#and thats gonna bother me forever!

[trashinyourpockets]

Alien child and dad.

#red vs blue #rvb #art #artists of tumblr #rvb art #halo #red vs blue art #my art #digital art #whoops #realizing i may have accidentally left the desaturation on #oh well 😩 #thats gonna bother me forever now lol #rvb tucker #red vs blue tucker #rvb junior #red vs blue junior #i will never decide what hair style to give tucker so hes a stylist now lmao

[nnugatoryextravagance]

attenjtion freaks

its me

#sludgetalkz #yeah its me sludge im back hey whats up #im still. not feeling great im gonna be honest with you #but my short time away gave me enough time to fuckin. re evaluate some personal shit so thats something i guess #sure i still have a ways to go and sure i was gone only like 3 days but i feel like i am regardless not the same man i was prior #all ill say is theres a lot of things wrong with me that i might never be able to share #but what matters is i finally got enough of a wake up call to actually start to work on it instead of letting it eat me up inside forever #i hope those little freaks who took over in my stead for a bit didnt bother anybody too badly #i dunno what else to say here so i guess just. take care of yourselves. tell some people that you love them. eat your favorite food #go outside for a bit and just take in the sights of life or something #just for the love of god dont be like me

[scarletiswailing347]

it doesnt feel right giving eclipse!zam anythign other than a necktie and im not sure why...

#mine.txt #my designs are haevily feelings-based which is why i have such a hard time changing them #even when ive admitted a certain aspect of it is stupid or illogical #i gave zam a ribbon in the animation i made because it would make it easier for transitional purposes since normally i draw zam with a ribb #but now i just have this nagging feeling of wanting to change it #i have this feeling a lot when making designs and i usually try my best to figure out why that is and feel it out first #before going through with it #a good example of this is my spoke design like i procrastinated Heavily on changing him even tho the whole time i was like hm dont like thi #but i gotta settle this Now or else it would be a nightmare to animate the later parts #so ig im gonna just have to change it into a necktie or else it would forever bother me #wish i could figure it out soon tho cause its really bothering me #it could be something as because thats how the skin looks #or it could be something like symbolism or metaphor #like does my brain perceive something i dont cause if so id like it to share with the class

[emlos]

im gonna be honest i dont understand so many basic things that people do

ex. why put together forever etc on wedding cakes and decor and stuff, because realistically this just sets your expectations up for failure

like it would make more sense to put something generic like "omg i cant believe were getting married" or "let's try to make this last!" or even "we love each other" because even if you believe you're gonna be together, yoj HAVE to know that divorce is something that can happen, and youre just lying right ???

#ok maybe i..saying it wrong #i do KNOW why people want to say it #but there's no way anybody believes that m #right? #i dunno but #ita the first time i could put this feelung of 'ok but...why?' into worda #dont answer that #because the answer is: because thats how they show love #which doesn't make sense #saying ' were gonna be together for as long as we both want because we love each other' (but like poetically) is wayyy more romantoc #dont you want somebody who is logical and doesn't want to bind yourself to you 'for forever' if you're not right for each other? #if anybody ever wants to marry me then i would be constantly anxious whether they're staying with me cause of they feel like we have to #since we're married #(and if that was the slogan or theme or whatever) #eugh thats NOT how normal people think why do iiii #and i guess it's bothering me because i just. dont understand this... wishful thinking? self delusion? #sorry i cant think of a better word i know what delusion is but what do you call uhh ślepa wiara? #text

[tomwambsmilk]

This is such a long post that nobody asked for but I've been seeing Discourse again...

I feel like something that’s missing in most of the discussions I’ve seen on Tumblr about how streaming companies like Netflix have changed TV production for the worse is the profit motive. Or at least, it’s misunderstood. For example, I see a lot of people complaining about how Netflix only considers a show worthwhile if a bunch of people binge it as soon as it comes in, which is true - but I don’t know that everyone understands why, and it's lead to a skewed perception of what's actually going on, and why various studios and platforms make the decisions that they do.

