#and the adults had been fighting for it

[merriclo]

i love the idea that Wild is a big brother to basically all of the kids in his Hyrule. it’s such a good heacanon that i never see utilized.

#with their dads permission he’ll take Cottla and Koko on horse rides and they always have food ready for his horses when he comes into town #cottla wants to learn archery to be like him and he melts when he finds that out #all the kids in Hateno have been caught giving treats to his horses #this is a popular headcanon i think but him teaching the local kiddos how to sword fight so often times he’ll be found directing a horde of #children who’re all swinging treebaches around. he couldn’t look prouder of them. #imagine when he gets older and all the village kids r teens/young adults and all of a sudden the village has skilled hunters and foragers #and everyone’s like ‘wow what’s hateno doing’ and the answer is they all had a great big brother #by older i mean he’d be like. early thirties. but y’know ahsnfjks #wild’s impact should rest in the ppl i think. botw is all abt humanity’s strive to overcome hardship and find beauty in the misery #(well. it is to me anyhow lmao) #so i love the idea of his influence not resting in politics or myths or whatever #but within the culture and spirit of those he fought for #in my brain he definitely wanted to rescue Zelda at first and that’s the only reason he was going to fight ganon #but as his journey progressed he wanted to protect and cultivate the future more than rescue the past #i like this idea w zelda too. like not only will the future generation have great fighters but excellent scholars and leaders. #wow i am RAMBLING #anyhow. i like big bro wild. #linked universe #lu #jojo’s linked universe #linkeduniverse #lu wild #wild lu #wild linked universe #linked universe wild

[mattodore]

guy whose childhood drags behind him like a dead body

#river dipping #simblr #ts4 #ts4 edit #theodore doe #echthroi #i forgot to post this after sharing theo's birthday edit last night... listen i was so tired i just hit post and passed out #but so far today i've just been looking through character page themes for a bit and messing around with codes while watching dropout tv #i still need to get to my activity feed sometime today or tomorrow and then i want to set aside some time to just hang out on here #and catch up on things like i keep disappearing and missing out on posts jgkhjfnkh so i gotta do that... #but i'm actually fighting off the world's biggest nap rn..... my meds work really well but lord i'm still so tired all the time woof #so i'll probably end up caving soon lmao #but!!! anyway!! THEO!!! there was nothing i could do abt the proportions on theo as a kid like i couldn't make his head any smaller... #the sims team actually hate me so bad and are trying to force the huge cartoonishly big heads onto my sims </3 #also when i aged him down to a kid like all of his presets were gone so i just had to try and replicate them to the best of my abilities #his lip preset actually has a much deeper cupid's bow but thanks to the liquify tool <33333 it looks like his regular preset #i've actually posted teen theo on here before but i've made a ton of changes to him since then so this version is pretty different compared #to the older version of him at sixteen #he's definitely got more baby fat than he did before like his cheeks are pretty round #um. also i have these closeups i took of adult theo from the pose i made for his birthday edit that i gotta edit a lil and then post!!! #bc you really didn't get to see his expression or the actual pose that well and EYEEEE personally am really in love with the details #of the pose itself like ugh.......... theo is so.......................... yeah. #holds him

[sydmarch]

anyway this is what i was actually trying to find. fucking thinking about this.

#NEED to know about their young adulthood. acele is described as 'late teens to early twenties' & we have no fucking clue how old evrart #is beyond 'around the same age as harry' which could mean anything when klaasje thinks hes 44 & kim thinks hes 56 #but i imagine they ARE actuslly very close in age bcus it'd just make sense wrt the timing of the revolution & all & yknow the parallels #so like they definitely could have been somewhere in their mid or late 20s when they came into power? & this 'at her age' as just a handful #of years before that? (choosing to just believe this line rather than taking it as him only trying to 'kids will be kids'ing away the drug #lab thing & making something up. so i can totally just like imagine lots of anger. at the state of things. about powerlessness. what do we #DO about it? probably getting into trouble & getting in fights for a long time. like leo says they ALWAYS came to help it wasn't just a one #off thing where they defended him it was just that one incident where the bullying stopped. bcus they beat him until he NEEDED STITCHES #like god i can just imagine their childhood & then the adolescent & young adult frustration & all of that coalescing into ok we WILL do #something to make things better. whatever it takes even. coming to the decision it's worth killing for #'your honor it's fine that my little meow meow had someone assassinated he had a bad childhood you see' #im chewing through concrete im throwing up im pacing my enclosure #anyway. me when i'm normal about the video game men #texticles #de #disco elysium #evrart

