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cerise-on-top · 2 months

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Hugging, Kissing and Cuddling HCs for König

I'm trying to see him in another light again after everything I've seen about him, so I decided I'd write something fluffy and nice for him. And then came the realization I never wrote some HCs like these for him in my original posts, so I decided I'd change that! He's Austrian, so naturally I have to love him!

When it comes to hugging someone, König is a bit hesitant. Considering he’s not the most physically affectionate person out there, it’s almost an honor to be receiving an unprompted hug from him. Whether his hugs are long or short depends on the occasion: If he’s proud of you for accomplishing something, then the hug will be rather short lived. Though, he might pick you up and spin you around until you’re dizzy. If you’re sad and need some comfort then his hugs could last a while. He’s not the best with words, he prefers to listen to other people, but if he knows a hug is what usually helps you then he’s willing to do so. Despite being a big and strong lad his hugs are surprisingly gentle, he’s worried about crushing you. He could put his all into them, but then you’d likely end up with a few broken ribs and he doesn’t want that to happen. König is also surprisingly warm, so receiving a hug from him is a rare, but nice experience. Although he does go rigid at the beginning, not knowing what to do, but relaxes into the hug eventually.

Again, he’s not a very physically affectionate person, but isn’t opposed to the occasional peck on the cheek or on your lips either. There is some anxiety whether you’d actually want a kiss from him or not, so he doesn’t kiss you very often, even if you do reassure him that it’s quite alright. He’s a bit tense at first when he presses a kiss to your lips, but calms down eventually. It’s especially bad during the beginning of your relationship, but he’s since gotten better at being calm about it. Since there’s a good chance he’s taller than you he loves giving you a kiss on the forehead. It’s a small but sweet gesture. He doesn’t need to bend down entirely to reach you but he still gets to be affectionate with you. However, if you’re on the taller side, or just as tall as he is, then he’d love to receive kisses to his temple from you. It makes him smile every time you do it. If he’s in the mood for receiving a kiss then he’ll lay his head on your shoulder and nudge you a bit. Or try to get his head in your closer vicinity. Kind of like that one bunny video where the bunny stretches to receive some kisses.

Cuddles with him are a bit more common than hugs actually. However, he refuses to lay down on top of you. If you’re shorter and weaker than him then there’s no chance he’ll put his weight on you, he’s just that afraid of hurting you. If you’re taller or just more muscular, then he might, but he’s still a rather heavy lad. Most he’ll do is put his head on your shoulder while you’re cuddling in bed and are both lying down. Although it’d be a lie to say he doesn’t want to be held. König is alright with being the one to hold you, but sometimes he would prefer to be the little spoon as well. That urge gets especially bad if you’re roughly the same size as him. Sometimes just nuzzling into your chest does the trick for him as well, though. Loves it when you run your fingers through his hair as he does so. Another thing he adores is you sleeping on his chest as he holds you. He gets to hold you close, he gets to protect you and he gets to doze off a bit himself, it’s bliss to him. Sometimes he leans down to press a kiss to your head and accidentally wakes you up like that. He feels bad about it and apologizes profusely, but does chuckle a bit when he sees your disheveled hair and your tired expression that shows you just woke up.

#cod #cod x reader #konig #könig #konig x reader #könig x reader #he actually kind of scares me these days even if I don't want that to happen in the slightest so I'm trying to desensitize myself again #I know people always joke about fanon könig vs canon könig but I think I will write him a bit softer with his s/o again #just to combat all those awful things I've seen about him that I don't want to be true and that I also want to forget about #könig is a big lad so I knew from the beginning I wanted him to be good at hugging because this is self indulgent #I feel like if it weren't for his anxiety he'd be much much cuddlier #because that's the case with me even if I have other things going on as well #and what is a funny character you write about if not another piece of yourself?#I've put so much of myself into some of these characters and yet people keep requesting them so I must be doing something right #it's more fun that way as well when you put your characters through something you've gone through. more relatable too #but I think that's something pretty much every writer does. that's why some requests are so difficult to write #I got one about marrying Laswell and Nikolai and that was a difficult request for me because the last wedding I went to #was my parents' and that was almost 18 years ago. man time flies I was 4 years old back then #so naturally I don't remember much either. But I tried and that's what's important!#either way please enjoy this piece of fluff I wrote today!

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ygodmyy20 · 16 days

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Hello friends!! I am so excited to share the prompts for #terukiweek2024!! A big thank you to my sister @emeraldoodles for helping with this prompt art (in every step) and for finding the cutest effing font ever, and to my partner in crime @sodasexual for always being there to help me come up with ideas. And to the Seasoning City server for sharing some great prompt ideas too!

Here are the prompts for each day:

4/7 - Fire / Electricity

4/8 - School / Festival

4/9 - Star / Copy

4/10 - Official Art / Omake

4/11 - Hair / Trauma

4/12 - Protagonist / Rival

4/13 - Happy Birthday!!

There is no pressure to participate all week. Just have a good time! I really made this because I didn't see any #terukiweek2024 prompts and this is my first year in the fandom during his birthday. I really wanted it to be something a little special.

#teruki hanazawa #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #terukiweek2024 #hanzawa teruki #also i was BLOWN AWAY by the interest on my last post #please don't burn yourself out #have fun #enjoy it #sketches #writing #any of it will be great #also sorry serizawa week I know we are overlapping #i didn't realize their birthdays were so close!!

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bonefall · 5 months

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post/734733274896809984/do-you-ever-worry-your-own-writing-might-come-off that makes sense. i was asking because i'm afraid of accidentally writing misogyny myself and i kind of admire what you do

Hmm... I wish I had better advice to give you on this front, but honestly, the only thing I can tell you is to consider the perspective of your female characters.

Women are people. They have thoughts and feelings of their own, so like... just let them have their own arcs. A lot of the worst misogyny in WC comes from the way that the writers just don't care about their girls (or, in the case of tall shadow, actually get undermined and forced to rewrite entire chapters), so they're not curious about their lives, or WHY they feel the way they do or what they want, or any direction for their character arcs.

Turtle Tail as an example. She'll often just end up feeling whatever Gray Wing's plot demands. She's gotta leave when Storm dumps him to make him feel lonely. She shows up again to love him in the next book. Lets her best friend Bumble get dragged back to Tom the Wifebeater, but is sad enough about her death to be "unreasonably angry" with Clear Sky, and then calms down and accept Gray Wing is right all along.

And then she dies, so he can have his very own fridge wife.

