#and shes in a few of my classes rn and whenever shes called on by the teacher she never unmutes or types in the chat or anything

[fawnprincessblog]

𝒜𝓃𝓰𝓮𝓁'𝓈 𝒹𝓮𝓋𝓮𝓁𝓸𝓅𝓂𝓮𝓃𝓉 𝒹𝒾𝒶𝓇𝓎.

(part 1: 'the praise and some coffee') type: slow burn, fluff (tom kaulitz 2015 × fem reader)

includes : teacher × student, childish annoying immature school girl who's name is Angel (you), teacher tom, wannabe teacher's pet, age gap. tom is 25, angel is 17. plot : angel, a young, childish and innocent honour student was shunned by her schoolmates due to her being a teacher's pet, but none of that mattered whenever she ran into her favorite teacher, Tom, that she so deeply admired, who she swears on her life she will serve until the day she dies. despite being favourited by many other teachers, tom does not favour her due to her clingy behaviour. she may be smart but her hormones play a huge part in her schooling life as well.

bambi's note! : hello sweeties :3 i don't really wanna explain much but i think you guys will be sick of hearing the same lame excuse to why i disappear quite frequently. writer block makes me want to suicide sometimes, i've been trying my hardest to write, this took me months to finally put tgt. crazy that it's short too. i have drafts from last year in my docs. im also an art student, so it makes it hard to tackle both things rn. anyway, have fun reading part one of 'Angel's development diary ' :3

“Everyone now turn to page 74,” Tom instructs, his voice sharp and echoing across the classroom. The whole room was silent, only he could be heard. Nobody would disrespect a man like him, for he was rather strict, and serious, his only intention being to get his point across and educate his students. That’s what the majority saw in him. 

Well, except for one person. That was Angel. The honour student of her class.

Angel saw what other people did not care about. Despite being the very sophisticated and refined teacher everyone knew, to her he was so much more. Tom was a young, 25 year-old Maths teacher. She admired that strong body structure of his, and the way his face features all fit together. The way his hair was always worn in a messy bun, a few strands poking out the front, had just added to his good looks. He wasn’t over-dressed, like those wannabe scientists-looking teachers in her physics classes; he was rather usually seen in t-shirts. On special occasions, she got to see him in a suit. 

He wasn’t the kind to play around. He expected all his students to pass his class with flying colours, not one left behind. In fact, all teachers wished the same. In such a popular and very high-class school, of course every single student had to be well-behaved and supremely knowledgeable.

The school Angel went to was one with a high standard of academic and extracurricular achievements. It has a strong emphasis on academics and often has a highly selective acceptance rate, which makes it difficult to get in. She was quite lucky. The campus has beautiful architecture, state-of-the-art facilities, and ample resources for students' academic and personal development. The faculty members are very well-educated and experienced in their respective fields, and the school often has a high student-teacher ratio. The students are often from wealthy families with a strong academic focus, and the school often boasts a high graduation rate. 

Coming from such a school that was great and had put Angel’s reputation in great hands meant no mistakes were to be made at all. She had to maintain her good grades. And one thing is for sure: she couldn’t possibly keep having dirty thoughts about her teacher. 

“Hey, you,” Tom called out, snapping his fingers twice. “Angel?” 

She snapped out of her trance almost immediately, a little startled by his tone. “Oh—yes?” she responds, heat evidently rising in her cheeks the moment he had called out her name. Oh, when he said her name, it only served to heighten her arousal. His voice was so strong and firm, it made her squirm in her seat like a damn worm. All those dirty thoughts wouldn’t go away. 

“Are you gonna pay attention? Or is daydreaming the only thing you like to do?” Tom asked, folding his muscular arms across his chest, staring right into her soul. He had this scary glare that usually put most students in fear, but to her, it was attractive. His dominant demeanour when teaching a lesson made her imagine all these horrendous things, like how he was in bed. 

“N-No—! Um, I was listening,” Angel responds, clearing her throat. She shifted a little in her seat, tugging at the hem of her red plaid skirt. She was wet. So uncomfortably wet and aroused, she would’ve probably left a stain on the chair if she had gotten up.

“I hope so,” Tom grunted, turning back to the chalkboard to continue writing those endless amounts of Math sums. It was overwhelming to look at; all of the numbers bunched together, the dusty residue of the chalk making it even worse. It was a lot to take in, however that was just how it was. 

His teaching continued, his voice loud and clear. Angel diligently started writing down her notes, trying to keep up with his pace. Being such a good student, she had become fond of his teachings, and she was expected to have one of the highest marks among the rest, even if everyone else was already good. 

An honour student. That’s what she was. Supposedly, she was the teacher’s pet. 

She did well, joined every possible club and involved herself in every school event, making sure she was obtaining high merit points that boosted her reputation in her school. Angel was simply a good little girl that most teachers did like, but the other students, and for some reason, Tom, did not like her. They found her exasperating. 

The bell rings. Class is over, and Tom is preparing a stack of worksheets to hand out to the class on the way out. “Alright class, tomorrow I wanna see all your worksheets full of numbers. All correct and no mistakes. I believe I’ve taught you all enough on this topic, so I expect perfect answers,” he announces. “You can pack up and leave now.” 

“Sir!” Angel calls out, rising from her seat abruptly, making everyone else pause from their packing up. Majority rolled their eyes. “You forgot to take attendance. Usually you take attendance every morning before class but since you forgot the checklist you said you would—”

“Right, right, okay,” Tom interrupts, an exasperated sigh followed right after. Clearly, he was pissed. Angel was quite aware that he disliked her try-hard behaviour, in fact, she was aware everyone did. Of course as an honour student she was made to please the teachers with good grades and behaviour, but the other students knew clearly she acted the most clingy around Tom. She saw past his strict demeanour and she acted like a child around him. Always trying to point out the simplest things, always reminding him about his meetings, always trying to get him his coffee, always trying to help him out at any damn chance she got— Angel was desperate and needy for his love. She was willing to make him love her. She wanted to be his favourite student. 

He notwithstanding, saw her as a confounded girl who was beating a dead horse. A try-hard, annoying, clingy little bitch that stuck to him like a damn tick. It irritated him when she acted like his little servant. 

But Angel liked it. She didn’t care. 

“Since you wanna help so much, get the checklist for me,” Tom tells her rather bluntly, clicking a pen in his hand as he speaks. Angel’s ears perk up at his request. “What? Really?” she asks, eyes full of joy. That annoying excited voice—it made his ears bleed.

“Go get it, it's in my office,” Tom says. “And hurry. Your classmates wanna leave class.” 

“Consider it done, sir!” she enthused, immediately dashing towards the door and running straight to his office. Like a little slave, she did everything for him.

Recess time. One of the times where Angel would bother her favourite teacher the most. Even if she was trying to be helpful, she usually came off as a nuisance. He was an earnest and disciplined man, always keeping up with his set schedule. During break he’d grab coffee in the teacher’s lounge, discuss some things with his colleagues, or he’d take the coffee straight to his office so he can finish up paperwork. However he wasn’t the only one who kept to his schedule…

“Hi sir,” she greeted excitedly, grinning like an idiot. She blocked him, not allowing him to continue walking through the school hallway, which was empty since everyone else was at the cafeteria. “Where will you be taking yourself to today? Do you need help with anything?

He lets out a breath, trying his hardest to not let her irritate him right now. Angel being around him was something he couldn’t possibly avoid. It was an everyday thing now. “No,” he said simply. He then looked around. “Do I look like I need help?” His tone was dripping with sarcasm. Angel could tell, but she couldn’t be bothered. 

“You may not be holding anything that I could help you carry, but there’s other things I can help with,” Angel says. “Like, your coffee. Do you want me to get your coffee?” She was just so damn innocent  acting like a maid trying to please him with every chance she got. She really acted like life was all unicorns and rainbows, like she had not a single issue in the world.

“For the last time, I can get it myself. You’ve been asking this everyday now,” Tom sighs. “Shouldn’t you be eating? It’s recess. Go eat.”

“I already have,” Angel replies with that annoying giggle right after, making him clench his jaw. She was insufferable. That giggle was ingrained into his mind. He could recognise it from a mile away. 

“Okay, good. Now if you don’t mind, you can just mov—”

“One sachet of the coffee mix, two teaspoons of sugar and some milk to top it off,” she interrupted, making him raise an eyebrow. “You use the blue mug. Always the blue mug,” she added.

“You know my coffee?” he asked, a little disturbed by her knowledge on how he liked his coffee. His eyes narrowed to slits, peering at her.

“Yep,” she replies, as if it were the most normal thing in the world. To him, she was a complete stalker at this point. “You have about 12 minutes to go to the teacher’s lounge and get your coffee, and return back to your office to finish marking off the recent test you gave us before you have to rush to the meeting you have with Mr.Harrison about the new changes we’re making to the school’s mural art.” 

“What?” he said, almost wanting to laugh in disbelief. That was way too many words for him to comprehend. “You know my schedule?” 

“Well I memorised it,” she shrugged. “Tuesday’s and Fridays you stay in your office during break. All the other days you’re eating at the teacher’s lounge.

What the hell, he thought, looking at her with the most perplexed look he’s ever plastered onto his perfect face. “What are you doing, stalking me? My schedule is printed on paper and left in the drawer of my desk—”

“It’s also printed in my mind,” she joked, pointing a finger to her temple. 

He looks at her, bewildered. Completely uneasy. He didn’t like this. He knew she always had this weird thing for him, but he didn’t think she was this peculiar, knowing his schedule and all. Tom was taken aback by her behaviour, but he remained unruffled for now. It wasn’t too surprising, since she had been doing this for a while; asking him if she could get his coffee, but he had always declined. In the past, she had been randomly reminding him about his meetings, or anything he planned to do on that day, which he also found annoying, but today she really surprised him, wording out his entire plan for today.  

He cleared his throat. “Well, I know my own schedule, I don’t need you to tell me,” he says.

“I know. You’re very smart. But, I figured you’d like help,” she says, grinning. 

He had to get rid of her. This damn pest of a student. “I don’t. Not right now. So, If you don’t mind, Angel, please move aside so I can go.” He tries to walk past her, but she stubbornly blocks him again. 

“C’mon, I’m sure you need someone to get your coffee,” Angel insisted, looking at him with those set of pathetic eyes, ones that he insanely hated to look at. She was small, pretty, and sweet, but she was tiring. He didn’t like her. “Angel…” he sighed, wanting to snap at her, but he held back; he may be strict, but there was no reason to be shouting at a student who just wanted to help so badly, right? “...Fine. Get my coffee, bring it to my office. Now.” he finally relented, looking down at her rather annoyed that he had forced himself to give in. Oh, she really had her ways. 

