#and ppl are like 'why are u so pissy' if they see me like this

[rollercoasterwords]

Hi! I was wondering if you would maybe be willing to talk a little bit about your decision to use a beta reader? I feel like some people have very strong opinions about this, whether it’s for or against, but I think most of the writers who I follow on here actually don’t use them (barring you of course lol). I guess I’m just curious why you prefer to use one, and how you found someone you trust enough to read over your work before posting. And if you’re willing, what exactly is your beta looking for? Spag check, plot holes, or something else entirely? Sorry this is long, I’m just very interested in all the unique ways writers go about their processes! Thank you :)

sure lol i started working w a beta reader back when i was writing atydsp bc people kept commenting abt misused britishisms/how obvious it was that i was usamerican (which was fucking annoying btw lmao) so i was like ok let me see if i can find a british person 2 check my shit...at that point i hadn't made this tumblr yet + was totally clueless in terms of how 2 actually like. interact w any sort of fandom community so i v clumsily made a tiktok account + was like "um british ppl if anyone wants 2 help please dm..." in the endnotes of a ch. + i just got lucky that the person who i connected w ended up being really great + has continued to help me out w other works (hi vi if ur reading this <3)

generally speaking i just ask a beta reader 2 check for any obvious misused britishisms in my chs, but i know some people will look for help w more in-depth editing, plot holes, etc. i guess technical fandom terminology might be "britpick" and not "beta reader" for what i'm doing but...idk idrc what it's called. and later down the line when the first person i connected w was too busy i found someone via tumblr after i'd started interacting more w ppl + sort of had a bit more a community (hi mayane if ur reading this <3) so now i have. two really great people who help me out who i've just become pals w over time <3

#do people have strong opinions on this? i honestly do not see why it matters... #imo there's no harm in reaching out 2 someone 4 help if u want it but also. no harm in just posting ur shit...like this is fanfic lol #still get annoyed when i think abt the fact that ppl were being so pissy abt “wahh american trying 2 write british ppl” like... #yeah. my bad...u don't have 2 read this...etc... #but in the end it connected me 2 some really great ppl + i appreciate the help. + sometimes learn new things abt the uk...crazy place... #scones r completely different over there... #ask

[endcant]

sometimes i see ppl my age genuinely talk abt tiktokers/zoomers looking stupid in y2k playstation looking outfits and i’m like. so u didn’t grow up looking back at media from ur very early childhood, knowing ppl looked super fucking cool for like A Brief Minute, and wondering why no clothes that look good like that are available. maybe i just spent too much time with DDR and JSRF. i guess older millennials didnt have to wonder why bc they understood why but also like… idk it haunted me.

it sucks that clothes like that r only being explored again now that i’m both responsible for paying bills and also old enough to be expected to “know better” what if subcultural fashion werent solely seen as an expression of teen angst in america society what if fashion was also an expression of looking fucking sick as hell for no reason at any time anywhere.

maybe its shallow to care about clothes so much but i literally got into graphic design seriously bc i wanted to make my own graphic tees in like 2016 so it’s just part of the shit i think abt.

it kinda makes me pissy when ppl act like the kids look too silly and i’m like… really? in the mallgoing early 2010s my mainstream options for clothes to pursue as a fashion-aware aspiring guy were literally like that haunting Nerd Inspired shit, and neon athletic wear, and Swag™️, and the only alternative was wearing a black graphic tee shirt from hot topic with ur skinny jeans instead of a swagful graphic tee with ur athletic clothes.

says this gazing forlornly upon my wardrobe that still contains the windbreakers and snapbacks i purchased with my coffee shop job money way back when and then a bunch of office boy clothes from college and then a bunch of cozy clothes i bought while on that broken leg drip. i have not ever been satisfied with what i wear since like 2016 when i could reasonably spend all the money i earned buying things from tumblr artists’ merch stores. ofc those clothes were either cheap and didn’t make it to today or they were good quality and are still with me today but are a size too small. abcdefg

#draftsposting

[ryugujitr]

Goodmorning or afternoon, evening or g'night.

In this week's bulletin of "What the actual FUCK", we will discuss;

FUCK MORNINGS

'Photoshop? Nope, but I'mma teach u anyway'

Laughing at drama queens is 🤡bad🤡

Feminism vs Opinions

I ain't yo ma'

FYCK MORNING CLASSES- COMMUTING ISNT AS PAINFUL AS WAKING UP 3 HOURS B4 CLASS AND REALISING HOW ILL BE WASTING TIME IN CLASS BC THE WOMAN DOesn'T KNOW SHIT SINCE SHE SPECIALISES IN PRINT. But you know what- you can't say anything bc respect your lecturers and also set THE STACKS OF MONEY U HAVE TO PAY FOR TUITION FEE ON FIRE.

This OWMAN. OH MY GOD THIS WOMAN. SHE IS PISSY AND DEFENSIVE FOR THE SLIGHTEST OF THINGS. GIRL- YA DONT KNOW HOW TO USE PHOTOSHOP OR ANY OTHER ADOBE SOFTWARE-

🤡QUIT.THE.COURSE 🤡

But noooooOoOOo WE MEET HER 6 TIMES A WEEK AND EVERY CLASS IS FUCKING CHAOS- BRUH. And These little devils think distracting her is fun- like EXCUSE ME HAHAHAHAHAHAH- THE FUCK WILL U WRITE IN YOUR EXAMS@??????????????? SOME OF US ACTUALLY WANT THIS DEGREE SO WE CAN WORK , NOT RELY ON A MAN FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES.

OH OH AND THEN- while the chaos is at full blast this girl is just; 'LeT heR sPeaK atleast LISTEN TO MISS FIRST'

And

This hoe- had been distracting and barfing out useless comments since the class started- says 'So *snifFs* we CanT evEn aSk questioNs *forces a fake sob* 🤡🥲

SO WHY WOULD U NOT LAUGH? AND I WAS JUST: PFFT and

the lecturer is just: WHY ARE U LAUGHING AT HER

Like bruh...she is lying. I am laughing at her AUDACITY OF DERAILING THE CLASS AND PRETENDING TO ACT LIKE SHE CARES AND YOUR STUPIDITY. But kay I guess ....

So TURNS OUT IN THIS CENTURY AND DAY-

Someone comes up to me and asks "Are you a feminist?"

And your boi was literally looking for her STUDENT ID SHE LOST AGAIN, n i was like "Why."

"because you're so confident and strong headed- im glad to see young women who are opinionated enough to take a stand even if they are in the wrong."

Mind you, if my hand wasn't in my bag it would've been down that bitch's throat. AND she is younger than me too and HAD NEVER CONVERSED WITH ME BEFORE, EVER. EVEN IF IM WRONG? THE DEBATE WASNT EVEN A DEBATE I WAS ASKED ABOUT MY OPINION N I GAVE IT TO THE LECTURER WHO AGREED EITH ME AND IT HIT ME-

To this day, a WOMAN'S OPINION- only shows she's a FEMINIST- bc an opinion is something ONLY A MAN CAN HOLD. Since, you know...FEMALES aren't humans .....