In this way, Turtle Tail's just being used to tell Gray Wing's story. They're not interested in why she would turn on Bumble, or god forbid any lingering negative feelings for how she didn't help her, or even resentment towards Clear Sky for killing her or Gray Wing for jumping to his defense. She isn't really going through her own character arc.

She does have personality traits of her own, don't misunderstand my criticism, but as a character she revolves around Gray Wing.

So, zoom out every now and then, and just ask yourself; "Whose story is being told by what I wrote? Do my female characters have goals, wants, and agency, or are they just supporting men? How do their choices impact the narrative?"

But that's already kinda assuming that you already have characters like Turtle Tail who DO have personalities and potential of their own. Here's some super simple and practical advice that helped me;

Tally the genders in your cast. How many are boys, how many are girls, how many are others?

And take stock of how many of those characters are just in the supporting cast, and compare that to the amount you have in the main cast.

If you have a significant imbalance, ESPECIALLY in the main cast, fire the Woman Beam.

It's a really simple trick to just write a male character, and then change its gender while keeping it the same. I promise women are really not fundamentally different from men lmao. You can consider how your in-universe gender roles affect them later, if you'd like, but when you're just starting to wean yourself off a "boy bias" this trick works like a charm.

Also you're not allowed to change the body type of any girl you Woman Beam because I said so. PLEASE allow your girls to have muscles, or be fat, or be old, or have lots of scars. Do NOT do what a cowardly Triple A studio does, where the women all have the same cute or sexy face and curvy body while they're standing next to dwarves, robots, and a gorilla.

Or this shit,

If you do this I will GET you. If you're ever possessed by the dark urge, you will see my face appear in the clouds like Mufasa himself to guide you away from the path of evil.

Anyway, you get better at just making characters girls to begin with as time goes on and you practice it. It's really not as big of a deal as your brain might think it is.

Take a legitimate interest in female characters and try not to disproportionately hit them with parental/romance plots as opposed to the male cast, and you'll be fine. Don't think of them as "SPECIAL WOMEN CHARACTERS" just make a character and then let her be a girl, occasionally checking your tally and doing some critical thinking about their use in the story.

(Also remember I'm not a professional or anything, I'm just trying to give advice)

#I wish I had more succinct and practical advice to give you besides the woman beam trick #Honestly I just kinda feel it out because I like telling stories about girls #I made it fun for myself by clapping and cheering and whooping and hollering whenever a girl does something #because it's not fun to write like a monk in a monastery #With the spectre of Brother Smockbimble looming over your shoulder telling you to Write Perfectly Every Time #Characters aren't real people. You can just fix it if you happen to fuck up or do better next time with what you learned.#Making mistakes is just part of acquiring skill #and writing is an art just like painting or drawing.#So don't make a fun OC project into homework! You should be enjoying making your own art! Express yourself!#Please understand that when I'm ripping into the series I'm being so harsh because it's bestselling corporate media #Read by HUNDREDS of thousands of kids worldwide #Raking in millions of dollars a year. Written by a TEAM of professionals.#So I have higher expectations of it than of a fandom rando on the internet. Or even a self-published author who's just One Guy.#Hence why I'm infinitely more charitable to Ratha than I am to Battle Cats #bones gives advice

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k9effect · 1 year

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There is a space for everything and everyone from every walk of life is welcome! We do not tolerate bullying or bigotry. We are just here to have a good time and go on tangents talking about everything Top Gun!

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willowser · 2 years

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im on my hands & knees offering u all of my life’s earnings (approx. $24.55) for u to get back on your assistant!reader bs 💓💞💕💘💖 it is my favorite and I think about them every single day

spoilers for ch. 359+

you're clocking out later and later these days, and not so subtly.

on the afternoons that he's without a patrol shift, it's kirishima that's dragging you from the office, ushering you along with the quiet reminder that your boss wouldn't be too happy about the extra time you're picking up. the stacks of paperwork that you're letting eat into your personal space. how much of it you're trying to take home.

and he's right—but the filing isn't going to do itself and with katsuki out, it's only piling up further and further. the residual ghost of his punctuality is even more haunting when he's not at the agency; throughout the day, you find yourself glancing to the darkened glass of his office, watching the grimace grow on your own reflection. the last thing you want is for your dilly-dallying to stain him and his position as an employer, and if finishing the paperwork means staying an hour after the rest of the office empties—so be it.

your boss, however, doesn't see it that way.

the minute the front door closes behind you, you know you've fucked up; it's nearly eight in the evening, and you're just now arriving at his apartment, file folders held tightly to your chest. you take a scan around his living room and only allow yourself to breathe when you don't recognize the dark shape of him on the couch, which is where he's been sleeping a lot lately. because of his arm.

"don' wanna keep you up," is what he grumbles into the fabric of your shirt, mouth squished against the top of your shoulder as he crowds you in the kitchen. he's always been an early riser, but you're not so sure he's even resting to begin with; both his eyes stay bloodshot—even the good one.

the healing is slow going and you can tell it's eating away at him: to be at home and not at work, in the quiet of his apartment as you go off to do the bits of his job that you can. it bothered him even before he was injured, to see you sweating over his reports and the schedule and their delicate nature—and now you're three hours late, meeting notes in hand.

just as you let out a slow sigh, the floors creak, a low groan coming out strained and weary and, much as it chills you to be caught, worry kindles in your belly.

"katsuki?" you wait, eyes darting around the dim living room until a sniff echoes in the silence. you move forward in a rush, tossing the papers on the couch as you hurry across the hardwood, clutching the edge of the arched hallway to spin yourself around the corner even quicker and—

you come face to face with him, grumpy, as your eyes slowly adjust in the shadowed hall. he's half asleep with his arm free from his sling, though he's still cradling it close to his bare tummy, scratching at the hair bristling the underside of his unshaven jaw.

gravelly, he asks, "the hell 'ave you been?"

"sorry," you whisper, even though he's already waking up, "i've been prepping for the meeting with morph tomorrow and—"

his left eye blinks furiously, unbandaged, and the furrow of his brow has guilt gnawing away at you. half of his face is still shiny and tender, and wearing his usual glare tugs on his baby-fresh skin; if you hadn't been so late, again, then the upset wouldn't have had a reason to sprout on his sleepy face.

"what time is it?"

you wince, and that is enough of an answer for him to sigh, shake his head as he stumbles around you to the kitchen. an agitated grunt sounds from deep in his chest, followed by a low hiss as his bare feet meet the cold tile, and you trail after him like a kicked puppy. still, he doesn't shrug away when you wrap your arms around him, laying your cheek against his back as he opens the fridge.

