#and please leave jensen out of your drama

[buckybarnesisdaddy]

Summer Lovin’ pt2

Summary: Everyone learns the truth about Peggy and Everly’s past. Bucky and Steve lend an ear, and both men make it clear who their heads have turned to.

Pairing: Everly(Reader) X Steve Rogers, Everly(R) X BuckyBarnes, Jake Jensen X Wanda Maximoff, Natasha Romanoff X Bucky Barnes. Past Everly(R) X Colin Shea, Past Peggy X Colin Shea, Past Everly(R) X Brock Rumlow.

Rating: Mature!

Warnings: Anger, yelling, talks of cheating, talks of post physical abuse, talks of death, flirting.

A/N: I am loving this story and the drama is only getting started! 🤭

Previous

All you see is red and if Natasha hadn’t been right behind you, your fist would have found Peggy’s jaw in about three seconds. “Easy, there.” Natasha says as she catches your hand and spins you back to face her. “She’s not worth getting kicked out.” She says as she squeezes your shoulders.

“That’s why you looked so familiar! Fuck you!” You yell as Natasha moves you away, wanting to create distance between you and Peggy.

“What the hell is going?” Bucky asks as he runs up beside you.

“Why is everyone screaming?” Jake asks as he walks up with Wanda.

“Everly, it’s not what it looks like!” Steve exclaims as he shoves Peggy off of him.

“Don’t pretend you didn’t like it, Steven.” Peggy says trying to be flirty but missing the mark completely. Steve turns to her, his piercing gaze quieting her quickly.

“My name is Steve. Not Steven. And I didn’t like it. In fact I was telling you to slow down and to stop. Short of throwing you on the ground I don’t know what else I could have done.” Steve exclaims before he quickly crosses over the lawn to you. “Please Everly, let me explain-“ you cut him off with a glare of your own.

“We will handle this later,” your gaze shifts over his shoulder to Peggy. “You just can’t help stealing men who aren’t yours, can you?!” You yell. Peggy scoffs and walks closer, hands on her hips and her nose in the air.

“I have no idea what you are talking about, Everly. This is the name of the game. Everyone flirts and switches partners the whole time. Don’t get so hurt about it.” She tries to brush off your comment, she thinks you won’t. That you won’t air the dirty laundry between you two, but she has underestimated you.

“Well, what about in life? Huh?! Is it ‘the name of the game’ to sleep with someone else’s boyfriend?!” You yell, you don’t mean to but the way Peggy is taken aback makes you feel better about yelling. Bucky and Steve look at you and then back at Peggy. Natasha scoffs and glares at the woman still holding her head high.

“Wait?” Bucky asks. “You are the woman who broke up Everly’s last relationship?”

“Because you had an affair with her boyfriend.” Steve continues.

“The one and only. Took me hearing her say those same disgusting words to Steve to remember where I had seen her before.” You answer for her. Peggy’s eyes shift quickly as she looks at everyone, thinking on her feet.

“For the record, Everly, Colin had me fooled as well. I thought he was single, granted newly single but I didn’t know you two were still together.” Peggy convincingly explains, but you know better. You know what you heard that day.

✨7 months ago✨

You just got home from work, dropping your keys in the bowl by the door and setting your bags down. You were suppose to go straight over to your parents house but you forgot your suitcase that morning before you left. You’ll need it for the week away so you just decide to stop by the apartment and grab it before you head out, maybe get a little goodbye in with Colin before the long week you’ll be spending apart. Your first sign should have been the Colin’s shirt tossed over the back of the couch. He never leaves his clothes laying around like that because he knows how it bothers you. But you tell yourself it’s because he thinks he’s alone for the week, he’s probably just getting a head start on acting like a slob. The next should have been the open bottle of wine on the coffee table, because he knows how you hate wasting good wine. You tell yourself that he’s gonna come back and finish it. Sadly the one you couldn’t explain away, the one that stopped you in your tracks, the one that made you speechless, was the woman’s voice coming from behind the closed bedroom door. You hear Colin’s familiar sounds, the ones that make you melt, that make you respond in a similar ways. Sound that only you can pull from him. Yet now in your bed, in your room, in your apartment some other woman is pulling those sounds from his mouth. Your boyfriend, the one that just asked your dad for his permission to marry you. The boyfriend who always promised to never hurt you, is now breaking every trust he helped you rebuild and reopening every old scar he had helped heal. “Next time we are doing this at my place.” The woman says. ‘Next time?’ You think, ‘how long has this been going on?’ The mystery women continues. “I hate sleeping with you while there is a picture of the two of you on the damn wall.” You are enraged, ‘of course there are pictures of me and my boyfriend, in my damn house!’ You scream in your mind, doing your best to stay silent so you can hear what Colin says back.

“We have to stop this. This isn’t going anywhere, I love Everly.” Colin groans, hearing the pleasure in his voice. As he says they have to stop he pushes himself farther over the edge.

“I know, and I don’t care, touch me.” The woman answers back and then you hear her hushed moans. Your feet are moving before you can comprehend what’s happening. You swing open the bedroom door, letting it slam back again the wall. Colin jumps out of bed and stands next to it while facing the door. Meeting your gaze, he instantly feels regret and remorse but he knows better than to speak. You walk past him and grab your suitcase and the last couple things on your nightstand. There is a picture of you and Colin staring back at you as you turn to leave the room, all you do is take it off the wall and drop it to the ground. Glass breaks everywhere and the picture is ripped by the glass shards. You don’t look back as you walk down the hall and out the front door, not even caring to slam it. Tears fill your eyes on the elevator ride as you call your mom to tell her you are on your way home.

✨Present day✨

You cock your eyebrow and go in for the kill. “Oh really, Peggy?!? Because as you were actively fucking my boyfriend you said, and I quote, ‘Next time we are doing this at my place. I hate sleeping with you while there is a picture of you two on your damn wall.’ Then when he told you he loved me and that his affair with you wasn’t going anywhere you said, ‘I know, I don’t care. Touch me.” You walk closer to her. “You knew the whole time so don’t try and play sweet now!” You snap at her. “I just wanna know why?!” You ask. Natasha inching closer just in case she needs to restrain you from punching Peggy and getting kicked off the island. “Why did you go after Colin knowing he was taken. Why did you go after Steve knowing he was taken. What did I ever do to you?!!” You yell and Peggy crosses her arms as she shakes her head as she starts to walk away. “No! You don’t get to just walk away from this.” You chase after her, she turns around quickly and you two are face to face.

“I knew him first!” She yells. You stand your ground and refusing to look away. The group behind you shuffles and you hear Jake whisper to Wanda.

“Wait, so Peggy knew Steve too?” Wanda pats his face and quietly says ‘no’. Peggy rolls her eyes having heard Jake.

“I worked with Colin, we were sleeping together, nothing serious but I thought maybe we would eventually become something more. But then he starts going on and on about ‘the most amazing girl he’s ever met’. Even after fucking me, he was going on and on about you!” She screams. She takes a step back and you allow her that, giving her the space she needs if only for a moment. “About 2 years into our arrangement he stopped mentioning you so I thought, ‘this is my chance.’ So I made a move and he shot me down, saying he ‘had a lot on his mind’. He pushed me away and whenever I came over he wouldn’t even let me in his apartment.” Peggy looks off to the side and shakes her head. “Turns out you had already moved in. He had ‘a lot on his mind’ because you showed up on his doorstep one day begging for a place to stay. And because he was so in love with you, he folded to your every ask. He chose you over me and then for the next 3 years of my life I was kept at a distance- I had lost my friend! Because of you!” Your mind races with so many thoughts, connecting the dots and becoming even angrier. This time you choose quiet rage,

“I don’t care who knew him first, Peggy. He wasn’t with you when we started dating but you seduced him back into your arms. He’s not faultless in this, it’s his fault as much as it’s yours. So no explanation will make me ‘see things your way.’ You were sleeping with someone else’s man and you are trying to justify it, but there is no justification. And now you’re just being vindictive against me and going after Steve. Grow up, Peggy.” You turn and walk away, she tries to get the last laugh.

“You moved in while we were still- we were still something, Everly! You aren’t any better!” She yells, you spin around debating whether to tell the truth and spill sensitive information on camera.

“I had known Colin for 5 years. He knew about my previous relationship and when I needed help he let me move in. I had only been with Colin for 2 years when I caught the two of you together. There was a whole year between the end of your arrangement with him and when we started dating. So again, there is no explanation that makes anything you did okay.” You turn and walk away, past the others who throw glances towards Peggy and call after you as you walk away, heading into the villa and up to the bedroom.

You sit on the terrace overlooking the whole villa. Your knees tucked to your chest and your arms wrapped around your legs. Tears drip down your face and drop onto your legs as you silently cry. “Ugh Everly, get over it.” You say to yourself, “It’s been almost 7 months and he never even tried to apologize.” You hear a knock on the terrace door and your head turns to see who it is. He leans against the doorframe, his blue eyes are gentle and kind as he looks over you with concern. “Hi, Bucky.” You say quietly. He gently smiles and walks through the door closing it behind him.

“For the record Steve and I played rock, paper, scissors to see who would get to talk to you first.” He smiles as he sits next to you and you gently smile. “So don’t think he didn’t want to talk to you, cause he really did. He wanted to explain everything, but I wanted to check on you,” you meet his gaze and more tears fall. He lays his hand on your head and strokes your hair. “So how are you doing?” You let out a sad laugh.

“I’m angry, Bucky. At Peggy, at Colin, hell even a little at Steve.” You look at Bucky who is about to defend his friend. “And yes I know he was trying to get her to stop while still being respectful, but sometimes you just gotta be a little rude.” Bucky laughs and nods.

“Yeah, well Steve is rarely rude.” Bucky shrugs. “He can be stupid, stubborn, and jump into situations without really thinking, but he isn’t rude.” You wipe your eyes. “And he’d never hurt someone purposefully.” You take Bucky’s hand in yours and give it a squeeze. “Now, you wanna talk about everything that just happened?” You can’t help but laugh.

“Did you not hear the screaming match?” Bucky smiles and you look up at the sky, this beautiful summer night spoiled by so much anger.

“Just tell me this, what happened between you and Colin? Why would Peggy think you two were together before you were?” You turn and look at Bucky, something in your gut tells you to trust him. You take his left hand in yours, feeling his scars along his wrist and along his forearm, tracing them with your fingers. Bucky can see the struggle within you, knowing you are trying to decide whether to trust him or not. He draws his fingers across your palm and stays quiet, letting you work out what you want to do. You look up and just know, his eyes say it all, he won’t let you down.

“Colin let me move in with him because I was recovering and hiding from my abusive ex-boyfriend. Colin helped put me back together and restored my trust in people.” You wipe a tear again and Bucky decides to push.

“What happened, with your ex? If you don’t mind me asking.” You hold his hand tighter.

“He left me for dead on our kitchen floor when I tried to leave him and when I didn’t die he promised he would find me and make sure he finished the job.” You refuse to look at Bucky, you don’t want his pity and that’s how everyone looks at you when you tell them about Brock.

“Look at me, Everly. Please?” Bucky asks, his voice soft. You look and his gaze almost heals the pain in your heart at that moment. “I am so sorry- no Woman- no one should ever have to go through that. I am glad you got away and I am happy that for a moment someone was able to help you heal from the damage he did. I’m sorry he didn’t turn out to be much better though.” Your tears start to fall and Bucky pulls you into a hug. His hands rubbing your back, calming you down. You suddenly remember that you are surrounded by cameras, and you only just met Bucky that morning. You quickly sit up and look at him with wide eyes.

“Sorry I-“ you scoot away and blush as you take a breath. “Umm thank you for your help, really it as very kind.” You sigh as you stand up. “I should probably find Steve, get all this settled before bed.” You go to walk away and Bucky stands up, catching your hand. Making sure he doesn’t pull or grip you too tight.

“Hey, just-“ he pulls you close, “come here real quick.” He gives you a hug, you feel safe and seen. You both take in a deep breath and enjoy the moment before he pulls back and squeezes your shoulders. “If you ever need to talk, I’m here, Everly. I meant what I said earlier, I’m not bowing out so easily.” He takes a respectable step back and then kisses your hand. “I’ll go get Steve and send him up here, it will give you two some privacy.” He drops your hand and walks to the door before he leaves you softly call after him.

“Bucky?” He hums in response as he turns around. “Thank you for listening.” Bucky’s eyes light up and you can’t help but smile.

“You’re welcome, Everly. Anytime. Steve will be right up.” And with that Bucky disappears down the stairs.

