#and really thought i had beefed it bc i was 19 and alone

[inkskinned]

i know people are good because of this: the universe often assigns me side quests. in a circular strangeness; despite my inability to locate my-own-anything, i am almost-always finding someone else's lost things. dogs, coats, phones, cash, laptops. it happens so often it's almost tiring; suddenly being looped into a tiny amount of detective work.

but when i'm with other people who are not used to this: the response is almost invariably delight. yes, maybe they are simply thrilled by the mystery. it's just... they light up so much. i think maybe more... i think they like the opportunity to do something kind.

a few weeks ago, i was at a bar and i found a wallet as soon as we stepped outside. i felt nervous to ask for help, worried i would be holding up the night. i picked it up and said go on without me, i should help this get back to its home.

instead, three people pulled out their phones - to find him on facebook, to help cancel his credit cards. two people went back into the bar to tell the bartender, two others went calling down the street. group texts, facebook posts, instagram stories. people, without even seeing what happened, start offering help to me. fifteen minutes and: someone knows someone who knows the guy. the cheer that went up - just for finding him, just for this small thing. someone gets him on the phone. strangers dance around me, hopping on their feet - are you the girl that found that wallet? good for you, that's a good thing you're doing/same thing happened to me and somebody did what you're doing and i thank god everyday for people like you/i can't believe you found him so fast this is so exciting

i gave it back to him in a parking lot. i watched his shoulders sag with relief. there was cash in it still - he checked the pocket, and then sheepishly held the money out to me. i didn't take it. i held up my hands. "it's no problem, man. i know you'd do the same for me."

i don't know him, to be honest. i don't know if he is the same kind of person i am. but he nodded at me.

and i know people are good. i know people are good, because the way this story ends isn't surprising. we wave goodbye awkwardly. my friend loops their arm around me.

"i can't believe we got it back to him," they said. "i'm going to be riding that high for weeks."

#i lost my wallet in disney world once #and really thought i had beefed it bc i was 19 and alone #and a woman got it back to me within an hour #just like . a mom #i have no idea how she got my number or info #and i do think that since then karmatically god has been like. #ur about to be the same person in someone else's life #btw i like the side quests but they never happen at a good time #once saved 2 lost dogs while on the way to the airport. i already had my 70 pound dog in the back of my car #and had to chase 2 dogs down the street to wrastle into my passenger seat #(she ended up writing me the fucking nicest thank you card and sending me WAY #W A Y too much in target bucks as a thank-you) #i went 2 go see batman the other night and legit like. had already been running late #to go see a friend #and instead was like. sorry i have to step outside and use this person's phone to see if i can find them #i once found 250 dollars in cash lol #MEANWHILE IN MY PRIVATE LIFE #I LOSE FUCKING EVERYTHING #adhd will be like #: thou art so observant that it is distracting : #: BUT not observant towards items that are not novel to you : #: die mad about it : #: so it is written. so it must be : #: no nobody saw where you put the fucking car keys :

[stuff-of-pi]

50 Questions You’ve Never Been Asked

@back-in-silver-and-green tagged me and I thought this was super fun!!!

What is the color of your hairbrush? Pink, but I use my mom’s a lot and that one is black.

A food you never eat? Celery. I hate that stuff. Icky!

Are you typically too warm or too cold? Too cold! Someone should totally come cuddle me to fix that <3

What were you doing 45 minutes ago? Eating dinner with my folks :)

What is your favorite candy bar? 100 Grand bars!!! SO GOOD!

Have you ever been to a professional sports event? Heck yeah! I got to rugby games with my family all the time. When I was younger, we used to go to Colorado Rockies games, but baseball is boring (sorry my baseball lovers!)

What is the last thing you said out loud? 我愛你爸爸！(I love you dad!)

What is your favorite ice cream? Extreme Chocoloate Moose Tracks

What was the last thing you had to drink? Water :D

Do you like your wallet? I guess so? It’s really old and is a “masculine wallet”, which my mother never fails to rag on me for

What was the last thing you ate? 滷肉 (LuRou - pork braised in soy sauce) and rice. It was very salty and very yummy

Did you buy any new clothes last weekend? Nope! I was on a road trip with my dad :)

The last sporting event you watched? Highlights from men’s volleyball! So good!!!