The thing about Netflix is that it’s a public company that's currently unprofitable - so, every single thing it does is oriented toward "growth" (gaining new subscribers). Every show they decide to invest in, they do so because they think it’ll make people who don’t have Netflix want to get Netflix. And if they launch a show, and a whole bunch of new people join the platform, AND their viewer data shows that this show received disproportionate viewership in the same month all those people joined the platform - then it was a good investment. The further out you go from the release, the less correlation there is between the viewership of a show and new subscribers, so the less those viewer numbers matter to them.

Additionally, people talking about the show is more valuable to them than people actually watching it, because people talking about the show gives them free word-of-mouth marketing. Once your friend has bought a Netflix subscription, Netflix doesn't care what they watch, or at what pace. So obviously, if you can make everyone feel like they need to watch the entire show RIGHT NOW because everyone is talking about it and they can't avoid spoilers, that's a much stronger marketing strategy than letting people watch at their own pace.

And that’s why seasons are so short - a longer season costs more money and won’t bring in any extra subscribers, so it's a bad investment. It’s also why Netflix shows tend to be cancelled after only a couple of seasons - if a show hasn’t brought in many new subscribers after the first two seasons, it’s not likely to do so in the future, and so it becomes a poor investment, regardless of how many people already on the platform love it. And even beloved shows like Stranger Things eventually reach a point where everyone who loves it is already on the platform, and even though it's still massively popular it's no longer profitable on the same scale.

All of this is to contrast with network TV, where the revenue comes from advertisers. The more eyeballs are on a show, the more money a network can charge for ad space during that show. So the more beloved a TV show is, the more episodes you want in a season; even if the quality of some of those episodes is poor because the creative team is overworked and underpaid (ie exploited), people will still tune in and you’ll still make money. And that’s also how you end up with shows of 10-15 seasons, even if the show starts to suck around season 8 or 10; as long as enough devoted fans are still watching the show, they can still charge mega ad dollars and make a lot of money. A long-running show with name recognition will make more money, even when it sucks, than an excellent brand-new show with no name recognition. It also means that shows that are self-contained “plot of the week” type shows do a LOT better than stories with season-long arcs, because those shows are more likely to attract casual viewers in addition to regular ones, and people are less likely to abandon the whole show if they miss an episode or two. Plus, if you don't need to worry about the order a season airs in, you can make a lot more money off of rerun adspace outside of the regular season.

And finally, growth looks different for a network. On Netflix, a single person can only provide a single unit of growth, because you're only going to purchase one subscription, so there's very little incentive for Netflix to cater to existing subscribers so long as the platform is 'good enough' for them to avoid cancelling. On the other hand, network growth is calculated based on viewership. So, let's say I watch "The Office" on NBC every week, and nothing else. And then one day, a friend tells me how much they love this other NBC show, "30 Rock", that's halfway through its second season, so I start watching that. That's growth for NBC! They can now charge a little bit more for ad space on 30 Rock than they could before - and it's happened without a whole new person needing to be introduced to their network. So there's a strong incentive to pay attention to what existing viewers want, rather than just focusing on what brings in new viewers. After all, not watching one specific show is a much easier decision than cancelling an entire platform subscription. (The downside of this is that network TV creators are far more beholden to the demands of the audience than a show on a platform like Netflix or HBO, and that can lead to sacrificing some creative integrity).

Overall my point is that the entire structure and shape of TV shows has ALWAYS been motivated by profit. That doesn’t mean the complaints about Netflix are invalid - they are VERY valid and I agree with most of them - but I think it’s important to diagnose the problem correctly: the people with the money to make a tv show are also usually the people who would like to make as much money as possible off your tv show, and will manipulate it accordingly. What’s the solution? I’m not sure, but pretending that these studios are making decisions based on “bad data” or “not understanding what people want” or just pure caprice is simply naive. Its not that they don't know what you want - they just don't care.