“Yes, sir!” Angel exclaims, smiling widely, and she dashed off, disappearing immediately. Tom folded his arms, watching the pesky little girl run off to get his coffee like a slave. She obeyed him so much, wanting to do anything just for his attention. He chuckled a little, he couldn’t help himself.

“One coffee,” she says, placing the blue ceramic mug onto his desk slowly, as if she were a waitress. Tom had been busy on his computer, going over some emails while waiting. She had returned rather quickly. Tom flashed her a faint smile, and he took the cup, taking a small sip. She had got it right. It tasted exactly like how he wanted. 

Wait for the praise, wait for the praise, Angel thought in her mind, eagerly looking at him for a positive reaction with big, innocent eyes. 

“It’s exactly how I like it, Angel,” Tom finally says, looking up at her. He noticed her small hands fidgeting with the hem of her school skirt. “Good job,” he finally praised, his voice low and soothing. 

Angel’s cheeks immediately flushed pink. Everytime he gave her praise, her arousal hit her like a brick. She couldn’t contain herself. She could already feel herself soaking her panties. “N-No problem, sir…” Angel says, her lips slowly curling into a nervous grin. She squeezed her thighs together a little, trying to contain herself. 

“You may go now,” he says. 

“Y-Yes,” she nods, bowing a little as a sign of respect. She then left.

Tom did not know the effect he had on this girl. If only he could ease that ache.

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[slu7formen]

HEY HEHEGE IK I JUST SENT IN A REQUEST but can i pretty please have another slytherin reader x ced sickfic😭😭😭😔😔😔 this cold is kicking my ass rn i need ced to take care of me🤞 how bout if the reader is like stubborn denying she’s sick but ced is a casual dom taking care of her and reader just complies when he gives her the stern look😫😫 and he’s worried sick not letting her out of bed n stuff omg i want someone to scold me for being sick ffs im lonely as hell. also thank you sm for the last request i made you r a godsend🥰🥰

also can i know what to call you pls i feel rather awkward calling you, well, you. love you tho 💋💋 i’m confident im ur biggest fan if there’s no appreciater of ur work then im probably dead in a ditch somewhere

you’re always requesting and I think that’s just so sweet 🥹 thank u ! also, had so much fun writing this.

Cedric taking care of you when you’re sick <3

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Sometimes Cedric hated how stubborn you were. Like, really, he truly felt that you behaved like a child that tried to get everything their own way and everything else was just wrong.

He noticed. It was not fucking hard to notice that you were about to catch the worst flu of your life; you looked so sick you could easily be mistaken for someone who was dragon pox. Your sore throat, the pain in your chest, the phlegm in your chest when you coughed, and the sneezing. And still, you were bold enough to lie to his face.

“I’m fine” you affirmed, followed by a small sneeze. Cedric raised his eyebrows at you, you rolled your eyes. “Seriously, it’s nothing”

“It’s nothing?” Cedric raised his voice, looking at you in disbelief. “Honey, you can’t even talk without choking in your own phlegm”

“Don’t overreact” you bit back. “I said I’m fine”

He didn’t want to fight. Whenever you did, it was because most of the time, you behaved like the most stubborn person ever… but he just relaxed. Maybe you could get better, maybe you were right this time.

Of course you weren’t right. Do you really believe that you’re ever gonna prove Cedric wrong?

The next morning your body was hurting, swollen and sore everywhere and constantly groaning as you sat down in chairs during classes. Cedric noticed every single time.

“Can you please let me take you to the Emergency Wing?” he had whispered to you once Snape had walked past you two.

“No” you argued.

“You’re not even writing there” he pointed to your hand, where the ink had dropped a few drops since you just lifted your wrist in the air, without writing anything.

“Cedric” you called. You rarely called him by his name, it was always ‘Ced’ to him, unless you were mad. “I’m fine. Stop it”

He let it pass just one more day, but when you didn’t even show up to your first class the next morning, he truly started to get mad.

You woke up with him sitting at the edge of your bed. You gasped as you sat on the bed, desperate and confused. “What time is it?” you asked, already trying to get out of bed.

“Don’t worry, you’ve missed classes already” he interrupted. You sat on the bed, angry.

“I what!?” you yelled, as painful as it was for you to do so.

“You’re staying in bed” he demanded, big arms crossed over his chest as he stood up, standing in front of your weak body like a giant statue, demanding you to stay where you are.

But of course, you had to complain.

“How many times do I have to tell you?” you stood up and pushed his shoulder, walking past him. “I’m f-…” before you could reach the door, an invisible force bounced you back into your place. You scoffed in disbelief, and Cedric grinned, satisfied. You tried to walk again, but the same bouncy feeling hit your body, much harder this time.

“Imperturbable Charm” he explained. “You’re not getting out of this room”

“Imperturbable-, where’s my wand?” you walked towards him, almost hitting your chest to his, even though the scene was not threatening at all. To Cedric’s eyes, it looked quite funny. You, all red nose and sore throat, smaller than him, trying to act angry at him. Yeah, as if he would let you win this time.

“I’m not giving you your wand. You’re staying inside this room, so do as I say, and go to bed”

You scoffed, crossing your arms over your chest. “No”

“Oh?” he dared, raising both eyebrows and lowering his head. He studied your facial expressions for a moment before speaking again. “Baby, that wasn’t a question. Let me take care of you, and go to bed”

You bit the inside of your cheek. His grey eyes were working their way inside your brain; you fucking hated it and loved it at the same time. You groaned when you slowly saw his satisfied smirk grow on his face, he knew he already won.

Once you got yourself covered in bed again, he walked to the nightstand next to your bed. On top of it, there was a small ceramic bowl with a brown liquid inside, it smelled good. He grabbed it carefully and handed it to you. “It’s chicken and pumpkin soup” he explained. He slowly placed it over your lap, instantly feeling the heat grow over your thighs, it was still hot.

He then squat down and took his leather bag, the one you gifted him just a few months ago. He opened it, and took one small glass bottle, placing it at your small nightstand bed. “And this,” he pointed to the horrible red liquid “is Pepperup Potion. You have to drink it. Madame Pomfrey said it’s just a common cold that you have, but since you’ve been like this for days, if you’re not better by tomorrow morning, you’ll have to stay at the Emergency Wing”

You gulped, looked down at the hot soup, and then back at him. “Okay” you said in a small voice. Cedric sighed heavily before taking a spoon and sitting in front of you at the bed, next to your thighs. You tried to take it, but he quickly backed it up. He served some soup on the spoon, making sure that a small piece of chicken stayed there, he knew how much you loved to have in the first bite… or drink.

“Open” he demanded. You did so, and the warm and salty taste of the soup felt good against your tongue, already satisfied with your food for the first time in three days. You didn’t say anything, just letting your boyfriend put food into your mouth as he placed his free hand over your thigh, squeezing and soothing up and down.

“Thank you” you said after taking one particular big spoon of soup. “And, I’m sorry for being stubborn… and for not letting you take care of me”

He snorted. “It’s okay, angel” he replied. He knew how much you loved it when he called you that. “I know how hard that skull of yours can be sometimes”

You rolled your eyes. “Shut up” you laughed. He forced you into taking more of your food before it gets cold. “You shouldn’t be doing this. I can take care of myself”

“No one takes cares of you better than I do” he took the bowl out of your legs and placed it over the table.

“It’s not like I have a choice. You locked me up here”

He moved closer to you. “And don’t you like it?” he asked. “You and me, locked inside your dorm-…”

“Ced!” you gasped in disbelief before he bursted out laughing. “You’re supposed to be taking care of me, remember?”

“Excuse me, am I not doing it?”

You placed a hand at the back of his neck, slightly running your fingers through his scalp. “No. I would say you’re more of a distraction”

His face got closer to yours. “Am I?” he leaned in, but you backed up, surprise.

“Aren’t you afraid you’ll get sick too?”

“I really don’t care” he said before softly placing your lips over yours. Kissing Cedric always felt like kissing the smoothest and plushiest cloud. His lips were warm, and the way he captured your lips between yours was always the hardest thing to separate from whenever you broke the kiss. If you could, you’d kiss him forever.

He leaned back and placed his forehead on yours. “Want me to give you a massage?” he asked.

“Yes, please” you groaned. He laughed.

“Okay, okay” he stood up “But before that… your medicine” he took the glass bottle and shook it in his hand.

“Nooo” you whined, hiding under the covers.

“You have to drink it, honey” he tried to uncover you, which was already hard enough since your hands gripped onto the sheets with amazing strength.

“No!”

“You won’t get better unless you drink it”

“I already feel better” you lied.

Cedric found your head hidden under the blanket and gave it a light smack. “Liar” he panted.

After fighting for some time, Cedric promised you a chocolate frog after the medicine. He stayed with you for the rest of the day, only going to his own room when your roommates came back to your dorm to sleep, not leaving without kissing you first, and getting rid of the charm he had put around your bed.

It still felt weird when Cedric took care of you like this. You knew he was someone that cared for the people he loved, but you never thought it would go as far as staying with you in bed for a whole day, missing classes and risking himself on getting sick too.

But the truth was, Cedric loved you more than anything in this world. Taking care of you was the least thing he could do after you agreed in giving your heart and soul to him.

Is it a bad time for me to ask you to go check on my new ethan landry one shot ? 🥹

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[short-black-diamond]

NOOOOOoooooooo.....

UHMMMMMMMMMM, I’m alive, haven’t posted in a while and i’m sorry, anyways, here’s a thought that crossed my mind! 

Hope y’all like it! BTW, no good ending for deku, like, Reader ends up with Bakugo n shit. 

Um Um gender neutral (They/them/their), no name called, like (Y/n), I didn’t write (Y/n), annnnd, yeah. 

Um, so it’s actually mutual pining, but...yeah, i dunno.  READ!

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Bruh, imagine one sided love with Deku. 

You, who has known Midoriya Izuku all their life, who has been there for him when he found out that he was quirkless, when he got made fun of by Bakugo, when he didn’t feel his best.

So...

Why?

Why is he doing that to you? 

Why is he going towards Uraraka and not to you, with your outstretched arms, ready to hug him when he fucked up throwing the ball in the first test they had with the whole class on the first day of school? She only gave him a pat on the shoulder. 

