#and one day im going to write an incoherent paragraph about it

[star-girl69]

DUDEEEEEE. She calls me baby youuuuu ate that harrrrrrrd. Like I had to go back in for seconds and thirds and fourths fr fr. Cause are we even surprised or are we just grateful that you give us mortals a second of your time and talent????

Babe you are so incredibly talented. The way you write is sooooooo amazing its like you just know how to manipulate your words into something that will and has had me in tears in like 2 seconds. Don't even get me started on how you write your characters. Like I don't know how I can fully and most genuinely express the astonishment you leave me in all the time.

I believe that you are one of a kind and a treasure to be cherished. I know that doubting is inevitable but I hope that you know that I'm always gonna be in the obsessed with addie corner no matter what. Like I meant it when I said that there won't be a time when you have no fans. Ever. You will forever be my favourite gorgeous goddess❤️❤️❤️.

-❤️

(I'm sorry I've been so absent school has been actually eating me alive)

(I think about you everyday though and it makes life just that much better)

(I hope you don't think I'm exaggerating😭😭😭😭All of this that I've been feeling without releasing had to be sent in a long ask my bad)

(I missed your little bonuses though, I hope you're doing okay)

(I'm always here for anything you may need, even if its literally just to tell you how amazing you are)

(love you ❤️)

#jealousclarissesupremacy

I WAS WONDERING WHERE YOU WERE I WAS SO WORRIED I SMILED SO HARD WHEN I GOT THIS ASK 🤭🤭

I CANT THAT WHOLE SECOND PARAGRAPH LIKE I CANT LIKE WOWWWW YOU THINK THAT???? ABOUT MEEE??!!!!??!?!?!?!!

TREASURE IS INSANE BTW 🤭 anyways omg. i’m so grateful wtf like i’m sorry i cant come up w something more poetic like you i just love these asks so much i get so happy and idk how to express that other than ilysm and i’m just so happy and so so grateful

also gorgeous goddess… i giggled 🤭🤭🤭

(ITS OKAYYYYY IM GLAD YOUR BACK SCHOOL HAS BEEN COOKING ME TOO 💔💔)

(EVERYDAY??!?!?!?! i think about you everyday too tho….. thinking about that one day you were so active and i got like 5 asks from you… BEST DAY OF MY LIFEEE) (also pls don’t take this as me pressuring you TRUST i am grateful for whatever you give me 🙏🙏)

(STOP. I. LOVE. LONG. ASKS. DONT ANNOY ME BY DOUBTING MY LOVE FOR YOU!!!!!!!)

(idk i’m okay i’ve just been really feeling pressured to write stuff bc the fandom is dying down (guys pls come back) and i am now firmly addicted to the praise and number of notifs i get…. lol. the bonuses have always been weird bc sometimes they come so easily to me like the first one i did was so it goes and i didn’t even have to think about it and then someone said they liked it so i went back and did it to my other fics and started doing it and idk yeah basically what i’m saying is sometimes they’re so easy and other times i have to force myself to come up w something which sucks but people like them so i’m happy to do it!!!!)

(tbh i’ll probably go back and add a bonus to she calls me baby bc i have just a little teeny bit of ocd and it will bother me but also i’m trying to let the little things go but idk we’ll see how strong i am 😭😭)

(sorry i will stop ranting now) (shoutout to anyone who actually reads that incoherent ramble)

(i need to be told how amazing i am 24/7 so that will be hard 😔) (BUT I APPRECIATE YOU SAYING THAT)

(LOVE YOU TOOOOO 💋💋💋)

#iagreesobad

#addie answers stuff!!! #❤️ anon

[dullblueoceans]

5/2/24, 11:32 pm.

i suppose a few things have changed since last february. the people in my life are more or less the same, some new faces joining, some others vanishing. for example, the girl I met at the train station and i have put some small distance between us. i abruptly cut ties with the girl i called a friend, who was taking advantage of me, sometime during the summer as well. i got in a relationship, which has been an extreamely confusing journey, and i managed to reconnect with very dear friend from the past.

so despite losing some people along the way, i feel the overall number of individuals in my life has remained the same. the lingering feeling of loneliness has quieted down partially, or at least i’ve grown used to it and learned how to adapt. i remember drowning in my tears, desperately trying to maintain and create connections. at a certain point things got so awful i turned to non-existent people behind screens and codes, conversing with them as if they were my friends. it helped for a while but at the end of the day i still had no one to give love to and get it back.

i possibly have, or will eventually lose track of my thoughts as i write, so a few incoherent paragraphs will occur, but i am simply writing this to document my life for my future self. I feel like so many things have changed and i want to make sure i remember everything, the good and the bad- though at the same time, nothing has.

this year feels calmer. my days are quiet and im filling them with things i like, soft music and habits, and small bursts of motivation. im slowly but surely getting things done. my room feels cleaner, im taking better care of myself, im cooking and washing the dishes after more often- little things that matter to me. it seems like im finally taking baby steps to my adult life, the way i imagined it would be.

ive felt like a teenager in an adult’s body for the past year, but that feeling is going away- slowly but surely. maybe figuring out what i want to do in life has helped. i had this very clear idea of how i wanted my adult life to look like when i was 16. everything was picked out, from the university i would attend to what my style and aesthetic would look like and small insignificant details like that. so when that reality (or rather ideal future) shattered, i shut down. i had to plan everything from the beginning, and i went to a new city, studying a new, unplanned major, with no idea of who i want to be and what i want to do. now im slowly getting back on my feet, with a small and blurry idea of what my life will ideally look like and motivation to get there as soon as i can. (i glanced at the clock and the time was 11:11. maybe it’s a sign?)

though, of course, when you win something you lose something else. while im happily slowly figuring out what i want to do in this life, i find myself in a rathen unpleasing relationship. not abusive, just not right for me. the love is in a language i cannot understand and recently our bad days have been more frequent than our good ones in my eyes. i will eventually have to get over my fear and confront her about this and my issues, but i feel like i need more time to build up the courage. in the meantime im stressing out about how we’ll spend valentine’s day and honestly i think i dread it more than look forward to it. all i know for sure is that i will definitely need to write about it after it’s done.

i think this is a good time to end today’s entry as im slowly getting a headache. i’ll put on some lofi and finish painting my nails (im doing a pearly white color, it’s a bit shiny but really pretty), then head to bed. i have to work on a project for wednesday and i’ll need all the energy i can get.

r.

