#and now I need to find a new career

[alinelie]

sheet for kian

victor's sheet

#oc: kian micelli #ts4 #I feel the need to bring out some backstory #Kian leaves his house early because he planned to start a career in a big city and he worked hard to make that happen. #He got a position where he may be promoted after getting a degree and achieving his dream job #but he didn't enjoy it as much as he was expecting which broke him #He returned home and soon discovered that he supposed to stay there #Victor however would work in his parents' business for the rest of his life but he found it difficult to adapt to adulthood #He dropped out of college moved out with his parents and is now attempting to figure out his future steps #and they first met at this point #Kian gave himself time to work with his parents all summer before beginning looking for a job #Victor wants to begin a new life. #Before Victor’s family lived there but after several problems that include his brother they left #and now that he’s returned rumors about his family keep being spread so he needs to find a strength #oc stuff #my sims

[romanceyourdemons]

so fucking bizarre to think of ang lee as a taiwanese new wave director. i mean i can’t really argue with it i mean how else would you periodize the wedding banquet (1993) but also. it feels weird to put him in a box with edward yang

#also i’m just now finding out that there are two (2) taiwanese new waves #one from 1982-1990 and a so-called second new wave from 1990- #2010 #and like. hm. once again i’m not sure i can convincingly refute this but at the same time i am not fully on board with the periodization #maybe i just need to watch more 1982-1990 taiwanese film what i’ve seen is mostly edward yang and hou hsiao-hsien’s early careers #ryddles

[deanisbisexual]

twitter is so fucking weird about harry styles’ sexuality

#and this is coming from someone who was a one direction stan in 2012 #like if he doesn't wanna label his sexuality he doesn't have to #now that's not to say that labels are inherently bad bc some people obviously find comfort and identity in those labels #like i get what he was saying but he could have worded himself better #but if he doesn't want to label himself he shouldn't have to?? #he doesn't owe anyone that lmao #dude has been waving around pride flags since like 2014 to make 1d concerts feel safe for lgbt fans #it's not some new marketing strategy he's been like this forever #not my fault you didn't start paying attention to him until now #and idk about yall but it was a big fucking deal to me as a closet gay that one of the members of the biggest boy band in the world #at the time was supporting gay rights as loudly as he was when it easily could have fucked up his career #considering their target audience #and he was just a teenager at the time too!! #defending harry styles online isn't enough i need a 🔫 #also i don't know about you but if i say i don't wanna label my sexuality i feel like that kinda answers the question of whether im gay #or straight like please man read between the lines #like if you havent picked up on it thats on YOU

[spector]

its my bday tomorrow and its gonna be a sucky one but that's ok, statistically they cant all be bangers ✌️

#sucky bc i recently got laid off and i need to find a new job....... OR... #my parents want me to reconsider my career choices and ill have to make a huge decision.... #which is putting me in a Mood to say the least #shame it all happened before my bday ... i like my bdays usually but now I'm just sooooo UGH 😔

[doonarose]

One day back in the office and it is immediately shite and so I am going home before 3pm because I can.

#i really do think i need to find the energy to find a new career #but for now I will just wallow in my well-paying no expectations job #and recognize how lucky i am #doonas rambling

[alloutshirt]

read 100 pages of an actual book in the last few hours which is about 100 more pages than i did in almost a year :)

#guess having to embarrassingly lay in the bathtub for 5 hours cause it’s the only place i can now be alone in #cause i no longer have a room and this house has become a sensory overload hell #and ofc that no one seems to try and understand and after all the progress ive made im getting told im the crazy one again #i seriously need to someone to help me know how the fuck you go abroad #cause let’s face it post concert depression is tough but it’s not the only reason my anxiety goes the fuck up when i come back from a trip #but then oof the guilt of leaving man #it already kills having to share time with each parent and leaving my siblings with That #i am also having a huge ass gender crisis hehe #you think they won’t look me in the eyes cause they saw my old ways coming back or #cause i mumbled im not a fucking girl when my sister said girl calm down 🙃🙃🙃🙃 #literally so sick of being so lost in life #i don’t know what i want i should find a new job but i can’t bear the idea nothing appeals to me i don’t want a fucking career #if you read this woosh 🪄 you forget it #x