Why was he trying to talk to Todoroki when the latter one didn’t want to have to do anything with the green haired boy? Why did Izuku care so much?

Why didn’t he talk to you as much as he did when it was just you two against the world?

Then it hit you. 

You loved him, but he only liked you. yeah, that’s it. Nothing more. 

anger, sadness and pain filled your whole body and soul the more you thought about it, and before you saw it coming, you spent the rest of the holidays alone, training to become a better person. 

Not once, ever since Deku met All Might, did you get a message other than ‘can’t srry’, ‘’m training rn’, ‘Maybe next time?’, or read on your phone from that freckled boy.  

Heartbreak. 

that’s what it was, yes...

You were so stupid. Why didn’t Deku tell you about his quirk that he had after all? Why was Uraraka the first one to witness it? Why was Bakugo the first one to find out about it? Why are Todoroki, Iida, Uraraka and Deku suddenly close friends with each other?

Why?

Is it because you’re somebody he knows already? Someone he thinks is boring? didn’t he like you anymore? Is that why he barely talks with you, too busy blushing whenever Uraraka touches or smiles at him?

You wanted to puke. You wanted to rip your heart out. Bang your head against a wall, fall down a building, drink poison, anything to stop those fucking butterflies erupting in your stomach whenever you thought about your ex bestfriend. 

Stupid feelings...!

...

...

...

It’s Sero, who notices your absence and lack of optimism first. Knocking swiftly on your door before opening it slowly, he is met with you pushing yourself up with your arms on a bar, in a handstand. 

“Whoah, you alright there?“, he asks, cautiously stepping closer and sitting down on your bed. a soft matress welcomed his ass as he sat down, and he sunk down a bit because of his weight.  

You didn’t hear the scotch tape dispenser and kept up with your training, sweat forming on legs, arms and neck, as well as on your forehead, rock music blasting your eardrums. your eyes were trained on the ground as to not loose your balance. 

Huh, pretty cozy in here., Sero thought.

Just now, the black haired boy realised that he has never been in your room until now. 

Sero looked around. He counted two pots of plants by the balcony, three little aquariums on your bookshelves, a big, little house like cage for Koda’s and your bunnies, which they rested in peacefully (yes, Koda canonly owns a bunny!) and as to not disturb them, you heard music with your earphones and tried your best to keep quiet with your groans. 

On the floor were some lost leaves for the bunnies, a few slices of carrot on the old fashioned nighttable, and lots of pet toys. but, there were also many pillows. A few people could make a pajama party here. 

And that became Sero’s idea. He smirked while watching you as he dialed Denki’s number, who then contacted the whole group. 

Soon, the loud people met your sweaty body and Sero looking at your form. They looked around, everyone thinking the same thing. 

They’re not as intimidating as they look. 

Suddenly, your feet met the ground, but you didn’t make a noise. you panted slowly as you stood up, but your sould nearly left your body when you saw the five people in your dorm room. 

“What the fuck? What are you guys doing here?!“, you whisper-yelled, not wanting to wake the furry pair in their nice little home. 

“Sero chatted us!“, mina cheered silently. 

“You looked down a little, so I thought we could chill a little.“, Sero gave back, speaking quietly. 

You locked eyes with Bakugo, and to your utter disbelief, he gave you a look of concern.

“You okay? You seem...dried out.“, he rasped, eyeing your body which was covered in sweat. 

You didn’t know what to say. 

Was THE Bakugo Katsuki asking about your wellbeing???!

“I...need a shower. Don’t be loud or touch anything.“, you then commanded upon seeing Kirishima, Denki and Mina play with your fishes. 

...

...

...

After about twenty minutes with a cold shower later, you were met with the sight of the five people having widen out your bed and everyone laying on it in a tangled mess; Mina was sleeping on Sero, Sero’s legs were on Denki’s stomach, Denki’s back was on Kirishima’s back, and Bakugo has somehow managed to sleep next to them without them touching him. 

You chuckled quietly and struggled to find a place to sleep on without laying your body parts on somebody else’s, when Bakugo pulled you flush against his chest. 

You blushed furiously while trying to escape from his vice grip, but he only pulled you closer. “Um...Bakugo-”

“Let’s stay like this. Tell me. Why are you behaving like that?“, he whispered. The soft snores of your loud friends signaled that you and Bakugo were the only ones awake at this hour. 

And that gave you time to think about your answer. 

“I...well, it’s about Izu- Midoriya.“

“Ouch, what did he do to make himself land on last name basis with ya?“

You laughed a little, your nervousness about being so close--too close--with your childhood rival, fading a little. 

Huh, it’s pretty nice with him. 

Only now did you feel his chiseled hand trail up and down your body, relaxing you. comforting you. 

“I don’t know. First thing I know, we’re besties, it’s me and him against the world, and the boom. Suddenly he has all those other...those better people around him...“

Bakugo listened to what you whispered. He didn’t say anything. 

“...He is friends with Todoroki, son of the number one pro hero. With Iida, son of a rich family. With Uraraka, whom he must have a crush on...!

I-I mean, look at her! She’s so much more than me..! She is so nice! While I’m trying to be intimidating and shit. She has a nice, high voice, while mine is grotesquely deep. she can make things float! And what can I do with my quirk? No-“

A pair of soft, caramel tasting lips touched yours tenderly. He pressed them on you, very slowly, cautiously, as not to ram into you. His lips were made to fit against yours it seemed. 

he breathed out a sigh, and you, being completely shocked and surprised, calmed down a bit after a few seconds. Then you closed your eyes and cherished the moment. 

After a little more moments of that sudden intimacy, you guys broke the kiss. 

You still had your eyes closed, still feeling the explosive boy’s lips on yours. When you opened your eyelids, you caught him looking at you with a little smile. 

“Please don’t think so lowly of yourself. If you want to know, ‘m havin’ a hard time catchin’ up with ya. Yer more than that floaty bitch, y’know? And about that damn nerd...I’ll handle this. a’ight?“

Unable to say anything - then again, what could you say? - you nodded. 

And then, you saw Katsuki avert his eyes, his cheeks changing their colour and he stuttered something. 

“...w-would you like to... go out ...with me or somethin’?“

at that, you smiled. “Sure, why not?”, and you snuggled into his tits. chest.

Securely, you fell into a deep slumber in the arms of your former enemy. 

But...that didn’t seem to be so bad now. 

...

“Oi, you ready or nah?“, your boyfriend sneered, standing in the doorway. you were putting on a jacket to your school uniform. “Katsuki it’s cold.“

“I am hot.“

“I know, now put on this hoodie.“

“No.“

“...Why not?“

“It’s-“ - “Put it on.“

“Okay.“

You felt a pair of eyes staring at you when you left the UA building to go hiking with Katsuki and when you turned around, you saw Midoriya looking at you with a sad expression. 

Why was he looking at you like that? He has Uraraka after all! And his new best friend Todoroki! And the little brother of the Pro Hero Ingernium! 

since you had no feelings for the green haired guy anymore, you gave him a look of disgust before turning around and looking forward to the date your boyfriend wanted to take you on. 

... 

...

...

“why...?“, Izuku asked himself, after you gave him stank eyes and fucked off with his childhood friend. Hand in hand. Ouch. 

Uraraka grabbed her chance to confess. 

“well, maybe they like Bakugo more? And don’t worry, you’ll find somebody better soon!“, she cheered.

But Izuku was having none of that. 

“No, I’ll talk to them. I can’t believe they’d date Kachan! I don’t want to believe it!”, soon, tears blurred his vision and he retreated back to his dorm room, leaving the floating girl in the common room. 

In his room, Izuku took off all the posters. Yes, the All Might posters. 

...

“we’ll be heroes together! Okay Izuku?! Kachan?!“, you yelled giggling, and your two best friends cheered. 

“Yes! I’ll be the number one pro hero!“

“No, I will be!“

“Jeez, why do you guys always need to be number one?! Being a hero isn’t about who is the best, it’s about saving the innocent and fighting the evil!“

“Oh, they’re right!“

“Then we’ll save as many people as possible and fight the bad guys as good as we can!“

“Yes!“

“Yeah!“

...

that memory came when Izuku found a photo of you, him, and Kachan as little children in his drawer. He didn’t remember when he put it there, but it always made him happy. Now his heart broke. 

He saw another photo underneath the first one, and his heart nearly shattered upon seeing the next flashback. 

... 

“Wow, Mido, you really planning to buy all these posters?“

“Yep, I wanna have all of them!“

“Well, talk about hurting the environment.“

Izuku and you were in your thirteenns, you were looking edgy and you were popular, while Izuku was just a simple loser nerd, but still, you hung out with him. 

He was holding many plastik sticky posters in his hand, in a plastic bag, and you were buying eco friendly books in your cotton bag. 

You were angry at him, to say the least, but you couldn’t let him know. 

After all, you wanted to become an intimidating hero. 

But, Izuku knew you, and your sarcastic remark didn’t really soothe his nervousness and guilt around you. 

What could he say? He was a sucker for emos and goths!

“W-well, I will hang them in my room for a long time! Until they fall off alone!“

“...I sure hope that for you, Mido.“

at your nickname, he blushed, and quickly followed you to the cash register. 

...

Now, he was ripping the All Might posters with all his strength, and he scraped the walls a little, but not that he cared. 

Izuku was crying so hard as memory after memory of good times with you and him came crashing down on him and it was tearing his heart apart.

Now, after he even broke the big poster on the ceiling and stuffed all his all might figurines into a carton, he sighed, his chest heaving, and he sniffed. 

Then, he took his phone which he let fall onto the bed carelessly and texted you. 

‘Hey, where r u rn?‘

‘Is everything ok?‘

‘Wanna meet up?‘

No answer, every single message he sent you wasn’t even on read. 

five minutes passed, nothing. 

He tried doing homework. 

Nothing after 30 minutes. 

Three hours later, he looked at his phone again. 

You did read his messages. But you didn’t answer. 

Izuku wrote again. 

‘R u good?‘

‘are you feeling ok? Should i come ovr?‘

‘pls answer...‘

you read them on the spot. 

And this time, you were writing- No, a voicemail?

After said voicemail, ten seconds, appeared, he pressed on the play butten and quickly put it right next to his ear, a hopeful smile on his lips.

“Izuku. Stop writing me. Stop thinking that we’re friends after you’ve fucking ghosted me for nearly a fucking year. And don’t you ever fucking talk to me again. ever.“

...

