#and let me know if your name is wrong

[heeha-must-die]

oh to be a narratively doomed jo(h)n

#i have way too many favourite characters named john #i mean i don’t know what the hell is wrong with all of them #i guess if your name is john you just automatically get a lifelong subscription to all sorts of paranormal and/or simply messed up #things #like just let me check real quick #we have jon sims #john ward #john marston is not that bad but still traumatized #and uh /looks at smudged writing on the back of the hand/ #the spit from atsv #i don’t even want to talk about literature #just wanted to say jonathan harker didn’t deserve all of this #and johnny joestar RIGHT #i don’t even know why i made this post #traumatized jo(h)n club

[birb--birb]

What kind of love are you?

Violet: Love as a Threshold

Your love does not ask for much. Your love does not take. Your love is free, and unquestioned, and here for wherever needs it. When you fall in love, it is as gentle as a breath in the night. It is quiet, and it is effortless. It is tender. If your love was a house, it would readily welcome all who come through. If your love was a hearth, it would warm the hands of whoever stopped by, whether for a day, a month, a year, or forever. When you fall for someone, it is without strings, without conditions, without need. You love for the sake of loving, for the sake of caring for those who need it. You love with a giver’s heart and a giver’s hands and are made so much stronger for it. Being loved by you is to always feel at home. Your love may not always be well-received by those unprepared to linger, but it is unforgettable all the same

The second I saw this answer for Violet I knew it was perfect. Their entire romance with Astarion was about patience. Waiting for him to realize that he's truly safe with them, that they doesn't expect anything from him, that he is in the lead here and they'll follow only when he's ready and okay. And waiting without judgement, Violet knows these things take time and they were more than willing to wait, to be there, to just sit and exist with him while he figures shit out. And when he truly let Violet in, I like to think it was like with a comforting sigh, the feeling of coming home, that feeling when all pressure is lifted and you can just *exist* without fear, without judgement.

Violet has seen violence and hatred and yet chooses to show up for those they love as a place of calm and stability, without judgement, without expectations. Violet's love is patient, it doesn't expect anything back but will give you everything just because we all deserve to feel warmth and safety. They feel so much warmth in their heart that they were able to help Astarion get to a place where he feels safe. I think even if they didn't fall in love or end up together, Violet would have still shown up for him in the same way. They know what suffering is like, they've gone through enough of it themselves and come out the other end alive. They know how much it hurts, but also how much easier it is with someone to lean on.

tagged by @cleric4vampire ty for enabling so many feelies about my bbys

Tagging: @justabiteofspite and @dragon--sage (I know yall were already tagged but doing so again for funzies cause I'd love to hear about your Tavs/Durges) and anyone who wants to join in, please do!!

#I kinda went off in the tags I'm so sorry (not really) #oc #Violet #Tav #astarion x tav #bg3 #I know this is about my astarion romance but I'm constantly thinking about violet and halsin also #how quiet and strong their love was #violet and halsins love would be like your parent tucking you into bed after you fell asleep on the couch watching late night tv #but they both knew a romantic relationship would be selfish #theres no way in hell violets monogamous dont get me wrong but they wanted and needed very different things #violet's warlock patron isnt like mizoura but they do have orders and a contract still #so i like to think they have this sadness of what could have been #but also joy for what they both have now especially after the epilogue party #the epilogue gave me so many feelies about them yall I cried #I remember going through Cazadors dungeon and just thinking about the absolute pain violet felt seeing how much astarion was suffering #they wanted to just protect him destroy everything burn it all down anything to make him stop hurting #but they knew he had to face this. and they didn't let him walk away from it #sometimes love is facing the hard things #sometimes its calling your sins by name #but the key is that patience again #you can't force someone to get over their trauma- recovery is not linear #and it doesn't make him any less worthy of love #boys got a lot to unlearn but violets not gonna push him away because of it #they're really fucking proud of him #and I know they're out there finding weirdo artifacts and exploring the shit outta faerun together #Astarion

