#and that hurts

[tripleyeeet]

having one of those days where the grief is too much so instead of going to work and seeing all the reminders of you i am going to cry in my bed and maybe make some of your soup later

#i’m also gonna listen to our work mix and try to remember the sound of your voice #because truthfully it’s been so long i can’t remember #and that hurts #as someone with an already terrible memory the idea of losing any of you is hard #especially because i remember it being comforting #i just miss you man #things still aren’t the same without you

[heretherebedork]

The way Sam gets upset at Tee calling Kirk her hubby in from of Mon despite Mon knowing that he's her fiance and the way she stares at all of them and the way Sam has so much she wants but has never, ever learned how to express herself because expressing herself is so, so dangerous in her life.

Sam has spent an entire lifetime learning not to be herself because being herself meant risking her life, her family, her life and now she's faced with a chance for someone she loves and something she wants but also the knowledge that trying to act on it is still dangerous...

And all her friends are teasing her about it, constantly, laughing and giggling and joking about the deepest desires that she cannot face.

#gap the series #gap #thai ql #thai gl #thaigl #gl drama #bl series #ql series #ql drama #sammon #sam x mon #mon x sam #monsam #like it's both funny and sad #because it is a bit funny how she handles it #but you also know everything that's shaped her like this #and that hurts

[crownjewel123]

What if we bargained for land and resources instead of indiscriminately BOMBING THEM TO DEATH. SO MANY CHILDREN. SO MANY INNOCENTS. It’s absolutely DIABOLICAL that after almost THREE MONTHS they continue this. The occupation knows exactly what they are doing. They know they are bombing hospitals, schools, mosque, churches, REFUGEE CAMPS. Continuing to say that these people are ALL human shields for Hammas…

What did they expect to happen when they have been killing people’s FAMILIES? A tea sesh??? When you occupy a state and indiscriminately attack them where they can’t sleep, can’t eat. Can’t rest.

That type of trauma DRASTICALLY alters people. The anger and resentment typically boils into violent action. Why? They don’t listen to peace. Peace is not loud enough for them to hear.

At this point I don’t know what else to do. It doesn’t matter how loud we are screaming. Yeah the boycotting is hurting, yeah the protests put pressure, but the Palestinians DON’T have the luxury of time. Every second of their day is spent in suffering.

Whether it be infection from injury, and no hospital to seek out. The lack of food, and no aid to be found. The Palestinian people are dying of starvation of dehydration of infection, of illness. And every bomb the colonialist state drops is another death sentence with lasting consequences.

For now until a better idea comes to mind, I will continue to advocate for my friends. (Because every single person in Palestine that needs our help has a friend in me.)

#free palestine #free gaza #vent post #ramblings #i just cant anymore #i just want them to be okay #they’re hurting #they’re suffering #and that hurts #and we are just watching #and there’s so much more we are blind too #an eye for an eye makes the world blind #the world has been blind for a long time

[stevethehairington]

eddie does not have an easy relationship with the concept of love.

his mother told him she loved him, but then she left.

his father used his love as a weapon; sharp and barbed and entirely conditional.

the first boy eddie had ever loved, took advantage of it. strung eddie along with flirty glances and lingering touches and those three little words whispered into eddie's ear, hot and dirty, and just the necessary push to get eddie to fall into bed with him. when eddie woke the next morning he was alone. he never saw that boy again.

falling into a relationship with steve harrington is almost too good to be true. eddie pinches himself over it often, wondering whether this is all some sort of elaborate dream his overactive imagination has come up with, wondering when he'll wake up from it. but a month ticks by. then two, then three, then they're coming up on six. and seven. and eight.

and then steve tells eddie that he loves him.

and, oh, it frightens eddie. scares him so deeply because... because he loves steve too. so much that it overwhelms him. he's never felt so strongly for someone before, and he doesn't know what to do with all of the feelings.

he wants to lay himself bare for steve like that, but every single person that has held his beating heart between their hands has dug their fingers into it and made it bleed. has torn it to pieces and left it ruined, a mess of mangled muscle and viscera, bloody and raw and smeared across the cold, hard floor.

so, when steve tells eddie that he loves him, he does what he knows how to do best.

he runs.

#steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #was feeling particularly ANGSTY today folks #thinkin about eddie panicking when steve tells him he loves him bc everyone who says those words to eddie either doesnt mean them or leaves #thinkin about steve and how HURT he would be bc hes had such a hard time opening his heart since nancy broke it #and he finally has let someone in finally let someone get that close to him and the second he shares his love they leave him too #and that HURTS #thinkin about eddie and steve coming back together and learning how to be vulnerable with each other #learning how to rely on the trust that theyve built between them to know that theyre here for the long haul theyre not leaving #thinkin about eddie and steve finally getting to a place where they dont have to be scared anymore #(oh also eddie ofc comes back to steve and explains and he's able to tell him that he loves him back and its scary but its also beautiful) #mack writes #macks ficlets

[yonemurishiroku]

something something both Bianca and Jason died and neither answered Nico when he tried to summon them afterwards.

#in bianca's case she didn't response until percy was there. so technically it didn't count #or something like that. i dont know. #i just remember at some point nico tried calling for her before and she didn't reply #and that hurts #in jason's case i just KNOW it #pjo #hoo #toa #percy jackson and the olympians #heroes of olympus #trials of apollo #nico and jason #nico and bianca #bianca di angelo #jason grace #nico di angelo #yone rambling #riordanverse #grief #death #underworld siblings

[batwynn]

Being autistic and having three of my already limited comfort things completely destroyed by people going full shitty racist, misogynistic, and/or transphobic has inflicted some kind of ✨Special✨damage to my brain. 🥲

#autistic experiences #not related to hp books #two YouTube channels I liked to watch that relaxed me #and an author I loved to read and reread went straight into the good ol british lad’s racism and misogyny #a few years ago #and I just #I’m limited with what makes the happy brain juice really fire off bc of depression #and unfortunately autistic brain was like THIS THING THIS THING ONLY THIS THING #and then punch in the face #personal #batwynn talks #anyway not really important just #my anxiety and stuff is really kicked off since #and it sucks #also THEY suck #and that hurts

[this-place-called-nowhere]

I feel bad because I do things trying to be friendly and nice when I really like someone, but I always end up being the stupid one who the other person doesn't fucking care.

#and that hurts

[stephaniejuhnay]

Yeah this shit is bleak dawg. It doesn’t even help that Justin Kirk (Hamilton Burger from Perry Mason) is here. Reliving 2016 is nothing I ever needed to do, not even in my favorite white people nonsense show.

#🤢🤢🤢 #I cannot justifiably baby girl Roman or Kendall Roy anymore #and that hurts #succession #succession spoilers

[sunflowervolum-6]

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#i had how inadequate i feel around him #like hes beautiful all the people he associates with are so beautiful and pretty #and im so fucking ugly #like i know he'll never even think of us together like that #and that hurts #everytime i look at him this feeling just grows up in my chest and makes me feel like im going to die #i know they say looks dont matter #but im not even good at talking #i stutter talking to anyone new #and i freak out anytime anyone even looks at me #god im pathetic #i hate my brain

[ethereiling]

The Agonies

#avpswjy #fully realizing at last that something i have wanted very much isnt going to happen is filling me with a level of grief #that i havent experienced in A While #like its fine. and i feel stupid for caring so much. but agony #it is in gods hands now bc i sure cant hold it anymore #had 2 let go of this one #could still happen. could also happen but different. but it doesnt matter bc right now i need to let go #and that hurts #anyway!! time 2 watch videos and learn 2 accept things more easily

[looking-for-orion]

(⚠️Very slight?? Tw for mention of anxiety⚠️)

This keeps me up at night

#knowing he kept them secret for YEARS breaks my heart in pieces #and his family finally witnessed one after the outing #he probably won't be able to hide them once they live together #which is GOOD #but you know that first one is gonna terrify Henry a little to watch #and that hurts #i have so much to say about this #I'll probably rant later #but it's midnight here and i have to wake up soon yet here i am #staring at my ceiling thinking about firstprince #rwrb #slight tw?