Finally, we planned on complaining about the lecturer's LACK OF KNOWLEDGE ABOUT OUR DEGREE YET HER AUDACITY TO TEACH. SO- I was like, I ain't complaining cause ya'll gonna back out.

HIGHKEY- TRU BC THE COMPLAINT LINGERED ON FOR 2 WEEKS N MOST OF tHESE HOES DIPPED.

And yesterday, as I walked out of The cafeteria after discovering INFLATION IS A BITCH- this random girl comes to me and is just:

🤡- Hey bestie what happened for the complaint?

🫥: Idk

🤡- GoD yOu're so Usless you Have ONE JOB, AREN'T yOu lIke onE of ThoSe smaRt Kids?

🫥: smart I am, your mother, I am not.

If i could, i would've socked her in the face too, but their were too many witnesses.😏🧐

💗❣️So, that concludes our second week's therapy session.❣️💗

BUT PLEASE TELL ME, HOW YOU DOIN? HOW WAS UR WEEK? GOT ANY NEWS ABOUT LITERALLY ANYTHING - I'LL TAKE IT.❣️💗

(i had to put readmore so ppl wouldnt have to scroll endlessly)

MISS GURL - WHAT IN THE FRIENDS’ NAME IS YOUR circus COLLEGE DOIN?

6 TIMES A DAMN WEEK? I WOULDNT EVEN BE ABLE TO STAND TWO- LIKE AM I MISSIN SOME SHIT HERE OR???

nah cuz that stanky ass bitch asked u “WhY aRe YoU lAuGhIng” i wouldve sent a chair flying in her face bc girl nobody paid your dumbass to be here, it aint nobody’s fault but yours that you got stuck teachin shit you dont even know about like nobody did that for you but yourself

ALSO - WHOS THE HOE THAT SAID YOU’RE USELESS FOR NOT DOIN THE JOB SHE KEPT COMPLAININ ABOUT? also legitimately what the actual fuck was that person thinking when asking if you’re a feminist…….. why.

perhaps the kugelblitz or general apocalypse would have been a good idea here. some people just make this world a terrible place, as IF WE DIDNT HAVE ENOUGH TO DEAL WITH ALREADY FOR FUCKS SAKE YKNOW??? TOTALLY NOT MHMMM

And thank you for stopping by and checking up bestie, i am also having a rather horrific start of my last year of this bullshit jungle circus school.

first of all; EVERYONE IS ATTACKING US FROM EVERY SINGLE FUCKIN DIRECTION ABOUT TESTS, STUDYING AND CHOOSING WHICH HIGH SCHOOL TO GO TO (as if last year wasnt fuckin plenty enough of stress), TEN TIMES WORSE BECAUSE ITS OUR LAST YEAR AND “we’re mature, we’re older, we should be smarter and wiser”………. RIGHT.

second of all - we miraculously have a new student in our shitty class (GIRLIE YOU COULDVE PICKED ANY OTHER FUCKIN CLASS, WHY THIS ONE FILLED WITH IDIOTS???) which is weird, not in a rude way but like…… transferring last year to another school seems more stressful than trying to find a needle in a haystack within one hour, considering 1. you dont know anyone or anything here now 2. you barely have friends and 3. the grading system is entirely diff and fucked way more than your past school so idk how this girl is going to make it but im gonna try look out for her from the shadows and help when i can.

third of all - WE DONT HAVE A SINGLE BREAK EXCEPT FOR WHEN YOU HAVE A RELIGION RELATED HOLIDAY (i have one in october - A SINGLE DAY) AND A SINGLE LITTLE SAD FUCKIN FRIDAY UNTIL THE 30TH OF DECEMBER. WHO MAKES IT OUT ALIVE UNTIL THEN IS A FUCKIN PSYCHOPATH BECAUSE I SURE AINT, WHO TF IS MENTALLY STABLE ENOUGH TO BE COMFORTABLE FOR THIS SHIT AINT NO FUCKIN WAY THATS ME

fourth of all, the teachers are twats- worse than ever before. they’re harassing us from every direction because its our last year, we have to behave, we have to study, keep in line - BUT LET ME GET THIS STRAIGHT, IM NOT DOING THAT. THE NEXT TIME SOMEONE DARES SPEAK TO ME IN A WAY I DONT LIKE IM SOCKING THEM IN THE FACE, DRAGGING THEM OUTSIDE OF SCHOOL BY THEIR WIG AND BANGING THEIR HEAD AGAINST THE RAILS UNTIL THEY GET A. CONCUSSION. IM NOT HAVING IT.

fifth of all - i was extremely close to getting into a fight and beating the shit out of a girl (lets call her B for Bitch) from my class. im gonna make one thing clear - i hate liars, despise them to the core. i hung out with B and a couple other two girls at lunch and she began literally speedwalking when one of those two girls told me that B asked her why im hanging out with them randomly. i immediately yelled at her dumbass to stop running from her problems and turn around cuz im not a kindergarten teacher, she stopped in her tracks and i told her if she was so bothered by me she should tell me instead of being a coward and talking shit behind my back. she got extremely uncomfortable and didnt dare even look me in the eye for the rest of the day and tbh she should be glad she didnt.

as expected, im definitely not gonna be anything like allison or klaus this year - i’ll be going on a yelling and beating spree from how annoyed people already get me here. my class absolutely didnt change for the better, when they all grow up im betting my left eye they’ll be living a sad life in this country fr.

anyway, ur homegirl will be alone at lunch in the bathroom listening to tua music and probably scrolling thru media bc whats better than learning tua footloose dance in the school bathrooms 💀💀💀

overall you and i both are gonna have a tough year it seems, i’ll always be here for therapy sessions tho dearest 😭😭🖤🖤🖤

#itstheghostofmypast 💌 #ALSO I CACKLED AT #‘smart i am #your mother i am not’ #SLAYYYYY BSHDJDJ BESTIE WOOOOO

[valkavavaart]

VIVI I LOVE CHICKEN SO MUCH. I WANT TO KNOW ABOUT THEIR CULTIST UPBRINGING AND I'M CURIOUS HOW OTHER KNIGHTS TREAT THEM WITH THEIR WEIRD ASS WAY OF SPEAKING. God I love their way of speaking they're so SILLY

THAN K YOU FOR APPRECIATING CHICKEN heres my other old doodles i did of them when i designed him (and more rambling)

SO LIKE in the campaign they were for, theres this whole thing about the sun being a Deadly Laser that is destroying the world / causing natural disaster, disease, etc, and the church chicken's village was built around were ye olde believers of the sun god who see the world ending as like. righteous retribution from the god or something. like haha you all deserve the world exploding lol. but also *we* can fix this so we're sending our best knight to go solve this shit because god loves us.

