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800-dick-pics · 1 year

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Praying for a Better New Year!!!

Im a Black disabled 2S and my girlfriend a reconnecting Indigenous trans woman have been struggling almost continuously throughout the pandemic. We have gone thru lots of physical, emotional and systematic state violence and We both are at our breaking points.

And before i get deeper into this im genuinely asking yall DO NOT TRIGGER TAG this post as it will basically get minimal traction, because this is a donation post!

Many things have increased my/our financial load and stress in the past 6 months, my (still abusive) mother had a series of mini strokes/1 heart attack which led to me taking care of her, more bills and all the house work. Due to her still being abusive Ive chosen to start helping her from a far, because my mental stability has been worn thin and constantly on the back burner.

My partner @grumblybutch this year has gone through a lot of family abuse, transmisogyny, housing and food insecurity, which has really broken their spirit. With all thats going on in our lives as well as personal, cultural and spirtual reasons my girlfriend really wants to get dual citizenship and be able to live/work on their land again.

We have been cfunding already to make this happen but recently we have a had 3 major set backs to getting my partner dual citizenship.

1. We have found mold INSIDE the walls which we cant fix until the pnw rain stops, we need to buy 2 HEPA air filters for the rooms until we can fix the whole walls, because my mother and I have breathing issues, approx $300-$350

2. My ex boss literally stole $455 from under me right before the holiday break, hasn't paid me for a very long time, so until I get that money we have had to dip into the flight/citizenship fund, but even then we havent been able to get much in the mean of groceries or necessities

3. A few days ago my partner attempted suicide due to all the stressors life has put them through this year, and while this isnt an initial monetary set back, we are going to prioritize our mental health as much as possible, esp my girlfriends after this. We are looking for treatment options for them atm but since theyre out of state we have to pay out of pocket for the treatment they need.

Our original goal to get the funds for tickets/citizenship was January 7th but Its clear that with 7 days left, and 3 major set backs we will not be meeting our goals by then

We are going to use what funds we have left to get some necessities and basics for the house. And hope to re raise the money for tickets and for the HEPA filters and mental healthcare my girlfriend really needs.

our new goal is $1,800, due to the various setbacks, but when I get paid Ill be saving some to go toward our goal as well.

I truly just want to be able to breath, eat and keep us safe before I leave with my lover back to her land, This is all very important to us, thank you for reading.

CA: $sleepyhen or $grumblybear

VN: wildwotko or XochiRose

DM @grumblybutch for PP

#twoc #land back #community care #two spirit #lgbt crowdfund #mutual aid #please dont dm me or my girlfriend abt shit rn #were both mentall fragile

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sillyyuserr · 1 month

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Terukane analysis <33

one of my favorties because it really shows how much they care and more about THEM less about how teru looks at akane or things like that

like i said in my last last LAST post, i wanted to write an analysis on what happened between terukane just before the severance so here i am. Writing this at 8:15pm on a sunday.

after getting back to the ”human realm”, akane realizes aoi isnt there with him, turns around in confusion, and sees teru with a saddened look on his face

Teru looks saddened while explaining what happened to aoi and how she couldnt return

Akane asks if teru knew the whole time, teru confesses to having had known that she wouldnt come back but didnt say anything, leading to akane being very clearly distressed and upset

Akane grabs teru by the shirt/jacket or wtv hes wearing and punches him and shoves him against a wall

Akane’s done with attacking teru, and turns around to try to go back and get her, falls to the ground in pain, his untreated wounds getting worse by the minute, gets back up to get her, teru forces him down, akane’s lying on the ground, disappointed and sad

Yadayadayada idrc what happens after this thats not what we’re focusing on, now that im done with the ridiculously long recap lets break it down further

As seen here, teru is both feeling and looking, extremely guilty. He’s guilty ab not telling akane, but knowing he kind of had to keep it a secret

Something you need to know ab terukane to really understand it, is their relationship is heavily built around their trust in one another so when teru hid how aoi couldnt come back from akane, he was hurt and confused as if he had never seen it coming, like it wasnt even a what if. He knows teru tries to be “perfect” to everyone else, but had never even CONSIDERED that he might lie to HIM.

The reason this hit like a fucking global pandemic is because akane trusted teru so much he didn’t even think ab the “what ifs” and even if he did, him lying wouldnt even be on there

and since he was really hurt, he lashed out and punched him. Teru knew he was hurt/betrayed and let him punch him, feeling guilty at himself for keeping this from him. Gosh they really do care about one another

As seen here, akane tries to get aoi, but in his damaged state, he literally cannot. Teru knows this, and hurts inside seeing him like this, him having to literally shove him to the ground to stop him.