"'m sorry," you murmur.

after a minute he sighs and closes the door, restless, popping all the fingers on his left hand. you can feel the breath he holds in his chest, the tension that lines his body before he speaks.

"what, you don't wanna come home to me anymore?"

"what?" you pull away from him as if burned, looking at his back, his neck, at the scarred tissue of him in—horror. when he doesn't turn around, you tug on him before fitting yourself between his body and the fridge. "katsuki, no, that's not true at all."

a little frown slants his face and his good eye flicks over you before darting away.

the healing is slow going—and what's coming with it isn't all good; he's been angling away from you, slowly, over the past few weeks. not turning fully, but he won't allow you on his right side if he can help it. hiding, almost.

"no," you say again, firmer this time, "i've been trying to handle everything at the agency because i don't want you come back to a mountain of shit."

"already will," he huffs before gesturing to his arm. "y'think this is gonna go over easy?"

a sharp sting cuts deep in your heart and you have to swallow to keep tears from springing to your eyes. you hate this, hate that he's been wounded so, that it's affecting him more than he'll let on. you imagine him in the dark, alone on the couch as it eats him alive, and that image is enough to send your tears overboard.

you frown at his chest before nuzzling into him, hugging him to you until he lets that breath out, until you feel the warmth of his hand at your back.

"i'm sorry," you say again, for everything. all of it.

katsuki lets out a tch and slumps, pressing his mouth into your hair with a sigh. "quit apologizin', just—ei can handle it." when you nod, he curls even further into you, more than he ever usually does, and something melts down to honey in your chest. "thought you'd wanna stay home with me, anyway."

"i do!"

"so do it," katsuki pulls back to headbutt you lightly, grunting when you steal a quick kiss from him. "damn woman, gotta beg you to—"

"no, no," you whine, shaking your head as you hug him tighter. "i want to stay home with you! i'm gonna cook you breakfast—"

"—like hell—"

"—and lay out all your meds and you tuck into bed and help you in the shower and be a perfect little nurse—"

he kisses you to shut you up, one long press of his lips that turns to another and another, and you can't help but to laugh a little against him. with his forehead to yours, he shakes his head, rolling his eye before pulling back to tug on your blazer.

"take this shit off," he grumbles, letting it drop to the floor in a shockingly lazy action. you go to pick it up, but he loops his hand gently into yours before tugging you after him out of the kitchen.

when he passes the living room, you fail at hiding your grin. "you gonna sleep in the room?"

you've missed him in his soft, cool sheets; turning over to find his warmth right beside you, the feel of his hand somewhere on you all throughout the night, how soft he looks in the morning, how easy he is to sink into to.

you miss cozying up into his neck, dozing off there until he bites at you for drooling on him—though the last thing you wanted to be was needy, not now. you thought giving him space was good and that he'd want it, but it seems you were wrong.

maybe he wants you closer than ever. maybe he needs it.

"well, yeah," he rasps, tugging at your shirt, too, after you cross the threshold of the bedroom. "gonna tuck me in, ain't you?"

#aw — i'm so happy to know you're thinking about them !#i want to write a new assistant!reader in a different universe #one that's more—adult maybe LOL sad and angsty #but this was actually so fun !! i missed writing these two more than i realized #so it's not much but have this !#will will ever stop talking about bakugou's injury ? no. no i will not.#please keep your precious $24.55 and instead treat yourself to something you enjoy !! 🥺💕✨️#i guess #[ ☆ and you take me the way i am: bakugou ]#✿ willow writes #✿ ask willow #✿ thoughts: bakugou

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russellius · 5 months

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Why do you have to be so anti everyone? you have a really good blog but it's just not fun anymore

... what 🧍🏻‍♀️

#tf do you mean im anti everyone im literally doing nothing on here except posting about one guy?#like 😭#what do you want from me #im depressed and i have a hyperfixation. the primary focus of this blog is to have an outlet for that.#if this is about me not posting certain drivers again - can we just move on.#nobody is forcing you to follow a blog you dont enjoy #if you dont get the content you want from here you are always free to seek it elsewhere #or you can post it yourself.#i have my interests and i will stick to them #and thats not me being 'anti everyone' lol like. i dont even fucking slander anyone 💀#im just here posting 24/7 about one dude ffs.#let me be please :)#answered #(like. when did i ever post driver hate. how am i 'anti everyone'. half of the grid i havent even mentioned on here)#(man. yall make this site so much fun huh.)#((just. why am i expected to post content i dont like. or what is this about. i have been consinstently blogging the same way #for months and months.))#(wait. did the toto slander upset you? bro come on now)

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jerzwriter · 8 months

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OH fandom. Different font.

#open heart #playchoices #where is the lie #ship and let ship #play and let play #ENJOY yourself #we are all here to have fun #right?#be less toxic #please #ps… it isn’t always about you 🤷🏻‍♀️#life lessons

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wannabepapa · 1 year

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Christmas Baby

We settled down for the night after stuffing our bellies full of delicious food. My back was still achy and my belly would tense when the baby moved the wrong way. I kept an eye on the progression just to be safe while keeping my partner oblivious. All they were paying attention to right now was wrapping presents on the floor and watching Elf while I was cocooned on the couch with the warmest blanket.

Since they were turned away from me I had been able to make uncomfortable faces without them asking me what was wrong. Both hands massaged around my bulge, desperate to calm down the now energized baby that was doing gymnastics. My stomach felt like they were having a party (probably looked even weirder) and their rough kicks hurt my already fatigued body. Again I silently begged for them to stay in until after Christmas, not to throw me into labor so we could spend time with our families and eat our fill of Christmas food. They had other plans.

I managed to get up from the couch and penguin waddle to the bathroom when the discomfort became too much. I turned the faucet on to as warm as I could stand it before putting my elbows on the edge of the counter so my heavy gut could dangle beneath me. It was a rock hard weight pulling at my back but I needed to rest. My back was on fire, my stomach contracting roughly as I waited out the tub filling. I must have gotten loud enough with my whines when my partner walks in behind me. Their hands rake up my sides to uncover my belly, the chill of their skin making my shiver from how hot my body was. They rubbed around my tight orb—saying something about getting me in the tub so I could relax through these contractions. I concede by pushing myself up, resting my back against them as we sway back and forth to ride it out.