[hydrangeyes]

I really do love how the fandom has their ship but man do I wanna see a bit more of the rivals to codependent to lovers route more

#satosugu #in which them beefing in the gym was hilarious to me and i wanna see that be a part of their early friendship stages #and THEN it turns out theyre both so stupid they just wanna kiss each other #you know that whole yakuza vibes where fighting definitely means more than just fighting #idc what anyone says #alot of yakuza could have been solved if they'd shut the fuck up and talked in some cases kissed even #anyway #i need fics where they talk about how fucked gojo's mental state must be over all #cause your telling me someone who was born so powerful and is hated because of it and only treated well (in a distant sort of way) is okay? #like damn geto had him snatched with that one scene #i need more shoko love frfr also #also does geto ecen eat given he has to eat curses and shit like they cant put that shit in some soup or a smoothie or something??? #i need a fic where gojo cries but like the quiet kind cause he's always been the stronfest and strong people would never cry like a weakling #type shit #i want a fic where gojo learns new emotions as he's taught to unlearn the damage his title and family have given him #like genuine joy or non deadly fear or or crying is okay #i need geto to have a support system thats not just gojo like theyre each others number one's but theyr both fucked up #they needed adult nanami in their lives imo cause my guy seems to be the only one who got it

[ikuzeminna]

AI tries to explain: early Relena hatred

ChatGPT, explain why Relena Peacecraft of "Mobile Sit Gundam Wing" was falsely disliked by many fans in the early 2000s.

Relena Peacecraft, a central character in "Mobile Suit Gundam Wing," was indeed a polarizing figure among fans in the early 2000s and even when the series originally aired in the late 1990s. Several factors contributed to her initially negative reception: Initial Perceptions: At the beginning of the series, Relena comes across as a seemingly naive and idealistic character. Her initial persona as a sheltered pacifist and diplomat's daughter contrasted sharply with the Gundam pilots, who were more action-oriented and stoic. This contrast led some viewers to find her character annoying or out of place in a mecha anime.

For the early 2000s the truth is more shallow than that in that Relena is simply female and has a pink limo which upset a lot of ..."fans" who had never watched a single episode up to that point yet read loads and loads of fanfics and were suddenly confronted with the fact that Heero was not star-crossed lovers with Duo but might actually be connected to the female protagonist.

The argument is certainly applicable to a lot of people who watched the series later though and crapped on Relena's character because missing the point on multiple occasions has become an Olympic discipline rather than actually paying attention to what is shown.

I mean, I get that most people let preconceptions and media tradition sway their interpretation (like Relena having a crush on the mysterious new guy at school being the reason she follows Heero to the harbor when the series itself gives plenty of hints she's doing it because Heero is shady af and she's suspicious of him) but when they then form a negative opinion on Wing that is completely baseless because they didn't understand plot points, it destroys their argument and makes them look silly. Especially when it is coupled with an air of superiority.

You wanna rip Gundam Wing to shreds? Go right ahead, bro, just please put some effort into it.

Contrast with Gundam Pilots: Relena's character was often juxtaposed with the more action-driven and complex Gundam pilots. Her early interactions with characters like Heero Yuy, who were dedicated to their mission and often displayed little emotion, created a perception that she was a hindrance to their objectives.

Oh my goodness, I have actually seen this argument in the wild. I had once gone through hate sites to compile a list of accusations people threw at Relena back in the rowdy days of Gundam Wing to compare to more recent takes (spoiler: not much has changed) and I came across stuff along the lines of Relena "getting in the way of everyone's missions, creating problems for Noin, Milliardo and the others and endangering them."

ChatGPT, you impress me with your blanket statements going in the right direction.