Akane seems to be at like rock bottom rn. Just lost his childhood bsf and this dude he swears he hates just lied to him ab something this srs. my mans really going through it

Forgot to add but teru looks especially heartbroken here looking at akane, it literally hurts him to do this to akane, but he knew he wouldnt leave aoi there so he did what was best for him, and brought him back. Also not to mention he literally travelled through the most notorious school mystery’s boundary (also the god of fucking death like wdym) just to save akane like what the fuck

teru’s so obvious istg if AidaIro doesnt make terukane canon thats one thing, but if they dont confirm or at least prove in some way teru has a crush on akane, my entire life is a fucking lie

pls give me ideas or stuff ab terukane that you’ve noticed and i havent im running out of analysis ideas 😭😭🙏

#terukane #real #tbhk #aoi akane #minamoto teru #aidairo #analysis

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lesbiansgoal · 7 months

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My wife got feelings for someone else over the summer and it has crushed my self-esteem.

We've been together 8 years and married for 5. We went through a hard time during the pandemic. We both struggled mentally, especially due to lack of social interactions outside of the home and it wore down our relationship. I have been really depressed and less attentive as a partner and I acknowledge that it played a role in the situation.

In May, she developed a crush on a coworker. Nothing ever happened, they never texted or talked much outside of the workplace but I noticed eventually because of the changes in her demeanor. She stopped wanting to spend time with me, treating me with complete coldness/disinterest and couldn't stop herself from talking about the girl at work. I caught on and after weeks of asking about it, she finally admitted it. I asked her to cut contact with her so that we could work on marriage and try to move forward. I asked her to switch her schedule or switch store locations. She didn't want to. Instead, told me that she wasn't sure she even wanted to be with me. I was devastated. I was already really depressed and it just knocked me further down. Eventually, after several days of her saying that she "needed space" and "wasnt sure" about us, I asked her to leave our home until she could figure it out. She was gone for a few days, during which I cried and came to terms with the likely end of our marriage.

But then, to my surprise, she came back (after discovering that the coworker was totally unavailable) saying that she realized the coworker is actually a narcissist and that she was blinded by a fantasy. She stated that she wanted to work on our marriage and was committed to me. Since then, she has switched job locations and has no contact with the girl. We started marriage counseling (we go about once a month) and I can tell that she is genuinely trying.

The problem is that I can't seem to get over it and I feel pathetic about that. It has only been about 2 months since everything went down, but I feel so worried constantly. Worried that she'll get a crush on someone else. Worried that she doesn't actually love me but only stayed because I provide stability. Worried that she isnt attracted to me. I have lost all confidence and I feel hyper-vigilant all the time. The girl she had a crush on was younger, cooler and prettier than me. I can't stop wondering if I am not enough. This is definitely worsened by the current state of my mental health; I'm going through problems with my family and have only one close friend that I dont see much. I feel isolated and neurotic. I am in therapy but I just feel so hopeless. Has anyone else been through anything similar or have any suggestions about how I can feel better or move forward?

#lgbt #lesbian #wlw #glg #loveislove #love is love

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straightfromthetorturedpoetsdept · 2 days

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yall: omg taylor is so stupid, why would she romanticize the 1830s? what's so cool about the 1830s? the pandemics? the racism? taylor YOU COULDNT EVEN VOTE THEN GOD I FUCKING HATE U

me: um.... obviously taylor swift is aware the 1830s sucked because the very next lyric is "everyone would look down because it wasnt fun anymore, seems like it was never fun even back then, nostalgia is a mind's trick, if I'd been there, I'd hate it" you guys are aware she is literally saying the opposite of what you're claiming right. it is sexist to quotemine a woman and lie about what she said to justify your hatred of her.

yall: omg its not sexist to criticize taylor swift

yall: what is your profession to be able to critique taylor's music because as someone who has played instruments for 7 years, let me tell you this album sucks.

yall: omg you seem really bothered by people not liking the same things u do

yall: taylor swift isnt gunna fuck u

yall: sometimes when yr famous, people hate u for no reason and you need to let it go

yall: omg taylor's music isnt even that good like idk how yall even like this crap

yall: its not sexist to criticize taylor swift

yall: youve been talking about this for hours? touch grass?

yall: people dont have to like the same things u do

yall: just let people hate the album god

yall: please stop using the word sexist when you dont understand it. its not sexist to not like the same things u do.

yall: here is a reason to hate taylor swift (proceeds to claim her carbon emissions are higher than anyone else's despite the fact that she doesnt make the top 30 list for 2023... aka lying to justify their hatred for taylor swift)

yall: its not just this one lyric the album is filled with clunky lyrics that are bad

yall: taylor swift sucks ass and u suck for liking her

yall: die bitch

me: are yall not embarrassed??????????????