#sorry this is a long rant about something no one asked #I just saw a couple of posts that bothered me bc they were missing the point #everything you hate about Netflix is bc of the profit motive. and that’s why it won’t change #those execs aren’t stupid they’re just greedy #and netflix's business model has been artistically hot garbage from the beginning #also the reason premium cable (like HBO and Showtime) tend to produce the best quality TV #is that they need to produce TV good enough to bring in new subscribers. but which is consistently good enough from week to week to keep #those subscribers from cancelling #but thats also why those networks tend to put out shows with shorter seasons #and even popular shows rarely run longer then 7 or 8 seasons at MOST #because at a certain point it stops driving new subscriptions #(and btw thats why HBO isnt pressuring Jesse Armstrong to make succession last forever. they're gonna hit diminishing returns soon) #and #thats why platforms like D+ which have smaller quantity release their shows week-to-week #they're trying to replicate that business model bc they don't have Netflix's selection

[mbat]

before i pass out for the night. since my brain is back on dan and phil as if its 2016 or something i need to put this out into the world. this isnt some sort of important life changing post, just a personal funny thing

so when i was 13 and fixating on dan and phil, i read a lot of fanfics. like, i guarantee that even after all these years that, if i had the statistics, that fandom was the one i read the most fanfics for and constantly. i couldnt tell you what nearly any of them were about, and i have a feeling that many of them are probably lost to time by now. i also dont know if i need to mention that yeah, a lot of them were shipping, and yes ive long grown out of that. (the dnp fandom is actually what made me grow out of that)

anyway all this to say that over the last 6 years after i stopped fixating on dan and phil, one fanfic stuck with me and i just. i think about it every once in a while. its been over half a decade. it wasnt a groundbreaking fic, i dont remember any quotes or specifics, just the premise as of at least the first few chapters. idk why it stuck with me

it was literally a fic about. if the world had gotten to a point where almost every child was born as like, a science baby instead of a natural baby, and phil was a science baby, but dan was a natural baby. and there was somehow this like, thing where the science babies would bully the natural babies for some reason idek, and this was a highschool setting and i think dan was a new kid in school. and what gets me about the fic is that dan was some small shy scared kid and phil was some mean jerk bully. and how wild that is compared to how they are in real life

this isnt me trying to find the fic or the person who wrote it or any of that, this is literally just. i remember this fic at least once every few months and i needed to get it out of my brain somewhere

#there are few fics that i remember several years after i read them the first time. this is one of them #depressingly. some of the fics that are on that list are most definitely gone by now #there was one in the vt fandom i still think about 6 years later that i loved. but the person who wrote it hated it :[ #the others that are on that list off the top of my head are the hlvrai mermaid fic and the hlvrai alien weed fic #my brain latches onto the most random fics to remember forever lol #my post #dan and phil #<- tagging for blog purposes. not because i want people to see this #if you see this post. good for you i guess ajfjshd #bur seriously if you know the fic/author of what im talking about. i mean itd be neat to find it again. but dont bother them yknow #its also wild how thats like. such a dystopian novel premise. not in a bad way just a neutral way #i love the premises that people come up with for fanfiction. like. ANYTHING can be a fanfic premise and i find that so magical #i had a fanfic premise that was originally meant to be a dnp fanfic that ive long since changed to be an original thing lol #and its... a weird premise lol. at least i think so #anyway since this is the bottom of the tags and no ones going to read this. i gotta say i have so many thoughts on dnp fanfic culture #and my personal relationship with it which i think. my personal relationship with it was heavily influenced by me being like. #transmasc + mlm but not knowing either yet and how wild that is to look back on #its why i love that one meme pic thats like. 'straight girls who fetishize mlm look like this in 5 years' and it shows a pic of jessie #jessie from breaking bad sorry the tag length ran out #but anyway im not gonna make full posts about that. just wanted to mention it somewhere lol

[wellthatschaotic]

i hate my brain

#*finally works up the courage to ask for something weve been wanting for forever* #brain: umm excuse me? since when are you allowed to ask for stuff? you dont deserve that. thats a horrible idea. now youre just bothering #people. theyre gonna get mad at you for that. might as well go out and apologize for wasting everyones time right now

[shvdowsdrowned]

PLEASE look at him with his pink gun thank you

#it just suits him so well idk what to tell you <3 #i love him sm im gonna go insane #anyways thats it thats the post 💕 #they have this cool purple one that i want SO bad but it's going to take me FOREVER to unlock it 😭😭😭 #ooouugghhh i didnt even bother to check if they have a plain purple one like that pink one #if they do have it im gonna unlock it real quick n then he'll be even hotter <3 #edit: they do not have plain purple 😔

