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Hiya!! I am taking a coding course at a University. While it's excellent for learning how to use a lot of complicated concepts in programming, we don't really get to do any projects or create anything yet. I was wondering how to get into that. Are there any resources you might recommend?
Hiya!! 💞
Goodie, you want to build your own projects! That's so good, I love project building! Now, it depends what you're coding (the languages + specific area) e.g. are you learning HTML/CSS/JavaScript (Website building) or is it like Python/Java/C# idk but you get what I'm asking for here, the projects you want to learn and build depends on what you're learning in the first place! But I will give some general advice!
🎥 YouTube
I love YouTube so much, there are thousands of videos on that site for any programming language to building pretty much anything! What I did when I started off was the simple search of "[The coding language] beginner project" and then I get to see what I can build. Now if you get stuck on a snippet of code, Google it and there are sites that will explain it for you. Now, don't fall for tutorial hell where you're watching tutorial after tutorial videos but watching them will give you a good foundation!
🔍 Google
Similar to what I said for the YouTube way, you can Google the same question and it will give you a bunch of project ideas, how to even do them and all you can do also is add more on top, what I mean is don't just watch or read about a project idea, see how you can twist it your own style e.g. recently I watched a React.js tutorial on how to make a to-do app! My twist was I styled it different by adding a frog theme. So the tutorial was my foundation and I just added on top of that to further exercise my skills!
🌐 GitHub
Have a hub for all your projects! After creating your projects, you don't just want it sitting on your computer, you can put it online! I use GitHub - it's a place where you can store all your projects, have a save history so you can go back on old code, even share the static webpages you make (using HTML/CSS/JavaScript) with other people online! The Site | How to use GitHub | Check out my GitHub for reference
📚 Online Courses
Many online platforms offer project-based courses. Websites like Udemy, Coursera, Codecademy and FreeCodeCamp can guide you through creating practical projects step by step. I use Udemy for learning and there are courses that are like "Build 9 web development projects blah blah blah" they're actually really good! BUT you do have to pay for them but if you can't find a good project on YouTube to follow or you can visualise or understand the articles online on how to build one, I suggest getting a course because someone teaches you how to make the project. Udemy is fairly cheap during their sales, going down from £59.99 to £10.99!
🤗 Collaboration
Reach out to classmates to build together, someone is bound to have an idea for something! Collaborative projects not only expand your skill set but also let you learn from others. Great skill to have! You can even collab on GitHub projects - which I am doing right now with people I've met through Tumblr (checkout our project)!
Remember, Rome wasn't built in a day! Start with small projects, gradually challenging yourself with larger ones. The journey of creating is just as exciting as the finished project itself. Happy coding! 😎🙌🏾💻💗
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opm 179/224(jp) TL commentary
so, about the Saitama vs Tatsumaki battle in the latest chapter.
Normally, I’m tired enough at the end of the work day that when the JP OPM chapter updates drop, I'm happy to just skim the chapter and wait for the usual fan TL team to do their good work and drop the English translation the next day. Usually, I find them very decent and competent.
This time around, however, Saitama’s lines on this particular page had me sitting up a little straighter.
I thought his word choice was oddly far too chummy given his usual personality and his attitude towards people like Tatsumaki, so I decided to check the original Japanese pages again and sure enough, found that I gleaned a very different idea from the JP lines. I would definitely have translated these differently.
Let’s take a look at the 2 phrases in question.
1. “She’s not in the mood to chat at all” (JP: 全然会話になんねえーな )
The plain form of this (i.e. after you distill it from Saitama’s typical style of speech) is 全然会話にならない which is far more often representative of the sentiment “It’s impossible trying to get through to you/this person”. It literally translates to “This is not becoming a 2-way conversation at all” or "you can't have a 2-way conversation with this person"; Google “会話にならない 英語” and you will see multiple suggestions along the lines of “It’s no use talking to you.”
This phrase is used to indicate that the other party is not willing to listen, usually to something important the speaker has to say. Saitama isn’t looking to have a friendly “chat”, he’s trying to make a point to Tatsumaki about not attacking other heroes and laying off his new home before that gets destroyed too. So, while the use of “chat” may help to preserve the lazy informality of his speaking style, it downplays the severity of the situation and his annoyance at her not getting his point.
I personally would’ve used “Ugh, she’s not gonna listen at all, is she” or “Ugh, talking isn’t gonna work at all, is it” or a similar variation.
2. “Guess I’ll keep her company for now” (JP: 相手しとくか)
Context is everything. Just because “keep company” is the first option in a whole list of different definitions that pops up when you do a dictionary search doesn’t mean that it’s the right definition to use for a translation/localization. Nor does it mean it’s how the phrase is most commonly used in practice.
I'd wager you don’t even need to have much RL experience in Japan or with Japanese people to know which definition should've been picked. Watch enough shonen and sports anime with the original Japanese audio and you’ll soon learn that any time there is a pair activity, game and most importantly, a fight, 相手 i.e. “aite” refers to “opponent”. In a classroom setting, being asked to “相手して” doesn’t mean to keep a student “company”, it means to take up the opposite role in pair work. I’d add that in the close to 15 years I’ve spent studying and/or speaking Japanese, and the 3.5 years spent living and working in Japan, I’ve never heard this phrase being used to mean “keep somebody company” - but since experience can also be subjective, let’s just look at what we can be certain about: context, and our own knowledge of the target language and all its nuances.
a. Context - What’s happening, and who is saying it: Are they fighting? Yes. As opponents? Yes. Is Saitama referring to their fight and a strategy he's going to take (i.e. letting her tire herself out)? Most certainly, yes. Is this line being said by the same guy who thinks of Fubuki only as an acquaintance who's always dragging him into her business against his will, the same guy who in the last frame of this very chapter is thinking to himself "Man I reeeeeaallly wanna go home"? Yes. Should you have picked a definition more related to fighting and opponents from the dictionary's MANY different options like, idk, "take on a rival" to base your translation on? Yyeeess??? Why wouldn't you have?
b. Decision-making when localizing a text: What does “keep somebody company” imply in English? Is there a better way to phrase this and make the localized script more representative of the situation and the character's intent, and less loaded with English meaning that isn't present anywhere else in the text? I mean, Saitama certainly isn't suddenly thinking about loneliness and company when he mentions the lack of buildings and people - a safer distance away from civilization he deliberately went to the trouble of bringing Tatsumaki to.
I'd take some creative/artistic license here myself to make the language less stiff, but would definitely have gone for something less distorted, like "Guess I'll keep her occupied for now". If unsure, then even a more literal "Guess I'll take her on for now" would do a very decent job of conveying Saitama's intent, staying faithful to the original language without sounding too stiff when inserted into the sentence they came up with.
But well, who'm I to talk, eh? Translators are humans, there's no way to be completely objective in any interpretation, and they still do far more work than I am willing/able to do for this manga every update. I just wonder if they were letting certain biases guide their interpretations rather more than usual this time. Suffice to say, I'll be very curious to see how the guys at Viz choose to frame this bit for the official English TLs.
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Sometimes I think about like. When I first really got access to the internet, so much of what I liked growing up suddenly became dirty.
I was raised as a girl. And I liked plenty of girl targeted media. Kim Possible and My Little Pony were some of my favorites. I also watched some media targeted more at young boys. Primarily anime. Like Dragon Ball Z and Naruto. Because my dad liked those, so he didn't really have an issue with me liking them too because it was cool to him to share some interests. Which was nice.
And eventually we got a family computer and I was allowed to use it pretty regularly starting mainly in middle school. And I wanted to draw all my favorite cartoon characters.
It was really easy to find reference images of the Naruto characters and Dragon Ball Z characters I liked. Most of the image results were screenshots from the show or cool fanart of them using their powers to blow stuff up. And I figured finding images to reference for Kim Possible and My Little Pony wouldn't be any harder. I had started watching Friendship Is Magic recently. Pinkie Pie and Rarity were my favorites, and I wanted to draw them. And Kim. And Shego.
And it did not take a long scroll down the Google image search results to see more than just a little suggestive or outright explicit porn art of all of them. And my curious mind wanted to know why that was in the search results. It didn't seem to me like that should be so easily available. But it turned out a LOT of people. Mostly grown men. Decided the ponies and Kim and Shego were sexy and decided to draw and post on many many non-adult catered websites a lot of porn.
And suddenly my pony figures and Equestria girls dolls felt like sex objects in my bedroom. And my Kim Possible fanart sitting in my sketchbook felt dirty. And the shows weren't as fun to watch anymore. I didn't end up finishing all the seasons of Friendship is Magic.
I sort of just threw myself into the boy things I was allowed to like since then. People didn't really have any questions about that, especially since I socially transitioned to male in highschool. I bet plenty of them just assumed I liked boy stuff to go with my new boy gender lol.