[k-phoenix]

hello! i would love to hear the rant about PET scans :3

Holy shit so okay I'm in the train for the next 20 minutes, and I _know_ that's not enough time to get into all of it, but I could rant about this for hours, so. Maybe we cap this at 20 minutes. [20 minutes later] Okay so I wrote a huge wall of very boring text that barely started getting into it, so let me provide way less detail, actually:

It is massively expensive. A PET scanner costs a lot. And it's not a one time purchase, and then you can do scans, no, you wish. You also need some very expensive equipment to create radioactive tracers (which are what is used to do a PET scan) on site, because that stuff needs to be created fresh (under an hour) before every scan. To create the tracers is ALSO incredibly expensive. A single PET scan costs multiple thousands.

This also means that PET research makes use of as few participants as possible. A study with 15 participants is considered big. You simply cannot infer from 15 participants to the whole population. This also means that, statistically, it is highly likely that you don't find an effect even though it exists - meaning if your PET study looks for the effect of A on B, it is highly likely that it will find that A has no effect on B even though it does - simply because you didn't have enough participants (if this explanation doesn't make sense, let me know, and I can explain in detail)

This, together means, that an absolutely absurd amount of money is used for research that, by design, will not find results, because to find results, they would need more participants and even more money.

Because scientific publishing is a shitshow at the moment, research that doesn't find results very rarely gets published, especially not if you can't even be sure whether the result is right. So absurd amounts of money put into research that doesn't even get published.

And I haven't even talked about the results they did find and issues with them. Don't ask me to explain those. Don't tempt me to put hours into writing a multiple page essay that nobody will read.

So, in conclusion: PET is an absolutely amazing feat of engineering that is magnificent in detecting cancer and with it we could learn so. Much. More about the brain and how it works. But to do that, a lot of the basic organisation of how we do science would first need to change. Many labs would have to collaborate and be okay with making the collected data openly available, so appropriate sample sizes (=numbers of participants in a study) can even be achieved (Here's a paper on that). That probably won't happen, though.

Now, obligatory note: one of the professors who taught me about PET is a man who wrote an extremely controversial paper about exactly this stuff, despite also using PET in his research. If you like niche drama in science, look into this paper and all the articles that are responding to it.

#answers #thank you so much for the question!!! #i tried to not go into too much detail and still make sense but let me know if I should explain something better! #don't get me wrong. PET is amazing. we could learn so much with it #but also. i could not do PET research with good conscience because currently it is a waste of a shitton of money #god I wish though. it is such an absolutely cool method. #like - you can look at fucking dopamine. straight up. not just at brain activity but the actual neurotransmitters!!! #that's cool as hell!!!!! #I fucking dream of that being possible and also FEASIBLE #damn reading over this after I hit post and reading 'let me provide WAY less detail actually' and then a long ass post #me @myself: damn man you gotta take your adhd medication #also if you click one of the last two links. I know my profs name is very... unfortunate. #please don't mention his full name in my notes though. i don't want him to google his name and find my tumblr or something #personal #neuroscience

[fairybluedreams]

Hi y'all! Here is my finals campaign on why you should vote for Nani Pelekai in the @eldest-sibling-tournament today!!

Edited to add***

Poll just dropped vote Nani today!

https://www.tumblr.com/eldest-sibling-tournament/712608371217481728/eldest-sister-tournament-final-round