IM THINKING im keeping the "theres a catastrophe and theyre sending away chicken to go deal with it" but i havent decided too much just yet.. we will see...

nyway im rlly bad at explaining things but in the village its very much like "daughters are raised to be clerics or mages and sons are warriors". chicken didnt have any magic power at all in the slightest so they were considered a failure and then they hit their parents with the "im boy???" and their parents said Put This Kid In The Ring

chicken is like. the top student in their village, they are really good at fighting (and very little else) so theyre kind of like. cocky about it. they have the mindset like "i'll protect everyone get behind me okay ^^" but it comes across as like. condescending. so most the other knights dont like them. chicken doesnt get when they themself are insulting ppl so theyll be like "oh! u need me to protect u bc ur weak and useless! :D" and everyone gets pissy bc why is this little freak calling them WEAK !!!!!!

in general like a lot of the ppl in the village are raised to be "well spoken" but the books n such they follow are very dated so everyone does kind of talk in ye olde way or whatever. chicken is just the most intense with it because they um miss a lot of cues and dont realise when theyre being intense/weird. for the most part, other knights & villagers just grin and bear it when they talk to chicken, because since he became like The Top ranked knight in their town it's kind of like. You're Gonna Get In Trouble If You Upset Him (chicken does not realise he has this influence)

ANYWAY THEY were sent away on a(n undecided) quest, and theyre always like "oh, i miss my family so much! i cannot wait to return home after i have completed mine mission!" and everyone back home is like "thank god hes gone i hope he never fucking comes back". chicken is Not well liked in their community

sorry this is incoherent. they are a little bastard to me. a fiend.

#oc #chicken

[t4tdanvis]

I keep having the opposite problem I talk about my pdh laurgene hc and people go 🤨 at me for making it only moderately toxic and not making Gene sa Laurence. and then they get all like pissy when I suggest they talk to someone else about their hc because I know I can’t comfortably engage with it.

huh, I wonder why the guy with a big glowing “please don’t talk to me about x thing” sign above his head doesn’t want me to describe x thing in detail to him!

this ask is from over a month ago but shhhhhh just pretend it isnt and pretend i answered this quickly and definitely didnt take a billion years

anyways. i really feel this ask bc like. as u know gene is my little blorbo hes my fucked up child and i love him. and i get Really upset whenever i see people endlessly hating on him and ourghhhhhh

i get especially upset at. certain interpretations. mainly the sa/rape one u brought up bc OURGHHHHHH it makes me so fucking uncomfortable and upset and i hate it and even after ive said it 1.2 billion times ppl STILL try to bring it up to me and then go 😲 when i get upset and no longer want to talk to them

like idk how i can make this any more clear to ppl bc this has happened Several Times. i do not want to talk about this i do not want to acknowledge the existence of this headcanon/interpretation im going to throw up on the floor. like idc when its some random post on tumblr dot com (if i dont know u i might block u bc i just. dont wanna see that. and do not feel comfortable interacting w that) but when its in one-on-one conversations with me?? after ive said not to bring it up about a million times???? what about "hey please dont bring this up to me" do people not GET

like idc what ur headcanons are go wild hc him as the fucking Worst idc u do u!! just if ur hcs make me uncomfortable/upset i will ask u to talk to Someone Else abt them and if u dont i will simply not talk to u!! like im not saying "ur not allowed to have this headcanon" im simply saying "hey pls dont bring this up to me or i will stop talking to u"

#❄.txt #ask box #tw sa mention #tw sa #tw rape mention #tw rape #its not a personal attack if i just. dont like ur headcanons #why do u need literally everyones approval or youll start getting pissy and upset? r u a dog or a man #like literally just talk to anyone else abt this specific hc #post it to tumblr even #just please dont continue talking to me abt it when ive made it as clear as possible that i Do Not Enjoy It??? #i was gonna explain in more detail why it makes me so viscerally uncomfortable but tbh i dont owe anyone an explanation #it should be as simple as 'hey can u not bring this up around me' 'yeah ofc!' #not 'hey can u not bring this up around me' 'ummmmm why?? its my hc tho?? why can u share ur hcs but i cant?? why-'

[munamania]

16, 23, 25

16. you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc.)

this'll quickly get into petty territory ok let's see. well so i think in general the cookie cutter fandom trope tendencies suck absolute ass and take all the fun out of actually playing with character dynamics and like. analyzing them idk!!! like it's BORING not everyone fits into. golden retriever/black cat dumb/smart fucking. idk you get it. you're taking away what's compelling and unique abt individual people and stories and writing. i think people did that to robin and nancy a bit and it made me want to scream and turned me away from the fandom quicker cause they were the last part of s4 i found myself caring abt. and let me just say this. it's like people are so goddamn annoying in general about gay ships and i wont pretend like ppl are just cool and great about gay male ships but like. at least SO many people get into them that you're bound to get some actually interesting content. it's fucking bleak out here for the lesbians when people just immediately try to slot them into top/bottom etc dynamics. and don't engage with them as separate characters at all. defining women by their relationships except theyre both women(ish) so you're just making them uninteresting overall. sorry ik it's not that serious esp when the majority of the fans of lesbian ships are queer girls. anyway then they dont even engage with het relationships or the people that do are ppl are like. genuinely cishet and i'd not... interact w them on here idk lol. also i ended up getting pissy about bi steve bc ppl were so anti nancy being anything but hyperheterosexual when to ME, formerly dykenance, she had the markings of a lesbian. she had a very clearly sorta close tense jealous etc friendship and she gets NONE of the love. idc actually abt bi steve like it's fine wider fandom just pissed me off. we all know this.

23. ship you've unwillingly come around to

ummm i dont think i've been super anti anything personally let me think. ummmm. idk why i can only think of st this is absurd i dont even engage with that much anymore. like i guess jonathan and steve i used to not care about but now im like yeah sure kings. why not. oh also faberry lol. cause rachel used to annoy me too much but now im like well in her own committed dream annoying teen girl way she was kinda hilarious... and i think they were in weird lesbian love and that was lost along the way but in my heart they rekindled after high school maybe. at some point. like quinn came to one of her big shows... idc

25. common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing

i think b*lers need to just have fun with their ship and not care about canon that much. like yes yeah gay rep etc whatever but u dont even seem like you're having fun u just want to be right. anyway. GENERALLY it's fucking hilarious to me when people bring up idk media literacy and -coding and etc but it's very evident that they have not ever ever taken a film class in their life or. engaged with media analysis outside of fandom contexts. babes dont try to just use words to sound smart. also again generally stop just advertising or criticizing a show based on Gay Representation. also don't complain about female characters not being well written when u dont engage with them regardless over any possible man that you can. sorry just complaining abt the same shit over and over. ME hi im the problem it's me. jk im not wrong

let me be a haterrrr <3

#certifiedhaterdyke era #asks #long post

[kofetalesnbpdchaos-leoreaper]

Disabilities, Labels & Neurodivergence + Kids:

What IS it with people saying to not use a term on a child? A bloody toddler??