You sighed, a tired look on your face, as you layed down onto Katsuki’s bed after you gave said owner your phone to place on the nighttable. 

He chuckled before swiping your hair to the side and softly kissing your temple. you moaned contently and smiled as you closed your eyes. 

“You did a great job, y’know?“

“Yeah, feels nice to finally tell someone to fuck out of somebody’s life. Also, can we go hiking again? I haven’t been so close to nature in ages...!“

“Sure, love.“, he whispered before cuddling you with his sweaty hands, but you didn’t mind wet hands. 

---

HEY 

HOW ARE YOU:DDD

HOW WAS THAT

SORRY I AM SHIT AT WRITING ANGST :(((

#mha deku #kirishima x reader #sero x reader #bnha x reader #mina x reader #deku x reader #deku angst #katsuki bakugo #kacchan x reader #katsuki x reader #uraraka x reader #bnha bakugo katsuki #bakugo x reader #midoriya x you #midoriya x reader #izuku x reader

[leejungchans]

strangers-to-lovers au with uni classmate!seungkwan

༉‧₊˚✧ for my 1k event !

requested by @seungcy : HIII WIFEYYY CONGRATS ON 1K MUAH MUAH <3 i hope ur taking good care of urself <3 luv u sm muah; may i request 🫣 uni student kwan strangers to lovers where kwan wants to get to know fem!reader so as a way to slowly open up to her, he buys her snacks and leaves them by where she sits along with little notes <//3 KINDA LIKE A SECRET ADMIRER 🫣 and they talk this way for a couple months and reader wants to know them better so kwan gives them his number and then they meet up and yeah <3 fall in luv kiss kiss smoochies very fluffy i love him i won’t him yes yes 🫣🫣

a/n: hai waifey 💗💗 i hope you like how your req turned out muah muah!!!! AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY I HOPE YOU HAVE A SEGGSYLICIOUS DAY EVERYONE GO SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY WAIF RN >:( 💗

word count | 2.1k

pairing | boo seungkwan (svt) x f!reader

genre | fluff, humour (a lil), university au, strangers-to-lovers au

warning(s) / includes | food mentions (please lmk if i missed anything!)

you were his classmate in one of his electives

it was one of those easy-a courses where the professor reads off the slides and you can afford to not pay attention and still do pretty well as long as you memorise everything

so most people pretty much either skipped class or blatantly didn’t pay attention, treating the lecture as a 2-hour podcast for background noise

seungkwan wouldn’t say he was the best student, but he thinks it’s a safe estimate that he tried harder than 80% of the people who even showed up to class

it wasn’t a very fun time though </3 with people either dozing off or doing their own thing, he hadn’t made a single friend in the class because it just felt awkward to suddenly approach someone halfway through the semester :(

sometimes vernon snuck into the auditorium to keep him company whenever he didn’t have tutorials <3 we love friends <3

but the lecturer was just so good at lulling people to sleep that he’s usually out cold half an hour in </3 once again leaving seungkwan to his own devices </3

boooooooo (affectionate)

the class had to do an individual presentation on an assigned topic, and in the lesson following the deadline your lecturer randomly picked twenty people off the name list to present theirs in front of everyone

that was the day you caught seungkwan’s eye <333

everyone else before you didn’t bother trying to look like they were interested in the topic, which was understandable, but that meant their presentations were barely engaging and he was fighting to keep his eyes open 😭

but then your name was called, and he heard murmured apologies from a few rows behind him as you made your way down to the podium

you were so cute with your glasses, the large lens complementing your bright eyes perfectly as you shyly began speaking

but perhaps the most attractive part about you was your attitude; you were cheerful and friendly, not excessively so, but enough to have the bored audience paying attention

seungkwan could tell you were nervous: your voice quivered a little at certain points and you fumbled over your words a little whenever the computer was being slow and refused to move onto the next slide despite your frantic clicking, but you recovered quickly after each time

you ended your presentation with a shy smile and an awkward little bow that made some people (including himself) giggle good-naturedly, and he watched fondly as you gave the lecturer a polite nod before practically running back to your seat from embarrassment

he snuck a glance over his shoulder at you, smiling to himself when he found you ducking your head to shield your flustered face from the people sitting near you

he took an instant liking to you that day; you just radiated such positive vibes, and he admired that 🥺

poor kwan wanted to your friend so, so badly, but he didn’t know how to approach you without coming off weird or awkward ;-;

by a stroke of luck, you sat directly in front of him in the next class, an idea popped into his head when you left the auditorium during the 10-minute break

he bought a chocolate bar that morning for when he got hungry or wanted a snack, but then he thought it might be nice to give it to you instead in case you needed a pick-me-up, and who doesn’t like free food?

so he whipped out the little pad of sticky notes he always brought with him (they’re cute—they have little bears holding tangerines on the bottom), and wrote you a short message

you came back to your seat after a quick bathroom break to find a chocolate bar on your tray table along with a small note, you looked around a bit but everyone seemed busy doing their own thing, looking completely inconspicuous; you had no friends in this class so you knew it wasn’t a prank, and no one came up telling you it was meant for someone else either

it left you confused, but you weren’t about to complain about a small act of kindness from one of your classmates

seungkwan couldn’t see, but you had the biggest smile on your face as you read the note, your finger tracing over the pretty, neat penmanship

i hope you like chocolate ^v^ good luck with your classes if you have more after this one!

you did have another class later in the day, and it was a tough one too—your mystery classmate has a good hunch, it seems

your friend seokmin noted the skip in your step as you met up with him for dinner that night, and you excitedly pulled out the chocolate and the note to show him

“looks like someone has a secret admirer,” he affectionately teased, but it couldn’t be, right? you never talked to anyone in this class aside from that one time you asked a boy for a spare sheet of paper. plus, the class has over a hundred people, you’d be practically invisible

you thought you just got lucky that one time, but the notes kept coming for every lesson that followed, and the snack or drink that came with each sticky note was also different every week

even the girl who sat next to you during one of the lectures gushed over how sweet the gesture was when she saw you reading the note, and it led you to realise just how much you liked this mystery person, how they managed to get you to look forward to a morning class on a monday

deep down, you were dying to know who they were because they seem so thoughtful and easy to talk to; you’d love to meet them to thank them for their kindness and maybe even treat them to lunch or dinner as a sign of gratitude. who knows? perhaps you’d even end up being friends

and technically, you knew it’d be easy to catch them in the act—pretend to leave your seat and spy from afar until the mystery person made their move, but you resisted the urge with all your willpower, because if they wanted to reveal themselves, they would’ve; the fact that they didn’t told you they most likely weren’t comfortable with doing so yet, and you wanted to respect that

so you decided to communicate with them another way: by leaving them a snack and a little message of your own

bonus: it was also a great chance to finally break out your hoard of adorable stickers and notepads <3

your messages to each other got longer and longer; from just a few sentences wishing the other a lovely rest of the day, to short paragraphs telling each other little tidbits about yourselves and your week

you found out that they like tangerines (which made sense given the sticky notes they use), that they’re a journalism major, and that they like playing badminton and hanging out with their friends when they have free time <3 all of which you found completely endearing

seungkwan loves your notes with all his heart ;-; he honestly wasn’t expecting you to return the gesture, simply wanting to do something nice for someone who seemed like a fun person to be around, but the fact that you did has his heart racing and heat rushing to his cheeks

all his friends playfully teased him for how giddy he acted whenever he showed them your notes, but for once he didn’t really mind the teasing because he was far, far too whipped to care

lich rally bought a little folder to keep all your sticky notes so they wouldn’t get all crumpled in his bag <3 he reads them whenever he’s frustrated with something, because knowing you see him as a friend despite you two not even knowing each other cheers him up after a long day :(

you were having so much fun exchanging messages this way that it didn’t hit you until the second to last lecture that you’d potentially never get to genuinely know this incredibly sweet person in your class

and while you knew there was the chance of them not wanting to reveal themselves and preferring to leave this in the past once the semester ended, you still wanted to give it a shot ;-;

seungkwan’s hands were shaking a little as he read your note

you totally don’t have to agree if you’re not comfortable, but i’d love to meet you :’)

suddenly, he’s hit with a wave of self-doubt </3 it’s a lot easier to seem cool over paper or text or basically anything that didn’t involve spontaneous, on-the-spot situations, he’s not sure if you’d find him as interesting or fun to talk to once you got to know him irl :(((((

you didn’t hear from him that class, which made you a little sad, but you were ready to prepare yourself for the inevitable outcome that you’d never know who this person is and that this all would simply remain a fond memory in your uni life </3

the week leading up to the last lecture, all of seungkwan’s closest friends hyped him up so much 😞 they knew how much he liked you and from the notes you wrote back it was clear that you liked him just as much

after a lot of encouragement, he wrote you the final note and dropped it off at your table during the 10-minute break

let’s meet up after lecture today >< i’ll wait for you by the water dispensers outside the auditorium

to say you were vibrating with excitement after you read his note was an understatement

finally!!!! you get to find out who your mystery friend is!!!!!!!!

you could barely focus for the rest of the class, which wasn’t a huge deal anyways as the lecturer was simply going over the answers to your quiz

you kept glancing at the clock in the hall, at your watch, at the time on your laptop, then the time on your phone, eagerly counting down the minutes to the end of class

when your lecturer dismissed everyone, you were so nervous that you felt like you were going to throw up, for a split second you wondered if this was a good idea, but you ultimately decided to take a few deep breaths to compose yourself before heading outside

most of your classmates had already dispersed, not wanting to linger on campus for any longer after their last lecture of the day, so it was easy to narrow down who your mystery friend was

as you walked over to the water dispensers, you couldn’t help but think how it was almost too good to be true: standing next to the dispensers was a cute boy with the fluffiest hair and squishiest cheeks, wearing what looks like the softest sweater ever as he anxiously rocked back and forth on his heels

maybe this is a coincidence? maybe he isn’t the person you’re looking for but a cute guy who just so happened to be waiting for someone else?

all these questions brewing in your head were squashed when he gave you a shy smile as you drew closer, a quiet “hi” passing through his pretty lips

it was awkward, but not uncomfortably so

“are you…?” “the person who wrote you the notes? yeah, that’s me.”

you noticed how he wrung his hands together nervously as he confessed, and hoped that the warm smile you gave in return would be enough to reassure him

“it was so sweet of you to do that for me, thank you. i’m y/n, but you probably already knew that.”

he chuckles, cheeks still tinged a rosy pink, “yeah… i’m seungkwan.”