"Guess our little present is coming early this year." they tease while waddle walking us both to the tub. My clothes are gingerly peeled off before they help me climb into the filled tub. The moment the warm watch hit my body I moaned in relief. It felt wonderful and my body had been able to relax just enough for me to take deep breaths. We stay in the bathroom for hours. Timing my contractions, them rubbing my belly as it turned boxy during each one, and kissing my face after each one while telling me how good I was doing.

Around nine o'clock my water broke. As the water was draining labor progressed quicker than I thought. I was nowhere near ready to push but my muscles felt tense and pained during each contraction. The baby hated being squeezed so they kicked and punched up a fuss after they were released from the cramping muscles. All I could manage were weak moans and pained mewls as the hours turned to minutes of rolling contractions. Our first child and we were already progressing to seven centimeters less than two hours after my water broke. I wasn't ready. Not by a long shot.

Eleven thirty I was screaming through a push, chin pressed hard against my chest as we held my legs up to continue pushing. The baby was nearly crowned—we were so close before but the head slipped back after my last push and I was frustrated. My partner was doing so good encouraging me and wiping the sweat and tears from my eyes. This time as the high of the contraction finished I felt the head bulge, nearly popped out as I groaned. When the urge came again I pushed with all my might until I felt the 'pop' of the baby's head finally out of my canal.

"The head—oh my good look at that hair!!" they shouted in excitement as they looked between my legs. They helped guide my hands to reach between me, my hands feeling around the baby's neck before pushing little by little to pop out the shoulders and before we knew it out slide the baby and against my chest they were. Quickly I scooped around their mouth to clear it and patted their back until a whimpering squeak sounded in the room. All three of us cried then as my partner grabbed a towel to wrap around them. Our doula was on their way so we had time before we needed to do anything else. Checking their phone to see where the doula was they laughed, proclaiming our squeaking nugget our perfect Christmas present to start our first day of many as new parents.

#;merry christmas everyone i hope you have a good day #;please enjoy yourself and have fun with your families #labor #birth #;not that i would want this irl but the idea of giving birth to a christmas baby has always been delightful to me #;going through getting prepped for the holiday then suddenly going into labor christmas eve #;to having a newborn at midnight on christmas does things to my brain

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yuridovewing · 2 months

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onestar and pmd2 chatot have a similar fanon energy to them

#post thats like theyre both on the antagonistic side but their negative impact is wayyyyyyy overblown #im playing a pmd romhack rn and im like. man its a good hack i really mean that im having fun with it its got tropes i like #but i cant fully enjoy it bc holy shit it will NOT shut up about chatot being the worst man alive for more than 3 scenes at a time #like we get it!!! you hated the apple woods part!!!! i get it can we PLEASE move on!!!#its not even that i care abt chatot all that much its just genuinely dragging down the mood for me. ‘#‘’hey you enjoying yourself? are you enjoying yourself as much as i hate chatot?? did you know that i hate him? did you know he sucks?’’#like its to the point that i feel theres more spite than love on the project and its making it difficult to fully enjoy #ok this turned into more of a pmd post uh. follow my main for more pmd hits ig #chatot may as well be a female wc character for how fanon just makes up things to hate abt him. there does that connect it more

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sophieswundergarten · 11 months

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Live Reaction of Sophie Being Utterly WRECKED by Chapter 13 of S.O.S.

@nobody33333333. I have no apologies or disclaimers. You Know What You Did.

OOOOHHHHHHHH. You have NO IDEA how ecstatic I am at reading this!! Going to have a hard time containing myself :D

Already, Garrison is locked on to the psychic aspect of the situation. Makes you wonder what that tunnel vision is blocking from her?

Oh no. Ah, she thinks it’s Kate!! This is horrible.

Interesting that she still doesn’t want to brainsweep her, even though she’s scared.

NO. NO IT WASN’T A GOOD REASON. IT’S KATE!!!!!!

Man, just jumping straight into the deep end with all of the Garrison angst. I love you, Bods, but goodness gracious

I love that Jackson is just screaming at the top of his lungs like a maniac and then immediately drops to (attempting to be) professional when Curtain answers. Love me some Muppet Twins.

Also, side note, I adore how you’ve set it up so they all are guessing, and the suspicion mostly lands on Kate and Reynie. It’s so clever!!! Because everyone is working with different pieces of information, and so they’re making the wrong assumptions. It’s like that one fable with the blind men and the elephant.

NICHOLAS. Even if Milligan had been hurt by the Sender, That Doesn’t Mean You Are At Fault.

(You should know you’re a good author when I spend a good 64% of my time yelling at the characters, because you are just so skilled at writing their thoughts/personalities)

And Miss Perumal’s back!!! Oh, the way you write her is such a wonderful balance of protector and mother, she’d be my favourite to read if it didn’t change every five seconds.

Jeffers!!!

Poor SQ. He’s so hurt and angry but he’s trying to handle it “maturely” and he’s so alone. I want to hug him :(

And the depth you added!!! All the little details and nuances you include, like the stuff about SQ wanting to go to college and Curtain’s anxiety over the whole situation, culminate in such a glorious emotional payoff that gives insight to the character being complex people who pretty much all have a sympathetic side. You are a genius for keeping track of all of it, and the pacing is just masterful.

He lied!! I know it isn’t helping in this direct situation, but I’m so proud of him!! (As opposed to the fairly simple and unadulterated relief I felt when watching the show)

Oh, and then you flip it. I want to root for the kids, obviously, but when you follow up every victory with Curtain’s desperate panic as his carefully crafted world is crumbling down around him, how can I?

And he immediately channels it to “productive” anger. Oh, I am scared for the kids.

Milligan!!!

I love how you can put words to Milligan’s protectiveness without making it seem like he doesn’t care about the other children.

The fact that she immediately fixates on her bucket, instead of even thanking Milligan as I’d guess she normally would, has always stuck with me. Because it is the epitome of Kate’s relationship with her bucket: She needs to have it, it is where she derives comfort and safety, and it just drives me up a wall because it’s what she’s supposed to be getting from him, and what she probably would be feeling if she let herself stop and think about it. But she’s been on her own for so long that she can’t stop and let herself accept the help and reassurance from him. She needs to keep going.

And Milligan just supports her!! He doesn’t really understand the bucket specifically, but he loves her and so he’s willing to help her in whatever way she needs. And, the thing is, he kind of does understand, at least, better than she knows. The symbolism here is amazing, not least because it’s foreshadowing about their relationship. It’s like that one thing, “When you live through something incredibly hard and you survive, you become the person who would have saved you then” or something. Milligan is helping her in the way that he could have been helped, in being caught, in being saved from having to face the cliff and escape alone, and in helping her understand who she is.