I remember seeing an autistic toddler & comments were FILLED with folks saying to not label the baby Autistic!!

Why?? You’re implying that autism is fucking bad you bitch??

Why can’t you handle someone having labels??

It’s because labels make up our identities. But they do come with stigmas & bullshits too!

Labels are us, it can define who we are but so can WE define it too!!

I mean we do so anyways?? Like not everybody under a label is the same?? 🫠👻

Then quite recently, folks were pissy over someone wondering if I toddler is neurodivergent… 💀👻🪦🪦

WHY is it that you are SOO put off if a child IS neurodivergent?! Bitch you know folks can be born ND?! -3-

People are sooo disgusting!! You can tell that they react a certain way, when it comes to kids!!

It’s like the sameee ways when it comes to Queerness 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

You are born Queer but you don’t know for sure what the fuck U are, or you really DO—

People are born Disabled/Neurodivergent . Why you so upset when people use such labels?!

It’s like people are shocked?? You sound so disturbingly horrible to ME, at least.

There are multiple things, we can use to describe ourselves or others. There are good & there are bad!! ^^

People would rather attack folks who use the labels disabled, neurodivergent or even bloody fucking queer — instead of folks who bully others for being sooo god damn different!!

How bout tackling stigmas too?! Or realising certain shits don’t choose what age you are to come after you!

You don’t even choose these things either lmaoo 😭🖕🏼

No matter what, people need to stop looking at kids being labelled disabled or ND as a bad thing! Or even bloody Queer my dudes!! 💀🤦🏻‍♀️

Finding out things at a young age is normal. Hell, you’ll understand more on how to deal with shit!!

Being fucked up over these things but still calling them names lmfao …

There are actual labels & words & terminologies that ARE bad. But disabled / ND aren’t one of them.

ESP any of the “disorders” when they’re actually medically checked out!

Saying medically, cause I believe that you should seek professionals what may be up , rather than chalking up to multiple things.

Like the amount of folks would think children are manipulative… really do need attention because they’re fucking KIDS.

You do seek attention because you need that shit when you growing up! 💀🤦🏻‍♀️

Trust me, I grieve daily on the shit I can never FULLY receive from my parents… that’s jus so sad lol.. :’)

Kids are people. And they can have things early age or later on in life! 🤷🏻‍♀️ certain shit is for life.

Anyways, idk if I made sense 😩 I’m so super pissed off that ppl think that you cannot have certain things because of ur poopoo dipshitted AGE!! 🙄 Grow up! Some things happen to you & those things don’t give a rat’s ass about your age!! 🤷🏻‍♀️🫠

— Lena Eclipse Oriña Reaper; L.E.O REAPER … Fucking Pissed! 🖕🏼👻

[kirishwima]

uhhhhghh textures

#i get this thing sometimes idk #where like ill suddenly hate a lot of textures to the point that i cant touch them #like rn i cant even touch my laptops mousepad i hate the feel of it #or i have a usb-c to usb adaptor and i hate the feel of it i cant touch itt #or paper i cant touch paper rn and i need to study #i hate when this happens and i no of no way to stop it other than just. wait without touching stuff until its gone #how long that takes no one knows #im generally this way w a lot of textures like i cant touch velvet suede and a bunch others #but eg the keyboard i dont mind cuz its plastic #:)) i hate this ghhhhh #and ppl are like 'why are u so pissy' if they see me like this #and its not like i can just tell them ya feel they'll be like 'uhh ok' #last time it happened it was really bad #and someone on tumblr had suggested taking a cold bath i think? and it'd helped #but im currently at a cafe by myself and can't go home aye #fuckkk it all my dudes #at least this time i dont hate the feel of my clothes #its a good thing i wore jeans instead of leggings

[alienscumbag]

It's actually insane how you can see Facebook and other boomer-filled media actively make someone old in your life stupid

#personal #i blew up at my mom today #because she started spouting just the DUMBEST fucking shit ive ever heard #my mom is a smart person when it comes to awareness #shes accepting of me n my sisters sexuality and even took a second look at her own after we came out #and i think thats great! #but recently shes been saying incredibly dumb things and i KNOW for a fact its because she is on facebook all the time #this morning she said that ppl who dont have jobs r lazy and that theres a million jobs #and i blew up at her cause A) i dont have a job and she knows how hard im trying and #B) i explained to her that ppl dont want to work because they dont want to be exploited not because theyre lazy #and she just ignored me after that #and then she tried to diagnose my sister as bipolar because my sister cant make her mind up on things often #and i was like dont ponder other ppls mental states omg??? and also im diagnosed with bipolardisorder #and u know its not that simple so dont sit there and act like u know #which sure a bit aggressive but my mom was being incredibly rude all morning and i was angry #and she asked me why i was being so pissy and i told her its because shes being incredibly stupid lately #like this wasnt a one time thing shes being doing a lot of weird shit this past couple months #and a lot of it is shit u see on facebook #like mom why do i have to monitor you like ur 13 #she was never like this before she used to be sympathetic and rational

[redxblueihateloveyou]

Just wanted to know your opinion but do you think Wu Xie has abandonment issues? I've noticed in Ultimate Note that he's always panicking when Xiao Ge leaves or disappears for a short while. Is he also like that in the main novel/spin-offs?

Tbh no, I never felt like he has any abandonment issues in general. It's just his Xiage issue haha

It's just.. in the books Wu Xie's feelings (since its all from his point of view) for Qiling and their relationships while slowly and perfectly developing during the whole story, have these two points when the tone of them drastically changes and they make a huge jump. And both after after bronze gates. Ultimate Note is set after Heavenly Palace, the first time Xiaoge goes behind the bronze gate (just not for a long time), and that was the first time Wu Xie got scared that he might not see him again. Thats why in UN he's so panic-y about his sudden disappearances. Before that first 4 books, its just them bickering and getting to know each other. I mean Wu Xie is clearly curious, interested in finding out more about him there, but mostly its just he's happy when he's there (but at times pretends like he's not lol), happy when he feels comfortable enough to laugh and joke with them and they just love to annoy each other too xD It's mostly silly and even when Qiling suddenly disappears, depsite the "que???", it doesn't bring out any anxiety in him.

But after Qiling disappears behind the bronze gates the first time without saying anything and comes back (that's when UN takes off), and this whole period up to the 2nd major most painful 10 years separation, Wu Xie's feelings and the way he behaves with him majorly change from the first 4 books. During UN times, its the first time when Wu Xie becomes upset about Xiaoge not telling him things, like in the books he was just pissed about the whole "no one's gonna miss me if I'm gone" Xiaoge's no past, no future talk. Thats also when starts to get jealous of ppl hanging out with Qiling, and he gets very pissy when someone implied that he acted like a jelly bean. It's where he starts to have all these feelings he doesn't know how to handle, where the realization comes that he misses him and he doesn't want to be apart from him, and also start to appear his most idiotic thoughts that'll blow up soon about the "I'm just a random person he passes in his long life, obviously I'm not important for him lalalalala" (WHICH FUCKING U DUMB FUCKING STUID I"M LMAO).