You sit on the bench staring up at the moon. Bucky is the first person you’ve told since Colin, and that decision feels so right you didn’t feel the need to tell him ‘don’t tell anyone.’ You feel safe with Bucky, a feeling and emotion that eventually came back after a lot of professional help. You went to therapy after you left Brock, Colin made you. He said you needed to talk to a professional, so you made weekly appointments. Doing the work and seeking help along with Colin being there for you was healing and exactly what you needed. He helped when you needed him most and you can’t imagine that time without him. Getting over him wasn’t hard though. Maybe it was because of the betrayal or because you had fallen for him because he was your ‘savior’, but when your phone didn’t ring with his thousand apologies and no flowers came to beg for you back, you didn’t break. Losing him hurt and adjusting to single life again was hard but there wasn’t a day that went by where you missed him. What you had? Sure, but actually missing Colin? No. You left the apartment that day and never looked back. He was sweet and kind but he was human and he made mistakes, him not even trying to fix them made you aware of just how ‘human’ he was. “Everly?” Steve’s voice calls you out of your thoughts. You straighten up and motion for him to join you. “Look, I want to apologize for what you saw- no, for what I’d did, or what I didn’t do.” You give him a weak smile and he turns to face you. “I shouldn’t have allowed myself to be alone with her knowing how she felt about me. I should have tried harder to push her away. Look I know what I said earlier, I found her intriguing and I was into her but hearing about what she did to you. I can confidently say my head is firmly turned to you.” You let out a laugh and look down at the ground, “which I know sounds like the stupidest things to possibly say at this moment but I just need you to know her stunts didn’t do what she wanted them to. In fact they put me more off of her.” He takes your hands in his and his eyes are pleading with you to believe him.

“I believe you, Steve.” Your place your hand on the side of his face and brush your thumb over his cheek. “Honestly all of the emotions tonight had more to do with the past rather than what Peggy did today.” Steve furrows his brow and you smile a little. “I mean you are sweet and I really do hate that she moved in on you, but we have known each other for 12 hours so I can’t be as mad as I was with Colin.” Steve nods and laughs.

“Yeah, I get that.” His eyes soften and he brushes your cheek with his thumb, copying the movement you just did to him. “12 hours or not, I really do like you. And I really really want to start over with you. Forget Peggy, forget all the drama. What do you say?” Your breath catches and your gaze shifts to the ground and then back at him.

“I’d like that, but there are a few things you should know before we start over.” Steve nods.

“I’m all ears.” He leans back and drops his arm across the back of the bench.

“I need you to know that I was never with Colin while he was involved with Peggy. I didn’t know her- never even saw her, but I knew about her. Colin would mention her from time to time but she never came over and he never went out. I thought they worked together and had a fling.” You take another breath before looking at him. You see the same trusting gaze that you found with Bucky. So you decide to tell him, “And the reason I moved in with him was because my ex boyfriend beat me so bad I almost died, Colin helped me hide, my ex didn’t know about him so I was safe there. I was safe with him, until I wasn’t.” You see Steve straighten up and clench his fist. “He didn’t hurt me, physically. He just- when I needed him to be better he couldn’t be.” You meet Steve’s gaze and it’s different. Bucky’s healed you, Steve’s is strengthening you, both as important as the other.

“Is this creep still alive?” Steve asks, his jaw clenched. You feel oddly comfortable with him so you reach out and pat his thigh as you lightly laugh.

“Umm no, actually.” Steve glances at you. “He worked on some special forces thing. Secret government mission and all, he didn’t make it home and he had me listed as his ‘family’ so I got the notice.” You sigh and Steve nods. “He was killed in action right around the time Colin and I started dating..” A flash of something passes over Steve’s face. He quickly looks at you, you can’t quite figure out why he has that look.

“What was his name?” He asks. You are taken aback and you shake your head, thrown by his question, why does he care what his name was?

“Brock, Brock Rumlow.” The name sends shivers down your spine. Steve nods, there is a flash of something in his eyes and then it’s gone. He nods and then takes your hands.

“I’m sorry but I’m glad he can’t hurt you anymore.” You reach out and rub his shoulder and let your hand fall on his chest.

“Me too, Steve.” His eyes are soft and his smile is sweet, he leans in and gives you a gentle kiss. You let him linger for a moment before you gently push him away. “Steve?”

“I’m sorry,” he apologizes as he leans his forehead against yours. “you said you had ‘a few things’ you wanted to talk about.” You nod, “I’m guessing this one is about Bucky.” You nod again and Steve nods too. He kisses your head and then sits back. “Even if my head isn’t turned anymore, yours still is.”

“Yeah, it is.” You admit. Steve looks up at the sky, the stars shining bright. He smiles and then looks at you.

“Well, I’ve never been one to back down from a challenge. In fact I’m kinda known for running in head first.” He smirks and you can’t help but laugh.

“Yeah, Bucky mentioned something about you being Stubborn.” You wink and Steve laughs.

“Stubborn and not willing to give up on something I believe in.” He scoots closer to you. “And I believe we could have something pretty amazing.”

“Oh do you?” You ask teasing him.

“I do,” he takes your face in his hands. “And I’m willing to put my actions where my mouth is.” He kisses you as he wraps his arms around your waist. You smile against his lips and then pull back. “So, bedtime?” Steve asks and you bite your lip and nod.

“Yeah, let’s head inside.” You pull away but take his hand. Steve stops you for a moment. “Are we okay, Everly?” You squeeze his hand and he takes that as a yes. You lead him downstairs and into the bedroom where the others are getting ready for bed.

“OooOOooo” you hear someone calling, you turn and you see Natasha basically catcalling Bucky. He smirks as he strides past everyone already lounging in bed. His black boxer briefs clinging to him in all the right places. All day and you never noticed how toned his thighs are or maybe you did but you were trying to be respectful. He meets your gaze and he winks before he jumps onto the bed with Natasha. She laughs and flings a pillow into his stomach which he promptly tosses back at her. You giggle and look at Steve who is just shaking his head as he laughs.

“I’m gonna get changed.” You tell him as you head off to the closet. Foot steps hurry behind you and you prepare yourself for another round with Peggy. To your surprise, it’s Natasha and Wanda.

“Okay, you have to spill everything!” Wanda gushes and sits at one of the vanities. Natasha sits next to her and backs up her statement.

“Yeah, dish on what took so long with the beautiful, buff twins over there.” Natasha sits back and smirks. A blush rises on your cheeks and you can’t hide the smile breaking on your face.

“Bucky came and talked to me first. He was really sweet and just wanted to check on me, make sure I was okay.” You fidget with your pajamas in hand. “Then It was Steve’s turn, he wanted to make sure we were okay, explain himself and apologize.” Natasha nods and looks at Wanda.

“Okay so where do you stand with him?” She asks as she leans forward.

“Well, I believe him when he says he isn’t into her anymore and the stunt she pulled makes him that more turned off by her.” You are quiet for a moment and the two ladies let you sit in your thoughts for a moment. “I told them both about my past, which I can’t talk about anymore tonight but I promise to fill you both in,” Wanda gets up and hugs you and Natasha squeezes your hand as you wipe a little tear away with the other. “I was honest with him that even though I am with him my head is still turned a little by Bucky.” You glance at Natasha and she smiles.

“Hey, I’ll be honest, my head is a little turned by everyone here.” She shrugs. “So you aren’t hurting my feelings saying that.” You laugh and look around.

“I feel horrible that my drama made the first day end so abruptly.” You sit down on the floor and they both join you.

“No!” Wanda exclaims, “it was Peggy and her vindictive ways! If she had just played the game like the rest of us you could have gone the whole summer never having known! But she wanted to get under your skin, she wanted to create the drama. Don’t feel bad for defending yourself.” Wanda states. You sniffle and thank her.

“So how are you and Jake?” You ask and Wanda blushes, she looks around to make sure no one got up to eavesdrop. She leans in and whispers.

“He is so dreamy!” She gushes. You and Natasha laugh and tease her a little.

“Oh look at Wanda, ready to walk off the island already!” Natasha pokes at her and she blushes.

“Well not quite. But he has potential! I’m ready to flirt my ass off tomorrow and really work at getting to know him.” She says proudly. “Natasha, what is your plan?”

Natasha glances at you and then back at Wanda.

“You know I’m not sure. I have to be honest, I might put in the flirt tomorrow on Steve, see where it goes. Respectfully of course!” She looks to you and you smile. You lean your head on her shoulder.

“Thank you for telling me and not doing it behind my back.” You say as you squeeze her arm in yours and sigh. “I’m gonna test the waters with Steve and Bucky tomorrow, see if sparks start flying, you know?”

“Yes!” Wanda yells too loudly.

“Absolutely!” Natasha agrees. Steve and Bucky come running in.

“Everything okay?” Bucky asks, looking between the three women. You blush and the other two just laugh and nod.

“Yup! We’re perfect Buck! Now go lay down!” Natasha shoos him away. Steve and Bucky can hear the laughter and giggles as they walk away from the closet. Steve pulls Bucky to the side and motions for him to follow. Bucky does and ends up in the stairwell with Steve.

“Did Everly tell you about her past? About her Ex?” Steve asks, leaning against the wall.

“Colin?” Bucky questions.

“No,” Steve looks to make sure no one is listening. “About the one who-“ Bucky cuts him off.

“Oh, yeah,” her nods and looks to the ground. “Yeah she did. I was about three seconds away from asking for his address cause ‘I just wanna talk’. God what an asshole.” Bucky says as he crosses his arms. He sits on the top stair and Steve settles on the stair two down from him.

“Well, he’s dead.” Steve says, gaging Bucky’s reaction.

“Good riddance!” Bucky almost cheers, Steve stops him, shushing him a little and leaning in closer.

“It was Rumlow, Buck.” Steve says, his jaw clenched. Bucky’s heart stops for a moment, the memories flooding back to him. He hangs his head in his hands and rubs his face before he looks up to meet Steve’s gaze.

“Were they together before he died?” The tension in Bucky’s voice is painful, Steve knows he is holding back so he doesn’t put a hole in the wall.

“Yeah, from what she told me, it sounded like there was only a year between their break up and when he died.” Steve explains, examining his own hands, there is a scar across his knuckles from where he had taken out his anger on the very man they are speaking about. Bucky has a few knife scars from him as well.

“So,” Bucky is finally putting all the pieces together. The ones that Steve put together as he talked with you on the terrace. “The woman he would brag about and show photos of, was Everly.” Steve nods. “And the woman he said was an ‘obedient bitch’, was Everly.” Steve leans his head back against the wall. “And the Woman you and I tried to find and save from him because we were tired of hearing his stories about how he hurt her, that woman was Everly.” Steve look at Bucky and nods, a slight tear in his eye.

“Yeah, Buck.” Steve confirm/ his voice breaking. “She was dating him during that time so unless he was cheating on her, then yeah.” Bucky hangs his head again and Steve look up at the ceiling. “God, I hope he was cheating on her.” Steve whispers, Bucky can’t believe it but he agrees with Steve, hoping against all odds that you weren’t the woman Brock would talk about. “This incredible woman has been hurt enough, the last thing I want to do is end up in a fight over her especially if it could cost me my best friend.” Bucky looks at Steve and nods. “I can’t deny what you two have, I can see it. Had she walked out first she would have chosen you.” Bucky goes to interrupt but Steve won’t let him. “Yet I can’t help but feel a connection with her, Buck.” Steve sighs, “I’m not gonna back down. I’m not gonna be macho, alpha man and ‘stake my claim on her’ but I’m also not gonna give up without a honorable fight. So may the best man, Win.” Bucky laughs to himself and nods. He reaches a hand out and shakes Steve’s while they stand up.

“I intend to, Stevie!” He jokes and Steve laughs, patting his back and heading off to the bedroom.

“So Everly, are you gonna wear a sexy little outfit tonight? Or are you sleeping alone?” Wanda asks. You look at your options and decide to throw caution to the wind.

“You know what?! Why the hell not!” You grab a little black Teddie. It’s lace but not seen through and still leaves quite a bit to the imagination.

“What about this?” You hold it up to get their opinions. You Wanda squeals and Natasha smirks.

“Well now I want to cuddle in bed with you.” Natasha teases and you laugh, giving her hip a bump with yours.

“And I want to wash and borrow it!” Wanda says. You laugh.

“We will see!” You say and Wanda takes that as a yes. They both get quiet and go stone cold, you turn to see what caused it, Peggy stands in the doorway, all changed and ready for bed. She puts her stuff down and heads into the bedroom. You hear Steve’s voice say, ‘Absolutely not, we can talk in the morning in clear view of others.’ You hear her shuffle away and settle on a bed, looking back at Natasha and Wanda, you can’t help but smile a little.

“Bet that felt nice to hear Stevie say.” Natasha says, teasing Steve in the process with his little nickname. You nod and beam at her.

