#and like i do get that it's hard not to have expectations esp when comparing to other sports manga

[wachtelspinat]

Hey ! I’ve been seeing your art going around since your midnight crew stuff and I just recently stubble across your tumblr, thank to your beautiful overwatch art for our beloveds junkers ! I’ve been scrolling through your account and read about your experience of being a former graphic designer who is a doctor now. And damn. I can’t emphasize how much I admire you, especially as someone who is struggling really hard to choose between 2 careers paths ( with one of them being art related ). This is why I was wondering if you would be open to talk about how and why you switched from art to medecine ? Especially because most of the time I feel it happens more the other way around ? ( If it’s too personal just ignore this ask + sorry if you already talked about it before )

hey ! no worries, i don't expect ppl to scroll through my tumblr to find an answer for a question they might have. first of all thanks for your nice words, means a lot <3

i switched from art to medicine because my early 20-something-self was even more anxiety-ridden than my present-self, and being in art school and having to "perform" regularly was a nightmare. i'm talking about a time in which i was so scared of being perceived that i often skipped grocery shopping, just so i could avoid being around people. so like, pitching art related projects to peers and profs was eeh... especially because art is so personal oh my god. i still hate it when someone tries to sneak a peek while i'm drawing, makes me wanna throw my sketchbook and myself off the bridge. anyways so i always felt a 110% inadequate (plus i got a gf during that time who was so good to me and tried to get me out of my funk on multiple occasions (she was and still is an artist and has now a career as a freelancer and i'm rly proud of her) but i couldn't see that because i just compared the two of us all the time and sabotaged any attempt she made for having fun with drawing with her) that i sat down at some point and asked myself if i could do this any longer, and i came to the conclusion that no, it really kills me rn.

what made me go into the health sector? i don't even know anymore, i think it was a mixture of "i loved biology, esp. the human body in school" and "my mum is an icu nurse and talks a lot about hospitals, maybe i should check it out"... it was not a well thought through decision, which is so funny because studying medicine was a hell of a meatgrinder ride (also my anxiety and self hatred? still there, but now i wasn't judged anymore because of my art but instead being called a dumb idiot collectively with all the other students because nobody likes med students) and for some reason i was able to get through that despite it not being my passion at all, but i couldn't stand up for myself in art school. i don't even know if i could work through it nowadays, but the good thing is i don't have to ask myself this question anymore, because being a doctor pays the bills, and ever since i left art school i was able to just draw without consequence. which is nice to a degree, my artistic output is not tied to the means of generating money. on the other hand... idk, in another life with more confidence and less worries, i'd love to be some sort of character designer T_T

so yeah that's basically it. at some times i cherished my career decisions, at other times i regretted them deeply, worst thing is i know it has a lot to do with personality, but the fact that we can't change who we are with a blink of an eye gives me the framework to think that the path i took was ok. as in. things happened for a reason and maybe i'm just not cut out for that kind of work. you have to be aware of the conditions of a job to decide if you are up for it. because being an artist doesn't end with "just draw". i myself had an unrealistic view of the job back then too. and the fact that i could not seperate between personal aspects and "doing a job here" was crucial.

yeah, idk if this is helpful at all. i think the one thing that is super important here is to have a realistic view on the conditions of work you are about to head into, and i know this is mostly very difficult to aquire. because unless you really work in a sector there is often no way to fully grasp the situations you can find yourself in (this applied for me also in the health sector, which made me fall into a depression a year ago, but what do you do after you spent 6 years of studying :') ). doing internships and just trying to get to know a lot of things really helps. and - idk how old you are, but if you're really young: it's ok to switch careers at some point. it's even ok to do so when you are older (trying to end on a positive note here because it feels like i just said a lot of depressing things... like don't get me wrong i like my job, the conditions are just fucked up, and again my personality prevents me from switching again but it's also not that easy in germany, BUT it's a valid thing to do, being versatile is good! just... make sure you don't end up with a job that you absolutely hate because that kills it all)

#LONG #sorry #i'm rambling #being an adult is hard and it never ends being a work in progress

[homeofhousechickens]

Hey! I'd love to get a pet bird eventually and I've been looking at options. I think I'd love a pigeon, but the dust worries me a little esp since my partner has allergies (to cats). I also love chickens to bits, but I was wondering like. What is to be expected in terms of smell and cleaning requirements when keeping a house chicken? Sorry if this was asked previously, search seems to be broken..!

Pigeons are definitely way more dusty then chickens my 4 pigeons can coat my whole house in a layer of dust so quickly compared to my chickens but my partner is also allergic to cats but birds do not bother him at all. Regardless if you own any bird you should plan to buy a good air purifier for the health of your lungs.

Washing diapers is about the same as washing cloth diapers for babies and has about the same smell and grossness but you get used to it. I wash mine in the bathtub or sink and wouldn't throw them in the laundry so get comfortable with the idea of hand washing (while wearing hand protection of course)

Healthy chickens and pigeons themselves do not stink but their poop can, especially depending on diet and if they are broody or not. Broody poops are abhorrent and are the worst smell ever 😒 😑

Healthy pigeon poop will usually be consistent round balls with a urate cap there is usually no smell from them as they are quite dry. Morning poops and broody poops can be wet and quite gross though, let pigeons do that poop on a puppy pad before letting them out then throw away the puppy pad so you aren't killed by the stink bomb.

Chicken poop is similar but bigger and every 10 - 15 poops or so they will have a cecal poop which is a softer consistency and smells. This is because it's the food they were basically fermenting in their gut because it was harder to digest. This is also why diet influences the amount of cecal poop a chicken produces. Typically feeds high in byproducts from wheat, corn, and soy are going to have your chickens producing more cecal poop. This is because the byproducts tend to be nutrientionally poor and hard to digest plant matter. Chickens who eat more unprocessed feeds who don't have those byproducts or chickens supplemented with barely tend to have fewer messy poops and fewer cecal poops.

Chickens also love to dig and fling their food and bedding everywhere so expect to be sweeping and vacuuming daily so you don't have food crumbs all over your floor. If you only have one house chicken you probably won't need to mop every day but you should still do it often to help kill pathogens and clean up dust.

Hope this helps!

