#and that’s why I was so cold all day!!

[dragonknightofsummerset]

The new scene has me in a chokehold

Thank you @andengeu for perfectly capturing the momentary shock of Nayeli and Blade being close to each other, and being aware of each other.

#shepherds of haven #shoh spoilers #blade bronwyn #blade x mc #shoh mc: nayeli valendil #i feel i should clarify: ik blade is shirtless in the scene & mc can be too (optionally) #but i didnt have a clear reference for all of blade's scars (or at least the big one across his ribcage) or of his tattoo. so yea #also its supposed to be cold where the 4th day off takes place (for me) so i was like why not give him a shirt #its probably why he gets sick by the time we reach the hunters. hes training without a shirt in the cold like come on blade #lol anyway. i still love this piece and their expressions!! its like an almost 'oh' moment #but instead they panic at how close they are to each other #i like this outcome the most because of the surprise blade must feel when mc manages to pin him down (aka beating him)

[fuckmeyer]

girl please, Charlie Swan is Team Werewolf and you know it

#it's like Bella has no conception of the socioeconomic symbolism attached to these monsters!! #girl why on earth would the middleclass police chief of a tiny rural town in Washington #choose the wealthy murderous parasites????? #OK besties as i'm typing that out i see why charlie might side with the wealthy murderous parasites #yes he IS an american cop so siding with the parasites does make sense #but think of all the paperwork he would have to do when the cullens kill someone! i mean. come on. #also it aint like cullen out there paying off the pigs so really what is Charlie getting out of this relationship #it's no bribes all paperwork? i don't care how American this cop is he is Anti Vamp and that's that on that #WEREWOLVES on the other hand......... besties let's review the cold fax ok #they're a blue collar blue jeans blue skies all day baby kinda monster. crack open a cold one with the boys kinda monster. #pull over on the road to lend you some spark plugs kinda monster. bring a dairy-based dip to the charity softball game kinda monster #big plus: they're on the DL. neat & tidy cover story. no killing. protect & serve yeah baby. no parasites here my boys WORK for a living #the boys are 0% paperwork (no killing) and 100% bribes (dairy-based dips) #Charlie's deffo Team Werewolf at best and turning a blind eye at worst #as far as this man's concerned the werewolves are the Olympic Natl Park rangers' problem #bear who???? don't know em #twilight #twilight renaissance #bella swan #the twilight saga #jacob black #charlie swan #eclipse read

[linkneol091]

JOSUKE MY GUY

#FUNKY FELLA #had so much fun drawing this omg #apparently I think school might posses me #everyone there are preparring for big deals and I seem to get involved #eh #I’ll try for a while #and after that itll be normal #I still can do whatever I want at least for 1 #for several hours and breaks in school #also its SOOOOO HOT in here like omg Im melting #theres that girl who camt take cold at all and she doesnt even let me open the windows which is like #CMON WERE SPENDING AROUNG 8 HOURS IN A CLOSED PLACEMENT WERE GONNA DIE ITS +20 OUTSIDE CMON IDC IF ITS APRIL HOT MEANS HOT #why tf I shared my anger of being all sweaty under a funky jojo post lmfao #well at least some random people will know that the poster isnt a cool guy #im just a smart fella trying my best #ok time for tagging #my art #fanart #jjba #jojo’s bizzare adventure #jjba fanart #diamond is unbreakable #josuke higashikata #Spotify #btw the inspo for this one was this song its trolls remix and me seeing some fancy stuff in shop the other day

[enden-k]

my only day off and i wanted to draw but instead i slept my evening away bc my migraines kicked in fully and meds didnt work 💀

#didnt do workout or art today no....just slept in then played a lil then napped more then read a bit then slept again.... #im still goign to draw now or at least try but man....sm free time wasted....... #give me 3 days with human contact and i will die from my migraines and exhaustion uwa.. #i really am not made for dealing with ppl its tiresome to act n mask all day n stuff #also the weather SUCKS it was so amazing and warm and sunny and then it switched to storms and coldness!!!! prob another reason why i felt #unwell today and yesterday eugh lit goes to the head #aughhh anw.......getting to draw....getting to draw... #babbles #tbd

[oatbugs]

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it #it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper #provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the #interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after #50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked #his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it #he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from #when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has #his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever #but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how #we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe #cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna #back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed #practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence #we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one #who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted #to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say #goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art. #you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea? #if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa #the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding #his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.