[pinkseas]

girls who are generally huge fucking flakes to the point where they genuinely do not have Any Idea how or why their friends still want to be friends at all

#im so stupidly fucking grateful that they DO want to be friends still because i love them so much theyre so so wonderful #but dear god if i do not give them Every Fucking Reason to get sick of my shit and drop me #im really really hoping it gets at least a little bit better once i have a car and can invite them out places or go other places #instead of inviting them over <- never knows what to do when people are at their house Ever she is a SHIT host #but also what if thats just an excuse and even once i do have a car im never going anywhere or doing anything with them?? #this CANNOT last forever people are gonna get sick of it eventually its an actual miracle they havent yet #and im just. sitting here not changing anything about it always worrying and never DOING anything about it #its not even just offline!! even online its like i can hardly be bothered to actually do things with people sometimes its so. #girl who claims to care so much about people and then doesnt do a damn thing to actually show it ever #and wonders why shes constantly had people in her life tell her that they dont feel like she cares about them #god. need to talk to my therapist about The Food Thing too. #because the thought of changing anything about it is the single most TERRIFYING thing in my fucking life right now #but it stops me from doing So Much and it makes me So Miserable and So Anxious #and no matter how much i dont want to change it i NEED to change it #sorry for being A Downer ive been in a huge episode/relapse the past 5? 6? weeks and its really starting to fuck me up more than- #-it already was #alyalyoxenfree

[scarasmood]

I'm tired.

#i just wanna go in hibernation for like forever #mentally and physically drained #my physiotherapist said i was great at boxing as it was one of our exercises #i never boxed before so thats a huge compliment #always wanted to be a boxer tho #i found a place that test adults on adhd and such gonna contact them for more info #i feel like i am getting closer and closer to some answers #also no one got bothered that i was playing with a paint brush in class #so that's also a good thing bc playing with shit helps me focus

[konckalicious]

i'm not gonna lie i'm currently just listening to fallen down from undertale and crying like a baby

#there's just so much bothering me all the time that there's no way the horrors will end that quickly #so much in life just isnt for me i think #i'm not built for any of this #i dont know what will even make me whole #nothing i think #it feels like im going to be this way forever and it feels so crushing #ive hoped so many times #so many people ive told that ill be fine #im sorry #thats a lie #i dont know what will happen to me #its scary #i dont feel like im ever gonna get better #ive never actually felt like this before #walking into the lab and immediately bursting into tears #not being able to stop crying for a half hour before inevitably just going home #staying up until 3 #4 or even 5 #just to get numb enough to not feel the fear or the sadness anymore #bursting into tears literally fucking anywhere #waiting for the train #on the train #in the middle of a party #now that i think about it this has been going on for even longer than i thought #i dont want it anymore #please #if this is some sort of punishment please let itr fucking end #ive felt enough pain already #make it stop #this is torture

[oflgtfol]

that thing my SM said is still irking me so badly i guess bc it echoes concerns from my friends and family and even my own insecurities and has roots in what my depression over the past few years has robbed from me and so to hear it now from my fucking michaels store manager of all people it’s like oh fuck off. Completely fuck off

#brot posts #delete soon #this is literally sending me on a downward spiral tonight i was doing so good but now since she to #told me that im like going insane #especially bc its based off something i told to him in a passing (private!) conversation when just us two closed together on wednesday #like you take something i barely mention in passing and then talk about it behind my back in such a back handed insulting way #and hitting me right in the depression-based-insecurity thats been bothering me forever now #its just so. this completely derailed my night lmfao #im glad my manager told me and she said shes texhnically not supposed to since yknow im a normal employee and shes a manager #but she was like. i consider you a friend and so im gonna tell you anyway #and she was saying how like mean spirited it was and how she and the other managers were mad he said that bc they all like me #and like thats i appreciate it but im like #its not even what he said like it wasnt hateful it was just. mean spirited and lowkey insulting #and the fact it is something ive been struggling with now for so long makes it feel like. painfully true #instead of just oh fuck him hes wrong like its hitting me right in the insecurity like i hope to god hes wrong but what if hes right #so i spent my whole last 2 hours just saying to myslef. if hes right. im killing myself for real #and its like why am i getting suicidal over what my fucking michaels store manager said like girl its MICHAELS #but its also like GOD HE GOT ME RIGHT IN THE DEPRESSION #HOW DID YOU KNOW THAT WAS MY WEAK POINT !!! #im just. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[sleepii-moth]

oh the horrible urge to rearrange my whole room even tho i know my parents would never let me