#personal #taylor swift #anti taylor swift #truly the pissing on the poor website

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lamelaybe · 3 months

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thinking about how cartman gets to have redeeming moments (typically without ulterior motives) more often in the specials as opposed to regular episodes.

pandemic special

in the pandemic special, when cartman literally had his dream life during social distancing, not having to go to school, he got to stay home and do whatever. bro even threatened to kill the pangolin but stopped for one reason only. for stan.

when i watched that special i kept waiting for the gotcha moment where its revealed cartman had some secret reason for listening to stan, but it never came.

he literally had the ability to ensure he got to keep living the pandemic life, and yet, when stan confessed he wished things could go back to normal and he started crying, you can see cartman literally tried to work back his nerve to kill the pangolin, but then he looked back at his broken friend and decides its not worth it.... like.... i need to kms. why did he do that..........is he soft

covid + post-covid special

okay, i know everyone and their mom loves rabbi cartman, but even though he is an "antagonist" to kyle, stan, and everyone else--to cartman, he's just protecting his family and the life he created, even out of all the bad.

the absolute worst part of post covid is that despite it all, we know that cartman genuinely changed for the better. he even sacrificed everything he had to give his friends a better future. like. what the fuck. oh my god and the whole "i know god will bring us together again" part with yentl made me want to fucking sob. like thats the man he could be. it makes me want to rip my hair out so bad.

joining the panderverse

this one isnt as personal in regards to being kind to his friends, but the fact that ERIC FUCKING CARTMAN apologizes to a woman for being unnecessarily hateful towards her and admitting it was lame of him to do is like. revolutionary LOL. and he means every word of it. man.

closing thoughts

cartman character development just makes me so unbelievably happy and soft and . man. he is so fucked up. him learning to set aside his own happiness to see his friends happy.... apologizing when he knows he's done wrong,...........god.

#south park #eric cartman #eric fartman #south park special #south park post covid #south park panderverse #he is just so mentally ill and i am a sucker for the worst guy you know to softest kindest guy you know pipeline #im delusional #somebody sedate me #its embarrassing having this many thoughts about this dumb idiot

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27-royal-teas · 11 months

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YET !!! ANOTHER ANALYSIS!! And for good reason this time because people keep misinterpreting Pete’s work to be about Mikey and it makes me fucking PISSED can you not let pete have one thing in his goddamn life i get it its fine to have headcanons and opinions but PLEASE for the love of god please stop discrediting all of his hard work & good writing to be about a white boy he fucked back in ‘05 this CONSTANTLY happens with poc artists and it makes me mad to no end

yep, that’s right. today we’re talking about I Am My Own Muse. writing this essay i have listened to it a grand total of twenty three times

i like this song a lot specifically because i do kind of relate to it a lot frequently i feel like smashing a guitar until i go insane but i dont have a guitar and i dont know how to play one regardless so. uh yeah

The thing about IAMOM is that it’s saying that in the TITLE. Hes his own muse. And obviously no one can take that away. sure , some of his songs might be inspired by someone, but in the long run, who do they come from? pete. romance songs might not be about anyone in particular. I know ive wrote songs that could be interpreted as romance, but they’re actually me talking to my younger self or my future self or my friend, and the point is, even though songs written by pete may seem like they were about someone that doesnt mean they are and you cant, you CANNOT discredit the fact that he is his own muse. just like the song title says.

The song begins with a BANGING orchestral arrangement. I think the intro to IAMOM is my favorite song intro on the album. It's just very well thought out and clearly carefully planned, and quite honestly I think patrick did an AMAZING job and I'd love to see him do a breakdown of the composition here because I am IMPRESSED. Not even to mention the vocals, he is on FIRE. anyway in the rest of this essay I’ll be interpreting the lyrics and tying them back to the central topic i just opened with: How Pete Is His Own Muse.

The first verse is quiet, and it begins like this:

“Here i am, not sure you should take a chance

I like playing dumb, letting you figure me out

But i was faded in my own defense

So drop a bomb on the things we dreamed about”

I feel as though this verse is very clear. He isnt sure that the person he’s referring to should take a chance on him, should think that he is worth it, and he likes being able to be up to someone else’s interpretation with no outside influence. i do this frequently with strangers- i stay quiet so that they can make up their own idea in their head about me. They can figure me out themself, since i clearly cant figure myself out, and i think that’s the idea pete is really aiming for here. ‘So drop a bomb on all the things we dream about” can be referring to himself or someone else, but here let’s take it in the context that he’s discussing himself. This line is repeated in the second verse, so it’s clearly one of the main points that needed to be stated here; here he is saying to himself that (again, it’s that self sabotage) he should give it up, give it all up, it’s not worth it, destroy it all, drop a bomb on all our dreams because they aren’t going to happen. Taken together with the previous lines we can basically say that pete is saying that because he is leaving himself open to interpretation from the public, the things he truly meant to say are lost. And i think that’s the main thing here, especially with the title, and obviously im doing it myself, maybe this isnt what he meant at all, but i definitely do think it correlates along those lines to some degree.

The chorus is repeated several times throughout the song (3 times to be specific) and it goes like this:

“Smash all the guitars ‘til we see all the stars

Oh got to throw this year away

We got to throw this year away like

A bad luck charm”

And then that repeats twice.