“well, seungkwan, i don’t have class after this anymore, so do you want to get lunch together?”

his eyes almost bugged out of his head at your invitation, but he quickly recovered and eagerly agreed, telling you he knew about this new place just outside campus that had really good sushi

you honestly couldn’t believe your luck: he was funny, sweet, and kind, and the two of you chatted like you’ve been friends for years as you ate, even going to get coffee together after because neither of you wanted your conversation to end <33 after a few more months of being friends and getting to know each other, he asked you out properly during one of your coffee shop study dates 💗

and now after almost two years of dating, the two of you still kept those notes from all those months ago in a little box tucked away safely in a desk drawer at your apartment

and when your friends asked you two if you were going to save them to show your future children, seungkwan merely responded with two playful, haughty words

“yeah, and?”

a/n: will proofread tmr bc it’s 3am rn and i have to get up for class in a few hours HWJSHAJ anyways waifey if ur reading this i hope you liked this :’))) 💗💗 ily a lot teehee kissies smooches

if you enjoyed my writing, please take a little time to reblog and give feedback to support it <3 it tells content creators what you like and motivates them to keep creating for you <3

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[icedmetaltea]

Welp I just found out I have $700 I have to pay before May 11 for school bc apparently I withdrew after the refund date. I've done that before and never had a fee so idk wtf happened but I made some calls and they said since it wasn't the end of the semester it wasn't even the full amount so it'd probably be higher...

I don't know what the fuck I'm going to do. This is already after I got denied for ebt twice since I can't work so not only do I have to worry about feeding myself but now I have to worry about going into debt

I can't even begin trying to get on ssi til I can get set up with a doctor and even then I don't know if I'll be eligible bc mental illnesses from what I hear aren't usually "disabled" enough and even if I am it could take months for it to process- if it's even accepted

(tw for suicidal thought stuff)

Suicide is reaaaaaaally starting to feel like a viable option. I've been telling myself it's a permanent solution for a temporary problem but like... my problems aren't temporary. They just keep coming and they just keep getting bigger. Even if they pass, what do I have to live for? All my dreams have fallen through the cracks.

I would never be able to finish college (I'm never signing up for another college class so they can fuck me over again, that's for sure) and even if I did I have no real passions

I'm not strong or smart or attractive or talented. I'm just a burden, a waste of space, someone that will always rely on others... and my parents will die one day, they won't be able to pay for the apartment anymore, I'll go homeless (like maybe my sister could take me in but even she's on ebt these days, the economy is so fucked)

It's not like the world is going to get better anytime soon anyway... it's this or wait for climate change and/or capitalism to kill me off. My dad died of a heart attack mainly due to the stress of work, even if I somehow got my anxiety under control enough to work I'd probably die the same way. What's the point? To be a minimum wage slave the rest of my life? When half the population of my country hates me for being poor? Do you even know how many people don't even think anxiety is real???

Well the feeling of slowly being strangled almost every fucking is very fucking real to me, feeling my ribs clamp down on me, a glass pane in front of my eyes whenever I dissociate, it's gotten to the point where half the time these past few weeks I don't even feel like my body is my own. I talk and it feels distant and foreign.

So yea... rn I'm just trying to hold onto small things. Reading a couple nice books while I can. Listening to nice music while I can. Hanging out with my friends while I can. Because I think soon I may have to leave for good

#tw suicide #suicidal thoughts #irl stuff #vent

[zephyrwynd]

Beetle & Butterfly - The Catfolk Twins

I'm still on that Terraverse grind. It's nice to get some of this in a public space that isn't my friend's DMs... click read more to read more lol! No colors this time, I don't have the eggs for it rn.

First, let's define what a Catfolk is, by defining what Theria are!

Theria are mammalian bipedals that exist on Terra. They are classified either as Canidae, Felidae, or Rodentia and are further divided by what species they are! So, a lion would be a Felidae Theria, or just Lionfolk, for the sake of simplicity!

Hybrid Theria like ligers, wolfdogs, etc. do exist, they're often referred to as either or (in the case of the wolfdog, they'd be either Dogfolk or Wolffolk, however they prefer) or just their main classification (a Canidae hybrid). Hybrids like cat-dogs don't exist.

Okay, back to Beetle and Butterfly!

Beetle and Butterfly, commonly called The Twins in the Bronze Tower Guild, are defined by just how in sync they are. Alone, they are formidable opponents. Beetle can hear an enemy coming from a mile away, while Butterfly's mech enhancements are hard to overcome. Together, they cover each other's weaknesses and turn their unity into a strength that can not be beat.

Beetle - Master of Traditional Combat

Beetle Ratfoot is the oldest of the two, born two years before her brother. At a young age, a bout of illness left her blind on both eyes, forcing her to develop her hearing to compensate for the loss of sight. When she was only 10, she enrolled into the Solarian Guild Academy and developed a unique fighting style that helped her hone her skills. Using a modified flail weapon, she uses the heavy, hollow balls on both ends as a sonar, sending soundwaves all around her before triangulating an opponent's location. At 28, she is a master in her skill, even able to passively use her sonar hearing by clicking or chattering.

Her main strength can also be a weakness, as too much audio input can leave her dazed and confused and thus vulnerable to attack.

Outside of combat, Beetle is a cat of few words, never saying more than she needs to and always analyzing the situation. That's not to say she's a serious person – quite the opposite. Beetle often assists Butterfly in harmless pranks and has gained a reputation as an enabler and petty thief. Rumor has it she was only admitted into the Bronze Tower Guild to keep her from breaking into the mess hall. It didn't work, the kitchen still reports shortages of fish and bird...

Other information:

Age: 28 years

Pronouns: She/Her; They/Them

Sexuality: Pansexual (Aromantic)

Gender Identity: Cisgender Woman

Height: 4ft 3 in (~1.3m)

Weight: 82 lbs (~37.2kg)

DnD Class: Fighter

Human equivalent: New Zealand - Maori

Defining Markings: Dyed white stripes on ears, head

Butterfly Ratfoot - Mechanical Extraordinare

Butterfly was born deaf in one ear, with the other ear gradually losing its hearing over time. An inquisitive child, he once snuck into a Dwarf's mecha shop and built a small automaton all on his own. When he was 8, his sister joined the Solarian Guild Academy, and while he was too young to enroll, he auditioned alongside his sister, showing off that very automaton he built all those years ago. His skills impressed the Academy's Forgemaster, and he was admitted early under special circumstances. At first, he tried to find ways to replace his ears but then specialized into expanding his eyes. At 26 years of age, Butterfly is an expert technician, using drones and nano-tech to essentially create a suit of armor around his entire body. Nicknamed The Swarm, his nanobots sit underneath his fur, vibrating whenever danger is near and shooting out to form a defensive shield. Butterfly controls The Swarm through a neural chip on the back of his neck, using them in unique ways inside and out of combat.

His main weakness is the loss of his neural interface, and a direct hit from an electromagnetic pulse could leave him incapacitated for a long time.

Outside of combat, Butterfly is boisterous and full of ideas, constantly seeking adventure and excitement. That's not to say he's reckless. He is a master of analysis and planning but is often distracted by small things and obsesses over insignificant details. He was admitted to the Bronze Tower Guild alongside his sister, perhaps as a way to keep her in check. Instead, the Guild realized they were a little over their heads... Butterfly was the master planner of the duo.

Other information:

Age: 26 years

Pronouns: Any

Sexuality: Gay

Gender identity: Transgender man

Height: 4 ft 5 in (~1.3m)

Weight: 93 lbs (42.2kg) [yeah, he's a chunky boy]

DnD Class: Artificier

Human Equivalent: New Zealander - Maori

Fun fact: Each of them wear something that reminds them of their sibling. Beetle an orange bandana, Butterfly a blue ribbon.

Picrew Used: Felidaze Cool Cat Creator

#zephyr talks #zephyr worldbuilds #beetle terraverse #butterfly terraverse #original world #original writing #original character #fantasy world #fantasy writing #fantasy character #dungeons and dragons #dnd #terraverse #someone at work said into the terraverse and now i cant stop laughing #spiderman wouldnt be able to exist on terra without major major modifications #probably as a creepy spider monster or someone cursed with spider characteristics #like those freaky spider people from baldurs gate 3 #thats the shit of nightmares #meow :3

[sapphysicsandmath]

rebelde thoughts, there are spoilers

-mj>>>>. sebas was right like jana will never be mj! mj should be the lead!! -continuing that, the psychoanalysis part of my brain is saying that mj wanted to do the little seduction play so badly because she wanted to prove to herself and everyone who wasn’t andi and dixon (because they already knew) that she had it in her to be the lead, to be the hot it girl, to be attractive and charming in not just a platonic way -jana and luka are so annoying sometimes but i still do like them. like jana and the precious 206 roomie moments :( when she let mj try on the dress and eyed her when mj said it was gonna be fun LIKE THAT’S GAY anyway then whenever luka validated mj by being like show jana how it’s done! alright selena pick the song! like still in his bitchy tone but i liked that :( and when luka called esteban brother and joked when he got mad like i thought that was cute :( -esteban needs to show off more of that musical talent idgaf about him and jana fr like i get it they’re together but they’re so boring and het like it’s so predictable for those two types of ppl to get together it’s quiet talented mysterious boy and popular it girl who has a secret side that aligns with the quiet mysterious boy’s interest somehow! i care about that music cause that class assignment was GAS!!!!! -can dixon have his own slay... he did so much for their group of friends and... i will never forgive jana for saying they were never friends cause he did so much especially for her! -also andi is an underrated friend!! andi and dixon are the lesbian and himbo duo of this show. andi tried to keep emilia out of it, set her boundaries quite firmly, but still seemed to value her friends and the band more. she loved emilia so much, but she put herself and her band and friends and values first by breaking up with her. she seems so emotionally and socially aware and i like that!! she always looked out for mj and even jana. those are her ROOMIES. -andi and dixon looked so hurt when mj performed w sebas :((( that hurt me -andi’s character is so funny cause she looks like she wouldn’t commit to anything like she just seems like she’d be a little bit of a whore but she is such a simp that it’s unreal and that is peak lesbianism if you ask me actually -emilia is a really morally right person she’s just dumb and that’s okay because when she was actually caught up with what was going on she took the right side even if it meant she wasn’t going to get a contract! and she wasn’t even wrong thinking that sebas was having sex w someone and not even considering la logia -i think the girls room has like so much untapped homoerotic tension. not wishing anything bad on endi but... i would like to see something. maybe some andixmj or mjxjana idk am i crazy for that -if they don’t forgive mj for delivering on her parents’ ultimatum... i will hurt someone because they literally forgave luka for helping in screwing them over and esteban for falling off the face of the earth for a few days -i would like to see more of andi and emilia and mj and dixon like i feel like we got so much luka esteban sebas and jana and i simply dgaf abt them anymore i feel like i know them so well but idk anything about the others except like dixon is secretly rich, mj is religious, emilia is brazilian and not rich, andi is??? a rich(?) delinquent? was that her dad who was mad abt her being a delinquent ? the same dad that taught her how to play drums? like that simply doesn’t seem right and i would like clarification -sue me because as much as i want mj fruity i think sebas redemption could be cool because then her and mj could be potentially cute but i also want dixon to win but i also think jana or andi should get with mj... mj just slays too hard im sorry -andrea is acting her fucking ass off because she is like a more emo version of andi irl like she could start going by andi rn -selene really is lowkey just eye candy for this show and honestly it’s okay <3 her and gigi are attracting the wlw and it’s working

#emilia alo #andi agosti #mj sevilla #dixon alvarez #jana cohen #esteban torres #luka colucci #sebas langarica

[glittertimes]

I didn’t realize how much I’ve grown in the past few years because I remember being 19 waiting by the phone for my friends who didn’t really care about me to call, and being so depressed when I saw them hanging out without me.

