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lonelyquail · 9 months

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ok so while my ds is getting sand poured into it at alarming rates I'm thinking about how jrpgs in specific have a really weird desync with How Important Death Is. like some address it better than others but it very frequently happens where if you take a step back youll go "am I wild or is everybody just like, Really down with murder in this game". and consequences for said murder, especially in a characterization sense but even just actual physical consequences, don't really happen? unless it's a vehicle for conflict but like. when it is a vehicle for conflict it feels weird because why are These Guys actually taking the fact we killed somebody in broad daylight seriously and coming after us for it while all the other npcs and even the main party took it like it was another saturday evening

see I Think where the issue lies is in the fact that everything is in its own little world when you're in a battle? like. when you fight an enemy and you get leather out of it it's seen as something the enemy Drops and not. their hide. when you defeat a character in a battle it does just feel like you Defeated them. unless there's dialogue afterwards that says otherwise you don't even mentally assume you killed em you just wounded them enough to make them flee or dissolve or whatever. and it's Weird to just. have that assumption there because for a lot of games it really isn't clear if you're killing them or defeating them !!

that last point is extra important when you have the specific brand of Skittish Hero / Noble Hero Who Doesn't Kill People / Rational Hero In Way Over Their Head or whatever where you really don't think they Would kill a guy just to get them out of the way. in that case it's REALLY weird because it's hardly brought up. even if it Is brought up that that guy Sure Did Die the mc doesn't tend to actually have a reaction ??? and I don't know why this is ???? like Any written reaction would be more interesting than nothing even if the guy doesn't have a full on crisis about taking another life having them go "oh shit, The Consequences" would be nice. really anything except (oh cool we can advance the plot now).

I will also mention that Some deaths do matter plot wise but very frequently what makes them matter is how much of it is linked to an in game battle I think. if your mc just finishes a fight and comes back to the overworld and the guy's Disappeared or Dissolved or whatever it means they don't matter. if the guy's still around after the fight it means it's more significant, especially if they're still alive but wounded or Really Shaken Up. because this clears up the indistinguishable line between if a battle is lethal or not and if a character decides to deal a finishing blow now it's Way more telling of their character. even though this is basically the same thing that happened in the (killed In A Battle) scenario. just with more dialogue. I will also mention that the person who deals the finishing blow is Rarely Ever that good hearted protagonist and often they'll even go :0 at somebody else committing a murder despite them instigating and helping murder quite a few people. just. In Battle. so it's less bad. I guess.

this is leaving out the fact that in party deaths are often a Major Major Blow because like. ok that's fair. that's A Guy You Knew that's understandable. anyway I don't really know where I'm going with this I just think it's interesting how in these types of games death can swap from not mattering at all to mattering a Lot and if u don't think about it too hard u don't even question it. I'll probably be putting some examples in the tags idk

#i will note that in this specific instance most of my party Is actually super down with murder like vocally #so its less weird but it Is weird that the mc does. Not Seem The Type.#i mean not to say he should have tried to spare everybody i think its kinda neat that he doesnt but #if the fact that he doesnt was brought up at all thatd be interesting. have him acknowledge he killed a dude #but no hes just kind of standing there like (ok what next) no leaning one way or another #these would all be interesting reactions if they were actually Brought Up in dialogue but no its just. oversight #anyway this is about sand but ive also felt this about live a live and even bits of twewy #like specifically in lal the fact that the edo chapter Exists and killing people is just Battling Them made me look at Every Other Chapter #thru a lens of (okay am. am i killing these dudes.) and the answer is I DUNNO #like the guy exploded into a cloud of mist theres no way hes Not dead but its STRANGE #this felt most noticeable in the imperial china and present day chapters because they had mcs who decidedly did not feel down with murder #specifically present day because masaru is fighting this guy for the crime of killing a guys. and woa. he killed a guys. with his Hands #i think theres only a handful of deaths in lal that actually mean anything and you can tell which they are because they dont explode #like in You Know The Part with The Character I Cant Say that guys i think the only time defeating an enemy Leaves A Corpse #ok actually thats a lie the Other Guy I Cant Say in The Chapter Before That also died like that and that was equally important #s also worth mentioning that said first guy can ? also die without leaving a corpse? just turn to ash??#depending on where u go with him. which is weird right. thats weird right.#maybe that just means (hey youre not supposed to feel bad about him dying this tiiiime)#anyway its 5 am ill post this in the morning #vee shut up