I wish I had still enjoyed Kim Possible and My Little Pony when I was younger though. I missed those medias but felt like I couldn't even touch them anymore. Especially after I went through a sexual trauma in highschool that I honestly don't want to publicly recount. I want to rewatch both series for fun. But I still can't work up the nerve.
And I think a lot about like. How I was lucky to have boy interests to fall back on because I know and knew plenty of people raised as girls who weren't allowed to watch boy targeted media at all. Who probably went through something eerily similar and then had nothing at all that felt okay to watch.
And sometimes I wish this was more important to people when they discuss media consumption and fandom. Sometimes I wish people were more interested in adult centered fandom sites for their horny art so at least some kid on the internet knows it's going to be porn before they choose whether or not to click. Sometimes I wish some of the first things I heard about when engaging with fandom centered around kids media weren't the top ten most disgusting porn fics. And even though I don't post explicit NSFW on my art Tumblr, I try to make it clear I find Transformers characters attractive so that people understand that before deciding to follow me even there or view more of my art. Because I actually think open and up front disclosure of "I am an adult who finds cartoon characters attractive so keep that in mind before you choose to view my work" is important. And honestly the least I can do.
And I'm not like. Saying you have to stop drawing cartoon characters sexy or whatever. I know I'm not going to stop finding Transformers robots hot. And I'm not out to advocate for censorship. I just think like. People are too used to pointing and laughing at sites pushing "kid friendly" fixes to their apps that don't do anything but frustrate users and just mean porn goes untagged. And are too used to just. Seeing cartoon character porn unfiltered cross their dash. That even well intentioned people don't really stop to pause to be like. Hey maybe I don't want my horny drawing of a kids show character to be at the top of Google search results. And maybe I should filter the image appropriately with the sites' filters or choose a more adult site for it in general.
Because honestly kids should be allowed to enjoy media without adults' sex fantasies being constantly inescapable to them.
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My highschool quote book:
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"Violence is never the answer.... unless it is" (said with a mischievous look)
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"I won't give you a 100 on assignment you didn't do"
"Not even for my birthday?"
".....it's not your birthday"
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"I'm going to lick your shoulder" -girl 1
"DO NOT LICK MY SHOULDER" -girl 2
"Then cover it up, whore." -girl 1
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"Here's the thing, if someone licks your shoulder because you don't have it covered, that's on you," - math teacher
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"Okay but the submissionn didn't work and the document got deleted. I did the assignment, I swear!"
"What was the passage you had to read with the questions about, then?"
".....I prefer not to answer"
"Yeah. Sit down."
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"You guys are great. Not because youre a good class, I hate this class, but because you all turned in your presentations, and I didn't expect any of you to do it." -English teacher
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"Hey so the presentation was supposed to be between 3-5 minutes. Yours was 23 seconds." -English teacher
".......well you can't say I wasn't efficient!"
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"Are those drugs or tictacs? If theyre adderall I want one"
"Tictacs."
(At least 6 dissapointed sighs)
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(For refrence they are both straight guys)
"Stop using my phone to take pictures of guy 1, I don't even know him." -Me
"But he's so hottttt....." -guy 2
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"Can I touch your nipples?" -guy 2
"Not in public, babe" -guy 1
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"So I was walking past the makeout hallway"
Guy 2, excitedly, "THERES A MAKEOUT HALLWAY??? TEACHER ME AND GUY 1 NEED TO GO ON A BATHROOM BREAK"
"You need to not fail my class. Do your notes."
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"Guy 2, can you stay over tonight?" -guy 1
"OoOoH do you want to kiss me????"-Guy 2
"No I want to play video games." - guy 1
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"So basically we are making a petition so me and guy 5 can be cheerleaders" -guy 4
"so I'll see you in a skirt?" -guy 6
"yes." -guy 4
"Can I sign this more than once?" -guy 6
(They did not get to be cheerleaders)
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"Okay, so you know the the college fair is today-" -math teacher
(Girl raises hand)
"Can I sleep on the floor instead of attending?" -girl 3
"Are you referring to actual college or just the college fair?" -math teacher
"Both. You never answered my question" -girl 3
"You may not sleep through the college fair." -math teacher
"This is why the school system is failing." -girl 3
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"Penis exploding machine"
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"Project emo"
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"Is it a vape?" -English teacher
"...Its a highlighter" -4 people say at once (it was a pink highlighter)
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"Google search how to kill your entire family?"
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"I feel like the second someone becomes famous they are immediately imbued with the urge to touch children" -Me
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"I wouldn't kill you guys, that's too much work." -English teacher
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"Am I watching a drug deal happen right now? What is happening?" -English teacher
"No I just give him money because he's my friend"
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"Pov: the girlies go on a road trip to cannibalize politicians" - Me
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"I wasnt looking at your boobs because they're sexy, im staring at them because I'm a fucking idiot" - Me
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"As a proud part of the gay." - Me
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"Everybody's parents die at some point, you dont have to be so sad about it" -Me
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"Are you having a boy or an abortion?"
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"I wont make you touch Jeremy's vagina, Guy 7, you don't like those" -Me
(Jeremy is an airpod case. His vagina is the charging port. Guy 7 is gay)
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"Save that for your discord boy" - Me
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"if your nipples are purple, you're not a virgin" - Me
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"I do not condone racism" -Guy 7
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"I encourage realistic thinking, not positive, but realistic" - English teacher
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"School is about doing things you don't like" -English teacher
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"shit down" -English teacher
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"Karate in the English room is a no" -Me
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"He dance battled too hard, the cops went after him" -Guy 7
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"I think, had he not insisted upon gyrating at people, the cops may not have been involved" -Me
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"Note to self: the cops do not appreciate being thrust at or run from" -Me
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"you cant have too many grandpas, don't get greedy, guy 7" -Me
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"I hate this ruler..."(Darkly) "I have to snap it in half"
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The Bookshop Clock & Time
I've been taking snapshots of the clock in Aziraphale's bookshop throughout season 2 and it's been so strange. All the references to time throughout the season got me thinking. "Too late" "I need more time" "I'm late". Crowley mentions a Richard Curtis film about falling in love in the rain. Since just about every media reference this season hits like a sledgehammer when I've looked it up, I decided to check out this one too. Based on a pretty basic google search "About Time" (directed by Richard Curtis) may have such a rain-related scene in it. What jumped out at me was the synopsis though. This movie deals with time travel in order to change events in the protagonist's life. HUH. INTERESTING.
In episode 2, we can see the clock is placed in the 10 o'clock hour when Gabriel starts singing "Every Day". We can still see the clock is in the 10 o'clock hour when the three archangels are in the bookshop. When Crowley and Aziraphale return from the bar to interrogate Gabriel about where he first heard the song, he says that he just heard it "this morning". Seems perfectly fine. He also remembers the "three nice people in the shop just now". Just now? The clock is sitting at like 5:20pm now! We just had a seven hour jump in time! Gabriel has been left unattended in the bookshop! I find myself doubting that he was actually referring to the archangels at all.
Why make the distinction between "this morning" and "just now" when referring to these events? Unlike season one, it seems (although not explicitly stated) that both angelic and demonic entities need an invitation to enter Aziraphale's bookshop. The only non-angelic and non-demonic trio I can think of at this point are the zombies that we got zero resolution on from 1941. What could they have been up to though? Neil Gaiman had such an odd response of "yup" when asked about the current whereabouts of the zombies. Probably the silliest thought I've had about this season and I don't actually think there's enough to conclude a thing at this point. Maybe it's nothing. I still find the comment strange.
Do we have any idea why episode 2 opened with Aziraphale standing in his bookshop puzzled? The episode opens with the Job memory from 2500BC but we have no reason to be looking at it until Gabriel tips him off about it later. Were we supposed to think Aziraphale was pondering this memory before the tip? Why were we shown this memory out of sequence with the present day events?
Also why was a hand missing from the clock in episode 3? The hour hand appears to be sitting at 10 o'clock, in a spot that the minute hand could never overlap. Why is Crowley so cryptic about being too late when he cuts himself off from threatening Gabriel about Aziraphale getting hurt? "It doesn't matter. It's too late for that now. It's always too late." Huh??? Why so bleak?
Then we kick off episode 4 with Aziraphale stating that he's late.
What is the significance of the opposing wall clock behind Aziraphale in episode 6 while the grandfather clock is behind Crowley? This clock is either positioned differently or blocked entirely until this scene, from what I can tell. The white clock face stands out against a rather dark background.
Why doesn't Crowley use his time-stop ability at any other point than in the Edinburgh minisode? Why is Aziraphale perfectly blocking the grandfather clock face so many times over the course of the season?
When the Metatron tells Aziraphale they need to leave the bookshop for the final time, Aziraphale looks back to the grandfather clock and seems to stop himself from saying "I need more time".