[a4g]

it's very nice to read your spoke rambles please continue

i love you

#sorey i got this right as i passed out yesterday after tiring myself from rambling #i love you #i just like to talk a lot #and spoke keeps my interest so i talk about him a lot #its like an easy thing for me to ramble about #i find it so funny spoke started his youtube career cause he and his friend was like #hmmm how do we get a lot of money consistently on skyblcok #answer to that question that wasnt duping or hacking or something of that sort #was becoming a skyblock youtuber #those videos never took off and was like umm 2019-2020 or something of the sort #guess what finally paid off for him LOL . gets easy 100 mil a stream #so he got his wish #and at least when people give him stuff he has manners about it. idc if he actually means the thank yous hes at least polite #most mischievous guy alive is polite and has manners #<- thats a news headline. they put it in the news #okay i really need to finish christmas stuff now bye :( #asks #lifesteal

[minamotoz]

just peeped the first episode of school spirits on paramount.....i fear my theory is correct, spencer macphersons career peaked with the role of hunter hollingsworth

#this sounds very mean i think spencer is a very talented actor #but the few times ive sought out content w him in it he just plays a generic hot guy with Hints of 'cool loner' #theyve never been able to compare to his time on degrassi #im probably just biased but hunter hollingsworth is just so amazing hes hilarious and over the top and unhinged #ive just attached that mans face to the absolutely deranged actions of the character he played in degrassi #so everytime i see him in something new i just get upset when hes Not hunter #but tbh his talent is being wasted when he plays generic hot guys #he shines as a completely deranged freak. he put his everything into making hunter as offputting and weird as possible #now i cant make too many judgements based solely on the pilot of school spirits #but i checked out like half of astrid and lily bc he was in that #and his character in SS and A&L are near identical😭😭😭 MAKE THAT MAN INSANE !!!!!!! #he needs to find better roles or else im afraid his career peaked with degrassi next class season 1 episode 10 #actually the one role i saw him in that compared to the glory of hunter hollingsworth #was this short film he did w jamie bloch where his character was literslly just Hunter but he was a drug dealer and said swears #it almost compared to the real thing but it wasnt enoigh to help me cope w the loss of unhinged hunter post-NC3

[anime-scarves]

Today is one of those days where I watch esports, sip on beer, and bake bread. There are a lot of things I probably should be doing but it’s saturday and I’m going to take a raincheck on all of it. 

#text #life is ok #not great #not bad #but I do have things I need to do #so that things dont become bad #not vague posting #I got laid off awhile ago #and need to put more effort into finding a new job #but for now #i'll be content to bake bread #baking is fun #extremely satisfying to eat the efforts of your labor #if working in food wasnt such a miserable career i'd probably pursue it #but it is #one restaurant was enough #and unless you're at the very very top #you're not making much of anything #and working insane hours #even if you're at the top you still work insane hours #but at least you might make enough to live #real US hours #anyways #bread good #beer good #but not IPAs #i've had exactly one that didnt taste like grass #there is a world where I have a huge beard and wear flannels and cant shut up about micro breweries #but thankfully that isnt this world #at least for now

[megarywrites]

I’m sad but this will ultimately be for the best: I have to take a short break from writing right now. Hopefully not longer than 4-6 weeks, so my 30 line challenge will be on hiatus until i can get back to it

The short version of my reason for taking a hiatus is that i need to finish my course so i can transition into my new career lol the long version i’ll save for the tags lmao so it’s necessary but definitely a sacrifice because writing my absolute beloved…

#okay so the long version #my landlords are very old amd deteriorating fast so their kids moved them to an assisted living facility #which means they’re selling their house #i live in a MIL suite in their backyard and have for 4 years now #they were gonna try to keep me on as a renter for the new owner #but then the daughter discovered that they have been renting this place out illegally #whatever that means #so #i’ve been trying to find a place to live in town because while i *do* want to move away from this hell hole #i’m not financially ready yet #my aunt (and grandma) live in the mountains on the other side of the state #and they had offered previously for me to move in with them if i needed a transition place to stay #which now I definitely do #the only issue is that my mom and sister said that i should have another job lined up by the time i move so i’m not a burden on my aunt #and i’d agree usually however #the schooling that i’ve been trying for what seems like an eternity to finish would be my gateway to a new career #and i really don’t have a lot left of it #especially if i have a couple weeks where i focus on nothing *but* the course #so i texted my aunt today to see if she’d be okay with me not having a job immediately #and to my absolute and utter relief she was #so now that’s one less thing to stress over but #now i have to 1) put in my two weeks tomorrow #2) resume studying in my limited down time #3) figure out what i want to keep and donate and dump of my stuff #4) pack the stuff i’m keeping and spotlessly clean my place before i leave #which will hopefully be on August 14th #so…..lol #i’ve got a lot i’m dealing with hopefully i can cope with it all 🤪

[dokyeomini]

good evening i just got home i had a really nice day!