#polls #eldest sibling tournament #eldest sibling poll #nani pelekai #Lilo and Stitch #Lilo & Stitch #propaganda #campaigns #i've been working on this since a little before the sokka tournament #thinking the sokka and ed rounds were going to be neck and neck #and i was very wrong girl swept everytime #i'm so sorry sokka and ed y'all are wonderful siblings and deserve more respect on your names #anyways i was torn over finishing it or not cuz it felt kinda pointless since she's crushing her opponents with no help but i mean like #i already spent so much time on it so now y'all get to see it too #if this actually influenced you to vote for nani and you decide to reblog this please let me know in tags #cuz the sheer number of votes on the katniss-grayson poll was in the 10000s+ and that's wild compared to the notes on nani polls #also if y'all need me to copy paste the text from the slides under a read more or something for easier reading let me know #i don't mind doing it if there's a demand but it's is also 3:30 AM as i am typing this and scheduling this post for tomorrow #so i just couldn't do it when i was queuing this up i'm v tired #ok thanks byeeee #actual memes to come later depending on how voting seems to be going

[madametamma]

I’ve seen a few ‘Danny has kids with powers’ fics and when I do there’s usually one thing that bothers me.  The kids’ names. The fic writer will often give the kid a name that doesn’t roll off the tongue as well as ‘Danny Phantom’ does.  Also the initials often don’t work well with any modified DP logo.  The worst offender of this is Hartman’s fanfic where he gave Danny’s son the name ‘Jackson’.  Jackson Phantom doesn’t roll off the tongue, and he designed the kid with the DP logo, not even trying to modify it into a JP logo.

#Danny Phantom #nitpick #I'm just ranting you don't have to listen to me #Butch didn't even TRY to design a JP logo for the kid #Granted I don't know how to make a JP logo reminiscent of the DP logo look as cool or clever #but he could have at least tried. #I'm not trying to disparage any fic writers and I hope nobody will take this little rant the wrong way #There are still 'Danny has kids' fics that I like #don't let me discourage you from writing them if that's your bag #I just personally really like clever names and I've yet to come across a 'Danny's kid' where I heard the name and thought 'That's perfect!'

[aroacedavestrider]

where in the world do you live where you call it a hydroslurp???? that is a WATER FOUNTAIN

original poll by @t4tfaggot

#poll #ask #anonymous #dave speaks #you people are like 'omg the autism website' and 'cringe culture is dead' #but when youre faced with someone who may potentially call smth an unconventional name?? ohhh fucker #you guys just have to let them know how inordinately stupid they are huh? over terminology? #like 'ohh its a joke' even if its not a joke why the hell are you all being so condescending over this #and the funniest thing is op of the og poll did this as BAIT #as an EXAMPLE of how people overreacted on that fucking ice cream cone poll!! #and the exact same thing is happening to them now #if youve been an asshole to anyone over a terminology poll i have one question for you: what is wrong with you #and dont tell me im being too harsh on anon. i truly do not care

[dix-rose]

I just want to make it clear that you can like an artist and still criticize their actions

#stupid shit #I’ve been thinking a lot about Miss swift #and yes I know she doesn’t think about me so let’s get that out of the way #but I’ve been thinking a lot about her #and I’m willing to admit that there was a time in my life where I would defend anything that she would do #and it’s embarrassing #because I was an adult at the time #and it was at a time where I felt like everything in my life was crumbling she was just. the first source of comfort #I guess like it felt like it was owed #but I’m glad I’ve come to my senses and realized that nobody is a perfect human being #and putting someone on a pedestal is wrong #and there are PLENTY of things that she has done wrong in her life #not gonna name the entire list but I want to highlight the carbon emissions #it’s okay to say! hey!!! that’s wrong!!! she shouldn’t do that!!! #it doesn’t make you any less of a fan! #it’s actually kinda refreshing in a way #like a weight off your shoulders when you step back and realize that you can still like the art and criticize the wrongdoings #and saying that doesn’t mean you hate her #you can still accept that she cares about certain things and people #or that you respect her for the passion she puts in her work #I think I’m just trying to say it’s okay to not agree with everything your favorite artist does

[new-eyes-extra-colors]

Is Shaun Nora's child? If so, does she view X6 as family due to his closeness to Father, or just as a friend?