[wisteria-whump]

whumpee catching an illness right after recovering from a different one 🫶

#all of my prompts are thinly veiled complaints about my life #bc why did i just get over an allergy flare up and now i caught some kind of cold #i feel like i have lava in my trachea every time i cough it hurts so bad #and i was supposed to have an all-day event tomorrow and i was looking forward to it #whump #whump prompt #whump prompts #whump writing #whump idea #whump blog #whump scenario #tw whump #whump tw #writing prompts

[jjba-smash-or-pass]

#you know what it might not be because of a general feeling of depression #maybe it's just burnout from the blog idk #I've also had creative burnout recently and it's been hard to work on any writing or drawing #just a general feeling of being in a funk bc it's been too cold to go outside so I've just been indoors all day every day #in the two same rooms (my bedroom and the living room) #anyway. enough about my life. I can't explain it but smash why not #king crimson #golden wind #jojo's bizarre adventure

[snzluv3r]

being so incredibly sick and not being able to take time off work is actually the most draining thing i have so much guilt about getting other people sick and so much frustration because the entire reason IM sick is because nobody else is allowed to take off work either i’m so sick of this

#like my coworker had the flu last friday and wasn’t allowed to call off she tried and my boss made her come lmdao #i would’ve gone the fuck back to sleep and ignored her call but #god #i’m so annoyed #if i have a 103 fever at work all day on friday the first thing yoh say to me about it #should not fucking be #“you better rest all weekend so you’re good to go by monday #like #my boss was saying how it was unfortunate she didn’t know i felt so bad #WHY WOULD I EVER FEEL COMFORTABLE TELLING YOU THAT J DID?????? #she’s the most non empathetic person in the world like #one of those people who will compare every little ailment yoh have to her own life #so of course when i got in trouble for wearing my winter coat inside because of the chills #she was like #i’ve been cold all week and i didn’t wear my jacket! #FUCK OFF #none of this even makes sense i’m just rantinf

[moregraceful]

suffering through the heat death of the universe (new house has no air conditioning AND two floors AND i can't leave the house right this instant to get coconut water bc the dog finally stopped panicking and fell asleep (on my pillow)(help)), send me asks to ponder tomorrow while i unpack please

#how many 5 minute cold showers in one day is too many cold showers. asking for a me. i know we are in a drought #anyway i moved and it. sucked. moving sucks when you're single with no roommates did you know that #also my monstera is DYING HELLO. YOU GUYS SAID YOU WOULD TAKE CARE OF HIM WHILE I MOVED #YOU SAID YOU WOULD PUT HIM IN THE SUNNY CORNER WITH THE OTHER MONSTERA WHY IS HE IN THE MISERY CORNER #mom was like oh so we have katya the monstera (named after the trans woman she belonged to) we can name him kenneth :) no his name is elias #literally all i have left in this world are my monstera my two snake plants and my dog all of which are in various stages of disorder #if elias dies i will die. then you are left with my unkillable snake plants i named after former orioles during the pandemic. and my dog #thinking of getting another snake plant tho. i want a little one. i will name him adley. he will grow up big and strong. hopefully. #anyway send asks...morale is in the gutter. maybe tomorrow i will go apeshit in the safeway and buy a watermelon #fresno oilers.txt

[crossbackpoke-check]