I think i can safely say everyone reading this right now has gone through the pandemic. I assume three year olds dont go on tumblr. The entire smfs album references 2020 and 2019 time and time again, most critically in What A Time To Be Alive, and it’s heavily present in this song too. “Got to throw this year away (like a bad luck charm)” vocalizes the wishes of pete and everyone else who wishes to cut those years out of their brains- pete has expressed in interviews how taxing the pandemic really was on his mental health, and i think that “smash all the guitars” could symbolize the frustration and pain he really felt in that time; destroying music (one of the main things he loves) until he can sink into that despair and just float away (“‘til we see all the stars”). Another way this can be interpreted is an act of rebellion (a lot of musical artists smash their guitars during shows, cough ryan ross cough) but i dont really think that that makes as much sense in this context.

The next verse:

“The trumpets bring the angels but they never came

No one let them in ‘cause they didnt know my name

I know i keep my feelings so tucked away

Just another day spent hoping we dont fall apart

So drop a bomb on all the things we dreamed about”

Another very pete based verse (BECAUSE HE IS HIS OWN MUSE). This kind of links to Heaven’s Gate because it’s related to the same thing- not making it on the list, not feeling worthy of getting into heaven, because this sort of self deprecation is reflected throughout most of Fall Out Boy’s albums. I could give a million examples of this, but I don’t want to be here forever. “The trumpets bring the angels but they never came/ no one let them in ‘cause they didn’t know my name” sort of brings to mind the image of a person waiting to be carried away to something they’re not entirely sure they deserve, and they’re proven correct because no one ever came to carry them away, no one ever decided that they’d be on the list to get to heaven and the angels just went marching past and pete can hear their horns, know theyre there for people who deserve heaven much more than he does. How sad is that?

“I know i keep my feelings so tucked away/ just another day spent hoping we dont fall apart” carries the feeling of not wanting to be a burden with every emotion thought and expressed, even the good ones, and ‘we’ can be referring to himself, every single aspect of himself, hoping he doesn’t fall apart into shards of the stars his guitar is made up of. and then of course it’s the line about the bomb again, although this time it feels even more internalized and personal because it’s the second time he said it, and he dreams of getting into heaven but how can he make it up there if the angels themselves know he does not deserve to and so. drop a bomb on all the things we dreamed about, folks, because they aren’t going to happen.

The bridge:

“So let’s twist the knife again, twist the knife again

like we did last summer

So let’s twist the knife again, twist the knife again

Oh, i’m just trying to keep it together

But it gets a little harder when it never gets better I'm trying

To keep it together, to keep it together, oh”

To me this entire bridge just feels really deeply confessional and personal. Im going to start at the bottom because i like it the best.

He’s trying. He’s trying so damn hard- to be optimistic, to be hopeful and stay full of happiness and love but it’s SO HARD when there’s no light at the end of the tunnel to motivate him. This is still talking about quarantine, i think; i remember i was in middle school at the time; they said that we would be back in two weeks. I remember i was grateful to get a break and time off. Then two weeks turned into two years and it got really, really hard to see an end to the pandemic. When things stop improving it gets harder and harder to keep it together when you can’t see the results of any of your actions, when you’re trying your best but it still gets you nowhere. Wouldn’t you stop trying? i know i would.

And let’s talk about “let’s twist the knife” just a little bit. “Last summer” might refer to the last album release, which is Mania (even though it was released in January). Another album cycle, another twist of the knife; another bit of words that pete has to pull out of himself like ribbons, and although he loves it, that’s his job, it still feels like dredging up all the pain again. So let’s twist the knife again, dig it in just a little deeper, just like we did before.

So, yeah. Pete is his own muse and i truly do think that that is heavily reflected in this song, even this whole album. A lot of songs in smfs seem more him-centered, because he is the writer and he is talking about himself. So Good Right Now and What A Time To Be Alive are especially good examples of this.

And the interesting thing about the title is that it’s pulled from a Frida Kahlo quote, which goes like this:

“I am my own muse. I am the subject I know best. I am the subject I want to better.”

And isn’t that just it? This whole album, it’s an album of self discovery and going back to your roots and staying current anyway. It’s patrick pulling pete out of his funk and getting him back in the game; it’s an exploration of a new style, a new fall out boy. And like a phoenix, every album they rise again, still the same but somehow completely brand new. The orchestral arrangements displayed in IAMOM and SMFS and LFTOS showcase this, the new feeling but still the same, something bettered, and I’m really, really happy with how far they’ve come not only in their expansion of music but also with themselves. And I feel like this song and this title- I Am My Own Muse- is really a stand up, it’s a show of how far they’ve come. Because they are the subject they know the best.