shaun is nora's biological child, yep, and post-institute when asked she says she has two sons (referring to shaun and synth!shaun--but a minor plot point in my fic is that she doesn't tell anyone about synth!shaun being a synth. if pressed for details, she just says her eldest passed away recently and that typically shuts down any further questions).

oh, edited to add bc i don't think i was clear: she treats synth!shaun as a son too. she takes to him straightaway. he's still a child who views her as his mother, and she still wants to be a parent. they have a good relationship.

she does view x6 as family, but in a found-family sort of way that doesn't have anything to do with them sharing dna. she thinks shaun calling himself "father" is extremely--i think paternalistic is the right word, and she emphatically does not approve. she feels family is a lot more than genetic material, and so is parenthood, which relates back to her family situation mentioned here.

she and x6 grow close as they work together and kind of outside the bounds of father's knowledge. x6 is a smart guy and figures out nora's still working for the railroad, and for his own reasons keeps it to himself, and nora's aware that if she actually reported how snarky and independent x6 is, he'd be sent to reconditioning. so their relationship is tense for a while, but eventually grows genuine and very close.

i think outside of nick, x6 is the companion she's closest with by the end of things.

#okay if it is not clear who i am talking about please please let me know #the curse of having two characters with the same name. augh #...you might have been asking about synth shaun as the shaun in your ask?? oh boy. #anyway i have so many thoughts about x6. he's the best courser because he's good at what he does and he believes in the institute #which makes him the worst courser because the fact that he CAN believe in them tears down everything they say about synths being people #like. if even your most elite agents work for you ONLY because you've brainwashed them into doing so #are your takes REALLY valid? nah #<- that's the extremely simple version but i think i could write an essay on how x6 is proof the institute is wrong and they can't see it #...or a longwinded fanfic. or a tag novel dear god #tysm for the ask!! i will talk about my synth and x6 and shaun and father headcanons ALL DAY i swear #the relationship between sole and their son is another reason i'm writing this honestly. like. loving someone who is objectively a horrible #person is something that... well #it's something. #it's tough. #autumn.fic #fic: until dawn #autumn.oc #oc: nora navarre

[maxellminidisc]

That O'Malley excerpt made me immediately think of this one dude I used to be friends with from my old days in shoegaze tumblr who couldn't get with me despite so much unwanted "courting" and instead of just dealing with rejection like a normal person, he was like "Being 24 and dating a high school sophomore is a great idea." And then insisting he was sooo Scott Pilgrim really cements that quote for me...

#i immediately cut him off after that #and tried talking to that poor girl and neither she OR HER FUCKING PARENTS saw anything wrong with it #he married her before she even graduated and her parents gave them permission #i only found out after checking on her and she actually recently let me know they divorced and she just wanted to say #that she was grateful she had people who cared enough to warn her and i was like 😢😢 #he's a bike messenger and every day i pray he gets hit by a car...and dies this time LMAO #and yes he used to fucking compare me to ramona flowers ALL the fucking time... #if youre in chi town let me know and ill tell you the fuckers name...

[whosplayerthree]

Me, a jew, the moment podcast hosts mention something even jewish adjacent

#Op #Jumblr #It has gone wrong too many times #Please let me just enjoy a single podcast without goyim nonsense #At this point I'd rather you just not mention us #Even if it isnt outright hateful it is like oh my God shut up #I know people won't learn unless corrected #But please let me enjoy things. I'm tired of dropping things because they are ruined by dumbassness #Even if it is just 'So the name of God to jews is---' NO IT ISNT. 'Apparently you aren't even supposed to say it because it is rude' #THAT ISNT THE REASON.. IT IS UNKNOWABLE AND THAT ISNT EVN THE NAME. #'Some jews even are afraid to write the word God' #THAT ISNT THE REASON WHY SOME JEWISH PEOPLE DONT WRITE OUT THE FULL WORD.. YOU FOOL. YOU WHO SPEAKS FROM YOUR ASS #Why are you even talking about this?????? You are a podcast by a historian and a layman talking about #proving common claims of aliens from stuff like ancient aliens tv show as not aliens #With historical context and stuff #You are just supposed to talk about how things are probably not aliens #Stick to your topic #How did you even get on this #Leave us alone #Goyim gonna goy #Its just. Instant fight flight freeze mode activated as soon as I realize we are mentioned #Mixed with a dash of dread

[emile-hides]

If you could make only ONE fairy tail ship of yours canon with the magic of your brain which ship would it be? Please ramble. 💚

Laxus/Freed no question about it. It's not even a contest.

