoria from finding something new and it brings you so much joy and then as that initial dopamine rush wears off you start to get more and more down and feel isolated as you start to realise that no one else cares about it as much as you do and you feel silly for being so into it and the thoughts become repetitive and boring so you get more and more depressed and lonely and then you inevitably lose the hyperfix which leaves you drifting feeling miserable and hopeless until you start the cycle again. idk if i explained this well or if other people will understand but it brings genuine phases of euphoria and straight up depression and this is why i get annoyed when neurotypicals use words like hyperfixation to describe like, an interest. bc it's not. just an interest it becomes who you are and when you lose it it's like losing yourself and you spend so much energy thinking about it that it interrupts your daily life and it's so fucking draining 👍

#like if i see one more nt being like hyperfixation this hyperfixation that SHUT UP!! YOU HAVE AN INTEREST #talk to me when you stay up until 6am every night bc you can't fucking sleep bc ur thinking about it. #talk to me when you can't process emotions in a normal healthy way because you can only relate it back to your hyperfix #paired w madd especially it's IMPOSSIBLE to be normal about shit i swear 2 god because the second i'm upset or lonely it's straight back to #immersing myself in another world and being someone else and not facing my emotions instead letting 'someone else' deal with them #not just negative emotions yk it's anything it's fully immersive to the point i end up not knowing exactly who i am myself bc i'm rarely #myself in my head yk #and it's so isolating #and this is why i get mad when people use these terms lightly bc they don't fucking get it #oh you're hyperfixated? oh you're delusional? you're delulu? watch this #< guy who has delusions that all of his friends secretly hate him bc he's too insane abt xyz media and who feels alone bc no one else is as #into it even though it wouldn't be reasonable to expect them to be #like i'm constantly questioning whether all my friends are secretly against me & finding me annoying anytime i talk about it but it's fine #it's so fucking isolating #i'm not losing my hyperfix yet thank god but i am in the stage of like realisation where the initial euphoria has worn off and i'm like #fuck no one else gets it. no one else is thinking about it like i am. and it's so lonely #< like not to sound like 'i'm 14 and no one gets me' or i'm not like other girls or whatever 😭 #it's not me being dramatic i genuinely. know that no one else is spending every waking moment thinking about the things i am the way i do #and it's so incredibly depressing i can't even explain it in a way that will make sense #because i want to talk about it so fucking bad and i can't. even to my friends and gf who always listen i end up feeling annoying #and then i get genuinely delusional not like tiktok girl voice delulu like i genuinely start questioning my entire reality #just if i talk about something a little too much #bc i'm convinced i'm fucking annoying and no one gets it and they're thinking bad things about me #but i know they wouldn't. but it feels like they are #idk #anyways !

[risingshards]

Blehhhhhh

#why do people reply to posts to be mean and weird #like just leave my euphoria post alone plz lol 🙃 #chira is still a highly emotional softie 2k23 #would it be a self own to just delete annoying replies

[encrucijada]

hey actually co-writing stories is what humans were meant for (<- doing that as i type this)

#if you work alone that's fine but i hope you experience the euphoria if telling a story with someone #fluffy and i have like 4k words of lupine trail rn (and it's just the rp not even the actual manuscript) #teddy and i are gonna novelise a mari&theo au #just... writing stuff with people is so fun #pia.txt

[armafidelium]

do you ever just sit back and just...

i think i may just somewhat like drawing aphelios

#● ☾ ⭑ 𝗠ᵒᵒᶰˡᶤᵍʰᵗ ᵛᶤᵍᶤˡ ( ooc ) #// wwwww ignore me i'm just laughing at how much i've drawn him in the last few weeks alone #// so not only is he hella sparking my writing inspo but he's been a major artistic inspo too #// and don't ask how much i've played him in game when given the chance #// wwww will probs delete this later but i had to chuckle at myself #// there's just smth abt him that sparks euphoria in me #// makes all them happy chemicals go brrrr

[robotwrangler]

Playing nothing but Bugsnax and Warframe for the rest of my life to live out the fantasy of being lovingly called a they/them unprompted by everyone who crosses my path

#I alllllways notice when they do this in a game and I know it’s just so they don’t have to put in some dumb gendered system for stuff #or record two different sets of voice lines for he and she #but it’s also literally the only time I get referred to as they & im so starved for that euphoria that it rlly hits hard #in warframe Lotus will be like ‘leave them alone!’ and I’m like. thanks mum 🥺 #or Ordis will be like ‘the operator would never do something selfish! they’re far too kind and noble~!’ or smth #and then in Bugsnax everyone does it but ESPECIALLY Filbo #he will be like ‘I found this cool journalist and they’re my bestie now’ or whatever #idk man it’s almost 6am and this is definitely a silly ramble it just made me unexpectedly happy today

[bpdamandayoung]

how do you call that feeling in bpd where you want to cut your hair, get a tattoo, have sex with strangers, throw out everything you own, start a new religion, cut contact with everyone you know and start a new life in a different city?

#i know it's not mania bc i'm not diagnosed with bipolar but i just want to know if there's a word for that #like when everything is like moving super fast and you feel like a different person #please tell me i'm not alone in this it's not euphoria bc it feels different to when i'm just so fucking happy my heart hurts #it's not necessary a good feeling it's like if i don't do something like that i'm gonna explode #best pussy disorder #depression and stuff

[elenacarey]

Ok so I know in fics where Ash is aged up and well over the age of 18, the popular pairing is Ash and Cassie. BUT HEAR ME OUT… what about aged up Ash and Maddy?