It’s just… SO GOOD!!! You communicate it so well, and I keep rereading that bit over and over again because I love it. The emotion that is woven throughout is so intense, and so pure and lovely!! Agh, you have a very good gift with words, my friend.

And he offers to get her a new bucket!! And he tells her how much he loves her!! And how she’s always welcome. You’re going to make me cry :(

The horrible, horrible, beautiful contrast of how much he wants Kate to be loved and valued, and how he keeps thinking about how crazy it is that someone “abandoned” her.

Wait. Wait, Milligan is being reminded of Curtain!!! Oh, Constance and her situation and Kate and it all makes him think of his friend. The element of abandonment again. I— I do not have the words for how I feel about this. But It Is A Lot.

OH. OH YOU THINK THIS IS WHAT IT’S LIKE TO HAVE A PARENT??? KATE??????

Ah, man, it’s heartbreaking that she is weirded out by having someone, specifically an adult, care if she fell off a cliff. That’s, like, The Lowest Bar

I am once again feeling the Milk Urge to consume drywall!!!!!!

She’s so surprised!! She’s totally thrown off that they (and, again, Milligan specifically) would go to such lengths to keep them safe!!! What!!!

You Write The Wetheralls In Such A Way That Makes Me Want To Screech But Please Know That I Am Hugging You As Hard As I Possibly Can In My Mind

Ah, yes, The Blue Beret EventTM

Nicholas is so lost, and he’s just as hurt as Curtain, but he won’t allow himself to see it because he feels so guilty.

And he doesn’t trust himself!!! He is letting other people direct him, but that’s why everything is falling apart. They don’t know the full situation, that’s one of the lonely things about being a genius; you can’t always rely on just anyone, because they don’t see things the way you do. And then Miss Perumal says a new thing and throws him off again!!

Goodness, the way you write that little paragraph of his confusion and confliction is exquisite.

I like the bit about how Miss Perumal needs to go home to her mother! The wording, and Nicholas’ reflection on it really hits home that part of her personality!! (I think you added that, but, regardless, reading through it in your style gives a better perspective on both characters, and their relationship to one another!)

Ajasdhgjkasdghkjdsajk And he’s so worried about Miss Perumal’s family (EXHILARATED with how you had him automatically include Reynie), once again missing the point of how it affects him!!!

The Stenographer!!! I like him. Does he have a name? I feel like it should be… Martin. Or Tyler. Or maybe Raphael. I don’t know, but he’s neat. Sorry for my goofy little tangent, you just have this fantastic skill for making me emotional over side characters and background people, so I’m preparing myself, in case :)

And the way you add in the “Squeak”s!! Ooh, I could feel the agitation and anxiety building in myself just from reading it, and of course, Curtain is going to be super sensitive to that, because he needs everything to be under his control and Just So.

Which leads him to make ridiculous demands of his poor stenographer.

Reynie!! He’s trying so hard to work around all of his worry and tell the truth, even if in little bits.

STOPMINDGAMINGTHECHILDLEDROPHTA

As much as I’d like to give Curtain credit for being a human polygraph machine as he seems to think he is, Reynie is just garbage at lying. So am I, kid, don’t worry about it. But it is funny how the scene can be interpreted either as Curtain being super good at his job and making Reynie nervous, or Reynie doing his best but just being stuck in a situation he isn’t suited for. THIS is what I keep saying about your writing: I sympathise equally with all the characters and am deeply invested in each and every one of them, regardless of if I even remembered they existed from the show.

THE STAR THING IS BACK

(Okay, I know that was from the show, but you keep building up to/creating this star motif and it is driving me bonkers I Love It)

Noooooo, he thinks it’s Nicholas trying to hurt him!!!!! Why must you tear me apart in this way

“Reynie Muldoon was intelligent. He was. Curtain could admit that. But he didn’t have Sticky’s gift” You are so good at balancing all of the characters, it’s insane. Mentioning the other kids when writing from a single one’s perspective or even from an adult’s is so cool, because it reinforces the concept of them being connected, and relying on each other. Oh, man, it’s just awesome to see!!!

Poor Jeffers, he’s just getting put in awkward positions even without his bumbling buffoonery.

NO. Ah, I forgot the Implications of Jackson, Jillson, and Martina being friends, no this is awful

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I am going to. Just. Combust on the spot HOW DARE YOU

Okay. Okay I am going to RantTM now and you’re just going to have to DEAL for yanking my heart out by the strings and then stomping it into the ground

Y O U C A N S E E T H E M L O S I N G I T.

You can see, even in such a short bit, how Curtain’s brainwashing is creating a conflict with what they personally have come to believe. They feel betrayed and confused and scared, and the line “Dr. Curtain had always been there for them, and someone as smart and as generous as him would never lie”, but he would!!! AND HE DID!!!!!

And they love Martina, of course, but now that the floor has dropped out from under them they turn to each other, because that’s all they have left. Curtain isn’t going to comfort them, he’s not going to be a source of kindness and support, he’s too Busy And Important. But, they are still, without really thinking about it, going to rely on him even more, because now that Martina “betrayed” them, he’s the only person who has “been there for them” (And, again, we see the sort of mindset they have of being more of a single unit, because of how close they are. They don’t consider each other an outside human, but rather a vital component of themself)

And the fact that they don’t even realise the need to distance themselves from Martina and throw her under the bus is because Curtain is manipulating them and mistreating them!!! They feel like it’s a rational reaction, because of course the man they’ve spent their whole lives working to repay for the fantastic service of occasionally being polite to them is the good guy. When faced with their own facts and decisions, and years of Curtain’s lies, they don’t know where to turn!!!

“Jackson and Jillson lifted their heads and looked sadly at each other. Martina had tricked them into being her friends? Well, they supposed in light of this evidence, there couldn’t be any other explanation” HE’S DOING THE SAME THING HE DOES TO SQ!!!! WHAT!!! HOW CAN YOU BE SO CARELESS TO NOT EVEN GRANT THEM THE KINDNESS OF PRETENDING TO ACKNOWLEDGE THEIR PAIN LIKE YOU DO WITH YOUR OWN SON. NO, YOU JUST DO THE BAD STUFF THAT’LL HURT THEM, BUT BOY WILL IT MAKE THEM COMPLIANT. PRESENTING YOURSELF AS THE ONLY SAFE OPTION DOESN’T MAKE IT LOYALTY

Okay. Going to try and calm down now. But Marie Curie’s Notebook, Bods, did you have to do that to me?