I take issue with "more action-driven and complex" though. Compared to Relena's complexity most Gundam pilots are as flat as a pancake. They all have their depth, mind you, but Relena has waaaay more stuff happening and a lot more character development.

Initial Helplessness: In the early episodes, Relena found herself in vulnerable situations and required rescue by the Gundam pilots. This portrayal of her as helpless or in need of saving added to the negative perception.

I guess we're back in fanfic land. Unless AI means the Cinq arc, but that's the late middle of the show and is a little more complicated than just that.

Shift in Character Development: Over time, Relena's character undergoes significant development. She evolves from a seemingly naive girl into a strong and independent character. Her journey towards becoming a more capable and determined individual was not immediately evident to some viewers who formed their opinions early in the series.

...This doesn't even make sense, neither in the context of the show nor as a general statement.

It is true that a lot of people like to form an early opinion of Relena they don't part with no matter how far into the show they get. In many cases it's a decidedly negative one and that colors their perspective and ruins their enjoyment of the show, especially during the Cinq arc because that one is all about Relena and I have seen people scream for those episodes to end during their watch. Which, not gonna lie, amused me since she's the female protagonist so it's a given she'd get a lot of screentime.

The main problem with the Cinq arc though is that many don't recognize Relena's genius in how she handled the whole situation. The Cinq arc isn't just Relena preaching pacifism to the world at the most inopportune time where Romefeller is razing cities to the ground with Mobile Dolls. It's a political move that presents an alternative to Romefeller who claim that peace can only be achieved through them and their military presence. Cue a bunch of pacifists showing up.

Cinq's fall was not a loss per se. Relena surrendered publicly, with the whole world watching, especially the colonies who manufactured Mobile Dolls for Romefeller at the time. You think following that Dermail made Relena Romefeller's head representative for funsies? She had backed him into a corner. He had lost public support, the peaceful colonies had witnessed what they had contributed to and even people inside Romefeller were starting to grumble about him. He was scrambling for damage control, forcing Relena's hand and desperate to build Libra to have a giant space laser that will keep people in line should they not obey him.

Crap later hits the fan for him when Relena turns the tables on him and the colonists take control of Libra.

Complex Morality: Relena's pacifist stance and commitment to peace are central to her character. Her ideological beliefs sometimes clashed with the actions of the Gundam pilots, leading to a moral dilemma in the story. Some fans may have initially disliked her character due to this moral tension.

Such a pacifist.

Different Expectations: "Gundam Wing" is part of the wider "Gundam" franchise, known for its complex political and philosophical themes. Some fans may have had expectations for a more traditional mecha anime and found Relena's character and her focus on diplomacy and peace less appealing in comparison.

If this is AI talk for UC fans crapping on Relena because she isn't Sayla Mass and doesn't pilot anything then it's weird. By now there have been so many iterations of Gundam shows with the "princess" character not piloting a mobile suit (Relena, Kihel, Lacus, Marina, etc.) that no one watching Wing for the first time expects Relena to do so. Expectations for a mecha anime? Even watching The Vision of Escaflowne I never expected Hitomi to hop into a guymelef.

AI, what are you on?

Character Growth: As the series progresses, Relena's character becomes more relatable and her determination to create a peaceful world resonates with viewers. However, this character development took time to manifest and was not immediately evident in the early episodes.

You said that already. It didn't make sense the first time and it's not making sense now either. Who expects full character development in the first two episodes? ò_ô

It's important to note that over time, many fans came to appreciate Relena's character for her growth, complexity, and her role in exploring the series' themes of war, peace, and morality. She went from being disliked by some in the early episodes to becoming a more well-rounded and respected character by the end of the series. Viewer opinions about characters can often change as the story unfolds and characters undergo development.

Save the preaching.

The rest is correct mostly though. There are many out there who hated Relena when they first saw the show but found her tolerable to actually badass on a second rewatch after a couple of years had passed. It wasn't the end of the series though that made most people like her but Endless Waltz instead.

You still get an F for not mentioned rabid shippers at all, AI. That crap was an actual problem in this fandom. Thank Goodness that's over.