Would I like the Levy/Lily/Gajeel polycule to be real? Yes, yes of course I would, but Gajeel/Levy is canon and that's enough for me.

Honestly out of all my Fairy Tail ships (which you can see a full list of Here on my Ship Blog) Laxus/Freed is the closest to canon, and the only one I'd think "Big Win" if it did go canon.

I've never cared much about a ship I like going canon anyway. It doesn't effect much other than the amount of people talking about it.

Honestly what I'd rather do is uncanon some ships.

Number 1 being Erza/Jellal. I have such a thing against Jellal and I apologize he deserved his redemption I'm glad he didn't just like. Die or vanish into obscurity but like! I hate the idea of him and Erza being a canon couple with children some day!! Hate it!! It puts a bad taste in my mouth. I hate being negative tho so I'm not gonna ramble about it too much...

You know what else I want to uncanon?? The ship that floats the whole damn story; Zeref/Mavis

I hate it I hate it I hate it so much I hate how fanon treats it all cute and shit when it's probably the canon most Dead Dove do Not Eat kind of content canon has given us. I don't hate it because it's Dead Dove, that's actually what's holding it together for me, what I hate about it is how integral to the plot it is, how True Love it's treated, how sweet and tragic and twisted by fate it's treated.

It's not! Any of those!! It's a 400 year old man falling in love with a 13 year old girl and yes she's 20 Years Old when he actually realizes what he feels is love but she's still!! Physically!!! Thirteen!!! That's the Point Of The Curse!!! And then!!!!! He impregnates her!!!! AFTER HE THINKS SHE DIES!!!! HELL-FUCKIN-O????

I LOVE Zeref, and I really like Mavis too, I love The Curse Of Contradiction inflicting them both, I love the twisted "love" Zeref feels for Mavis, I love his desperation to find something to love to cling to project on to to save him to fix him to make him feel human again, I love Mavis' bleeding heart, I love Mavis' desire to save Zeref to fix Zeref to make him whole because she's so ful lof love for the world around her and she can see he's suffering and need someone anyone to help him

I think they're story is wonderfully dark. I think Zeref's obsession with her is something I'd very normally adore reading about, but the way it's treated in canon and fanon as a wholesome romance lovers torn apart by fate Romeo and Juilet Bella and Edward bullshit really ruins the whole thing.

Zeref/Mavis is really fucked up and I think we should treat it as such. Not in a boo hate the artist hate the shippers way but in a fun acknowledgment of Dead Dove content way.

#Fairy Tail #Thankyou for asking #That got rambly but in the wrong direction sorry #I have very strong feelings about both Jellal and Zeref #Jellal tho is a rant for another day #Uuuuuuuuuuh I wanna tag anti for the ships I talked about but I don't know thier ship names uuuuuuh #Anti Jerza #Anti Zervis #There #Again sorry for being so negative and weird I just #I don't like when problematic ships get boiled down all Wholesome by canon #Fanon can do whatever they want to any ship y'all have fun #But when canon writes a necrophillia plot and then passes over it to treat the ship like True Love Saves All #Yeah that. That bugs me. #August buddy I love you I love what you add but you really added a layer to Zervis that the mangaka was not ready to tackle #If you like these ships good for you if this went into your ship tag I apologize #Ship and let ship I need to get my brain empty so I apologize for my rambles #Thankyou Zayne for your ask I'm sorry I ran the opposite direction with it