Substance, Shadow, and Spirit [remixed, abridged] by Tao Yuanming

#liv in the replies #patrice bergeron #boston bruins #brad marchand #do you ever think about how brad marchand said that when bergy retired he would retire or are you capable of normal thought i'm not at all #please say a gratitude for both my sanity& y'all that this poem (which has been saved in my camera roll with the vague idea of using it for #??? ​long) & not one of the poems i had saved for carey for a really long time & remixed & everything with another poem until i found a poem #that absolutely murdered me in cold blood but there is an alternate universe where i did& then had to explain my unhinged thoughts to you. #anyway how are we feeling about bergy retirement. pspspspsp sara & luna are y'all doing okay like. the doc title for this one was #patrice the hockey player means a lot to me but patrice the person means so much more #which is why the end line of the other poem was so *%"@^)! (you love / what you are) because patrice does. like he is a whole ass good huma #& now since no one asked i need to tell you all the details about everything also y'all please clap i made an edit with NO baby pictures #although i did find one & save it & minimal genres of photo i always use in edits because they're my taste & aesthetic but anyway. #when i saved the first photo and marked it as one i wanted i accidentally wrote “how will he know they love him” which is not the line but #makes me feel feral about patrice & the rest of them all had hurtful names too but also. the third picture is literally a CELLY like brad #just scored a goal & he is clinging to bergy for dear life with that shit i saved that as “oh the agony on his face for unendurable” #& yes it is one of my cliches to have a draft day picture but in my defense the lifelong bond that patrice has/d with boston deserved to be #there even if i put in the love story & YES that picture is from the 2011 playoff right below it shared joy & pain & i couldn't tell you #when the brad marchy photo for together forever is except for the fact that i saw it & just the gut punch of oh my god the way he looks at #things men will praise you for is the stanley cup. duh. but i love the contrast of “some deed” being the stanley cup but then #bergy's choice to do noble deeds (ends up still earning praise &that's my note to his efforts outside of hockey we love a supportive captai #should also mention the first two i came up with & had the photos i knew i wanted for were the first and last one alskaldk but i KNEW i #wanted chara somewhere in the paragraph about leaving & then while i was looking found the one of bergy playing tuukka on accident & yes #i do have to make goalie jokes every time. no reprieve . no dice/no deal/no goal goalies have no rest/reprieve etc etc the one that killed #me though was looking for a patrice award pic & i wanted basically the one that i got for “how will you know any will praise you” & instead #also got the picture of patrice winning the some community hero award for charity work that he does & i love him mama & of COURSE that puck #is from bergy's 1000 game who do you think I am (if you guessed sleepy and emotional about patrice you'd be right) and ALSO please be ready #for all the patrice posts/bruins posts that have been sitting in my drafts to be released on this occasion of patrice retirement #I FORGOT TO MENTION THAT TUUKKA ALSO RETIRED THAT’S WHY HE WAS ON WISE OR SIMPLE NO REPRIEVE AND THAT LATE OR SOON WAS ALWAYS GOING TO BE #CHARA BECAUSE CHARA LEFT FIRST TO GO TO THE CAPS AND THEN LEFT IN RETIRMENT HE LEFT SOON BUT NOT FOR REAL THEN LATER LEFT FOR REAL (RETIRED)

[azulashengrottospiano]

i love how i come back to twst post about how much i hate idia for a few days and then leave again it's such a cycle

#auburn's rambles <3 #i think about that time when people were shipping me w him a lot #and i don't think i ever really addressed how bad it made me feel #like i told people to stop yeah but now whenever i see idia i think about how upset and frustrated i was #like it keeps coming BACK i can't get it out of my HEAD #THIS GOT KINDA VENTISH WAIT #idk man it's late i should be asleep but Fuck i cannot stop thinking about how that got so out of hand #my poor lab partner had to deal w me that day LMAO i like. cried in front of her #and i don't know why my brain keeps coming back to it because nobody makes jokes like that anymore #and everyone who did sent me apologies which was so sweet #anyways hello ygys i think i just needed to get this off my chest goodnight #FOR CLARIFICATION I AM OK!!!! i think im just emotional rn and i did not expect to dump a whole ass essay here #muah muah love ygys thank u for being on my side i hope all of your pillows are cold and you have sweet dreams