“It really did. Now you two go to bed, I need to shower and I’ll meet y’all in there.” They shuffle to bed and leave you to it. It’s the quickest shower of your life and you rush through some of your steps, not wanting to keep everyone up even later, the lights won’t go off till everyone is in bed. You braid your hair and step into your slippers. You give yourself one final check and make your way out to the bedroom. You expect to find everyone asleep but instead everyone is awake and talking. Except when they see you. The boys stop talking and their jaws drop. You feel slightly bad because even Jake is putting his glasses back on to get a good look at you.

“Wow, Everly. You look-“ Steve starts to say but is interrupted.

“Stunning” Bucky says, his eyes gleaming as he looks at you.

“Incredible” Sam admits as he sits up in bed.

“Wow,” is all Jake says before he turns back to Wanda and gives her a sheepish look. She pats his face and then takes his glasses back off.

“You had your look, now bed.” She says and Jake blushes before he snuggles up to Wanda, but not before throwing another glance your way. Steve lifts your side of the covers and you slip off your slippers and climb into bed with him. You notice he is shirtless and he has the same type of boxer briefs that Bucky has. They are tight in all the right places and you want to get a better look, maybe later. You see a steady blush creep up on Steve’s cheeks and it spreads down his neck and across his chest. It’s really cute and you wonder if that blush spreads everywhere or if it just stops at his peck.

“Hi,” he whispers as you two lay down and he pulls the covers over you both. The lights finally go out and there is a collective sigh of relief. Steve reaches out and brushes your hair back from your face, grazing his thumb across your cheek.

“Hi,” you answer back. You move a little closer.

“I want to be respectful, so I want to ask,” he takes a breath, “do you want to cuddle? Or would you rather your own space tonight. I don’t mind either way.” You bite your lip as you think, a cuddle wouldn’t be so bad, would it? Besides, it’s been months since you were last cuddled.

“I’d love a cuddle.” You admit, you can see Steve’s smile even in the dark. You go to turn over to be the little spoon when Steve stops you.

“Oh, you know- I’m kinda the little spoon usually.” You can’t hide the shock on your face. You shouldn’t have assumed but he did offer the cuddles so you naturally thought he’d be the one holding you. You try to find you voice but he soon is laughing and pulling you close into his big arms. “Sorry I had to,” you laugh and poke his side before you turn over.

“Not funny.” You pretend to pout. He laughs and kisses your head.

“It was a little funny.” He says and you have to agree. For the first time in months you fall asleep in a man’s arms and you don’t worry about your safety, wellbeing, or if he’s cheating on you. It’s been one heck of a day and it’s only day one. You just pray the rest of the summer isn’t as exciting.

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In Plain Sight (Part 7)

Summary: It’s Christmas time for the Ackles family and Crew! But the reader and Crew’s sneaking around could only last so long and the truth coming out can be explosive...

Masterlist

Pairing: Jensen x daughter!reader (with lots of daughter!reader x OMC)

Word Count: 6,300ish

Warnings: language, brief mention of drama/child abuse, family angst, implied smut

A/N: Here’s the big one for ya! I hope you enjoyed this series as much as I have! It was so much fun to do something a bit different!

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One Week Later

“Hey,” you said, slipping into Crew’s room at the cabin your dad had rented. He’d gotten in not long ago and spent the better part of that time being introduced to relatives left and right.

“Hey,” he said, voice laced with tiredness. “Are you sure it’s cool I get my own room? All the kids are sharing and-”

“My cousins and siblings love to bunk together. This house has like ten bedrooms.” You rested your hands on his waist, pulling his body flush with yours. “You okay? I know it’s a lot of new people.”

“I’m good. I didn’t realize you had so many cousins.”

“Yeah. I’m the oldest by a good ten years so I apologize in advance for the constant piggyback rides they’ll request.”

“No it’s fine. I like being in a house full of people again,” he said as the door burst open, your little brother bursting in. 

“Crew! We’re going sledding! Will you go with me?” he asked, hopping up and down on his tip toes. 

“Crew just got here after a long drive. Maybe-”

“Of course, buddy. Why don’t you go get ready and I’ll be there in a minute?” said Crew. Your brother took off, Crew smiling when you cocked your head. “I just need a couple minutes to myself.”

“Okay,” you said, pecking a lightening fast kiss on his lips. You started to leave when he chuckled, tugging on the back of your jeans.

“Oh, no. You’re not going anywhere,” he said, pushing the door shut, locking the door quietly. He cupped your cheeks, devouring your mouth with slow, kitten kisses. “I missed you the past few days.”

“You should have come up with us yesterday.”

“I needed to find your present which is awesome if I do say so myself.” 

“Please tell me it’s something small. I’m not a fancy gift kind of girl.”

“You’ll have to wait three days to find out,” he said, booping you on the nose, a devilish smirk on his cheeks. “Want to watch a movie with me tonight?”

“Is that code for sex?” you laughed. He put a hand on his chest, gasping to himself.

“You heathen!” You whacked his chest, Crew giggling, pulling you against his firm body. “I was simply asking if you wanted to watch a feature film with a gentleman such as myself. If your deviant hands wander, well that’s your fault.”

You grinned, earning a wet, teasing kiss, a tiny scratch of stubble on his jaw from where he hadn’t shaved in the past few days. “And if your tongue wanders?”

“Oh well we can’t trust that thing. It has a mind of it’s own when it comes to you.” Large hands slid around to your ass, squeezing each mound of flesh playfully. “Where’s your room?”

“Right across the hall. No one’s down here but us,” you said. “Plenty of privacy.”

“You and that heathen behavior again,” he said with a shake of his head. 

“Heathen behavior would be me telling you I packed my vibe.” His eyes immediately darkened as you trailed a finger across the broad plains of his chest. “Oh how easily you can be corrupted.”

“Corruption with you sounds hella fun,” he chuckled, footsteps echoing outside the hall. He forced himself away and unlocked the door, the nerves creeping back into his features. “You’re sure I’m not in the way being here?”

“Crew. If we didn’t want you here we wouldn’t have asked.” 

“But it’s not just your family. It’s your whole family and I don’t want to screw any of that up,” he said as the door opened slowly, your dad poking his head in.

“Hey. Calm down,” he said, Crew breathing deeply. “You’re not screwing anything up, alright? You’re here cause you’re family. End of discussion. When you need a break, because god knows I love these people but five days with all of them is a lot, then take a break. No one will think you’re weird. Y/N normally gets sick of us on day two and runs off with her camera so relax. Join in the stuff you want to, take the space you need. And now’s a good time to tell you both that we got the cabin for an extra week for just us so you are welcome to stay for that too Crew.”

“I think I got to take it one day at a time.” 

“That’s perfectly okay,” said your dad, clasping Crew on the shoulder, smiling softly. “We want this to be fun for you. Now go throw on some snow pants before the twins come dragging you out of here. Between my brother and me you should find a pair that fits.”

“Thanks, Jensen.” He glanced back at you and you nodded.

“I’ll be out in a minute.” He eased some, heading out of the room as your dad stood by you. 

“Try to peel him away when you need a break from us. He’ll probably need one too.”

“Of course. Between you, me and mom we’ll try to make this good for him.” 

“That’s my girl,” he said, kissing the top of your head. “And I will try to convince grandma and grandpa that he’s not your boyfriend. They got it stuck in their heads for some strange reason.”

You laughed nervously, your dad shaking his head. 

“Yeah, I don’t know either. So. Sledding?”

“Sure. I’ll go change,” you said, ducking across the hall, shutting the door behind yourself. You leaned against it, breathing slowly. “This is going to be harder than we thought.”

You knew Crew was enjoying himself when you heard his laugh echoing down the hall the next evening. You turned the corner with your camera out, Crew red in the face from laughter, half his face covered in green frosting. Your uncle’s were sporting red and white frosting in their hair, meanwhile your dad was nowhere in view but you could see his legs from behind the island.

“No, no, stop! I’m gonna tell mom and dad!” you heard him laugh. You jogged over and leaned across the island with arms outstretched, camera aimed downwards, snapping a picture. “Y/N! Don’t you dare!”

“Oh my god,” you laughed, a picture of him half pinned down, half covered in every color frosting in the house popping up on your screen. “Who thinks this should be dad’s new insta profile pic?”

“No!” he shouted as the rest of them shouted a resounding yes. “I’ll disown you!”

“Eh, you’re not that scary,” you said, quickly uploading it to the cloud and finding it on your phone. “Let’s do a poll, see what your fans that follow me think.”

“Mom!” shouted Jensen. “I’m being bullied!”

“I don’t hear any bullying!” she shouted back from the den, your mom and aunts cackling to each other when you dad huffed. 

“Y/N don’t you dare post that!” he said. You leaned over the counter, showing him the picture as your uncle continued to slap more frosting in his hair. 

“But you and Crew look cute!” You hit post, Crew immediately sitting up. 

“Wait. You didn’t say I was in the picture!” Without his help your dad was able to pop up, the pair of them staring you down. “Jensen.”

“I’m thinking the same thing, Crew.” They shared a particularly evil looking smile and you took off running for the front of the house, bypassing where your grandpa was playing a board game with some of your cousins. You ran behind him, Crew and your dad standing at the entrance of the room.

“Y/N, can I see your camera?” asked your grandpa. You assumed he wanted to see the picture, surprised when he snatched it out of your hands along with your phone. “Go on.”

“Grandpa!” Your jaw dropped. “You’re going to let your evil child smother me in frosting just like that?”

“Of course not. He’s going to give you a ten second head start.” You blinked, your little cousins giggling. “Eight. Seven.”

You took off past them, the two of them moving when you hit three seconds to go. “You’re cheating!”

“Who said we were going to follow the rules?” laughed your dad as you sprinted past the den, more than a few heads turned your way, watching you race around the family room. Your dad ducked into the kitchen, speaking for a moment with your uncles and grabbing a can of frosting, suddenly all four of them grinning. 

“Oh fuck.” You decided to take your chances and ran out the back door in your slippers, grateful they were like boots and you were able to spare your feet from the cold snow.

Until you felt a tackle from behind that was, rolling onto your back just in time to see Crew kneeling over you. A glob of pink frosting came out of nowhere, smeared all down your face. There wasn’t much you could do at that point except smush the frosting your attackers already wore, giggling when you opened your eyes and saw Crew with a blue mohawk for hair.

“You look fucking ridiculous,” you laughed.

“Tell that to your face,” chuckled your uncle, some of the snow nearby turning a mixture of colors.

“Hey. Hooligans,” said your grandpa, aiming your camera at you. The five of you managed to brush yourselves off, Crew picking you up in his arms with a laugh. “Bet you’re glad you came to this hot mess of a family gathering, aren’t you Crew?”

“Wouldn’t miss it for the world,” he chuckled, your grandpa taking a few more pictures before he was laughing to himself.

“We better go clean up,” said your dad, everyone carefully trudging inside and heading off for their bathrooms.

“You can let me down, Crew,” you said when you were alone.

“Oh the others might have given up but I caught you. I get to do as I please,” he whispered. You dared to swipe your thumb over his frosting covered lips and suck on it, Crew groaning. “Well now I need to shower first for that boner you gave me.”

“Kids?” said your mom, Crew quickly spinning with you. She had your camera and snapped a quick picture, looking very smug with herself. “Aw, don’t you two look adorable.”

“We’re always adorable,” said Crew, your mom laughing, opening the door to the bathroom for you. 

“Crew, you can use the bathroom upstairs. It’s going to take Y/N a minute to get that frosting out of her hair.” You froze when you saw yourself in the mirror, immediately starting to laugh. “Oh yeah, you all look like idiots. But we love you anyways. Now go wash up and leave your clothes outside the door. I’ll clean it up.”

“Thank you mom!” you said, Crew pecking a kiss on her cheek, causing her to shriek when it left behind a big glob..

“Thanks Dee!” he said, skipping off as she huffed. 

“You’re just as bad as him!” she shouted. She shook her head, setting your camera down in your room, returning as you kept on staring into the mirror. “Do you need help?” 

“I think I’m just going to get under the water in my clothes and peel them off,” you said, turning the shower on. She shut the door as you climbed under, pulling the curtain closed, watching the frosting fall off to the shower floor. It washed out easier than you thought, your mom collecting the wet items as you handed them around the curtain. “I think I’m good.”

“Shout if you need something,” she said, lightly laughing to herself. “You know you just made that boy feel like part of the family.”

“I know. Why do you think I did it?” you giggled.

“He’s lucky to have you.”

Twenty minutes later you were on the couch in the family room, your aunts and uncles having relocated to watch a movie with you. You did a double take when Crew came downstairs in nothing but a towel, damp hair sticking up at odd angles, quickly scurrying through the room and down the far hall where your rooms were.

