#and neal was also shooting a bb gun at the wall directly behind me and i did not wanna get hit so i was yelling at him too

[lenjaminmacbuttons]

i discovered recently that sleep paralysis can happen more frequently to people who sleep on their backs, discovered just now that this means Me Every Time I Sleep On My Back (i usually sleep on my side)

so in case any of you ever find me sleeping on my back please either wake me up or, failing that, just kinda gently roll me over like im a benevolent beetle or smth

#talkyllama #im fine just a lil anxious mostly annoyed and my arms are sore #last time this happened my gf said best thing to do is relax and calm down but apparently i forgot #cus i always tryna snap out of sleep paralysis via brute force #which works because i am very strong. but then my arms are sore #also i think i bit my thumb but im not sure if i really did or not cus it still kinda feels like i bit it but theres also no visible mark #anyways im v grateful that ive yet to experience a Sleep Paralysis Demon per se #but i still deeply deeply hate sleep paralysis #usually its not really accompanied by a dream of any kind but this time i was like. laying in a place neal had said was kinda haunted #(i guess by michael distortion tma i dont really remember but i do remember being anxious about hands and yelling 'MICHAEL GO AWAY' #michael! michael go on git! git outta here! #) #and neal was also shooting a bb gun at the wall directly behind me and i did not wanna get hit so i was yelling at him too #maybe he was tryna shoot michael???? #i probably feel like he was just tryna show off Hehe I Got A Bb Gun #anyways that was happening i couldnt move i got mad i yelled i bit my thumb i woke up. laid there all ticked. realized i was on my back #rolled onto my side turned bedside lamp on make tumblr post #never gonna forgive michael distortion for what he did to that lady in Fatigue #frickin hate the spiral. thats the one of my Actual Real Life fears that i can reliably categorize tma style and it makes me so mad #1. dinosaurs 2. freezing to death esp. trapped in a walk-in freezer 3. not being able to distinguish dreams n reality #getting stuck in a dream i guess #or realizing something i was so sure was real is actually a dream #either way. spiral. hate it. unhappy with it. gonna be fine though. just gotta vent jsdjfgh #tbh im really only making this post cus i was amused by the idea of someone seeing me on my back and bein like 'oop! gotta flip that over! #like a turtle. like a ladybug #cant flip mself without significant mental and emotional labor #wont you be a kind soul............