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ambered-glazed-sheep · 1 year

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Im not gonna lie, i miss hermitcraft....

i know it hasnt gone anywhere, but i have

#this sounds a lot more dramatic than it is #and i know its natural ykbow as you get older your interests change #but i cant help but be a little sad about it #it just doesnt hit me the same way as it did three years ago #and thats simultaneously okay and normal but also sad #especially xisuma i miss him #when i watch his videos now it feels very different #ive changed a lot and maybe the creators also changed a bit #and i suppose i just went into a different direction #thats fine! but also i miss hermitcraft is all im sayibg #amber talks

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just-bendy · 1 year

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Well...I don't even know what to ask, because if I ask a question, you answer it to another person the next day (in the sense that he managed to be the first), therefore...Can I just hug this cute ink Stitch?

"If I ask a question, you answer it to another person the next day."

Listen here, pal. Ya ain't exactly on any VIP lists, not that we even have one to begin with. We'll get to yer question when we get to it, unless it's related to any event we got goin' on then yer ask becomes high priority. Otherwise ya gotta be more patient, okay? Here's yer hug.

#bendy #batim #batim bendy #ask #nanon #yaoimag666 #noncanon au #(( idk if this ask was supposed to be mildly passive aggressive but i kinda saw it that way so i based bendys response off of that #maybe i just interpreted it wrong *shrugs*#i mean thats kind of how ask blogs work. unless i had no asks but yours then id answer it the next day #but i remember getting this as my 47th ask so thats impossible #i like to do asks in the order i get them in unless its related to events like bendy said or #itd make more sense to answer it sooner rather than later because its related to a past post #<- okay im guilty for not doing that but i'm gonna try #this in my head was filed as an ''answer when you get to it'' ask so thats what i did #if it was related to the halloween event then i wouldve answered it sooner since the event was for a limited time #and i wanted to make sure i answered the event related asks before the event was over #now im rambling im sorry ))

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toytulini · 2 months

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god my executive dysfunction is so fucking Bad lately

#toy txt post #so many tasks and dont want to Do anything and like on the one hand Theyre Not That Hard it wont take THAT long i have plenty of time #on the other hand #it will take like 5fucking hrs and if it doesnt i will find a way to make take 5fucking hours and all this and i still havent eaten #enough for breakfast but like??? what am i supposed to waste energy on actually cooking something?#man i love eggs but i think maybe id actually struggle if i had chickens not cos id get tired of eating eggs but cos #all the low effort ways to consume eggs gross me out and the ways i like are not THAT high effort but its too high effort to be #an everyday thing for me :(#okay i have gotta stop thinking about the State Of Things. and figure out a nutrient dense thing to eat for breakfast thats quick and easy #and that i actually like to eat. but also i maybe want coffee so i should not have a clif bar. augh #IT IS 3PM. FUCK. I FUCKING WOKE UP AT LIKE 9!!!!! AND TOOK MY MEDS EARLY AND I STILL END UP NOT DOING FUCKING ANYTHING AT ALL TIL 3PM #i hate this i need to like #fully reset. i need to go to bed at idk. 9pm and wake up at like 5am and get dressed and go out fucking early i hate this!!!!!#i hate !!!! not fucking functioning!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!#i need a therapist or smth but like one that will find a way to word shit so that it doesnt piss me off and make me want to pettily not do #things that would maybe help #agh #i have been trying to get better about #doing my physical therapy at least