#Toby speaks #Toby’s meta #fall out boy #fob #pete wentz #patrick stump #andy hurley #joe trohman #fob meta #meta #lyric analysis

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kaetor · 9 months

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would love love love to hear any thoughts u want to share on the weed smoking grandpas au i absolutely LOVE everything vlr and especially everything here

hi. life is busy so it took me a hot second to answer this but anon i love you so much. I shall explain quark and his weed-smoking grandpas to you to the best of my abilties

so basic premise

so this is an "au" (in that its not DIRECTLY contradicted by canon. but also is) from the minds of me and my bestie remy @argentsunshine (read his ze fanfic) where long story short quark is raised by aoi light and junpei who have been hanging out since the radical-6 pandemic happened

short story long this somewhat connects to 'apocalypse au' which is again, just canon, where at the beginning of the apocalypse junpei finds light (who is looking for clover) and on their way to try and find clover they find aoi frozen in one of those freeze pods

because akane saw the future and knew that aoi would get rad6 and die early on in the pandemic so in akane fashion she put him to sleep and didnt tell him anything

so now these three guys are just kind of hanging together trying to find akane and maybe clover failing to find clover experiencing complex emotions about akane kurashiki. about 35 years later give or take . they find a baby

more random shit under the cut.

aoi is very vehement that young children should believe in santa claus light thinks its pointless and stupid junpei is stuck in the middle of this. "okay santa"s are thrown around in such arguments often. quark isnt really sure what to think

aoi and junpei are taking on more concrete parenting roles while light mostly sits in the background dispensing fun facts and the energy of a wine aunt crossed with an actual grandfather

light field known transgender was partly at fault for the name 'quark' aoi hates this

the major influence light had on quarks upbringing is that one day he looked at aoi "stopped regularly attending school at age eight" kurashiki and junpei "not a great student who then also dropped out" tenmyouji and said someone has to teach this child. and started trying to teach him stuff that's so far above a child's level

from our google doc light aoi and junpei quote " spent a while searching slash forming an increasingly confusing polycule (aoi and light are together light and junpei are not romantically involved and not not romantically involved but a secret third thing junpei and aoi are. good question)"

junpei and light got married for tax reasons but aoi and light who you'd more expect to be married aren't so quark is very confused about what marriage as an institution entails

every time the topic of why him and aoi arent married comes up light gives a whole spiel on why marriage as an institution is heteronormative and outdated and then someone points out hes still married to junpei and light says what of it

anyways theres more to this but its split between an actual google doc and random screenshots of discord dms so that's all for now. if enough people like this post maybe i can bully remy into writing more actual stuff for this au

#ze #zero escape spoilers #vlr spoilers #?#cleb talky #quark and his three weed-smoking grandpas

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taptrial2 · 5 months

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was reading a bunch of personal accounts about people working with gen z and gen alpha in schools, and it's interesting how a lot of these kids are described as having "no respect for authority" and generally "disrespectful" because that's how i was described in middle school in 2013. i was one of the kids that got up and left class whenever i pleased, the kid who hit people when i got too overwhelmed or was antagonized. i didnt listen to any of my teachers and didnt do any of my schoolwork. for about two or three years while i was still in public school i was allowed to fuck around on my phone and draw all over my assignments all day until i got to go home. also around 2013, there were several kids who did, in fact, get into physical altercations. in the late 2000s multiple elementary school boys brought knives to school just to show off.

i do think (not know, i don't work in education) that the pandemic really accelerated a lot of behavioral issues in people still in school. god i have so many thoughts about this but i cant type fast enough before the thoughts drive away

anyway im glad i graduated in 2020. the isolation of kids and systemic conditions that leave parents always working and unable to care for their kids has done so much damage to their psyches. and i guess MY psyche in a way because i did online learning for the last handful of months of school, then languished for a year while the pandemic and my lack of reliable transport isolated me and broke my brain

like, there's so much lack of support for ANYONE at ANY LEVEL in the modern world which turns out to affect youths in sinister and sometimes unpredictable ways. violent racism at schools isnt new but it is being fostered and germinated in the modern day by bigoted parents whose brains have been turned to pudding and algorithm-driven radicalization pipelines that companies do nothing to stop because it makes them more ad revenue.

teachers aren't being paid enough. supplies aren't being paid for by schools. the upper eschelons of schools are providing little to no support to the people who actually teach while they hire their friends onto cushy admin jobs and line their pockets with money that teachers should be using to be able to live. parents are forced to work long hours because wages are stagnant. they are tired because work is grueling. their kids are alone and the parents are too tired when they ARE present to actually parent them. having involved parents is an opportunity reserved for the wealthy that many do not choose to take. gen z have watched the world become worse and worse around them (around US) since birth. huge companies point them to the answers and solutions to problems that make them the most money instead of the answers that are true. a lot of people are convinced that we are some of the last generations of human beings because of climate change. there's an air of hopelessness. why would anyone want to do schoolwork?