While I don't have a strong conclusion about these things, I feel like there's just too much going on to ignore. It has to be SOMETHING. If anyone else noticed weird time-related things, feel free to chime in.
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People I want to get to know better
Thank you for the tag @doingthechachaslide!! I’m finally doing this like billion years after you tagged me!!
Last Song: Trigger by Hayley Williams. I can’t believe this album is four years old already 😭
Favorite color: why is this such a hard question!! I think it’s purple? They’re all my favorite I don’t wanna pick!!
Last Film/Show: we’ve been watching death and other details on Hulu (because I love Rahul Kohli and Mandy Patinkin) and it’s sooooo fun. I love whodunnits!! And everything that Violett Beane’s character wears is incredible.
Sweet/Savory/Spicy: I’ve got SUCH a sweet tooth but you’ve gotta follow one of these up with the other! I also have to say that we literally bought another fridge that’s like, almost the size of a regular fridge so we would have a place to put all our hot sauces. So do with that what you will!
Relationship status: married! For almost four years now, which is crazy to me!! 😊
Last thing I googled: oh none of the things I’ve googled lately have been any fun (my dog has cancer 🙃) but I’m currently sitting on the couch watching Kennedy play Elden Ring so my last few searches have been like “highroad cave exit” and “boc the seamster”.
Current Obsession: I’ve been playing Cult Of the Lamb like literally all day the past few days. and I’ve been playing sooooo much 2048 on my phone. i’m addicted. Me and Kennedy were talking about our first year in college and I remembered when the game came out and us and all our friends sat in one of our dorm living rooms and were all just playing it at the same time. that time of my life was so incredibly complicated but it’s nice to have some fun and not complicated memories.
Last Book: I’ve been re-listening to Howl’s Moving Castle at bedtime because it’s one of my all-time favorite comfort books and I really need some comfort in my life right now. I was listening to The Final Girl’s Support Group but I got halfway through and then real life got incredibly stressful and I couldn’t handle it anymore. I think I want to check the physical book out at the library because I can handle reading stressful things much better than listening to them. I was also working my way back through the Rivers of London series towards the end of last year so I could listen to the latest book, but I kept on getting distracted when I got there and I’m just gonna have to start Amongst Our Weapons over again. Refer back to the whole “life got really stressful” thing.
Looking forward to: um. I dunno man, it’s a bad time to ask me this question hahaha 😅 i’m just taking it day by day right now. (So many of these answers are way more depressing than I meant for them to be hahahah)
I’m tagging some mutuals, but no pressure to respond/participate (and sorry if you’ve already done this!!) 💜
@mallstars, @moonflower-rose, @stationintern, @dragonkingabc123, @lqtraintrack
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Penny Dreadful #6: The Vampire Bat
Hey there, everyone!
I know, it's been a while since I posted anything new that wasn't just a reblog. It's not been a huge priority, to be honest.
That being said, I've been feeling the Hallows season this year very deeply, and I'm all immersed in my love for Gothic mystery and romance, and so I've decided to share something with y'all!
Now, this spread is a prediction spread that kind of came along unexpectedly. I was sitting around chatting with my daughter, we were talking about witchcraft and Gothic things (and of course playing with tarot cards), and it sort of prompted a Google search for "vampire" spreads.
We looked and looked, but didn't find anything particularly nice-looking. Pretty much standard stuff- spreads that were standard that had been reskinned to say "vampire," or spreads that were basically just clunky piles of vertical cards. Which, honestly, astonished me. People have been taken with the glamour of vampires for a while now, and I'm shocked there aren't more representations of vampire vibes in the tarot spread world, especially considering how many goth-themed tarot decks are out there.
Anyway, I hope this spread is something new, and I haven't just seen it somewhere and filed it in my mind, then regurgitated it elsewhere. Even if the layout has been used by other folks, I hope the end result is something unique.
Now, this reads very similar to my Memento Mori spread, with a few small differences. It's a prediction spread, but in true Penny Dreadful fashion, I designed this spread with the understanding that some futures we just don't want.
The spread is read thus:
The first card is read as the vampire who is coming to your door. This card represents the basic situation coming.
The second and third card are read together as the wind which carries that future to you. You can think of these cards as a description of the surrounding forces around the coming situation.
The fourth and fifth card are also read together, as that which connects the outside forces of cards 2 and 3 to the central card. Sometimes they refer to motives or wishes, sometimes to obligations or concerns, but they represent the central card's link to those forces.
Now, this spread isn't just for predictions. Like the vampire of folklore, the future can be horrible and deadly. Fortunately, there's one feature for this spread that allows us to keep it away, just like one might do with a vampire.
If you wish this fate to turn away from you, you can reassemble the cards into a warding symbol of some kind, something which keeps away evil. For Christians, you might use a cross, while Wiccans might use a pentacle- holy symbols are traditional wards after all. For myself, I prefer laying them in a pattern like the one on the right in the image below.
It's a five-petaled bloom, reminiscent of the wild mountain rose, which like garlic is a traditional herb used to prevent vampires from bothering you. In specific, it's said that the wild mountain rose keeps vampires in their coffins. So, I use that one to prevent the fate from even leaving its birthing place.
If, however, you'd like the fate as predicted to come your way... simply tell the cards that you invite it in. Perhaps leave your window open at night?
Hey, what could go wrong?
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Did you hear about Danneel working on a project for a TV show based on the book? I want to know what is your opinion about this. I still remember what the psychic guy said about bad things (her karma) will gonna happened to Danneel during May or June. Maybe her project ends up didn't work out. I am guessing.🤔
Hello Anon thank you for the ask. So the psychic guy, as was implied in past posts said this disaster is not career related but it is instead health related. I also anticipate some financial hiccups coming up as well and it is 100% related to The Winchesters lawsuit (whether it's the catalyst of disastrous changes or it IS the disastrous event is yet to be discovered). I think that the consequences of her using black magic are health related problems and even financial from The Winchesters lawsut, as I will talk about below 'cause of this great concept called synchronicities. I will first elaborate on the book optioning tidbit to show even my haters that hey, I talk about things from a LOGICAL perspective as well as a spiritual perspective, balance and all that ha ha... With this being said, for reference to everyone else this is what Anon is referring to about a book option. I picked this clip, as it includes subtitles and therefore is easier to understand for people, including myself.
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So, according to the very first Google search result from a site called katemckean.substack.com, "an option is an agreement where an author gives a producer/production company/screenwriter/someone the rights to try and get the movie "set up". There's a time period involved, usually a year with provisions for another year extension, and an amount paid to the author for each of those years. That's it. That's all it is". In other words from the New York Film Academy, what it means is "acquiring an exclusive agreement for the potential to buy the film rights". The keyword here people being potential.
This isn't me raining on anyone's parade here. "Oh no, another Danneel hater saying its just a potential project, quit bashing on her you just want her to fail" along with everything else she has ever said bad about Danneel. Ha ha no but seriously, I would hardly call it a disaster if this were to fall through. MANY projects fail and don't come to fruition, this is the nature of the industry as a whole. Danneel and Jensen are well aware of how unpredictable the entertainment industry as a whole is, so there is no real reason to call this a fail. I'm not trying to be mean by saying this Anon, I am just pointing out from a factual standpoint why this book option falling through cannot be the said disaster the psychic guy speaks of that's said to be upcoming within months. If the above information is correct with it being a year or so, I do not believe that it could be that this particular project falling through could be the said disaster also based on the timeline of events going on with this book option going on, which from what Jensen described was a pretty recent thing.
Now, I am going to talk about why I agree with him that Danneel is possibly in fact having some health problems. I recall a post from January 26, 2024 where Danneel's face looked kind of puffy in a photo taken at Al Biernat's North in Dallas. Look at her hands as well, they look slightly swollen along with her face. Now, also look at some of these photos from around November 7, 2023. Here are some more posts per this post from a friend of mine here :) I'm not sure if Danneel had a procedure done here or what but I've seen photos here and there in recent times where her face and hands looked noticeably puffy, a medical condition called edema that can cause swelling legs, ankles, face, hands, feet, and even wrists unrelated to an injury. Some of the causes of edema include:
Gravity pulling fluid down into your legs and feet.
Sitting or standing still for too long, especially in hot weather.
Eating food with too much salt.
Taking certain medicines, such as ibuprofen and naproxen.
Some health problems, such as congestive heart failure, liver disease, and kidney disease.
Lightning, lightning everywhere!
Now, looking at the photos from my friend's post and as my friend pointed out, there are lightning bolt shaped neon lights behind the former One Tree Hill cast mates as is seen in the photo below as an example. As a lot of people know, Danneel and Jensen were named in a lawsuit by a cameraman named Bryan DeLorenzo who worked on the set of The Winchesters as he was struck by lightning. It has been said that Robbie Thompson the director made the call to film the episode in question during bad weather. Osha laws state that when there is lightning spotted on radar within a 10 mile radius, all outdoor activities such as filming and even sports are to be paused and continued when no lightning has been spotted within an 8 mile radius for at least 30 minutes.