And I basically stopped doing all the things I cared about bc I was sitting around waiting for them. And when they did want to hang out they’d want me to skip class or just forget about hw, when they knew my grades were important to me bc I wanted to be able to go to university and get out of my abusive house.

Now I’m in a healthy relationship where my partner genuinely cares about me, and even thought we’re long distance rn and they’re working a lot, I don’t feel as sad as I did when I was 19. I’ve started baking classes, and I got into grad school and I adopted a pair of guinea pigs.

My partner always feels so bad for not being able to talk all day but they still make time whenever they can to call, and they’ve been really supportive of all the silly things I’ve been doing the past few months.

Even though sometimes I get sad when I don’t hear from them, I still reach out and make sure they know I care about them and aren’t upset with them or anything. I want to make sure I’m a safe place for them to land, because they were that for me this past year at school, and we both don’t have that at home.

My old friend got so upset when I accepted my dream university because it was far away and she wanted me to stay close to our hometown, and my partner tells me all the time that they’re proud of me for being in grad school, and they reassure me that it’s okay to be scared of job environments and that I don’t need to rush into a job if I can’t handle it bc of my ptsd.

It’s just nice being in a relationship that isn’t a competition, which is what my old friendship always felt like, even though I wasn’t even interested in competing.

#personal

[fr3aklike-me]

yeah the play REALLY did something to me, and all of his friends looked so proud of him, it was so sweet and sad all at once, i can't explain it. and i relate to neil bc i went through the same thing with my parents, my mom wanted me to be a journalist and my dad wanted me to be lawyer, so when i had to tell them that i wanted to go to fashion school it was really scary, and i knew that they were going to be very disappointed, like, i remember when i called my dad just to tell him that, and i was literally shaking and holding back my tears, so i know exactly how it felt like for neil. and yeah omg, it took me a long time to realize that it was the same actor, he looked like a baby in dead poets society, his power fr. so at first i didn't notice anything romantic between niel and todd, i just thought they had a cute friendship, but then by the end when he found out that neil was dead, his reaction was very different from the others, but im not sure if i think it was because he liked neil or bc they were just very close friends, but also i saw a few edits of them on tiktok and they looked like they might like each other sometimes. so yeah, very sus those two. but what do you think?

oh the wedding was great!! i had a lot of fun, was very weird watching my friend get married tho 😭 but it was fine, thanks for asking!! and the shopping went great too, i bought these AMAZING boots, idk if you've watched gilmore girls so idk if this is going to make any sense to you, but whenever i wear them i feel like lorelai (she wears a lot of boots) which is great so yeah. and the book was very good, the ending made me want to scream but still very good lmao. im so sorry this is huge :( but anyways how have you been?

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dead poets society spoilers, tw for death mention

right, omg, just the pure friendship all the boys shared was so touching to me. it reminded me so much of my friends. and it was so sweet to see the sheer support and admiration they had for one another. oh, wow, yeah, that is definitely such an intense move to make when you desire to go a particular route in your life that you're worried your parents may not approve of. I am so proud of you for telling your dad about it, though, and being truthful + standing up for your passion. like, that is such a strong and amazing move, it's so great of you. I hope you've been able to pursue your passions since. for sure, his reaction to Neil's death was very intense (and also, just so well-acted omg). so, when I saw the clip where Todd is like, "I can take care of myself," and then Neil just smiles so gently at him and says, "No." at that point I was like, hmmm. I even asked my mom about it LMAO bc she had seen the film. I feel like there may be something romantic, and I definitely ship it. I also read that there is that scene where Nail, in reference to Todd, says, "I'm being chased by Walt Whitman." and I read on that post that Walt Whitman was apparently suspected to have been queer? so, maybe it was something the film tried to subtly portray? either way, thank goodness for fanfiction LMAO

oooh, whoa, it was your friend getting married! that must've been very surreal to watch, I could only imagine how that feels like. and omg I do watch Gilmore Girls! was just rewatching it today. and yesss, omg, I love that you have Lorelei-style boots, her fashion sense is *chef's kiss.* and it's all good, I enjoy talking to you! I've been good, thank you for asking <3 I've mostly been doing schoolwork for my spring class, and am working on some writing rn

#🫀 anon #answered asks #tw death mention

[iwillfeastonyourflesh]

i dont think im a good person. i think im one of the worst types. i see whats wrong, understand that its wrong, and still i let it happen. sometimes i actively participate in it. my oldest brother is kind, and doesnt let anything anyone says about him stop him from living truthfully. but the things people say are fucking awful, and i know that i wouldnt be able to handle it as well as he does. my other brother saw what was happening to him, and decided to not let it happen to him. he became one of those popular kids that has a huge ego, but he saw my brother and never bullied someone else. i saw both the paths i could choose, and walked in the middle. im friends with people who aren’t actually popular, but act like they are and gossip like it. they’re shit people and bully/talk shit about people behind their backs. this includes me. the girl i talk to the most in the group, as shes in most of my classes, spends all the time shes with me either complaining about her family or making fun of people. if shes willing to talk crap about the people she actually likes in the group, shes def talking crap about me. shes said things to my face before, but other than calling me a loser the thing she said that stuck with me most was telling me i was the uglier version of another friend (im going to call her S). ive always compared myself to S, as shes the one i look most like. having an example of what i should be right next to me all the time sucks, but i don’t blame her for it. i have a lot of other friends, but none that i could fit into the group with. im not sure what to do. i know that a lot of people who are “older and wiser” than me will say that what’s happening to me rn isnt a big deal, and im aware of that. i try not to let these things affect me, as there are people who have actual problems and arent just spoiled kids who make jokes too much and accidentally made people think shes unaffected. a few days ago the friend who i spend the most time with (im calling her C) made a joke about one of our friends to her face, but it was the kind of joke thats too far. in response to her doing this, since i was right next to her, i told a “joke” to her face that was too far. i said something about how she ruins all of our conversations with negative comments, and thats why nobody talks to her. i could tell by her face that it hurt. she was almost silent the rest of class. i feel like complete and utter shit for saying it, but i keep trying to remind myself that she needs to learn. she comes from a rich family, and thinks that the few minor inconveniences in her life matter to everyone. her mom has bipolar, and the meds she was taking for it made her severely depressed and she ended up going to the hospital for it. ever since she came back from the hospital, C’s been acting like her mom is batshit insane. she got on the bus one time upset that her dad yelled at her, and ended up telling me that her moms crazy because shes not doing anything to take care of herself. i know people who were abused by their parents, and got beaten half to death but still sent back to their house because of the fucked up system we have. C telling me that pissed me off bc she gets whatever she wants, whenever she asks for it, and has never had to worry about money or whether or not her family would survive a war. im not saying these things have happened to me, but i dont try and act like my “problems” are the most important ones. im really sorry about this if for some reason you decided to read the full thing, and i apologise for sounding like a whiny brat, but i needed to tell someone and this way ill never know who that someone is, or if there is a someone. i wish you the very best, and i hope everything you want to happen will. good night

“Sometimes you just jump and hope it’s not a cliff.” - Casey McQuinston, Red, White, and Royal Blue

#online diary

[necroangelz]

🪽🪽🪽!?!?!?!??

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infodump about an oc

YAAAYYY WING EMOJI pulls up with a box of ocs and picks one out from the bunch

her hair is supposed to be much whiter... the white hair is kinda blue in this picrew

this is shalom! she's just a Regular Teenage Girl with the power to manipulate her own blood ^_^

i am so sleepy rn and bad at explaining things most of the time so idk if my ramble makes sense... very very long post ahead though!

so, say that her arm gets sliced and it bleeds she can control the form of the blood, like shape it like a blade perhaps! or a wing. when she controls her blood, the blood can be molded into a solid state. if she wants to form a big blade with her blood, then she has to draw out more blood from the wound. then she can make a big blade and cut her enemies down with it

she can only control the blood that bleeds out of her body. she often wounds herself for the purpose of manipulating her blood. she's used to feeling pain, or at least used to suppressing it. she has passed out a few times for using too much blood and she probably needed a blood transfusion once

note that she can only control the blood that's directly coming out of her. she can't just carry out some bags of her own blood and convert those into weapons whenever danger comes near. she really has to make herself bleed

I've been rather fixated on the story she's part of—ive been temporarily calling it "ladies of the flies" (like a fem version of Lord of the flies). let me explain the premise. basically: a class of the most smart and brilliant students in an all girls school disappears one day. everyone forgets about them and their existence. but what happens to the girls?

the girls wake up in an alternate dimension. their school is suspended in the void, lost. this begins their adventure to discover the other dimensions they can travel to, and find their way home. although their goals change along the way as conflicts rise between them—Oh Yeah Also They They Get Powers In The Alternate World. each girl gets one special power

this story is based loosely on Yellowjackets, and based heavily on the anime Sonny Boy. because look okay i just love the concept of it all. i love the concept of girls going crazy, unstable relationships, violent coming of age stories, dark magic, whatever the fuck those two shows have going on -

you see though, shalom is a special case. Shalom Actually Isn't From The Class. she kinda just appeared our of nowhere but everyone assumes she's part of the class (and they don't question the fact they can't fucking remember her) except for one girl, who knows for a fact that there is something off about shalom. that girl, her name is paz, YES BOTH OF THEIR NAMES MEAN PEACE, becomes shalom's best friend/assistant blah blah, develops a crush on her, i wont go too much into it

as for shalom's personality though, she's a very calm and friendly person, violence actually isnt her first option every time conflict happens. she acts as a sort of leader for 1 of the 2 main groups that divide the girls, and the ones on her side are very loyal to her. because she's just that type of person. she's very calculating though, and she has such STRONG determination that it's enough to scare anyone

i think that's all i have to include? okay that's all bye

OH RIFHT she's partly inspired by the song "my blood" by uhh Ellie Goulding I think that's what her name is

sometimes i think about having shalom in a wheelchair though. seems interesting

#🎮﹕ press start 𝜗𝜚 ︵

[magpieinthemorning]

Next up in my “watching TV shows and movies with characters that are supposedly similar to me”:

Sex Education (Maeve Wiley)

I tried all the different versions of the quiz and every time, except in the least detailed “only emojis” version, the top result was Maeve Wiley.