#went to my friend's dorm and she loved the gifts and then we talked abt idk life and career prospects #she said she wants to go to art school too to study graphic design #another stem person who didn't consider art school until now #anyways then i went to the university library to find some inspiration for my website #amd i looked at a book of earrings it was so cool #i should go more often alhkdj #i really do love the art and design section of libraries so much #then i went grocery shopping and on the way back realized i need to buy a new bus pass... #i don't have money for that #also im not sure if i remembered to have breakfast before the psychiatrist appointment but im now starving #got some ready made risotto bc i do not have the energy to cook rn #thank you for listening to the details of my day 🫶

[jimkirkachu]

just when I think I can't possibly despise myself more than I already did

#i go and watch some new show and get emotionally attached to one of the actors because they look like they could be Crush's fucking TWIN #then find out they're in a very serious-looking relationship with a gorgeous woman #i mean BESIDES living in NYC having a successful career and being so beautiful themself that i want to gouge my own eyes out #aka *1701% INACCESSIBLE TO JTKCHU EVEN IN YOUR DREAMS* #& *FORGET it you unfathomable jackass you're the exact opposite of eye candy you're unemployed you're depressed & a gigantic nuisance* #my pathetic jobless hopeless androgynous-not-in-an-endearing-way demi/virgin/prude trash can self is never but N-E-V-E-R gonna have romance #why do i keep getting my hopes up? why do i keep letting it surprise me when i'm rejected or find out i Need Not Apply? #WHY do i keep DOING THIS to my OWN DAMN SELF??? #i'm in my fucking THIRTIES i should know better by now than to even start to let myself daydream or fantasize or whatever the fuck #but NOooOOOOooooo i have to go and be a stupid shit again and again and aGAIN and AGAIN AND AGAIN #somebody punch me in the fucking face #not trek #personal log #romance = 😣 #unrequited crush #i don't want to human anymore #self loathing #self hatred #heartsick #soul sick #jtkchu's brain #jtkchu is toxic #stfu jtkchu #i want to hurt myself #SO. FUCKING. BADLY. right now #please take away my keys to this brain/body/meat suit i am unfit to exist #i am truly the most phenomenal loser ever to walk the earth. observe my idiocy be amazed & be grateful you're not even half as pitiful as i #Crush do you have a twin who's ~85% as gorgeous as you but wears glasses? CUT my Goddamn HEART out You In Glasses would literally kill me #cut my damn heart out anyway i don't fucking WANT IT anymore #and if you're wondering *wow why can't jtkchu ever care about anyone besides their own fucking SELF for a change?* i'm wondering that too

[sluttyten]

I’ve been in a bad mood for like 90% of my day, most likely because of work and most likely because of one of the people I had to work with today, because after I left work my mood improved, but then I was just sitting here complaining to my family about my day as one does, telling them that I’m ready for high schools and universities to be out for the summer so we have more employees with more availability so they can come in and work mornings so I can finally take a couple days off because as of right now if I took a day off, there would be no one to cover my shift because we have no employees other than the three of us that usually work weekday mornings to com in and cover those shifts. So when I get the chance I’m gonna take it, and my dad started like arguing/lecturing me, basically talking down about me wanting to take some time off and telling me boo-hoo and to get over it like

#I’m already fucking annoyed today leave me alone #also I would be using some of my accumulated PTO it’s not like I’m just taking time off because I can #like I have to use this at some point and right now when I go into work with a bad attitude and leave with one too #I either need to take some time off #or I need to just find an entirely new job #which is sounding better and better every day but I’m lazy and also I get good hours that I want at a not unreasonable pay #yeah there are careers out there and this one of just a job but I don’t know any careers that I’m actually really qualified for

[reasonsforhope]

No paywall version here.

"Two and a half years ago, when I was asked to help write the most authoritative report on climate change in the United States, I hesitated...