It's been assumed by many Bryan will settle with Warner Bros and Chaos Machine Productions. However, based on my research from the case status per the county court documents Bryan did in fact post/pay the jury duty fees back in January with the next meeting taking place in July. Also, it was specifically Danneel and Jensen that were named in the lawsuit NOT CMP (and yes you can in fact sue owners of a company instead of the company itself, or in other words "piercing the corporate veil").
I also made this post back on November 28, 2023 talking about how Bevin Prince's husband (the woman who also was part of One Tree Hill) did in fact pass away exactly 80 days after the Walker episode Jensen directed "No Such Thing as Fair Play" aired, which was on April 14, 2022 (funny, this being posted 8 days after the 14th this year what do you know). In that post of mine, I also did a fun attempt interpreting the tarot reading with reference to the show (and also analyzed with reference to Jensen and Danneel) featured in that episode Ranger Perez and Trey attempted to interpret themselves. Yes one of the cards in this tarot reading is The Tower which is depicted as a tower being struck by a lightning bolt. I also notated how some of the cards were touching Aquarius and looking again, the card that happens to be touching the Pisces symbol is the Death.
Curiously in the episode after the one Jensen filmed, part of the lyrics for the song "Together" by Michigander that played while Cordell and Twyla were talking about the past while sitting on a bench were as follows:
"Well, oh my god, the world is ending
Do you still want to meet me for dinner?
I feel the thunder, see the lightning
And these darker days keep getting dimmer"
Also on a funny note, the FBBC page did end up deleting this post below I saved the screenshot of with relation to a Riptide society which in FBBC's words "is an amazing charity that we will be working closely with in the future". Look at the imagery, which includes a lightning bolt under the words "Madam Radar" and the background image being of clear blue waters and what looks like an ocean with a large boat in the distance. Hmmm....
Synchronicities!
Oh what is the point of all of this you ask? As a psychic or seer or whatever you want to call me that's interested in writing about things like divine blueprints, divine plans/akashic records, etc. I am heavily interested in the "hints" we all have missed in our daily lives of future events to come. I 100% believe that many hints were missed by Danneel and even Jensen with regards to the lightning strike related lawsuit that they are currently facing, including the death of their friend Bevin Prince's husband who was struck by lightning and the other things I've mentioned in this post and others.
Common symbols and elements that keep appearing if you will, or in other words synchronicities. According to this site Lonerwolf.com with regards to what repeating elements are:
"For the lone wolf and spiritual wanderer, the awakening journey can often feel confusing and, at times, lonely. This is where synchronicity can be like a light shining in the darkness for us, guiding the way and affirming that we’re on the right path. Do you keep seeing the same repeated numbers, colors, words, or images all the time? Do you wonder what on earth is happening? Don’t worry, you’re not going crazy. You’re just experiencing synchronicity! In this guide, I’ll share with you types of synchronicity, how to welcome more synchronicity into your life, how to interpret it, and more."
Now also according to this same Lonerwolf site you can start to interpret synchronicities in the following ways (note I had to take out some of the text due to Tumblr character limitations, so please check the cited website for more info):
1. Meditate and go inwards
Ask yourself, “What does this synchronicity mean?” Wait for images, feelings, or words to enter your mind. If you still feel doubtful, repeat the same practice three times and see what answer you get.
2. Tune into your body
Your body is a repository of wisdom, and it will tell you the truth no matter what your mind tries to make you believe. When you think you know what the synchronicity means, tune into your body. Do you get any goosebumps, shivers, or feelings of expansion as though an inner lightbulb has gone off? If this is the case, you’ve likely found the right explanation.
If, on the other hand, your body doesn’t experience any notable changes, you probably haven’t found the right answer. Keep persisting.
3. Use a pendulum (ah ha one of my favorite ones obviously ^_^ )
Pendulum dowsing is a powerful way of getting a direct answer from your unconscious mind. Simply get a pendulum (or a make-shift one) and ask it a question that demands a “yes/no” answer.
4. Find patterns
One easy way to interpret the synchronicity in your life is to find patterns in your behavior. What issues or questions have been emerging a lot in your life at the moment? What has been the biggest source of anxiety/frustration you’ve been dealing with? Synchronicity often arises when we need answers and solutions. Find the patterns and relate them back to your synchronicity.
5. Explore the hidden symbolism
Synchronicity is symbolic in nature. For instance, you might see a black dog all the time in your dreams and waking life, which symbolizes negativity/bad choices. Or you might keep seeing the repetitive number “111,” which symbolizes “being number one,” or the repeated number 222, which symbolizes “duality.” Reflect on what symbolism is present in your synchronicity. What does that symbolism mean to you?
6. Use oracle and tarot cards
Renowned psychologist Carl Jung once commented on the Chinese divination method of I Ching: “For more than thirty years I have interested myself in this oracle technique, or method of exploring the unconscious, for it has seemed to me of uncommon significance.” Thanks to the I Ching, Jung developed his theory which he coined synchronicity.
7. Listen to your dreams
Your dreams reveal a lot about the synchronicity occurring in your life – they are, after all, the language of the unconscious mind.
You can either try to passively analyze your dreams or actively try to “incubate” (or create) dreams that help to answer your question.
To practice dream incubation, think about the synchronicity that has been happening in your life lately about half an hour before bed. Write down your question or draw a picture that symbolizes your synchronicity and put it under your pillow. This practice will help to prime your unconscious mind and prepare it to give you answers during your dreams. When first waking in the morning, record your dreams in a dream journal. Do this for one week and see what patterns emerge.
(Bonus) 8. Ask for guidance
When you’re still feeling stuck and confused by the synchronicity bombarding you or mysteriously poking you all the time, this is where others can be our mirrors and reflect back to the wisdom deep within us.
Asking for guidance from a trusted friend or spiritual guide can be tremendously helpful as they may be able to see your situation more objectively.
Thanks for the ask Anon. I hope you find this insightful!
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Hey so, in regards to my last post on electroshock, I'm processing more with my dear friend @ivaspinoza and have concluded that I am upset and need to rant a little about using this as a troupe. It's probably not going to be pretty or encouraging at the end like my usual thoughts on writing, so if you don't want to see me genuinely upset, I'd skip this.
Trigger warning for electroshock, medical trauma, family trauma, unreality. Be safe, friends.
So I read a whump prompt post that threw in "shock treatment" as a possible tactic that would leave a Whumpee "shaking and terrified". No further details on how or why, it was just a single reference as to a thing you can do to a character in your writing. I was surprised to read it, it was the first time I've seen it referenced in the prompt ideas that pop up on my For You page, and over the course of the next hour I proceeded to get more and more upset.
I wasn't planning on doing anything about it. It's frankly a new experience for me to be triggered like this over something I see online. I had no direct interaction with the post because I told myself that the writer just had a severely limited understanding. Maybe they're young. When I was in early high school I would've thought shock treatment was an edgy thing to happen to a person in a piece of media.
And it's that thought that ultimately motivated me to sit you all down and say something you might not realize. Writers, artists, you guys all know that Electroshock Therapy...still happens, right?
It happens a lot. 100K people a year, more or less, according to a singular Google search. It's not common, and it's only used for severe cases, but it is used. And oftentimes it's a pretty big deal. In fact, I'd dare say that it can be permanently and absolutely devastating for a family.
It was for mine.
My mom got ECT for severe depression when I was around 19 years old. From what I know, that's one of the only cases in which doctors will offer it - depression, mania, and schizophrenia that aren't successfully managed by any other means. For a few months my dad would drive her once, sometimes twice a week for treatments. She would have to wear diapers to the clinic they took her to, because since ECT is just the process of inducing multiple small seizures she would often piss herself.
She would not come home shaking. She would come home tired. I don't even think they gave her drugs. I've had a small seizure before, you aren't left twitchy and anxious - you're tired. You want to lie down. She would sit in the backyard in a daze. I would have to tell her to raise her arms so I could cut off her hospital bracelets. She wasn't catatonic, either. She could still hold a conversation and make jokes. In many ways she seemed normal. Just tired, tired, tired. A little absent in a sense.
The mood changes were stark and frightening. She would throw things. Dad told me she shattered a glass elephant I bought her as a present. She would storm into my room and scream at me for no reason. I bought a mini-fridge so I wouldn't have to go into the kitchen when I'd get hungry. If she was terrified, it didn't look like how you'd expect.
I stopped staying at home as often. I would leave the house before she woke up, sleep all day on the couch in the upstairs of a coffee shop that I considered a second home, and only come back once my Dad was back from work. While Mom was undergoing ECT, I was afraid to be alone with her. One night I had nothing else to kill time with, and to avoid going home immediately I skipped taking the lightrail back from downtown and instead biked eight miles on a freeway bike path, alone, at night.