#i wanna go through everything and organize it #and also like. get rid of some things my mom doesnt want me to get rid of for some reason #i want my tv mounted to the wall but my parents wont do it until they redo the floor in my room which is never gonna happen #and i wanna push my bed closer to the wall and move the nightstand to the other side #and get rid of this bookshelf i really only need to hold up my tv #and then get like an ottoman to shove in one corner and finally put up this like net thing that hangs on thr ceiling that ive had forever #but they would literally never let me because their all like #'ooh we need to put wood floors in here so we have to move you outt and then and only then will we move stuff for you' #and they still havent even put a window in the fucking hole in the wall thats been there for months so its just not gonna happen ever #aauuhhg the layout is bothering me so much tho

[teamatsumu]

screenshot. (kita shinsuke x reader)

summary: your friend confesses on your behalf. for my valentine’s day event - theme: confessions.

word count: 1161

tags: @keiva1000 @kindnessspreads @msbyomimi @sleepyxxhead d @priv-rose @nishayuro @kitas-tapioca @kakashineedstotouchgrass @amisuh @avis-writeshq @samanthaa-leanne @akaashi-todorki @sp1ng @kur0obaby @bleach-your-panties @pinkiipeachiikeen @whippedbel

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Many of Kita’s friends and volleyball teammates think he is a stickler for routine. And they are right. But Kita isn’t rigid. He isn’t unchangeable. He accepts a break in routine, takes it in stride, learns from the turning tides and comes back with a smile on his face. Why else would he be the captain of the volleyball team if he didn’t know how to assimilate with rapidly developing circumstances?

Today, he is confronted with another such change. He is staring it right in the face. For a few moments, Kita cannot fathom the sight. How can it be? A red envelope in his locker? Surely, it must not be meant for him.

His next thought is how it got there in the first place. No one besides the volleyball team is allowed in the club room. He is the one who always opens it and he is also the one who locks up every night. Did someone sneak in during practice time?

Nothing else in his locker seems out of place. Just the letter placed delicately on top of the rest of his belongings. Kita finally reaches out for it, tugging on the flap to detach it and pulling out the crisp white paper inside. Kita is halted in his tracks when he realizes that there is no writing on the paper. It’s a print-out. Of a screenshot.

He eyes the text message chain, recognising the small icons on both the sender and receiver’s text bubbles. It’s Suna, his underclassman, and he also recognises you, the manager and his long time best friend.

‘I can’t stand it anymore suna!’

‘then just tell him’

‘u know i cant’

‘thats a u problem’

The next message is long, bordering on a whole paragraph, and Kita’s eyes skim over it. For the first time in a long while, his heart skips.

‘ive known him forever rin. hes such an amazing person and my best friend but he doesn like me that way. if i tell him im just gonna lose him as a friend and id rather we be friends than nothing at all’

The punctuation is atrocious, and the grammar is slightly questionable, but Kita smiles regardless. He carefully folds the paper again, placing it inside the envelope. He closes his locker and continues his evening routine of cleaning up and locking the club room.

Over the next hour as Kita cleans, his thoughts mull over the letter he had just received. The menial nature of the tasks relaxes him, gives him time to mull over this new information. Kita realizes that maybe he isn’t as perceptive as previously thought by his friends.

How can he have not seen that look in your eyes before? Softer than anything and directed only at him, now that he thinks about it. He ponders over your words, the insecurity and negativity behind them. He has never known you to be a negative person. You are endlessly optimistic and full of energy. You are so bright that Kita loves basking in it. He has known you for a very long time, and he is almost affronted that your budding romantic feelings were hidden from him for so long. Especially when Kita has made his courting intentions for you fairly clear.