[elifinchsart]

some Tillman and Mike gender headcannons/thoughts since i have them mostly coherently typed up and they are important To Me. these are not Universal Trans Experiences just my thoughts for these characters cw for discussing transphobia, dysphoria, fatphobia & bad parents

I think Tillman absolutely did not figure out he was trans until like his early twenties. My headcannon about his mom Harmony (Crab NPC from Discipline Era), her whole thing is control + image. (This led Tillman to also feel like he needs to be in control of his image but, unfortunately it’s easier to control a bad image than a good one)

But part of Harmony's image control was appearing as a perfect rich family so Tillman was expected to dress and behave very femininely. And his thought process went “I hate wearing dresses and getting dressed up like this and I don’t know why I hate it so much. It must be because something is wrong with me and it must be because I’m ugly” + that got mixed in with his weight because I think he’s just naturally chubby/fat. So that was one of those things that’s dysphoria that you don’t realize that’s dysphoria until later. Tillman absolutely he had the trans experience of I’m going to only wear baggy hoodies and beanies lol. Anyway this all manifested into him having a very antagonistic relationship with his body and food (esp bc Harmony is v the passive aggressive “Oh you’re eating/wearing that?” sort of parent. This is also part of the reason he was nasty as a teen/young adult because he was in a lot of pain that he didn’t realize was pain-just that everything was uncomfortable and pissed him off. Figuring out that he was trans, getting top surgery and going on hrt actually helped mellow him out a lot. Being able to just Exist in his body without dressing it up to impress anyone else helped him so so much.

I think Mike was also very helpful in getting him to a better place with his body and especially food as something that should be enjoyed not rationed out or brings misery. Mike loves to make food for people so they had a bit of a roadbump when they first started dating and Tillman refused to eat much of Mike made and they had to talk about it. Mike was very patient and not pushy for once and let Tillman come around on his own. Mike also hyping Tillman up as the hottest man ever helped too LOL. I think Tillman had a lot of apprehension about transitioning wrt still being desirable which is something I’ve def felt and I know other trans men have too

I think Mike had a lot of gender emotions growing up but they never fully formed into anything understandable for him because he was like “well I’m not not a man” and he didn’t really have access to like Knowing About “Weird” Gender Identities despite knowing a trans person (Jaylen) and she only ever had Jaylen to compare to and they have very different genders haha. And then I think in college and after she kinda was like well y’know men can be feminine, men can wear dresses, it doesn’t have to be a gender thing so I’m not going to think about it too hard. I think also she had this idea that maybe she was faking it or not trans enough or people would think he was doing it for attention or to seem punk. Also incredibly stupid logic but I think she was like “I don't want to look like I'm just copying Jaylen” which is a silly thing to worry about but nevertheless. And then Blaseball happens and again he doesn’t really have time to think about it. So its only post shadowing and in therapy that she finally talks to more trans and nonbinary folks about their experiences and starts to approach it from a “what makes me happiest” pov rather than “well I'm not miserable” pov because its a very Mike thing to try to avoid being too happy as a coping mechanism. And because of all this she gets to experiment and decides he likes having a lot of gender especially if it contradicts each other (she/her pronouns on masc days, he/him while dressed femme, beard + dress etc.)

#blaseball #tillman henderson #mike townsend

[plasmasimagination]

(i hope this is the correct format now !!!! 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 its the same thing soo)

hii i would love to have a go on your match up event!! it seems really interesting … the fandom is hsr !!!

im a libra sun scorpio rising, pronouns are they/she and im a esfp! im afab omnisexual (no pref) and demiromantic.

my personality is mainly carefree, sociable and chill. i can be chaotic and talkative, but i have mood swings often and can change to a entirely different person: quiet and aloof. i appear secretive and closed off at first but i love talking to people. i appear to be extremely chaotic, childish and energetic, but i’m very mature. i don’t hesitate to help people, and i’m very independent. it looks like i don’t care about what other people say about me, but im extremely insecure about myself. i strongly desire to express myself freely, without holding back or being made fun of. i appear to be optimistic to others, but i’m a pessimist, hating on myself for whatever i do. i can be quite unstable at times and can throw tantrums sometimes, but all it takes to calm me down is giving me my favourite food. i’m very clingy as well. i’m a perfectionist, working extremely hard to make my art look nice + studying hard 24/7. i overwork a lot, to the point i forget to take care of myself. anyway my self esteem can change a lot. i can go from comparing myself to others to being confident in myself. i overthink a lot. when i get angry i appear to be sweet still, but my tone and words are very much aggressive and rude. overall im a bubbly and sociable person ^_^

MOVING ON my interests are food, art, music (esp metal & rock genre), anything cute, bizzare and unknown things, and video games. i enjoy going to arcades, shopping, going to concerts and cosplay conventions, and lastly DRAWING!!! my fashion style is jirai kei, ryousangata and subcul jirai kei. i’m learning how to play the guitar and some piano. i don’t dislike many things, i just hate cockroaches, a few bitter foods and heights. i do taekwondo and a little bit of badminton.

love language is gift giving, quality time and physical touch.. i don’t like being touched though unless i initiate it.

SORRY THIS IS SO LONG… ty and have a good day !!!! or night

HEYYY THERE CUTIEPIE sure are right on track, and so here you have your matchup, oooohhh

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DAN HENG

Talkative partner x quiet reserved boyfriend trope on TOP!

Ok ok I get it you might say he's boring, and he's this and that blablabla

But listen I think he would balance your chaotic and childish personality out without watering it down.

Is very caring of you and kind of worried when you get burned out, so he will scold you

Two pessimists meet and the world collapses of the negativity /j

I think he'd go out shopping with you, he wouldnt complain nor like say anything, just follow you along, answer questions you ask him and occasionally ask some himself

Also he will very much try to boost your confidence, he's very subtle but adds small things like "you look pretty today" "I like your jeans" "beautiful." Just like small things through out the day when he sees you

He also likes that you can be independently mature and childish when the time is right

He appreciates that a lot actually, and thinks of it as a positive trait

Also expect more quality time and acts of service from him, gift giving here and there, and least of physical touch but he will give it to you if u initiate it

#honkai star rail #hsr x reader #honkai star rail x reader #honkai x reader #honkai star rail x female reader #honkai star rail x you #honkai star rail x gender neutral reader #honkai star rail x male reader #hsr x gn reader #hsr x y/n #hsr x you #hsr x male reader #hsr x gender neutral reader #hsr x female reader #dan heng x y/n #hsr dan heng #dan heng x you #dan heng x reader #dan heng

[terriwriting]

And I got an idea for a classic SF setting where

it turns out once a civilization collects all the low fruit, technological and scientific progress grinds to a haul. As a consequence, there are million year old civilizations out there but the difference between us and them is more like Classical Rome and the US, not Homo habilis and us. There's no singularity, rockets still obey Newton, and there's barely any fusion (oddly, total conversion turns out to be a doddle and often the last thing civilizations invent).

Alas, while FTL is doable, it's slow and limited, and lifebearing worlds are hard to get a foothold on so civilizations tend not to spread. When they do spread, it's unevenly (see Percolation Theory).The downside of FTL is it means collapse can spread all across even interstellar civilizations.

Also alas, aliens are _alien_ and bridging the communication gap is hard. As a consequence of that and slow travel times, there's less contact than one might expect. The Great Silence is because almost no one thinks it is worth the investment to talk and if they did, it would be by messenger courier (months to years), not radio (years to millennia).

