#and one of the purest expressions of joy i've ever heard

[7grandmel]

Todays rip: 26/02/2024

Shopping on Star Road

Season 2 No Album Release (Read More) Game Over (OST Version) - Super Mario World

Ripped by sadkey

Requested by bobthetacocat! @bobthetacocat

There's a part of me that really doesn't quite know how to approach this rip in particular, for a few reasons. Sure, I've covered hip-hop themed rips on the blog before, including other lo-fi ones like Yoshi's Cookie World and Stickerbrush State of Mind - but with those and others, I've felt like I've had a story attached to them to tell, to sort of make up for my lack of knowledge on the rap scene in general. I still heard the name "Lil Peep" around from time to time, but knew nothing about the guy or his work - and further wasn't even aware that he's now been away from us for close to seven years, after his passing in 2017. Like I said with Through the F​-​F​-​Fire and the F​-​F​-​Flames, there's an added difficulty in talking about someone's legacy after the fact when you never really felt like you knew them to begin with. Those were, at least, the thoughts I had when receiving the request to cover Shopping on Star Road. And then I listened to it - and then, I dug deeper.

On SoundCloud's official Wikipedia page, Lil Peep is one of ten artists listed as examples under the "SoundCloud Rap" sub category, a label many of you are likely more familiar with than I've ever been. I recognized the names of several of the other listed examples, of course - XXXTentacion, Playboi Carti, Juice Wrld - yet never put it together that they were all born under the same umbrella, the umbrella of SoundCloud as a platform. This community formed of creators expressing themselves with as much honesty and raw emotion as possible, a sort of re-emergence of emo expressions as told by individual rising stars...The more I read, the more fascinated I became - and, of course, given my brainrot, I couldn't help but draw parallels to the SiIvaGunner channel itself.

Much of the joy of SoundCloud as a platform is how...unrestricted it is, as a platform. There's little in the way of licenses, little moderation, no reason for quality control - from what I've gathered without using it, its able to act much like your average social media in that you can post practically anything (that isn't hate speech) and have a chance of getting noticed. There's little pressure to perform, little direct monetization: it is, in its purest form, an audio playground. The idea of "SoundCloud Rap" came about from that culture as a result, to just perform and release something without the pressure of a perfect mix, of perfect vocals and mastering, effectively "venting" in the form of music. There's an aura of sincerity to rap music like Lil Peep's Star Shopping, with a simple beat that sets an immaculate vibe alone, with vocals that speak from the heart, with flow carried by emotion despite the music's simplicity.

And, like, I know it sounds a bit insincere to draw a connection between this thing that I'm not very invested in, and the thing this blog is about that I am VERY invested in, but...that sort of sincerity has always been a huge part of SiIvaGunner's appeal to me. Be it in stupid bits where the mask of the parody occasionally slips with a laugh, such as Can't Say Goodbye to Yesterday - as performed by Bob Dylan, or mashups where you can feel that each source was picked out with affection like vs SAYU (Based Version), there's an aura to many SiIvaGunner rips that make you feel...connected to the people behind them. A connection not all too dissimilar to the one formed between the artist and listener with music as unfiltered as SoundCloud's often is.

There's that, and of course that several of the team's oldest rippers, such as toonlink of Dr. Soulja fame, initially got their start doing the very same thing they do now on SiIvaGunner, but on SoundCloud. It was this messing around with other "rippers" as part of what was then called the "SoundClown" community that SiIvaGunner creator Chaze the Chat cites as the primary inspiration for starting the channel all the way back in Season 1. With this shared history in mind, Shopping on Star Road gains a new sort of meaning - a sendoff from one side of SoundCloud's old guard from another, in tribute to a rapper who passed just as SiIva's own first season ended. It obviously helps that ripper sadkey has a fantastic ear for what he does, and would later go on to make one of the channel's most underrated rips of all time in Unstable Connection. sadkey, Lil Peep, the sentimentality born from the shared history on SoundCloud, and the Super Mario World Game Over theme itself, come together to make Shopping on Star Road one of the most soul-healing listens on the channel.

I never knew much of Lil Peep, nor know much of just how much he impacted people. But I can feel a connection to both him and the people who miss him through Shopping on Star Road and its comment section alone.