My dad had me stay at my grandmas for a month because I couldn't take it anymore. This probably blew up in his face, as by then Mom forgot why I left. She thought he kicked me out. She kept asking me to come back and telling me she loved me. She did not remember almost kicking me out herself the night before I left.
ECT fucks your short term and long term memory. If you met my Mom she would tell you her depression is cured, and that's because she no longer has any memory of any of her childhood and most of her adulthood. That means, by proxy, she no longer remembers raising me or any of her other children.
I asked my mother if she remembered anything from my life growing up and she said no. For a birthday present that year I wrote all my favorite memories with her because now I'm the only person that knows they actually happened.
And you know what's crazy? Doctors use ECT as a last resort because they don't really know what it does long-term. I'm learning first hand, though. Mom went in for round two of treatment a little over a year later (Did you know ECT has a relapse rate of a little over 50%?) and the results were about the same. But as time goes on her memory is getting worse. When I saw her for the last time, about a month before going no-contact, she was forgetting things I said earlier in a conversation. If she develops early onset dementia I will not be surprised.
Was it worth it? I don't know.
Is it ever worth it? I don't know. I just don't know.
What I do know is that Electroshock is the most impactful thing that has ever altered my life and the lives of my family. More so than Mom's suicide attempt. It is a massive, tragic, terrifying thing. I'm not saying that you can't talk about it in media. Next to Normal does a pretty good job depicting it, and that's because they had the sense to research and ask people with experiences.
People use SA as a trope and understand it's a big deal. People use suicide as a trope and understand it's a big deal. If you're going to mention ECT as a plot point in your story, go ahead, just take the time to actually know what you're saying and doing.
Please. Have some respect.
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oh my gosh okay. so I saw barbenhiemer a few days ago and i habe just been sitting in my thoughts and I have so many things to say. THIS HAS SPOILERS FOR BOTH!!!
i saw Oppenheimer first so:
the cinematography was gorgeous. this movie was absolutely stunning. not only were the colors and shots beautiful, but I adored the black-and-white shots used for Strauss' perspective (which reminded me of asteroids city's use of b&w for perspective/setting changes!!!).
Florence pugh. oh my goodness. she was BEAUTIFUL I kept turning to my friend and saying oh my god she's gorgeous. I loved her acting, she embodied her character spectacularly. (also she so me for flirting with Cillian a bit during an interview)
CILLIAN MURPHY !!!! i adore him and I went into this very excited because I adore the dark knight and he was spectacular in that. anyways I loved his acting and how he delivered his lines, he added so much to the story. for such a long movie I loved his whole performance, and im super excited to watch it again (can u tell I love cillian murphy)
I understand it was a biopic so they were focusing more on the man himself and not the situation, but my friend who i went with actually googled the movie while we went to dinner- and found that the bomb test they showed had actually hit both Mexican and Indigenous people that were living in/near Los Alamos (mostly with radiation and fallout), which if we can find in one google search, is kinda weird we didn't see it in the movie at all. anyways I went to piss in the middle of the movie (Ik i should have peed before but WHATEVER anyways) when i got back they had already bombed both cities?? i was so surprised i had missed it, they didn't cover it much after that until around the end when the moral quandary is brought up more. anyways im seeing it again so ill definitely pay attention to these details!!
COSTUMING!!!! the costumes were beautiful, I adore the fashion of this era so it makes lots of sense but it was spectacular. my friend and I who both do makeup for theatre were caught off guard by the aging at the end as well, spectacular!!!
some of the dialogue was hard to follow and some moments definitely got a little complicated for me, but I definitely enjoyed the movie overall. Im going to go see it again soon at a theatre near me which is showing it with actual film!!! im very excited
I have a friend in film whod probably look at me like I was crazy for these reviews but that's okay cause I <3 him and I might get to see it with him soon :3
BARBIE:
god i adored this movie. ive seen twice and I've cried very much in that goddamn theatre. its a wonderful message about womanhood and girlhood and also just being human.
did you know all of kens clothes fit him.....
the movie itself was wonderful, the cinematography was nice and I saw some really beautifully framed shots!! the color scheme was spectacular aswell, I adore greta girwig for sure. not to mention the costuming, makeup, set design, the whole movie's tech was just spectacular I have no complaints for real.
this movie is very "first I laughed, then I serioused", the beginning was lots of giggles for me, I love the characters and all the references, it felt very nostalgic to see all the things I loved as a kid come up on the screen.
the feminist takes were very refreshing to see! I've seen many people comment on them being very broad and vague, and I agree some things like fatphobia and racism could have gone a bit deeper, but for what it was I was so happy. i felt my girlhood was really seen and I felt like I had a weight of my chest a lot of the time. thought its hard to separate many social movements from each other, this was a pretty good job
speaking of fatphobia I do wish that there was more fat representation, there was one main plus size Barbie and maybe one or two chubbier ones, but it would have been cool to see more of a body type range. its hard to ask for more because there already is SO MUCH diversity but I noticed a lot that the bigger ken was paired with the bigger barbie and that kinda thing, so I just wanted to mention that. i really do appreciate it though, and I love what Gerwig has given us.
did you know that all of kens clothes fit him.
allen is definitely non binary coded, I lack the words to properly explain this but I've seen many people bring it up!! there's also some more trans allegory I connected too throughout the movie, and I really enjoyed the healthy masculinity that came from some of the movie :3
everyone's gay and ND!!!!!!!!! margot robbies barbie is definitely aroace lesbian and maybe autistic and allen is nonbinary and queer and ken is probably transgender and adhd and he's just like me fr so on so fourth they are all queer. thank you :)
#barbie#barbenheimer#greta gerwig barbie#margot robbie#ryan gosling#barbie 2023#oppenheimer#christopher nolan#cillian murphy#michael cera#barbie movie#lgbtq#feminism#movie reviews#kinda#not really#this is mostly silly#they are all gay your honor#barbie spoilers
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hiii i recently read your edward nashton college au fic and was wondering if you planned on continuing it ?? i love the storyline and would love to see where it goes :O
Edward Nashton x F!Reader Part 2 (18+ ONLY)
Word Count: 2.7k
Warnings: nsfw content, dark, sexual references, incel mindset, stalking, manipulation, masturbation, cursing, angst, isolation from peers
A/N: Happy New Year All!!
It’s not fair, the way he’s expected to just carry on and pretend like he’s not spiraling. The way he needs to act like everything is fine, and that he doesn’t care about any of this. It burns, and it’s slowly eating away from him on the inside out. He’s angry, and confused and he feels deceived. How could you do this to him? How could you be with that shithead when he’s right here with his arms and heart opening just praying for a chance to give you the whole world?
You’re such a smart girl in many ways. An amazing student, making dean’s list every semester. You’re a reader… with an almost inhuman GoodReads goal that you surpass every year. And you’re thoughtful- the insights you share of what you read for is enough to just compile and submit as a final thesis. You know how to make people like you. You have mastered understanding people better than Eddie can ever hope- you amaze him with your ability to listen, and to be a good, genuine friend to so many people, especially those that don’t extend that back to you. But in other ways, you're quite dumb. Wasting your time with that guy was just one of the things Eddie realized you needed help with.
He needs to set you up with better internet security once he’s the one your leaning against as you type away on your laptop. You’re busy with a final paper, while your deadbeat boyfriend watches the game with some of his friends. He wonders if Chris knows that your search history is the proof in the pudding that he can’t satisfy you, and you beautiful soul think the problem is you.. not him.
The amount of times you google and read articles on tips, won’t fix the fact that your boyfriend is bad in bed. Eddie acknowledges he doesn’t have as much of a body count as the man, but even Eddie can observe terrible form and pure selfishness all the way across the street as he watched this supar excuse of a human being chasing his own competition while your face falls for the briefest of moments. Chris doesn’t notice, but Eddie noticed. He embodied it. He makes a promise he’d never not make you cum,’make you feel good.
He wonders what you look like when you aren’t faking it, and putting on a little performance so that asshole can keep his conflated ego. You don’t deserve that. You’re too good for that. If you were with him, he wouldn’t even think about fucking you until you came several times. He imagines you sitting up working on a paper, or maybe reading a book, with your back on his chest where you're safe. And he’d lazily pull you apart slowly with his fingers. Circling your clit and teasing your pretty pussy for hours if you’d let him. And he’d praise you and tell you all the things he wants to tell you now. That you're perfect, the most amazing, beautiful girl and that he’s so lucky that you even looked at him.
He needs to move his plan forward. It’s depressing seeing you pent up and frustrated and he can’t help you just yet. Everything needs to be perfect. He can’t let his baby be stressed, or heartbroken or anything else when the time is right. And of course, that means getting the braindead Neanderthal out of the picture in a way that will make you resent him. He’s sure any evidence he’d need to get this roadblock out of the way lies in the moron’s cell. But, you’re too sweet, and too forgiving. You don’t know your worth, and you are quickly beginning to settle. Eddie refuses to see you settle, not with this man who doesn’t even see you for weeks until he wants a quick fuck. He doesn’t love you like Eddie does. He won’t take care of you the way Eddie will.