There _is_ a large scale organization to reduce friction, because experience says not having one is worse. Its name translates as "the least we could do." It's poorly funded and draws mainly from the species at the very high end of the gregariousness scale. It's there to prevent violence. It won't preemptively nuke potentially troublesome species because experience says being the sort of organization that does that leads to poor outcomes. It will jam their jump points so that they can't be used.

The Least has automated monitors in every solar system. The Least has a very large database on the development of civilizations, and all the likely Great Filters they have to survive (or in the majority of cases, fail to). Each new group is an additional headache, so if the Least notices a group barrelling toward self-annihilation, they generally do nothing. Which gets us to Earth.

They've known about Earth for millions of years, maybe longer. They've known about hominins since we started affecting the environment in a major way. Humans check off a lot of the warning signs for a doomed species. As a consequence, the monitor misread the hundreds of nuclear weapons tests as a sustained nuclear war. It sent a notice to the Least to that effect. Then the Least jammed the Sol jump points from the far side, cutting off all communications.

While the data on humans is correct, interpretation by officials who skim those records isn't. Those who remember the humans at all remember them for comparative proximity to a impending supernova (the main reason galactics are interested in our otherwise unfashionable part of the Milky Way) and for being chaotic, fearfully energetic, narcoleptic, violent [1], obligate carnivores with an insane birth rate [2] from a giant, bright, doomed [3] star system. Happily, humans might have wiped themselves out. If they didn't, rebuilding from a thermonuclear war should keep them too busy for space flight for a few centuries. If they do make it into space, all their jump points are impassible.

So where did the human starship come from?

The Least is sufficiently adept for its needs to create translators and thousands of years of watching Earth gave them databases on all the major languages, including a bunch now extinct. As a consequence, the Least will speak to the human ship in English. However, since none of the Least's databases were updated since the 1950s, all of the slang is archaic.

1: Actually, lots of intelligent species are far more violent. They tend not to get past the nuclear weapon Great Filter. Some esp violent examples don't survive pointed stick.

2: For a K-strategy species. The R-strategy guys produce far more offspring but they have a proportionately larger mortality rate.

3: Most ETs come from red dwarf systems.

My responses:

That's a fantastic bit of worldbuilding. Thinking along my own lines… Assuming FTL develops out of roughly contemporary experiments in physics and follows a standard engineering timeline, we're about 100-200 years away from developing FTL. If the Least hasn't updated its linguistics databases since 1950, that would make it over 200 years out of date. It would be like trying to hold a conversation with Jane Austen. Or the basis of FTL could be something with immediate engineering applications, which would optimistically put FTL about 25-50 years away. That would make the gap more like trying to talk to someone from the 1920s. And you'd have the bonus of humans running around in tin cans strapped to nuclear reactors and whatever absurd high energy physics-thing makes the FTL work. You wouldn't really need jump points to blockade a star system either. If the FTL is a convenient warp or hyperdrive type, just slap some sort of blanket interdiction field around Earth. Say from a TMA-1 type object (or maybe a pair and a spare set-up) buried under the Lunar dirt, to protect it from radiation and micro-impacts. The Least comes by once every two hundred years or so to make sure interdictor is still working. It's not that important to them; even if your species survives a limited nuclear war, all of your easy to access resources have been used up, your environment is crap, and your population is minuscule. The interdiction field is more of a technicality, to make sure the really violent types don't somehow manage to crawl out of their own wreckage. An interdiction field would also explain why humans didn't discover the principles behind FTL until relatively late. Our systems had to be really sensitive to detect whatever the signs are. And it would be an interesting bit of tension between humans and everyone elese. "You expoxied our apartment door shut." "Yeah. Sorry. In our defence, we heard gunshots and assumed you were dead. We didn't want the smell to bother anyone."

And:

Thinking some more about it… 1850s-1920s: The observed world has clearly entered a phase of rapid industrialization, with a high potential to develop nuclear weapons. Build the interdiction facility on the moon, take as many low-altitude scans now as you can (There were various UFO crazes through to the 1920s), and then pull back to remote observation. 1920s-1950s: All observations are now done through automated remote systems, including various stealth drones. Observations of Earth's atmosphere reveal growing levels of toxic heavy metals (leaded gasoline), a degraded ozone layer (fluorocarbons), wartime use of nuclear weapons, and growing tensions between nuclear powers. In March 1954, following the Castle Bravo detonation, a mass shooting at the US Capitol, and the start of the Battle of Dien Bien Phu, the remote observation team decides to pull out of the system and activate the interdiction system. The last atmospheric data shows the Castle Romeo detonation, and is taken as the start of a thermonuclear battle.

[culminada]

scrolling autistic Tumblr and not relating to anything anymore.

Even though I know I'm autistic. It's all sensory sensitivity, anxiety, inability to be authentic, difficulties unmasking, experiencing ableism, unusual connection to animals (?), "stop saying autistic people have never had sex", etc.

Autistic people ARE more likely to be asexual, and I'm one of them! It feels invalidating when people complain abt other people's headcanons of autistic people never having had sex. I'm autistic and I've never had sex.

I was raised in an accepting home and homeschooled. I have never experienced someone invalidating my autism when I come out. I have never experienced someone not believing me about an autistic symptom. I have always been encouraged to be myself and express myself authentically. I don't struggle with anxiety. I feel like I can express myself authentically with my friends (autistic and neurotypical). I don't avoid social situations with them, in fact I seek them out.

I was a later teenager before I ever had to mask. I speedran 'learning to mask' in 3 years in a hostile environment (hostile meaning cliquish and normal (derogatory)) and now? Honestly it doesn't feel like masking anymore? It can be hard to initiate interaction with someone I don't know and I usually avoid it, but social cues? Just feels like learning another language. But I CAN learn it. It's a complex set of rules to be learned. I used to not be able to recognize people I'd talked to before. Now I can do it fine, no problem. I'm much better with names, too. Interaction with other autistic people feels easier, but it's still interaction.

With my neurotypical friends and family I'm very relaxed and I don't worry about masking unless it's an emotionally-charged situation (and even then, I DO want to show support and I know how, it just feels like translating what I want to communicate into a language that they'll understand and feel. It's an act of love and care for me, not a burden or smth I'm anxious about.) Social interaction doesn't cause me stress like it used to. (And how much of that was the cliquishness of the place I was at?)

And I'm not struggling to fit in a world that wasn't built for me. Neither I nor my family nor my culture expects me to get a job. The last time somebody asked if I was graduated yet or what grade I was in, and I tried to explain the convoluted mess for the umpteenth time, my mom just shrugged and casually declared me graduated. Ig I graduated in some random person's kitchen one Sunday afternoon. I'm not going to college and I don't need a job. I don't have to stress about half the things my autistic peers do.

I don't experience sensory sensitivity, like I've said.

I hyperfocus so hard I DONT notice all the little things; distracting sounds, etc. that even neurotypicals notice.

Sometimes I feel like I have the opposite of all the autistic symptoms.

What ARE my symptoms then?