“No wonder that show of yours is doing so well,” teased your aunt, your dad whacking the back of her head. “He’s a good looking boy!”

“What? You think I’ve been working out like crazy for fun?” he said, flexing his arms.

“People are not watching the show for your ugly mug,” she laughed, your dad pulling her into a headlock. “Mom!”

“Don’t call your brother ugly, honey and Jensen stop tormenting your sister,” said your grandma as she drank the last of her wine. 

“Oh no, she’s right,” said Crew, returning in a pair of dark gray sweatpants and a long sleeve white henley. “Jensen’s horrendous.”

“Exactly!” she said, holding up her hand for a high five. “Crew gets it!”

“Yeah, yeah, he gets it,” said your dad, pulling Crew down into the spot beside him, giving him a noogie but failing due to his wet, slippy hair. He sighed, slumping down with crossed arms. “Someone put on a movie before this awful family bullies me more.”

“You love it,” said one of your aunts as you got up to refill your glass of wine. Crew followed after, keeping his voice low as you found a glass for him.

“Sit next to me,” he murmured as you handed him the bottle. 

“Probably not wise. My dad is oblivious but the rest of the family is not,” you whispered. “Come to my room tonight?”

“Alright. I’ll be there, kid.” he said. He squeezed your hand behind the safety of the island, offering you a quick smile. 

“Love you,” you said, barely audible but his pinky latching onto yours told you he’d heard it. 

“Back at ya,” he whispered, letting your hand go, returning to the couch beside Jensen, your dad’s arm slinging over his shoulders.

You were warm when you woke up the next morning. Very, very warm. You curled your body and felt something firm yet soft beneath you. Blinking open your eyes, you spotted a sleeping Crew, his hair adorably messy as you used his bare chest as a pillow. Damn, he made a good heater. You were pretty sure the only blanket you had on was barely covering your ass and yet you still felt perfectly cozy.

You traced a line over his chest, Crew smiling as he woke, kissing you lazily, a thought nagging at the back of your mind. 

“Honey bun, time to get-” Your eyes flew open, your dad slack jawed in the doorway, staring at where you and Crew were very much naked in bed together. He slammed the door shut, the two of you quickly scrambling out of bed, Crew throwing his sweatpants back on while you did your best to tug a bra on and Crew’s henley.

You had your underwear pulled up when Crew gave you a quick glance, opening the door, your dad right there. “Jensen we-”

Your dad’s face was furrowed, an eerily quiet rage in his features you’d only seen from him on a TV screen. “Get out of this house. Leave your shit and get the fuck out of this house now.”

“Dad we-” 

“Get your ass out!” shouted your dad, voice booming so loud you were sure everyone heard. Crew flinched and opened his mouth, your dad’s eye twitching. “Now!”

Crew shrank back into himself, lowering his head and quickly going past. 

“Crew!” You tried to follow after but an iron clad grip grabbed your arm, your dad’s fury now aimed at you. “What the fuck was that!”

“He takes advantage of you and you’re pissed at me?” You yanked on your arm, his hand not budging.

“He’s my boyfriend! What is wrong with you!” you said, trying to go after Crew, hearing a car rev in the driveway. “Let go of me.”

“You were engaged less than four months ago and now he’s in your bed? He’s not your boyfriend. He’s taking advantage of you!” he yelled. 

“No he’s not! I don’t give a shit about Anthony! Crew is my boyfriend! He has been for nearly two months! You’re too thick headed to see me as anything but a little girl.”

“He’s using you for sex!” he shouted.

“I took his damn virginity! We love each other!”

“No you do not!” he bellowed, tightening his grip on your arm. “He’s manipulating you!”

“Just because you were by that crazy bitch doesn’t mean he’s doing that to me! You just ruined his fucking Christmas when he was so scared to come here. You’re not just his friend, asshole. You’re like a dad to him and you just destroyed your relationship with him forever all because you can’t get it in your head that I’m not a fucking child!”

He stared at you, his grip easing enough for you to slip out. You grabbed a pair of leggings from the floor and tugged them on, barely grabbing your phone before you were storming down the hall, ignoring the looks of your family. You were semi-grateful it seemed like the little kids were playing outside and hadn’t overheard.

“Y/N-” said your mom as you shoved on your boots and grabbed the keys to the SUV from the front table. “Y/N.”

“If he wants to apologize, he can. Otherwise I’m finding Crew and spending Christmas with him.” You took your coat off the hook and headed outside, in the car and down the road, trying to track down Crew before he got too far ahead of you.

He didn’t get far at all though. His car was parked at the far end of the driveway, hidden from sight, his head slumped over the steering wheel. You parked behind him and got out, Crew jumping when you knocked on his window.

“Honey,” you said, ripping the door open, pulling him out of the car into a hug. 

“He hates me so much. I figured it’d be awkward but I never thought he’d fucking hate me,” he said. You hugged him tight, Crew suddenly pushing you away. “Go back.”

“What?” you asked, Crew shaking in the cold. “Where’s your coat? And your fucking boots? Fuck Crew.” 

You walked him over to his passenger side door, pushing him inside, giving him your coat to at least try to cover himself with. You slid behind his wheel and blasted the heat, Crew sniffling quietly. “Crew. Why didn’t you get your coat or boots?”

“He scared me,” he said, closing his eyes. “He was so angry.”

“Crew, my dad would never hurt you. He isn’t violent.”

“Well some dads hurt their kids!” he shouted. His bottom lip wobbled as you narrowed your eyes.

“Who hurt you.” He shook his head, looking out the window. “Hey, I know people can be pieces of shit. My birth mother slapped me so hard I had a bruise on half my face for two weeks. My dad was so disgusted with himself for not stopping it he could barely look at me. Who fucking hurt you?”

Crew sighed, throwing his head back against the headrest. “I went to a foster home after my family was gone. The father was…” He shivered, letting you tuck the jacket around him. “He’d get loud and then he’d smack us around. Told me if I said a word about it he’d do worse to me. Jensen got so loud it felt like I was back in that house waiting to get hurt again.”

“Crew.” You ran a hand through his hair, wrapping him up in your arms. “Honey, I’m so sorry that happened to you.”

“You should go,” he said quietly, resting his head on your shoulder. “It’s Christmas eve. I don’t want to ruin it even more for you than I have.”

“You ruined nothing. He’s the one that acted like a neanderthal. I am spending Christmas with you and that’s that. Give me one second and then we’ll go get some breakfast.”

You jogged back to the SUV, finding a pair of your dad’s sneakers shoved away in a gym bag, your hoodie and some money in the glovebox before you hopped back into the car. You gave him back his shirt and put on the sweatshirt, Crew a little more at ease. “Where are we going?”

“We are going to go have our own Christmas and nothing’s going to get in our way.”

Four Hours Later

“I used to want to be a basketball player until I realized I wasn’t tall enough,” laughed Crew, munching on his box of chicken nuggets. “I thought I-”

You both turned to the knock at the motel door, three loud thumps drowning out the Christmas movie you had on in the background. “I’ll get it.”

“I’m not letting you get the door at a motel, Y/N,” said Crew, quickly hopping up to his feet. He peered through the eye hole, closing his eyes. “It’s Jensen.”

“He probably put a freaking tracking app on my phone or some shit. I’ll deal with him.” Crew went back to the bed, his back to the door as you opened it quickly, slipping outside.

“Hi,” he said, nose and cheeks pink from the cold. “Can I come inside?”

“How’d you find us?” you asked, crossing your arms. He nodded to Crew’s vehicle. 

“Texas plates on Crew’s kind of car. Figured you didn’t have that much cash on you. Only took a few hours of driving around to find you.” He forced a smile. “If I’m not allowed inside, can we talk in the car at least? It’s freezing out here.”

You sighed, following him to the SUV, climbing into the passenger seat. He was quiet, watching the motel door closely. “I know I probably lost him for good but tell me I didn’t screw up so badly I lost you too.”

“Of course you didn’t.” You rested your head against the cold glass. “I was cruel to you. I’m sorry.”

“Thank you. But it was deserved.”

“Dad,” you scoffed, turning in your seat to face him. “No you didn’t. I’m know better and I knew exactly what to say to make you feel awful and that was wrong of me.”

“I hurt Crew. I backed you into that position.” He paused a beat. “How long have you two been together?”

“Just after Halloween. Almost two months,” you said, crossing your arms. “But the attraction was there from the start.”

“I’ve sort of realized that I should have picked up on the fact that my two introverts were suddenly stuck on each other like glue. I thought you guys were just best friends.”

“He is my best friend. He’s also someone…dad, I love him. I know the difference between what I had with Anthony and what I get with Crew. This isn’t something childish and Crew never pressured me into anything. We flirted but it…I need him to be okay and I’ve never felt the way I do about him about anyone.” 

He closed his eyes, nodding to himself. “There’s so much I want to say to try and explain where my head was at. It doesn’t matter though. All that does is that I apologize to the two of you for being an asshole.”

“I think you owe it to Crew to try and explain. Because honestly, he’s scared of you, and you will not go back to the way it was between you two if you don’t open up too.” 

“I know.” He slowly opened his eyes. “He ran out of the house so fast he didn’t even take his shoes. I saw him flinch too. I didn’t like that.”

“Do you know…” you trailed off, your dad staring blankly. “He’s never told you about his time in foster care, has he.”

“He doesn’t like to talk about it. Why?” You crossed your arms, squeezing your eyes shut. “No. Do not tell me some asshole laid a hand on him and that’s why he took off so fast earlier.”

“You two guys need to talk and as much as I know you hate it, you have to be fucking open with him and I mean you drop down every single wall you have.” You nodded at the door. “And you need to do it without me there. I’ll be here until you’re done, okay?”

He put a hand on the door, a small soft appearing on his face. “I’m sorry I took out my anger at Abigail and that prick Anthony on you two. I just can’t stand the thought of you getting hurt and god, Abigail wanted to hurt you again. That feeling of being in the dark and feeling like a betrayal when I saw Crew with you made me-”

“Overreact. I know. That’s why I forgive you and I forgave you for snapping at me. But Crew doesn’t know you like I do, which is why you need to go fix this.” He opened the door, sliding outside. 

“Y/N.” He gave you a single nod. “Why do you forgive me so easily?”

“Because you’re my dad and you only do the things you do because you love me. It’s hard to stay mad at someone for loving you.” 

“Even when I hurt your boyfriend?”

“That’s between you and him now. Stop stalling and get in there. It won’t make this any easier.”

“Wish me luck,” he said, forcing a smile before he shut the door. You watched him go to the motel room and slowly push the door open, ducking inside.

You slumped down in your seat and sighed. “Please let them figure this out.”

One Hour Later

You blinked open your eyes when your dad knocked on your window. You opened the door, following him into the motel room where Crew stood, arms crossed and his eyebrows furrowed.

“Crew and I were unable to-”

“Jensen’s a dick,” snapped Crew, freezing you in place. Your dad glared at him, your heart sinking.

“You slept with my daughter you son of a bitch,” he growled.

“It wasn’t the first time either,” shot back Crew. Your dad got in his face as you flung yourself forward, pushing them apart. 

“Stop! What is wrong with you two!” you said, hands keeping them at bay. “I-” Crew’s lip curled up as he started to snort, your dad shrugging with a grin when you turned to him. “Oh you two fuckers! I hate both of you!”

“It was totally my idea,” said your dad. “We worked through the script for quite a while. Of course the rookie here had to go and break character early.”

“We worked out a whole stunt routine and everything,” said Crew. You flipped them both off, grabbing your coat from the bed and tugging it on. “Uh oh. I think we pissed her off.”

“She forgives easily,” chuckled your dad, throwing his arm over Crew’s shoulders, the pair of them smiling as you felt some of your rage simmer down. “We worked it out, honey bun.”

“How much did you work it out or did you two avoid the conversation by deciding to prank me?” you asked with a scowl. Your dad ruffled Crew’s hair gently. It was only then that you noticed both of their eyes were tinged red. “Were you crying?”

“Pft,” said your dad as Crew nodded. “Okay, yeah. Maybe there was a bit of that. But it’s only because we care about each other and no, not because of you. We had to remind ourselves we have our own relationship that exists outside of you as my kid and Crew as your boyfriend. Once we got past that, I’d say we’re in a different place.”

“A better place than we were even before,” said Crew, your dad rubbing his back. “But I did have to promise to minimize the chances of him walking in on us together.”

“We will be locking the door more diligently,” you said, waving towards the door. “Now can we get out of this reject of a Supernatural episode and go back to our nice Christmas themed cabin? Where I won’t catch a disease?”