#todays siivagunner #season 2 #siivagunner #siiva #tentative rip name #sadkey #Youtube #lil peep #star shopping #soundcloud #soundcloud rapper #mumble rap #super mario world #super mario #smw #snes music #lofi hip hop #lofi aesthetic

[marshmallow3forest]

duty report

I entered the room. Unlike some time ago, it is now small and light-toned, with an opened window that allows the breeze to come in and graze the curtains. A corner of the room is filled with soft toys, the other a big detailed dollhouse. In the middle, there's a wool rug on the ground. And on the rug, there's a cradle where he stands in it, hands holding onto the railings, looking at me with a smile as gentle as the sunlight from outside.

"Good morning, is your day well?" I asked as I closed the door. Seeing him, no matter in any form still wrenches my heart, thinking about all the stuff that happened before...

"Very. Ever since I entered here, I've been feeling better and better. Your effort really paid off." The sunlight reflected from his short hair made him look like he had a halo - not like he didn't have one already in my eyes. "I suppose you're here to tell me how things are going on recently?"

"Ah, yes, yes," I answered with my mind preparing a speech, trying to fit every late event in, "I made sure that there were no longer any loud thunder noises. I am considering adding occasional regular meteor showers, too. Well aside from the sky, I developed a Ferris wheel and a simple zoo. I also designed a few more variations of soft toys here- oh, and I am thinking about implementing snow globes," I paused, then said, "Since much fundamental work is already done in the first week here, my main job now is no longer to extend but to maintain, I suppose."

"Sounds great. His state must be improving, then?" It is very foreseeable for him to ask about that poor thing. "After all, that's... well, you've heard the same thing many times already."

"It's okay, that's my mantra too," I responded.

"That's great to hear." whenever I think he is smiling much gently already, his facial expression always gets more soothing. "you see, I remember everything. He was in grave despair long before this place existed, and every time he broke down and lost faith, I wanted to tell him to keep believing in the existence of this place- but I was so weak back then that my voice could not be sent to him. Not just weak, I have no arguments to effectively persuade him, since I doubt there's anyone who wouldn't be paranoid after those events he experienced."

The image of the poor thing appeared in my mind again - crying, weeping, trembling, curled up in the corner, afraid of everything. I shook my head to focus back on the present. "As you are aware, he's happier now. I made sure to stay by his side and not leave for a single moment. I made sure he now wakes up every day looking forward to what is going to happen next. I made sure to serve him delicious meals and food. I made sure to play with him, provide mental comfort and reassurance, and appreciate his existence and effort all the time. I also made sure that he knows he is very treasured and has a special place in my heart, that he forgets the whole existence of the concept of evilness and that everyone is happy he is here. I made absolutely sure that he knew this state of happiness would go on forever, so there was no need to worry about anything ending, and he could just live on in his purest form." I announced it like wearing a badge of honour - it's needless to say this is my pride. "By the way, I call him by silly, adorable nicknames."

He looks like he's almost crying, out of joy. "That's very nice to hear... I always knew you would be the one to bring him felicity. Is he sleeping well now?"

"Of course he is. I hug him to sleep every night. He now experiences dreams that I carefully carved when he is asleep. There's no longer a night that he wakes up scared again." Every time I think of how others actually failed to keep on doing this simple task, I feel a sense of confidence.

"Can you come closer?" he wiped the tears in his eyes. I walked towards him, the centre of the room. The sensation of the soft rug embraced my bare feet, as it is slightly warmed by the sunlight.

"Let me hold your hand." He held my hands with his, small and delicate, on top of the railing of the cradle. He then put his forehead onto the back of my palm. I can feel drops of his tears falling on it.

"From a long ago, I already knew that good things would happen, especially after a long and tiresome journey. I always knew, not just believed but knew, that it's just like the reward, the compensation for hardships. That is what sustained me through everything. I am glad that this order of the world stayed as true as it has always been when I was first told about it. Thank you, really, from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for realizing the order and restoring his original self, the one he always wanted to be."

Drops of tears still remained in his eyes, while the sunlight behind his back shone at him - he looked like he was glowing with heavenly glory. I kneeled to him while holding his hands like a knight getting dubbed.

"It is simply my duty to do so."