Inability to start and stop tasks. Special interests. Stimming. Rigid thinking. Missing social cues. Lower empathy. Caffeine doesnt effect me. Hyposensitivity. Greater need of sleep. Distress when things change. Difficulty adjusting my expectations when circumstances change. Missing the bigger picture (esp in social situations). Needing to re-hash every social interaction in my head after the fact.

And those symptoms are mild, too, in the sense that they don't impact my life a whole lot. Maybe I just have kind friends who don't mind the occasional missed social cue or oversharing? Executive dysfunction is the worst symptom (in the sense of negatively impacting my life), and maybe oversleeping compared to neurotypicals. Am I even autistic??

I don't know, AM I masking and don't realize it? Bc I definitely used to have major social trouble.

My friend who is autistic is very sure that I'm autistic, but idk if that's just because I can speak the autistic language easily? I remember before I knew I was autistic and she told me she was, and I mentally switched my script from 'normal people (derogatory)' to 'autistic person (yay, less complex!)'

At the time, I saw it as just another script. An easier one for sure, one I understood (even just from seeing posts online. There's just one rule: be straightforward. And maybe let her info dump sometimes. And be aware of potential sensory difficulties.). It felt more natural; like the way I always communicated at home. like I could stop masking.

But I don't have any scripts at all now. I don't mask. I just interact. I know how my autistic friend interacts. I know how my neurotypical friends interact. And I just DO! The interaction!

What do yall think? Is this masking?? Aaaaahcjskfjskfjd

#actually autistic #autism #autistic adult #Autistic

[monstercollection]

I want to talk about some of my feelings about John Seward. I tried writing a post about it before and deleted it after giving it some more thought, but I’m going to try again.

Background: I’ve worked in group homes with people with various combinations of neurodivergence, mental illness and disability for 10 years and am ND, disabled and mentally ill myself.

CW: Modern Institutions, institutionalization of Autistic people, abuse of disabled children mentioned briefly.

Seward as autistic is a really hard headcannon for me to grapple with because autistic people have been institutionalized at high rates for as long as asylums existed.

Is it possible an autistic guy with fewer needs could run an asylum that likely held at least some autistic people who are high needs/have behaviors? Sure, I guess but we never see Seward doing anything but perpetrate the problems in that system.

This is not going to be the first time we see him go out of his way to trigger and escalate Renfield. I’m not going to give any major spoilers here, but this isn’t an isolated incident.

It’s also hard for me to grapple with “compared to the practices of the time, he’s progressive,” because these were not just the standards of his time. These are standards that have stretched right through the present day. This is stuff that still goes on.

I’ve been in direct care for 10 years and I work for an agency that formed when whistleblowers started opening about about what was going on in Massachusetts’ institutions in the 80s. A lot of these whistleblowers and people who formerly worked in institutions now the company and they have shared some absolute horror stories about things that were standard practices.

I teach self-advocacy curriculum that focuses on the history of the disability rights movement and we talk about this a lot. We go into the history of institutions and the people I’m educating are always shocked to hear just how recent this stuff is. It’s all within their lifetime.

We still have the Judge Rottenberg center in MA that uses things like electric shock adversives to punish autistic kids (and the most horrific thing is that many of these kids’ own parents have gone to court to defend that practice).

This is my third time reading through Dracula. And I’m not going to expect people who haven’t read the book to take my word for why you shouldn’t like Seward or why he is bad or any of that. You’re along for the ride and you get to enjoy these characters however you want. You aren’t problematic or bad for having your own take, you’re just doing your own literary interpretation and that’s cool.

But I’m always going to empathize more with the actual disabled and mentally ill patients (esp, here Renfield) in the institution than I am the asylum guy. This includes people (again, like Renfield in this book) with challenging behaviors or the rare few who have physical aggression (this is the population I worked with in group homes for years and they are no less deserving of proper, compassionate care, dignity and autonomy than anyone else).

But I like… I can’t help but wonder what the Seward fans would think about the practices at the now shuttered Danvers State Mental Hospital (where some of my coworkers came from and where several of the individuals we serve once lived) or even the notorious Willowbrook Institutions. Those were “the standards of the 1980s”.

I don’t mean that in an accusatory way. Most people straight up do not know about this stuff. I just think it shifts the perspective to know the history of all this is a lot more recent . But I also think it’s strange that we would judge people in the 1980s a lot more harshly than they would people doing the exact same thing in the 1890s, and we might want to examine why that is.

We expect things in the Victorian Era to be bad because we have the idea that time is a steady march toward progress and that people in the past were always more ignorant than we are, so we kind of hand wave things. That breaks down when we actually look at our recent history.

The disabled and mentally ill people of the Victorian Era knew just how horrible life in asylums were. Restrictive environments where you had no personal autonomy, no consent of consent, where adversives were used on the regular (and I haven’t even touched on conversion therapy and the roles institutions played there) —these environments were hell. When you say “people didn’t understand back then,” that’s not true. Disabled and mentally ill people knew. It was just a matter of people not listening.

And that was not just true back then. It’s true today.

So yeah, I come at Seward with a lot of biases. I’m writing a book right now with him as the secondary villain so clearly I do not love the guy.

I respect everyone’s right to head-cannon what they want and make him your eeby-deeby and all. This is a fun internet book club and we’re all just here to have a good time.

But I just kind of had to respond to some of those takes because I think a lot of them come from a place of little understanding of the role of institutions played in the struggle for disability rights, especially for autistic people and I think it’s an important part of the conversation.

Edit:

I wanted to clarify something because it is coming up in people’s responses to this. “Seward is Autistic” is absolutely a valid take and I’m not saying it isn’t possible for an autistic guy to run an asylum, or that it would automatically mean he couldn’t be ableist if he did.

My personal discomfort with that head cannon is that I don’t really like storylines where a marginalized person is blamed for their oppression of their group (ex: the homophone is secretly gay). This is purely down to personal preference.

I think a lot of autistic, anxious and general ND people are claiming him as one of their own because he is presented as one of the stories heroes and they like seeing themselves in that. And that’s kind of the point of fandom.

Everybody’s going to filter him through the lens of their own experiences. This is just mine.

