#and the others keep getting neglected

[chibishortdeath]

Uh what if uh Fear and Hunger OC um—

I haven’t even beaten the game yet lol. Anyway this is Ahava, they’re cool, I gotta figure out stats and back story and all that for them eventually. I tried mimicking the art style for some of these, idk just imagine the doodles that are in my usual style as their dungeon nights version XD. The two levels of zoom out on the page is probably redundant, but it’s for resolution I guess.

I’m not gonna label this mature since there isn’t anything explicit in the drawings, but just know that Fear and Hunger is a pretty dark horror game if you’re curious about it!

#fear and hunger 1 #fear and hunger #funger #funger oc #f&h #fear and hunger oc #oc #my oc #art post #my art #f&h fanart #yippie making ocs is fun (proceeds to neglect other projects whoopsie) #I love that this game gets shortened to funger lmao #the kid named funger— #and yes there are some little doodles of like the new god and miasma battle versions hehe #I forgot to just draw their normal battle sprites tho #the overworld sprites are so cute tho ngl I love the art style of this game #I gotta beat it but I keep being busy or stressed out (TwT ) ughhhhhhhhh #idk what else to say tbh #not a lot positive happing in life I can rant about for no reason in the tags unfortunately #oc art #fanart #horror game #horror character #idk if general art tags even do much on tumblr tbh #I’ll give them their own tag in case I draw them again :3 #Ahava funger #hopefully I remember what that tag is 💀💀💀

[archduke-enver-gortash]

mmm essay about sally and kid gort in the tags (cw for child abuse, mentions of suicide, animal cruelty and a murder attempt. i always hope i don’t have to say this but just in case: i don’t excuse or condone any of her or gort’s behaviour at all.) this is literally not even touching upon everything i have to say because i hit the fucking tag limit lmao. NOBODY READ IT’S BAD BRAINSTORMING I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW

#thinkin too much about gortie side characters again. #sally this time and why she specifically talks about him the way she does #like dravo is obviously still shitty but to me he was. ‘just ‘neglectful #while sally actively hated and even felt terrorised by her own child #like. it’s not like i don’t understand her at all. #imagine you and your love don’t have much besides each other and your shop and you get pregnant and ready to raise a child #only for it to not be a child he didn’t and doesn’t cry ever and he learns everything so much sooner than most but then he never calls you #his parents and it’s not just a petty thing kids do sometimes you feel that he doesn’t see you as family and the worst part is that you #agree deep down #and as he gets older he doesn’t have any friends and actively rejects the notion of the entire concept #but then as time passes you hear about how he has entire groups of children following him and then several of them commit suicide #and that thing coming to sit with you and dravo at the dinner table says that he did what you did last week when the axe to chop wood broke #and you discarded it and got a new one #and he has these habits of ripping out flowers and making sure that they don’t regrow #and then you hear rumours about a friend’s daughter’s cat disappearing and think nothing of it #until you visit his tree house a month later and find a declawed cat and birds with clipped wings and crushed bugs that he keeps fondly #and then you see him with other children and they don’t know and his face is different and body language is entirely different #and were it not for the fact that you know better you would never see anything but a normal child #and you know that you are one who painstakingly brought this thing that should not be into the world and so you decide to end it all one da #and go to him as he’s asleep with the knife shaking in your hand #but he cries when you’re above him! screams at the top of his lungs! #so you beg for forgiveness even though you don’t deserve it through tears but as soon as the knife is put away you see the act drop and fee #his clever fingers having twisted your brain inside and out and you know that you can do nothing #and so the opportunity arises to at least remove him out of your life if not everyone’s lives and you take it immediately. #but you heard him talk. how he will close his fist around the world one day. and you know that it is not a matter of if but when. #like. imagine that. jesus dude. #like i hc her as someone that is messy and does not know a lot about life and she certainly wouldn’t have been a good mother but the love #or at least desire to love is there somewhere. and believing that having a child is really the only somewhat meaningful thing she can do #with her life. she’s not some hero or rich or anything of note. so there’s a lot obligation and not genuine desire for family here. #but she never really got the chance to be an actual mother in the first place so. who knows what that might have looked like

[quietwingsinthesky]

im just saying that a guy whose worldview is inflexibly based on the idea that the only two groups of people in the universe are the controlled and the ones who have the power to control them, and that there is no other way to exist, and who has done everything in his power to make sure he’s always in the latter group. i’m just saying that it’s possible this is not unrelated to. that time when he was used as a child by rassilon himself. its possible.