He has not directly said anything. But he doesn’t think he was ever being discreet. But maybe he has been wrong in his approach. Maybe you hooking your arm with his when you walked to school in the morning, sharing lunches every day, permanently stealing a few of his choice hoodies were all friendly gestures on your part. While Kita has interpreted the gestures as romantic, it seems you have not felt the same heat behind those actions.

Kita has always walked the same route home, sometimes with Aran, sometimes with you, and sometimes on his own. Today he takes the walk alone, but he is not bothered. He has purpose in his mind, the red envelope in his hand, and his feet carry him all the way through the winding streets until he stops at your doorstep.

He smiles at the surprise in your eyes when you receive him at the door. He nearly coos at the fuzzy slippers on your feet, huge and with bunny ears on them, making your feet look twice their usual size. You are so cute. Kita scolds himself lightly, regretting that he had wasted so much time as your friend when maybe he could have spent it with you as his romantic partner. His girlfriend.

It has a nice ring to it, Kita decides.

“Shinsuke?” Your voice breaks his train of thought. The ‘what are you doing here’ is clear in your voice. Your eyes are wide and your face is questioning. There is a tinge of worry on your face, and Kita realizes that showing up unannounced may not have been the best idea. He isn’t sure what is going on in your head, but he quickly tries to quash your worries.

“Everything is fine.” Clear, direct, to the point. It’s Kita being Kita. “I’m here about something I found in my locker while closing up.”

He holds up the red envelope, and when you stare at it in confusion, he proceeds to open it and pull out the white paper. You take it when he offers it to you, unfolding it and reading the letter. If you can call it that.

Kita watches the color drain from your face, notices how the panic overtakes your features as you recognise the conversation printed in front of you. He feels his shoulders slump a little, lamenting the fact that you are truly scared about him finding out. What do you think he will do? Has Kita truly not made his intentions for you clear enough? He cannot help but self loathe in that moment, seeing the state you were in now.

“Shin-”

He doesn’t let you finish.

“If you will allow it, I would like to take you out for dinner this weekend. Will you be free on Saturday?”

You blink once, twice. Your mouth opens and closes. Kita is acutely reminded of a fish. He tries to tamp down his smile.

“R-really?”

He merely nods.

Slowly, life reinjects into your face. You seem to age in reverse before his very eyes. Your grip on the letter crinkles the paper slightly, and Kita reaches out to gently pry it from your hands and smooth it out. He stays quiet as you process his words. He thinks of hugging you, maybe even kissing you. But stops himself. Those are moments he will reserve for after your first date, after he has properly given you the best date of your dreams. So he keeps his eyes on the letter.

“Remind me to thank Suna for this letter.” He comments. “I must say, it’s the strangest confession letter I have ever received.”

There is a pause.

“You’ve received other confession letters?!”

#kita shinsuke #kita shinsuke x reader #kita shinsuke x you #kita shinsuke x y/n #kita shinsuke fluff #hq x reader #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu fluff #hq fluff

[bigwishes]

No Backsies

Ken loved his body, he loved his muscle, he loved bodybuilding and he loved nothing more than his size and today he lucked out, one chance for his dream body forever, no losing size, just enjoying his massive muscles.

Ken took a quick photo of himself in the mirror, staring at his huge body he had spent years building.

"Alright, I got the before photo, now transform me Genie!" Ken said with a giant smile painted across his face.

"Are you sure? is this what you really want you only get one wish"

A genie sat casually across the room adjusting his hair in the mirror, not bothering to even look in Ken's direction.

"Yes god, for the last time yes, I Love my size, I never want to lose it. I wish I was bigger, I want to stay like this forever I don't want to lose any size, I don't want to grow old and weak, I wish to be massive forever, I wish everyone would look at me and know I'm the man with the most testosterone out of any man in the room, I want to feel heavy all the fucking time"

"wait...you want to feel heavy all the time?" the Genie turned around smiling

"Yes thats what I've been saying this whole time, just make me big, huge and bulking forever"

"You mean feeling bulky?" the Genie nudged Ken

"Yes feeling bulky whatever can you just do it already" Ken's heart was racing with anticipation

The Genie smirked and snapped his fingers,

"Alright buddy, big muscles, young body, feeling huge and bulky, testosterone and all that"

Ken began to flex his muscles in the mirror. He kissed his already massive biceps, gripped his solid pecs and rubbed his hands on his abs. Ken had always had a love for his own body after he began to put on some size, He never saw the need for a boyfriend when he loved himself so much.