Madge Perspective!!

Constance and Madge rivalry is one of my favourite things to come out of this, and it is slightly making up for the gaping hole in my heart from the last passage

I appreciate that you gave her a reason for not giving the note to Reynie!! This actually makes a lot of sense and works so awesomely with the continuity :D

AND SHE GOES TO TAKE SQ’S SANDWICH I LOVE HER

AND HE RECOGNISES HER THIS IS THE GREATEST DAY OF MY LIFE

Oh, and now it’s sad again. You’re giving me whiplash with all this, I swear…

Ah, no. I knew this had to happen but it doesn’t make it any less painful, especially to read through in your writing.

Somehow, the fact that “You’re not nice at all” was such a cutting remark for both of the boys speaks volumes about them.

The way you keep leveraging their age differences as something SQ is ashamed of!!! I’ve moved on from the drywall and am unscrewing and consuming my light bulbs. Just— AGH. I can’t think of the words to get this feeling across properly… SQ was being vulnerable, and opening himself up to someone who could really understand him, and now he’s being made to feel ashamed over it for things that are not his fault!! WHAT???

And Reynie is trying so incredibly hard!!!! Oh, this was one of my absolute least favourite parts of the show, it just hurts so much and it reminds me of that bit in the books when SQ tells Sticky that the best thing to do was “not to have cheated in the past”. The best thing would be if they could have somehow avoided this situation, because of how it hurt both of them :(

Nice detail about SQ’s tutors!!

Oh, but the poor boy’s so hurt. AND IT WOULDN’T HAVE BEEN THIS BAD IF CURTAIN HADN’T BEEN INSTILLING SUCH RIDICULOUS CONCEPTS INTO HIS KID FOR YEARS

Jeepers Has Jeeped It Up Again

And now Curtain is spiralling!! Part of me is like “The nerve of him, after he just destroyed several children”, but, alas, your writing has gotten to me again and I actually feel kind of bad for him

Nicholas isn’t laughing at you, you GRASSHOPPER, he’s CRYING because he LOVES YOU

And Garrison is having to bear so much of his anger. It’s that other thing, the one about how you treat people close to you worse because you trust them to love you anyway? Except BAD because they’ve both been through so much it’s just getting wildly more unhealthy by the day

“Now all she could do was hope that whatever psychics and spies were crawling about the Institute were able to get their job done before Curtain found them” It’s so weird how she doesn’t have the information necessary in the slightest, but somehow she’s kind of closer to the truth than Curtain is

(This isn’t important in the slightest, and not to undercut the drama and tension of this scene, but I hate that stupid hallway painting outside Curtain’s office with a PASSION)

Ooooh, the way you sprinkle little hints of doubt into SQ’s thoughts is absolutely fantastic. And painful. Very Painful.

Reynie’s so scared but you know he wouldn’t really blame SQ even if he did get brainswept

The way you added SQ’s backstory with the Helpers!! That’s so cool!! Oh my heavens, I am in love with how you added that!!!!

THIS CHILD IS SO EMPATHETIC WORRY ABOUT YOUR OWN SELF REYNARD

Now, just because I don’t think Reynie, as a small, incredibly stressed child, should be overly worried about SQ doesn’t mean I am not worried, oh my word. This Child!!! Needs A Hug!!!! Now!!!!

Jeeps.

But, the thing is, Curtain is so upset!! And he’s not upset because his Evil Villain Mastermind plan is going awry, he’s upset because the (Astoundingly Unhealthy) coping mechanisms are failing him! It makes me want to Pat Him On The Back, because I don’t think a hug would end well

MAYBE MARTINA WOULD BE FRIENDS WITH HIM IF YOU LET HIM TALK TO PEOPLE

But, really, Curtain would probably hate Martina as an influence on SQ because she’d challenge him

“Would you care to reconsider that answer, son?” And you wonder why the kid’s got trust issues

And this is it!!! Oh, Bods, I am Vibrating. Curtain’s emotional dam is cracking and it’s going to go so terribly but I wish he’d just work it out Lands Sakes Alive

It’s so infuriating that he’s being such a funky little oxymoronic moron and forcing himself not to feel emotions by thinking about people he cares about

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DOCTOR GARRISON????????

I’m going to have a heart attack one of these days, Heavens to Betsy

SQ!!! AND THE SECRET LAB!!!! WHAT IS HAPPENING!!!!

Oh, Milligan is so proud of Kate!! As he should be!! You write him going into these cute detail spirals whenever he thinks about Kate, and it’s so sweet!! I love it :)

Just the small scenes you add to fill in what we see in the show are gorgeous!!! They make me fantastically happy to read

Oh, Jackson and Jillson. They really need to discover their own personalities. Someone please save them from themselves (And Curtain)

(Quick Note: The word “falcon” has a tiny little typo in it. Nothing to worry about, I just thought you might want to know)

ONCE AGAIN. HOW IS CURTAIN ACTUALLY KIND OF CLOSE BUT SO OFF THE MARK??????

Erika!!

BODS I AM SHAKING YOU BY THE SHOULDERS I AM CRYING AND MELTING INTO THE FLOOR THROWING UP FROM THE PURE EMOTION HOW COULD YOU DO THIS I AM ABOUT TO LOSE MY MIND HOW DARE YOU HOW COULD YOU DO THIS THIS IS THE END FOR ME

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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I DO NOT HAVE THE WORDS TO ARTICULATE THIS I AM BANGING MY FACE INTO THE WALL BODS PLEASE KNOW IF I WAS EVEN ANYWHERE NEAR YOU I WOULD BE BRAVING THE STREETS TO DRIVE TO YOUR HOUSE AND CRY ON YOUR COUCH. AFTER I EAT ALL YOUR LIGHT BULBS.

The thing about SQ hiding in the woods!! The bird ice cream!!!

THE FACT THAT SQ CAN’T QUITE REMEMBER THE LAST TIME HE WAS GIVEN THE ICE CREAM

NO. I DON’T TRUST HIM “MAILING OUT” THE APPLICATIONS. CURTAIN MAY LOVE HIS SON BUT HE IS OBVIOUSLY HORRENDOUSLY MISGUIDED AND KIND OF COWARDLY OH MY HEAVENS. NIKOLA TESLA AND HIS COILS I AM ABOUT TO LOSE IT.