#marshmallowscrambles #marshmallowocs

[captainjonnitkessler]

Fun fact: There is nothing wrong with atheism, and atheists aren’t “missing out” on anything! Atheists can take just as much joy and comfort from their beliefs as any religious person can take from theirs!

#this actually isn't me being passive aggressive i just remembered how much i love being an atheist #anyway listen to endless forms most beautiful #an entire album just bursting with love and adoration for science; nature and humanity #and one of the purest expressions of joy i've ever heard #all from an atheistic perspective #atheism

[ishakisk]

Today, I chose to write in English.

This morning, on our way home, me and my close friend Reza -who , despite the time we spent together and in spite of the difficulties that we passed , as I have already told him that he changed a lot recently - we were talking to each other, drinking coffee and smoking cigarettes, suddenly, a beautiful song of Warda ljaza'iria starts with her sad music and expressive words، a song is one of the purest and the coolest that I heard in my life, I've heard it dozens of times but this is the first time I've ever felt it...

Ridha wanted to get past it but I banned him, so he told me the story of it's writing words, ooooh and what a story it is, Sad as mine and too painful...

It is one of the masterpieces of the Warda, she sings about her parting and farewell to her lover as he dies, he wrote the lyrics and asked her to sing it before he died, it's saying :

"I wrote you a song that reminds you of your appointment

I wrote you on such a night on my birthday

I am waiting for you me and the nights

I am eagerly waiting for you, for the sound of your fault waiting for you

I wait for you with an equal fear the joy of meeting you ,waiting for you

I wish you came ,I wish you missed that night and you came

But you forgot!! everyone remembered, but you forgot

I wrote you on such a night on my birthday

I wrote you a song that reminds you of your appointment

Hear you your song. Happy Birthday sweety, with my tears in the feast

This I'm, i have never forgotten you of exile appointment

You love your cruelty

I farewell you silently bitterly, I'm a shade and acrid

I am thirsty watered your love, haw generous you are

I the watchful love guarding you in your stillness

God be with you"

OMG, Farewell to you, what expressive words and charming meanings, take me away in the sea of memories, between s yesterday not so long ago that we were together and a sad present day in which I am lonely, and a gloomy tomorrow ambiguous and bleak, bid farewell to you, you the unjust late, the cruel, the distant

Life is life, that's what happened to my ship, which moored on the barren ruin island, docked on a beach of black charcoal and sand filled with wreckage of memories scattered here and there, my shreds and what is left of me also here and there, I'm alone and single struggling time and days

Farewells to you and farewell to life with you

I bid you farewell without greeting, no blame, and no word of me hurting you

[ahhyuck]

Jungwoo - 8 Reasons Why P.1 (F)

a/n: hello!! this is one of the first times in a while I'm writing in first person so I'm sorry if it sounds a but awkward. I am aware it's short because this is sorta supposed to be like little diary entries.

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Your smile can light up an entire room. It was the first time I’ve laid eyes on you. We were in English class and you had just got your test grade. You were beyond ecstatic.

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Today I saw the most gorgeous boy in my English class. I sat in the far left corner of the cramped classroom, eyes grazing the back of everyone's head. The teacher was announcing names to pass back tests. I wasn't that worried since my stepfather is from New Zealand and I learned much of said language from him.

”Kim Jungwoo, ” the old man called for him. That's when I saw him for the first time. A beautiful tall boy, head adorned with dark brown hair and the purest expression danced across his face. Standing up, I see him take a deep breath in fear, but also some excitement was hidden in his gaze. As Jungwoo reached the front of the classroom the teacher extended and handed him his exam. He took a deep breath then closed his eyes, expecting the worst.

Turning around, his eyes light up with what only can be described as pure joy as that beautiful smile of his spread. It was a smile that could bring happiness to even the saddest of people. I felt myself stare for a bit too long, soon looking down embarrassed. I heard him giggle but I'm not sure if it was because he saw me or out of excitement. Jungwoo then profusely thanked his friend, which I believe to be Johnny, for the late night study session. He’s cute when he gets excited. I've been thinking about him ever since. Thoughts of him clouded my mind, preventing me from focusing. Why can't I get this beautiful boy out of my mind?

#kpop #nct #kpop scenario #kpop smut #kpop imagine #nct imagine #nct smut #haechan #jeno #jaemin #hendery #yangyang #xiao jun #renjun #mark #lucas #winwin #jungwoo