So yeah, during UN times he's very... easily irritated when it comes to Xiaoge things. And he literally just doesn't know what to do with himself there, bc he doesn't undestand what it is for real.

And the 2nd major change in their relationships ofc goes after the 10 years separation and him going behind the gates for the second time. Then it all goes kaboom. All of his confusion, constantly being scared of losing him and leaving without explanation stuff make him angry and it all just blows up. All that walking him to the mountain thinking he was going there to die, Wu Xie not wanting to let him go anymore, but being left with no choice by Xiaoge himself... and the dam was broken. Heart crushed, tears, anger T_T

All this period from the end of the HP to this, Wu Xie's mp3 can be Birdy's version of only know you love him/her go, you know "and you see him as you fall asleep, never to touch and never to keep".

After that he just loses him mind and goes on his bananas "fuck our ancestors, I'm gonna kill all of you fuckers" spree. And its all too painful for me.

So the 2nd time his boo returns to him and the "Restart" part is again when Wu Xie's behavior with Xiaoge again drastically changes. The anger is gone, all that's left is this heartbreaking longing and he just treasures every second, every look, every touch but doesn't push it, cause with his whole dying situation he thinks of himself as no one special for him, like an idiot he is, even after Xiaoge's "you're the only thing that ties me to this world" and everything, he still goes on his "I'm just a dust, a no one he'll soon forget blah blah" (🙄) that he's going through the first part of the Reboot. And that period when he's sick after the dream he also realizes that his feelings are a romantic ones. So its just... I'm fucking tired of these moron. I've never been this exhausted by the ship lmao. But it's worth all the pain. All their soft, married things are killing me, so thats my fav period now xD

In Restart Wu Xie is very "I accepted that its impossible and accepted that you can leave any moment, but I'm gonna treasure each moment you're here". And like he just knows that eventually Qiling will return to him, he is 100% sure about (in UN I feel like he wasn't sure, so that got him so jumpy), but bc he was in so much pain after these 10 years without him and wants him to stay, but can't ask, it's horrible each time. He's just so silent about it there, but his thoughts are gonna make you cry. Like he won't yell or be pissed about his sudden leaves like in UN (xD), he's just depressingly waiting for his return and gets extremely happy when he's with him again.

So yeah, in UN he's still young (but not too young for it not to finally hit) and after the first separation it all kicks in but he's kinda mad about all the "weird" feelings so he's like that. And he's still very sensitive and doesn't hide his emotions very well. I mean, in the show he's pretty decent actually, in the book its much worse, its hilarious lmao.

So the way I see it... it was just that he got the first taste of "I might not see him again" after the bronze gate sight scare, and the feelings were developed by then and started to break through, but they were not in the stage when he was like "he'll always come back to me, he's not actually leaving leaving" yet (like later on), so thats why the panic. Its just all new.. and unsureness is there.

So he's different about Xiaoge leaving during different periods of time.

I didn't feel like he has any abandonment issues like in general while reading the books. I mean, yeah, there's Wu Sanxing thing, but Wu Xie he's like he's always surrounded by many ppl who care for him a lot and I didn't feel like he has some reactions to anyone coming and going. It's all pretty much okay. It's just the Xiaoge "abandoning" him issues LOL... Or just love I guess :) Since it wasn't always like that, but then the times came when he just didn't want to be without him anymore <3 (and started throwing tantrums like "its not you anymore, it us" since UN xD)

#answered #anonymous #daomu biji #pingxie #wu xie #zhang qiling #wu xie x zhang qiling #ultimate note #lost tomb #dmbj #thats what I think at least according to his thoughts #T_T

[monsterkissed]

if i see that post where ppl r complaining very legitimately about ppl who refuse to just ask u to do a thing or say what they mean and then get pissy when u fail to read their mind and punish you for their refusal to make reasonable requests with that utter bullshit addition ab how actually it’s female socialisation to not say what u mean so it’s actually your responsibility to deal with it bc everyone else likes not being honest and direct and we all have to make communication compromises uwu etc etc, then i am going to be Unkind

“this is how most people are socialised” yes. that’s why it’s shit and that’s why it’s the responsibility of the ppl who benefit from and can navigate the system to make it accessible to others, not the other way around. that is in fact how this kind of social power imbalance works. this is not an even playing field and yes, i am leveraging my literal qualifications in communication and disability to say that putting the onus on the people who struggle with arbitrary and dishonest social systems to be the ones who have to make the compromises and learn the negotiation techniques (with all the necessary ego-cushioning and self-effacing one requires when making requests of the party in the position of power) is ridiculous and cruel. a lot of disabled people are going to struggle just to grasp the hoops they have been tasked with jumping thru and it’s vile to then say it’s their fault if they get upset bc someone chewed them out for not doing a task they were never asked to do and they need to be more understanding ab the situation they were given no tools to deal with.

particularly children! how many of the ppl who mention this issue are or are talking about events that happened when they were children? even neurotypical kids should not have to be the ones to learn about and implement communication and negotiation techniques for getting adults in their lives to stop punishing them for ignoring commands they were never given. kids should not have to negotiate that shit with their own parents and teachers ffs it’s so incredibly disingenuous to pretend that this is just a competing access needs issue between adults who are all at peak mental capacity and skill levels

in my (woman-dominated, fwiw) field i have to tell every single new senior staff member i meet that bc i am autistic i need explicit commands or i will not know what to do. i need them to be thorough and complete bc i will not make leaps of logic to fill in “obvious” gaps. i have to tell them this not bc i want to do a good job (which i do) but because if i don’t they will report or spread gossip about me being lazy, uncooperative, incompetent and ignorant, and i will get in trouble. for failing to grasp their secret orders that were never told to me in the first place. this has happened and continues to happen, so i have to give personal medical info to a huge number of people, all of whom work in mental health and disability, to avoid being punished for doing what i was told to do and failing to realise there were other additional tasks i was never told about.

to this date i have not known any other staff member to have to ask that any requests to them be submitted through implication or indirection because otherwise it would risk them being disciplined by management. i have seen a lot of disabled clients who lack the verbal ability, communication skills, capacity or social study to realise when they were being given secret commands and have had everything from selfishness to malice attributed to them for missing the arbitrary cues and trusting that the people around them will be honest and treat them with dignity and respect.

if you have been socialised to believe that’s their fault and they are the ones who need to constantly (and, in some cases, physically impossibly) express and define their needs to everyone around them, then you have been socialised to be a self-centred piece of work

#long post #every other week this website discovers that structural ableism is actually really good and it's tedious as all fuck

[woosansang]

hey jazzy how did you make math like.. make sense? do you just have a natural inclination for math? do you have any tips on understanding?? pls enlighten????