"So....when am I gonna get bigger?" He asked the Genie

"Not long now man, just so you know, no backsies"

"ha, if I end up huge why would I want to take it back?"

The Genie smiled, snapping his fingers causing him to vanish in front of Ken's eyes.

Ken suddenly began to feel blood pump around his body, he flexed to himself in the mirror feeling as his muscled swelled with blood. He starting to worship his body feeling himself get hard as his body started to become permanently pumped. He felt his skin stretch around his muscles feeling tight and pumped. Ken felt his body start to slowly stop expanding, this was the best pump he had ever in his life and it was here to stay. He took a deep breath in feeling his diaphragm push outwards and his stomach fill with air.

"FOOOSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" Ken's cheeks filled with air and he let out the deep breath through his parted lips.

He took another sigh rubbing his abs

"uuuuhhh, som-something doesn't feel right"

Ken's stomach grumbled almost like it was responding to him.

Ken watched his stomach bloat outwards with every breath, stretching his abs outwards leaving him almost painfully uncomfortable.

Ken rubbed his abs as he started to feel a slight itching sensation wash over his body.

"uuuuuugggg *HIC* wh-what's happening to my body"

Beads of sweat started to form on Ken's forehead. He reached up and rubbed it off with the back of his hand. He traced his fingers down his face and his thick muscled neck. He rested his hand on his pumped up chest, feeling himself up feeling the sweat build up, and something else underneath, a thin layer of hair started to form across his body.

Ken caught a whiff of a faint smell of sweat in the hair. He snapped out of his self worship feeling how uncomfortably tight his stomach had grown, seeing the new layer of hair across his body.

"uuuuhhhh why do i feel like this, i-im, i feel so dammn- UUUUUUUUUUURRRRRRPPPPPP" Ken's complaints were interrupted by a monstrous belch forced out against his will he backed up and sat down on a bench, feeling his skin uncomfotably stretch around his pumped up bulging muscles. He looked up in the mirror seeing his body.

Ken could see his new hair pumped up body covered in sweat, the faint smell in the hair had now become a thick powerful stench that burnt the inside of Ken's nose.

Trying to move he felt slow trying to move his pumped up frame.

A loud grumble interrupted his thoughts as he started to rub his abs.

UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURRRPPPPPP

"what the fuck happened to me, I feel so..."

UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRRRRRRPPPPPPPPP

"f-fuck I, *HIC* - I'm feel so, heavy...."

Ken got hard staring at his giant swollen body in the mirror, he couldn't keep his hands off himself, but it wasn't like before he transformed, he was slow, it was difficult, almost impossible to reach his hand over to his opposite bicep to feel it. He was almost unable to fully flex his bicep.

Ken sat there, staring at himself in the mirror, his jaw slightly slack as he took deep slow breaths. He lifted one arm to to flex to himself as he rubbed his abs with his free hand.

BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURRRRRRPPPPP

"fuck, I'm so big, I feel so fucking heavy, uuuuhhhhgg"

BUUURRRPP

#male transformation #muscle #muscle transformation #male tf #gay transformation #tf story #transformation #musk

[luffyvace]

HIIII hru !!! may i please ask for some feitan fluffs hcs 😩 i love this tiny man with all my soul