What is your favorite flavor of popcorn? Mixed butter and chocolate covered popcorn. Or just popcorn and M&Ms

Who was the last person you sent a text message to? My group chat named “老師’s disappointments” (referring to our Chinese teacher) with my bffs, Allie, Andrew, and Steven. I said “You bitches don't appreciate my memes but I love y'all anyways”

Ever go camping? Yes! I love it a lot and there are TONS of camping spots here in CO! Although our govenor has suspended camping for the entire season :(

Do you take vitamins? Every so often I’ll take 15 mg of zinc and iron bc they help with migraines that appear behind the eyes :)

Do you go to church every Sunday? Yes, I do! Though we haven’t been physically going to church for a couple months now

Do you have a tan? Not currently, but I tan pretty well in the summer. It’s the Sicilian heritage

Do you prefer Chinese food or pizza? Chinese food!!! If I could only eat one ‘genre’ of food so to speak for the rest of my life, it would be Chinese food

Do you drink your soda with a straw? I don’t often drink soda, but when I do it’s usually just straight outta the can

What color socks do you usually wear? Black

Do you ever drive above the speed limit? Literally everytime. I got pulled over once for going 19 over in a residential area and got off with just a warning. Since then, I make a point of never going above 5 over...

What terrifies you? Being alone or having important people in my life abandon me and never receiving closure for that. Also, I’m really terrified of bees when they get close

Look to your left, what do you see? My huge makeup kit

What chore do you hate? Anything to do with dishes

What do you think of when you hear an Australian Accent? @are-you-being-sirius being a little shit in the best ways possible. Also my sunshine hype man, @chaser-not-a-seeker

What’s your favorite soda? Once again, I don’t drink it very often, but I enjoy Dr. Pepper the most!

Do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? I usually grab fast food when I’m already running late to a rehearsal downtown, so I do whatever is fastest which tends to be the drive thru

Favorite cut of beef? I don’t really eat beef (bc I don’t like it) unless my 阿姨 (Taiwanese aunt) has cooked up some Korean BBQ

Who’s the last person you talked to? My dad

Last song you listened to? Grace by Surfaces

Last book you read? The last book I physically read was Invisible Man by Ralph Ellison, but my dad and I were on a road trip this weekend and we were listening to Otherworld by Jason Segel and Kirsten Miller

Favorite day of the week? Friday, ofc!

Can you say the alphabet backwards? If I try really hard and you’ve got a lot of time, probably

How do you like your coffee? I don’t drink coffee :)

Favorite pair of shoes? I love me some flip flops or plain old boat shoes

At what time do you normally go to bed? During quarantine, somewhere around 4 am. Otherwise, usually 11.

At what time do you normally get up? During quarantine, anywhere between 10 and 11 am. Otherwise, 8 or 9 am.

What do you prefer sunrise or sunsets? Sunset :)

How many blankets are on your bed? Currently, five

Describe your kitchen plates? Our ‘fancy’ glass ones are white with a ring of gold around it and grey scratch marks from utensils. Our nice plastic ones are multi colored stripes or all blue. Our everyday plastic ones are all scratched up solid colors

Do you have a favorite alcoholic beverage? I do not drink alcohol, so no, I do not. My favorite fancy drink though is a Shirley Temple. And I can appreciate a virgin Piña Colada

Do you play cards? Yes! But only the simple ones that don’t involve any actual skill bc I can be Big Dumb

What color is your car? White

Can you change a tire? Nope, but I’m sure YouTube could help me

What is your favorite state/providence? I really do love Colorado and Utah! All of the outdoors stuff is great. Especially where I live, I’m 30 minutes from just about anything I would want to do

Favorite job you’ve ever had? Obviously acting, but for ‘real jobs’, I loved being a waitress for an assissted living center. Most of the old folks were great and made the job fun. Management is what lead me to quit

How did you get your biggest scar? I have a rubbery scar along my spine that’s about 3 inches long that I got from a free soloing rock climbing accident. I have another inch long rubber scar on my chest from when I stabbed myself with a pencil rocket in the third grade :)

What did you do today that made someone else happy? I played the piano for my dad and then we went on a walk together!