This is so funny because starting with like 8th or 9th grade and my whole adult life I’ve dressed and styled myself exactly like Maeve ... For a few years I had her exact same S01 hair colour, bleached platinum blonde with roots showing most of the time and dip dyed pink. 

Me on the left and Maeve on the right:

“She’s not popular, she’s scary”

I’ve only seen the first two episodes so far, and I definitely like Maeve the most out of all the characters. I would actually never have watched the show if it wasn’t for this experiment, since I just don’t relate much to the general topic, and it has several series, so we’ll see for how long I’m able to keep watching ... :-s

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UPDATE:

I finished S01 (I’m procrastinating lmao) and it looks like it’s going to be frustrating with a very drawn out “will-they-won’t-they” of Maeve and Otis. :/ And I feel called out about that because one of my recent exes was a nerdy guy who felt kind of like Otis, except my ex hated women more and was rubbish at talking to people, unlike Otis, hence the “ex” thing. 

It’s so unfair that Maeve and Jackson didn’t work out. :( They could have supported and motivated each other but then the thing with her brother (as well as the thing with fucking Otis lmao ugh) ruined everything. :/ 

Now I love Eric though ♥

The setting in this weird village(??) with all the fancy rich people houses and the weirdly fancy school is kind of bizarre and trippy. (People actually living in the Wye Valley are side eying me rn I’m sure ...) Like Otis’s mum’s house is incredible, with those lovely William Morris wallpapers. (Apparently the setting was indeed meant to be a homage to John Hughes films like The Breakfast Club etc. So it kind of fluctuates between 70s to 2000s decor, and for example has smartphones but no modern cars - it’s like the childhood flashbacks or dreams of someone who grew up in the 80s and 90s ...)

It actually reminds me of the area where I spent my last couple of school years, on the coast - with both very fancy rich people houses, some middle class areas in the towns, white trash farm houses and cottages in the parts away from the coast (that’s where we lived), and a trailer park just like in this show.

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UPDATE 2:

Oof, I pretty much couldn’t help but binge it and now I finished S03! The show really grew on me and I care so much about all the characters. 

On one hand it’s a bit visually confusing that none of the actors who play the kids are actually 16/17 (most of the actors who play the main characters are around 25), but on the other hand it’s a pretty good and realistic and not exploitative depiction of teenagers and their sex and romance dramas.

So Otis was really annoying for a while and I thought Ruby being with him was a bit fan servicey ... Like how has Otis this much pulling power haha ...

But I suppose it also told a story about Ruby and her shame about aspects of herself and her family, which she externalized by being really mean to everyone else. She was a bit quick to think she loved the first person she happened to open up to about those things and who didn’t judge her for them (i.e. Otis), but it wasn’t really love. And her and Otis kind of very obviously didn’t fit. But the experience will help her accept herself and meet someone who will be perfect for her. ^^  Also I was a bit distracted whenever she was on screen, because Mimi Keene, who plays Ruby, is so incredibly beautiful. *_*

Kedar Williams-Stirling who plays Jackson is so beautiful too *_* (He reminds me of a very serious but impossible crush I had for ages ;___;) Jackson’s story really touches me and I hope S04 will come out soon and that good things will happen to him.

Anyways, whenever Otis was actually interacting with Maeve, he wasn’t annoying (apart from when he was doing jealousy drama with Isaac) ... And tbh I got butterflies when they finally kissed lmao so yeah now I'm really rooting for them ... xD Also if I’m so much like Maeve, where is my Otis :<

I think the end of S03 is kind of exciting for Maeve x Otis, because maybe they are actually so sure about their feelings and each other that it doesn’t matter that they will be apart. (But I don’t remember how long Maeve is going to be in the States ... I hope it’s not long enough for them to do something stupid again :-s Actually it would be so funny if in S04 they are in a happy, exciting and well functioning LDR while everyone else in their school has all kinds of crazy relationship issues!!!! Please?)

Before that I was really rooting for Maeve and Isaac there, but sadly he went behind her back and deleted Otis’s voice message, so it was doomed. :/ And Isaac of course deserves someone who will like him the most.

I was a bit worried that they would get serious but then they would have terrible issues precisely because they have similar family backgrounds and both have abandonment and trust issues etc. from their parents. As it often happens in real life to me for example ... So I’m kind of glad there was just a little taste of something like that, but it ended before it could get really ugly and realistic. :/

Eric’s visit to Lagos was so exciting and I really liked how he went in with expectations of everything being really strict and homophobic, and while it was all that, he also discovered something new and important there about himself and what he wants, and experienced freedom as a gay man that he hadn’t experienced before in England.

(Apparently the Lagos sets were built in Wales, due to covid travel restrictions, with actual sand and gravel imported from Nigeria[!!!]. And I guess they used additional footage for the bird’s eye views of the city.)

Okay and I love Rahim and his kind of deadpan manner ♥♥♥ I really enjoyed every second he was on screen. 

I saw at least one post about it already here and I totally agree that the sexual assault theme was depicted in a very realistic, honest and helpful way. Like how it didn’t feel like anything much at first, but then later it all came crashing down. And it was so nice how Aimee got support in different ways from so many people around her.

The two “Spartacus” moments (when everyone was saying ”It’s MY vagina!” & “It’s MY poo!” so nobody could know who it actually was, instead of throwing the one person under the bus) were the absolute best ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ That’s such a powerful thing, and I wish I could experience such solidarity in real life. 

#fictional characters x me watchlist #i do love all the Ezra Furman songs!

[milkybonya]

Hi Milky! It's been a little while :) I've been a bit overwhelmed with life and mentally somewhere else for the past few weeks. Not in a bad place but just.. A lot I guess. It's finals week here and so far things are going well! I've taken 2 of my 5 finals and I got high A's on both so I'm happy :) but I also started my second job yesterday so the whole finals and 2 jobs thing has just been WHOOSH if you feel me?? But I've been staying positive and happy throughout it don't worry :) I still write to Kingdom everyday which is definitely therapeutic and it makes me smile! I found out Jahan's favorite color is purple today bc he answered me in a menpa and I'm so 🥺🥺 over it!! Sweetest boy truly 💙

Sometimes at one of my jobs I get the opportunity to listen to music during part of my shift so I usually put on my soft/slow kpop Playlist so my ear buds aren't too obnoxious with my Jikjin or I love you LOL! The Playlist has a lot of cute songs that make me happy! But whenever I hear My Treasure or Beautiful I always think of you and that makes me smile :) and yes I think of YOU! Not even Treasure themselves 😂😭 I just watched the Darari remix exclusive performance video! It was so great omggg the song is still really cute even tho it is a more rockish remix so I was still a little caught off guard with their all black edgy (but hot) outfits jdjsjs they all looked so fine 👀 Haruto in the long blonde hair I'm losing it 😭😭😭 I'm really into the ripped black jeans look so basically... It was a good video for me lol. I'm sad Darari promotions got canceled tho :( Hyunsuk (I believe it was him, I saw it a week or so ago) had to tell a fan promotions got canceled on a fan call like YG didn't even make an official statement about it :( the same thing happened to Kingdom too... Mujin had to tell us on vlive that Promise promotions got canceled. So upsetting 😔

Also oh my GOSH THE SKZ CONCERT?!!! All your pictures looked amazing oh how I wish I could have gone!! I bet it was amazing... You mentioned seeing red lights live like omg how did you survive??? What an awesome experience!! I can't believe it lasted 3 hours. What a time 🤩 any other concerts lined up??? How much more time do you have in Korea?? I hope you've done everything you wanted to do and more! But there's still time I hope 🥰 I'm not sure if I mentioned this or not but the Russian department at my school is trying to line up a summer study abroad to Latvia as a language intensive program! I'm sooooo excited even though it would be summer of 2023 and that's so far away but it's fine I'm getting hype anyways jfjdjsjs

Also you left me some questions in your response to my ask a while ago and I don't want to forget them!! I haven't seen the web dramas!! But haruto as a cold character ahhh that sounds so good 🤩 I'm going to be so busy over the summer bc I'm still going to be working 2 jobs and I'm taking 3 summer classes with one being condensed into 5 weeks ndndnsn I may or may not cease to exist until mid July starting in like a week or two so if I can't get to it I'll have to add it to my watch later list for the second half of summer (which I desperately hope won't be as busy as the first half)! Also hello??? I didn't realize Asahi wrote/composed orange!! He is so amazing I am falling in love brb don't mind me- jdjsjs and I kind of answered your question about my summer plans earlier! I hope I can go back home sometimes to see my mom. This is going to be my first summer away from my family and I'm kinda sad :( but my roommate is staying at school as well and she is basically a sister to me at this point so it won't be too bad (except when she's gone with her boyfriend which is like all the time but that's another story-). I love hockey!! My favorite team is in the playoffs rn and I am really hoping they pull through the first round 🙏 everyone was expecting us to do terribly (including myself ngl) but we're actually only one win away from getting to the next round! I'm so proud 🥺 I don't play personally but if I had the free time I'd love to pick it up. Whenever I'd play it in gym class it was so much fun 🤩 I can roller blade and ice skate decently but not well enough to do anything more than skate. Definitely not Play a whole sport jdjsjs I'd love to try field hockey tho. Since it's basically floor hockey. Maybe someday!