[rexismycopilot]

I want Obi-Wan’s job!! He texts all day long & makes six figures 🤭🤭🤭😘

That’s all IT is, baby. If you’re doing your job right, no one will even notice you 🤫

#of course everyone will know your name when things do go wrong lol #those are the bad days #let me sit in my basement with no windows #ask #anon #obikin #fifty shades au

[florenceisfalling]

like idk. i miss seeing content from s.igne (though i respect gab wholeheartedly). i miss fanart from my favorite artists. i miss older eras of j.se at times (and yes, there were older eras, the way people pretended he Never Changed is just weird). i miss old anti designs. i miss the old fic trends. i miss having a very active fandom (though i am so happy to see the new arrivals) and i miss seeing him interact with fans the way he did on tumblr back in the day. i miss the way i used to interact with some of the blogs here before i decided to fuckin,,, wage holy war and make enemies out of them (joking, but i have seen sides to some of these people that i wish i could tear out of my memory). i miss feeling confident that i could trust the good intentions of people here and even the big man himself (not god. that makes sean sound like god. you know what i mean). i miss when some of you weren't so fucking bitter which is funny because i'm the bitterest bitch alive. idk. i don't think it's bad to miss any of these things because i'm not going to be an ass and act like it's anybody's fault. i'm not going to be bothered by gab for being happy because i'm glad she is happy, and i'm not going to get bothered by sean taking a reasonable step back from this hellsite when people were cruel to him, and i'm not going to get mad at trends for changing because that is how time works. but i do miss things and i know its cringe and parasocial and perhaps even problematic but i hate having to pretend like i never have Any feelings about the past lest i break a hypothetical rule of what is the Normal level of attachment to an online community. okay. i think i'm done now.

#one of my favorite writers left because they couldn't deal anymore and one of my favorite writers turned out to have shit views and one of #my favorite writers left because of something that was partly my fault and one of my favorite writers stopped writing because of two of the #others and one of my favorite writers hurt someone i love over and over and over and one of my favorite writers left because they were the #someone i love. two of the big names hate queer folk that don't align with their ideals and half the artists left for twitter or for dead. #the man himself left because criticism always becomes cruelty and people lie to make themselves feel good. #the editors all turned their accounts private and my favorite told me on livestream that i was good and starting somewhere but then forgot #my name. and i thought maybe i was the bitter one but then i look at some of the other people who have been here so long and wonder why #they even bother anymore because they care more about complaining with everything j.ack does than anyone who actually enjoys his stuff. #and you know i poked fun at *** for a lot of things. some deserved some not. and one of them was the fact that she compared fandom #to warfare. and yes that's still silly i don't think it's a fair comparison but i do know that she wasn't fully wrong. #when you've been here for a long time and ive Been here for a long time you start to get really used to names and faces #and the change can be like waking up to a new wallpaper in your room. not a bad one just a new one. #i don't want to pretend that this fandom is just a silly little hobby for me when lets be honest i know some of yalls personal lives a #little too dearly for that. ive loved people here ive lost people here the first person who showed me this place fucking DIED and i still #lose it sometimes over the fact that he would have loved jameson so much and we couldve been closer friends had he stayed alive a few more #years. so yeah. sorry for being fucking cringy or whatever but there have been times where i've felt like im on a sinking ship watching #everybody else row away and i refuse to go. so like. cool. cool. im glad things are good again but i never really got to process the bad #things.