“I think we can do that,” said your dad, pulling you into a hug with the two of them. “But going forward, please don’t hide things from me. I won’t press or say a word if Crew stays over or you stay over his place but I just want to know what’s going on in your lives. Both of you. And you don’t get to hog him anymore, Y/N. I still get to do shit with him.”

“We can share,” you said, hugging them both. “Crew. I apologize in advance for sort of letting it slip in a moment of anger to the whole family that you were a virgin before.”

“It’s fine. I’m sure Dee has squashed anything they would say,” he said, your dad humming.

“Oh yeah. That woman and I are going to have another word. I can’t believe she knew the whole time,” he groaned. “We’re supposed to keep secrets from you guys, not the other way around.”

“To be fair, we did sort of beg her not to because we were nervous of a certain stubborn headed man’s reaction,” you said. “And she was nervous too.”

“I know. I need to tone down the overprotectiveness,” he said walking towards the door. “I’ll see you two back at home soon?”

“Yeah, we’ll be right there,” you said. “Give us a second?”

Your dad headed out, Crew and you picking up your trash before heading back to the check in to return the key. “You didn’t just accept his apology to make it all go away, right?”

“No,” said Crew, interlacing your fingers together. “He was…he apologized for hurting me and told me I didn’t get to experience this yet but parents fuck up sometimes. And he told me no matter what happens between you and me, he’ll always be my friend and someone I can confide in. Yeah, it feels different than before but I think it’s stronger, not breakable if that makes sense.”

You squeezed his hand. “Good. You deserve to have those relationships, Crew.”

He kissed your temple, letting his lips linger. “Christmas always this eventful?”

“Uh no. Next year will be way more boring. I promise.”

One Year Later

“Hello, honey bun!” shouted your dad, bursting into your bedroom where you were wrapping up a last minute present for Crew. You jumped up, sighing when he clasped his hands behind his back, a devilish grin on his face.

“Whatever you and Crew are up to, the answer is no.” You cut off another piece of tape, your dad rocking back on his heels, watching you wrap. “You’re being a creeper, dad.”

“I’m just waiting for you to be done. I have strict instructions.” 

“Instructions to do what?” you groaned, fighting with the roll of tape. He came over to help, holding down the wrapping while you tore off a new piece. “Thanks.”

“That’s a pretty picture of you guys at the premiere,” he said, nodding to the frame. “I still can’t believe he convinced you to come.”

“He did sort of throw that whole I made him come to Christmas last year thing in my face. It wasn’t that bad honestly. I got to meet Jack Quaid actually.”

“Oh you met Jack? How was that?” he asked as you grabbed some ribbon, wrapping it around the box.

“He’s super nice. I think him and Crew didn’t work together much on the movie but they hung out at the after party, talked video games for like an hour I swear,” you said, finishing with your wrapping. “Okay. All set.”

“Perfect,” he said, helping you to your feet. He immediately picked you up and threw you over his shoulder, leaving the present behind on the floor. 

“Uh. I have questions,” you said, poking him in the back.

“Oh, you’ve been kidnapped at request of your boyfriend. These things happen,” he said, carrying you downstairs of the house in Colorado.

“Uh,” you said when he came to a stop and set you down. He pulled an eye mask out of his back pocket, thrusting it forward with a grin. “Come on, a blindfold?”

“I’m just the hired henchman in this scenario.” You groaned, pulling it down over your eyes. You grabbed his shoulder when he picked up your foot, the blindfold immediately coming off. “Hey! You’re supposed to keep that on.”

“Let me put on my own boots before you kill us both,” you said. He held up his hands, telling you to put on your coat too before the blindfold went back on. You knew when he pulled you outside, the air crisp and chilly.

“Have fun,” he chuckled before you heard the door shut behind you. 

“Crew?” you asked, hearing the crunch of a boot in the snow. It was quiet, everything muffled by the snow on the ground. “Crew?”

“I’m right here, kid,” he murmured from close by. “I’m going to take off the blindfold, alright?”

He turned your body to face the yard, cold fingertips brushing over your cheeks. He pushed the face mask up and off, your eyes adjusting to the lights before you. 

“Did, did you decorate the gazebo with lights?” you asked, turning your head up, Crew shrugging.

“It’s more of a hot chocolate and whiskey hideaway,” he said, holding up a thermos. “Want some?”

“Sure. What’s with the kidnapping plot?” you asked, eyeing him up and down. “You’re up to something.”

“Yup,” he laughed. “I bet you’re dying to know what.” He booped your nose. “Only time will tell.”

You narrowed your eyes, smiling as you headed across the yard to the gazebo. You gratefully took a cap full of hot chocolate, a splash of whiskey thrown in, the heat warming your hands. “Foxe…what are you up to?”

“I’ll give you a hint.” He sipped from his mug, pulling you to lay your legs across his lap. “Look up.”

Your gaze went to the strand of mistletoe strung above. He kissed you the second you glanced back down, his mouth warm and chocolaty. 

“You’re trying to throw me off,” you murmured against his lips.

“Is it working?” he grinned.

“Not a chance,” you said, noticing the house was dark. “Why are all the lights off?”

“Your parents are taking your siblings out to dinner. We have the house to ourselves for the next few hours.”

“Oh I like that surprise,” you giggled. 

“I figured you would,” he said as you heard a car pull away. “Y/N. Look at the house again.”

He turned your chin, gaze finding the one single strand of lights that was now turned on. A single strand written out into a few simple words.

“I love you, kid,” you read, Crew pulling you into a hug. “Why are you so cute?”

“It’s my specialty,” he teased, smushing his cheek against yours. “I needed your parents’s help to get it all readable. Plus I wasn’t quite finished but they had to go to make their reservation and your dad volunteered to keep you busy for a few more minutes.”

“Thank you so much. I love you too,” you said, pecking a kiss on his lips. “For a second I thought you were going to ask me to marry you.”

“No, no,” he chuckled. “I’m not going to ask you to marry me through Christmas lights.”

“I wouldn’t mind-” you said, Crew knocking the thermos over, spilling the hot liquid all across the floor boards. “Well.”

“This is why this shit only happens in movies,” he sighed. “It’s getting cold out anyways. We can warm up with cocoa, enjoy that fireplace in our room…”

“You read my mind,” you said, helping him clean up what you could before heading inside. Five minutes later you were in your bedroom, his present tucked away with the others, Crew laying out a blanket in front of the roaring fireplace. 

“Could you grab me another blanket?” Crew asked, nodding to the one at the end of the bed. You hummed, picking it up, something small falling out of it, bouncing on the floor. You bent down to pick it up, eyes flickering to Crew when you saw him kneel up, smirking up at you. You stared at the box again, his grin growing even wider. “So. I know you’ve answered before but I have to ask one last time and this is a big one. Did I catch you, kid?”

“Yeah. You did, Crew,” you said as he pushed the box open, your eyes going wide. “Uh. Question. This is meant to be an engagement ring, right?”

He immediately hopped up, jaw dropping when he looked inside to find a pair of earrings.

“Oh fuck. Your dad put the wrong box in here earlier,” he said, pausing, staring at you in horror. “He was going to give Dee the earrings at dinner tonight. I fucked it up. How did I fuck this up? I’ve been planning this for months and I fucked it up!”

“Honey, relax,” you said, setting the earrings down and wrapping your arms around him. “You can give me the ring later. My answer is still yes. You’re all that I need.”

He tucked your hair behind your ear, shaking his head with a laugh. “You sure you want to marry this idiot?”

“Oh yeah. He’s been mine for a long, long time. Besides, we can blame this on my dad.”

“Totally his fault,” he chuckled, holding you tight. “I love you so much.”

“You too, Crew. Now let’s get to celebrating. I’m still cold.”

“And I know just how to warm you up.”

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#jensen x daughter!reader #Jensen x daughter!reader series #Jensen Ackles #daughter!reader #dean x reader x sam

[hologramcowboy]

One thing about the prequel drama between Jared and Jensen that I’ve always wondered is did Jensen tell Jared he was making ‘something’ related to SPN and just not tell him what or that it was in the early stages of production, or did Jensen not mention that he was doing something with their TV show at all?

To my mind they’re different things.

To not say anything over such a long period of planning it is clearly disrespectful and hurtful since it was their joint project for 15 years - the other means he had go ahead from Jared to do something, so the actual details weren’t as crucial to tell him about maybe until they were signed off.

Has either said anything to either effect do you know?

I love your perspective but the fact still remains that the project was in development for over a year and Robbie, for example, knew everything about it while Jared did not. Also, Jensen full on lied about not having his phone on set, as demonstrated by the countless set pictures that emerged of him on the TB set next to his phone. Phones are taken away while an actor is shooting, during breaks he has ample time to do whatever he wants on his phone. This happens on every set, you do leave the phone in a designed area but once you are on break, you can retrieve and use it.

Also, from a legal standpoint Jared also represents the SPN brand and so he could potentially sue Jensen for not keeping him in the loop and moving forward on a project without first striking a deal. If I am not mistaken, please feel free to correct me on this, Jensen had informed Jared he was considering creating something and would give him more details once they were available except this never happened. Just to be clear, details are hashed out way before the paper is dry. To go into production Jensen had to sign, so he had aaaaaample time and opportunities to inform Jared but instead kept quiet until the news was conveniently leaked which, by the way, may have been a part of his strategy to avoid certain repercussions. Even so, from a legal stand point Jared can still sue. However, he is clearly choosing to maintain harmony as he is aware that they both could stand to benefit from SPN in the future and by also working together on other projects so he doesn't want to ruin the credibility of their public image which is what a lawsuit would indeed cause. I do completely understand why he chose going for harmony instead. He is thinking of the bigger picture and, unlike Jensen, he is extremely secure in his ability to reach higher successes so he doesn't feel the need to bank on TW.

#jensen critical

[jawritter]

Storm

Chapter 23

Summary: Raised in a cult, married at a young age, and divorced after catching your husband cheating on you with your neighbor, you decide to leave behind everything you know after you lose everything you love, and start over again. Who knew one little stop at a gas station would change everything?

Pairing: Jensen Ackles x Reader

Chapter Warnings:  None  

Word Count: 1547

A/N: This fic is completely unbeta’d. It was at one time posted on Wattpad. In fact, it’s the first fic I’ve ever written. Which is why I wanted to correct and revisit it now that I’ve got more experience under my belt, and I’ve grown as a writer. Please do not copy my work! Feedback is golden! Hope you all enjoy this one!

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When Jensen said that the schedule was crazy he wasn’t lying. Unfortunately he wasn’t lying about the 5 AM wake up call either, which for the both of you seemed to have come all too early. Then it was the hustle of getting dressed, having room service bring up breakfast in time. The in and out of handlers bringing schedules and giving directions of what the day was going to look like. It seemed like as soon as you opened your eyes, it all started rolling, and there was no sign it was going to stop.

By the time you both staggered out of the room, and met Jared and Gen in the hallway, you felt like your head was spinning, and you just couldn’t understand how Jared and Jensen seemed to be keeping up as you were all four bustled down the narrow hallway towards the green room they had set up for the cast and their families.

“How ya holding up?” Gen asks as a handler jumped right up as soon as you came through the green room, ready to give the boys the instructions and things for the breakfast panel they were about to walk into.

“I don’t know, ask me when my head stops spinning,” you tell her, and she threw her head back and laughed.

“It gets better,” she promised, passing you a cup of much needed coffee. “You fall into a rhythm, and then it’s just rolling with it.”

You took a look around the room at the mostly familiar faces. All of them looked tired, but otherwise relaxed. Apparently Jensen, Jared, and Misha had missed the concert the night before, but it wasn’t a requirement that they attend that anyway, but the ones that did attend seemed extra drained.

This was the part you wished the fans could see. The sacrifice these people made so that they could enjoy one of these cons. It wasn’t easy money exactly, it was work.

“Okay, Jared, Jensen, we’re ready for you guys on the stage,” a young girl said from the corner of the room holding an ear piece as if someone was talking into it to her.

Jensen quickly leaned down and captured your lips in his. “You okay?” he asked as the group of you seemed to move in a collective whole towards the stage area they had set up.

“I’m fine,” you tell him. He had enough to worry about, he didn’t need to worry about you.

“It’s this thirty minute panel, then we go straight to Autographs, and then the first round of photo ops,” he informed you, “but we get a few brakes in between. It’s not that bad. You will see.”

You gave him what you thought was your best reassuring smile, and Gen grabbed your wrist as the group started to break off. “Come on, we’re going to watch from the side over here,” she said, leading you to a group of chairs they had sat along the wall at the far side of the stage where most people could not see you.