#and i want to be even more clear that this is not me trying to woobify him. you would know if it was because i would be much more annoying #about it. im not trying to lay this out as ‘the drums mean that the master’s actions are excusable actually. all those times he killed So #Many People was fine because he was hurt as a kid.’ #im trying to point out like. now that this is canon. now that this is a part of him. that it is foundational to why he would build up that #worldview at all. yeah? #i keep coming back to the powerlessness of that moment. of the drums. he can’t *do* anything about it. #but he *can* be the master and never be one of the weak people in the universe who ‘allow’ themselves to be controlled #he knows he’s being used in EoT and still expects the time lords to take him with them. because he’s on their side isn’t he? he gets to #ascend too doesn’t he? he gets to be as powerful as they do right? #but. that’s not what’s happening here. it’s what he’s built up in his head but the minute rassilon hits him with the truth. that they have #abused and used him and will now destroy him. just. augh. #a whole world under his heel and its not enough. it will never be enough. he has separated the universe into two parts and neglected to #realize that just because he can put himself in control of some of it doesn’t mean there aren’t other people who have a hand around his #throat still. and it drives me insane #the master #doctor who

[riphimopen]

#my art #beavis and butthead #she was neglectful to hell and back yes and she could get bitter and mean when she drank but damn if she didnt try #like. butthead hates marnie straight up because marnie was deeply depressed and unable to do much and routinely verbally abused the kids #shirley on the other hand was. yknow she was the strict mom and she was very particular about keeping up appearances and she definitely wasn #t a good mom. but she kept food on the table and generally kept her contempt for the kids to herself. bc on a level she knew beavis wasnt #responsible for his being there but she still resented him for it #and of course she was taking care of marnie at the same time and having to deal with a kid that wasnt even hers #lays facedown in a ditch. shirley. #that part in do the universe really unnerved me like i was genuinely sad abt that. and you wouldnt believe what she did once she blew throug #h the settlement money #shirley beavis

[hydrachea]

Today on Genshin: after I don't know how much resin, the artifact strongbox finally decided I deserved mercy. Zhongli's build is now complete.

Also today on Genshin: baby's first abyss clear 🎉

#after a whole year i finally managed to clear it #two stars but i couldn't care less #it's a learning process always #but oh man i'm proud i managed to just clear it #getting stars at all is a nice bonus #thank you zhongli you were absolutely vital in keeping my dear hu tao alive #i didn't change his build to his full shield one and had the one above - the burst support build #i'm honestly amazed it worked as well as it did #i keep thinking 'surely zhongli can't be THAT good' and sure enough he always turns out to in fact be that good #genshin #ray's records #i took tomorrow off so what could have been a better little treat than attempting to run floor 12 again with my newly built grandpa #his build isn't PERFECT yet but it's at a point where i can leave it and finally move on to the other neglected 70% of my roster #bennett your turn is coming up i swear

[askamnesiamoonjumper]