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meringuejellyfish · 1 year

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lets talk about this otto figment

#the way otto is depicted within the other members' mental worlds is somethin. ive been thinking about this for the longest time #i think helmut is the only one with a version of otto that isnt negative. but i suppose thats just because helmut loves all his friends so #very much.#this pictures actually funny because compton and cassie are 1 figment aswell as ford and lucy being 1 as well. and ottos just standing #all the way over here.#awesome #interestingly to me is the fact that an otto figment is at helmuts version of the wedding but there is no otto figment in bobs version of #the wedding while all the others are there (IM. pretty sure. ive checked a few times #which since i forgot about the otto figment in helmuts mind made me wonder for a while whether or not otto was at the wedding at all #but no. he was and for one reason or another bobs memory of the wedding does not have otto in it...lmfao #however there is a fully fledged otto on one of the islands in bobs mind - interesting to me considering the other two characters here are #lilli and truman.#(this version of otto is very unsupportive and all like ''we never really liked you that much helmut deserved someone better blahblah''#so id say perhaps this otto is a more general ''this is how bob thinks the other members thought of him'' and using otto to represent the #entirety of the psychic 7 #im kind of just ? about bob and otto especially because in helmuts mind they are hanging out and theres maybe? and implication that they #actually did have a bond in the real world #yeah theyre arguing in helmuts mind (or something of the sort) but its like friend banter #.kind of #i think they annoyed eachother a lot sometimes but it is okay.#(i like the implication that helmut and bob used to get high together (i like the concept art of otto smoking psitanium #i was going to make a point somewhere where like i wouldnt be surprised if maybe bob gained a deep hatred of some sorts towards otto #after helmut was lost like oh its because of your stupid machine its all your fault #but im not sure if theres any real evidence for this (psychonauts is a game all about small throw away lines theres definitely a chance im #forgetting something #im very much just rambling and saying things #ok fine maybe bob and otto were just arguing in helmuts mental representations of them it does seem like bob has the least fond memories of #him out of any member #most definitely why hes missing from bobs version of the wedding and why otto is the stand in for how bob thinks all the members saw him #sad

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mcdbutgay · 11 months

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i just remembered this blog existed… after like 3 months… haiii :3

#i was talking to one of my irls abt childhood memories and nostalgia and aphmau came up and when i tell u we went INSANE over mcd/mystreet #it made me remember that THIS BLOG EXISTS AND I CAN PARTAKE IN THE FANDOM WITHOUT FEELING CRINGE #bc everyone here knows how bad the writing and everything is so its rlly cool and chill here #i just need that tbh.. a place where everyones working with the same thing but has such different views of it is so cool to me #ANYWAYS SOOO coming back for pride month!!! maybe. who knows #it would be funny if i did bc of my username #i was watching mcd last night (currently on ep 35 as of me writing this) and my GOD i need to rework travis’ character so bad #hes silly and i like him but he clashes way too much with laurance #sooo maybe expect that????? idk. i dont wanna make any promises but 👀#okay ill shut up now #NO WAIT I WONT i kinda wanna redesign EVERYONE and i KNOW thats a big commitment but I WANT TO SO BAD #im supposed to be getting ready for art fight but my GODDD redesigning already established characters seems so much more fun than #redesigning my own ocs. actually they might aswell be my ocs if i do DJSJSKAK anyways NOW ill shut up #ashe.txt