“There’s only one day of this one,” Gen said as you both took your seats and the crowd erupted and Jared and Jensen took the stage, both now with a coffee in their hand. “Then we can fly back to Austin for a little while and just enjoy our boys not having to work.”

“You know, I don’t think Jensen and I have had a ‘normal’ time off where it’s just the two of us and no drama,” you told her, and she burst into laughter and Jensen and Jared started to heckle each other over Jared’s unreal dedication to winter head gear.

“Oh, I didn’t say there would be any drama,” she said, her eyes training to the stage as the questions started to flow. “Jensen and Jared tend to create that for themselves with no one else in the room.”

“You’re not wrong,” you tell her. “Have you ever watched Jensen try to fry an egg without burning his hand at least once?

The rest of the day passed without a hitch. The panels were by far your favorite thing to watch. It was fun to see Jensen and Jared interact with their fans and answer their questions. You had never really seen them interact with fans on this level before. Normally, it was just a quick, “omg I love you can I get a picture with you?” In this whole atmosphere they were in some sort of constant interaction with fans in one instance or another.

You were even able to see it up close when you were sitting next to him while he was signing autographs. He was so attentive, and he cared so much about his fans, it was sweet to see how much they meant to him. You could see at that point, why he still did this. These people, these virtual strangers. They were a part of them more than you could understand before. They really were a family.

More than that, everyone you seemed to interact with welcomed you. None of them had any angry or mean things to say to you like you feared, even though they were curious. That alone was a relief.

By the time the last panel of the day came to a close, you were all more than a little exhausted, but that didn’t stop you from gathering up with the cast and crew for one more dinner together before everyone broke for hiatus, and no one would see each other for a few weeks, save Jensen and Jared.

The laughter and jokes that spread around the table as drinks and food were passed around, look honestly like something you saw in a sitcom. It wasn’t something you had ever seen before. Happiness, friendship, laughter, they were all still so foreign in a lot of ways, and yet familiar. This is what you would have pictured a real, happy, family to look like. Not some headship and leadership that held dominion over the table while the family ate with sad faces and stoned silence as if in fear to utter even a word. You could see more than ever now, just how wrong that your life had been led, and just how thankful you were to be away from it.

“So,” Kim asked, tossing a bread roll back down onto her plate and taking a generous swig from her wine glass. “What are you two crazy kids going to do now aside from planning a wedding?”

“Sleep for about six days solid,” Jensen interjected, “or at least that’s my plan as soon as I get back to Austin.”

“Honestly, that doesn’t sound like a bad plan,” Jared agreed, yawning widely as he looked at his watch. “Good God it’s only 9 PM! When did we die man.”

“Think I was about 36,” Jensen said, talking around a mouth full of food and earning a giggle from half of the table.

“No seriously,” Kim said, looking at the two of you sternly. “What are your plans? You gonna have kids? Are you going to stay in Austin? What does the future look like goal wise right now for you?”

You froze mid chew, and Jensen choked on his drink as the whole table looked at the two of you, hanging on the edge of their seats waiting for your answers.

“Uh...I uh…” Jensen stuttered, but thankfully you had the presents of mind to start talking, because he looked like he was about to absolutely panic.

“Honestly, we haven’t talked about any kids, and I assume we’re going to stay in Austin unless Jensen knows something I don’t. We’re honestly just taking things one day at a time,” you answer, and everyone returns to normal chatter. Everyone except Jensen, who was suddenly very interested in his meal and had become very quiet.

“Well there’s no rush,” Kim assured you. “Take things as slow as you need too.”

Your eyes drifted to Jensen, who was still staring as the food he was shoving around his plate with a fork, refusing to meet your gaze, and you wondered if you said something wrong, or if he was just tired and ready to go back to the hotel room, but you weren’t going to probe it out of him. If he wanted to tell you, then he’d tell you.

“Come on honey,” Jensen said suddenly, standing up from the table and grabbing your hand in his. “I’m ready to crash, we got an early flight home tomorrow.”

You barely had time to tell everyone goodbye before Jensen was pulling you from the restaurant, and when you were finally out of the establishment, you turned to Jensen as you both walked down the street towards the hotel room.

“Is everything okay? Did I say something wrong back there that made you want to leave early?” you asked him, and he looked down at you with a soft gaze that momentarily made you forget what it was you were worrying over. He was good at that.

“No, everything’s fine. I’m fine. Just tired.”

You hoped to God that was the truth, but you couldn’t help but feel like Jensen was hiding something from you.

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[reddieandwaiting87]

Top 5 times Misha was so ugly you threw up in your mouth a little?

Top 5 times Misha was a disgusting attention whore?

Top 5 times Misha made a complete idiot out of himself?

Lol my anon I MIGHT start to think you don't like eye bags. XD

I'm just doing these all on one list cause it's all pretty much the same thing. And believe me or not but as much as I don't like the man. Unlike Jared haters I don't stake his every more or his awful twitter. In fact if I didn't see or hear about him again I would be over the moon.

Anyway so with these asks together here is my list of Misha being an ugly/attention seeking/idiot.

1.) All 3 is When he makes *jokes* about very unfunny things. Like his slave *jokes*, making fun of the riots in the UK. Etc etc. The fact he actual thinks its ok in the first place shows how dumb he is and then he never says sorry. The few times he is called out. He just deletes and moves on but never learns cause another dumb tweet is just around the corner. It's even more annoying because his fans will defend him no matter what he says meanwhile they will try and cancel Jared for daring to bitch about bad service online.

2.) He is Gross. Trying to get young fans or people who should know better to do *questionable* things online for his *charity*. From taking pictures of themselves to wasting food. I think he just enjoys seeing what he can get idiots to do. Such a power trip.

3.) Gross/attention seeking. Anytime he tags Jensen in a tweet. One of the worst being when he posted that photoshopped picture of a young naked Jensen. Can you imagine if he did this to a female co star? But of course it's just Misha being Misha.

4.) Gross. The fact he caused so much drama in the fandom and got away with it or didn't try to stop it. While yes Misha can't control his fans but not once did he ever tell them to stop. When they picked on other cast members or show runners. How easy he could have tweeted for them to knock it off or enjoy your fake ship but leave RP out of it. And not once did he get pulled (being friends with Singer once again saves his talentless ass.) Or reprimanded for his dumb comments or working up his fans.

5.) Gross/idiot. How he stopped caring about the show and Castiel. Even as a non Castiel fan after S7. Even I think Castiel's ending was so disgusting and a lame ending for a once interesting character. But once Misha knew he was *safe* cause of his friendship with Singer. He just stopped trying. His acting got worse and worse (Lucifer!Castiel anyone? Other world nazi Castiel anyone?) And he just wanted to be there even when it didn't make sense. And I don't know if it's true Misha asked for THAT scene in 15x18 or if he had any say in it. But the fact he was happy enough for his character to be all about Dean (even if you ship Destiel or not.) Just shows he didn't care. Pleasing Destiehellers and being able to milk Destiel was more important to him then giving Castiel a good ending. Which makes me feel sorry for the real Castiel fans out there if there are any left.

Just a Horrible person inside and out. Who let alittle bit of fame and attention go completely to his head.

Thanx anon. Hope you don't mind me putting a bunch together but this was easier for me lol.

#ask game #games #anti-Misha

[mlobsters]

supernatural s10e12 about a boy (w. adam glass)

oh i just noticed the episode title. is this where we get de-aged dean? lol not surprisingly i've seen that in fic a decent amount :P i didn't realize he looked so young in this episode

SAM Caught a case. Apparently something is taking people. And leaving their clothes. DEAN Hmm. About time this gig got an “R” rating.

meta snark?

SAM Look, I know you’re worried about the mark. DEAN Yes, Sam. I am. Between what I did to Charlie— SAM Charlie forgave you. How about you forgive yourself? DEAN Because I’m not exactly batting 1,000 here, you know? SAM Yeah, I do know that, but staying locked up in here, sitting on the ground reading the same lore books over and over and over again, it’s not helping you. You need to get back in the game for your own good. You can beat this, Dean. DEAN Do you really believe that? SAM Yeah, you’re damn right I believe that.

the words are there but i am not feeling it

DEAN You know, you also believed in the Easter bunny till you were 12. SAM No I didn’t. [SAM pauses] Look, I was 11. DEAN And a half. SAM And a half. Right.

little cute sibling bickering to help the medicine go down

it's hard for me take their conversations seriously when we swing into some goofy fucking music and plot shenanigans. i don't think it's just the edible talking that i've just been too aware they're Acting because the tone of their personal drama and the World Outside they have to deal with are clashing so hard.

and now we get this kid again for dean who is tiny but at least he's playing a more believable age (i looked it up after his appearance in s9e7, this episode he's supposed to be 14, 16 in s9e7)

snippet from my recap this show likes to swing from one extreme to another with the people playing the kids. first 18 year old dean here (who looks like he's in his 20s) with ~supposed~ 14 year old sam and now this kiddo playing dean is 18 but looks quite young and is.. 5'6.5". was looking at his imdb pictures at from about a boy (so he's next to sam) lol

dear lord i paused the episode because i wanted to look the young tina actress up because she reminds me of lara jean's friend in 'to all the boys i've loved before' (one of my favorite romcoms, fake dating hello and it's so sweet, good rewatch) and got completely sidetracked and decided to ramble about all that shit above

reminds me of her for good reason lol. but also she was fray on the magicians?? sad to say i completely forgot about that part. i've rewatched s1-2 a bunch more than s3. she was also in s11 of the xfiles of the re... revival? which i watched and have zero memory of other than that awful wig application they did on my beloved gillian

to all the boys i've loved before (2018) madeleine arthur as christine / the magicians s3e12 the fillorian candidate - madeleine arthur as fray

god, nic. stfu.

yes please show us sam getting unhinged over dean being missing

i feel for this little man having to act like jensen!dean. i can hear it! but it's still weird. habits i can sort of roll with due to affection for our regular dean are harder to swallow (the noisily eating kidnapper provided cake thing) with someone i don't have that builtin

TINA You know, before…I thought you were just another drunk. DEAN I prefer functional alcoholic.

ha ha. it's not funny because it's true

padalecki is doing a good job selling him being freaked out. damnit they used a sound that's totally a sound also used in x-files score arrrrgh

spn s10e12 / the x-files: fight the future (1998)

(because i know that movie so well i knew this sound was at least in scenes at the jiffy pop poppers and the big ship at the end)

flustered and flabbergasted sam is chef's kiss

the look down to his crotch made me laugh, gotta admit

SAM What? Don’t—Wait, wait, wait. Wait a second. Talk to me. DEAN Really, Sam? Now? I got no grass on the infield, and a girls’s gonna die. Sorry if I’m not in a chatty mood. Look, you wanted me back in the game. I’m back in the damn game.

truly living for the variety of faces padalecki is giving us

it's like watching a fic come to life. de-aged teenager dick problems and all

DEAN My voice is weird, and I’ve got like nine zits, and I have zero control over this. [DEAN gesturing to his crotch area.] I mean, it’s up. It’s down. It’s up for no reason. SAM That’s enough. Yeah, thanks. Uh [Clears throat] that's just called puberty.

crotch mentions: 2

SAM Wait a second. Are you saying you want to stay like this? DEAN No! No, but…if it’s between being a psycho rage monster/borderline demon or a teenager, well… SAM Really? DEAN Look, I’m not a fan, either, but…Sam, this is problem solved. And I’m still me. I can still hunt. I’m just, you know…dewier. SAM Okay, look, y-you have a point, kind of, but, dude— DEAN I know.

so i'm curious what, if anything, they had in mind there. but me, being the sap i am, was like. then sammy might die first 😭 (obviously not but still, that's where my brain was goin). could be taken in a variety of directions.