#euphoria #Maddy Perez #am I alone in this? #just think about it

[cryptic-michael]

I can't get over meeting the cool cashier at the little Cafe like place I went to yesterday, like ahh he was the vibes THE VIBES!!! small town win babbyyyyy!!!

YIPPEEEEEEE WHAAAAAAA!!!🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

#theres NOTHING BETTER than getting told you look androgynous like LETS GOOOO YES HOMIE FUCK YEAAAAH!!!! #theres somthing so nice like really y'all its so good for me mentally to hear that #becuse ive been feeling very down about gender lately and just all and so getting told that let alone seeing it in public is soooo just so #soooo good for me #it was so nice even if i was a little awkard and half asleep it was sooo nice #gender euphoria is meeting another alt trans guy in your town and bonding instantly #over just fashion and transness #gender go brrrrrrrrrr #💕🎉💕🎉💕🎉🎉🎉🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉💕🎉💕🎉💕🎉💕 #trans rights! tiny town said we got gays that are closeted #trans #transmasc #trans guy #transgender #i feel inspired and happy again maybe ill write a little lavender cowboy

[picturesque-score]

being trans is such a joke i want to crawl out of my skin

#i just #sigh #feel like im not a real guy idk #multiple trans friends have said i have passing privilege then i get sheher’d in public a whole bunch suddenly the next day #and it’s like what am i supposed to believe anymore? i feel like at this point people are just being nice #i even am open about identifying more with trans guy and less neutrally than i used to with my friends from old uni and they address me in- #-jokes and conversation as though im just Girl Lite and it seriously throws me for a loop. they dont even use he for me #then it makes me wonder how much i even align with they pronouns these days #anyway the point is like. if i dont pass idk why people would say i do #it’s a fine line because i pass in cosplay somehow but not in real life and the comedown from the euphoria of being addressed correctly all- #-day hits HARD and makes me wanna. cry to the front bottoms. i feel like everyone will see me as Girl Lite no matter how masc i align myself #im stressed too bc im going home and my mom also just views me as Girl with Boy name and i will have to readjust to being fully addressed- #-like a girl and misgendered carelessly and fucking deadnamed and i cant #and i was tbh way hotter as a scene girl and i feel like im giving pathetic child these days #god im fucking depressed why am i stuck like this #i know this is long btw.. can anyone else relate? feeling alone and small. idk #trans #transmasc #vent #rant

[six-demon-bag]

man when i learned some people get post-migraine euphoria and im once again stuck with bonus depression…. 🫠

#it’s just so rude #I have enough depression already brain #leave me alone #does the suffering need more suffering #I even get it when I have mild migraines #migraine #headache #sixdemon nonsense #surprise euphoria would probably freak me out tbh #too close to mania #tho there’s something to be said for mania vibes without the mania

[aguacerotropical]

GOT BACK HOME

#With mcdonalds !!! #Also new gender euphoria just dropped: grown burly men amazed i just drove the whole island alone lol #i just put the Mecano / Juanes / Luis Miguel playlist and i can drive for hoooooours

[salvatcrechild]

       ❛   how  can  you  expect  someone  to  love  you  if  you  can’t  love  yourself.   i’m   tired  of  seeing  you  going  back  to  him,  dumbing  yourself  down  for  him.    constantly  getting  yourself  H U R T  because  you  go  seeking  guys  like  nate  who  will  only  love  you  as  a  prop,  instead  of  fully  loving  you  for  who  you  are.   i  love  you,  madeleine.    i  love  you.   but  i  can’t  be  here  for  you  anymore––  i  can’t  push  down  my  feelings  whenever  you  need  a  shoulder  to  cry  on.   so  i’m  going  to  go.   yea,  i’m  going  to  go.   ❜

jacob salvatore && maddy perez euphoria: season 2 episode 1 @depictedmorada

#depictedmorada #✨ ′ i'm alone and that's all there is to it ⦗ musing ⦘ #✨ ′ como la flor–– tanto amor ⦗ maddy perez ⦘ #✨ ′ i'm just a lost boy from neverland ⦗ vanity ⦘ #✨ ′ let me be the sun that shines on you–– like the sun that shines on the rose ⦗ otp; jacob and maddy ⦘ #✨ ′ what kind of fucked up episode of degrassi is this ⦗ euphoria ⦘ #✨ ′ the heart will stretch a short love into long memories ⦗ otp ⦘ #✨ ′ this is the look i'm going for ⦗ aesthetic ⦘

[sixftinsnow]

😐 .

#i need whoever said ‘if you’re a fan of heartstopper you need to watch heartbreak high’ to stay as far away from me as possible #these shows aren’t remotely on the same level #i celebrate hbh for its diverse cast— for sure #but they’re still two entirely different shows #i would sooner say ‘if you’re a fan of netflix’s sex education you need to watch heartbreak high’ #or ‘if you’re a fan of euphoria you need to watch heartbreak high’ #cause at least those shows have more in common than just taking place in high school #heartstopper is a different show entirely to heartbreak high #and i really watched it just cause someone said that #i should have known better and while i did watch it in its entirety it was so deeply upsetting #leave something that is genuinely wholesome alone and not recommend something without the list of trigger warnings #disrespectfully #i guess the moral is don’t take recommendations from people online #at least heartstopper is a show made for teens who are teens #also as self aware as netflix wants to be hbh really failed on its memo of trying to ‘show healthy examples’ it’s just crude and dramatic #oddvents