it is all chaos and entropy. the thing is that the chaos and entropy make it beautiful and lovely.
yes, it's true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is terrifying. i have lived through some of the unfairness - i got born like this, with my body caving into itself, with this ironic love of dance when i sometimes can't stand up for longer than 15 minutes. i am a poet with hands that are slowly shutting down - i can't hold a pen some days. recently i found a dead bird on our front porch. she had no visible injuries. she had just died, the way things die sometimes.
it is also true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is wonderful. the sheer happenstance that makes rain turn into a rainbow. the impossible coincidence of finding your best friend. i have made so many mistakes and i have let myself down and i have harmed other people by accident. nature moves anyway. on the worst day of my life she delivers me an orange juice sunset, as if she is saying try again tomorrow.
how vast and unknowing the universe! how small we are! isn't that lovely. the universe has given us flowers and harp strings and the shape of clouds. how massive our lives are in comparison to a grasshopper. the world so bright, still undiscovered. even after 30 years of being on this earth, i learned about a new type of animal today: the dhole.
chance echoing in my life like a harmony between two people talking. do you think you and i, living in different worlds but connected through the internet - do you think we've ever seen the same butterfly? they migrate thousands of miles. it's possible, right?
how beautiful the ways we fill the vastness of space. i love that when large amounts of people are applauding in a room, they all start clapping at the same time. i love that the ocean reminds us of our mother's heartbeat. i love that out of all the colors, chlorophyll chose green. i love the coincidences. i love the places where science says i don't know, but it just happens.
"the universe doesn't care about you!" oh, i know. that's okay. i care about the universe. i will put my big stupid heart out into it and watch the universe feast on it. it is not painful. it is strange - the more love you pour into the unfeeling world, the more it feels the world loves you in return. i know it's confirmation bias. i think i'm okay if my proof of kindness is just my own body and my own spirit.
i buried the bird from our porch deep in the woods. that same day, an old friend reaches out to me and says i miss you. wherever you go, no matter how bad it gets - you try to do good.
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happy mid-autumn festival!!! i hope it's a day of good fortune and reunion for everyone! i yearn for the day in which i am able to eat a mooncake.
much to my chagrin this drawing appears very different on desktop and on mobile but oh well. i think i'll take a crack at writing an ID for this one, just because there are a few characters! including xunyang 83 everyone else is offscreen lol but they're there i promise
[ID: a scene depicting a moonlit picnic to mark the start of mid-autumn festival, featuring several characters from MDZS, as well as two of the artist's own characters from a fic titled Dawn Chorus. in the bottom left corner sit Wen Zhuliu, Wang Lingjiao, Mo Xuanyu and Wen Chao. they are conversing pleasantly. the bottom right corner hosts Jiang Yanli, Jiang Cheng, Jin Zixuan and Jin Ling, alongside a puppy version of Fairy. Jiang Yanli has brought her famous soup, as well as some spring rolls. Jin Ling is lying down and holding a lantern as his mother strokes his back. Jin Zixuan has a loving arm around his wife's torso. behind them, Jiang Cheng is attempting to wrangle Fairy and keep her from eating their food. above and to the left sit the Dawn Chorus characters Wen Xun and the fic-specific version of Xue Yang, who has his arm around him as he laughs. they've brought wine. in Xue Yang's lap sits an infant, Hexie, who is reaching out to a fruit gleefully offered to them by Standard Edition Xue Yang, who is sitting a bit ahead with A-Qing, Xiao Xingchen and Song Lan, who smile at the scene while drinking tea and eating. they've brought a platter of crab. to the right of them sit Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji, who are happily holding Lan Sizhui between them. their snack is watermelon. behind them, just arriving, are Mianmian, who is carrying her daughter in her arms, and her husband, who is carrying their lantern and food. behind them is Wen Qing, who is calling out to Wen Ning, who is rushing up to her with a smile and a box in his hands. the corner of a blanket in the top left and the top of someone's head in the bottom right suggest there are more people at the gathering. a few white flowers bloom on the grass everyone sits on, predominantly around Wen Xun. every picnic blanket has mooncakes, and most characters brought lanterns. many other lanterns are seen floating by and up into the sky, towards the full moon. the atmosphere is friendly and lighthearted. /end ID]
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I have a hc that post beating the crap out of his CO but prior to being demoted back to corporal, wash spent like a week as an ODST drill sergeant as a 'punishment' until the higher ups finished their investigation, and that's the only real experience training others he has going into chorus.
so basically, wash tortured tucker and the combined armies of chorus with the brutal training used to root out the people who couldn't make the cut as an ODST, which only makes the scene where the kids jump grif even funnier than it already is.
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so interesting that in the rvb ultimate fanguide, bitters' specialty is listed as infiltration and reconnaissance cuz we just...never see the lieutenants do anything that unique lol, they're always a unit and usually always the same level of dumb as each other lol. if anything i usually hc bitters' specialty as driving (as a parallel to grif) so it's just weird to think that bitters has this whole skillset we never ever see
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Sarcastic Chorus's shallow, overriding Zutara word dump getting almost twice as many views in 3 weeks as SneezyPeasy's in-depth Zutara magnum opus in 2 years is my villian arc.
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Whelp, I've graduated from writing poetry to full-on love songs. Unfortunately I don't have Gale's voice, so my own mezzo-soprano will have to suffice lol
Lyrics and chords under the cut!
If You’ll Catch Me
C Am F C
C Am F G
C Am
You saved me the very
F C
First day that we met
C Am F G
And since then you’ve always stood by me
C Am
Yet I still need to ask
F C
For my heart needs to know
C Am F G
If I fall will you be there to catch me?
C Am
If I fall will you catch me?
F C
If I fall in love?
C Am
I’d give you each star in
F G
The heavens above
C Am
My heart and my soul
F C
Anything I can do
C Am G
I’d happily do it for you
C Am F G
If you’ll catch me
C Am
I’ve been beaten down
F C
My heart broken and bruised
C Am F G
I’ve loved and been used before
C Am
But you’ve given me hope
F C
For the first time in ages
C Am F G
That I could be worth something more
If I fall will you catch me?
If I fall in love?
I’d give you each star in
The heavens above
My heart and my soul
Anything I can do
I’d happily do it for you
If you’ll catch me
Em
I’d paint the sky
Em
I’d blow your mind
Am F G
I’d give you the best gifts that I could find
Em
Yet you say you want
Em
Me as I am
Am F G
Not the miracle, just the man
Em
If it is true
Em
I’ll leave behind
Am F G
All of my old ambitions
Em
I’ll start right here
Em
And I will make
Am F G
A life with you my new mission
C Am
If I fall will you catch me?
F C
If I fall in love?
C Am
I’d give you each star in
F G
The heavens above
C Am
My heart and my soul
F C
Anything I can do
C Am G
I’d happily do it for you
If I fall will you catch me?
If I fall in love?
I’d give you each star in
The heavens above
My heart and my soul
Anything I can do
I’d happily do it for you
If you’ll catch me
C Am F G
If you’ll catch me
C
If you’ll catch me
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