me after editing the aau prologue for the bajillionth time

#First chapter I changed the opening bc I always thought it felt off/abrupt and wanted to have it be prince pov from the start #I wanna get in his head more ok sue me #Beyond that tho it was just some wording edits #Specifically with the internal dialogue moments I helped them flow more/feel more like thoughts #Also mj gets a bit more of their usual edge/pessimism bc the prologue they always felt a bit too “ówò sad poor smol bean” or whatever #That’s it tho chapter 4 I didn’t change bc it’s peak #Did add some teases to later things tho like snatch senses mjs soul at the end of his chap but doesn’t realize it #Or like I added the Not Now running thing in the earlier chapters bc it was more of a chapter 4 thing so I wanted 2 set it up more so boom #I think that’s all the notable edits ig like I said just description additions the only actual new thing is the opener for chap 1 👍 #Also also I got to include a hc that I have that I neglected to do before but I hc a!prince used plural internal dialogue #Because lol we love dramatic irony in this house #Grace post #this reminds me tho one of these days I should look through heart strings chapter one to look for editing things #Bc I think I did that recently but I don’t remember it much tho #Mostly just when the Hat stuff starts that was the parts I never directly rewrote I just edited them so they feel out of place in my brain #Also I’d wanna edit her dialogue bc it *was* in character (after rereading her diary’s to confirm) but I wanna have her be a bit more snark #Hat is Hard bc i Need the balance of cute little kid and also smug little shit (affectionate) like she is a pain to write man cries #This is just me rambling lol ignore it I just wanted to spam aau thoughts #In other news I made shapes redesigns but I’m on the fence on posting them bc idk if I wanna spoil or not hhhhhhhhh #Nowadays I’m more chill w spoiling things than I used to be #But there are a handful of things I’ve kept shut about (ex being princes name or mjs species stuff etc) #So I’m not sure if this thing with shapes i should keep secret or just post bc I used to spoil it but idk now #Shrugs #maybe I’ll do a poll later I dunno #Ok yapping over byeeeeee

[space-specs]

Dick Grayson 🤝 Roy Harper

Sidekicks successfully able to move beyond their mentor and more well-known for their own individual vigilante identity now.

Stephanie Brown 🤝 Bart Allen

Original heroes that carried a couple legacy names before going back to their own unique hero names.

Tim Drake 🤝 Conner Kent

Stuck in the same name retelling the same stories and unable to fully grow as a character because DC can't seem to give them their own unique identities that would allow them to move on past this narrow idea of their characters.

#anyway yeah....just having some musings....they don't make 'em like they used to /hj #if they would stop roping Tim back into Robin that would be great actually #similarly i think Kon is being held back by still being Superboy #not to the same extent that Tim is but definitely keeps looping the 'i'm not like other Supers :(' narrative #(looking at you Superboy: The Man of Tomorrow preview) #i am holding out hope for the new SB series but also i am so fucking nervous. don't fuck this up for us dc #and i think he should get to be like 'i'm not like other Supers :D' and then build a new identity in the reconciliation of self #does that make sense? #like....i don't mind him staying SB except that it does grate on me a little that jon is allowed to grow up and become Superman #while kon is left behind and kinda neglected in superfam content and not allowed to Grow™ #and growth doesn't have to involve a change in hero name but i feel like tim and kon's names are so tied to their teen years #and them still having the same names is also seems to be why they aren't allowed to literally grow and be aged up at all #which limits the kinds of stories they get to have and can be used to tell #the immortal comic medium vs. the realism of believably semi-mortal characters ig #rambling in tags #spec-text-ular #dc #dick grayson #roy harper #stephanie brown #bart allen #tim drake #kon-el #conner kent #nightwing #arsenal #spoiler #batgirl #robin iv #impulse

[croh3]

gonna vent a little in the tags don't mind me <3

#i feel like i'm a bad person for thinking this #but right now i'm not someone's most important person y'know #i don't exactly have anyone i feel comfortable with to talk to anytime about everything that comes to mind #i have my bestie of course but she's been spending time with her girlfriend a lot and i feel. idk. neglected? #and like... i love my other friends but i don't fully trust them with like sharing my hyperfixations or something like it #i know it's my fault for being so closed off #and i sometimes miss my ex because i was able to tell her everything and i knew she would listen #now i just don't feel important enough and it kinda sucks bc my bpd starts acting up #and i already tried talking to my bestie about my feeling of being neglected #but in the end i get it like. she has a girlfriend and her uni and she's busy #i simply don't feel like i deserve any attention at this point and i'm afraid if i keep this up she'll leave me #i'm not going to die if she leaves but it will hurt. a lot #ughhhhh idk i'm just sad and lonely and i want attention #vent #chr-txt

[holographicbutch]