#dracula daily #john seward #jack seward #cw: mental institutions #Cw: discussion of abuse of disabled people

[roobylavender]

hello faatima your mind is very sexy to me so I would like to know what's your opinion on this argument

https://twitter.com/aquariahsrising/status/1752785184414699923?t=CqpcbbqgbtKgPwREC9dSIw&s=19

i'm ngl this was the last thing i expected to see when i opened that linkjgdksjglgsf 😭 i do get the immediate irritation at fujos like esp considering their rep is very commonly associated with shounen manga and the consequent misunderstanding and/or complete avoidance of main female characters as a result, but i also feel like i have to disagree with this person.. like it's one thing to point this out on a case-by-case basis and quite another to paint what is a large swath of gay fans looking for gay rep with a broad brush stroke. it's not to say these issues don't exist nor that misogyny (internalized or not) isn't prevalent within them but i think to go with the base assumption that anyone into gay fanon within shounen (or other comparable media) is trying to make it into a "peak feminism" thing (going off of their og tweet once you sort through all of the quotes) or is painting over it in hetero colors is a bit of a misdirect. gay people look for gay content bc they're gay. you can certainly make arguments as to the fact that repeatedly looking for gay rep in shounen specifically is a lost cause and that it would be ideal to support more work where the gay rep is canonically there. but these series are popular. a lot of people grow up with them. they attach what they want to see to what they're into, and so on and so forth

i think it's completely valid to complain about some of the things that leads to on an individual basis. you've seen me do this several times re: the naruto fandom's treatment of sakura and how they tend to misread a lot of things about her arc as an excuse to not have to engage with it at all. but i don't think there's any stock in implying m/f ships are comparatively higher up on the feminist ladder merely bc they happen to have a woman in them. i enjoy sasusaku bc i'm into tragedy and miscommunication as narrative devices. my attachment to sakura certainly factors into that enjoyment but i don't think it's inherently more feminist to prefer it to sasunaru merely bc sakura is there. what's more worth pointing out is how gay shounen fans almost exclusively look to ships between boys and almost never to ships between girls despite the latter also being a perfect avenue to explore non-heteronormativity; or how anti-intellectualism contributes to the way we engage with media at large and this includes many people's unwillingness to engage with female characters who get the shorter end of the stick in narrative bc making the effort is hard and can take critical thought; or how the misogynist vices of an author are often projected onto a female character even though she possesses no actual agency, and those aren't vices we should internalize ourselves

to go back to the og tweet you sent, hypersexualization of what is very often children's media is very much an issue, but i think that has less to do with purported fetishization and more to do with purity culture (aka the real purity culture, wherein the obsession with children's chastity drives mass conservatism and subsequently intense sexual repression of young people who need an outlet and latch onto unrealistic standards of sexual relationships bc it's what they have access to)

#outbox #also thank you for the compliment lol! very very sweet

[yagamisdiary]

I’m so intrigued to know what inspired you to write a Fantasy story after Parasite? Pls don’t take offense but I really never expected you to write something like Eldia since your first release was a college au.

Eldia is a breath of fresh air for me, esp on a platform like Wattpad (where I see recycled modern fics of Jean)

You’ve been doing such a phenomenal job so far & a rare one might I add❕When I got a couple chapters into Eldia I began to feel a spectacle of feelings I haven’t had for a fanfic in A WHILE. I hope I can also experience the creative possession you get when writing your work. <3

omg wow thank u sm this made my day ☹️

honestly i just wanted to prove to myself i could do it because modern au is soooo easy to write and everyone was like praising me for something that wasn’t even that hard so i was like….

oh y’all wanna see me WRITE WRITE???????

& i felt like doing a tangled insp fic it’s just had to be fantasy you know like i need the magic i need the movie scene feeling and if i was gonna do a jean fic based believe i’m mixing some yummy flynn ryder into the book

fantasy is definitely a lot more challenging to write compared to modern au so when i get compliments on it, it means way more than parasite compliments (even tho those throw me over the moon too i love u all)

i guess i just put more effort into eldia in ways i didn’t in parasite bc i have to make an entire story from scratch (with inspo obvi) unlike in parasite when i just wrote based off my life

#i hope i make sense #amara's love mail #amara's asks

[sapphicautistic]

My incisions are all across like my lower belly around my belly button and I'd expected some to be up like near or on my ribs so I had an inaccurate picture about which muscles I'd need to avoid using too much for awhile.

But I'm finding the advice I solicited on my big blog (about which of my mobility aids will strain my incision sites) is still really helpful. My rollator has been invaluable esp since walking at all seems to strain my incision sites but I need to do it for circulation etc reasons.

Walking with the rollator actually feels like it's straining the sites less than when I tried walking with the cane? And esp compared to the few steps I've taken unassisted. Not sure why that would be so though.

I think I could self propel my clunker wheelchair on hard floors rn but I don't have to go far rn fortunately so the walker is sufficient atm and moving my torso at all while sitting is very painful/feels like it's pulling on things so I'm glad I have the option of not using it!

I haven't fallen down once since surgery!! (close call at the hospital but I landed on the bed and wasn't injured so it doesn't count) which my gf has been very concerned about cuz I am a fall risk in general, and I'm high as balls on the pain meds so even clumsier and a fall now could reopen my incisions.

I had to eat soup and take meds after my gf's p usual bedtime last night and she got out of bed and heated up my soup and hung out with me while I ate it 😭 she was worried I'd hurt myself, she's been really sweet taking care of me!!

I do think she was right and I maybe overdid it yesterday walking around (w rollator) in an attempt to improve circulation/ work out the air they blew into me to have more working space around my organs. Bedtime last night was kind of brutal on the same dose that felt like overkill earlier in the day.

I had actually emailed my doc to see if I could take half a pill instead of the 1-2 pills prescribed, like if it's safe to cut these in half, bc in the afternoon I was just super high on one and my pain was totally ignorable when not moving. But yeah at bedtime I seriously debated taking a second one cuz my pain was not controlled.

It eventually calmed down enough that I got to sleep though and managed to avoid taking more and even skipped a dose in the night cuz I fell asleep 20 minutes before I could've taken it and wasn't aware of any pain so that ended up being ok.

But this morning I woke up way too early just to pee and after getting up and moving the pain was awful so I took another dose in hopes I'd go back to sleep.

I'd been hoping to wait till my normal breakfast time but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯maybe tomorrow it'll work! Or the next day lol

I think my schedule is gonna be kinda fucked up for awhile!

#updates on my boring life #i have like eighteen separate times I'm specifically supposed to take meds in relation to other meds and/or food so like #I'm trying to fold the pain meds into that schedule so i can get all my meds taken as I'm supposed to #but yeah I'm just glad i was able to get to sleep at a normal ish time even if i did wake up early #naps and stuff might happen the next few days idk I'm just gonna let it happen #long post #I'm so tired I wanna go back to sleep but that pain jolted me out of sleepiness