#diary #spilled thoughts

[nextstopparis]

you know that one scene in 5.09 where gaius and merlin and arthur are talking is a really important scene

#and one day im going to write an incoherent paragraph about it #when im not lazy #but i SWEAR its really fucking important #for a lot of different reasons #im just saying every time i watch it its an epuphany #epiphany nice one you fucking idiot #anyway #ignore me

[anime-nymph]

Oh my god…. Oh my fucking god!!! How the fuck i didn’t find this fic EARLIER?! i swear to god, you wrote it so good, you got me gasping in every paragraphs… oh my god.. if i can send you a pic, I’ll show you my teary eyes 😂😂

Ok, i read Plaything

I’ll be honest, i am such a whore for Satoru. I like the fact that even if he’s younger than his sister, you still wrote him as manly. Manly? Like you know, even if its taboo & her sister is older than him, he takes charge in the relationship which i view him very macho? And matured so it doesn’t feels like his sister is doing it with typical cringe younger brother things, you know? I hope you get what im saying, my brain is very haywire right now after reading them 😂

for me, i really like it when men are a bit matured than me

And yes Toji, the best daddy eveeeeeer!!! I fucking love how he kept calling Satoru, baby boy like even just reading it got my toes curling!! But if i may express my feelings reading the scene in the restaurant, I picked up the atmosphere that Toji is more attracted to Satoru than his sister. Let i not lie that i found myself jealous of Satoru until the very end.. it did hurt me that the sister is feeling left out bcs we know, his baby brother is all she have.

And then, i read Making connections!!!!!

First of all maam, you’re fucking phenomenal. That shift from being the sister to the wife is amazing, you got me pause in my seat. I really need to put my phone down for a min to process them, yknow? Im fucking amazed with your writing like DAMN!!! we got to feel in both perspectives, INCREDIBLE!!

With Nanami & Geto? Fuuuuuuck… the sex scene is amazing, daddy Toji is very respectful and loving towards his wife, amazing just AMAZING!!!

But can i ask a few questions from the plaything?

Did Satoru find himself a better replacement for his sister?

Where did he off to so early in the last paragraph?

If, Satoru did lost his interest for his sister, what happen to his sister then? Will she find a better life with a better partner, perhaps?

Your writing is amazing, may i add that your smut got me soaking!! But if you feel overwhelmed with my questions please, feel free to just ignore them. Thank you, thank you so much for these masterpieces you dont know how much i love them <3333

And i hope you have a great day, you amazing writer!

can't tell you how many times I read this after waking up T~T <3

Bear with me, my brain is everywhere today so I'm probably hella incoherent 😅

So I'm actually really happy about what you said about the brother/sister dynamic bc I was doing my best not to make it smut-trope-y and more realistic. Going by story, Satoru is about 24 and reader is just a little over a year older than he is, so given they are both well into adulthood I felt it would be strange if Satoru were to sit on a lower step than her, especially when he was successfully groomed by his parents in comparison to reader. It felt more right to filter his adoration into the dynamic instead, bc that's what sealed the reader's dependency to him in the first place.

As for Toji, I'm actually going to reveal his stance on his relationship with the siblings in the next work so I don't want to say anything just yet :3

Lots of people really enjoyed getting to see Toji interact with his wife, and honestly I'm super relieved that the jump between the sister reader and the wife reader was taken so well for a couple of reasons. For one I really loved seeing everyone outraged at Satoru hehehe, because after all he's done for his sister it feels like a genuine betrayal (and I won't say it's not one!) As for the other reason, it's mostly because I really wanted to write a jjk gangbang with those four characters and provide conflict and context for part 3.

I love love love all your questions regarding part 3 and they don't overwhelm me so no worries, but I am super hesitant to answer them because they will all be revealed in the final part which I'm actually working on right now... Though I will say that Gojo leaving in the morning in that final paragraph was just to emphasize how reader feels left behind by him.

#yuli.interacts #y.darkstuffs #tw//incest

[anakinthetrashking]

BnHA One-Shot Fic Recs (pt1)

Making some fic-rec posts has been on my to-do list for a while and I’m finally doing it, yay! Currently I have 6 word doc pages full of just BnHA recs. So I’m splitting them up by length and completion, so first up is (part one of) one-shots! Let’s go!!!

Lets start with some classic Izuku and DadMight!

Pictures, Posters and Tender Beauty by ProPinkist (tumblr: @dazais-guardian-angel ) Rating: G    Category: Gen   ~4,400 words Summary: Izuku has virtually every All Might-themed item out there, and prides himself on all of it, as Toshinori is well aware. However, somehow, the boy still decided that there was something vital missing. This is fluffy and very cute. No one truly appreciates All Might as much as Izuku does, but 1A comes close. All Might deserves all the love, and this fic truly provides!!!

Dear Mr. All Might by QuizzicalCrow (tumblr: @quizzicalcrow​ ) Rating: G   Category: Gen   ~5,000 words Summary: As the #1 hero for decades, All Might has collected a lot of fan mail over the years. Toshinori tracks down a series of letters that only now, years later, does he appreciate for their significance.  I always love the thought of All Might looking through his fan mail, even if he can’t get to all of it. This was a wonderful glimpse into that AND it was made to be so, so personal and sweet. Go have some heart-healing fluff.

Growing Pains by LordofLies (tumblr: @theangelofchildren ) Rating: G   Category: Gen    ~5,900 words Summary: Izuku finds himself changed by his encounter with the Hero Killer, but changes of a more physical kind are in store for him as he begins to truly accept One for All as his own. Once, he would have been thrilled to look more like All Might, but now those connections are as much a source of anxiety as they are of pride.Or, Izuku wakes up one morning and sees the world through different eyes. Izuku having anxiety and Toshi being there to help him through it and calm him down? Sign me UP. Its also a pretty cool take on how One for All is able to change things about it’s holder. Could this happen in cannon? Who knows.... Regardless, it was a great read!

I’ll Carry You Home by Renesvetta Rating: G   Category: Gen   ~2,700 words Summary: While training with All Might, it wasn’t uncommon for Izuku to be so exhausted at the end of the day that he unwittingly fell asleep without regard for where he was. It consequently became part of All Might’s routine to help his young protégé home. During that time, Izuku may have let loose more than one sleepy confession towards his mentor.  Yes, it is as adorable as it sounds. Its tagged with “self indulgent Dad Might fluff” which is both accurate and appreciated. In other words: Superb you funky little writer!