In the meantime, he’ll learn to be content to be the shoulder you cry on. To become your friend. He’s decided for now he wants to be friends than not be in your life at all. He’ll continue his role of the found friend. The guy best friend. That’s the trope he’s settled on. You’re always rooting for the best friend to get the girl in the end. This way, while he devises a plan to eliminate Chris from the picture, he can still be close to you. And love you, even if it’s not exactly how he wants it just yet. It’s enough for now just to exist as a page in your life. He can wait. He’s patient. Everything needs to go perfectly.
He knows you’re doing it on purpose. You send him little unspoken messages letting him know that you want him too. The clothes you wear, the way you talk to him, riddled with innuendo and you're so coy. Shy little thing that just makes him crazy. He knows your not innocent, he’s seen the things you do. He knows the e-books you read on your Kindle to hide the romance books. He loves it, your little good girl act you put on for everyone. So sweet, and nice and then you go back to your dorm and the you behind closed doors is such a dirty, naughty girl.
He sees the way you touch yourself in bed when your roommate is gone. He knows all about that little toy you keep under your bed in a shoebox. He thinks about how he can’t wait to get his hands on the thing and show you the other ways you can use it. He’s read the titles on your Kindle Unlimited, your ao3, tumblr… and it’s enough to make his cock undeniably hard. Its all research. To please you, and learn what you like so he can be the best boyfriend for you. Learn all the little kinky secrets you keep in your incognito browser so he can be the one to finally make you fucking cum since your current man clearly couldn’t.
He’s waiting for you outside your dorm, across the quad under his usual tree. He can see you in your dorm, you always seem to have the curtains open. You’re on the phone with someone, and he can tell his baby is upset with how she’s pacing, and it seems like she’s fighting with whoever was on the other end of the phone. He checks the time on his laptop. About 3 minutes ago you should have received an anonymous email with photos from your boyfriend’s iCloud account. He’s not bright enough to realize those pictures weren’t ever deleted. Unseemly photos that broke his heart to send you arrived at approximately 2:23 to your personal email address.
He’ll be here for you, in your time of need. Your shoulder to cry on. He waits outside patiently for the movie moment. Whenever you leave your dorm, he’ll be there and then you’ll see him and it will finally click. It was him all along that you needed. Your shy, quiet, almost invisible Eddie was there the whole time and you finally notice him. You realize how much you need him. That you love him the same way that he absolutely and unconditionally loves you. This heartbreak is just a little chapter for your bigger story. Eddie is your happy ending. He just needs you to see him.
It’s two hours later when you finally emerge from your dorm. You have a hoodie on with the hood up covering your face from the world. He knows it’s to hide the fact that you’re still crying. It’s actually cute. The way your hoodie is longer than your little pajama shorts. It makes his cock twitch in his jeans at the thought of you just wearing that hoodie. You walk with your head down, arms crossed tightly across your chest. You’re embarrassed, and emotional. And vulnerable.
He watches from his place, but then gets up and heads to his position to run into you. Just like he expected, you're walking quickly, head low, heading directly to either your friend's building to talk or maybe the dining hall to grab food before anyone sees you. Either way, you're walking like you're on a mission so he moves quickly.
“Oh, sorry I didn’t see you,” you apologize, quickly helping Eddie pick up his dropped books. “I wasn’t paying attention- Eddie! Oh god, uh, hey.”
“Don’t worry about it,” he stutters, he thought he could be suave, but his stomach is a bundle of nerves and his head is dizzy at the smell of your shampoo. You take the book he dropped (the next read from your Instagram) and tucks it under his arm.
“That one was great,” you comment, looking to move away quickly before he notices your tear stained face. He pours, concerned.
“Are you okay?” He asks, “Can I ask what’s wrong?”
“I’m fine, don’t worry about me,” you try to say with a sniffle, but fail terribly and erupt in a sob. You do your best to choke back the tears and he can tell your trying so hard to keep it in.
“You don’t seem it,” he says gently, “not to call you a liar.” That makes you smile the smallest bit and it makes his heart race. You take a shaky breath and try to settle your breathing- but it gets much worse and it all just escapes you. You rest your head on his shoulder he offers to you, graciously letting his sweatshirt muffle the sounds of your sobs.
He’s overwhelmed to be this close to you. To have you touching him this intimately. It was all going to plan, and yet he couldn’t anticipate this all would make him feel. He mumbles your name softly and rubs your back as your tears leave a large spot on his shoulder. He loves it. Wouldn’t trade this for anything. It’s all exactly as he pictured.
That’s it, that’s a good girl, let it out. He’s here. It’s all okay now. He’s going to make sure no one hurts you again. You don’t have to worry about that stupid boy. It’s all going to be better now. Just wait and see.
“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry,” you apologize, pulling away, and it takes all his will power to not pull you back in. “This is so embarrassing, I’m so sorry. That was so not okay,” you force a chuckle. “You don’t know me, I’m so sorry, Eddie. I don’t… I’m sorry, uh, I should not burden you with this.”
“Hey, hey,” he says softly, only touching your arm respectively, it’s almost like it’s hovering. He’s a good guy. He’s not going to take advantage of this. Not now. That’s what will make you like him, he’s going to be the respectful guy, the nice guy. The one you can come to and trust.
“It’s okay,” he says soothingly. “Do you want to talk about it? Let me be a little more helpful than just a shoulder to cry on- unless you just need that. That’s okay too. I'm your friend. It’s okay.”
You nod and sniffle, offering a weak but grateful smile. You are able to mumble a small thank you and he just thinks you’re so cute. You’re so sincere. He’s so sorry he had to make you hurt like this. He knows if you knew you’d understand, but you also understand why he can’t tell you. You’re too sweet, you don’t deserve to be subjected to that. That’s why he’s here, so you don’t have to worry your little head about anything else. He’s going to protect you from all of that.
That was the start of your friendship. No longer just classmates, or friendly acquaintances. That moment solidified Edward’s presence in your life. That pivotal moment was what let him in. It was the open window and invitation inside instead of merely getting just glimpses of your life.
It takes so much self control around you, to not be too forward and scare you away. You’re delicate, and he knew he needed to ease in slowly. Purposeful moments spaced out just enough to let you believe it was all happening as it unfolded, and not that he’s had these moments drafted for months just waiting to Star you in them.
Your popularity and status took a very hard blow as soon as you started to talk more with Eddie. People warned you that he was a weirdo, and a creep and that you should avoid him. He was a troubled person and you needed to keep your distance. You ignored all the warnings, people were just cruel, and they never got to know him the way you did, you believed.
Eddie began to help you understand that he was the first true friend you actually had, and how everyone else was fake, and status obsessed. It bothers you to see people avoid you now. They had reached out in the beginning, urging you to stay away from him and come out again, but he helped you understand they didn't care about you. Soon, texts and calls were avoided, you’d rather be with Eddie. Your one true friend, the one person you could be yourself around. He was all you needed.
He can hardly contain himself around you, still, after months of this only friends thing. You’re precious, and delicate, and he doesn’t want to scare you away by moving too fast. You’re growing closer and closer each day, but it’s also more and more painful for him. To restrain his desires, to make the sacrifices he needs to keep you happy. It doesn’t help that you have no idea of how much of an fucking tease you are.
You’re affectionate by nature. Caring, constantly showing your platonic affection through little touches. Holding his arm, rubbing his shoulder, hugs, kisses on cheeks… it’s all so overwhelming. He’s still not used to the chills he gets everytime you touch his arm, or push his grown out hair from his eyes. You’re so needy for physical touch, and it causes him so much strain. He can’t contain himself, desperate to just finally release all the pent up tension running deep in him and just finally wreck you.
Many times, he’d need to excuse himself- thanking whatever higher power let him secure a single dorm with a bathroom- to pump his cock while you wait for him on his bed, movie paused. You’re in his room, something he fantasized about for ages, and it’s so overstimulating. Both of you, legs touching, with your thighs exposed by your shorts that have ridden up. Your shoulders brush against each other and your skin is just so soft, he can’t take it. He wants to just ravish you, freely let his hands grope and roam all over the exposed flesh. He can’t help it, can you really blame him?
Now that it was just him, it became his duty to keep the others away. He’s not stupid enough to think he’s the only one that wants you. He sees the way heads turn when you walk past, and how it goes unnoticed by you often. He sees the way despite his presence, other men on campus will approach you. You think they are friends, but Eddie knows they are just like him. But they don’t want what’s best for you like he does. Self-serving jerks that make you laugh politely at their jokes, and have your little mind convinced their friendliness is genuine, but Eddie sees right through it.