I’ll tag @stjernfaerie, @are-you-being-sirius, @chaser-not-a-seeker, @whatsupitswendy, @transaurus, @thisaliennerd, @sugarxbeanie, @w0tchermarauders, and anyone else who thinks this looks like fun/wants to!

#tag game #pi stuff

[0225pm]

it is currently 8:34am!!

just wanted to update on today’s events before i sleep.

so earlier this morning, i accompanied my mom to akmal’s madrasah graduation but rayhan managed to book out earlier than expected so he was able to come see the grad. but in the letter they said that they only allowed max of 2 people into the hall so i decided to just let my mom and rayhan go since tbh, i wasn’t wearing the proper attire to go in the masjid anyway. at first, i was kinda upset with my mom cus i didn’t see the point of me going if rayhan was going since only 2 people are allowed per child but then thinking of my mom going there on her own makes me worry a little since she’s rather frail so i decided to go with her and sent her to the masjid, waited for rayhan to come before making my way to bedok interchange.

it has been a rather long while since i’ve been to the interchange, or anyway really, on my own. i’m the kind of person that prefers having company than doing things alone. some may say that i lack independency but whatever it is, it’s always nice to have company. as i was walking around aimlessly in the mall, i thought of going to mcdonald’s to just lepak until my mom calls but it was too damn crowded and i missed the breakfast timing by a minute, so that was a bummer. but yeah, can you actually imagine me eating alone??? the last time i had to do that was back when i was working for YG at OG and taka, for my lunch break since i was working alone lol. but anyway, as i made my rounds at each levels, i finally decided to buy something to eat at old chang kee and then as i went back up the escalator, i thought of going to heartbeat but then again the thought of having to walk all the way there while i was socially sweating seems like a major no at that point so i decided not to and went to starbucks instead. alas, what a poor decision i’ve made. like literally, poor LOL cus i was $8.80 poorer after buying one of their christmas frappe lol and i didn’t even add whipped cream!! i should have said yes to whipped cream bc those are free unless you want extras, then you’ll have to pay. but anyway, the good thing is there was a lot of empty seats at starbucks which was quite weird considering that it’s a saturday but i was thankful cus it means that i didn’t have to stand awkwardly waiting for my mom to call.

so after i collected my drink, i sat down and i watched a couple episodes of chilling adventures of sabrina on netflix. luckily i downloaded a few so i managed to save on data haha but i didn’t think to bring my portable charger and my battery was getting pretty low after awhile. also i noticed that the person spelled my name as “hady” instead of “heidy” lol but wtvr doesn’t bother me. and then i think around 1+ almost 2, my mom called saying that they’re done with the ceremony and then asking me to go meet her and my cousins at this shop called new rezki and at first i was kinda lost and then well, my mom has this habit of like screeching her voice into the phone so it sounds like she’s shouting and/or raising her voice intensely like as though she’s mad and pissed at you but really, she’s not. i guess it’s a bad habit she picked up after countless “huh hello” whenever she called someone. but yeah, so i got a little bit upset cus the feeling’s not good when someone is raising their voice at you and i was wearing my earpiece for goodness sake so i kinda raised my voice a little too and then like i said, i was lost so she tried to direct me but LOL i ended up just googling and apparently it’s just right across the interchange, roughly about 4 mins walk as stated on map.

after seeing me, we all started ordering the food we wanted. akmal got fried noodles, rayhan had to watch what he eat cus he’s in NS and he’ll be punished if he gains weight instead of losing so he got a bowl of beef salad. my mom got bee hoon kuah and i got their mutton chop. it was ok but very oily for my taste so i don’t think i’ll ever buy that again unless i’m craving for it and if i’m nearby. it’s a dollar cheaper than the ones selling at thohirah though. oh and the shop is 24/7 too! i guess most, if not all, mamak eateries are 24/7. after we had our lunch, my mom bought some lauk back for my dad and for dinner and then we all headed back to the interchange. from there we split ways with my cousins cus they were taking the bus at the entrance of the mall, whereas we were taking the one at the interchange.