SAM Dean, I’m way too big to fit in that. DEAN First time you ever had to say that, huh?

crotch mentions: 3

SAM Big talk coming from the dude wearing underoos.

burn. and crotch mentions: 4

(god as ever, the musical score is just random mediocre hodgepodge. it makes me sad)

insert tiktok "i just a baby"

s10e12 / downton abbey s3e5 - lesley nicol as mrs patmore

omg mrs patmore can't get out of the kitchen 😭 woof. this keeps getting campier by the second.

did dean just burn the hex bag they need to turn the girl back? okay well i can see the appeal of starting over as it were, but looking that young and having no identity is a lot.

workin the beautiful lighting

DEAN Look, I know what you’re going to say, okay? But you were in deep. SAM I know. I know. You saved me, and you saved Tina, and…pulled a Dean Winchester. Thank you. DEAN Anytime. SAM Look, man… do I wish the mark was gone? Yes, of course. Absolutely, I do, but… I wanted you back. And now here you are, and you didn’t Hulk out, so… [SAM shrugs] I’ll take the win. As for the rest of it—the mark, everything else…we’ll figure it out. We always do. DEAN Damn right. Let’s get out here.

very sweet. dean being awkward about being thanked as expected

seriously truly unreasonably pleased at dean embracing the taylor swift song. i'm not a Fan or anything but i do like some of her music a lot. and shake it off is a fuckin banger and has one of the cutest videos ever. you can like all kinds of music! i don't care what motivated that decision behind the scenes, i'm tucking it in my pocket with a big fat smile

(after i watch her music video again for the hundredth time ;)

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[cooloddball]

Jared reminds me of that ex who goes on on a social media rant after a breakup. They will retweet tweets that are too on the nose and things like fuck goes or men ain't shit. Then, once people start asking whether they are okay, they start saying they were just emotional and heartbroken

I was waiting to answer this later but you are onto something love. I mean WTAF??? The audacity of this man.The fact that he had to tweet twice and tag Jensen so Jensen could reply to him. WTAF?!!!!

WHAT??!! JFC!!! I'm- what?

Jensen's reply is literally saying I know you are throwing tantrums because we aren't close anymore. But we cool, just take the L and leave me alone.

Source

#jarpad take the L and go #and please leave jensen out of your drama #WTFAF?? #somebody send help #j2 fallout theory

[mysticaldeanvoidhorse]

A Supernatural Love

Chapter Thirteen: A Vacation

Summary:  Y/N, a nurse working towards medical school living with her roommate and best friend Genevieve Cortese, meets Jensen Ackles while visiting the set of Supernatural one day.  Is this chance encounter a coincidence or fate?  And if it is fate, do they have what it takes to make it through separations and hardships?

Slow(ish) burn, some angst, some alluding to sexy times, fluff

Pairings: Jensen x Reader

Warnings: Bad writing, Language

Word Count: 1907

No hate to any of the real people in this story, it is purely fiction and for enjoyment! No images are mine

First fic I wrote, please be kind but open to feedback, both positive and negative!

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  The flight went quick and you were thankful that the hat and sunglasses were enough disguise for the four of you.  No one knew you, not really. You had been lucky enough to avoid the press whenever you were with the three of them.  Gen was the rising star being a star on Supernatural and dating Jared which got out quickly, but they weren’t hiding it.

“Almost home”,  Jensen said to no one in particular.  You were excited to see his home and where he grew up.  You wanted to know everything about him but you were nervous that you would be meeting his parents in ten minutes.  He must have sensed your tension.  “You have no reason to be nervous, my family is going to love you.”  You smiled at him but you still couldn’t help but feel like you didn’t deserve this wonderful man in front of you.

Cliff pulled into Jensen’s driveway and everyone piled out.  Jared grabbed Jensen’s luggage and yours so you were free to make sure that Jensen wouldn't trip on the gravel.  The last thing he needed was another injury.  He walked in calling out, “Mama, your favorite child is home!”  To which multiple voices were heard.

“Oh my goodness!  I am so happy you are home Jensen!  Oh and Jared too!”  She hugged them both, commenting on Jensen’s injuries and looking him over until he told her he was fine.  She wasn’t convinced but she turned to you and Gen.  “You must be Y/N and Gen!  I have heard so much about you and it is so good to finally meet you!  Please call me Mama”  She proceeded to hug each of you.

“Thank you so much for letting us stay here, it is so good to meet you” You told her, surprising yourself with the confidence in your voice.  

“Oh my goodness, as if you would stay anywhere else!  I am just sad that Jared and Gen are leaving so soon”  She gave a sad look to the two of them.

“We would love to stay but my mom wouldn’t hear the end of it if I didn’t get home as soon as possible.”

“Well I can’t fault her for that, but please come in for something to drink before you go!”  She ushered everyone in and went to the kitchen to pour some lemonade. 

“Thank you”  Gen said when she was handed her glass and everyone else ushered the same sentiment when their turn came.

“Jensen, your sister is in town this weekend and she is in town picking up a few things.  She was so excited to hear you finally brought your girl!  We all were”  She said the last sentence to you and smiled.

“I am glad I finally was able to have a chance to bring her too. She is one special girl.  She is the one that made sure I made such a good recovery.  She had to put up with all my crap and she didn’t flinch once”

“Sounds like a keeper then”  His mom said.

“I didn’t do much really.  I wasn’t allowed to be his nurse but I did whatever I could, including smuggling anything that wasn’t jello”  You said.

“That stuff is the worst, I never want to eat that again”,  He scrunched up his nose.

“My son, ever the drama queen”

“That’s what I keep saying”  You giggled and so did his mom.

“Hey now, no fair teaming up against me!”  Jensen faked being hurt.

“Get used to it man, I am preparing for the same situation when I bring Gen home.” 

“If you find any tips let me know”,  Jensen said, trying to get off the couch.

“I will”  They hugged and everyone said their goodbyes. Cliff drove them to Jared’s parent’s house promising he would come back in the morning.

“Can I help with anything?”  You offered.

“Very kind dear but no, Mackenzie will be home soon enough.  If you could just make sure Jensen gets up the stairs okay I would really appreciate that”  She said with concern in her voice.

“Of course, I keep trying to do my best to make sure nothing else happens to him”

“I believe that, it is easy to see you both care for each other very much”  His mom said in a low voice for only the two of you to hear.

“What are you whispering about?  Me, I assume”,  Jensen walked over.

“Not everything is about you dear.  Now go upstairs and show her to your room.  With everyone home, you will just have to share a room but I am sure that won’t be a problem”  His mom gave him a plotting smile and just hugged him and walked to the kitchen again.

You walked up the stairs in silence trying to make sure he made it okay while carrying two suitcases.  He led you to the room and when he closed the door he said, “I can always sleep on the couch if this makes you uncomfortable.”

“Then you will be uncomfortable and we are not about to do that to you.  Besides, I don't mind sharing a bed.  We have before”  You reminded him of the one night in the hospital.

“That was different, I was dying and injured”

“You are still injured”  You retorted, turning to put the suitcases at the end of the bed.  He put his crutches down and grabbed a hold of you.

“I just want to make sure you feel as comfortable and at home as possible.  You just tell me what you need from me and I will do everything I can to make it happen”  He looked you in the eyes and with such intensity it took you by surprise.

“Jensen, I know you would do anything for me and I would do anything for you.  I already feel really good here and honestly I think not being with you would make it worse”  You continued to look into each other's eyes and with your revelation he smiled slightly and started to lean down to kiss you.  You closed your eyes and right before your lips touched there was a knock on the door.

“Hey Asshole, you coming down for dinner?”  said a woman’s voice.  Jensen looked disappointed but turned to the door and opened it.

“Missed you too, sis”  They gave each other a hug and talked for a minute before she looked around him and saw you.  “You must be Y/N!  I’m Mackenzie, the best of the Ackles.”  Jensen scoffed”

“She likes to exaggerate.”

“So do you apparently, you said she was smart, but she is with you”

“Hey, be nice.  I want her to stick around”

“It’s okay, really I am only with him because I felt sorry for him” You said while putting your arm around his waist.

“I think we are going to get along well”  She smiled and walked down the stairs.

“Just ignore her, I usually do”,  He said to you.

“She seems like she really cares about you even though she teases you.”

“She does but her first instinct is to be a jerk.  You get used to it though.  Come on the sooner we have dinner the sooner we can finish what we started”  He whispered in your ear.  That did sound good to you.

     Dinner went well, with you meeting his dad and brother.  They were really nice but his mom was a saint.  You knew you would get along really well with his family.  You helped clear the dishes while Mackenzie got some dessert ready.  The boys stayed seated and out of the way.

“Jensen tells me you want to become a doctor?”  His mom said to you,

“I do, that is my dream but for now I am studying and working as a nurse.”

“Seems pretty intense, but Jensen was right, you do seem smart and motivated.”  Mackenzie offered.

“Thanks, I don’t know about that but I am working hard to see if I can make my dream come true.  Jay has been really supportive, and I don’t know if I can do it without him”

“He has always been like that.  A rock for everyone”  His mom said.  “He gives his all in whatever he does.”

“Including accidents apparently”,  Mackenzie said.

“Mackenzie!  We are still trying to get over this. Now is not the time for jokes.”

“Now is the perfect time, it helps everyone be less serious and put it in perspective.  He is doing okay and we need to be thankful and not dwelling so much on the negative.  It isn’t healthy either, Ma”  She then brought out the dishes and serving tray.

“She means well but she is rough around the edges. Please don’t take her too seriously”  Mama said to you.

“She seems sweet regardless of everything”  You smiled at her to which she returned.

“So do you.  Jensen has wonderful taste and you are no exception.  It is clear that you love each other very much”  This caught you off guard and you didn’t know what to say.  “Oh honey, don’t worry about it.  I am a mother, I notice things.  We just met you but we like you very much, so stop worrying about whatever is holding you back.  Now, let’s join everyone shall we?”  You followed her into the dining room thinking about what she said.  

How was meeting the family?  - G

It was good, everyone seems really great and I love Mama - Y/N

I told you that you had nothing to worry about!  See you tomorrow - G

You put your phone down on the bathroom sink and brushed your teeth. You then slipped into one of Jensen’s old T-shirts because of course you forgot to bring pajamas.  You really liked his shirt so it was a blessing in disguise.  When you walked out you saw Jensen sitting up already in bed.

“Wow, you look really good in my shirt.  Something to remember”

“Glad you like it, I love this shirt so it works out for me too”  You gave him a smile then got under the covers.  You were glad you put on a pair of his boxers too because you didn’t want to seem like you wanted to jump his bones, even if you did…

“You have enough room?”  He asked you as he turned off the light and you made yourself comfortable.  “I don’t want to be too close.”

“Actually, I wouldn’t mind if you were a little closer.  I like having you next to me”  he turned to you.

“Believe me, I want to do a lot of things but I made you a promise I wouldn’t do anything you weren’t comfortable with and I intend to keep it.”

“That means so much, Jay, but I am more than happy to be here with you, in your house, learning all about you.  I am also more than happy to be in here, sharing this bed with you.  The only thing that can make this better is if you put your arm around me.”  Where the confidence came from you had no idea.  He just looked at you for a moment and you thought that you said the wrong thing.

“I would love to cuddle with you, come here”  He put his arm around you and held your hand with his free one.  Yep, you could definitely get used to this.

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[wonderfulworldofwinchester]

What’s Becca Reading?

Weekly Fic Recs for the weeks of 3-/15-4-5

Thanks so much for being patient! After being  out of town and then recovering from some health issues, I am back! 

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Series

------Keeping Up With The Winchesters by @tvdspngirl314

Summary : To take a break from everything, you move into Lawrence, where you meet the Winchester family and work for their bakery. Can you survive with three men constantly hitting on you?

Ship : Dean x reader, Sam x reader, John x reader (platonic)

Warnings : crack, angst (eventual), fluff

Characters : you, Dean, Sam, John, Mary, mentions of few ocs

------Save Yourself by @weasleywinchester

Series Summary: “I promise.” Those two words would trap you in a life you never wanted. You are an artist, a hunter, a Winchester. And yet the pain in Dean’s eyes as demanded you live the life he wants you live, you couldn’t say no. You met the Winchesters by chance, found out they were real people. And you figured it was a once in a life time thing, but then Dean called you, and so did a new job. Both leading to the life you wanted, a family that didn’t begin or end in blood and a once in a life time love. And he said leave it and him behind, forget. But you can’t.

Warnings: None as of now! Eventual Smut, angst (??) Idk I’m new, I don’t know how to do these tumblr writing things!

-----What She Doesn’t Know by @tvdspngirl314

Summary : With his marriage life on rocks, when his ex girlfriend who also happens to be his wife’s sister shows up into his life back again. Will Dean resist her or give into his desires.

Ship : Dean x Lydia (ofc), (eventual) Dean x reader

Warnings : 18+, angst, smut, cheating, a little bit of fluff, relationship drama

---Mechanic and Mistletoe by @deanwanddamons

Summary: Y/N, an ER nurse is driving home to her Mom on Christmas Eve. Her car breaks down on the side of the road. She calls Winchester Singer Autos and Bobby sends Dean to help her. Will she make it to her Mom in time for Christmas? And will she get back home in time for her shift on Boxing Day?

Universe: Mechanic AU

Pairing: Dean x Female!Reader

Warnings: Slow build, Mechanic AU, Fluff, Smut, Angst. Each chapter will have individual warnings.

----- Supernatural Investigations by @deanxmon​

Detective! Dean Winchester x detective! reader x Liam Harris (o.c)

Synopsis: Detective Winchester and Detective Y/L/N have always been the heart of N.Y.P.D. supernatural investigations. What happens when Dean returns from an investigation in Italy and finds Y/N close to another guy?