In the end, I said yes, but reluctantly. Frankly, I was sick of admonishing people about how bad things could get. Scientists have raised the alarm over and over again, and still the temperature rises. Extreme events like heat waves, floods and droughts are becoming more severe and frequent, exactly as we predicted they would. We were proved right. It didn’t seem to matter.

Our report, which was released on Tuesday, contains more dire warnings. There are plenty of new reasons for despair. Thanks to recent scientific advances, we can now link climate change to specific extreme weather disasters, and we have a better understanding of how the feedback loops in the climate system can make warming even worse. We can also now more confidently forecast catastrophic outcomes if global emissions continue on their current trajectory.

But to me, the most surprising new finding in the Fifth National Climate Assessment is this: There has been genuine progress, too.

I’m used to mind-boggling numbers, and there are many of them in this report. Human beings have put about 1.6 trillion tons of carbon in the atmosphere since the Industrial Revolution — more than the weight of every living thing on Earth combined. But as we wrote the report, I learned other, even more mind-boggling numbers. In the last decade, the cost of wind energy has declined by 70 percent and solar has declined 90 percent. Renewables now make up 80 percent of new electricity generation capacity. Our country’s greenhouse gas emissions are falling, even as our G.D.P. and population grow.

In the report, we were tasked with projecting future climate change. We showed what the United States would look like if the world warms by 2 degrees Celsius. It wasn’t a pretty picture: more heat waves, more uncomfortably hot nights, more downpours, more droughts. If greenhouse emissions continue to rise, we could reach that point in the next couple of decades. If they fall a little, maybe we can stave it off until the middle of the century. But our findings also offered a glimmer of hope: If emissions fall dramatically, as the report suggested they could, we may never reach 2 degrees Celsius at all.

For the first time in my career, I felt something strange: optimism.

And that simple realization was enough to convince me that releasing yet another climate report was worthwhile.

Something has changed in the United States, and not just the climate. State, local and tribal governments all around the country have begun to take action. Some politicians now actually campaign on climate change, instead of ignoring or lying about it. Congress passed federal climate legislation — something I’d long regarded as impossible — in 2022 as we turned in the first draft.

[Note: She's talking about the Inflation Reduction Act and the Infrastructure Act, which despite the names were the two biggest climate packages passed in US history. And their passage in mid 2022 was a big turning point: that's when, for the first time in decades, a lot of scientists started looking at the numbers - esp the ones that would come from the IRA's funding - and said "Wait, holy shit, we have an actual chance."]

And while the report stresses the urgency of limiting warming to prevent terrible risks, it has a new message, too: We can do this. We now know how to make the dramatic emissions cuts we’d need to limit warming, and it’s very possible to do this in a way that’s sustainable, healthy and fair.

The conversation has moved on, and the role of scientists has changed. We’re not just warning of danger anymore. We’re showing the way to safety.

I was wrong about those previous reports: They did matter, after all. While climate scientists were warning the world of disaster, a small army of scientists, engineers, policymakers and others were getting to work. These first responders have helped move us toward our climate goals. Our warnings did their job.

To limit global warming, we need many more people to get on board... We need to reach those who haven’t yet been moved by our warnings. I’m not talking about the fossil fuel industry here; nor do I particularly care about winning over the small but noisy group of committed climate deniers. But I believe we can reach the many people whose eyes glaze over when they hear yet another dire warning or see another report like the one we just published.

The reason is that now, we have a better story to tell. The evidence is clear: Responding to climate change will not only create a better world for our children and grandchildren, but it will also make the world better for us right now.

Eliminating the sources of greenhouse gas emissions will make our air and water cleaner, our economy stronger and our quality of life better. It could save hundreds of thousands or even millions of lives across the country through air quality benefits alone. Using land more wisely can both limit climate change and protect biodiversity. Climate change most strongly affects communities that get a raw deal in our society: people with low incomes, people of color, children and the elderly. And climate action can be an opportunity to redress legacies of racism, neglect and injustice.

I could still tell you scary stories about a future ravaged by climate change, and they’d be true, at least on the trajectory we’re currently on. But it’s also true that we have a once-in-human-history chance not only to prevent the worst effects but also to make the world better right now. It would be a shame to squander this opportunity. So I don’t just want to talk about the problems anymore. I want to talk about the solutions. Consider this your last warning from me."

-via New York Times. Opinion essay by leading climate scientist Kate Marvel. November 18, 2023.