Okay. Okayokayokayokayokayokayokay. Listen. If this is a pattern (Which it’s seeming pretty likely), then there’s a whole other side that’s probably unintentional!!! Whenever Curtain brainsweeps SQ, which I’m assuming happens every couple of years, then Curtain gets all concerned and is much more careful with SQ because A) He feels bad, and B) SQ is super disoriented and out of it. WHICH MEANS THAT IT REINFORCES IN SQ’S MIND THAT HIS DAD IS THE ONE TO RELY ON WHEN IN STATES OF EMOTIONAL DISTRESS. WHY MUST YOU DO THIS TO ME

Oh, Oh Garrison. You are worth more than just throwing up and downing pain meds to try and get through life.

I wish Milligan, or even Curtain when he was slightly more stable, was there to care about her

(This might be me off on a mad as a March hare tangent, but is there a possibility for Garrison’s headache being because she is also a bit psychic?? I’m probably super wrong, but I am also absolutely bouncing off the walls with all of the Brain Bees you’ve given me)

And Curtain still makes her vegan food. Even though she doesn’t fully get it, and Curtain is being all crazy, he still cares about her it makes me so sad

ASHJHHHJKDSG I’m willing to bet that this is also the first time in a while she’s gotten any compliments at all, aside from the children

She’s trying to be a good person!!! But she’s also awfully conflicted like everyone else in this miserable disaster of a decaying friend group, and so it’s going badly!!! I also feel like someone might need to talk to her about her social struggles, because if she’d just stop trying to force herself to be some kind of muddied idealised hypothetical version of herself, then she might get somewhere

(And also if Curtain got off her back a little. I don’t know, I just feel like it says something about her that she has the easier time talking to children out of everyone else)

Martina!!!

Oh, she’s probably also falling apart because either she’s a fugitive and Jackson and Jillson betray her or she’s absolved and Kate’s in the wrong

The dual reactions!!!! The confusion!!! THE FACT THAT NOBODY ACTUALLY KNOWS WHAT’S GOING ON

ASFKKJDS He’s leaving them in the Waiting Room overnight??? I can’t remember if that happened in the show, but, overkill much??

Oh, and Milligan is having a crisis over being a horrible person, and then has no time to breathe as he’s absolutely panicked over what’s going to happen to Kate

DOCTOR GARRISON????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

…

Bods. Buddy, Bud, Nobody, Bods.

I Am Going To Start Weeping Openly As Soon As I Finish Stealing All Of Your Left Socks

THE SIGNATURE NOBODY GUT-PUNCH ENDING

WHOOOO

I hope you know that I am wrecked, and I will never, ever be able to move past this. Seriously. I am going to remember this fic for the rest of my life, and I am just. Beyond words.

[Despite being at a loss for words, Sophie proceeded to yell and climb the walls for the next forty-five minutes]

I am going to. Just. This is insane!!! You have broken my brain!!! The Bees have been flash-frozen and are dropping like rocks!!! I can’t even process All That.

I NEED YOU TO UNDERSTAND THAT I AM ABOUT TO EXPLODE BECAUSE THIS HAS BEEN SO, SO GOOD AND GRAND AND I COMMEND YOU AS A WRITER AND A CREATIVE AND A HUMAN BUT ALSO I AM GOING TO SCREAM NOW

One of these days I’m going to have to write a full-blown essay, or, like, make a PowerPoint about how I have been emotionally devastated because your writing has fully cemented itself as a fundamental part of my personality.

Just. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

One of these days I am going to learn the words to get across to you how much this means with me and how Full Of Emotion I Am

Oh, goodness, I need to go to sleep.

I couldn’t wait and I really wanted to read it, but my “reviews” have become less coherent commentaries and more “live” reactions, and there was so much going on that I needed to get all of my thoughts out immediately.

Thank you, thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou, thank you, Thank You, from the bottom of my heart, for this. This chapter, this fic, this entirety of you existing. Thank you so much

Alright, I’m going to try and sleep now, as if I am ever going to recover from this :)

#Did you enjoy watching the light in my eyes die as I worked my way through? /s #For all seriousness though #I am INFATUATED with this chapter #Rotating Microwaving Centrifuging S P I N N I N G #I don't even got the words anymore #You've broken my mental dictionary. Which I will say is quite the feat.#Thank you for this #Quite literally an instance of “You could (and did) deck me in the face and I'd thank you for it”#Ah man I have to sleep now #Thank you once again shutting up now because my brain is overtired and quite broken #s.o.s.#OH! And I shouldn't have to say #But please remember to take time and enjoy yourself!!!#I'm always happy to read whatever you want to share #But you are under no obligation to adhere to a schedule or even to post anything at all :)#Remember you are important!!!!#This wouldn't be any fun if you aren't having a good time too #You are a valued human!! Don't forget!! And don't let silly things like my excess energy pressure you!!!#Okay goodnight

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evyonagray · 8 months

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My sister's starting college next week, and since she was anxious about how to make new friends and how that if she dosen't she'll have to eat lunch alone, so me being the good bis sister I am, was trying to calm her down and then she sent me something she had written a while ago and this. I don't think anything I could have told her would have been a better advice than this. ->

Credit: via my sister♡

#So yeah anyone to who's having first day jitters #you've got this!!#just be yourself #Have fun and enjoy these new experiences to the best pf your abilities #But also dont let people walk all over you in the fear of being seen as rude #Treat people the way they deserve too #Don't undervalue yourself just to please someone #Students #College #University #First day of first year #desi tumblr #engineering student

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superconductivebean · 10 months

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#312: >_> <_<

low-key amused at wright's awkward crush on sharp she didnt realise she had if not for imelda pestering her about it all the time bc of some vicious rumor, following #294

not me writing lines in tags again

#днявочка #днявочка: hlegacy #eng tag #and she'll confess!#and will get “well. have fun being a 16yo” for the answer #ofc the conversation was more than that #“think of it as of years of experience one has already reflected upon enough times to learn a lesson”#“i know why do you feel this way; when i'll finally learn mine you'll barely recognize what'd be left of my former--current-- self”#“and so will you when a year after a year upon a decade your wound will turn into a scar and you might forget who you were”#“it is already healing i can tell; you seem yourself again but well; i just know you-now and you-then to see it all too well”#“you need and want to unwind. a rest. a happy life. you need not a broken heart”#“i've mend it back together enough times this year to know please believe me”#“i am not implying 'i might break it' julia i am asserting it”#“and the fact you're not upset at me does show it isn't love hiding somewhere behind the words or what else you'd've liked to share”#“i know exactly what you meant and you're lucky to have someone you can confess to without pulling your reputation through the mud”#“do chase after your sweetheart. nurture beasts with your the other one. ah but forgive me but you thought i of all people wouldn't know!”#“julia wright. any time you'd ask me how do i know anything in your regard i shall answer with simple 4 words: because i know you.”#“enjoy your happiness. well-earned. deserved.”