[badedramay]

i also feel like the yumna situation isn't really comparable bc the anger stems from the fact that yumna built her image on being the indie darling who did the thought provoking projects that were markedly different from what was mainstream, only to end up trying to justify working in a project as egregious as tere bin. like when you have something like dil nah umeed toh nahi in your repertoire, in which a focus on violence against women and the horrors of it are so pronounced to the point you risk being banned by pemra, it's hard to justify your own integrity as an actor when you switch to something like tere bin once mainstream success is more immediately accessible to you (and the same goes for wahaj). obv plenty of pakistani actors have starred in projects ranging anywhere from mid to trash. it's an unfortunate reality if staying consistently employed is the goal esp when you're starting to build your career. but when you're a veteran with a reputable resume to boot you have a choice and people are going to notice what you choose and how you wield the influence you've developed. you don't see sajal or kubra or ramsha or mawra interested in starring in the same trash simply bc they're more famous now than they were before. some of their projects may have shortcomings (eg hum kahaan kay sachay thay or for a more recent example neem) but the social statements of their works are clearly important to them and that's what people are criticizing yumna for lacking at present. even moreso when she's taking active steps to defend herself from criticism rather than hearing out and acknowledging what worthwhile criticism there is. i hate it when actresses are lectured on humbling themselves but listening to her comments at the round table recently was alarming for me. there's all too many actors including her who feel entitled to shrug off criticism bc if they know they acted well then that's seemingly all that matters. i can't imagine living in a state of unreality like that

but Tere Bin isn't the only mainstream drama that she has done though? Raaz e Ulfat is right there. Guzaarish was also a soapy melodrama. so it's not like her repertoire is only made up of the artsy dramas. Pukaar too, if I'm not wrong, had her as a damsel in distress for the most run-time of the show. frankly, I don't mind Yumna doing more proper mainstream dramas because let's face it..the on-ground popularity come from such dramas only. TB's success led her to gain more commercials and more campaigns which mean more money for her. actors already have a limited shelf life..why wouldn't she want to make the most of it now that the opportunity has struck?

TB was a mess. no arguments there. it was problematic and probably the worst character Yumna had to give life to. I agree. but how does that mean Yumna has fully switched to these roles? afaik her next confirmed project is a movie Nayab that's taking her back to her character-driven narrative roots. who knows what her next project is going to be? I'll reserve my criticism for her if she chooses to do another TB because yeah, then this becomes a choice. but until then..this girl has done more than enough projects in her career as an actor to warrant at least one project where she gets to relieve herself from social responsibility and just have fun. acting in Pakistani drama industry is already hard enough, it doesn't need to become a platform for activism all the time especially when all the responsibility is thrust on the shoulders of the actors when they are the most dispensable pawns of the game and the real power lies in the hands of the executives and makers. I find it unfair if all the work Yumna has done over the years gets dismissed because of one bad project (that I personally believe she didn't expect to blow up in the way it did) or that her previous conscious choices of project be seen in a suspicious or dubious light.

not every actor has the same circumstances so expecting them all to make similar choices or have the same career arc is not wise. we can't disregard the fact that acting is also a job for these people and sometimes as an employed adult you gotta suck it up. Yumna has power, Yumha has a voice; and she has used it plenty in some very powerful projects. but like every adult she has the right to not be defined by being just one kind of actor. as I type this I am reminded of how Maya had said that Yumna mostly gets cast in these heavy character roles when she can do something completely different if given a chance and she should be given a chance.

if Yumna is facing criticism for defending TB then she's also receiving immense love for this project in real time. expecting her to denounce the project that continues to give her love and acceptance sounds rather...foolish, no? i doubt Yumna is dumb enough to not know where TB went wrong with her character likewise she's not dumb enough to not acknowledge that TB is her biggest success. she's stuck in a catch 22.

honestly I don't see how being part of projects that almost get banned by PEMRA or barely get any ratings or views are some matter of pride and only they should be an actor's standard. even the biggest actors in the most stable industries want to have a balance of artsy and mainstream projects to satisfy both the artist and the actor in them. if Yumna is doing that as well..so what? being an "indie darling" has barely promised her guaranteed acknowledgement. her performance in Parizaad was phenomenal and what did she get in return for it? just a measly "best couple" nomination alongside Ahmed Ali Akbar. and this wasn't her first snub btw, she's been snubbed many times. with the body of work she has..she should have more awards to her name because that's what the indie darlings are supposed to have at least, right? but will anyone in their right mind deny Meerab a nomination if not a win? that's the whole game here.

#yumna zaidi #type: opinion #i just feel all entertainment industries regardless of the geography are a state of unreality #like unless you are actually a part of it you cannot understand how it functions #not truly #god only knows what echo chambers surround these celebs #or on which wavelengths do their thoughts function #we only see the result of their actions #when it's equally important to know the reasoning that led them to take that action #i mean isn't that why when defending any thesis or research the panel insists on knowing every thought and question in detail #that led to the researcher taking any step? #we really only see a minimal surface reflection #andar ki khabar andar walon ko hi pata hai..

[randombubblegum]

sorry to be depressing but do you think there’s any chance for awsten to improve? I was a baby in the 2000s but from what I understand certain members fob, mcr, panic etc were incredibly messy and behaved in kind of obnoxious ways throughout their 20s and even into their early 30s and acted out due to combo of fame and mental illness but as they aged, had kids etc they calmed down and are now really respectful generally……pete in particular acted pretty misogynistic when his mental health was at his worst (and he was also subjected to insane amounts of media and fan scrutiny) and he was like 25ish but now obviously has grown up and matured since then. obviously tiktok didn’t exist back then but there was a similar fame-obsessed culture back in the 2000s. I know awsten definitely doesn’t have even a fraction of the kind of success that fob had at their peak but do you think there’s a chance of awsten following a similar trajectory and growing up? or do you think he’ll act like a dick forever? lol

no this is a good question!!! disclaimer i was not around following fob/mcr in the 2000s lol i am just a very dedicated student looking back across time. that being said the comparison between pete wentz and awsten is one ive talked about before because obviously awsten idolized pete and their lyrics are comparable (in a way that makes awsten come up short lol)…… but frankly i dont think they make a great comparison in this way.

like you mention fob reached much higher levels of fame than parx ever has (or will) but i think its hard to contextualize that if you werent there. pete was literally in EVERY mainstream tabloid constantly for a period of like 5 years. his dick pics leaking and then dating/marrying ashlee simpson while fob simultaneously became hugely popular AND hugely hated as an “emo band” defined a generation of celebrity. he was quite literally an A/B-lister. people magazine payed millions for exclusive photography rights for his first child. pete was one of the most papped people in america…. he was like FAMOUS (in)famous. in a very difficult way where it truly was like fame < infamy lol

awsten frankly invents most of his “celebrity problems” himself by being too online. that sounds harsh, but like, if he just Logged Off a little he can live a completely normal unhindered life in the real world. sure some fans might stop him for pics every now and again but he wont be literally tailed and SHOUTED AT by paparazzi like pete was lol. for all he gripes about the internet being too invasive to him he has actively curated and invited that for his whole ~career~ lol

so going back to your main question….. i dont know if hell get better? i think its hard because….. tiktok and the level of instant powerful crushing online fame it brings is NEW. the level of (sorry to use this word but literally) “cancel culture” on twitter and shit is unprecedented. did yall see allie x get instantly cancelled then redeemed in 24 hours the other day? shit is out of control. i cant even imagine what that stress feels like when every fan is willing to go for your throat for clout at any moment, esp with parx fans on …other websites being famous for shit-stirring every chance they get.