im asking bc no matter how hard i tried in my math "classes"*, the concepts never clicked sjfjjf it kinda eats at me since im able to understand the concepts in other academic areas fairly easily 😭 (fairly bc physical sciences are a Thing) [ * = the only attempts at learning math after i started high school dkfjkfkg ]

i think an issue was w who was teaching? bc the teacher in 9th grade got pissy w me for asking so many questions bc i didnt get it; my school was a rly small one so we had one math teacher and we had two different ones in 10th; 11th grade was outright lgbt-phobic; and 12th was a neurotypical cishet white man who made me feel unsafe just by being in the same room as me and he was a shitty person all around. i already struggled w understanding math before but these guys def made it even harder ;;;;

pls take a pic of my cats as an apology for my babbling sjkfjgks ty ily

omg firstly don't u ever again apologise for talking to about maths, or talking to me at all sndbwjsb <333

idk I've just always loved it??? I remember in primary school I used to help tbe kids who were in my grade who weren't good at maths, like I would teach them how to add fractions n stuff bc I just Got It and they struggled. as a hs maths teacher now, I think a lot of kids fall short bc their basic understanding of numeracy is lacking. it's how the concepts get to introduced to u the first time u learn it that shapes how u feel about it, or so I've noticed with many students. like take algebra in particular. kids have no fucking clue why they're suddenly using letters in maths and if they don't understand the point of it, of course they're not gonna understand how to do anything WITH algebra if they don't even know WHAT algebra is, and then they fall into the horrible cycle of nothing making sense and everything getting more complicated and still not making sense and hating the subject and doing badly at it and hating it even more etc etc

but yeah what u said about the teachers is definitely true, that can have a huge impact, especially on teenagers who are super emotional in general, having adults who don't appear open or friendly or empathetic or in ur case, it sounds like, downright against u, obviously makes it very hard to learn anything 😪

i can't tell u how I got maths to make sense to me bc for the most part, I just got it. I was lucky. BUT since i do teach it now to the highest level u learn in high school and obviously i majored in it at uni as well, i can always help u with anything if ur doing courses now 👀

AND THANK U FOR THE CATS AHHHHH I LOVE SEEING PPLS PETS, FEEL FREE TO DROP CATS IN MY INBOX ANY TIME <3

#asked #mlmwooyoung

[hello-yue-here]

are u a fucking idiot lol do you think queer like used to be a slur and..isnt now? bc everybody reclaimed it or something? if i see you and your friends and go look at that band of queers am i being inclusive❤️

hey anon does it ever get boring being so obsessed with me?? like im sure it doesnt because im so interesting and fun and sexy and queer and popular and amazing and hot and all. like period thank you for sending me anons calling me dumb so you get attention. im happy to give you the attention you so desperately crave but you dont need to hide behind anon and get pissy w me about the word queer and the fact that i literally identify as queer. like you can just ask for attention next time babe.

BUT WHILE WERE HERE

did u even read the full post i reblogged ab this

like did u

because all the questions ur asking me can be answered w that post. the history behind the word queer is there. the letter q in lgbtq+ stands for queer. the fact that terfs use the “queer is a slur” claim as a way to divide the QUEER community. ppl who use queer as a label arent the enemy booboo. the people who divide us are. so quit calling me an idiot and leaving anons on my blog and actually think about what the real issue is here. because it sure as hell aint one lil avatar fanblog who identifies as queer. there are bigger fish to fry and bigger issues in the queer community than the meaning behind the word queer.

for example:

https://harvardcrcl.org/americas-war-on-black-trans-women/

black trans women are being murdered at very disproportionately high rates. but lets talk about how the word queer is such an issue.

https://www.vice.com/en/article/akgxm5/bbc-expected-to-quit-stonewalls-lgbtq-diversity-programme

the BBC is expected to end their involvement with an organization that upholds lgbtq+ rights for workers which is very appalling. but go ahead tell me why im the bad guy for thinking that queer isnt a slur. clearly thats the biggest issue here.

https://www.google.com/amp/s/amp.cnn.com/cnn/2021/09/17/middleeast/afghanistan-lgbtq-evacuation-intl-hnk-dst/index.html

just look at the headline.

this is just the tip of the iceberg anon. “queer is a slur” is terf rhetoric to divide us and keep us from uniting to fight the real obstacles facing the community. arguing over the word queer is pointless and helps no one.

‼️if anyone has any links to donation pages, paypals, cashapps, etc. to help out queer people who are struggling, please feel free to add them to this post or send them to me so we can signal boost them that would be wonderful.‼️

#NOTE: i am not an expert on queer history #i am a college student and a baby gay #but im always open to learning and trying my best to help #cuz like cmon yall #arguing over a word is pointless when we can be working together to protect our own #tw: transphobia #tw transphobia #tw homophobia #tw homophia mention #tw queerphobia #queer is not a slur #lets stop arguing ab that #im here im queer get used to it #also if u rlly hate that word so much #just block it. #like just block it babe #also general content warning for the articles i added #read at ur own caution cuz there is some stuff in there that is unsettling and can be triggering as well

[ghoooooooooooooooost]

AAAAAA i finished smtv giving u all my thoughts

there’s some spoilers but i’ll be vague abt them so it doesn’t give too much away

/first i’ll talk abt gameplay (no spoilers here)/

i think it’s fun! i played on casual bc i kno smt games are super hard n i still got my ass kicked a bunch n sometimes it was really frustrating but it was always satisfying when i beat a boss- whether it was super easy or brain explodingly tough. fusion is also satisfying ^-^

demon talk can be annoying bc it’s p trial n error but sometimes it’s funny when i fail it so it’s fine.

i think this is the first smt game to have platforming? it’s a lil janky esp w the camera but hey it managed to get me to finally play a platformer to completion when i dropped botw like 10 mins in. i even got almost every miman. fuck the castle tho

sometimes it jutters n lags since the switch isn’t really strong enough but performance was usually fine in my experience

also... ended up making my nahobino busted as shit (lvl 99, all stats high, almost max strength, max almighty master) so i ended up beating the final boss pretty easily oops (ofc it still killed a demon tho)

/now plot talk (this is where the vague spoilers happen)/

i’m not like other girls... i LIKE smtv’s story

i think the plot is interesting! the human characters definitely didn’t get enough development + characterization imo but i liked dazai n oh my god aogami. aogami makes me feel so many things love is stored in the aogami. i get that the plot didn’t Feel as fleshed out(?) as previous games esp w the previous character point but i don’t understand the ppl i’ve seen say there’s no plot

+ i think it’s funny that some ppl think aogami going “young man” all the time was annoying i loved it

it’s also funny seeing ppl be pissed off abt the twist w aogami’s true identity n the proto-fiend stuff bc i didn’t give a shit. like oh cool :]

i was worried abt the true ending (secret ending) bc i’ve seen ppl say they hate it n that it’s the worst ending ever n well... its the one ending i got n i thought it was fine? a specific aspect of it was a lil weird to me n ofc i’m sad abt [redacted] but i don’t understand why ppl hate it so much it feels like everyone’s literally just pissy that [censor][censor][censor][censor]

anyways i think its a good game and i’m going to stay far away from the fandom forever

#text post #pk gayming #hi videos game at 1 am #lmao i forgot to get rid of the draft parts since i started writing ths in the drafts days ago

[pantoranprincess]

Hello Jaskier, i mean, Witcher fandom. Today we’re going to discuss something very important that’s also misunderstood, like, a lot. That is, why does Geralt tell Jaskier not to touch Roach?