#exoticbutterstxt

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milesworld96 · 6 months

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Pt 2 of me freaking the fuck out

OMG SHINSUKE HAIIII❤️❤️❤️

Oh my Shinsuke😳

I desperately need him to murder a mf rn

OMG CANDICE PROMO

HAIHAIHAIHAIHAIAHIAHIAHIAHAIHAI GRILIE😍😍😍😍😍😍

OMG INDI SPOTTING WSG GIRLIEE💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚

Wsg Xia☺️☺️

XIA WTTFFFFF NOOOOOOOOOO

CANDICE NOOOOOOOOOO☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

XIA WHAT THE FUCK😭😭😭😭

Canidice girl NOO💔💔 I hope that this is a fake out and she didn’t actually get hurt

SAMIJEY SIGHTING

JEY NO DO NOT FUCKING TAGTEAM W CODY, STAY SINGLES RIGHT THE FUCK NOW I SWEAR

STOP MENTIONING RHEA

RHEA & JEY ISNNOT FUCKING HAPPENING

YALLS WILL NOT GET IT OVER

DREWWWWWWW

Bisexual lighting

Oh god I got chills, literal chills

THIS SHIT GOT MY SO HYPED

DREW

Fuck that pandemic dawg

THE KEEP MAKING THESE DOPE ASS PROMOS FOR SETHS OPPONENTS AND THEN THEY ALWAYS LOSE

PLEASE SETH TAKE THIS FUCKING L AND LET DREW WIN

I NEED IT PLEASE

OMG ZOEY PROMO, I AM SO EXCITED TO SEE HER FIGHT

IM ONLY LOOKING FLRWARD TO THE MATCH 4 RHEA ZOEY AND RAQUEL💪💪💪

LIKE THEY MY BADASS MFS

BASZLER IS OKAY BUT SHE AINT MY FAV

AND HONESTLY FUCK NIA

BROOOOO I HAVE SETHS GLASSES SAVED TO MY AMAZIN WISHLIST LMFAOO💀💀💀

Can’t wait to see Seth serve cunt on crown jewel again

Nah but Seth right tho, sorry Drew☹️💔

OMG JD HIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHI

DAM HE RAG DOLLING HIS ASS AROUND😭😭😭😭‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

This match is SERVING

GOD DAMN JD FUCKING LAUNCHED OVER😭😭😭 bros head bounced like a basketball

GIRL SETH RELLLAAAAXXXXXX😭😭😭😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

LMFAAAOOO THE JD SIGN, DONT DONHIM LIK E THAT HE JUST GOT A SQUARE HEAD😭😭🙏🙏‼️‼️‼️

DAMIEN

HAIHIAHIUIAHIAHAIAHAIHIAHIAHIAHAI

Damn why he get on JD like that when pinning😧😧

Nah but he fucking killed bro fr😭😭😭😢😢😢

Drew wins against Seth, and Damien fakes out on it and cashes in on Roman + Drew joins jd🥺🥺 (/j)

LMFAAAOOOOOOOO CHELSEA AND PIPER😭😭😭😭 NOT THE HART FOUNDATION

girl Natalya how r you gonna do the most bland ass costume yet? DO BETTER😤😤

OMG BECKY HAAI (I like her now again now that she lost☺️)

If Chelsea doesn’t win imma be pissed

LMAO THE PIE IMMEDIATELY💀💀💀💀

NAH SHE TRYNA DROWN CHELSEA😨😨

Seeing the camera crew on tv is so funny to me, because they just sitting against the Barricade

GIRL NIKKI 😭😭

THE CANDY CORN🤯🤯🤯 this is so hardcore, you’re so right Michael

WHOPPERS😍😍😍😍 (sorry I love them don’t judge me)

AAAAAA I WAS RIGHT CHELSEA WONNNNNNNNNNN

THEY ARE THE MOMENT

The punisher…Damien Priest….Frank Castle….I need someone to do Damien as Frank Castle or reverse bc WHAT why did I never think of this

HIIII SAMI😊😊😊😊🫶🫶🫶

Nah Damien fucking DIPPED

He ain’t want none of Sami’s bs😭😭

LMFAAOOO DAMIEN💀

Hire El Generico

YEAH THATS RIGHT ITS DAMIENS OLD MOVE

OMG JEYYYYYYY HII GIRL

Old man yaoi vs Sad cat eyes yaoi

NOOOOO WHY YOU GOTTA STOP THE MATCH JEY IT WAS SO GOOD

Yo wsg Cody

Cody should cut the hoodie holes lower yknow like like like appeal to your audience bro

And Jey WHAT HAPPENED TO UR CROPTOPS💔💔💔

THANK YOU 4 SAVING HIM JD

HELLUVA KICK OMFG

JD IS FUCKING DEAD

uh uh don’t like that

DIDNT EVEN BREAK THE TABLE

table strong asf

Sami hugging Cody to get him to brutalize Jd again

GIRL WHY ISNT THE TABLE BREAKING😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Cody fucking going crazy dawg

Sorry Cody I love your ass buut…. Gotta stick w my favorite old goth man

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thekidsarentalright · 1 year