Anyways I'm going to wrap up here since my message is terribly long now and I'm worried Tumblr will eat it 😫 pls Tumblr nim I beg 🙏🙏 hope you had a good day/have a good day!! 💙

hello my love!! i'm sorry to hear you feel overwhelmed :(( i hope you're taking it a day at a time and that things can calm down after finals! and i hope you get a high A on your other 3 finals!!

omg working 2 jobs and studying,, i worked just 1 before and it was already bad :(( but also i want to tell you, even if you're not in a positive mindset, it's okay ♡ don't feel pressure to force yourself to think any certain way ♡♡ but honestly regardless, i'm so proud of you for staying positive ♡

YAYY I'M SO HAPPY YOU GOT NOTICED IN A MENPA 🥺 and purpoe is such a cute colour ;")

listening to music while working is the best~~ i wasn't allowed to, but my friend who wore a hijab would hide her earbuds under there and i was always a bit jealous hehe but i'm so glad you get to listen to music!! especially since working can be so tiring T-T

i'm so honoured you think of me when listening to treasure AHH honestly i'm always thinking of you too 🥺 and darari remix was insane,, seeing it live too they popped off !!! and now the video is so good !! Asahi being so silly in the background of all the cuts is hilarious hh but i'm also so sad promos are cancelled :(

omg stray kids live,, i'm still not over it ☆_☆ Seungmin is my bias and that day really just confirmed that fact,, the way he was being so cute and running around the stage waving at all of us ! also red lights live aha i aLMOST PASSED OUT IT WAS INSANE T-T

i'm seeing astro on the 28th and i'm super excited >_< Jinjin and another member will have solo stages that dayyy hehe

i only have a month left here,, so sad but i think it really is time for me to go back aHh but i really want to come back here sometime

hey even if your exchange program is summer next year, you can still be excited!! i was excited for my exchange even when it was a year away and still unsure because of covid.. so it's okay to get excited !!!

omg your summer sounds so busy :(( definitely take your time with the web drama and just watch it when you're free! also i hope you can find time to rest :(( but yes, Asahi, Haruto and Hyunsuk all worked on orange!! the kings they are!!!!!!!

i understand you wanting to go back to your mom :(( i really hope time will pass quickly so you can see her soon >_< but wow your hockey team is doing so well!! i hope they stay winning!!

i went rollerblading the other day and it was so fun but scary since i haven't done it in a while >_<

field hockey and floor hockey are both so fun!!!

luckiky tumblr didn't eat this >_< have a good day/night love!!

#yutopiada talks #baekhyuns-lipchain ;3; #beloved Kelsey ♡ #milky's moots

[strawberry-possum]

Man y'all ever just *becomes irrationally worried about someone you're barely acquaintances with and haven't spoken to in over two years*

#like ig we werent even really friends in the first place #it was more like 'i dont have any friends here and neither do you so lets pair up for group projects but nothing beyond that' #yknow #but #idk #last year before quarantine she started kinda. acting differently? #not that i knew her well enough in the first place to really know how she normally acted #but what little i heard about her felt /off/ and /not like her/ #and shes in a few of my classes rn and whenever shes called on by the teacher she never unmutes or types in the chat or anything #and every time i get just a little bit more worried bc when i knew her she seemed to care a lot about school? #it just feels off #but i feel like i dont have a right to worry bc really i can barely even call us acquaintances yk #and it really doesnt help that i cant even fucking remember anything in the first place #like just in general i cant remember things but its especially bad for stuff from middle school which is when we paired up n such #and i only know that bc. idk i just /know/ it but i cant /remember/ it #so idek if im actually right about /any/ of this - how she acted what she cared about etc #like what if this entire time she /was/ like this and im - idk projecting?? #so ig really im worried about her and im guilty about that and im panicking bc idek if im remembering things right in the first place #which the memory thing is a WHOLE other suitcase but we dont have time to unpack all THAT *represses that for a year again* #haha dont need to repress when you can just forget /hj #vent #tw vent #personal #dont rb thx #lemme know if theres anything else i should tag here!! :) /gen #also jeez this is funny #me: i have better more stable mental health than ive had gor years!! nothings wrong with me :))) #also me: *starts doubting my entire life the second i start trying to remember /anything/ even if its just as minor as what i had for lunch*

[aestheticfangirl]

He's Gone~

Genre : angst, one sided love , friends , marriage au

Word count: 1.5k

P.S: pictures credit to owners ( got them from Pinterest)

“WHAT” I shouted, because what I heard shook the ground beneath me.

Minho sighed and then repeated, “ Chan is getting married”.

I heard it right the first time too but it felt so unreal. I mean why and how.

“ How did you get to know?”, I asked softly.

“He called me to ask me if i can be his best man”, he replied.

I didn’t realize it, but a single tear fell down my cheek. I said, “ okay, i will talk to you later”. I hung up.

Why is the world so cruel? I never get whatever I want. Is it only me or someone else who is pure bad luck?

He is getting married for real and this isn’t a prank. I could figure out that much from Minho's tone. I should have told him how I feel. Is it too late to confess?

I lay down in my bed and stared at the ceiling when tears started falling down. I remembered the first time I met Chan. he entered the class and sat down beside me and showed me his sweet smile. I guess it was that moment that I fell in love with him. The typical love at first sight.

We talked and became good friends, actually best friends and then we were inseparable. He was the only person I ran to whenever something happened. And he is always there just one call away. How can I not fall for him then? I knew he was just nice and that perfect man who deserves the best girl but it still hurts. No one ever knew about my crush on him except Minho who happens to be smarter than everyone I guess. Anyways the point right now is he is marrying someone else and i still couldn’t be honest with him.

I was amidst a lot of thoughts when my laptop chimed. I looked at it and there it was ‘ MY DOOM’. It was an email from Chan. my tears again started flowing. I wiped them and clicked it.

To: y/[email protected]

From: chris/[email protected]

Sub: I AM MARRYING WHERE ARE YOU ?

Heyyyyy!!!

y/n where the heck are you? I have been searching all over the place. How could you vanish on me and didn’t even contact me like really????? I am glad you gave me your email and I swear if you wouldn’t send me a reply I will send cops to search for you! I am here making a big decision about my life all by myself and you are not here to hype me up. And you know the girl i am marrying i freaking love her so so so much man i could die rn. I know when you will meet her ( i hope you come soon) you will like her too. She is exactly your opposite, you know. She is sweet, soft, gets scared easily, never takes risks and cries so much. I am the luckiest man you know to have her. I am so happy I wish you were here so I can tell you so much more and celebrate with you. Please y/n come back. I really really miss you and I am so scared.

After reading the email I felt like the ground beneath me shifted. He is so much in love with her. No doubt i am happy for him that he is so happy but a part of me right now envies that girl so much. I don’t even know now how to move on. It's been 10 years since I have been in love with him. All my life he is the one I had ever developed any feelings for. I hate myself. Why am I such a coward?

I decided I will go to his wedding , if he needs me I should be there after all that’s what a friend does right?

[ time skip to chan’s wedding venue]

I reached the venue. Minho first asked me to pick me up from the airport but I refused. I don’t want to ruin his day too. I saw the place, it was beautiful and my heart ached. I checked into the hotel and went straight to my room. I flopped down as soon as I entered. I already feel so tired.

I shut my eyes and then after a few moments someone knocked on my door. I got up and opened it and as soon as i opened the door chan legit choked me in his super tight hug. And it took a while to break from that hug.

“ Have you eaten? How was your journey? Did you face any difficulty? Why aren’t you speaking?”, he was bombarded with tons of questions and didn’t even let me speak and then was looking at me worriedly with his two little pretty eyes.

“Chan i am all okay and yeah i ate in the flight and nothing’s wrong with me”, i turned a whole rotation to show him i am all okay from head to toe cause gladly he can’t see my heart.

He smiled and then sat down in my bed. I sat next to him. And then he started talking. I was all mentally prepared for it.

“ You know how nervous I am right now”, he took a pause and then took my hand and placed it in his heart which was thumping crazily just like mine. “ see how crazy it is my heart is going to explode it feels, but i am happy you came and now nothing will go wrong”, he said and then cupped my face.

I swear right now I am this close to a breakdown but I can't cry right now. I need to be strong just for a day. I broke down my long chain of thoughts and focused on what he was saying.

“ I love Emma so much I can't even explain. I saw her and that was the moment when I fell in love with her. Do you even believe that it’s so crazy how someone can fall for someone the moment they see them?”, he laughed.

I wanted to tell him how real it is cause I too fell for someone the first time I saw him.

He continued, “ i was so scared that i might get rejected and i even texted you but you didn’t reply me”, he sulked for a moment, “ anyways i told her and guess what she said yes, we dated , we fought and had an amazing time and then one day i felt like i want to stay with her forever and asked her out and trust me y/n that was like the best day of my life”, he had tears in his eyes. I pulled him in a hug. It was better to know he was happy.

He then pulled back and said, “ and today I am marrying and I am nervous tell me what to do.”

I smiled and replied, “ it seems like Emma is such a great girl and i am so happy for you but don’t get nervous it’s going to be all okay”.

“ Yes, I trust you and thank God you came. I can't even explain how happy I am right now”, he said and then got up.

He continued, “ I should leave and get ready and you too get ready and come and stand beside me. I want your strength”, and then he left.

I never realized a heartbreak hurts this much. As soon as he left all my hope left too. I sat down on the floor and my tears started flowing. I tried to stop them but to no avail.

[ During Wedding]

I showed some courage and went to the wedding. I was sitting beside Minho, looking towards the front trying to hold back my tears. Minho was patting my back from time to time to calm me down. And then Chan entered. He was looking so gorgeous I kept staring at me. He was blushing so badly and that was so cute. When he passed us and went to the podium my eyes were fixed at him. How can someone be perfect ? I was completely lost in my thoughts when my eyes met his. His eyes were sparkling and he flashed a million dollar smile that I can die for.

After a few moments Emma entered. To be honest i felt that pang of jealousy i didn’t want to look up but eventually i did. And Chan was correct, she was awestruckingly beautiful. And she seemed nice. She straight away looked at Chan and he cried. I realized this is it. He is gone. He is happy. I can’t ever get him. The one person I fell madly in love with is right in front of me but is gone now forever. I tried not to cry but it hurt so bad that I started crying. Minho hugged me thankfully. I am at least glad to have him. But there is nothing left for me here. I fell for my best friend who never loved me back.

A/N : hello I guess I am back with this. I will try to post as regularly as possible. And thank you for reading my fics. Lots of love <3

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