#gundam wing #relena peacecraft #relena darlian #this almost veers into polemic #which is needless in this fandom since most fans are adults so there is no drama here #usually I also don't go looking for 20 year old fights #but I was really curious to see if AI had been fed the utter crap show that had been early GW fandom #apparently not

[hysteriasgarden]

sometimes I feel guilty for disliking my parents, or moreso how they acted when I was a kid sometimes. because nowadays they're great. they're absolutely fine. so it would be ungrateful to say they're bad parents? they spoiled me as a kid if anything, they kept me safe and all that too.

but at the same time, them being good now doesn't change the fact that I needed them to be good when I was still growing. it helps nothing for them to be good parents now that I'm an adult and already fucked up from them. it changes nothing that they were slightly traumatizing when I was still developing and growing as a child

#mine #childhood trauma #parental abuse #I've recovered from most of those trauma symptoms I developed #or well... at least I cry and feel less dread when someone raises their voice nowadays #cry less* #I'm still an overly timid people pleaser with no self respect #who's too afraid to do anything to ever upset people even if it means ignoring my own comfort #because that's just what worked best as a kid #fighting back and getting upset just made things worse #doing things wrong would always instigate something #so I just learned to do things perfectly #and to accept what's dished out to me without making a fuss #I don't know if this behavior will be healthy in adult life though... #it has served me well through childhood but will it serve me in the workforce? #if things had been the opposite #if they had acted the way they do now when I was young #and been terrible now instead. maybe I'd be able to deal with them healthily? #maybe my entire personality would be different #not sure where I'm going with this #but I'm just wondering who I could've been if they had been a little nicer or a little calmer about things

[greenerteacups]

in retrospect i knew deathly hallows was not going to be the book i wanted it to be when remus lupin, 37 year-old man and beloved friend of james potter, begs to abandon his pregnant wife and soon-arriving newborn to have fun cool adventures with his friend's kid in the woods

#and he's like 'oh it could be a werewolf it could be dangerous' SO YOU'RE LEAVING HER ALONE TO TAKE CARE OF IT?? #hitting and kicking and punching and biting. for real #as a teenager i read that scene and thought harry came across as mean. now i read it and i'm like GO HARDER HE NEEDS TO CRY #and it's like i get it he IS a marauder he IS avoidant he DOES have trust issues (understandable) #but i feel like that scene. lacks an understanding of how serious that is. and that like. he had zero qualms with it until harry shamed him #and like — he DIDN'T see the error of his ways. harry rejected him! #if harry had been like “okay having an adult would be nice” then teddy would never have met his father! fuck! #and idk i feel like the scene is not appreciating how heavy it is to Walk Out On Your Child #like oh okay. you are going to traumatize your infant son. bc you're scared he's going to have YOUR medical condition? fucker. #anyway the reason i have a problem with it from a writing pov (apart from character like even assuming it's a fine character move) #is because there's no plot reason to it. it's one of the last scenes we ever get with remus and it basically #sticks him and tonks in a box until it's time to kill them! #why in a book that's a million pages long do we never see most of the characters fighting this war?

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

I don’t know if you already said this elsewhere, but did the Zenin ever hurt Megumi in a way it simply wasn’t possible for them to explain? Like being poisoned or bitten by one of the dozens curses? Did Gojo catch them red handed (the red is literally megumi’s blood💀)?

The first time that they hurt him in a way that they couldn’t explain away was the last time they hurt him, because Gojo immediately cut them off and refused to ever let them ever get near Megumi again. The Zenin didn't fully realize this at the time they had custody, but legitimately the only reason why it got as far as it did was because Gojo didn't know.

They weren’t exactly advertising “yeah we beat him when we have him” to him, but it wasn’t exactly because they thought gojo would put a stop to it, per se. They didn’t tell Gojo anything they did to Megumi because they felt absolutely entitled to him. They didn’t want Gojo’s input or interference, and they didn’t like feeling like they had to ask for permission around this with Megumi. But they didn’t think he actually would cut them off from him.