Stand Alone

-----Stand By Me by @tvdspngirl314

Summary : Jensen finally decides to confess his feelings for you

Ship : Jensen ackles x F! Reader

Warnings : fluff, a lots of fluff, nervous Jensen

-----You’re Blushing by @soaringeag1e​

Jensen x Reader

Warnings: Swearing? Just a Ton of Fluff!

Words: 3,019

Prompt: "It's cold, you should take my jacket"

----- Calamitous Love by @herstarburststories​

Paring: Dean Winchester x reader

Summary: Dean shows up at your house, but this is a calamitous love. Sooner or later, it's going to destroy.

Warnings: language, mentions of sex, fluff, angst, dean is a perv in a cute way, s1 dean Ily

----- Sam Winchester: Glasses by @impala1967dwinchester​

Warnings: Sam because he’s always a warning, the reader fantasizing about Sam, implied smut, the reader has a crush on Sam, Sam playing clueless, little tiny mention of Dean, Dom!Sam, Sub!Reader

Summary: When Sam brings his glasses out to be able to read the lore, the reader does nothing but stare at him.

Word Count: 1.5k

----- What Went Wrong by @sofreddie​

Summary: Dean tries to propose but a misunderstanding ruins everything.

Characters: Dean x Reader, Sam

Warnings: Angst, Drinking, Fluff

Word Count: 1,680

Short and Sweet

----- Mine by @girl-of-many-fandoms​

Pairing: Jensen Ackles x ReaderPrompt: "I'm not jealous, I just don't like other men touching what's mine"

Warnings: None

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[hologramcowboy]

seriously stop talking about jensen’s kids you freak, talk badly about him all you want but leave his kids out of it, y’all are so nasty

Are you sure it's seriously? Because your grammar indicates otherwise. Please point out to me when, if ever, anyone has ever spoken badly about the kids. Oh, never? So you're just here to send hatemail on anon because you're a creep looking to start drama? But we're "nasty"? Okay then.

#creep in my askbox

[theyarebothgunshot]

this is exactly how it went down in my head.

misha: hey, everything okay? do you need me to do something?

jensen: no, lay low. we’re figuring it out.

misha: got it.

— the next day —

misha: things settled. should i say anything? draw attention? stay neutral?

jensen: you don’t have to, but if you want, tread lightly. we’ve had enough chaos.

misha: say no more.

when nobody got your back you KNOW dmitri got your back.

ANYWAYS i turned my back for TWO MINUTES and y'all went the fuck off in my inbox so, you know the drill: more under the cut

NO BUT JENSEN’S RESPONSE LMAAAAAO honestly fallout theory is so on oh my God I can’t stop-

on god they are so loud like-

Worst damage control i've ever seen. god bles.

so true bestie

I think Jensen probably just wants to be done with this petty little drama, so if he has to pretend everything between them is okay he is going to be the bigger man and lay it to rest. Whatever is going on between them he definitely doesn't want to sort that out on social media and the earlier he pretends everything is sorted out the earlier people will forget about it again.

Also it's kinda funny how J*red Tweet was like implying they had a misunderstanding but still talk to each other regularly, while Jensen went full on the we grow apart a little bit, because we were busy, let's catch back up. Makes me wonder if they actually talked or if there managers just said hey that's not good pr, let's put that to rest. Also did J*red know before yesterday that they had a falling out or did he just not realize.

- 🐌 anon

literally jensen went out of his way to say 'uhhh we never talk, worstie' god if pr management is involved then they did a bad job. also j*red still does not realise they have fallen out. jshfjdsfh

Jackles was like God bless but we ain’t talking like this worstie

good for her.gif

csdsc heeft gevraagd:

All I need now is for Misha to tweet “ is it safe to come out now?” And I’ll be complete lmfao 😂😂😂

that would have been better than what we got lmfao

I have one fear and it's Jensen being forced to add j*red to his show and his other projects because he couldn't stop whining like a baby,,, ugh i hate him

i pretend i do not see

Kinda selfish of me tbh but i don't want them to be "friends" again, Jensen sweetie run as fast as you can

co-signed

Ok Jensen's answer to Jared tweet made me feel so bad for him. Like, I can see it's damage control and public relations (obviously) but there's stuff behind it. I can't name it, but idk, I felt terrible for texas man this time, I don't think that reply was written with a "love and light energy" or even without much care. I felt some heavy vibes.

- 🌻, who is now a fortune teller and a prophet apparently

yeah i feel hella bad for him to, for having to deal with this shit. nonnie please if you ever have anything to predict, lemme know sjdfhs

You know Jensen's tweet has the energy of like kindergarten wenn an other kid started a fight with you and the kindergarten teacher wants you to forgive each other and hung it out and you really don't want to, but your kindergarten teacher is being annoying and he isn't worth the annoyance either.

- 🐌 anon

you are not wrong

Incredibly thankful that I have the day off from work 😂 I'm with hatching chick anon, the 3 dots read as passive aggressive/insincere to me, and I love it! I haven't spent this many hours on tumblr since I first discovered cockles! (On a side note, the lack of fimmf posts today has me feeling like it's not friday lol) -🐢

i, too, miss fimmf but alas things happen, they do they do they do

I was right. :(

It got almost romantic...

👀

nonnie you know i love you but this is really not the case, like, at all??? idk how you could look at those tweets and think it was almost romantic. it was THEE most scripted, pr bullshit ever. it was staged and fake. idk what else to tell ya

Danneel liked Jensen's tweet

i saw

That is so so awkward I feel so sorry for all of us being exposed to this and so happy I chose to leave the Internet for half a day - tea anon

god bless your stance on that cause i would have hated missing out on this lmao

You know what? I think it’s okay being a 38 year old moron if you’re bringing us this type of content

im happy with the food but still think its not okay tbh

pspspsps Misha this is the perfect day for you to drop the gay Cas essay pspspspsp it is still pride month pspspsps

you know you want to king pspsps

So that JIB6 link (I think it was from your post, right?). I went and watched that bit, and a little more.

Jensen makes a comment about Jared being first on the call sheet because Sam was supposed to be the main focal character.

And that him nor Misha cared about what number they were, so in all that time it never changed.

And I’ll be… if that just doesn’t perfectly sum them up and their feelings on things. And how a certain someone can be petty… 🦚

idk if it was from my post? but maybe? my analysis probably? but yeah things are making more and more sense huh

Ohh that's also an alien? Welcome to the extraterrestial family then, purple alien anon!

Also it's probably because I'm coming off the high this drama gave me but I'm not looking forward to them trying so hard to convince us everything is normal between them. Even though we now Know, they will have to keep pretending. Today (yesterday?) was a shitshow but some masks fell off, at least for a moment and I kinda wish Jensen was less professional 😂

👽

oh for real, fallout theory IS confirmed and nothing they said today will change my mind, it only made me believe in it even more lmfao and with that in mind i am just gonna sip my tea if they try to be buddy buddy on main again

I THINK MISHA UNRETWEETED BUT HE TWEETED "LOVE AND MISS YOU BOTH" I'M LOSING MY DIGNITY HERE - tea anon

yeah he now answered them sjdfhsjfhsf instead of rt

MISHA COLLINS IS A KING I STAN THE RIGHT MAN

YOU SURE DO

I just know Misha’s process was oh crap I have to let people know I’m supporting them and I can’t choose sides. Ok. Retweet. NO. Delete. I love both of you. Yes, good.

sjdfsdfh this makes me think of that post that dissected jackles' birthday post for misha where he used the heart. 'call him bro, that makes it less obvious. nailed it.'

Lol I'm off for a few days and come back to total chaos... God I missed it here

Like the "et tu... #bravo" tweet? Made my day! Frikking hilarious (every time I see it I picture J*red with a pissy frech accent saying it out loud lol) it's just such an incredibly petty hissy fit he threw (I know he tweeted more later on but... Really all that stuff coming afterwards just sounds like damage control)

Missed you Rose

-🐻

LOVE the french accent detail im gonna do this too sdjfhsjfh missed you toooo!!!!

Oh man Misha is really gonna get hate for that I KNOW IT

sigh well. nothing he isnt used to by now, unfortunately

i mean i believe they feel like brothers, but constantly falling back on the “brother” thing to keep up appearances is really starting to feel like “#spnfamily” at this point.

honestly brothers can be very annoying, or so i have heard, so it fits with the fallout theory lmao

They actually said if we’re gonna make this gay we cannot have Jar*d Pad*lecki involved

oh my God this is the funniest timeline to ever exist God bless I’m just waiting to canon bi Mary

king shit tbh

#snail anon #csdsc #sunflower anon #turtle anon #eyes anon #tea anon #peacock anon #alien anon #bear anon #THAT WAS A LOT #anyways next time im just gonna spam you all fsfsgdsgd

[dammitjas]

okay okay it's fine. you know what? it's fine.

i love having to log out of Tumblr YET AGAIN for the umpteenth time because the amount of hate, drama, chaos and attacking in this fandom is affecting my mindset. again.

guys this is literally a fandom about love, friendship, family, and not giving up. about sticking with the ones you love, finding your true family and fighting every day. can we please, please just stop?

why can't I love all three of them? why can't I love Jared because his positivity and kindness and the AKF campaign have saved my life when I needed it most? why can't I love Jensen for his kindness and support, for his singing and his quotes about fighting for a life worth living? why can't I love Misha for his dorkiness, his GOOD chaotic energy, his love and support, him interacting with fans and voicing his love for us? why can't I love watching Jenmish interact with each other and have it bring me squealing, arm flapping joy? while at the same time having a similar reaction to J2 together? why can't I love all three of these men for their kindness and gentleness and open support of mental health? why can't I focus on the good of these three men who have SAVED MY LIFE repeatedly over the course of 7 years?

why does everything have to be a fight...? this fandom was supposed to be about family. I've met some of the best people ever through this fandom. this show has changed and saved my life. I don't want to log onto a social media platform and into an account I've run for SEVEN YEARS onto all this hate that makes me want to cry. these words and these jabs that make me feel like I might panic or throw up. please...can't we all just get along?!

that all being said...it looks like I'm gonna have to log off again for a bit. I feel like every time I come on after something happens, I have to leave again. my blog is no longer filled with beautiful fanart, amazing photos of the cast that make my heart light up, fantastic headcannons and fics....it's all these things mixed in with neverending arguments, drama, hate, bullying and tearing people down. and it's just hard to deal with. when so many of us came here for an escape from all this...why are we bringing it here too?

for those of you who are close to me and want to keep in touch while I take a break from Tumblr (again) my Instagram is the same as my username and my discord I can PM anyone. but on most social medias, I'm @dammitjas and most active on Instagram nowadays. I love you all; please stay strong and stay safe. my PMs are open if anyone needs anything.

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[lulu-zodiac]

I've been heavily attached to spn for eight years, and the fandom drama is always very upsetting. It takes a long time for the jokes to be funny to me. I didn't even watch the finale but the fallout made me delete tumblr for like a month. Even then I still saw things about it everywhere and it killed me. After this whole debacle, I'm making my exit from the fandom. I write tons of fanfic for spn, and I'm just going to finish my two wips and then move on. I'm really sad about it, but it's what's best for me. I'm going through some irl stuff that's making me very sensitive to what happens in my safe spaces, so leaving is what I need to do.

I really feel this, spn is such a safe space for me and I find it really difficult when there's a lot of conflict going on. I find the drama funny up to a point, but there's also a point (like today) where it massively triggers my anxiety too and I can find it hard to step away even when I really need to. I always makes me upset thinking about how the people at the source of the drama (e.g. jensen today) are being negatively affected, and I hate that I can't make that better.

it makes me so sad to hear that the drama is pushing you out of your safe space, but I also really admire you setting those boundaries for yourself and looking after what YOU need. it's such a valuable thing to be able to do, and I know how much courage it takes. you should be really proud of yourself for putting your mental health first <3

that being said, if you ever want to talk about writing fics (I write a lot too, it's a big part of my love for spn), or just talk about the show and none of the drama, or talk about non-spn related stuff, please feel free to message me anytime!

one final thing: I think one of the great things about fandom is that you can kind of make it whatever you need it to be. so just because you want to take a step back from the drama of the tumblr dash doesn't mean you need to stop writing your fics if that's something you'd enjoy. you can still enjoy the show in your own time and be part of the fandom on whatever terms are right for you, if that's something you want. do whatever is going to make you happy <3

I'm really sorry to hear you're going through a lot irl right now, sending hugs and lots of positive vibes your way, and please don't feel shy about getting in touch any time if you want to <3

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