My brain is broken as fuck today I haven't been able to make myself do anything other than get groceries. Thinking about responding to certain people is making me tired to even think about. I just want to sleep for a week straight and not have to think about anything

#why!!!!! nothing happened and ive been eating well this weekend and going outside so its not like ive been neglecting my bodys needs #ive been actively doing things in an attempt to keep my health stable #like reading books more instead of looking at a screen all day and getting a headache #ive been trying so hard!!!! but im still depressed!!!!!!! fuck #and i knowww i KNOW its bad to compare ur mental health to others and be like 'its not that bad' but like #some of my friends are going through legitimate crises rn and i dont want to talk about my problems to them atm #but at the same time i dont want to ignore their messages without explaining why. ughhhhhh #hate #vent #negative #skele says stuff #theres never enough time. theres never enough time to rest #and i spend all my resting time anxious because theres other things i need to be doing on my weekend! in order to live! #im just so tired. im so tired

[gifti3]

Part of me could drop all my other otome gachas for deepspace

#the other part is like...but paimon and asmo 🥹 #crazy that one character can keep u around.... #but seriously #love and deepspace has so much to do #so its like....hmmmm #kinda wanna neglect sll my other games now #also its just better quality and feels more romantic and cute #...once i get to paimons h scene idk #i wanna see phenixs too but #that could be in chapter 9 for all ik #then theres asmo #im literally just here for those crumbs #i cant be bothered to catch up in the story cause its a pain in the butt to be frank #gacha games shouldnt make getying through the story excruciating #but thats a whole other convo

[foxhole-pipe-dream]

...

#I CAN'T #blocking someone on ao3 isn't enough #i need to explode them #i blocked someone for making rude and weird comments under my kid fic about neil being an absent/bad father #because he... *checks notes* leaves his only child with her other father (andrew) to keep her safe from danger and comes around when he can #and they're acting like neil's neglecting her and not just staying away because of said danger #anyway that was months ago and i see them under another kid fic #asking the author not to make neil a bad father #🤨🤨 #WHEN I GET YOOOOOU #ALSO THAT'S SUCH A WEIRD THING TO COMMENT ON PEOPLE'S FICS #if you don't like the way a fic is going because it's not 100% fluff #please. PLEASE write your own omg 😭 #neil has a fucked up life #not everything is going to be sunshine and rainbows #especially if nathan is still present #sorry for the rant but I'M IN DISBELIEF #if you've read my fic you'd know neil absolutely loves their kid #mine

[musical-chick-13]

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#will probably delete this later but I needed to get it out somewhere #like I am so goddamn lonely. and it is making me feel LITERALLY as if I'm about to descend into genuine madness #but the PROBLEM is that. in order to not be lonely. you need to find other people. and you need to have reason to believe that those #people will keep wanting and making an effort to communicate with you #and the thing is THE THING. IS. that you cannot control what people do or feel. I have no say in what people think of me. #I have to rely on other people to build new relationships. and that is just not. something that I can do. #it's not something that makes SENSE for me to do anymore. so I try to figure out how to just not want human connection at all #you know maybe if I intentionally isolate myself or grow my cynicism on a regular basis I'll get desensitized to the point #where that's just genuinely not something I want anymore. so then I'm not lonely but I also didn't have to rely on anyone else being #trustworthy and accepting and willing to care about me to get to that point #but. I mean maybe some people can do the denial thing but I can't. I've been trying for years. and that carved-out-hole in my chest #hasn't gotten any better. it hasn't filled up or healed over or gone away. it's just gotten bigger. #but if you're genuinely convinced that you're just built in a way where no one is ever going to really love you...what the fuck do you do? #if connecting with other people is something I want but it's (in my probably-biased estimation) completely inaccessible because I am #an inherently shameful and unpleasant person just by virtue of existing...then I'm just stuck at an impasse. and I'll always be crying #over something I can't logically ever have. why bother pursuing it if I am just going to be rejected or hurt or disparaged or tossed out or #neglected or sidelined or any number of bad outcomes? if that's how pursuing any kind of new interpersonal relationships is going to end #then why bother? the only thing to do would be to learn how to be completely unreliant on other people in any way forever right? #but THAT'S not logistically feasible EITHER and I've already proven that I can't fucking do that so what's left? just always be miserable? #I DON'T WANT TO RESIGN MYSELF TO THAT!!!! #sorry. it's. getting to be late december & around the new year is when it always gets Bad™ so we're just. gonna be like this for a few week #In the Vents #ugh all of this would be better if I still lived near Best Friend™ #anyone who gets to live near/with their Person™ PLEASE know how lucky you are and don't take that for granted