[angellurgy]

:]

#AAAAAAAAAAAAA FUCKFUCKFUCK #CONDTANT UNENDING SILENT SCREAMING #NO WORDS BUT FORCED TO UNDERSTAND STILL UNESCAPABLE I CANT I CANT I CANT #ill never be anything ill never be anything ill never be anything at all to any of you #too fucking tired to go out of the house for so long no way to stop being tired its all wearing down on me like a fucking curse. too much #CANT CANT CANT take 10 more days of this waiting itll just go back to normal after #TRIED TO LIVE BUT WHAT IS THE POINT WHAT IS THERE EVEN FOR ME NO LOVE NO CARE NO IMPORTANCE NO PLACE #FADING MEMORY REMNANTS OF MY SOUL DRIPPING OUT OF MY HEAD LIKE A GUTTER. NO ONE WILL REMEMBER. EVEN I CANT. #AAAAAAAAAAA rotrotrotrotrotrotrotrotrot wish i just had a fucking dad to hold me wish i had a brother to show me the loving care noone will #please. llease. please. nothing left nothing left everyone wants me less with every single post but icant stop #cooped up inside. tumblrs knly good when you have a life outside of it. i cant fight it tho bc of this fucking EXHAUSTION #caused by the emotional pain and exclusion. eternal loop. let me.out #NOT LIKE IT MATTERS TO ANYONE BUT THE FEW WHO CANT HELP. THE FEW WHO CANT MAKE MY SITUATION BETTER. I JUST WANT A GROUP. #I KNOW COMMUNITY ISNT REAL BUT I FUCKING WANT SOMETHING. PLEASE #LET ME OUT. GIVE ME LIFE. INSTEAD OF THIS CONSTANT FUCKING VOID GROWING BLACK MOLD ON THE CREVICES OF MY SKULL #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa nothing is giving me life right now i want sometbing i cant create anything i dont wanna die but i have no choice #FIGHT THROUGH THE TIREDNESS WALK INTO THE FOREST IN THE NIGHT AND ROT. #SLIT MY WRISTS EVEN THOUGH IT WONT DO SHIT. LAY ON A BLANKET AND LET THE COLD TAKE ME #WOULDNT BE THE FIRST TIME IVE BEEN CLOSE TO IT. LEAST I CAN GO ALL THE WAY. GOD WHY DO I TRY. I WANT TO TRY. I HAVE NOTHING TO TRY FOR. #NO OTHER CHOICE.

[a-r00m-with-a-m00se]

nothing day

#testing out a style that feels right for me as i de rust and adjust to digital art #dhmis #fluffybird #made in pencil 2d #my art #my works #its 3 in the morning- i wake up in a cold sweat thinking about how something was off in this deawing #ITS THE FUCKING SIZE OF THE RED ONE AND NOW HIS FEET DONT MATCH THE BOTTOM OF THE ROCKING CHAIR AND HIS HAND IS TOO BIG #LITERALLY ALL I HAVE TO DO IS SIZE HIM UP AND UGH #ugh #every drawing ive posted has some fixable error and this is why i never post but also im so fresh to digital its so easy to zoom in #and just miss really obvious stuff so i might just have a day where i revise everything and i wonder if any of you would notice #if i just edited the post and not make a new post.... is that rude? i wonder if theres a better way to do these things

[jasontoddenthusiastt]

It is not classist that Jason, a vigilante in a *family of vigilantes*, is violent like the rest | just | because he comes from a poor family

What's (more likely) classist is writers thinking he needs to be taught right vs wrong from Bruce and co and that he consequently makes snap judgments out of some childish grudge-fueled rebellion which makes him dangerous the way a toddler holding a knife is dangerous