he might get better, and stop down this path of neurosis and being an ass online, but its gonna take something shifting him off that path. we cant use bands like fob/mcr as a blueprint bc this is so wildly different, imo. i think deep down he hates what hes become and what hes doing isnt fun for him either……. i just dont think he feels he has a choice. hes addicted to clout and virality as a lifeline tied to his perceived career now, and when he doesnt get the amount of attenion he expects you can literally WITNESS him panic and rage and melt down about it. i understand why, given the environment hes trying to operate in. but its a rough transformation to watch. im not saying theres no hope for him, but i think its gonna take something drastic to get him off this path lol :( hes also not showing any sign of “growing up” so its not like thats something that just automatically happens to people lol

#my answer is. maybe! doesnt look good #also id argue pete wasnt like. particularly misogynistic? lol #period-typical misogyny sometimes but not like….. demonstrably bad imo. just a guy??? #mail time! #neg

[dreamcast-official]

Also, what about the female characters in saint seiya, and feminity in general ? I'd love to know your opinion ! (this is also absolutely made for you to talk more about shun)

HELL YEAHHHH WOOO im so normal abt this specific topic (i am not)

god ok so. the female characters themselves. theyre REALLY GOOD and REALLY COOL but the narrative unfortunately doesnt do much with them. this is a shonen anime from the 80s so like, this is to be expected, but it still sucks. personally i think that saori herself, despite being a main character, doesnt get as explored as she could have been. i mean, this is a 13 year old girl with the weight of the world on her shoulders. and she still finds it in her heart to be kind and gentle and to stay strong, she refuses to die even in the face of everything shes facing. not to mention her personal growth, going from a selfish person who was willing to use the bronze saints for her entertainment to someone who is so kind and compassionate and loves her friends so much that shes willing to do anything for them. and yet! we see so little of that side of her! its upsetting!!! then there are characters like marin, shaina, shunrei and pandora - there is so much to them and we dont get to see it in its entirety. marin is a powerful warrior who has gone through so much in her life and come out the other side stronger, but broken. shaina is much like marin but shes walked out of everything so, so violent. shunrei is just a normal girl whos been hoisted onto this world and wants so hard to help the people she loves, but. just how much is she capable of doing? and pandora... man. these girls are so interesting but there is not a lot thats shown of them and it SUCKSSSS

however. despite the treatment of the female characters. femininity itself is considered almost a sign of power in saint seiya. not in-universe (as far as i remember) but in a meta sense. even though the female characters arent rlly well-explored, they are all treated as INSANELY strong and on a level above the main characters (w the exception of shunrei, who is like. normal.) not to mention how the male characters who are treated as being the strongest are androgynous and beautiful (shun is the strongest of the bronzes, lizard misty is the strongest of the silver saints, and pisces aphrodite is straight up described as the most deadly and feared of the twelve golds.) its VERY interesting to see, esp bc (like i mentioned when talking abt shun) its not like the show pretends everyone thinks this way; shun deadass experiences homophobia on-screen and his backstory almost explicitly mentions him having gone through homophobic bullying, and while aphrodite and misty arent necessarily mocked there are moments where their appearence is commented on (comparing them to women, questioning if they are really men, etc). and still their femininity is a good thing. unambiguously so, even. this is more notable w aphrodite, since hes literally said to be "as strong as he is beautiful". its a very interesting thing bc this association femininity has with strength in this work isnt ever pointed out directly in the story proper but it is not difficult to see and personally. i eat it up i eat it up so muchhhhh

#anon tag #eli.txt #I JUST THINK. THE GNC GUYS ARE NEAT.

[ghostwrita]

Could you do dating head cannons or even just regular head cannons on gargoyles and shapeshifters? if not just ignore this because I know those monsters (esp gargoyles) tend to have little to no lore/difficult to find myths and so I imagine it’s hard to make a list of head cannons on them compared to say a vampire or werewolf. Tysm and stay safe !

I actually like the idea of doing something for gargoyles :D . I plan to upload general headcanons for them first (before doing any dating headcanons). But for now, here are some shapeshifter dating headcanons.

Dating a Shapeshifter

Shapeshifters are good at reading their partner's mind. They often have to be vigilant of other’s mannerisms to better fit in, thus picking up on nonverbal cues comes easily to them.

Shapeshifters are naturally more extroverted. They like being around others, so expect a lot of outings. If you are more of a homebody, they will try to meet you halfway and plan something in a less populated place.

They get jealous super easily. They have a paranoia that you will find someone else in your species to date.

They are BIG on dates. They will remember your birthday, your 1 month anniversary, your dog's birthday, etc. Everyday with you they are grateful, so they will always find a reason to celebrate.

Be cautious when dating a shapeshifter though. It is important to set clear boundaries early on in the relationship. If you don’t they may come off as clingy or overbearing. While having no malicious intent, it can be a little overbearing.

#shapeshifter #shapeshifter headcanons #terato tag #terato

[ghostsgerard]

What was the process of becoming a tattoo apprentice like? Any advice for someone who’s increasingly considering going down that route in the future

okay

well first of all. if you are sensitive or looking for an easy job, this is not it.

first thing my now mentor asked me after hiring me on was if i was sensitive. now i’m going to say my shop is a lot better than most but let me put this out here first:

as an apprentice you are treated like shit. you are bottom of the food chain, you clean the bathrooms you do the trash, you do every single chore that’s asked/expected and then you are expected to do chores that aren’t asked, but if it doesn’t get cleaned you get shit for it. some tattoo shops haze you (mine does not) but be aware, they may ask you to do shitty stuff. frankly in my opinion any shop that asks you to do stuff like that is not worth it.

my shop will be hard on me, they’ll call me dumb nicknames and make fun of me, but the idea behind it is to toughen me up cause working in this industry you need tough skin and you never know who’s gonna walk in the door, so i get it, and they also want you to fight back even as an apprentice.

now, there are a lot more shops opening up, that aren’t like that at all. i’ve seen lgbt / women run shops that i’m sure the worst of the apprenticeship would be cleaning and shit, but i don’t have that opportunity and also my mentor is very very talented and everyone he trains becomes extremely talented tattoo artists who earn awards and shit. so i’m willing to be called a few names to earn my spot. this has been my experience!! but it’s not the same for everyone. (other artists in my shop talked about their apprenticeships elsewhere where they’ve had to eat bugs etc. and have said many times to me that my apprenticeship is considered beyond easy compared to others)

that aside:

do a lot research before hand, look up and memorize the different styles of tattoos, and famous artists. do some research into the history. tattoo artists are very prideful of their work and history, and not knowing the renowned artists and where is all comes from can be seen as disrespectful. (though a lot of this research can be done after you have the apprenticeship but some basics are good to have before esp styles)

get together a portfolio, this is the main thing! and it’s obvious. important note: IF YOU DO TATTOOS AT HOME DO NOT INCLUDE PICTURES OF THEM. DO NOT TELL THEM YOU HAVE DONE TATTOOS FROM YOUR HOUSE. There is nothing more disrespectful to a tattoo artist who went through the work of learning the proper way and proper safety than a scratcher. they Hate scratchers. if they even bother taking you on as a scratcher, they will probably make your life there worse and not let you touch a machine for a long time.