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#i was supposed to spend the last 2 days prepping and relaxing for the start of this big project tomorrow #but ive spent thr last 2 days frantically coding as fast as i could and focusing v hard to get a lot of bullshit done #and ive fixed things since yesterday. the changes i had to make were too too bad bc the thing that went wrong was so fucking weird #but it should be okay by tomorrow. knock on wood. but this does mean ive done fuck all to prep for tomorrow #so we r winging it bby. ugh. just gotta fucking pray that everything goes ok. pls let nothing b broken and let everything seal properly 🙏#i was also supposed to meet with my boss today. probably for her to make sure i dont fuck up this project but apparently their safety hood #was having an emergency... whatever that means. so im sure shes having a week as well. and im free to fuck everything up for everyone #ugh. im so. theres a certain point in burning out where youre not really in pain anymore. you dont really feel anything all your joy and #hope dissolves away and u just exist to be useful. and i feel like its easier to maintain that than trying to b happy #i do not advise that bc its a fucking miserable. wasteful way to live but i dont really have time to try for anything better #god. i really hope my measurements friday dont take a full 8hrs. i dont know if i can handle that. literally i would have stay intensely #focused with my brain being Interrupted every 5min so i can manually record data points. its gonna b agony #so that fun. but maybe it wont. maybe itll be great and fun and ill have a wonderful time. seems unlikely but ya never kno #lets not think abt the fact that having to rush all this is preventing me from being able to do all thr other bullshit i need to get done #to prepare for the future. future? what future? hard to imagine from the bottom of this pit im digging myself #sigh. in a few months i can leave this place and never come back. soon but not soon enough #lol i was literally crying listening to cold play earlier bc idk thats the type of music my parents would put on at parties in summertime #so it evokes a v specific mood. which is i guess me hiding away from ppl at parties haha #back when i didnt have to worry abt things so much and i could just listen to the frogs chirping and watch the fireflies #oh god. now my boss is asking if i reached out for help tomorrow. no. lady i would rather drink bleach than have to direct an undergrad #tomorrow. its 10pm im fucking tired. just let me be sad. did i reach our for help? no my brain is on fire #tomorrow is gonna b a long day ugh #unrelated

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tiny-chubby-bird · 6 months

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don't get me wrong, i'm all for cute stories about pregnancy and having children together, but as someone who is like super terrified of pregnancy and wouldn't consider themself as someone who'd make a good parent, i'd loooove to read more fics about... that? either it's an unwanted pregnancy and they're terrified, or the couple talks about having kids and maybe the partner is open to the idea but understands and respects their s/o's fears and wishes. idk.

#i just keep reading about ppl getting married and having kids and i feel a bit left out??#like its sweet and happy but its not something i'd want for myself #at least not at the moment #so it would be nice to read more about characters that feel the same way #i just never interacted much with children so i have no idea how to act around them and panic #and i don't think i would have the patience and energy to care for one #maybe some time in the future this will change #but even then i think i'd rather adopt than become pregnant myself #because pregnancy terrifies me so badly #its just not something i can imagine being pleasant no matter how many people tell me it was the most wonderful experience ever #probably a very unpopular opinion #but yeah anyway #would be nice to read more about characters talking about pregnancy and its risks and becoming parents and just #not being ready #not now and maybe not ever #and that thats totally okay #like this is a bit of a fear i have #if i ever have a partner who wants kids #like id be super scared of crushing that dream for them?#so it would be reassuring to read more about acceptance of that i suppose #idk im tired and just wanted to vent a little

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ironmanstan · 1 year

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unfortunately i look extremely approachable for some reason and paired with this i think way too slow to keep up w new social situations + this is like art school and i cant plan how to act for this yet and now 3 times back to back already i have gone through the mortifying ordeal of having art student girls introduce themselves to me -> i out of habit introduce myself w my old name -> they ask for my art instagram -> i give it to them without thinking and then have to explain why my name is rohan on there