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lunarharp · 2 years

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a random draft where i was ramblingg about witch hat & art to myself for myself :)

rare time i feel like actually going off about the thing i’m having fun with right now in more detail ... but not on twt where strangers might try to discuss back at me lol sorry but that is scary. (not that you even have the room to soliloquy on there)

i love how there's characters for varying types of artists to relate to. people like agott who have been adept at drawing from a young age but feel overwhelmed by feelings of not meeting their expectations. and are driven mostly by feelings of wanting to prove their worth..

people like oru who have always been around the art but now are burnt out from commissions and wondering just what they're drawing for... and ones i relate to the most personally like coco and qifrey, who started drawing at an older age to the skilled people around them. like coco i'm so happy that i'm in the world of drawing(/magic) now and excited every day but also weighed down by fears that i'll never get to what i where i need to be after starting at this late stage and also whether i'm really cut out for this....

and like qifrey i only started drawing after a narrow escape from trauma... i started drawing to make sense of what my life is now, just as he was invited by beldaruit to become a witch because it was the only safe path he could take. (although i've not been through anything quite like what he's been through... ouagh)

and there’s tetia who just wants to draw to make other people feel happy about what she’s made, to have fun, and spread hope and happiness and gratitude. who feels so happy whenever someone thanks her for what she’s created - i understand now how it feels to want to thank them for thanking her and how making art, when you get a meaningful response, can be a truly warm communal type experience. but you do need that response - her overwhelming happiness when the dragon thing was happy and she said it was the first time she’d ever felt fully appreciated for her magic and it made her soooo happy. she had been drawing until then, but it was the last puzzle in place to make her realise the breadth of what magic can be for her.

and riche who is determined to not lose the “her”-ness from her art, doesn’t want to learn new techniques and become more regular and orthodox in style if it means she feels she’s losing something... i get that!!! precious autistic-coded child... the ways we feel about our art differ depending on our own mental landscapes. hahhhh... shirahama said she began this series because she was having a conversation with artist friends about how it feels like drawing just really is magic. i mean..... it is.

i think writing feels like magic too, and i’m glad i can do both now. any creation is total magic. i’ve drawn scenes that were in my head and that’s let other people see them and if i can trust their comments about it, has moved them in some way or at least let them imagine a scene or a situation that they wouldn’t have imagined otherwise. but it’s different from just telling someone about it. when you draw something, or write something it really exists now - outside of you. THAT’S SO WEIRD.

i liked drawing a lot of takarazuka things (before i realised i got kind of burnt out drawing all this transcore stuff that people were not exactly responding to because it’s so niche and weird lmao) but drawing fanart for something that also ONLY exists in art is so special. it’s not acted by real people. like.. they’re just little people that someone drew and now i draw them too. total magic. and she gets up and draws them every day the same as me...

i love that a manga isn’t just art, it’s storytelling too. doing both writing and drawing at the same time - it feels like such a perfect and fascinating combination of skills and facets of creation. i’m better at writing than drawing, so i don’t feel like i can express my original stories well enough in comic form just yet. but i might just get there.

the world is so confusing and overwhelming and terrible every day. only creation is something i can understand. sometimes i can’t understand it - when i feel REALLY bad, it’s definitely like, what’s the point. and i wish i had more things to experience at present than just creation - i want to be outside and just feel and be as well as create. and at some point i’ll definitely stop posting my creations online. but creating has become something that i don’t need to understand the reason for it - so at those times when i wonder what the real point to any of this is.... lately, i usually still create anyway. just as you’d still breathe and sleep even though you’re hurt and confused by the horrors of the world. it’s becoming how i express myself. i find myself drawing pretty much every day because it’s part of how i make sense of shit now and i naturally want to do it. not doing it is painful.

i hope this magic continues. i hope it becomes far more wonderful than i can even imagine from here.

and i won't lose.

#things really are different if you start drawing in your mid/late 20s or onwards.#you haven't developed your idea of yourself as an 'artist' at the time your brain was developing your identity.#but reading something that is basically saying- it's not too late and you have your own magic that only youan do... is so heartening.#also the manga is very gay. it's not THAT shockingly original and fascinating a story- but like...#i just don't know many ongoing fun series with interesting lovable characters where there are also major representations #for disability race queerness etc.#esp if tetia is trans. shirahama-sensei you can tell me...#MOSTLY IM LOSING MY MIND AT WHERE THE SERIES IS GOING LIKE I AM SCARED. my theories are dark and i fear for qifrey SOMEONE HELP HIMMM..#ONCE AGAIN LET SOMEONE HLEP YOU YOU QUESTIONABLE AND TRAGIC GAY LITTLE SKIRT MAN #i hate that i had to just let my fic be so short. I CANT WRITE ANY MORE RIGHT NOW...i would have to make up so much plot stuff #bc orufrey CANNT happen they cant freaking KISS until so much is sorted out between them which requires the plot moving forward and..#AUGHHH !!!! sensei please just tell me what happens please please please please please please please please please #the next chapter looks hella plot-ful but STILL..it's going to take YEARS..i just want to know if qifrey IS GOING TO SURVIVE THIS SHIT !!!!#if the brimhats [redacted] then he'll [redacted] and THEN WHAT IF [redacted] has to [redacted] I FEEL LIKE SENSEI'LL DO THAT !!! SCARED #SURELLLY she'll have [redacted] have to [redacted] but i dont think shed go as far as [redacted] ??????#i plan to go to japan next year if possible anyway but what if it's too early for an anime-fuelled merch section in animate. please #this is like the first new and non-zuka thing i've been hyperfixated on for years. i need official qifrey and oru items. I need the items #once again i feel weird putting my personal feelings and theories on the internet to an audience of nobody but once again we will die.#am i going to be on my deathbed thinking 'oh i shouldn't have happily gone off about witch hat on tumblr that time how embarrassing' no.#do you know how worthwhile it is to enjoy something. and to basically avoid other fanworks for the most part so you're just surrounded #by your own pure and enjoyable feelings.#i actually went to a local queer art place yesterday and like. man i was very different to them but #there are people somewhat like me out there huh. somewhere. i'm going to make zines and art and express my world. even if just a bit.#literally why would you priv reblog something like this i think there is something wrong with you? i feel better about myself now #i will find the ones like me not the ones like you <3

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