He always wants to keep you just like this. Cuddled into his side, head resting peacefully on his shoulder and just enjoying silence as a movie plays softly as the only source of light in the dorm. He considers himself so undeserving but also the only one deserving of you. He lives to be able to just witness you, your essence… Just the mere fact of your existence is enough to make his life something worthwhile. He can strive to be everything you want, and be the only thing you need as you are for him.
The friendzone is a fascinating phenomena to Eddie. He’s observed he provides the emotional support of a partner, but that final step of establishing a relationship just never arrives. It’s perpetually dating, but the outings aren’t considered to be dates. It’s frustrating, like many things when it comes to you. However, he knows you’re still getting over that asshole. He understands your fears and apprehensions, but it bothers him how they prevent you from realizing your feelings for him. He knows you love him, you show him that every single goddamn day. You just never seem quite there to commit the same way he does.
You just need a little more time, and soon enough he knows he can make you his.
#edward nashton x reader#ed nashton x reader#ed nashton#the batman riddler#the riddler x reader smut
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My friends and I read the sample given of that systemless book or whatever and I have thoughts
Needs Beta Readers. Badly.
The fake southern accent is doing "life point" damage to me (a real life bona fide southerner)
None of the "stats" are explained. What's LP? Idk. Just enjoy your tropes and shut up
The protagonist doesn't know what angels, multiverses, or robots are.
We unanimously decided "The Goddess" is Robot Dolly Parton (even if she doesn't deserve the honor of comparison)
The afterlife has google image search
Robot Dolly Parton is incompetent and almost kills the protagonist by pressing the wrong button. Oopsie daisy ig
"????" Is actual dialogue, as in it is shown to be said by the protagonist. How? Idk. Fuck you.
Protagonist with pink hair is confused by hair dye
The Author forgot how homestuck characters look and described a troll cosplayer as having "aquamarine hair"
The homestuck cosplayer gets mad at the protagonist for being a "roleplayer". Lmfao
Somehow this is the most believable part because as someone who has never been to the West Coast, I'm fairly sure that's just how it is over there
Someone shouts "Wombo Combo"
This:
(Context is he saw a guy with pink hair and thought he was from his same world)
The "system" it refers to seems to be a cross between TCGs, MMOs, and Gatcha. There's a direct Yu-Gi-Oh reference. (Note: I don't get TCGs and ive never seen cartoon adaptations of them)
People keep turning him away for being a roleplayer
He did finally explain what LP is (Life Points) which was my guess but since everything uses LP the entire thing runs on what is basically blood magic. But you can gain 1000 blood magic at the cost of 0 blood magic. I guess we found that advertised "abusable system" angle. As far as I saw there's not any kind of cooldown or AP system (granted I'm relying on screenshots provided by @nalver as I'm currently sitting in a hospital while my dad has a procedure done so I can't directly access the text. You can get the sample text yourself on Amazon but I frankly wouldnt recommend it)
He vows to slay "many, many cosplays" because he spawned in generic brand Comic Con I guess
I'm actually gonna just leave this here because my dad should have been done with his procedure a while ago and time got away from me. Hoping nothing's wrong but now my mom is anxious
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can you do L x reader where L comes out to reader as transfem? thanks
A/n This is such an interesting idea since I've never really seen anyone headcannon L as transfem so I'm excited to write this. Sorry there's not a lot of dialog but I really wanted to show how L felt before getting to the fluffy coming out.
Over the years L had felt disconnected to many things about their identity. They had gone by so many different names and disguised themselves as so many different people. Things like gender were never even considered. Hardly anybody saw or spoke to L so they didn't care what they perceived as.
However L's feelings about the particular subject of gender started to changed when the task force was introduced. L had never minded You, Watari, Near and Mello using more masculine terms to address them (though they always liked it more when you called them pretty instead of handsome). Now though they were surround by the task force every day constantly referring to them as a 'he'.
L hated it. They hated how Light would say 'Well he is the world's greatest detective.' whenever L did something that annoyed Light. They hated how Mastsuda would jokingly refer to them as 'one of the boys'.
It frustrated them to no end these new feelings of dysphoria. L knew they were different, not in a bad way, but defiantly different. The thing that frustrated them the most though was that they didn't know how to descried how they are different. So one night when everyone was asleep they decided to find out.
It started with a simple google search, 'Why am I man that wants to be like a woman?' If only they had known the rabbit hole of discovery that simple search would lead them. L's whole world view completed changed that night. They finally had words to describe how they felt and god it felt good. L was a woman she always had been.
The next step was telling you, her lovely partner. She knew you would accept her, you had confessed a few years ago you didn't have any particular gender preference, but it was still intimidating to tell someone. At first L didn't even know how to bring it up but you were her partner and as much as she likes to think she could hide what she was thinking and feeling you could always tell what she was thinking.
'L ,darling, is there something on your mind? Don't feel pressured to answer but you seem distracted lately.'
That question made her freeze up. Turning around slowly she deliberated over her words carefully. 'Actually there is something I would like to talk about.'
'Ok well lets sit down.' you replied, surprised at L's willingness to talk. 'I've have felt for a while now that I do not completely like being referred to as a man. I now realize that is because I am woman not a man even though I was born a man.' You stared at her in shock taking in this new revelation. 'How do you feel?' L asked shyly.
'Oh L darling I doesn't matter how I feel all that matters is that you feel good about yourself. Plus I don't care I'm just happy that you can start being your true self.'
'Thank you that is very nice to hear.' she said staring deep into your eyes.
'So I guess I have a cute girlfriend now?' you teased.
#death note#death note x reader#l death note#l lawliet#l x reader#gender nuetral reader#x reader#reader insert#fluff#l lawliet fluff#death note fluff#death note reader insert#death note fanfiction#death note one shot#one shot
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Unpopular opinion: Sam Smith is cool & valid
CW: transphobia, nonbinary hate
Every time I see an article pop up about Sam Smith, there’s a bunch of nasty, transphobic comments and jokes from people even if it’s not an article related to Sam’s gender. And, additionally a lot of people keep saying “Sam Smith has changed so much!”
It all makes me genuinely angry because Sam Smith is such a cool person and talented singer.
So, here is my post defending them because they are so valid and undeserving of the hate and ruthless laughs they’ve been getting.
Their gender identity
I can’t remember when exactly, but I BELIEVE it was a few years ago that Sam came out as nonbinary, stating their preferred pronouns are they/them. Cool. Good for Sam. I was and still am happy for them!
But of course, after this, a lot of people didn’t want to respect this. So, Sam has been continuously misgendered and called “delusional” (which is sadly very common transphobic behavior).
It’s really sad to me that there are still so many close-minded people out there who can’t accept people using gender neutral pronouns and don’t understand that they literally use they/them pronouns singularly ALL THE TIME for strangers with indeterminable gender. Like, bigots, use your brain for two goddamn seconds…
“Oh there’s someone sitting over there. I don’t know who they are.”
“I haven’t met my new neighbor yet but I heard they have a dog. Their dog barks a lot at night. I don’t know how that doesn’t bother them.”
You can also do a very quick Google search and find out that they/them has been used singularly for centuries now. It is basic English language.
It is not strictly plural and not used only when referring to more than one person. The proof is there.
Also if you’ve had the luxury of never having to worry or question your gender at any point in your life, it must be fucking nice, because us trans and enby people have not had that luxury. And, what makes it even harder is that society squishes gender into boxes.
But, you see, enby folks don’t fit into these boxes. They don’t fully identify (or don’t identify at all) with their assigned gender at birth.
Coming from me who’s trans enby, at first, I didn’t fully understand how someone can internally feel that they’re a woman, a man, or neither. I can understand where that confusion comes from. However, I got some clarity and realized there can be a lot of internal discomfort over having to view yourself as the gender you were given at birth and that others perceive you as that gender. Or, that maybe you simply have a stronger preference of feeling a different gender (or none) over the one given to you.
I remember reading a really great article about Sam Smith regarding their perspective on this. Sam said they’ve always felt they’re nonbinary, and that they feel just as much womanly as they do manly (not the exact wording, but something along the lines of that). And seriously, good for them for confidently explaining that! That open representation is so important.
The change in their appearance
I will say that this is absolutely a mountain made out of a mole hill.
Sam gets put down for their weight and their fashion choices that don’t “flatter” their figure. It is truly disgusting to me that people bring their weight into this. People naturally lose and gain weight, it’s not uncommon. It shouldn’t be seen as gross or controversial. We’re all human.
In my opinion, Sam’s outfit and costume designs are so amazing and very fitting for who they are as a person. Also, you can just look at Sam and see how happy they are being themselves and wearing what they want to wear. There’s so much pure joy and confidence.
I feel like Sam really came into their own with both their identity and fashion sense, which I have such strong admiration for. I don’t know how people can tear others down for finding themselves and doing what obviously makes them very happy. I think it’s a lot of self projection.