IM DOING GOOD!! YES YOU MAY!!! I ACTUALLY HAVE SUCH A DEEP ROOTED LOVE FOR HIM I DONT TALK ABOUT HIM OFTEN ENOUGH💥💥

(omg this reminds me i’m supposed to be doing the whole troupe and chuuya x male reader- i’m so all over the place but the point is another dabble of feitan hcs will be here in the future! 😋)

also ooc/fanon him since this is fluff :)

tw: death…and torture (i use “unalive” instead of d!e/k!ll)

alrighty so you said fluff headcanons and it’s highly likely you’ll get fluffy feitan if you’ve known each other for a long time (since meteor)

i’m going to dabble in reader that is both in and outside of the troupe because i can :)

so for reader that’s in the troupe first of all no pda

hardly any weakness was displayed besides sadness/anger or mourning (and some funny moments)

theres no need for cuddles during business

unless your like uvo and simply don’t care

then it annoys the crap out of him <3

it’s not like he doesn’t want your affection—just not in public

will cuddle you in private tho

y’all usually sit there in silence or read together

he can be a little spoon or big spoon it doesn’t bother him

he tries his best but he’s never let anyone else so close to him before

if you introduce something to him and he likes it he’ll do it back

because why would you do it to him if you wouldn’t want it done to you right?

im gonna assume you have either a apartment which you unalived the owner of or y’all live in meteor still

he’ll let you choose really he doesn’t care where you stay

he’d even unalive a high status person to steal their mansion if that’s what you want

your obviously strong and have some sort of nen if your in the troupe so he doesn’t bother worrying

although if your like kortopi he’ll stay vigilant for you

even though you can use nen to defend yourself as well

btw if your not a pda person the troupe is grateful

aint no body wanna see allat-

he doesn’t know how to cook or clean and since your both from meteor so i hope you learn or already know how

otherwise y’all eat what y’all can when y’all can

whether you steal a five star gourmet meal or just wait for the next opportunity like a vending machine

i don’t advise you ask for a pet by the way

he’ll tortu£ it and i’m not talking about strapping it down or anything

just purely scarring them 😭

if you be firm about him stopping he will

unless it’s a big scary dog or smth

then he’s more likely to take em under his wing and train them to be vicious

will scare people with said animal

for stay at home reader…. (most of these also apply for troupe reader<3)

i say stay at home bc with his portion of money you could buy anything you want

if you tell him what you want u can get it for free cuz he steals it

but

if you want to take a bath together it would take more than a god to convince him

seriously he sees no reason in it

once you do tho

at first he is on one end of the tub and your on the other

as time goes on he’ll let you lean back into his chest as he scrubs your hair

he lets you play in his hair

don’t tell ANYONE

he don’t like vulnerability so if you tell someone he won’t do it for like 2 weeks

you think he’s never gonna do it again until you crawl into his lap while he’s reading on the bed and ask really sweetly

he’s all yours after that

HIS HAIR IS SO FLUFFY!!

and yes he lets you play with it :)

you get to put it into all types of styles!!

especially since it’s a decent length!

not really interested in playing in your hair

he tries but the rubber band always ends up tangled in your hair

if you kiss him goodnight he will start to initiate it as well

thats one thing he will forever reciprocate

loves your humor

no matter the type

but he especially loves when you laugh at his dark jokes

youve seen him smile before 💖

warms your heart knowing no one else gets this side of him

not judgmental of your looks for obvious reasons

yall got bigger problems

dismisses anytime you degrade yourself

he be speaking facts

”the way your hair looks gonna unalive you?”

”your pimples will st^b you while sleeping?”

no? you goofy goober so why does it matter

don’t argue him on this

genuinely doesn’t like the idea of you being hurt

by him or someone else

dont expect anyone who does harm to you to see the tomorrow sun

even if you plead for them don’t waste your breath pleading you need to be saying goodbye

real loyal partner

as loyal to you as he is the troupe

you and the troupe are his forever commitments

no matter what he could never stop loving you

you guys practically never argue

hes not necessarily hotheaded but will say what’s on his mind and if someone disagrees he does it anyway

thing is he compensates with you💗

if he knows your nitpicking he ignores it but if it’s genuinely something you don’t like he won’t fight it

also he cleans up well if you don’t like to see blood/gore in your place after he’s done t•rturing someone

he respects and listens to your opinions and feelings

would love if your a sadistic person as well but he understands if your not

also if your not in the troupe he teaches you nen

only the troupe knows your together and where you stay for your safety

your safety is definitely on his priority list

truly cares about and loves you

enjoy!!!! i’ll prob come back and read my own hcs bc I LOVE HIM

thank you for this request i loved writing every letter of it♡

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