In the Zenin’s mind, Gojo doesn’t love Megumi. He’s never loved Megumi. Megumi’s just a political pawn to him, a way to insult the Zenin and steal their most valuable technique for his own. And he got way more value from letting them see him. He got to have his influence on someone who was very likely to be clan head one day—if Megumi’s cut off from them entirely, he’s not moving towards being clan head. He got a bargaining chip with the Zenin—he could further his own goals by offering them more time with him. Megumi’s a powerful piece of leverage but only if Gojo actually uses him. Him intervening to protect Megumi by severing all contact doesn’t further his own goals, so when it all came to a head, they pretty blindly assumed that he wouldn’t give a shit about what they had just done to Megumi, because at the end of the day, they thought he was going to keep using Megumi for his own ends, which meant giving them access.

Instead, Gojo immediately pulled the plug on the entire situation. They never touched or saw him again. The first time that Megumi saw them after the incident that made them go no contact was when Naoya came to pick him up at his school.

#sea glass gardens #in my mind jujutsu sorcerer kids are sturdier #like Sukuna punted Megumi through multiple buildings in their fight #so it must be /hard/ to do something that causes a bruise #a lot of the Zenin’s abuse was hidden because while it still hurt it wasn’t leaving marks #or it was abuse that wouldn’t leave marks anyway like how they’d work him to the point of collapse or control his every action #but if they hit him hard enough to leave marks then they had the built in excuse that megumi was fighting with other kids #or had just had one of those normal little kid bumps. like I have a baby nieces and nephews and those kids will just hurl their bodies #around. kids collect bruises. they’re figuring out what their limits are and even if you watch them carefully a few bumps is normal. #they hurt him badly but they always had a way to hide it until they went too far and didn’t anymore. and the second gojo realized that #the adults on the compound had been beating megumi he never let them so much as look at him again. he legitimately put his foot down and #refused to budge an inch no matter how much hell he caught for it #I’ve definitively decided that the incident that made them go no contact is not going to be revealed in sea glass gardens #it just isn’t something that would come out through yuutas pov #if I wrote other works in the series it would probably come out through one of them but it’s a big big if #I make no promises as to other works in the universe (though I have started writing some of them. completion is another thing entirely). #if you guys want to know the incident that made them go no contact I wouldn’t be opposed to revealing it over ask but it’s y’all’s #preference. usually the stuff I talk about in ask is stuff I’ll know isn’t going to be revealed in sea glass gardens itself. this is kind of #in purgatory because I know it’s coming out in sea glass gardens but there’s a smaller chance of it being revealed in a different work #so it’s up to y’all. if you want to know I’ll answer it behind a cut or something but if you want to gamble on it actually being written out #one day that’s fine too

[birdclowns]

'tis the season for passive aggressive facebook posts from mothers who are upset their children cut contact

#sorry the children you abused dont like you anymore:^(((((( #2023 has been the year of learning all the bullshit my mother did to my older siblings #and im fucking tired #if one more person asks why im not flying back to texas for christmas im going to fight them #i wanna go home and hold my cat and remind myself im a whole adult and my mom cant do anything else #bc im independent!!!! and dont fucking NEED her #not that i had her as a mother ANYWAYS #ugh #i talk

[sleepy-crypt1d]

hi hello yes first time sonic adventure 2 player here quick question why is the last story Like That?

#sonic adventure #sonic the hedgehog #i am!!! in hell!! #been trying to beat the last story for four in real life days #in agony!!!! #HAVENT EVEN GOTTEN TO THE BOSS FIGHT YET FOR CONTEXT #I AM STILL TRYING TO BEAT THE TAILS/EGGMAN/ROUGE/KNUCKLES/SONIC THING #WHY IS IT ALL ONE CONTINUOUS LEVEL WHY DID THEY CHOOSE TO DO THAT I AM SUFFERING #this game is for children #how many kids had breakdowns because of this fucking game #I am about to have a melt down and i am a full adult man #at least the music fucks

[theforgottendaydreamer]

sometimes i tell myself i'm fine, then i realise i've been thinking incessantly about watching winnie the pooh while cuddling in my parents' bed like i used to do when i was six, and i realise that maybe i'm not fine.