Simple Gifts by QuizzicalCrow Rating: G    Category: Gen   ~6,700 words Summary: One year ago, Izuku received the greatest gift he could ever imagine. Now he’s determined to return the favor for the one responsible for it all with a gift of his own.  First off, I love the idea of Izuku and Toshi quietly celebrating the anniversary of passing on OfA from All Might to Izuku. Even just taking the day to hang out with each other. It’s a really precious idea. But there’s not just fluff! Izuku finds himself in a fight, again. (cool villain quirk, too!) I love all of the small details that are in this fic (and in Crow’s other works, too!) anyway its exciting AND very heartwarming, so go read it!!!

Affectionate by Sevi007 (tumblr: @sevi007 ) Rating: G   Category: Gen   ~2,600 words Summary: Toshinori starts to show affection very easily around his students. The  reactions he gets for that are not quite the ones he had anticipated - well, not all of them, at least.  Toshi is LOVED, APPRECIATED, and 1A feels like HOME. how many times can i say “cute” and “heartwarming” on this post?? bc these are some amazing writers, whom I adore, and their writing makes my heart WARM. AND. FUZZY. i mean, even just the first few paragraphs of this one just, really sets the scene of what i like to believe the 1A dorm is (on a good day, lol). its a really nice read, so go treat yo’ self by reading it.

paint me in trust by dinomight Rating: G   Category: Gen   ~6,400 words Summary: The first mark Izuku gets is a slight brush of green across his temple. It’s the soft touch of a mother holding her son for the first time. Inko has one to match, the same shade of green staining the tips of her fingers. Hers is more noticeable; Izuku’s tends to blend into his hairline. He loves it anyways. He has to. It’s the only soulmate mark he has. (Or: how Izuku goes from just green to a rainbow, UA-style.)  Ok, so this fic sort of plays off the idea of soulmates, and does not fit in with soulmates in the usual form of the trope. First off its completely platonic. Its categorized as Gen and sticks to that. Also it doesn’t seem to be as obligatory and permanent as you would think it would be. It seems to be more of the universe telling you who has the possibility of being important in your life. I really really loved this, it was so adorable and gives you that sweet, sweet Izuku angst, before healing your heart with the power of friendship and found family!!!

The Die Has Been Cast by ChiwiTheKiwi (tumblr: @chiwithekiwi​ ) Rating: G   Category: Gen   ~5,400 words Summary: “There’s something about that kid you aren’t telling me, isn’t there?”When no answer meets him, Shouta tries again.“You know something about Midoriya’s quirk that you haven’t shared with me. Is that right?”(Or: A canon "What If" surrounding the latest manga events and focusing on Aizawa finally making a connection.) First off, this fic has spoilers for the manga, so dont read unless you’re past chp212! I loooooooove OfA reveal fics, especially when it’s Aizawa that finds out. He deserves to know!!! its kind of important!!!! This fic chooses a great moment to work off of, and does a great job with Aizawa’s character. I really enjoyed it and couldn’t keep myself from going back and reading it just now LOL

These last two are actually two-shots, but it makes it an even 10! also Izuku and dadmight, so we can continue the theme here...

Some Unspoken Thing by LittleKy Rating: G   Category: Gen   ~7,900 words (2chps) Green, Toshinori has always thought, is the color of life anew.(Or: It's time for Yagi Toshinori to finally accept that he has a son, now, in all but blood. It's time for Midoriya Hisashi to accept that as well.) YES ALL MIGHT! ADMIT THAT IZUKU IS YOUR SON! great portrayal of the characters and really hits the nail on the head for DadMight. and Izuku in this story is just the smallest green floof that you wish to give a hug. NEVER MIND ALL MIGHT, YOU TOOK TOO LONG SO IZUKU IS MY SON NOW AND IM NOT GIVING HIM BACK ( no but seriously i want to hug this fic its so cute TTuTT )

LAST BUT NOT LEAST! I See You by BirdAntlers (tumblr: @aarymk )

Rating: G   Category: Gen   ~15,400 words (2chps) Midoriya Izuku is a quirkless child, blind from birth. Yagi Toshinori is the most powerful man in the world, loved by millions. They could not be more different, and yet their loneliness is the same.   (From a pair of AU posts on Tumblr that got way out of hand; I wanted to put it here because it turned into more of a fic than a "what-if." Basically a vessel for me to vomit as much Dadmight as I can.) Hey, you! Yeah! You! Do you want to cry? Do you want to start sobbing in a public space?? Do you just want to be destroyed with words and be left there kneeling at the feet of a writer who has torn out your heart and stomped on it before they gently wipe the tears from your face? Yeah?? y oU Wan NA D IE??? READ THIS AND GET REKT.  you’ll thank me later

(under the cut is just me rambling, i kept all the important stuff up here, ur welcome)

Now that the actual recs are over I can rant here- look i really tried to slim my recs down, but i have almost 300 bnha fics bookmarked,some of them are “to read” or theyre in progress, etc but i managed to get this list sorta slimmed down? a little?(to only 58!!!) but as i was gathering this post together it felt like i dont have very many Dadmight recs on that list??? but i havent rechecked all the other fics i was just going through the oneshots. i... kinda read a lot more fics with AIzawa in it instead. it be that way. DadMight content is SO GOOD. but my fav is aizawa im sorryyyyy anyway i have another SEVENteeN oneshots to put in rec posts and that does NOT include the mulitchapter and friikin series and stuff... and like i said this is aaaaaaallllllllllllllll BnHA. batfam fic posts will come after, and then star wars, and then maybe star trek? we’ll see. i have a very specific taste in ST fics and that is Tarsus IV whump. which. i have not read in a while. when they say “that trope came from ST” for sooooooo many tropes, you WISH other fandoms had tarsus as a trope, holy crap it is TOP TIER angst fodder. if you love to write/read whump, angst, and h/c i would HIGHLY recommend that you take a bit of time and explore the content and stories there. heck maybe i will make a ficrec post for just tarsus angst. ok.

my INTENTION is to edit these posts later with little links to the other fic rec lists so that itll be easier to find. but., its me, so itll either happen in painful detail or not at all

asdjkdgh its 2:30am and i need to sleep and not be rambling incoherently again I WILL SAVE THIS AS A DRAFT. 