[speedyowl152]

Something i find fun, if Adrien and Félix are sentimonsters, is Adrien's feather allergy. Aside from the dramatic irony.

An allergy is where the body incorrectly labels an object as a threat, and the immune system reacts, or even dangerously overreacts, in ways which could be threatening to the person it's trying to protect.

If Adrien is a senti, then he's made from a feather, that's his soul. His allergy is targeting something that is already part of his being and biology. That means it's not an allergy, it's an autoimmune disease.

Allergies are genetic, as are predispositions to autoimmune diseases, and Adrien and Félix are genetically identical, though we don't know if Félix shares his allergy. It's possible it hasn't been activated yet. His odds of developing this could be heightened by a bunch of factors; illnesses, food, sunlight.

I'm excited to see if he'll share it or not, if being around duusu will be good for him (someone who understands, to befriend and vent to like Plagg is for Adrien) or bad for him (y'know, a health hazard).

Adrien having an autoimmune disease, maybe he's on immunosuppressants, maybe he's not. I think that could further explain some of Gabriel's actions, not justify them but make them make a little more sense.

After all, the feathers are in the rings, maybe that's a small part of why he hasn't been given his yet. Maybe it's part of why Gabriel has so little physical contact with him, he could give his kid a rash or worse.

If your kid has a weakened immune system and your wife is dying or gone, trying to keep that kid inside, reducing his and your own contact with people, especially other kids - because kids spread diseases like wild fire. I get it. It makes me feel really bad for them. Adrien doesn't even understand what his father's protectiveness is about, besides just losing Emilie. And Gabriel can't even begin to have that conversation with him without everything coming out. About why his feather allergy is such a big deal, about papillon and his wife.

Anyway I'm just thinking about how he ended up letting him go to school. About how he let Nino give him a party but absolutely would've been advising for it to be outside in the open air rather than letting a load of strange children into his clean house.

He really wasn't that bad of a dad at the start. But Nathalie's right, he's getting worse and worse. And I'm worried about how he'll cope and what he'll do without her, now that Adrien is the only close person to him that he has left. Beyond whatevers going on with Tomoe anyway.

#i dont like villains who are evil because theyre evil. theres always logic and understanding behind it #and i like how with miraculous you only need a few hcs for the villains to make sense and be human #chloe and lila are messed up from the absense of their parents. chloes spoilt and lonely #and lilas learnt she can manipulate her way to whatever she wants because her parents dont care enough to check. shes lonely too #and she gets rewarded everytime her manipulation works in her favour. its why she keeps doing it. #she makes friends the only way she knows how when she feels so different being constantly uprooted and neglected #félix has his life and freedom under threat. hes been working from the start to free himself #all while watching lb & cn destroy his kin everyweek. as his uncle controls his brother and keeps making new sentis to be sent to die #and gabriels the kind of person who simply cannot be trusted to hold power alone. and fundementally misunderstands other people #he doesnt know how to empathise and now he wields an emotion detecting miraculous he never needs to try. #its making him more and more self centred as his confidence is continuely knocked by children and time continues to pass without emilie #and hes managed to find a way to become even more alone #and nathalie just wants to do her best by the agrestes because shes come to love this family as if it were her own #and now shes realised enabling gabriel has only made things worse for everyone involved #i just. i like that stuff where theres logic beyond revenge on an accident or just sheer malice #where there isnt one root of all evil character #ml spoilers #ml s5e2 spoilers #ml s5e1 spoilers #evolution spoilers #multiplication spoilers #sentimonster theory #dont come at me to tell me im enabling abusers or being ableist or something okay #i literally have an autoimmune disease. i literally had 5 diseases at once last week. #i hate crowds and im crushingly lonely living in the closet at my parents #i will kin adrien and shove headcanons on him with hope itll end happily when they win as much as i please and you cannot stop me #hes immunosuppressed too i just called it ive manifested it get absolutely fucked #i wanna go to school/work and make friends and gain the courage to slowly claim back my identity for myself #and i will live that through a fictional 15 year old cat boy if i want. fight me. #own post