So this really bugs me lmao because a lot of people post about it as if Geralt is just being a Grumpy Old Witcher^TM. An absolute Rude Boi. And I mean, he is, but it’s not for no reason. I also notice that a lot of fics make it seem like Geralt never lets Jaskier ride on Roach ever for a 20 years and...that’s not really what that moment was establishing. As far as plot goes, there’s never a scene past ep 2 where Jaskier could’ve been riding Roach but isn’t. In the mountain, they’re on foot. At the banquet, we don’t see scenes of them traveling. So the assumption that Geralt, after so many years, is still Grumpy and won’t let Jaskier t o u c h Roach is just that, an assumption. And it exists bc ppl totally miss the point of that first scene.

Okay so back to my original point: why does Geralt snap at Jaskier in ep 2 when Jaskier complains about his feet? This goes back to episode 1. Geralt, not yet the Butcher :( :( :( (you gotta add the sad faces for the emotion) is led to the cowardly sorcerer’s keep by Marilka. Pay attention and you’ll note that Roach opposes being left with/handled by  Marilka (i don’t remember the exact dialogue) but Geralt reassures the horse. Geralt thinks Wow Life Sucks, but HE IS OKAY WITH PEOPLE. Relatively. At least, demented little girls that joke about animal abuse (??? i hate her okay but that’s not relevant). Sure he’s been treated like shit, but our Boi has not been treated like Shit with a capital S. Not yet, at least.

Anyway, get to the end of the episode and everyone betrays Geralt (yay) including, you guessed it, Marilka. Despite claiming that she wants an adventurous life, she chooses to purposefully not stand up for him (they even exchange a glance y’all, it’s emphasized) bc she’s too afraid of the repercussions and the possibility of leaving the boring but familiar life in her stupid town. She’s a coward. All talk no bite. I can talk about this another time, but this betrayal is worse to Geralt than Renfri’s (for now just assume I’m right without explanation).

Okay so!!! WHat?? DoES THIS??? Have to do with Jaskier??? 

In ep 1, Geralt meets a spunky, oddly-fine-with-Witchers, youth that is drawn to adventure. He lets said youth touch his horsie and although he expects treachery from everyone, he’s fairly positive towards her. Then she betrays him bc she sucks. Skip forward some years, and what happens? GERALT MEETS A SPUNKY, ODDLY-FINE-WITH-WITCHERS YOUTH. It’s our lad, our beautiful bard. It’s Jaskier! Now Jaskier won’t betray Geralt. We know that. But Geralt doesn’t. Here he is, an interested youth trailing after him speaking of adventure despite being clearly inexperienced with the ways of the world. And Geralt Does Not Trust Him. Because of Marilka. So when Jaskier asks about Roach, Geralt is pissy. The last time he let someone like Jaskier touch his horse, that person ended up betraying him.

So that’s why Geralt says no horse-touching. It also implies that, as Geralt learns to trust the lovely bard, he would reconsider his policy. It isn’t something that he says just to show that Oh He’s a Grump. That interaction was a purposeful parallel to the little devil child that betrayed him before (have i mentioned i don’t like her??? i don’t think I have). Thanks for coming to my Ted Talk.

#the witcher #meta #the witcher meta #jaskier #geralt #geralt of rivia #roach #roach (witcher) #marilka #or as i like to call her #The Absolute Worst #i have strong feelings about this okay #a hot take #except it's right #so a truthful take #the witcher (tv) #the witcher (netflix)

[divine-draws]

okay i had a whole google doc that i wrote a buncha shit but imma try to CONDENSE it and make my ideas more clear bc there was some wishy washy in there. BUT dabihawks ice skating au bc im gay for that shit. all of it under the cut bc this shit is gunna get LONG. buckle in fuckers. ALSO FEEL FREE TO ASK ME ABOUT this i will be happy to answer shit :3c

SO fair warning before we begin. i know shit about ice sports. im like 1) not THAT educated nor have i legit participated though ive always wanted to and 2) this is just self indulgent so like if i dont get shit right or whatever dont come at me bro. im here to have FUN and live a bit vicariously. also as for location of all this shit i dont know and dont care and am american so my perspective on things are skewed. anyway cw: abuse mention

so dabi (touya) is a previous figure skater

he’s a figure skating prodigy 

enji was a pro hockey player (id say figure skating but this man was BUILT like a brick shithouse idk man) has a lot of championships under his belt but doesnt even begin to touch the legacy of his one sided rival yagi toshinori

him and rei meet and marry at a young age. she like.. actually liked him then?? shit was kinda okay but things kinda.... got bad quick. the abuse etc was ... yeah. she ends up having dabi and fuyumi (they’re twins babeyy) at a young age too and kinda doesnt feel like she can get out of her horrible marriage 

we wont dwell too much on the bad part of all of this though. anyway rei was a figure skater

p well known and known for her fucking GRACE god she moved so well on the ice.

she was so beautiful and spoke through her movements and enji loved that... and so as a hockey player and with a (now previous) figure skater wife he was like aight my kids WILL take up an ice sport and be the FUCKING BEST

dabi isnt made for hockey. enji tries to get him into it but it’s... nah... fuyumi isnt the best with figure skating. she’s good!! and her and dabi do some pair skating when they’re younger but it’s.. hm. dabi is the one with the clear talent here. (fuyumi is a beast on the ice when it comes to hockey though. will dominate. but she kinda... didnt really continue with it)

enji isnt PLEASED that his son isnt gunna be a hockey player but he still values figure skating and will fucking make sure he’s the BEST at it. and so the brutal training starts. he gets some good coaches and also takes up the coaching mantle 

the thing is.. rei was amazing as a skater but her body just... wasnt really made for all of that??? and dabi unfortunately kinda inherited that. his body hates the impacts and such. he’s amazing at figure skating. he has a grace similar to his mothers but there’s something more fierce to him. 

and honestly !!! he gets far!!

also natsuo comes around. he’s a bit too clumsy for either sport and resents the fact that him and fuyumi are neglected by their father. he also loves touya and gets so pissed seeing his brother so hurt

and shouto is born and this kid was made to be on the ice. he’s skating from the moment he can fucking stand on his own.

obvs enji’s attention is split but it’s mainly on touya who is winning championships and GOING places but it’s still not good enough

anyway idk how far he goes?? but it’s the biggest competition yet and on ice mid routine he lands wrong

one thing leads to the next and he’s pretty much medically retired from a young age. he can skate. he can still kinda preform but he cant do what he used to at ALL and he cant keep up with the brutal pace enji sets. there’s a lot of trying to push him still and it’s just.. not happening

for all it’s worth dabi is kinda glad he isnt doing it anymore. but he fears for his babies brother. shouto is a natural and while yes being a professional athlete of any sort is brutal on your body, his body is a lot more capable

but like touya before, shouto is pushed to his absolute limits. bleeding and injuries and puking his guts out from being pushed too far

there’s a lotta resentment but he still pushes through w skating. 