#WE CAN DO THIS #I SO TRULY BELIEVE THAT WE CAN DO THIS #WE CAN SAVE OURSELVES AND THE WORLD ALONG WITH US #climate crisis #united states #climate change #conservation #hope posting #sustainability #climate news #climate action #climate emergency #fossil fuels #global warming #environmentalism #climate hope #solarpunk #climate optimism #climate policy #earth #science #climate science #meteorology #extreme weather #renewable energy #solar power #wind power #renewables #carbon emissions #climate justice

[slugandthorn]

pain and agony of having so much to learn to make more things but I need a job/further schooling to learn but I have to have made the things first

#.txt #Painful cycle unable to find value in my art but I already gave up and I'm already trying again some one needs to make this easier #And I think my life would be simpler if I just focused on drawing over 3D and tech anim but the time it would take #To function at a professional level as some sort of concept artist. #Also fine artist and concept artist community is well. Unfortunately unbearable. #Lacking so much animation experience in 2D and 3D I'm having trouble focusing on it to move forward. #The most experience I have is in 3D character art at this point probably but inability to finish things which also plagues #Every other concentration. As well. #I am sitting alone in the room trying to find something of value to express and it will never reach anyone. Existential dread like. #I think it's the searching for storytelling skills limiting me because I do not have the competitive nature #To be that into raw technical skills. Which is killing my ability to make a portfolio. #If I had more time to just keep on keeping on at my part time job I think I would just make the graphic novel I want to make. #To have something expressed and in the world. And then I could actually focus on technical things. #But this thinking has just become a roadblock it is not feasible but I do have several paths planned I just have to. #Recognize what is useful to me. But not just giving up anytime I have a new idea. #My interest goes between implementing animation within a greater scene and also the technical minutia I think is whats killing me. #Making multiple portfolios at once. Which isn't so bad bc ideally I'd be doing generalist work. But generalist means more time limitations. #My brain is convinced it can just work past time as a factor. Which is how we reach the problem I am having now (need money). #I think something I need to recognize is I've always thought my perspective and understanding of stories held some value. #But that only stands from my own perspective and it does not have value outside of that. #Even if it does reach other people it does not retain interest. And while it benefits me internally. I'm not making a career of it. #Which is fine. #I think the things I valued from story can still be found in technical skills. And anyone can develop a technical skill with some time. #If I keep my focus. #I think that's something close to a resolution I've been looking for. Been needing some profound change in my life and I think the desire #And constant failure of communication has been what's preventing me from moving forward. #I want to go out and do things. That is possible. Focus on skill and ability. Maybe the other stuff will come later. #Digesting this and hopefully not spending my days sleeping anymore.

[steviescrystals]

one more rant about my layoff in the tags and then i’ll shut up i promise

#my mom is telling me to apply for unemployment and i’m so overwhelmed even thinking abt it #the guy from payroll who so nicely told me about the layoff sent me a link for it like that’s the natural next step #but like i’m not planning on staying unemployed for more than like a week i’m planning on applying for another job in a few days #so i feel like it’s not even worth it but at the same time i do need money bc the timing of this was terrible #BUT idk if i’m even eligible for unemployment bc i have a second job #i’m on demand there so i only work like once every couple months but it’s still a job so i’m not technically unemployed yk #and i was going through the eligibility requirements online and i can’t find anything related to that one way or the other #i want to just say fuck it and not worry about it #but is that stupid bc i currently only have like one job in mind to apply for and i don’t even know if they’re hiring yet #i feel like i’m being dumb and picky bc i’m still in college so it’s not like it’s a career thing i just need a job for now #preferably retail bc that’s what i’ve always done and i’m extremely opposed to the idea of a serving job #anyway it shouldn’t really matter that much bc it’s gonna be temporary #but i’m not the type to change jobs often (i’ve only ever had 2 and they’re the one i got laid off from and the one i’m still on demand at) #so wherever i end up working i’m planning on staying for at least a couple years so i want it to be something i at least somewhat enjoy #it just sucks so much having to go through this whole process #bc i was planning on staying at this last job until i finished school and possibly longer #and now i don’t have that option bc they let me go with no warning and no explanation #and i loved that job so i’ve been extremely depressed ever since i got the call #which just makes the whole unemployment/applying for new jobs thing so much harder #and i wish i could stop whining about it but it’s literally all i can think about i’m just! so unhappy rn! #vent #lj.txt