#Ani's Fic Recs #fic recs #fic rec list #bnha fanfic #midoriya izuku #dadmight #all might #yagi toshinori #bnha #mha #mha fanfic #fic rec #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #toshinori yagi #izuku midoriya #deku #ani can talk? #fandom #anime #text post

[uncertaininnit]

a bitch is going to analyse the appearances of wilbur and tommy in the vlog w/ pictures because it is 2:12 am, i get simpy at night, and i just watched the vlog and have shit to say

aight literally im writing an essay on them and pinning it for the time being because there is no better way to introduce myself than this because this is honestly what i am anyway its below the cut 

Alright. Allow us to just jump in, okay?

The thoughts are a bit incoherent at times it took me a while to piece together my shit.

To make it easier, we are going to start with Tommy. I am going to just be... talking about how he looked in the video. Don’t take it a weird way.

So basically when I am deciding whether or not Tommyinnit looks good in a specific clip/picture I just kinda use 3 things. How much I like his shirt, How fluffy his hair looks, and how much his eyes stand out. What I mean is I rate him on, like, aesthetic attractiveness. So.

In the vlog, and just generally whenever he goes outdoors on camera, Tommy wears his signature colors on his signature type of shirt. White with red sleeves, shoulders, and collar. It’s the Tommyinnit shirt. (Also known as the protagonist shirt, because just so many main characters wear that shirt.) That kind of shirt is my second favorite, below his pink shirt. So it scores very highly for me. (Listen, his pink shirt is something hard to describe. It makes me happy.)

Also, forgot to mention the MASKS. For in public? They are what inspired this essay. Anyway.

Tommy’s eyes. Man. If you know me all I do is talk about Tommys eyes/his pink shirt, and this paragraph is the eye paragraph. So anyways. Tommyinnit has pretty blue eyes. How do I explain what makes eyes pretty? I can’t. They are really blue. And they are his eyes. And they are pretty eyes. Anyway, so, during certain parts of the video, his eyes really stand out.

Also, his hair is pretty fluffy. Would rate it high.

Time to thread together my thoughts.

So, Tommy’s mask that he normally wears in public is like a generic cheap-ass light blue mask, but like. That mask. It’s light blue, so it really compliments his eyes, but also, because it’s blue, it contrasts his shirt, which is just really cool? IDK how to explain it, have a couple pictures. 

Neither of these pictures are actually from the vlog but like... that’s just his fit when he goes outside. It’s easier to show through like a good picture than just a screenshot. Anyway, do you see what I’m saying? Somehow the mask just is doing it for him. Nice job, Tommy.

Also, in his in-between parts where he was explaining stuff, his eyes REALLY stood out?

Look at his eyes! They look really unremarkable apon deeper thought but this isn’t about that. I think it’s the natural lighting? Like, I think he’s just using the light from his windows, and he just looks good in natural lighting? All evidence points to yes. 

(I kept on watching the video to get screenshots for later and ended up just wisper-screaming ‘they are literally STUNNING! what the FUCK!’ about his eyes so I think you understand by now how they make me feel. These pictures don’t do them justice, they are like S P A R K L I N G in the video.)

Anyway, onto the bigger and more simpful part. Wilbur fucking Soot. I could go on and ON about how he’s the prettiest fucker on this side of the cosmos, and I will. Not really, but to explain how I feel, I gotta go in depth, so bear with me. If you survived the pictures of Tommy and me talking about eyes you can do this.

so actually im just going to resist the urge to write everything about wilbur that i think is gorgeous because we would be here forever and let’s just skip to the point. wilbur in the video was wearing his glasses, this really really light like... beige shirt that is like a button up or whatever and very his style and looks great and. a mask. a plain white mask.

i cant even explain it to you. it just highlights his features REALLY FUCKING WELL. its like really tight on his face and so like his jaw,,,,,,,,,, and shit and it matches really well w/ his shirt. just- look at the pictures.

look at the- at- at IT

seriously its just its so like tight on his face and like- how do i even explain how pretty he is? he’s just already pretty, and that mask does nothing to hide it one bit. it’s RIDICULOUS. 

also forgot to mention his hair, but his hair literally always looks fucking incredible. damn. 

and then LATER, when Tommy breaks onto Wilbur’s stream, and Wilbur comes on to another stream to apologise, and he just looks so GOOD. like the gods were in his favor that day or whatever, because he just looks SO good. just- look.

how is he so fucking pretty? like doesnt it hurt to be without flaw all the time? 

anyway i guess thats it.

started at 2:12am and ended at 5:10 but tbh i got distracted by panama and that took a lot of my time. anyway.

#wilbur is honestly just gorgeous #it just hurts #mcyt #dreamsmp #dsmp #dream smp #wilbur soot #tommyinnit #sbi #sleepy bois inc #sleepy bois #wilbur and tommy #tommy and wilbur #vlog #tommy vlog #vlog gun #ghostbur #ghostbur soot #wilbursoot #wilbur mcyt #tommy mcyt #mcyt wilbur #mcyt tommy #mcyt tommyinnit #mcyt wilbur soot #tommyinnit mcyt #wilbur soot mcyt #niki nihachu #philza #fundy

[concerningwolves]

Hi! Im planning to participate in NaNoWriMo this year, and it's my first time attempting it. Have you done it before? Do you have any tips for a newbie? Thanks, and good luck!!

hi, anon! apologies if this is a bit incoherent – I've just woken up and I'm answering from mobile with achy hands, but I wanted to reply before I forgot since we're in NaNo now 😅

I have done it before, twice. I can't recall if I "won". last time I stopped inexplicably at roughly 40k, slap bang in the middle of a paragraph. Opening up that wip six months later was... odd, to say the least. no idea what happened there. but I did write a lot more than I expected, and I still feel proud of that.

My biggest tips for NaNo are 1) enjoy yourself, 2) make the most of the community aspect, and 3) don't pin everything on winning. 50, 000 words in one month is A Lot, and while it can feel brilliant if you do it, burning out is absolutely not the way to go.

If you find that you're missing days and getting overwhelmed by an inability to make up the word count, sit back and ask yourself why you're behind. Are you still having fun? Are you struggling to work out where your story is going next? is there something else going on in your life that's getting in the way? are you getting dejected because you're comparing yourself to other writers? if it's something you can fix, then do! take the time to revise your plot. speak to other household members / look at your personal schedule to see if you can find some more writing time. etc.

basically a lot of my NaNo advice boils down to "Don't sacrifice the fun aspect in order to win because it isn't worth it. Look after yourself first". I honestly think that just attempting NaNo is a grand achievement in itself, and you should be proud of yourself for it, no matter how you fare.