anyway, so after you get your portfolio, go visit your first shop! do research, make sure the artist you want to apprentice under is GOOD. you don’t wanna learn bad habits.

when i arrived (on a weekday, shortly after opening so i knew they wouldn’t be busy) i asked them if they were taking apprentices, and eventually i met with the owner (my mentor) when he arrived and he checked out my work and then he gave me a drawing assignment to do there. so idk if this is like that for everyone but i spent the next few hours (Shaking.) trying to draw this picture exactly the same. so be prepared to spend a few hours there and draw on the spot !

edit: OH and some shops will charge you money. my shop doesn’t, i pay him in loyalty/not leaving the second i’m done training. but some will charge you, hardly EVER will You be paid. so you may need a second job unless you’re in a position where you don’t need to pay bills. so there’s that.

um that’s all i can think of. hope this helps! lmk if you have questions i’m happy to help

#turning off reblogs cause i don’t want this to go around #g.ask #long post

[ahxiang]

tea love why do i feel like you've read all the bl manga/manhwa out there akgssjksks every time an adaptation is announced you've already read the original

i would also feel v iffy about coin laundry if i only read the summary but one actor is 27 and the other is 23 and they're playing a middle-aged man and a highschooler so i'm more confused than anything else. what were their ages in the manga? do you think they're changing the plot a bit to make it less questionable?

btw do you maybe have some bl/gl manhwa recs?👀 i feel like i've read quite a few but you probably know a lot more. for reference some of my favs are soulmate, their story, pond snail robber. and i'm currently reading straight girl trap and honyak/two souls and both have pleasantly surprised me like the first one has a v questionable premise and i was expecting a fucked up power dynamic in the second but no both are really nice and enjoyable and almost unproblematic (esp comparing to some other stuff i've read😬) oh! but i don't read b&w mangas bc for some reason it's hard for me to process it :(

- @ahxu-laowen

sofia, my love! sorry it took me so long to respond, i had a busy day yesterday, but i'm back! this is gonna be longggg, so i put it under a cut!!

absjsjk, i do read a lot of queer comics, but lemme let you in on my secret. when i first started to get into manga/manhwa/manhua, i just started reading what sounded interesting or was well reviewed, but i kept coming across really bad ones that just grossed me out. then i think it was when cherry blossoms after winter premiered that i was wayyyy too impatient to wait for the next ep, so when i saw on mdl that ppl really liked the manhwa, i decided to read it and ended up binging the whole thing that night. i ended up noticing that unlike thai shows that are based on sometimes v shitty novels, j-bls and k-bls are usually adaptations of pretty good manga/manhwa. so from then on, i kept my ear to the ground and the moment an adaptation of a manga/manhwa got announced, i'd read it. and lemme tell you, this has worked much better than looking for things to read on my own. much less icky stuff.

so yeah, blupdate2020 announced back in, like, may that minato shoji koinrandori was gonna get a live action adaptation and i immediately read the manga. it is b&w, still ongoing, and honestly i don't recommend it unless you have nothing else to read, it's probably the worst one of the adapted mangas i've read, but it's also not bad. shin is 17 at the start of the manga and they never specify akira's exact age as far as i can remember, but if i do the math he's 27-28, so the ages are def super iffy. luckily akira's not predatory, in fact it could be argued that shin's the predatory one with the way he pursues him. but if you put the weird teenage thoughts of sex aside, their friendship is quite cute and sweet. all of the manga adaptations that i've seen so far have been very faithful to the original source, with just a few changes here and there (usually elimination of sexual language/scenes), so i doubt minato's laundromat will be too different from the manga, but would probably be much more wholesome, which def helps with the iffiness. i watched the first ep and they aged up shin to be a senior rather than a junior, so that helps? a bit? but minus points bc akira objectifies shin upon meeting him more than he did in the manga. ngl, it was weird. besides that, it's exactly the same but more wholesome. shin is much smilier and just less..... weird, absjsj. so yeah, i think it'll be a cute watch with an iffy premise that i trust them to handle well.

as for recs, i def have plenty, most of which are shows you've probably seen. i've only ever read b&w manga, so all these recs are manhwa/manhua.

it's no secret that i'm a huuuuge fan of who can define popularity?, the source material of blueming. i hiiiiighly recommend it, especially if you enjoyed blueming. it's actually quite different from the adaptation, but both have their pros and cons that make it impossible for me to say which is better. da un's whole deal is expanded upon much more, the sapphics get more development, and do ba woo gets a whole storyline and love interest. i also highly recommend cherry blossoms after winter. i'd say the drama is better, but the manhwa is more in depth and practically the same, so it's a good read! it is explicit though and like always the sex scenes are heteronormative and sometimes kinda uncomfy, but if you skip them like i do, it doesn't ruin it. the same goes for love tractor, which is getting an adaptation supposedly later this year. also a little iffy with ages, but v sweet and has a fun dynamic of v buff and manly country boy with a heart of gold and a damaged city boy musician. outside of adapted source material, there's a manhua i enjoyed called 30 sui nanzi wuyu or the secret tales of a 30 year old gay bachelor. honestly, i don't remember much about this one besides the main character and his brother being rich ceo kinda guys, but i know i enjoyed it. and i'm currently reading the ongoing translation of yeouleul guhaejwo or fall for me!, which is so far v unproblematic and is fun bc it's fantasy! the main character is possessed by a gumiho and gets close to the only guy not attracted to him in an effort to get rid of it.

for gl stuff, i do have to look on my own, but so far i haven't found any bad ones, so that's good! my absolute favorite is a manhua called jintian de ta yeshi ruci keai or my darling is the cutest. it breaks down a bunch of stereotypes and tropes, tackles some hard issues like child abuse, has a fantastic ensemble of queer characters, and is just v v sweet. it's ongoing at 122 chapters. the rest of the gl comics i’ve read so far are actually just webcomics and not manga/manhwa/manhua, but they’re still v good! kiss it goodbye is a very cute slice of life set in japan (but actually in english and made by an italian artist) that is complete and ends very well. i’m only five chapters in, but i’m really enjoying the girlfriend project, which is a fake dating story! and the ongoing mermaid x witch comic the sweetness of salt is beautiful and very sweet. i keep making the mistake of reading comics that end up being ongoing and then forgetting about them while i wait for updates, so idk much about these, but i’m also reading rainbow!, she’s a keeper, and waiting for the release of zhui lan or falling blue.

hope this helps and that you enjoy reading!! thank you for the ask 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

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