#that dumb godzilla vs kong beast wrld issue is a prime example of what I'm talking abt #but I can't even say that's | classism | per se #cause it's also just a product of writers not liking him solely for being in opposition to their bbyg bruce #kelseethe #when will people get it in their heads that shooting someone isn’t “more" violent #than cracking their skulls on cement or ripping their bodies to shreds “but keeping them alive” #things the other bats do pretty regularly and with quite a bit of pride too #it will never not be weird that people see Jason remorselessly poisoning a child trafficker who did it for EXTRA cash #or shooting+killing a dude who was deliberately poisoning his young kid and wife with a drug similar to street fentanyl #and think he should have his edges rounded out #people who say Jason can afford to be “less violent” #are accidentally “Jason should kill less sob sob urban legends is good” schmucks #which is kinda more pathetic than being his anti like at least they *know* what they're saying #even if he was more rageful like in rh gotham war instead of cold/detached like in utrh I'd have that any day #over cheer Jason's “sob sob bad people dying still has consequences I don't really know how to cope with so rubber bullets see” nonsense #ever since his appearance in batman 408. everything Jason has done #he did knowing exactly why he was doing it and what the consequence(s) would be #he believes the extent of “harm” a person causes is always their choice #and he doesn't do more for the sake of revelling in the pain he causes the way bruce does #but whatever he does do he never tries to sugarcoat or downplay which makes it all the more agreeable #and he certainly doesn’t convince himself he does it out of love or compassion or some other mushy horeseshit #like sorry you're of feeble mind but I'm not a wuss and I think it's very logical and cool lol

[woosh-floosh]

Grandpa's been diagnosed with terminal cancer and I want to visit more but I wish it wasn't so toughies on me autism wise.

#they live a state away so I do have to stay with them #but unfortunately the heating and cooling is poor so the house is either freezing cold or suffocatingly hot #plus grandma has a hording problem so much of the house feels cramped (and it's already a small house) #plus all the other issues that come up with traveling while autistic #and that's why I visited them at their house for the past three years :| #And while I'm there I still need to take long 2-3 hour breaks alone once a day and it feels bad that I can't visit/help my dying grandfathe #but it's either that or a nasty meltdown!! #also the internet doesn't reach up to the second floor so I can't even watch my youtubes to calm down >M<

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

okay we have officially entered the Winter Break Is Driving Me Mad zone

#djhahdjhkashdash i have sat still as in not moving as in not going anywhere as in Still for too long #but it's too cold and dark to run around or go somewhere #and everyone is conspiring against me (there is someone in every single room so i am effectively cornered) #i was not built for this i feel like i'm going to explode they should release me into the wild so that i can experience freedom before #my untimely death by nature's hand but it will be oh so beautiful it will be yuri too btw #at least during the summer i can go to parks and walk through the forests or go in the caves or something but i can do nothing #during the cold dark winter #i am trapped in this tiny house with these people and i cannot leave i am going stir-crazy and it has been exactly 5 days since #school has officially ended #mayhaps i shall test if the rock climbing gym is open during winter break #we have one at my school and technically i get free access but i never go in bc i know too many gym rats and i hate seeing ppl i know #in different locations #but damn rock climbing sounds good rn #[insert google search] noooo they're closed on the weekends for winter break noooooooo #and their hours suck noooooo #u know what i may just say fuck it and go to a park or smth we have a hilly one that i bet no-one will be at bc it's fucking cold #i am going to go mad staying here i am going to be sick #where are the beautiful trees and fresh air and sunshine where did it all go why am i stuck in this house #i have no room to move all i can do is wait for the main room to be vacated so i can have space to dance but this is not enough #i need to climb something i need to be given more space to do something but noooooo #u know what i will unbecome nocturnal just to go places during the day #i will go to the sad cold riverside park and i will run from whatever geese are still around. maybe i'll bring a dog #if i do not i am going to scratch up these walls and YES they are yellow but they are not wallpaper it is paint. if u even care