#and the bed is so HUGE

[inkskinned]

they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?

they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.

you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.

you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.

mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.

you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.

#writeblr #warm up #to be clear let me state again: i think you should id however you fucking want if it helps you seek peace #but there is a HUGE difference between being like '.... im undiagnosed but i think i might be X' #and a person who is like ''omg my intrusive thoughts made me buy a birkin!!!'' #babe mine made me throw up bc they disgusted me so much <3 #mine made me hurt myself evenly. even when i wanted to stop. i have had to put my hand on the stove MULTIPLE TIMES #and again i'd rather have 10000 people get help for something they don't need help for #than have 1 kid NOT get help #but there has GOTTTTT to be a middle ground here #bc at this point it isn't ''raising awareness'' #it's . fucking misinformation. and ''what this picture says about you!!!!!'' #& yes! im mostly talkin about ppl who are actually disgusted and offended by signs of mental illness #but use it to defend THEIR actions #like babe you hate when kids start yelling in the walmart? but you YOuRSELF can yell? #you are depressed so it's fine you were cruel to your spouse? #but if your spouse spends too much time in bed she's a lazy fuck? #your partner needs to do everything for you bc of your history in trauma? but when SHE has needs she's being clingy and gross? #HUGE difference here between whom i think most of my followers are btw. like #all it takes is fucking anyyyy empathy or kindness . like. #anyway it's hard to explain im hoping we all know the person im talking about lol

[myours001]

Sunday morningssss✨💛

#18+ post #bouncing titts #sexy content #natural titts #hot as fuck #morning vibes #in bed #sexy titts #cuddles #so hot 🔥🔥🔥 #so fuckable #asks open #sexy talk #lace underwear #sexy lace lingerie #dms open #send asks #sexy tease #dm me #huge titts #snap me #fuck my body #fine as fuck #natural body

[foldingfittedsheets]

My mom has this awful friend, Cynthia. My loathing goes deep enough that I’m not even going to change her name. If she ever finds this she knows what she did.

On multiple occasions my mom asked this horrible irresponsible chicken brained woman to watch after our animals while we were away. I don’t know why once wasn’t enough, because the first failure was so spectacular that anyone in their right mind would know she couldn’t be trusted with any level of responsibility or direction following.

You might be thinking to yourself, FFS, this level of antipathy is surely unwarranted! But you’d be wrong.

To set the scene, we were living in downstairs of our house when I was about fifteen. My mom has always wanted more animals than can reasonably be kept indoors which is how we ended up with three cats. When she wanted to kick them all outside I protested, and so all three cats lived in my bedroom with no access to the rest of the house.

That really wasn’t great, so in an attempt to give them options we made a window cutout with a cat door in it to give them access to the outdoors. Looking back on this as an environmentally conscious adult it’s wretched, cats should be indoor only, but at the time I was desperate to give them some freedom because one bedroom is too small for three cats.

So my parents and I went on a week long trip to visit family out of state. We told Cynthia to come feed and water the cats, and to scoop the litter box. Most importantly, don’t lock the handle of the door, because we only have the key to the deadbolt.

I’m sure you can see where this is going.

Cynthia locked us out. We arrived home after 12 hours on the road, desperate for the comfort of our own beds. We were met with an unyielding door. With a sigh I volunteered, “I can punch in the cat door and climb in the window.”

I slipped behind the bamboo outside my window and pushed in the cutout. A horrible insidious reek wafted out at me. I paused, prickling with foreboding. But I had a job to do, and by god I’d see it through. I hefted myself up into the window and my hand immediately landed in something wet.

Skin crawling, I pulled myself up and surveyed the darkened room as a miserable odor of decay and suffering poured out of the room around me. I could see dark shapes littering the carpet and it didn’t take a genius to guess that the cats had taken up hunting in a big way during my absence.

I pulled my hand out of the pile of vomit it had landed in and dropped into my onetime bedroom turned now into a hellpit of decomposing wretchedness. I turned on the light. I wished I had not turned on the light.

My eyes scanned across the floor, tallying as they went. Two dead birds, a dead baby rabbit, five dead mice, and one dead snake. I paused on my alarm clock, perplexed to see a stain of white on it. I stepped closer and saw a furtive movement.

The tally suddenly contained also: one live bird that had shit in several places, probably in pure terror to find itself trapped in a room littered with decomposing woodland creatures, which honestly, fair. I coaxed it out the window and finished the survey with five discrete piles of vomit.