It’s not that there’s anything wrong with wanting to fit into the typical styles women and men have - that’s perfectly okay! It’s a problem when you feel it’s okay to force others to fit into the “normal” type of fashion. And, honestly, I’m willing to bet if all kinds of style were completely acceptable in society, a lot of those same people who make fun of people like Sam would also develop their own sense of style that wouldn’t necessarily fit what’s currently deemed as “normal.”
Also, I wanted to mention one of the most controversial outfits (aside from the one where Sam’s nips were out) - the devil suit and hat. This was seen as worshipping and promoting Satanism despite it being one of Sam’s more reserved outfits.
But, legit, it was a costume for a song that is called Unholy?! It fits the narrative of the song and doesn’t even measure up to the level of controversial past singers’ costumes that are - as we’ll say - unholy.
The change in their music
Putting Sam’s presentation aside, there are people who think Sam has changed their style of music, too. But, as an active listener of their music, I can tell you this has only been the case for their more popular songs lately.
Unholy and I’m Not Here to Make Friends are undeniably different from Sam’s old popular hits. However, if you are in fact a big fan of theirs, you would’ve listened to their latest album and known that most of the songs on there are still in fact very much the same style as their past hits.
If you preferred Sam’s style of music before Unholy and I’m Not Here to Make Friends became popular, listen to their other songs on the latest album Gloria. I highly recommend How to Cry, Fire on Fire, No God, and Lose You. They’re still very much the same as Sam’s older hits and are absolutely beautiful songs.
Conclusion
I think Sam is amazing. They’re just being themselves and they’re incredible for showing others it’s okay to embrace your own personal identity and style.
I don’t think Sam has done or said anything foul that would make people hate them, unless I’m unaware of something that happened. So, from what I’m understanding, they’re a joke to a lot of people - particularly the bigots - simply because they’re being the person that they are.
It’s easy for these people to sit behind their computers at home and pitch a fit about Sam “changing” and say nasty things about them. They’re definitely jealous that they don’t have half the talent and confidence Sam has, plus the super cool outfits. However, I can’t let these people continue acting this way towards Sam without calling them out. Why? Because it’s still spreading more hate that ends up extending beyond the internet into the real world.
Sam Smith has not only received this wave of hate on the internet, but they’ve gotten insulted (and I think even spat on) in public just for living their life authentically. It makes me so upset. These people need to be stopped and called out for their disgusting behavior.
Leave people alone for being who they are. They’re not hurting you. And if you feel hurt by just them existing, go touch some grass and figure yourself out, pal.
#lgbt#lgbt pride#trans enby#enby#nonbinary#non binary pride#sam smith#celebrity#singer#artist#trans artist#nonbinary rep#unpopular opinion#they them#transphobia#enby positivity#enby pride#nonbinary phobia#doing something unholy#unholy#i’m not here to make friends
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i love your masterlist of places to find refs, do you have any good recs for where to find mobility aid references/poses? especially with canes and forearm crutches? i struggle so much to find them and was wondering if you'd come across any good sites for it 💖
Hi! I didn't find any specifically for poses with mobility aids, but adorkastock has at least some and @teamwarchicken seems to have a lot (comparative to other sources). If you go into their archive and filter by tag, they have one for crutches:
But it only has 6 images.
They don't have a tag for wheelchairs, but under the tag "sitting" there's a fair % of them. Definitely more than 6.
You can just scroll and scroll on that tag.
There was nothing for canes. I tried a couple of their 'leaning on' or 'holding' tags but didn't see any.
Overall, it doesn't look like there's a good source for reference photos with mobility aids specifically. Even a general google image search for "mobility aid references/poses" doesn't yield many results.
It looks like the best is actually to search [mobility aid you're looking for] and then filter to photo on tumblr! For example, there's TONS of pictures of people posing with their canes. However, there are also a lot of caning k!nk posts, so I wouldn't recommend it if you want to avoid occasionally seeing someone's behind. (Tried cane user but the tag wasn't popular enough to filter by photo) The tag for "mobility aid" more generally is also really good (and doesn't leave any room for uh,,,other content) and there's a lot of cute ideas for mobility aid decorations and positivity posts, which is not great if you don't want to scroll as much for your pose reference but great if you also want to see those. (Side note: need to add some cool beaded cane-bracelets to my cane ^-^)
In light of the lack of good resources for this, I've made a sideblog called @mobility-reference for this. I just made it so it doesn't have anything on it yet, but I would like it to be collaborative due to myself not having much time (the Goncharov remake + college), so anyone who likes the idea, lmk if you want to be a member.
#long post#ask#mobility aid#reference photos#thanks for the ask!#might also make a pinterest board idk#hal rambles#disability#art
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hey! so, uhm, sorry if answering this makes you uncomfy, or, i understand if you don't want to answer this.
tw!
i recently relapsed, after 4 years clean. could, i have a lil positivity, and tips on how to avoid it? i know i can google search tips, but they all seem so topical and cold. i need to know that someone cares, even if it's just a stranger on the internet (but a very kind stranger).
-they/he
Hello dear!
Thank you so much for reaching out to me. I know it is not easy, but seeking support is a sign of great strength. I am so sorry to hear you’re struggling with a relapse. I think this is referring to self harm, but if you are referring to an eating disorder, substance use, or something else please let me know and I can reply with an adjusted response!
First I want to remind you that you have done nothing wrong. This does not erase or diminish the years of progress you have made. Everyone has the chance of relapse, and many of us do. I myself have absolutely done so, and it’s important to forgive ourselves. You did the best you could in that moment and I know that. All that matters now is helping you return to a safe and solid ground for healing.
Of course is physical safety is important. Keeping any wounds new or old clean and cared for is very important. I know this can be a mental struggle, so turning on a video or something silly can help. Disinfect fresh or relatively fresh wounds, and if you can apply a cream such as Neosporin to reduce risk of infection or damage. Do not bandage over the Neosporin, let it absorb and the area dry. Change bandages frequently and avoid irritants on the area. If the scars do trigger you, you can start applying lotions and skin care such as rosehip oil as soon as they fully heal and scabs are gone.
Avoiding relapse is hard, but it is definitely possible. Many nights are sitting and fighting with yourself until you fall asleep, and that’s unfortunate but true. It’s important to have a Safety Plan made for when you have these difficult times. We can’t think clearly under intense stress, so when you have a clear mind take the opportunity to write out a plan. Here is a good template.
Removing triggers is very important, as is developing coping skills for when you have triggers that are inevitable come up. Rid yourself of any and all objects for self harm. Yes even the ones with other purposes if possible. Keep dull scissors and maybe a safety cutter for kiddos. It has been found repeatedly that simply not having access to a method of self harm vastly effects the likelihood of a person doing so! So keep them away!
Some people need to focus on the feelings, and some need a distraction until the subside. Neither is better than the other!
To process you can journal, talk to yourself out loud about your feelings, pretend you’re comforting a friend and respond to your feelings in that way. Draw about your feelings, create art even if it’s not “good” or pretty. Try making something with your negative feelings and then changing it by adding more positive thoughts and affirmations.
To distract or comfort, a good method is to pile up all of your comfiest things, pick a show, game, book, music, etc. and put it on. Music you find comforting (not music that make you sad!!!) here’s mine! Lay down and give yourself the time to rest. It’s ok to sleep or stay awake, to tune in and out. But just breathe. Let yourself be comfortable. Consider repeating some affirming phrases out loud or in your head:
- I do not deserve pain or harm no matter what
- Harming myself will not make me feel better or fix the things I’m struggling with
- I am going to be okay, it’s okay that I don’t feel good right now
- This will not last forever.
- I am a being of love and I am loved by those around me
If you feel that you cannot sit still and must do something, going for a walk may be helpful. You can also do a workout video, yoga, dance, or choose a task like organizing your space.
If you are struggling with feeling that you need the sensation of self harming, you can try several options. Fidgets are a good start, then you could try snapping a rubber band or hair tie, holding ice on your skin or in your hand, drawing with pen on your skin, or other safe temporary discomforts.
After getting through the worst of it, getting out of that hole is important. Go outside even if you just sit still. Call a friend or text them. Play a game, read at a coffee shop, just move. Try to talk to someone close to you as soon as possible, and if possible contact a therapist for an appointment. Don’t tell yourself it isn’t important, it is! You have been struggling, and while we may think we’re out of the dark and don’t need help, it’s always worth seeking support so you can avoid that darkness in the future.
Remember when in crisis you can always text HOME to 741741 to receive support from a crisis counselor. I can attest this line is very helpful.
Sorry this is a bit messy, it had to be written from my phone! I can tell you that you have my full support, and I know you can do this. Thank you for reaching out, I am always here if you need some comfort or advice! Much love ❤️
-Evan
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