[bylertruther-moved]

it’s always been extremely weird and insulting to me when people make lucas so homophobic in their headcanons or fics... like, what in the world ever gave you the idea that he would be a bigot? please, tell me what the show has ever said or done that has given you that idea. lucas, like dustin, is another character that gets bullied specifically for something that is entirely out of his control: his race. he’s one of the few black characters on the show. he’s been repeatedly bullied, harassed, and attacked for being black. why the hell do you think he would look at will, his best friend, and bully him for something that’s also entirely out of his control, aka his sexuality? what makes you think that lucas would hate will when he’s known will for almost just as long as mike has? lucas is will’s second friend ever and considering how standoffish mike can be to newcomers and the anecdotes joyce told in season two, it wouldn’t even be a reach to say that will likely recruited lucas to their party. lucas and will love each other, support each other, and have remained the best of friends throughout the entire series, their friendship never once faltering. lucas has been shown to be kind, perceptive, and caring time and time again. why do you think that he of all people would become an aggressor? a bully? why do you think that he of all people is most likely to attack someone for the simple crime of being who they are? i know why, but just... why?

#lucas sinclair #i think of lucas who just wanted to find will lucas who didn't want to leave max out lucas who ALSO biked across town in the rain to #apologize to will and then ALSO apologized AGAIN explicitly because he wanted will to know that he regretted what he did and that will's #efforts weren't bad or uncool i think of lucas who is BEGGING his friends to PLEASE support him as he's always supported them #lucas who begs his friends to PLEASE come to his game lucas who sees that max is struggling and wants to help her in any way he can #but that never once pushes her or forces her or makes her feel bad lucas lucas lucas who has so much love and heart #and care to give to all of his loved ones because he just wants them to be safe and happy and loved #because he's black you think that he'd be a terrible person? because he's black you're willing to erase all of that and paint him as a bully #???????? what the fuck is wrong with some people in this fandom bro every time i read that it takes me right the fuck out #like are you even watching the show . i know the answer is no clearly not but like . what the FUCK #u bitches DISGUST me sometimes i swear bro #being a poc certainly does not exclude u from being homophobic but like. dustin and lucas are more likely to sympathize with #will than mike. canonically speaking. let's be fucking real. lucas got bullied for his race dustin got bullied for his disability #and will got bullied for being gay. all of these are things that you cannot help. things that you're born with. things that you can't change #what did mike get bullied for? oh. right. being a fucking nerd. big whoop. #y'all know how i feel about mike but with what has been shown to us explicitly it just makes no fucking sense and i'm tired of it #keep lucas's name out of your mouth if you're gonna disrespect him like that!!!!!!!!! #my posts #my thoughts #lucas

[tardis--dreams]

For the first time ever, i failed a term paper. The lecturer opened the conversation with the words "you handed in an excellent term paper. Really, A+!" And then continued to point out to me what she liked most. And then told me that that one bitch that was tormenting me last semester had copied all of the notes i shared with her for our presentation. Which is why she can't let me pass because while she Knows it's not my fault she couldn't prove it to anyone if questioned about it. So we both fail. But luckily for me, i get another chance. The 15 minutes i talked to her were truly refreshing

#seriously it's so funny that you tell me i failed my paper and i leave in a good mood lmao #i was so scared she'd say it was bad #i would probably have been devastated of she'd told me this and this and this was bad and she can't give me anything better than a C #but we essentially just spent 15 minutes ranting about that bitch and how fucking annoying she is #(she asked me not to share that with anyone. i trust all of you will keep your discretion about this matter lol) #she even asked me if i needed help with getting that bitch to stay away from me #'prof. (name) and I KNOW about her and how difficult she is #we cannot prevent her from studying here but we monitor her closely. so let me know if she tries to use you again #WE CANNOT PREVENT HER FROM STUDYING HERE AHAHAHA #but god we wish we could #'i would never invite her to any of my office hours because i know she would never leave' #i love that lecturer again #i was a bit annoyed at her for asking me to come in because i assumed it would be because she thought my work was bad #but i almost felt sorry for this situation because she seemed so sad and sorry herself #because she kept telling me 'believe me i Know you didn't do anything wrong but i just can't prove it officially' #and then we settled for me doing the paper again and the other student just getting a fail and that she could go fuck herself essentially #(she did not use these words but god was it funny to hear her obvious dislike of that person #anyway #idk if shes in germany again or if she maybe dropped out of the program because i haven't seen her since the semester started #but i have the official permission to block her number and ignore her forever and always #(yes my friends and my mother told me to do this months ago #yes it's my fault for not doing so earlier and letting her use me like that #but it's nice to have the support of a lecturer like that) #void screams #university ramblings