I unlocked the door and let my parents in. They exclaimed in disgust at the horrible smell. We stood together in my doorway floored by the magnitude of neglect. The unscooped litter box was a subtle footnote in the tangible reek my living space. I disposed of the parade of ecological disaster, cleaned vomit, and scooped the box after a brutally long day on the road. The cats were fine, and happy to see me. They had a huge dish or food and water so Cynthia’s neglect at least hadn’t harmed them.

Then I slept on the couch while my bedroom aired out, the windows flung wide to dispel the uneasy ghosts of the hunted. I spent the whole night cursing Cynthia’s name for this evil she’d visited upon me. When my mom asked her, "Cynthia, didn't you see the dead animals?"

Cynthia responded, "Yes, they smelled so bad, I just ran in and out as fast as I could." I fully don't believe she did any caretaking, and I'm personally of the opinion that she locked herself out on the first day and never came back.

The next day my room had returned to a habitable level of smellscape and I gratefully crawled into my bed that night. I stretched out and froze as my foot brushed something cold and wet?

The final indignity: one last dead snake, inside my very sheets.

Fucking Cynthia.

#ramblies #story #ffs foibles #keep your cats inside #but also looking back like why didn't I change my sheets #I did not have good bed hygiene instilled in me from my parents #later that lady would go on to leave a huge metal dish of dog food in the middle of the yard #despite the fact that we told her over and over not to feed the dog because he was on a diet #and I knew not to trust her so my friend was coming twice a day to feed him his portioned out meals #he gained like ten pounds in the week we were gone eating rained on mushy dog food #that fucking woman was a menace

[tango-but-everywhere]

THE CROWD GOES WILD

return of create mod??

#tango tek #tangotek #not tango #tangotalk #<- i dont think i have ever used that tag actually #create mod 2 #create squad #anyway it’s like 5am for me i woke up because my air conditioner started leaking water and it make a huge and terrible noise and then also #spat out an ice cube so that’s fun #im going back to bed now though it is far too early

[lotus-pear]

typical morning on the express ft caelheng

#btw he found the ingredients in one of the belobogian trashcans #just started playing the game and i'm obsessed so expect more art #also hc that since dan heng basically lives in the archives room march and cael always donate extra blankets and pillows to him #since there isn't a proper bed in there he just sleeps in a huge pillow pile behind the desk #honkai star rail #hsr #caelus #march 7th #dan heng #trailblazer #lotus draws

[batmecha]

NO WAY

also extra v1 v2 vocaloid cosplay doodle under the cut :3

how

#me when 01 is v1 and then 02 is v2 #the colors were very fun actually i tried using my flipnote brushes #i couldnt actually export the drawing tho bc the the brushes are like #the pixels look different depending on how zoomed out u are #and when i exported it it wasnt vibrant enough #erm im rambling #anyways this is so silly to me i really love it #vocaloid crossovers foreva #its 4:42 am #goodnight ... #ultrakill #v1 ultrakill #v2 ultrakill #v1 #v2 #hatsune miku #vocaloid #my art #oh yeah why does v2 not have a wig #i tried drawing it actually but i think it looks better when its just a huge white bow LMAO #wait isnt it bad to post really late at a time like this #IDK IM GOING TO BED!!!!!!!

[wyvernity]

sss day my favorite national holiday WOOOOHHHH

bonus

#pokemon #trainer lyra #rival silver #soulsilvershipping #timeskip tag #bao beis #i had so much more planned. but alas. college. #ANYWAY. sss my everything. ohh. always thinking abt them. #this is very obviously lyra's room! all the pink! massive bed to fit all her pokemon! the champion paycheck gets you that much at least #and plants!!! no. 1 horticulturist in johto #she's living somewhere around the base of mt silver... decently close to the league and her hometown #so i like to imagine her with a huge greenhouse so she can take care of plants even in the harsher climate #meanwhile silver has one of those decrepit malelivingspace flats in viridian. he's making it work. #i can only see sss properly moving in together liiiike in their late 20s #after they get to enjoy young adult independence for a while #but before they permanently settle down they should go on silly adventures again... just once. or twice. or #as much as i like to entertain the thought of them being homebodies i think they'd rather spend their lives travelling haha #since silver never got to fully experience it as a kid on the run #being a wanted man and all #and lyra is itching for the getaway #they deserve to be in nature and responsibility-free and *frothing at the mouth* #BTW i put my whole wyvussy into that wall decor #lisia signed poster... rosa's resemblance as mei(!!!) in the totoro one... bell tower + whirl island pics // #pokemon constellations... and those gen 4 mail templates that no one actually used. probably from dawn. champion penpals :] #i debated doing a lance poster because celebrity idol funny but nah she'd bin that immediately after moving out #oh yeah the drawover was um. inspired by the nonebinary neochamp fit. so happy for my son. #i'm glad i managed to finish the big piece in time otherwise i would've just posted that LOL can you imagine #okey bye happy sss day