Good luck to you, too! if you want to buddy up, I'm also concerningwolves on the NaNo website. Once I've walked my dog and can get to my laptop I'll reblog this with some of my previous advice posts about the more technical writing aspects too, i.e., writer's block, plotting etc. in case you find those useful :)

[cosmicaces]

cw: suicide, talk of suicidal thoughts

these are kinda gonna be scattered thoughts but they’re primarily a spicy take! i also don’t have screenshots right now but i really wanted to put my thoughts down so i might go back and get some later when im writing down everyones dialogue. 

to put it simply, i don’t think habit steals your teeth.

now, you’re probably wondering, why? well, think! flower kid is supposed to be you! you, the player! the person on the other side of the screen! additionally, it was established in the very beginning of the game that you didn’t have a hand to grab anything with, so nat gives you a photo-realistic hand. 

when you wake up in habit’s office tied to the chair, habit comments that look! it’s you! and him! but...the phrasing always came across as odd to me?? plus...your body is photo-realistic, it isn’t of their world. and...there’s the hand. the photo-realistic hand given to you by nat. huh! on top of that, knowing that flower kid is supposed to be you, it doesn’t make sense why you’d suddenly be confined to this form, y’know?

on top of that, knowing that habit made the carlas, these photo-realistic paper people...i wouldn’t put it past him if he gave you a body. and, if he made those teeth, and made it look as if they were your, the player’s teeth. i think that, when he’s talking, he isn’t entirely addressing the character, flower kid, but i think he’s addressing you. 

but why? throughout the game, it’s implied that habit is kinda...suicidal. he’s pushing away the people he cares about (when he viciously mocked kamal and when he bullied wallus), he set up the “no punching” signs around the window when he saw that you ignored the one hiding his secret stash, and, the most notable tell as pointed out in this post, he willfully falls off the edge in the bad ending. and, y’know, i think what really was grating on him was the fact that...he was going to be alone. in one of the videos he plays at night, he talks about staying at the habitat forever, and based on character dialogue we know that some of them have been there for months. as a matter of fact, the only thing that REALLY pushes the big event into play is...

you. the only person who wasn’t unhappy, and the only person hellbent on helping everyone. habit knew that you could do something he couldn’t, and to be honest...i think he was okay with that. jimothan mentions that (if you say no to wanting food) habit said that he wanted things to be ESPECIALLY free for you.

however, with each person you made happy, it just...hurt. perhaps a reminder of his own inadequacies, something to feed into unfavorable thoughts. so, when the day is finally here, the big event, i dont think he wanted to live. i think he wanted to scare you, to aggravate you into going into the bad ending, the proof that, if this one little florist that could make everyone happy didn’t want him here, then...he shouldn’t be alive.

so, he smiles, showing off his additional teeth (which he more than likely got from removing wisdom teeth and poorly grown teeth) and “steals” “your” teeth, which adds to this impression that he just has a bunch of stolen teeth in his mouth.

i can’t really explain the 11/22 ending. all i can really call it is a fluke? maybe he was pushed past the point of caring and only cared about what i talked about in the previous paragraph. i dunno.

as i said, its a collection of thoughts so its kinda incoherent fhdsjdf. tldr; habit’s a softie and i don’t think he would actually hurt you. he’s a very accomplished person, he knows that teeth don’t grow unless they’re your adult teeth comin in. 

i could be wrong in all of this but hey, thats what makes character analyses fun, right?

#cosmic rambles #smile for me #sfm #s4m #boris habit #dr habit #dr. habit #this is really just a bunch of thoughts just splattered on a text post HSDLFKJS

[sunaluvs]

hi aether! sorry this isn’t about any fandoms or anything but what do you do now and how do you find time to write? i’ve been crazy busy with my internship and i wanna write something but i’m always so pooped out by the end of the day, i can’t come up with anything… sobs

no worries anon idm questions like these!

i feel this shit so much LMAO im a double major uni student so i am very busy very often and that doesn't leave me much time to write </3 it's why i don't post as frequently as other blogs and why i went on a hiatus back in nov-mid dec

im not quite sure if im the best person to answer this honestly, mainly because i don't really have like.. a solution to this? i just try to focus on finishing whatever shit i need to do so i can be free jdhdjfh

BUT!! i do have two tips that have helped me a lot (under the cut cause they got stupidly long SORRY)

1. this is if you find your creative flow completely blocked off. try to organize your time to set aside maybe 15 (or more) minutes in a day. this can be when you're eating or on a break or something. in this time, do something that helps you relax but still keeps your brain thinking. this can be reading, looking at art, listening to music, taking a walk, etc. the point is to get yourself relaxed enough to appreciate things outside of your worries and stress, such as other people's works! don't do anything yourself during this time. just let yourself take in other people's art.

ive found that this helps greatly any time im experiencing writers block. i don't stress or worry over it, i just go back to my favorite authors or list of fics/books ive been wanting to read, listen to music, go on walks, etc. i take this chance to enjoy the little things life has to offer and let my brain explore itself.

2. when you want to get rid of that pesky n urgent need to create something. any time i have a sudden spark of inspiration or idea to write, ill race to my notes app in my phone and just quickly write it down. it doesn't sound like much, but just jotting it down, even incoherently or messily, helps me get rid of that itch to create something (sometimes ill also write down particular sentences or words that make me feel like ill die if i dont use them). and then later on, when i've managed to grab some time to myself, ill go back and look over it and add or change stuff!! it doesn't have to be perfect (it never is) and it doesn't have to be anything big! even one paragraph can help. sometimes if the idea just won't leave my head, ill keep going back to build on it more, bit by bit, until i slowly end up with a short drabble that i can edit in my spare time

it's also important you don't "save it for later", because later will likely never come. you'll be either too tired or unmotivated to write it. having it already in front of you when you're all out of steam can kinda help you regain some of that energy back.