[snarltoothed]

yo barbies do have absolutely inhuman proportions and theyve given ken a truckload of cake. just an observation after play acting a barbie affair to a toddler and trying to reiterate the points her mom was trying to make every time she was upset through Ken, who had to be the voice of reason the way Barbie and Barnie kept hitting & yeling at him bc he had a baby with Barnie and their baby can magically fly and is causing a whole lot of problems and infected Dr. Mouse with her magical flying ability but neither of them are good at it and they keep sustaining what should be fatal injuries by jumping off of rooves and i got nowhere in probing about why Baby and Dr. Mouse want to hurt themselves and won’t just rest it off like Dr. Mouse said before she got magic infection and like Dr. Unicorn said before that before he died (permanently i guess she never brought him back lol) because this little girl had more insistence toward playing barbies for “just a little longer” than i have ever had toward ANYTHING…

(like. 2 hours of barbies prior to driving her around and hoping she’d sleep then bringing her to a playground trying to tire her out then the long way home to see if she’d pass out then for like 3 hours but ALAS she wanted to play barbies again within the hour and we continued on and off for 5. hours. i was three feet from the dolls to take my meds and a drink of water and she was like “ken…?” and i was like “one second honey ken is distracted by the movie but i’ll come back over in just a minute i just need to do something real quick” and she was just like “no! no!” and intensely cried for the 30 seconds it took me to swallow 👁👄👁)

((maybe i was also bossy af at her age, suppose maybe i wouldnt remember being tantrum prone toddler lmao… everything i remember i feel like i was pretty meek but i probs cried a lot. idk if i WAILED tho. my mom describes me as “perfect (in terms of childhood behavior) until puberty”. whereas my brother was a monster until about 3 or 4 and she isnt afraid to say so… either way no judgement unto the toddler, i probably started internalizing my feelings way too young for that to be healthy. tangent. my b.))

anyways point being: why are barbie’s legs still so fucking long??? her torso is more normal these days than 20 years ago but ye gods, the woman has still gotta be 7ft tall… and why can’t we out barbie in flats? literally why does she still have deformed ballerina feet? little girls don’t wear heels. little girls shouldn’t wear heels? not like that? because adult fucking women shouldn’t? (thankfully my psuedoneice wants everyone but ken naked ?)

SECOND POINT BEING: MOMFEMS, SINGLE MOMS, MOTHERS IN GENERAL… i have the utmost fucking respect for you. mothers do more for the world than ANY man, EVERY government & law system, fuck, even all the goddamn charities and every single scientific discovery presently known or yet to be found out. and it is NOT EASY WORK!! it is often THANKLESS WORK. it is always UNPAID WORK. mad fucking respect to moms. i could never.

#r #childposting #mom positivity #mother positivity #mother worship #disclaimer that obviously yes there are BAD mothers who neglect and/or abuse their kids and obviously i don’t condone that #this is how you know i love my bestie/basically sister #like it isnt that bad fr because i do love her and her daughter like family #but 7ish total hours of barbies until nearly 2am is not something you’d generally catch me subjecting myself to yknow #my bestie has a broken collar bone so she an her daughter have just kinda been stuck in the apartment w each other #and so she’s been doing this for like a week. plus her kid is starting to get sick of her and was being super mean to her #i knew she needed a break 😭 at least the kid wasnt mad at me #until she started nodding off trying to play barbies lmaoo #her eyes kept closing and she’d start to go limp then she was just forcing her eyes back open and screaming ‘no!’ for several minutes #we kept trying to ask like no WHAT girl we’re all just sitting here #until finally she got sooo mad that she was falling asleep she did her no thing then looked me dead in the eye and went ‘STOP DOING THAT’ #my reaction made her cry ☠️ i couldnt keep from laughing a little i was like girl i cant make you fall asleep youre doing that… #she was at the point where ANYTHING wouldve made her cry so i don’t feel that bad it was mostly just so funny #yknow. after she cried and screamed for ~60 seconds and immediately passed out once she laid down #it was less funny before that stopped