#ME. A MORON: YEAH UH WELL YOU SEE #fumbles the bag in 4 million different ways and ends up saying im trans just for them to go 'oh ok!' ALL THAT FOR NOTHING #hate it here #every time someone finds out they get all apologetic but like i dont even really care x__x id care more if u knew and did it on purpose #i dont hate my old name and i stuck with it 4 a while bc i didnt like anything else that fit enough to change it to something i felt-#better represented me outside of just meaning but also in gender yknow. and i still have to use old name w most ppl so like whatever #but then well i do my idiot antics and then everyone feels awkward bc they think they are like hate criming me JKNFMNJNFDK #i dont know how to exist like this. i am used to giving everyone my insta i dont use and being done with it #partially also bc thats like me sorting people into 'people i can be acquaintances with' and 'people i can be friends with'#i.e. people who i cant come out to and people i can. the former being the vast vast majority.#like i have not. ever ever in my life met another queer or trans person irl until literally yesterday.#WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO HERE LMAOOO #in theory if none of these girls ever speak to me again i can start over and start dodging everyone until they prove themselves lmaooo #but if they are all okay with it then maybe its fine. who knowsss. not chancing it w the other muslim kids tho lmao #the gamer speaks uwu

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piplupod · 1 year

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the urge to change my name and make a new account to have a fresh clean slate is so big off and on lately djfjkl idk why

i would miss friends and mutuals though and followers i see in my activity feed so i won't do that but like. i kind of wish i could like. not be held down so much by how i feel ppl perceive me, i want to say things or do things that would be considered "out of character" bc i have a lot of shifts going on in brain rn (like things are shuffling around and being re-organized almost?) and i just want to be able to let myself exist without feeling like i need to be consistent fdsfjkl

idk if that makes sense. i probably won't be posting anything to do with that here until its more concrete and i can slowly shift towards that instead of the current state of being, but also i really wish i could share the cool things i'm realizing or piecing together or thinking about, but i just feel like it would be weird or cringe or whatever. but god i feel like this might be really healthy finally and i might be able to like,,, not be literally constantly running shame and suicide in the background of my brain, those might be able to shut down for a bit which would be so nice

#idk fhsdgjkl this doesnt make sense probably but im just #things are changing in brain finally i think and im able to explore it a bit better and learn to work with it #this brain is definitely not anywhere near normal or average which. makes sense. traumatized child setting things up for life and-#-then add dissociative disorder on top of that and all the egostates or whatever not coming together like theyre supposed to and now #you've got scattered pieces all across the board #also i think there IS an inner world more than what i've realized but i've been unable to see it properly or access it bc of my-#frankly insane amounts of shame. like it would've been extremely distressing for me to realize i had that before now #it is still a little scary and distressing which is why i can't like. access it still but i have been feeling glimpses of it #maybe im making this all up idk but... it doesnt feel like when i make things up fdsjkl it feels like when theres smth true that-#-i dont want to acknowledge is true. like im trying to shove it away and pretend it doesnt exist bc im ashamed and feel cringe #but it isn't going away so. i would like to try to work with it #and just let myself be curious instead of ashamed #maybe i'll post on our system sideblog about things idk fsgjkl it feels too public here but i DO want to share bc its interesting-#-and god knows i can't journal for the life of me (there is... trauma around that) so dsgjkl maybe that would work best #okay cool i'll stop rambling about DID and brain stuff bc ppl will think im being weird probably fshdfjkl thats why i never talk about it-#-here bc i know its seen as ''cringe'' to have this disorder and its weird and strange and not normal #which yknow. it isn't normal. it is a bit strange. but thats trauma babeyyy lmao #but i just . dont want ppl to think badly of me. unfortunately the others in system dont think that way and dont care so they post here LOL #SO much more than i post about things which is totally fair and i'm not going to get upset at them bc i DO need to work thru this shame #its unhealthy for me and also it can be harmful for OTHER pwDID/systems if im being embarrassed about having this disorder #okay im done now for real HDHGJKL sorry abt the ramble #pippen needs 2nd breakfast #delete later probably

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coridallasmultipass · 2 days