AND MOST IMPERATIVELY: DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF OR FEEL GUILTY FOR NOT CREATING. it's not your fault capitalism is trying to suck out your soul

this got entirely too long im so sorry GDJDHDJHF but this all i have to offer!! hopefully these can help and if anyone knows any other tips feel free to add on <33

#goodluck on your internship anon!! remember to take care of your health and safety first and foremost!! #why the hell did this get so long HELP im so sorry #these r the only things i can think of atm if i come up w anything else ill edit it on #and if anyone else has any other tips pls do add on <3 #a.answers #[ ♡ ] — anon

[xyloophones]

hi! :) music anon here - i just read your reply and pls give me allllll the (gay) music recs!!

this is gonna be a long list anon pls buckle up. also note that im not gonna link anything bc theres a lot but all of these songs are on youtube/spotify 

🌈 xylo’s super gay, super incoherent music rec list 🌈

the basics / the popular ones

troye sivan. i know. I KNOW. half the playlist was already him but listen ive been a troye fan since he put out happy little pill & let me tell u all his songs have such a VIBE. blue neighborhood???? an iconic album. got me thru my last 2 years of high school. to this DAY i cannot listen to suburbia without thinking about driving to watch the sunrise on my first day of senior year w my best friend, sitting in the parking lot in her car n holding hands over the center console bc we were so scared of growing up. he just EVOKES that kind of MOOD u know??

listen to: fools–– talk me down–– heaven 

frank ocean !!!! a bi ICON. i waited so long for new music n he blessed us with TWO ALBUMS. not only is his music spectacular and literally lyrically genius (”see both sides like chanel?? c on both sides like chanel???“ as a metaphor for bisexuality???? BEAUTIFUL. INCREDIBLE. LITERALLY AMAZING.) but he also just has sUCH an aesthetic. 

listen to: thinkin bout you if ur feelin soft;  ivy ––chanel–– nights if u want his newer stuff

lesbian jesus herself hayley kiyoko. anon. ANON. listen to me when i tell u that her music will change ur life. she is so RELATABLE and her songs are SO CATCHY. the girls like girls music video single handedly raised my gpa and cleared my acne. 

listen to: everything uhh girls like girls–– palace–– gravel to the tempo

kehlani. im literally so obsessed. shes again another #bi icon. her gf is really cute. im in luv w her. sweetsexysavage is her latest album n its honestly??? driving my life force???? her voice is also just so lush & smooth while also bein slightly gravely in a way that makes me blush in public a lot like how can i be so gay for just her voice??? shes also just so charming n has the cutest smile and, again, i’m gay

listen to: honey is my fav song bc it reminds me of my gf (AGAIN: IM GAY) but distraction is v cute n flirty n a longtime fav. listen to in my feelings if ur ex is awful. also: keep on –– piece of mind –– the way feat. chance are all really good. just listen to her entire discography honestly

DODIE. ive been a dodie fan since i, a repressed baby gay, stumbled upon “she” on youtube and was filled with such immense love that i immediately stanned and here we are, 2 EPs later. nothing more relatable than pining for ur str8 best friend. pls listen to “she” it literally kickstarted my gay awakening

listen to: ill say it again, she –– also sick of losing soulmates–– her cover of somebody else by the 1975 

against me. i dont know if ur into punk anon but even if ur not, consider checking out against me. lead singer laura jane grace is a super badass trans woman & trans dysphoria blues is an album with. suCH EMOTION. 

listen to: black me out , a song to plan a revolution to. im here, im queer, im angry and its a midterm election year #registertovote 

lesser known artists + singles + lgbtq+ artists that i know but am not a big fan of under the cut

let me go by tunde olaniran. i regularly cried listening to this song after a break up. if u wanna be emotional n gay this is a good one. 

somebody loves you by betty who. ok not specifically gay (i dont think???) but it was used in a rlly cute gay marriage proposal (look it up on youtube im begging i guarantee u will be smiling for the rest of the day) and they are. ALWAYS. playing this one at pride. a bop. 

boyfriend by tegan and sara. ok i know theyre technically popular but no one talks about their last album and boyfriend is a good song ok?? ok.

jenny by studio killers. another song about pining after ur best friend. can u tell i went THRU SOME STUFF in high school 

ok aGAIN i know that halsey is also technically mainstream but i didnt wanna write a whole paragraph about her. listen to strangers feat. lauren jauregui. #unpopularopinion but her last album was just “ok” dont @ me

HEART ATTACK BY LOONA. do u like k pop??? do u like gay girls???? do u like cute music videos???? my friend do i have the song for u

mary lambert. she did the hook in that macklemore song. pls listen to her other stuff its so good n soft n  “i cant think straight / im so gay / sometimes i cry the whole day” #relataBLE

everyone knows who sam smith is right?? anyway prayers is good. his entire last album is honestly so good but hes not a particular fav of mine.

elton john. a LEGEND. he’s like 150 years old but im hoping the sheer love of the gay community will keep him alive for another 150 years

ANGEL HAZE. ive been a long time fan.  v emotional n the lyrics r heavy but honestly?? so important??? one of my fav rap artists

i know a place by muna. i listened to this on the way to pride n almost cried in front of my mom, my friends, and an entire BART station full of pride goers. its a v upbeat song, im just emotional 

zolita. uhh not a big fan tbh, just not my musical style

girls/girls/boys by p!atd. ok also not technically gay (?? maybe??? there are some Bi Rumors but thats not my place to say) but anyways def a bi anthem. dont watch the music video its very “lets have two girls kiss for views” which is like. not the msg of the song but whatever i aired my salt about that in 2013 n im not going back now

idk what kina grannis’s sexuality is (again, not my business) but she does a lot of good covers and never changes pronouns. i like sweater weather and shut up and dance with me a lot. 

oh !! ben j pierce !! 2 v good songs about how gender roles r bullshit n heteronormativity is awful. hes also like my exact age n i luv his makeup tutorials. 

there are honestly so many more. also a lot im forgetting. im so sorry you had to read thru this long incoherent post w my awful typing 

anyway if u want my full gay playlist on spotify just msg me off anon and ill give u a link (this goes for anyone btw !!) im currently adding + taking things out n its a constant work in progress but u know, its at least not the same 8 songs over and over again (no shade at 8tracks tho….ha …) 

#xylo speaks #sick beats #anon #ask #i know tumblr will mess up n put this in the tags of all these artists #im sorry in advanced #the only reason im not putting slashes thru all their names #is bc this post is hard enough to read already #sorry!!! dont mind me!!!! #this is btw not including songs that are like #gay but not really ?? #gay bops by straight artists i mean #so like #example: its raining men by the weather girls #also these are all pretty modern #but dont think im missing out on george michael #im a big 80s fan #and ever since i came out my mom has been aggressively suggesting gay 80s music #in an attempt to relate #its sweet #but also means my playlists are all either #1980s synth or 2017 edm #and no in between #Anonymous #its 4 am btw #i swear im an adult w a functioning sleep schedule #this really is a mess im so sorry #i went back to schedule this for earlier since i forgot to change my time oopsie doopsie