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ok ok i’ve started to process the album but honestly cant stop yelling enough to write a coherent ask so here’s a whole bunch of stuff that has me going feral:

the title track. i think fob just released one of my fave songs ever, it went to my top 5 from them so fast!!! it reminds me of how much the pandemic fucked up for everyone… “thought we had it all” fr!! but like. the strings??? the choir at the end?! SUNSHINE OF MY LIFETIME REPRISE?!?! SHUT UP FOREVER!!!!! (also my bday is the “day after christmas past” so i nearly screamed when i heard that line lmaooooo… followed immediately by “my pain isn’t cool enough”?! literally almost fell over at that point. that felt like an accidental shoutout and then getting punched directly in the gut 😭)

flu game is absolutely my second fave!!! the “youuuu” in the chorus just hits my brain a certain way i’m obsessed!! also i relate to it a little too much 😭

what a time to be alive!!!!! soul punk vibes fr <3 also that bridge goes so hard i think screaming it live would fix me 😭 WHEN I SAID LEAVE ME ALONE THIS ISNT QUITE WHAT I MEANT!!!! GOT THE QUARANTINE BLUES BAD NEWS WHAT’S LEFT!!!!!

the strings in i am my own muse?!?! patrick is just flexing at this point (as he should) <3

my synesthesia went crazy with heaven iowa… it’s this beautiful deep blue/indigo/purple situation and i want to live in it <— totally normal thing to say abt a song

so good right now gave me whiplash right after heaven iowa but it’s so fun! i went from crying to dancing so fast lmao

in general i love space and this album delivered w the references!! i caved and bought the glow in the dark stars 😳

and the living even though it’s painful and scary, especially when it’s painful and scary vibes… fob always knows what we need to hear i swear!!! ur post abt the themes on this album is so so true <3

patrick dressed as a chicken playing the piano… i love him so much it’s stupid <3 also that music video nearly killed me. couldn’t see the screen super well when they were on fallon and didn’t process that the costume was like… a muscle suit for a solid minute. my brain literally shut down lmaooo 😭

ik there’s like… lyric parallels and stuff i got rlly excited abt but am totally forgetting rn! i’m sure it’ll come back when i listen to the album again (which i’m probably gonna go do rn) but… yeah!! so glad we get to be insane abt all this on here together lol <3 peace and love in fob world ☺️

- 🧋 anon

YESSSS the title track is INSANE with how good it is and how much is in it like. i swear every lyric hits Hard, the reprise absolutely breaks my heart it is so. Perfect. so so so valid for it being in your top 5 fob songs of all time already it is genuinely That Good!!! and made for you Clearly with that birthday shoutout!!! even with the gut punch after. every lyric feels like such a gut punch i swear kfgjdhfkjs

flu game is ALSO one of my top favs, i could not rank this album yet even if it would save my life kfjsdkfj but i know for Sure flu game is in like. top 5 territory. i'm obsessed w it for the same reasons fr it is. too relatable thanks pete (haha i said the thing!)

REAL i need them to perform what a time to be alive live SO bad literally just so i can scream that bridge i think that would fix me fr fr. also just love how dancey it is while having. incredibly depressing lyrics. vibe of all time fksjdhfks

patrick is flexing w his arranging skills all over this album but Esp in i am my own muse and i hope he keeps flexing forever bc it is. so good!!!!

OUGHHH heaven iowa being purpley blue it so pretty... to me it's like... idk a very warm song, orange/yellow/golden so. the opposite of you KFJDSK but still pretty i Also wanna live in it. we are So normal for that bff <3

they are literally sick for putting so good right now right after heaven, iowa it was Such an intense tone shift fsdkjfsh i Love so good right now tho it's slowly becoming one of my favs i think

i absolutely love how jam packed this album is w space references, i was anticipating it but Still am like. fuck yeah space fkjdshkfjs i'm still debating on getting the glow in the dark stars tbh... is u getting them a sign i should too... much to think about

but yeah the albums themes are SOOOO. like. i think what the world needed to hear right now, also what i needed to hear rn, what You needed to hear like. they always know!!!! it is just so cathartic to hear that things might not be okay or better but that you can still live and be fulfilled and have love Despite Despite Despite!!!!

and lastly fr i. didn't process it was a chestplate/muscle suit at first either so was like. ready to die over patrick looking like That lmao honestly i still am he pulls off that look way too well. also pulled off the chicken costume imo <3

#LOVED hearing ur thoughts on all this if u have more. processed ones KFJHDSK i would love to hear them too <3 #so fun to go insane over fob w u and everyone on here tho its the best <3 these last few days have been SOOO fun on here <3 #asks #🧋anon

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saintqueer · 2 years

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i wanted to put a call out to ADHD tumblr just in case anyone has had a similar experience to me and might have advice to offer:

i've been on and off stimulants for my adhd since i was diagnosed at 7 years old. ive been taking SSRIs for over 10 years now for generalized anxiety.

my adhd symptoms have morphed significantly in the last couple of years. things started getting significantly harder by the time i turned 27. idk if my typical coping skills werent working or if being less busy made it harder. but things have just gotten a hell of a lot harder. brain fog, task paralysis, executive dysfunction, time blindness, digital communication fails, emotional dysregulation, short-term memory loss, extreme boredom, inability to keep interest in new things like tv shows, etc.