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#ughhhh i started writing a quick bro / dave for todays date but im def not gonna finish in 45 minutes nooooo #its my ki.nk and i wanted to savour what i was writing by dragging it out hffffffff #wish i thought to start it before last night ughhhhh #but ughhhhhhhh dudeeeee its hapeninggggggggggg #god im so fucking thorsty for it #no one writes it the way i want it #and now ive gone and made it silly by trying to do it for today #but i cant just take those parts out bc they're so... baked... into the plotline #hfffffffff why didnt i just make this its own thing ughhhhhh (bc dave would never wanna do that sober thats why)#hffffffffffff screams #writing sm. ut is so time consuming for me #(tbh writing is on its own lol)#but to write. my fave thing. for the first time. its a lot of pressure for a fic that was supposed to be a quick joke #bro ended up being fucking smitten as hell too bc thats how i feel abt this ki. nk lmao #i dont think im even gonna get hi tonight lmao its okay a holiday doesnt mean shit when its something i do on the reg #im so tired hhhhh im just wasting more time typing out more tags bc im too tired to write fic words lol ugh #delete later / /#maybe i will so i can just go the fuck to sleep rn and write more when im more awake. date be damned. im not finishing in 30 mins lol #and even if i did finish in 30 mins i sure as hell aint proofreading and posting within 30 mins #ok yeah gonna get ready for bed and set the writing down for when im not gonna write something rushed ill regret and have to undo later

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gongedtornado · 1 month

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#okay complaining again and i cant tell if im overreacting this time or what #but this has been plaguing my brain since yesterday /neg #so i brought in a piece to submit to the art show and my professor looks at the information and goes ‘why dont you want to sell it?’#and i go ‘because i like it too much’ and without hesitation she goes ‘thats a terrible excuse’#and then proceeds to go on a rant about how you should always try to sell your art at art shows and told us we’ll regret it if we dont #but in my head ofc i feel like shes yelling at me for not wanting to sell my art #like. 1: i havent drawn anything i actually like in months aside from a few projects #and 2: why does it matter so much to her that i dont sell *my art* this time around #the world will still go on even if i dont sell it :/#i wasnt gonna let her be the reason i put that up for sale. especially not under that influence #if im really proud of something and id like for it to be sold. then i will gladly do so #im not just gonna have her get on my ass about not selling my art and have her be the reason i sell a piece just bc she kinda yelled at me #and i understand shes coming from experience but like.#dawg im gonna think youre yelling at me and pressuring me if this is the way youre going with it :/#ik that professors are supposed to push you and thats great. but she kinda. makes me want to quit taking college art classes altogether #uuurrghhggh #:/#kazzy complains #maybe im overthinking it #maybe its just me being a bit overly sensitive and crabby as of recently but that doesnt make it sting any less #sorry ive been complaining a lot recently i just. really havent felt that great in a hot minute and its kinda getting worse #im certain its because of biological reasons coming up but rrgghghhhrghh bark bark bark bark #edit: NO BECAUSE AT THJS POINT I JUST SHOULDVE TOLD HER I DIDNT WANT TO SELL IT JUST BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO.#AT THIS FUCKING POINT

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dreamingpine · 4 months

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i really like them, but i also hate them. but im not really sure if i actually hate them or if i just like. hate the me i see in them. but like. is this feeling hate? or just like...disappointment?