(side note but there DEF is some todomido/tododeku w hockey player izuku who ends up being coached by THE yagi toshinori and who helps shouto out w making shit his own)

anyway so in the end dabi ends up working at a rink tho lol

it’s p much owned by shigarai and run by the lov (who in this au end up making their own little ragtag unofficial local hockey team p much and play games against other teams like them)

despite his father’s whole career, dabi does enjoy playing hockey with these dipshits

but yeah he enjoys his time working at the rink, fucking around and sleeping in random places and sometimes running the zamboni

he’s also best frenemies with shigaraki. they get along and both deal with a shitty upbringing and despite some slight animosity they both would kill if someone fucked w the other 

(also at some point dabi DEF teaches some little kid classes lol)

also dabi does sometimes skate his own routines from time to time. only when he’s alone really. though fuyumi has a pass to be there though he will gripe still

SO HAWKS AM I RIGHT??

now there is a couple ways to go with this and somewhere in me there is an au with hockey player hawks who takes skating lessons from figure skater dabi BUT

i think for this au we’ll just say he was a figure skater from the get go

i think he WANTED to do hockey as a kid. like shouto he’s also a fucking natural and was skating as soon as he could fucking stand and walk. and he looked up to enji and kinda wanted to take up hockey but 

listen,,, trans hawks. who wanted to be like todoroki enji and be a pro hockey player. shit just.. didnt work like that though and besides he’s a tiny dude and god he’d be fucking obliterated 

he kinda is self taught and the ice is his escape from his shitty home life

idk how this works but listen gotta tie in the commission somehow???

he’s scouted or whatever for figure skating at a very young age and his mom is happy to take the heavy scholarships and happy to sign him over to skate for these ppl and have them push him to be The Best

and this kid is FAST. he’s fast and is insane with his jumps and stg it almost looks like he’s FLYING (which gets him the nickname hawks)

the coaches are brutal and shit sucks and a lot of the time it kinda sucks the life out of the sport but he still enjoys it

he has a love for outfits that legit have flare to them (also im thinking of johnny weir’s one outfit w the feathers but yknow instead of white they are RED) and while he does do routines to boring ass music he mainly likes doing shit different (also dabi was p much forced the whole time to do shit to that boring ass music but on his own he’d use his own music taste to skate to)

and he’s good!! he GOES places. he’s like makes it to the olympics at a young age and is one of THE youngest gold medalists for figure skating

im sure somewhere along the line him and dabi DID meet. it was at some competition and hawks was VIBRATING bc there’s ENJI and he wants and autograph and oH GOD IS THAT HIS SON??? he’s HOT. (and at this time dabi still had his red hair and like no piercings and what little ones he had they were out but this dumbass will not recognize him later on)

but god he needs to chill TF out or he will fuck up in the competition 

he hears about dabi’s whole accident and like feels for him but again it’s not like they were friends. there was more of a slight rivalry and they barely spoke if they did

but so idk like.. between seasons hawks finds himself going like nearly every day to this rink.. aka shigaraki’s rink (also sidenote but lbr it’s really run by shirakumo who kinda has to fucking herd the cats w this group)

as frenemies dabi and shigaraki share their distaste for some of these pro athletes (tho some get a pass) and kinda complain about hawks a bit tho like..... shigaraki cant complain TOO much bc of the money from hawks renting out the rink for a few hours almost every day

dabi is too gay for this shit when he actually sees hawks in action. rip him 

tbh they dont really interact tho (besides dabi telling him to gtfo the rink or he’ll run him over with the zamboni) until one day that hawks catches dabi skating

he was done and should have been gone but he forgot something on the bleachers and then he sees dabi and.. oh boy he’s GAY AF

and also dabi is RLLY GOOD???

and so hawks makes a FOOL of himself and startles the poor guy and p much presses all the wrong buttons w asking why he doesnt compete or something

and i mean im sure they had some SLIGHT progress w talking before. nothing significant but god the walls go RIGHT THE FUCK UP and dabi is pissed

tbh dabi was gunna get to the point where he LEGIT talked to him and maybe lowkey asked him out (he says this but shigaraki calls his bluff) and now there is no way. he storms off and tries to avoid him so hard

and hawks tries to corner him a bit but after some time he does manage to corner him and be like pls just let me take you out to dinner to make up for that shit????

aaand dabi accepts bc listen okay he cant say no to free food ??? like he’s kinda pissy w this guy but also.. listen he has EYES 

anywayyy p much this just leads to them dating

hawks DEF looks him up and watches all the vids of him and like the idiot he is realizes that he met him before ( “oh my GOD i know you” “uh… we’re dating i hope u know me?????”  “nO I MEAN WE MET AT (insert comp)”)

but before that dabi did like tell him some shit. mainly about like how he used to skate blah blah and the whole thing that ended all of that

he doesnt really delve too deep into like his shitty childhood until well later

idk what leads to it but the convo finally comes up and it’s so draining for dabi and hawks is horrified and ready to fight his dad (“listen i just sharpened my skates i’ll just-”)

anyway some side things bc this is long and i will answer questions on this tho

rumi is a women’s pro hockey player and fuyumi who actually follows hockey and shit has the BIGGEST crush on her (they end up together)

also natsuo comes to see one of the leagues games (he hasnt really seen them play tbh?? he hears about it from dabi but he lives like at least a few hours away on campus and is going for med school so rip him) and like he meets shigaraki and anyway dabi is losing his FUCKING MIND bc his best frenemy/boss and his younger brother are FLIRTING. RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM???

dabi and hawks are really gay together and have skated together by this point and made out on ice a few times and shigaraki was miserable and is like “NOW U KNOW!!” and dabi is pissed bc “yEAH BUT THAT”S MY LITTLE BROTHER??? IT”S NOt thE SAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” 

#dabihawks #bnha #ice skating au #figure skating au #hockey au #idk all the skating #todomido #tododeku #it's lowkey in this post but it's VERY much there and u SHOULD ask me about it #natshig #siganatsu #again lowkey buuut #and #same w #miruyumi #mha #boku no hero academia #dabi #hawks #todoroki touya #takami keigo #todoroki enji #lov #shigaraki tomura #im tired of tagging things actually #speaks #my writing #kinda #my aus #not art