#i am. so desperate for comfort. i hate admitting it but. i am. i'm. desperate to get hugged. cuddled. #i just want to cry in someone's arms. #yesteday i asked my parents “hey when i get home (march 16th) can we go have breakfast together please” and it was fuckin 11 pm when i did #i wish i had fucked up parents because it would justify my mental state. but they're lovely. flawed but. lovely. always have been #like we fight a ton but. i don't doubt that they care for me. never gave me a reason to. sometimes i think they're actually too caring #but like. we are three wholess adults with strong personalities. it's normal to fight. #and the thing about finding comfort in stuff i used to do/watch/read as a kid - i think i should be somewhat worried about it #because. i never had these issues before #idk. i'm fucked in the head #bad. bad.

[mattodore]

"I don’t actually think Theo has any offensive preferences, because he’s not really a fighter. That human instinct to fight back was trained out of him very young… so."

#cw abuse mention #cw child abuse mention #<- mentioned in the tags. i'm adding these cws bc i talk bluntly abt this in the tags so definitely don't look if it's triggering... #river dipping #questionnaire lb #AND FUCK YOU ACTUALLY ! #BANGING MY HEADI NTO A WALL................ THIS IS ONLY QUESTION 71.......................................... #I JUST . GRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #feeling sick already lord why am i doing this actually.......... #i feel so insane but it's like. theo just can't let himself fight back. he can't do it. #it's like...... it's not even about ''i can't do this it'll just make it worse'' to him. like that was how his brain processed it as a kid #like that's what he was taught then. but now as an adult it's about him feeling like he deserves it... like it's his fault. #i think he needs that sense of... control? as well. like if he's being hurt well. he should've prevented it beforehand. #obviously this is only happening because he did something to cause it and it'll stop if he just doesn't do that thing again. #if it's just. if it's not his fault then that makes him feel helpless. if he couldn't stop it - if it was always going to happen regardless #of what he did - then. jesus. like it just fucks with his head even thinking that. it petrifies him. #it's safer in his head to think okay. obviously i've created this situation somehow so i had that control over it and now i can prevent it. #but jesus theo............... you can't. #and then theo does these things almost... almost to prove that. to prove that he's always been in control of his own abuse. #where he uses and then he finds these hook-ups that aren't safe for him or these sketchy ppl and he shoots off at the mouth and. then. #when he gets hurt it's like. he feels vindicated. i caused this. this is my fault. it's always been my fault. #his recklessness is entirely because he just wants to prove it. he just wants to have that. it's... christ. #it's the only thing he feels like he has control over in his life. the violence he faces... it's his. in that way. #and it's one of the only aspects of his life he doesn't feel helpless in. not anymore. not since he was a teenager. #god. #and when he does finally let it out at one point. when he does finally fight back again. it just...... #it tears him up inside. it's one of the parts of the story i'm the most horrified about having to write #just because i know what it does to him. and how it all just spins out of control after. like it ruins everything for him. #christ. #what else is there to say.

[ikosburneraccount]

thinking back to my tlc posts in 2015-16 i was soooooo valid for calling kai “emperor foot fetish.” like i genuinely thought i was being dramatic or dragging tf out of the foot jokes but no. even in retrospect kai is still unhinged for hoarding her foot like he is no less insane than i remember him being like 7 (BARF) years ago 

#the last time i was this active in the fandom i was literally 14 *sob emoji* #my reread of this entire series was literally triggered by this assignment i had to do for my 1 credit college class #and the assignment was to make a 'past journey map' where we talk about the stuff that shaped us as people #and i put the lunar chronicles on there but i assumed no one would recognize it because this series is pretty niche #and i showed it to my friend as a joke but she recognized the series and we BOTH WERENT EXPECTING THAT #so now we're in the process of rereading #im mostly done and she's about to finish scarlet #and we've managed to convince three of our other mutual friends to start reading the series #like i haven't been this excited about something in sooooooooooo long #and rereading has made me soooooo nostalgic but i promise you this is so much better than the fandom was 7 years ago #like it was actually unhinged. i found a post arguing to tag kiko as kinko because the kiko tag was full of other content #literally was fighting grown adults on this website at 13 #adults romanticizing cresswell. ADULTS FULLY GROWN 20+ CAREER ADULTS #like there was <200 lunar chronicles fanfics on ao3 #lovelunarchron had the fandom in a CHOKEHOLD #this is pre-eerna too #the lunar chronicles #mine #prince kai