#well they didnt /want/ to get better. not like you mc. someone who doesnt work hard. they dont-#-deserve to be saved. they wanted this so its only right that we dont geel bad mc.#that idea from before. more thinkings #so like. im really digging the scapegoat character;but this is probably because they look i used for them was a defult i use for when “i”#have to be in a story [reader insert; dating sim; etc] but i really dont want “me” in the story #and that character has become like...their own thing that has many versions of the same person. anyway.#i really like this chacter because its like. they're so chill. but so so resigned to it all. its not that they dont care #they just. dont have a reason to anymore. if they even did at all. “its just like that sometimes.”#they just go with it. because. way to much effort to fight against it. fight that good fight. and then i think about mc #who they are supposed to be a shadow of.#mc fights that good fight. they're life is screwed but they're /working/ on it. they want to get better #they want to live better. they want to be alive. they want to help but sometimes its to much. you know #typical mc fashion.#mc is like. okay.#im putting to much of myself in these characters but maybe thats why im so into this right now.#mc is like the person i want to be. whos going through it all but they want to get better. they have the blood on their knuckles #and determination and fear and /hope/. they keep saying it'll get better and they'll make it that way on god #and i want that for me but its so...so so hard you know?#and then theres shadow. or doppel. whatever #they're resigned and its just to hard to fight its so much easier to do the bare minimum even if thats getting harder #and harder by the day. but they do it. they dont have anything else going on. no dreams; no goals; no future. they're just here #so when asked to be mc's shadow its just a “whatever” thing #any frustration they might have felt gone with years of being worn down #they dont /want/ to get better. dont want to put in the work and. i like that.#there's no one thats gonna hold their hand on the path to getting better and they know that. thats also why its so easy to just live this #way since its like. normal now.#and that brings me to mc's dilemma. mc doesnt want to do thsi role that will kill them. they want to get better.#so when someone takes that role; willingly even; does that make mc “bad” for feeling relief?#but like. how would they know if this was something they wanted?#..personally. as the person writing this and the person who realtes to these 2 mc's. i wonder

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semercury · 7 months

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Really hate when people imply I should be in a relationship with someone, be it specific or in general. Bc like. I'm ugly + I'm annoying + I have issues with physical and emotional intimacy. That's three strikes and I'm out. Nobody want me and nobody should want me. I rest my case etc.

#stuff sarah says #it always hurts bc like. i would love a relationship on theory!#i have so much love to give and id love the idea of expressing that in every way possible!#unfortunately God intended me to die as a baby so i was never supposed to get this far #so to keep the timeline intact i can never have a long term relationship. friendships are already pushing it #plus my affection is a reason to mock those receiving it so why would i do that to someone?#im apparently so offputting the only person to ever show true interest was ??? lying about it maybe??? out of?? pity?? or smth??#other guy does not count. so much alcohol was involved i doubt he saw my face or registered me fully #like me ghosting him was a favor. i hope he knows that #like i dont even want to spend the rest of my life with me. why would someone else?#and i dont say the bits about me being ugly like. for trying to get people to say the opposite. bc its just true?#like i have eyes. i have ears that heard all the people say it #some people are just ugly and thats okay. im fine with it. people usually leave me alone bc of it which is nice #i mostly just feel bad for everyone who has to look at me #but ive felt bad about that since i was what. 7?#sorry i exist and you have to see my rotten form

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wolfiesmoon · 4 months

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Ratted out

sometimes friends and family accidentally (or purposefully) reveal things they shouldnt :)

characters featured: Leona, Kalim, Jade, Jack

ufff idk whats wrong with me but i ended up creating an entire (unrelated to this fic) movie plan related to twst this is mentally stable activities, truly

also unrelated but the new event got me SCREAMING how do they look so good😫

ᐟᐟ☆๋࣭ ⭑໑ Leona Kingscholar

when hanging out with your boyfriend Leona, a little lion boy suddenly jumps him and he immediately lets you go

who is this child???

"Uncle Leona!" the boy clings onto him and you can feel the annoyance eminating from Leona

it's like its own aura thats how annoyed he is🥴

so his nephew (you presume) looks to you all of a sudden and asks "who are you?" with an innocent look on his face

"I'm his lover...?" you said, a little unsure. But when you looked to Leona, he had a look of pure horror on his face...? What is even going on?????

"What?! No way, you're dating Uncle Leona?!" the kid got all excited and ran off somewhere before you could stop him

"...What have you done?" Leona hissed at you through clenched teeth, holding his forehead

you do realise you just revealed that he's dating you to the most big mouthed child in the world, right? that his whole family will know in a matter of minutes, right? that you've basically just invited yourself to every future family gathering at once, right?

and sure enough, in a few minutes he got a surprised text from his brother which he left on read 💀

"Damn brat..." he muttered under his breath, you still confused over what just happened

ᐟᐟ☆๋࣭ ⭑໑ Kalim Al-Asim

let's be real babes there is nothing for his siblings to rat him out on because he immediately told his family he was dating you

however....😈

his siblings happened to overhear a little something...