[oscill4te]

cleaning the bathroom is like the most physical chore ever (moreso the shower, really)

#technically its not.. mowing the grass or shoveling snow takes that award but i rent so B^) aint gotta wry about that anymore #my body is saying rest and its like yeah well. we have been resting for a long time. i hate being low energy #i have no vitamin deficiencies but i think i just ask too much of my body. i need a less physical job which sucks :^( #physical work does feel satisfying even if you are weak or low energy #but the muscle tightness today; i think the cold is a huge part of that. i feel rigid and weak when its cold. most ppl do... #also when you clean the bathroom you have to be on your knees or squatting and i do it all the time at work #my knees and feet hate me #i think a lot of ppl avoid proper tedious self care bc their bodies are tired or in pain #society asks too much of people.. #some people have so much energy and endurance... and im like how? #does developmental neglect play a role? i dont think so bc some ppl from malnourished backgrounds have that strength and endurance.. #its like why do some people have it and others dont? #well actually uh idk now i think abt it.. many of my coworkers do look tired and beat :^( yet they keep going.. #my mom and my sister are similar to me. they also get super tired bery easily i wknder if its genetics

[mayclair]

the whole max and mike’s lives being foils of each other’s is so insane to me bc its like. for mike max is a representation of everything that could have happened to him if his mom left his dad earlier on (and what can still happen when you look at the way things are between them) and for max mike is a representation of everything that she could have had growing up if her mom hadn’t decided to leave her dad as fast as she did

#there is no way they don’t resent each other for it just a little bit. no fucking way sorry #mike knows max grew up with a shittier home life but still wishes his mom had the guts to do the same her mom did and left his dad bc #at the end of the day there is a little bit of bitterness towards both his parents for not making their relationship work out specifically #towards his dad bc his mom is actually involved in his life and did try to pretend that everything was normal when it wasnt which directly #ties into his desperate attempts to make his relationship with el seem normal to both of them when its not bc theyve both never been normal #they dont even know what normal really IS which also ties in to his very deep fear that the two of them will end up like his parents and so #meday he’ll become his dad and he doesn’t know which one is more terrifying so instead he blocks it all out in True Mike Wheeler FashionTM #and just keeps wishing that his mom left his dad because maybe if there was a distance between them when he was growing up maybe things wou #ldve been different maybe he wouldnt be this much like his dad #max on the other hand LOVES her dad they had one of those relationships where he wasn’t neglectful but wasn’t a great parent either but she #still loves him for trying and while her mom did try she gave up after a while while her dad didn’t. that was the real dealbreaker for max #and while after all this time she keeps saying im going to run away to cali and im going to live with my dad. but its not just the need to #see someone who cared for her the most during her early years its also the childish hope that her mom will notice that shes missing anf #come looking for her and that maybe when her parents finally meet again they can reconcile and get back together bc that is really all shes #ever wanted in her life since she was a kid and she feels bad for it bc she knows that her mom and dad’s relationship was never supposed to #last but she still wishes and wishes which is why that little bit of bitterness against mike will never fall away no matter how irrational #it is bc its like. his parents dont love each other but are still together for their kids. why couldnt my parents do the same? was i not en #ough reason for them? and this ties into her breaking up with lucas over and over again bc shes seen her parents and how they never fought #for each other and shes afraid that somewhere along the line her relationship with lucas will turn out the exact same and hell leave her so #its better to just leave now before it gets serious then later when it will hurt too much but lucas keeps coming back for her which makes #her realize that maybe it doesnt have to be like that maybe they wont be like her parents #anyway this is incoherent as fuck but shane mandej voice IVE CONNECTED THE DOTS #mike wheeler #max mayfield #stranger things