#and obviously i cant brush my teeth just anywhere even in public bathrooms now bc of the pandemic so it limits my ability to snack

[purearcticfire]

.. .. .

#ha ha time to vent in the tags! #but seriously where is this coming from #i’ve always been weird about eating at times but id always eventually eat something #id be actually hungry but my brain would just be like ‘no’ but id still feel it physically #now my appetite is so fucked up and i legit forget to eat bc i dont feel hungry even though im expending more physical energy than i have #in months #or i do feel hungry but its hours later than i should and i tell myself ill eat at the next meal time and then ill be sitting there #actually hungry now and i still dont make myself get up and eat #and ive got this thought in the back of my mind that i need to earn food like where the fuck is that coming from #i havent been eating as much for a while and i know psych side aside a lot of it has to do with my invisalign bc its a whole process of #taking them out when i want to eat and only having a certain amount of time to do so before i have to brush my teeth and put them back in #and obviously i cant brush my teeth just anywhere even in public bathrooms now bc of the pandemic so it limits my ability to snack #fuck what is wrong with me #its been almost twenty four hours since i ate anything now and i can feel my stomach doing things but im still just lying in bed!! #what the fuck what the fuck #i swear if this is actually a subconscious anxiety thing about me worrying about affording food i will riot with my brain #cast it out once and for all #@ my brain you have a meal plan please use it!! #delete later