[a-little-bit-poss]

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#my mom sent me pictures of me as a kid again today #then i tried doing what my therapist suggested and tried setting a boundary #just being like 'please dont send me pictures of me as a kid' #and she barreled right past it without recognizing it so i answered what she asked me #i then told her i was trying to set a boundary and it would be great that we could recognize it #but she didnt text back #and that hurts #and the fact it hurts makes me feel like the delicate little flower my therapist told me i was #but i dont want to bellyache about it or self pity #i guess it just is what it is #fuck

[kintsugiscars-archive]

Soldier. Poet. King. 

"There will come a ruler Whose brow is laid in thorn Smeared with oil like David's boy" 

Duty. Strength. Resignation. You were told to do things and you did them. The world is something that was put into your hands and that you must deal with - so you will. You have a rigid back and steady hands, either metaphorically or physically. Is it nature or nurture? You don't know. You are tired of being steady. You dream of feeling alive. Not that you aren't, but, sometimes, it's hard to remember that there is a heart between your ribs. Your love is where you breathe. Come on, breathe. In. Out. It starts now.

#ic; maybe this one? {ic quizzes} #owo #i feel like this says a lot about him #he is bound by his duty as the wol #he will always be DEFINED by that duty #he wants to rest and to lay down the weapons but he will never be free #and that hurts #feel free to steal!!

[thylacid]

sigh. thinking abt the core and the king again

#rowan talks #amphibia #OK I KNOW THE FINALE IS SOON BUT #GOD #I CANT STOP THINKING ABT THE CORE AND THE KING #ITS SO.... #<>WDKDSHJGDKSH #IT GIVES EVERYTHING ANDRIAS DOES LIKE #THIS EXTRA LAYER #god. im so sorry #andrias is so interesting to think abt #like #THE PARALLELS BETWEEN THE DIVORCE TRIO AND THE CALAMITY TRIO <33333 #DELICIOUS #AMAZING #THE WAY HE GAVE UP HIS FRIENDS FOR THE CORE... OUCH #THE WAY HE BASICALLY GAVE MARCY UP FOR THE CORE #bc like literally the fact that beneath everything you can tell. he DOES care #he tries so hard to hide it but he cares #and that HURTS #like i dont think he should be completely redeemed #but man. #its so fucking . ouch

[none-ofthisnonsense]

I very very rarely use Instagram but on the rare times I do go on there I am reminded how little I actually know about people and how fast time passes

#in the people insta recommends i follow there are the YOUNGER SIBLINGS of my friends #which #they were 10 last time i saw them and now they're posting pics on instagram? #it feels like they grew up without me seeing it #and that means my friends did too #and THAT hurts

[seelestia]

For the first one I imagine something like this!

Cyno.

Their actions of their past are not something that is easy to forget, much less erase.

They bit their lip with stress, with their weapon in hand pointed at Cyno who continued to looked at them with a shine of desperation in order to continue believing in them even if it was just a bit of false hope—

"... I can't, I'm sorry" They murmured as a small tear fell from their eye, Cyno tightened the grip on his spear, he watched as they smiled sadly at him. "I can't bring you into this, not you."

And it was the last thing he heard from their lips since they attacked him with their sword in hand.

Alhaitam.

They laughed sadly as they looked at him, the fury in his partner's eyes was so different from how they used to see him day by day, they sighed in defeat.

"So you know, don't you?" They asked as they pulled out their own weapon and looked at him. "I'm sorry, I never wanted you to find out that way"

Alhaitam for his part drew his weapon without saying a word, they closed their eyes while smiling sadly. "It's going to be selfish but, I'm so glad I got to meet you, ya' know? It was a nice change for all the running away from death"

I'm not really good at writing, so I'm really hoping you like it! I'm not sure how to continue, maybe I will send you other parts, if you want. :')

[ referring to this post! ]

OH GOSH, LET'S GOOO 🍿 i'm so tempted to add on to this scenario myself, but i'll hold myself back because this is already perfect tbh. you captured their characters so nicely and dw, i enjoyed it sm! feel free to send me the other parts anytime, aaaaa <3

#the alhaitham one hit diff for me because i can taste how serious he is with the reader now #like he is determined not to let them in again #AND THAT HURTS #IN A GOOD WAY #speaking of !! would you like to give yourself a name? since you're a regular now but no pressure~ #looking forward to see more from you because your brain >>> #ask box! 📬 #anon visitors! 🔎