[seasaltbaptism]

nina niiina nina nina i have Not been able to stop thinking about that post u made about hominy & malius where they discuss him being a god. like i cannot stop thinking about him saying that to be a god he has to be worshiped and cared for, they have to be believed in, and idk something something cannot stop thinking about the possible implications of the both of them eventually caring for each other, believing in each other, and by his definition of what it means to be a god, this makes them each others god IDK IDK i am just going crazee thinking about them and im shaking ur shoulders about it bc it's been in my head since & i wanted to SHARE !!!!!!

i am so glad we are both on this boat together bc i am always thinking about these two. i love love love your point here! ‘ both of them eventually caring for each other/ believing in each other , making each other their gods ‘ i am losing my mind at this perspective! !! HEATH you are so genius dude, like thinking about the two of them going through the motions of trying to restore malius but something something isn’t working and he’s still stuck , , , , ,

i want you to know in my original outline for this story malius doesn’t break free simply because he regains his memories , he breaks free of the sword and inhabits a body hominy chiseled ,,, i never decided if it was clay or solid stone but i had a scene written out late into the story involving some of her blood, her washing the finished piece down in fresh water , it’s a whole thing. from her hands , a new body for him was created , no mere immortal could do that , oh no that was the work of a divine ,,,,, they so intertwined they ascended above all else together it’s insane it’s all insane i love thinking about these two and the themes of rebirth , intensity, teeth, blood, loyalty, fealty , the intimacy of surrender , the destruction of each other’s enemies, the sacred act of unification physically, spiritually, if it’s true worship and care that created a god, then malius had long since created an alter space for her in his chest that he’d gladly open and show her.

#JUST THINKIng abOUT THESE TWO DRIVE ME UP A WALL IM WALKING BACK AND FORTH WAVING MY HANDS IN THE AIR #like hominy thinking she’s just getting stronger bc malius trusts her more with the piwers he has #but it’s malius loving her so fiercely he refuses to let her die he refuses to leave her body broken #he refuses to leave her alone in the valley of shadow and death #he will carry he HE does carry her #all the while it’s it’s his love and devotion to her that makes her stronger #HEATH IM THROWING THINGS #people mad with jealousy and envy and want possession of the sword bc the sword holds power right? #some people think they’ve got it figured out ‘ you must win the favor of the sword to wield its power ‘ #they’re ALL WRONG ITS THE GODS LOVE #THE GODS LOVE AND DEVOTION ( AND MAYBE BLOOD ) IS WHAT CREATES A GOD #THE AGONY OF ASCENSION SOOTHED BY HANDS STAINED WITH BLOOD BUT OH SO GENTLE AS HE ROCKS HER #HOMINY SO CAREFUL AND SERENE WITH HIS WEAKENED BODY SO UNLIKE THE MIGHTY GOD PEOPLE PRESCH ABOUT #BUT SHE KNOWS SHE KNOWS HE IS MORE THAN HE SEEMS SHE WILLS IT SO WITH KISSES FILLED WITH FRESHNESS & HONEYDEW #HEAAAAATH YOURE SO RIGHT THEY REMADE EACH OTHER THROUGH DEVOTION AND LOVE AND CARE AND TENDERNESS & BELIEF #ALSO RAGE AND REVENGE AND SLAYING EACH OTHER’S ENEMIES AND SEEKING JUSTICE IN THEIR NAMES #OH IM NEVER GOING TO BE NORMAL ABOUT THIS EVER EVER EVER EVER. #* answered #* ocs: malius and hominy #edeemir