the moment i reached home, i quickly took a shower again and shampooed my hair cus i perspired earlier on and as i was changing i heard knocking on my window. i was so shook wtf cus i wasn’t expecting anyone but turns out it was farhan. like seriously what the heck.... LOL i was happy la but i was also very shock cus i thought he was gonna take the train but he actually took a grab all the way to my place instead. damn bobo la hahahaha and i wasn’t even fully ready yet even. so i rushed and did my usual face makeup and then let him in so he didn’t have to wait so long for me outside and then i did my usual going out routine. drying my hair, straightening a little, picking outfits and putting them together in my head. for some reason i was super duper indecisive about my outfit today. like idk why i couldn’t just grab and go like i usually do. and i also always will look through look books or style accounts and then visualize it in my head and i’m set but idk why the hell was i so damn frikin indecisive and fickle minded about my outfit today i kept changing and changing and then wearing different pieces together and shit and lol i finally ended up wearing the first outfit i tried which was just a black dress with a denim jacket. the sad thing is, the dress was kinda short and when i walk it gets even shorter so every now and then i had to pull it down but it’s really a cute dress though i think it’ll be nicer on someone shorter haha.

we walked to the bus stop and then went to tampines cus i had to get the brooch that my mom wants at isetan and while on the way there we were thinking of what to eat and looking through links that i’ve saved on facebook on different places we can go and eat at but most of them were either too far or too expensive and we don’t have that kind of money to throw on food yet, especially not when we still have 2 more weeks left till end of the month. after awhile, we decided to stop at tamp hub and eat at the thai shop, the one where we ate before. but lol the queue was so long and it seems like a long wait + majority of the tables were filled so we settled for tenderfresh. i felt like having fish so i got their grilled fish with aglio olio and farhan got the chicken chop one. i like their aglio olio!! it has this mild spice taste and farhan says that it’s kinda like mee goreng. overall, it was nice. their buffalo wings could be a little bit spicy though but it was still good! 😋

after our late lunch early dinner, we went to isetan to see the brooches but sadly there wasn’t anymore sale price and it was going at $19 per pin so i called my mom and ask if she still wants it and she said no cus it’s too expensive and if it was $9 like before it’ll still be ok. so we ended up not getting anything there. though now thinking about i felt like i should have just splurge my money to get her one brooch at least since she has been wanting it when she first noticed it last saturday.

afterwards, i casually mentioned genki before to farhan and he thought i was joking but lol we ended up taking the train and going to genki cus i said that i wanna satisfy my cravings. we went to the bugis outlet and surprisingly the queue was moving really fast. i got the ones i wanted and we spent less than 20 bucks there which was really unexpected but also good i guess. i’m so thankful that farhan was ok with splitting the bill even though he didn’t even eat a lot. then after that we walked from bugis to dhoby as usual and i wanted to walk even further down towards plaza sing bus stop but we saw another 65 coming so we decided to walk back towards the sota bus stop and take it there instead hehe.

i really enjoyed my day today with him. it has been a wonderful day and i hope that we will have more good happy days like these. i like how we shared our music interest while on the bus ride home, and then i was so in awe when i heard him rapping!!! he really look so cool at that moment hahaha like im not kidding. maybe i’m the only one who sees him and think that he’s cool la but hahaha wtvr 😂 i also like how we joked a lot and just sorta teased each other lol or maybe that was me bc i kacau him on the train ride towards bugis hahaha and his reactions are all so cute wth i just wanna squish him 🥰😍 and then i get to lay in his arms!!!! that’s always my fav part at the end of the day tbh. just being in his embrace hais.... oh and he went home really late (or should i say early lol) around 7am cus we had a hard time booking a grab!!! but also bc we were busy playing ml hahaah we were on a roll but had to stop since he hasn’t been home for the whole day and me too but like my house is just here ya know whereas he lives all the way at the other side hahaha so yeah i gotta get him back home and to sleep also since we didn’t get much sleep that night. one day i wanna try sneaking him into the house and letting him just sleep in my brother’s room or something after my dad’s asleep. but idk if i have the guts haha or maybe should do like that time when he stayed in my brother’s room till really late and we played games together and watched movies on netflix. that was fun too 😁

#adaywithhan #novemberwithhan #personal #171118 #181118