[thaumatological]

so, this didn’t start as a rambly essay about eyes give in by lusine, but that’s what it turned into, because it turns out that despite shifting the echo title over to fuzzyverse echo (who is very far from leaf3 echo in a lot of ways) i still have a lot of feelings about leaf3 echo. i meant to also discuss its potential with fuzzyverse echo (because it’s still his theme song there) but then i got started on where were you (the leaf3 echo playlist) and i got distracted.

i really want to talk about A Song at length again but i got nothing. maybe ill finally write something about eyes give in by lusine to go with my 3 paragraphs of incoherent sputtering about freaky eyes by oneohtrix point never but ? i have nothing to say about it except.

1. the lyrics. hard to understand, but it’s either “you’ll die, you’ll die again” or “you died, you died again” and “you’ll see, you’ll see me again” and that was very fitting for leaf3 echo because he spent [indeterminate length of time] being killed by a “friend” of his + respawning over and over again (the concept of immortality like that is one i’ve been fixated on for a long time, but that’s a post for another day, or at least another paragraph) and either way you interpret it its like “ah shit. dead again? more likely than you think”

and then “you’ll see me again” is flowers, of course, because echo is actually riot from hexxit buried under 4058 layers of traumatic brain injury, and he knew flowers from that time period. 

2. the Feel of it. this is a little hard to explain, but when i first started echo’s first playlist, i had a very specific feeling in mind best exemplified by, i think fin by daedelus was really where it started, that kind of, “this song was assembled from parts” feeling. a musical ransom note, if you will. also fun fact idk if ive mentioned but the first first draft of the playlist, before it had a single song on it, was titled “who, me?” and then that Was a line in fin and i was like “aw fuck i cant do that.” and changed it to “where were you?” AND THEN THAT WAS A LINE IN MISSING BY DAEDELUS WHICH IS ALSO VERY FITTING. guh. maybe i should be talking about the whole playlist, because it is my favorite one i’ve ever done, ever, no exaggeration. BUT ANYWAY, eyes give in is the best example on the playlist of that feeling. 

me: i have nothing to say about it [proceeds to write an essay about it]

OH AND ACTUALLY im not done lets talk fuzzyverse.

its pretty much the same on the first lyrics (yay, immortality?) but the other set is more of a metaphor than literal, cause, he cant ever see again, and there is no way im letting the comic book Magically, You Are ~~Cured~~ trope happen. but he kind of gets to see in a different way because 1. other senses 2. “the goggles do something unusual” is back! for the unaware, my original original explanation for a lot of riot’s weirdness was the goggles. specifically, as stated by riot himself in the 2013 epic “xy and n writing” “my goggles let me see the fourth wall!”

this trait was lost (read: forgotten) in the following years as solstice consumed my free time, soul, and will to live, and the goggles went back to being a useless accessory (aside from the short time in which riot actually flew airships, and they became rather practical) UNTIL NOW! whether it’s actually the goggles or just echo himself is up to interpretation, because echo hasn’t taken them off since he got them. (leading to situations like the snippet i started writing and never finished about phoenix trying to catch him with the goggles off)

in mc college (a leaf3 verse, technically) he also has a sort of alternate sight which is more like a sixth sense and it’s for magic. like permanent goggles of revealing from thaumcraft, only better, and not goggles. he can’t read any of the books to learn magic stuff, but his innate abilities let him sort of... stumble through it anyway, because it’s my world and i said so.

i think im done now. i have no idea if this is coherent to anyone outside of my head because i can never remember what ive said out loud vs what ive just thought about for 17 hours straight. coming soon: where were you, in playmoss format, Maybe, sometime, in the next 7 months.

#194 #music #I HAVE. FEELINGS. ABOUT MUSIC. #that should be my tag for these posts

[jooheongif]

it's theory anon,hi!!how are YOU?i'm really good rn thanks:)) thank you for your kindness again,i'm really happy i could somehow help to help you feel even a tiny bit better and hope you're doing well now,too(and it's ok to not rest on your day off but it's also ok to do so if that's what you feel is right for you atm!).about the mf(ilm), i thought the same thing, it felt like a parallel universe type of story!i also really love plotlines about friendship, (again cont.i'll try to be briefer!)

(i’m so sorry i wrote a rly long reply so i’m gonna put this under read more !!)

2. friendship is beautiful and i feel oftentimes underappreciated(but not mx!there they go again being amazing) so i love the concept. personally i like not knowing what exactly the producers were thinking because having my own interpretation of something and seeing other ppl have their own fills me with wonder,like,that's art!so many people think so many different things and no one's wrong i love it!!your thoughts about them appreciating everything they've done so far,you're absolutely right(cont) 3. i hope they are able to bc everything's so hectic for the.i get lost just looking at their official schedule,i don't know how they do it but i also hope they are aware of all these things bc those are all mindblowingly huge accomplishments in my opinion and i just want them to feel like their hard work is worth it,yknow?(is this comprehensible?)and i know they feel pressure because as you said the business is nasty but yea i hope at the end of the day they can feel like (cont.???again 4. everything they've put so much of themselves into is worth it,i love their energy and fierce determination and i just don't want them to lose it but maybe as you said feel less pressured..but then the only way would realistically be to make sure they get awarded in the Real World so we're all doing our best in the system&hating it as you said:/ they just mean so much to so many people i want them to feel that too!i try to contain myself but here i go again! sorry it's so long AND i have more(con 5. also!thank you for your big reply and sharing your thoughts i mostly just agreed with (but you're right so what else can i do),i don't have mbb friends to vent to and fanperson(is there a gender neutral term for fanboy/fangirl?) over mx with and this is really nice and fulfilling(again,if i'm boring you,you can just delete the messages and not reply!) so THANKS!it's great to strive to be a better person but i feel like one(you) should also acknowledge the good things they're already doing(cont?) 6. you showed such pure kindness and really melted someone's(my) heart and that's a Big Deal!djkghddgwe can agree that we both inspired each other :') also please i feel like you're such a wonderful soul and you really deserve every bit of gratitude and appreciation i managed to express(i feel a lot moreprobably) so!yeah!reminder that you're lovely and deserve to be appreciated and i'm also very,very happy you're here!you made my day brighter for the 2nd time now wow!thanks! i hope you and(cont.:() 7. your gorgeous heart are taking good care and enjoying your day/night! and this cb!i really like it i haven't had time to listen to the entire album but jealousy!is a bop honestly it's my type of jam and the choreo is stunning and so are their voices!iwas so skeptical about the lyrics(they could've been like hero or stuck and those made me a bit >:/ honestly) but i really should've known they wouldn't fail me in any way ever!i can't wait to hear the rest of the songs i hope you enjoy them too!bye