i was off meds for a little over a year during the pandemic and then went back on adderall which had always been pretty helpful in the same way ritalin was in high school and college. anyways, ive gone back on stimulants and still take my SSRIs as i have since i was 18 but i just feel like everything is still way too hard. i feel all the same symptoms and i still have trouble functioning most days. i dont remember this being the case before. sometimes i feel like my meds are doing nothing which shouldn't be the case for stimulants.

anyways, i wanted to know if anyone has experienced stimulants just stopping working? has anyone had better luck switching to nonstimulants with adult adhd? its like i take the stimulants but i still cant get my brain to function. and higher dosages isnt really the thing here as i feel jittery with the current dose.

this is probably a long shot but if anyone has had some sort of breakthrough related to this in some way, id appreciate advice or to hear others stories! thanks so much for reading.

#now excuse me while i put a million tags so someone on adhd tumblr might see this #adhd and me #adhd things #adhd #actually adhd #adhd meds #adhd help #adhd medication #adhd feels #adhd symptoms #adhd stuff #adhd life #adhd advice #adhd adult #adult adhd #adhd tips #adhd tumblr #ok hopefully thats enough

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nosleepwriting · 1 year

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What WN means to me:

i watched it initially for Avatrice, ofc i did. one day during lockdown i randomly saw a crack vid of avatrice and decided to watch it. not even knowing if they end up together or if they kiss or if they become canon. i didnt watch the whole vid so i wont spoil everything, which was weird because ever since lexa, i dont watch shows without knowing that the sapphic couple would be together and happy.

did you know where i stopped? i stopped during the part where ava phased out of the wall, breathless and scared, and beatrice was there to catch her. maybe it was the way she looked, the way kristina's eyes shined as beatrice holding alba's ava in her hands that convinced me that yup these two are in love. or at least bea is. this isnt a crack ship. this is real.

so i watched s1. tbh, im one of the people who thought s1 was slow bec if im being rlly honest, i watched it for avatrice. but i wasnt expecting to love ava, that running on the beach scene loving life, alba's acting of laughing and crying and breathless under the stars with the sand below her and the ocean just in front, and watching THAT during the fucking pandemic ???? that saved me from a lot of dark thoughts swirling in my head. i wasnt expecting a family. a real found family that even when mary and lilith were fighting each other to death you can tell that there's love, there's history. there's sisterhood. i wasnt expecting that from a show with 'Warrior Nun' as a title. and not bec i thought it was silly but bec i thought it was one of those female-led show made for men.

long story short, i finished it. search tumblr for a bit for content, then twitter, then ao3, as one usually does and then nothing. i moved on, peacefully. even if that s1 cliffhanger was far from peaceful. bec i was sure there would be an s2 with that kind of ending. i went on with my life and continued to consume other media.

until october 2022. i didnt even knew they were filming s2. i saw the s2 trailer in yt randomly again. there they were. dancing. i was like how did these two go from fighting an angel?-jesus-like-incarnate in s1 to dancing casually in a bar?? i was scared at first, maybe this isnt the same show that i'll come back to bec lets be honest most s2 of a really good s1 most of a time is a let down. but then i saw the "your jealous" "that's absurd" part and i was like yup those two are in love and im going to watch this just so i can see how they do it.

for extra context (i know this is getting super long but i honestly dont care im doing this for me), im reviewing for the boards and getting invested in anything other than my studies would be really bad. i was catious with what media to consume because i need to focus on my studies. even so, i watched the final ep for context and carry the feeling before watching the first episode. the legendary fucking first episode. the hands behind teasing walk, the kiss cheek, the dance, the stare (i dont have to explain this, u know what im talking about) i replayed all of those moments 10 times bec WOW they weren't holding back.

then everything else. the little moments leading to the big ones were satisfying and so perfectly excuted that i cant even watch it with my girlfriend bec she gets mad that i keep repeating the scenes and slowing them down to take it all in. halfway through s2, i knew i was gonna watch it again. and i only really did that for 2 other shows (shera and the wilds s1, atla and tlok dont count bec i rewatch them periodically and not right after finishing) but u know what i didnt do to those other two that i did with warrior nun? i watched it a third time in a bigger screen just so i can see more. i watched in a 4th time with my girlfriend. i watched it a 5th time just so i can move on with my life and i watched it a 6th time because i missed them and i can't. i watched it a 7th time because i won't. and at this point i lost count at how much i rewatched the show. i would stream it during studying just so i could have them on screen and be inspired with finishing so i can watch them.

im just really heartbroken right now. with all this.

#warrior nun #avatrice #tired #words #rambling #really really fuck this life #i dont want the next #i wanna watch s1 and s2 again bec i miss them #but im done with netflix so #ill find a more non-legal way #i always do #fuck i wanna cry #but im beatrice-coded so what are feelings

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