[eltehdork]

Watching central park is fun when youve watched shows that are bad and see concepts handled by them handled so much better

#case in point: Abby Tillerman is what Charlie Morningstar SHOULD have been #an almost naively optimistic kindhearted goofball who sees the good in everyone #but NOT to the point of being a total spineless pushover #she only takes rhe abuse for so long before she snaps at the person causing all of her grievances #and she doesn't continue to cling to 'theres good in you' because it doesnt matter whether or not theres good deep deep down #when your actions are always bad with no remorse #she calls bitsy bad #and calls her out on her shittiness #if hazbin hotel had the writing of central park it couldve been incredible #think about it both are adult cartoon musicals but only one actually pulls it off without being outrageously offensive and comically edgy #like how a teenager would write an adult show versus how an adult writes one #i put the rant down here cuz i dont want to actually summon the hazbins #theyre fucking crazy. did you know a group of nasty fanatics full on drove someone to suicide??? thats fucked up!!!! #i dont want that to happen to me cuz the crazy fans cant accept criticism of their show #IT COULD HAVE BEEN GOOD IT HAD SO MUCH GOING FOR IT AND THATS WHAT MAKES ME ANGRY #one last thing: redemption has to be wanted in order to be earned. you cant redeem someone if they dont WANT to change #that is what brings abby above charlie #she recognized a person who refuses to do anything that benefits others and realizes theres no changing that #and gets out #you can scrap and claw and fight all day but despite how much you yank the reigns on that horse you can not make it drink

[bleaksqueak]

(I've got a couple more asks I want to reply to with art, so thanks for sitting tight and waiting on me to reply. I've not been at my comp all day too so replies to other things are coming as well. Enjoy boys though. Watchers enjoy boys rattie draw for you.)

#shut up pu #it had been a while since I'd gotten to draw adult audric acting I had to like #reboot my memory how to draw him lol #luckily he didn't fight me

[amethysttribble]

Next time I’m dealing with an upset kid, I’m going to remember my aunt saying to me, “That fight was the beginning of the end for you and [cousin who a whole airport staff couldn’t unload all my baggage with]” when I was jokingly recounting a spat we had when we were twelve and I called her a ‘motherucking bitch’

Because that flabbergasted me so much I legitimately laughed and I’m still thinking about it.

‘Cause no. Oh my god no. That was the end of the end. That was when I finally said, “I can’t do this anymore.” That was it.

But my aunt couldn’t see that because to her we were just two twelve year olds calling each other names, /oh those two, so ‘close’ (in truth, we were just two girls who were the same age, our moms said we had to be close) but always bickering/ not the continued saga of pain and harassment that had been our shared childhood, twelve years worth, and the moment I was finally old enough to realize, “I should stop trying to be friends and instead never talk to her again.”

‘The beginning of the end’. As if those years when we were younger didn’t count and weren’t informative. They were. As if we didn’t have interiority and a complicated, broken relationship before that. We did. As if it was all petty before we were teenagers. It wasn’t.

It had ended a long time ago.

#this aunt is not the mom of this cousin btw #I just- it stunned me #made me realize that the border line abuse my cousin put me through still has never clicked for my extended family #and I do understand why #it’s cause my cousin had a super fucked up childhood and abusive dad and ill equipped mom to deal with the very obvious mental illness #that my cousin had #but like… she hurt me #yes she was hurting but she hurt me and I was a kid #it wasn’t normal kid fighting it wasn’t #but in order for the adults to try to be kind to and provide stability for my poor fucked up cousin I had to take her lashing out #my dad was really good about telling me I didn’t have to put up with her #and my mom got much better as we got older and it stopped being ‘kid stuff’ and even before she never really punished me #for our fights because she knew who the real problems was #but still #sucks to remember that the thing that actually made my mom wake up about my cousin was the fight she and my sister had In college #not me #(my mom is great this whole thing was just bad) #nothing I have ever said about my cousin has ever been taken as anything more than petty kid stuff apparently #‘oh those two. always fighting’ #god #anyway yeah this childhood experience has in no way informed how I write Curufin and Joffrey haha. ha ha. #Tribble post