[puppyeared]

is this your card? ♦️♣️♥️♠️ it isnt but you dont wanna hurt his feelings

#this was supposed to be a warmup but i got carried away.... i havent drawn in so long that its been hard to focus orz #im testing a new brush for fun. again.. i think i can use this for clean lineart..?? im surprised i went as long as i did with the #narinder brush honestly... but i wanna try something new so here we are again #if i could get my shit together id love to draw a model of his van because i have smth really cool in mind..i was looking at pictures #of old wooden caravans like the horse drawn ones and i wonder if i could combine that with the shape of an RV #i like the ones with a door at the rear bc it kinda lookslike a train caboose.. maybe he'd get someone to weld him a custom ride!! #idk how intricate and detailed i can design it without making it a pain in the ass to draw every time BUT i have a general idea #it would probably have a door on the side but idk if itd flip down to make a stage or upwards to make a roof?? and then theres a #curtain behind it where he would come out and do his show methinks.. ive been looking at pictures of camping vans on pinterest for ideas #i dont think he LIVES in the van since i mentioned his home is an old run down theatre when he isnt on the road. i wanna draw that too #but the RV should have enough for long travels like a bed and cabinets..? maybe a net hanging on the ceiling where all his props go #id like to think of ideas for a hometown.. toronto has a huge entertainment district so it would make sense for him to live there #although id also love to base parts of it from vancouver since id love to go back and visit </3 #..would there be furth names for those places?? nyancouver... clawronto... whinnypeg (like a horse whinny)... #pawson creek.... purrlington... otterwa.. i love coming up with names lol #my art #myart #my oc #oc #sleight #laikas comet oc #fan character #fur #furry art

[emrrys]

"𝘞𝘦 𝘰𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘯 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘱𝘩𝘦𝘵𝘴 𝘢𝘮𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘶𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘭𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨"

i think lloyd shouldve kept his oni horns after crystalized

#ninjago #ninjago fanart #lloyd montgomery garmadon #lloyd garmadon #ninjago lloyd #lloyd ninjago #lego ninjago #oni lloyd #my art #fanart #lol among us ඞ #anyway hiiiii im sick again and missing work so that means im in bed drawing again ! #the only times it feels like i draw anymore is when im sick lol #in other news im usually not like huge on oni/dragon lloyd but idk i just feel after crystalized wouldve been the perfect time for it

[heph]

I bought Bloodweave candles from Planeshift Candles and I don't want them to know how much I love and obsess over their candles (we are mutuals) so now I'm yelling about it on tumblr instead of twitter SO!

Gale smells of like a . Sweet masculine cologne and Astarion smells citrusy (bergamot...) and I've been letting them perfume my room for the past few days and yall I'm just thinking about Gale's tent smelling like this 😭😭😭

#i think gale sleeps in his own tent and astarion joins him in the dead of night like a cat #you know when cats scratch at the door and wander into your room and cuddle on the bed yeah like that #bloodweave scented room i am so happy #also i basically bought gale took a sniff and went well. headcanon accepted NWISBSJSJ #UGHHHH i needed to yell about my candles theyre so wonderful i love them so much #okay. i got it out of my system. cheers ! #its currently oos so yall cant get it now but i def recommend it #im kind of a huge fan... #im so normal #okay thats all thank you for reading #bloodweave

[kaddyssammlung]

#sleep token #sleep token worship #I swear I'll be in my bed in a sec....cramps....damn it why?! why?! why am I fighting nature? so yes am I able to have kids #birth life; I like this because it sounds huge; but at what cost? I'm trying to be accepting but; Katrin just got to bed #and no; nature does not care that I have no desire to have kids #tw for this one: when I was really EDed I did not have my period in one and half years and I did not miss it #when I feel low I have thoughts about that...that I don't want to mention because this is not the place to discuss this right now

[smilesflower]

SAN ✧ guerrilla ending fairy ✧ 220731

#ateez #ateezedit #san #choi san #n.gif #g:atz #m:s #these are for me #i missed giffing him so </3 #idk yet if i want to revive my ateez sideblog again so for now if i gif them it'll be on this blog #the size of these is HUGE they're only like 50-ish frames each and they're just below 10MB #wanted to do my 600px high gifs that i have been liking to do recently but i barely got 40 frames w it so that was out of the question sjdf #they would have been really pretty tho </3 #n e way it's late now so i'll probably go to bed in a bit; gn!