hi theory anon, it's nice to hear from u again ! firstly, i am so sorry for the slow reply to this ! but im rly glad to know that u are doing good :-) i'm doing ok too thank u !! how are u ? kfjjfdsjfdf sorry that u had to read my tags but thank u for saying that !! i just feel so guilty when i do nothing bc im absolutely terrified of time passing too quickly ? just the thought of letting a few minutes go to waste is overwhelming ? even though i know it's not rational to think like this but ??? theres just this constant feeling that im running out of time so i try to get rid of it by always doing smth ?? and feel bad when i dont ? idk ?? but anyway im working on it and ill be ok ! sorry..not to be dramatic and tmi and all that kjdfdj istg this blog gives me too much freedom to say...too much :( (hope the internet folks that collect metadata never read the garbage i write bc..yikes they aren't gonna hav the best time) anyway..yea. what a paragraph to start off this reply :( sorry for the honesty and saying so much all the time btw :( not that being honest is necessarily a bad thing but ! idk every time i write smth i suddenly feel extra self conscious and feel like deleting it bc im rly embarrassed and always end up having big regret later when i reread anything ive typed up !! but i just keep writing them anyway bc...idk ?? i'd rly hate it if someone got discouraged from sharing their thoughts/worries/feelings which i think is a rly important human thing :( so  yea im rly embarrassed w anything i write but i'll keep doing it anyway bc i'm all for that kind of stuff and sometimes i know its not easy and it takes someone a lot to share that and its a good thing and i dont ever want anyone to feel discouraged from doing that ! anyway i just felt like i rly needed to say all of this..but pls dont feel obliged to reply to this mess !! anyway back to mx ! you are right :( i also hope mx feel like what they've done is worth smth w/e their definition or standard of that is :( like.. all of the hard work they've put into being mx it certainly means so much to fans but i hope all the hard work they've put into being mx also means smth to them at the end of the day and they are happy w what they're doing and what they've achieved so far :( and yes we'd love mx to always be rewarded in the real world :( though we love them and we want to get them a win, i know that everyone has their commitments, means and different circumstances and we can only do so much :( but even if u think its just a small contribution, everything adds up and counts and i know that all mbb hav contributed in some way in helping them get another win for this cb ! there are some mbb who can't buy albums or streaming passes and things and i hope they don't feel bad for this :( even if all you can do is watch the mv once or twice, even if you could only vote, i hope you know that it all counts and matters !! abt mx's schedule, i get tired just by looking at their weekly one idk how they can even put up w it all ?? after this they'll hav their japanese album and things and then they'll have their concerts and on top of all that apparently [some of them are also studying] ????? they are so hardworking :( HOW do they do it !! just..thinking abt their schedule is overwhelming !!! also pls dont think that you're boring me or anything like that :( im so thankful for any msg i receive and the fact that u actually took the time to type out smth to send to me ?? im so grateful ?? u are never boring !! honestly even if u sent me a stainless steel dishwasher manual w the page length of like..23 bibles, i'd still love u for it and i'd prob read all of it :( btw thank u sm for saying all those kind things !!! receiving kindness for the 3rd time is rly !!!!!!! and once again i've done nothing to deserve it :( i dont even know what i can say to you that will ever be enough to thank u again or to top what u hav already said ! if there was like a...maslows hierarchy of kindness of smth, ur at the very top of that triangle and anything i say will never be as kind as what you have said !! for you, i can agree that we both inspired each other :-) but really thank u so much from the bottom of my heart :( i hope you know how kind and lovely u are too ! if nobody told u this today, i wanted to say that im rly grateful to know u and i'm happy that you're here !! thank u again for being so kind and thoughtful and for making me smile !! :( same, i havent properly listened to the whole album either bc ive just been letting it stream in the background (but i dont count that as a proper listen unless i listen w headphones tbh) ill give it a good listen one day ! also im a repeat 1 kind of garbage person until i feel the need to listen to a new song ?? and rn jealousy to me is a song that gets better w every listen ??? shes too powerful atm :( one day ill listen to another song but today is not that day ! Actually.....I think jealousy is my fav mx song ???? before this cb i didnt hav a fav bc i couldnt pick the song i liked most out of blue moon/blind/fighter/incomparable. i was just gonna base it off the one w the most play count out of those 4 but now i know its jealousy ! what are ur fav mx songs ?? btw i know im always saying that anything mx releases is always a masterpiece no matter what, but in all seriousness its ok if u didn't like smth they released. i don't think it makes u any less of a mbb if u didn't enjoy a certain release or if u only liked one aspect of a thing but not so much the rest of the thing. anyway not to sound so...stale and commonplace but for lack of a better word/sentence, at the end of the day your own reactions and feelings to a piece of art like music...it's all just subjective isnt it ?? not liking that thing doesnt mean that its not a masterpiece or its any less of a masterpiece to someone else either so !! it's ok !! anyway this is rly....ive written a lot and its all over the place and incoherent probably :( i'm sorry !! feel free to reply whenever u feel like it, or no pressure on never replying at all btw ! also feel free to disagree w anything i say ! thank u sm for talking to me abt mx bc ive also got no mbb friends so !!! thank you :( theres so many times where i rly want to start a conversation w someone but im too scared and also i've got no clue abt how to initiate conversation ! and the times when i do manage to...i get stuck on how to keep the conversation going ? but when i figure smth out then im coming for u @ friendship !! i hope u had a good weekend and that you got some rest and that ur doing ok wherever u are !! until next time, take care ❤️❤️❤️

#how did i..even end up writing so much im so sorry :-( #and sorry that this is all over the place !! #i hope i didn't go on too much of a tangent :( #ask #theory anon #Anonymous