"Hey, hey." one of Kalim's younger brothers pulled your sleeve, wanting to tell you something

"yes?" you answered absentmindedly, thinking he's going to start talking about a strange thing he saw today or something

"Kalim's gonna marry you." he whispered to you, looking around to make sure no one heard

You laughed a little. "If you think so." you pat his little head

"No, he was like, asking mom if he can marry you soon. We heard it." another one of his brothers joined in after hearing the tea being spilled

"What?! Really?!" you're both extremely surprised and happy and mad at his brothers for ruining the surprise right now

oh well, what's done is done, and now you know Kalim is SERIOUS about you

that gets you thinking about wedding stuff now...🤔

What none of you know tho is that Jamil overheard all of you

"Okay, maybe we need to scrap the whole surprise wedding proposal thing..." he sighs, making a mental note of it and preparing to dissapoint poor Kalim

ᐟᐟ☆๋࣭ ⭑໑ Jade Leech

jade is like... oddly nice to you after you first meet him

you're a little wary of him considering his reputation but he hasn't done anything weird at all so... might as well accept his gifts?

one time he approaches you with jade in tow and you think absolutely nothing of it since they're together like 90% of the time anyways

"Hello there, are you enjoying your lunch?" he just sat down next to you without asking if he can at all 😔

"Uh, yeah, I suppose." you didn't really know what to tell him and it seems he doesnt know how to continue the conversation either so u just kinda... stare at eachother while Floyd casually steals a bit of ur food

"Maaaan, aren't you like, supposed to be crushing on Little Shrimpy or something? Then taaalk about stuff, I'm bored." Floyd looked bored when he saw the two of you didn't start talking about weird stuff

Jade simply smiled at you, telling you to ignore Floyd

But on the inside he was planning approximately 10 ways to... get rid of someone without others noticing

or alternatively, just beating the everloving crap out of his twin brother if the first plan is not a possibility

"Do you have a crush on me?" you wanted to know now...

"That's for you to think about." he smiled oddly eerily, but then just started talking abt something mundane 😥

ᐟᐟ☆๋࣭ ⭑໑ Jack Howl

You're visiting him for the first time because you got curious what his family is like

OF COURSE HE'S AN OLDER BROTHER IT ALL MAKES SENSE NOW

his younger siblings immediately ambushed you with their little sniffer noses as soon as you stepped in the house🤔

"Who are you?" they asked, always curious about anyone that Jack brings over

When you told them who you were, they immediately ran away to "TELL MOM" and were literally screaming that the two of you are dating so loudly that the whole neighborhood could hear

You could also hear some woman (who you presume is his mom) laughing from somewhere in the house so uhhh.... atleast she isn't mad about it?

You looked back at Jack who seemed more annoyed than anything

"Aren't you gonna... go stop them?" you asked, raising a brow.

"Nah, I was gonna tell mom I'm dating you anyways. I'm just mad that they beat me to it." he crossed his arms, huffing in annoyance

"Actually, speaking of, isn't me dating you kinda a big deal? You told me before that wolves have one partner for life." you actually got kinda nervous, i mean, you gotta impress his family good now

"It is. But I think everyone's just happy I got someone at all." Jack looked at his overly excited siblings who were still celebrating

"Wow, that's sad." you sassed him 😝

"...I shouldn't have brought you."

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heaven - OP81

pairings: oscar piastri x private!secret!reader (fc: gracie abrams)

summary: you are oscar’s long term secret girlfriend and you start hinting on your instagrams

authors note: okay so honestly this was just supposed to be one part but i think might do a part two maybe, i started writing this as a filler before i started writing the two in my poll but i was writing on my phone so its not as long as i wanted

part 2 part 3 masterlist

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