[fullflowerperfection]

Hmmmm Yummy 🍑❤

#bed wetter #breeding k1nk #cream pussy #eat my pussy #fill my pussy #finger my pussy #fuck my wet pussy #girl butts #great breasts #great butt #perfect butt #pussylicker #pussy lover #lick my pussy #married pussy #fuck from pussy #needy pussy #pussy so good #sexy breast #bbc breeding #submisive and breedable #perfect breast #big round butt #natural titts #sexy titts #huge titts #lovely breasts #breeding bitch #sexy bitch #take a bite 🍑

[vole-mon-amour]

Thinking about Astarion loving silk sheets, pretty dishes and cutlery, and beautiful people.

Thinking of Halsin leaving claw marks in the dirt because he wildshapes into a bear when sleeping, eating wild berries, and fishing in rivers.

Thinking of these two managing to balance both in their relationship because love conquers all. (But hey, Halsin is already gorgeous and his blood tastes amazing, so Astarion can't complain too much.)

#halstarion #halsin #astarion #astarion x halsin #halsin x astarion #natiswriting #bg3 #halsin's wet fur and the smell of it? #halsin makes him fancy beds even out in the wild so his boy feels extra comfortable #but astarion often can't sleep without his bear so bed be damned #he goes into those huge bear paws for a cuddle #they took over my life #literally getting dressed to go outside #and writing this on my phone

[andthebeanstalk]

PENIS PENIS PENIS PENIS PENIS

PUSSY.

BIG FLAPPY WET JESUS PUSSY.

JESUS' SOPPING WET PUSS-PUSS

[Edited months after posting to discourage catholics from replying to this post after finding that both the nice and much funnier not-nice responses to this were equally bad for my mental health. I didn't wanna delete it bc I was quite proud of some of my responses and it helps to have a visual reminder of why I left an abusive organization. Also, this means that any catholic who has reblogged this in an attempt to convert me, has now reblogged a post that, if clicked, links back to this. Use MY post for propaganda, will you!]

Thinking about how it was never made clear to me in Catholic school exactly WHY Jesus died for our sins. I just remembered that I was literally never clear on who the dying helped??

I've heard theories as an adult, but basically what I'm saying is pointless martyrdom seems a little pointless, and also with enough propaganda the big logical gaps in a belief system get really hard to see. Especially if questioning anything is blasphemy.

I would have gotten in so much trouble for insisting the teacher explain how Jesus helped us by being tortured to death by Romans even when God could have prevented it! God sent his only Son, they would have said! Be grateful, they'd say! Be guilty! Stop asking why he did that!!!

#original #religious trauma #<- what's up guys why did he do that??? for real i was raised catholic and it is FUCKING UNCLEAR but also the basis of a huge chunk of #my childhood?? like WHY though? my friend madeleine said it was related to animal sacrifices with the lamb of god stuff and all #this was NEVER mentioned in my school. i thought he was the lamb bc he followed god but maybe not #no wonder my impulse as a person is to constantly sacrifice myself unnecessarily #i think martyrdom is a bad gift. but i guess torture your son to death or whatever dude. but it's weird to do that and say it was for me #like...... thanks?? you're literally omnipotent but this is like the worst possible version of a cat leaving a dead mouse on my bed #Christianity #thank goodness i was too much of a fag to stay. i was so unhappy there. #the good place actually addresses a lot of my issues with Christianity as a whole while also not being all about Christianity #like what does it mean to condemn a person capable of change to eternal hell?M #*hell?? #the good place #god pays the devil's rent y'all. like in that post that made my long beautiful essay about this irrelevant by #summing it up with 'girl they are in cahoots.' i think about that post all the fukn time nothing i can write longform is as punchy as that

[hopscorched]

draw me like one of your japanese mango girls. feat. Mixed Media

#every morning i wake up in cold sweat worried i’m drawing him too pretty! i can’t help it! he’s a bishōnen to me!! so here’s a riff on that #abijah fowler #🪽 seraphine draws #🌺 to break your vigor or to make you bite the dust or in your bed's hell turn into a proserpine #if i can confide in you all. i’ve always been apprehensive about drawing with colour pencils because one of my huge art inspirations has — #— been doing WILDLY elaborate and gorgeous drawings with this media and i’ve just been so insecure about even trying.. but it’s fun — #— actually! the colours look a bit harsher in the photo but it’s been a fun experience :) also. idk how much of my journal i’ll be showing #— here cause.. well. it feels a little personal.. but i’m sure i’ll be dropping bits at times.. or i would love to do some sort of — #— challenge via journaling.. that’s always fun! #romantic f/o #proship selfship #blood ///