#and then I went for all the commas)

[ourfag]

i think part of the resistance i’ve seen in response to the view of ed as an abuse victim—not just the view of izzy as someone who abused ed, but of ed as someone who was abused by him, as opposed to interpretations that pursue an image of Nuance and Complexity (unnecessarily, because their dynamic has heaps of both, but there seems to be a popular impulse to conflate complexity with shared culpability) by characterizing their relationship as being toxic/unhealthy in equal reciprocity, or as “mutually abusive” (oxymoron)—i definitely see the influence of racism there, but i think the racism is also working to amplify an adjacent issue where we tend to receive very specific cultural messaging about What An Abuse Victim Looks Like, and ed is excluded from a lot of that criteria.

he’s outspoken. he’s boisterous. he’s Very Cool and he Wears Leather. he’s physically bigger and browner than the person mistreating him. he spends the first season with a big grey beard, he’s covered in tattoos, he projects the image of A Man’s Man, to say nothing of his being a man in the first place. we see him get aggressive and we see him get angry (and sometimes we even see both at the same time). we see moments where he’s surly, prickly, insensitive, arrogant. his survival techniques and trauma responses incur collateral damage to other people, and in the second season this extends into affecting people we actually sympathize with. he’s extremely private about expressing fear. without examination, his professional relationship to izzy seems to position him as the one with the power slanted in his favor.

most damningly, we see him react multiple times to izzy’s abuse with physical violence. this is behavior that gets referenced all the time in the construction of narratives condemning subjects of physical abuse, let alone emotional abuse. which is why writing that intends for its audience to interpret a character as being unambiguously A Victim Of Abuse will often, for simplicity’s sake, avoid showing the character regularly engaging in anything of the kind.

and again, all of these departures from the image of The Model Victim are compounded by his being a man of color.

without any of the shorthand designed to point a big flashing arrow at his mistreatment, all we have left to work with are the words and actions we see from ed and izzy onscreen. who instigates conflict, and how does the other respond? how are they able or allowed to respond? how do we see them speak about each other to outside parties? does one go out of their way to control or isolate the other? what consequences does either party stand to face in saying “no” to the other? in acting against the other’s wishes? in trying to leave the relationship? when either of them attempts these things, how do we see the other respond?

i realize and appreciate what people are driving at when they garnish their analysis with disclaimers that they’re not saying ed’s just a poor innocent abuse victim, they’re not saying he’s a perfect angel who’s never done anything wrong, and that’s true, but these are points already contained implicitly in statements like “this show’s protagonists act like human people” and “ed’s emotional struggles are portrayed in a realistic and believable way.” my assumption is that these disclaimers are anticipatory responses to worst-faith interpretations of any discussion that attributes any victim status to ed whatsoever, so i definitely sympathize with their inclusion, but a (very small) part of me still worries about them potentially reflecting or reinforcing a belief that there is any way for someone to behave towards their abuser that imparts a responsibility for them to make right whatever damage the abuser receives, or for that matter any degree of ambiguity over their status as an abuse victim in the first place.

part of what i find so gratifying about ed as a character is that i don’t feel like the show’s writing is pressuring me to consider that ambiguity at all. which was a really nice thing for me to discover!

and tbh—did using ed to deconstruct The Model Victim even factor into the writers’ agenda?? ive got no clue. im guessing no? ??maybe?? probably not?? but if you create a main character whose central premise is that he feels trapped in a performance of exaggerated masculinity that he’s desperate to escape, and then you set him up with a character premised on embodying a tangible obstacle against that escape, then i guess that’s the natural shape your story’s gonna be inclined to take

#man thats a lot of words when i couldve just said ‘im not an ed apologist bc he has nothing to apologize for’ and yalld get the message #had to get it off my chest though #abuse tw #sorry about the verbosity Im Aware. Its An Ongoing Issue #this is actually after i went through and edited to make it as concise as possible #the good news is ive finally managed to limit myself to a mere half dozen commas per sentence #the bad news is all these words are mush in my brain now and i can barely tell if theyre actually saying anything #are any of these paragraphs related to one another? i dont fuckin know #i do know i agreed with them when i wrote them though #am i procrastinating in the tags because im nervous about posting this? maybe. shut up #im gonna go do todays wordle

[chipthekeeper]

Velcinta + holding hands -- ft. Hold My Hand by Isak Danielson / Start a Riot by BANNERS / Bloodsport '15 by Raleigh Ritchie

#got a twitchy eye about the comma placement on the last one but #what are ya gonna do #this is not what i meant to be working on tonight #but i went and listened to my playlist on the way home and noticed a pattern #(a pattern i carefully crafted and was not at all surprised to notice) #i'm just never going to stop thinking about either of those two moments okay #ever #velcinta #vel sartha #cinta kaz #andor #isak danielson #banners #raleigh ritchie #long post #my posts

[shirawords]

I figured out why none of the fanart of Coronabeth Tridentarius seems right to me, it's cuz she looks like my friend Audrey who sat two seats over from me in torts class my first semester of law school

Audrey is the second-most physically attractive person I've ever seen in my life (first place goes to my appropriately-named college friend Helen, who I know mostly from burlesque club) (it was a lot, guys) so I really understand where Gideon was coming from. Like if Audrey asked me to participate in an inadvisable sword fight against someone way more practiced than me I would totally do it

#tlt #the locked tomb #coronabeth tridentarius #@ obies did y'all see Helen perform at all? it would've been your senior year #relatedly (comma) two of my coworkers (girls a lil younger than me) followed me on insta yesterday #after I followed one of them so I could post her eclipse pic and credit her #and they were apparently both scrolling through my posts and texted each other at the same time last night #cuz they got to my college burlesque posts and went 'oh shit' #keep in mind these girls know me as the assistant county attorney #when you get down to brass tacks (comma) I am their lawyer #they are used to me going to court and answering really specific legal questions about federal land patents #I am currently first chairing a lawsuit that (comma) while technically against the county (comma) #is really against their boss #and they look at my insta and see what I looked like stripping on stage in college #it was hilarious tbh #I spam

[hermanunworthy]

herman how can u call that a real rejection when u only said how NORMAL feels and not how U feel about him and then IMMEDIATELY OFFER TO GO ON A DATE W HIM

#MAKE IT MAKE SENSE #bro went 'ur love is so fake and shallow. well mine is too TWO CAN PLAY AT THAT GAME' #'he was projecting he was projecting' i chant comma also projecting #why do these two just enable each other #if hermies crush on terri/scary stays a thing i hope normal goes 'yknow what fuck u figure it out on ur own im not doing this w u again' #hermie needs a wake up call he cant just do what he wants w normal all the time #i wanna see how he would react if normal just didnt play into his little games #oakworthy #hermie the unworthy #normal oak #dndads #dndads spoilers #dndads s2 spoilers #siren says

[demadogs]

just saw someone say theyre not gonna watch the trailer for s5 and just go in completely blind and god thats so insane i wish i had the will power to do that bc i know it would be so cool but theres no way in fucking hell id be able to hold back

#but ive always thought about the scene at the end of episode 3 that montage that reveals that max is cursed #and how fucking amazing of way they revealed that and i kinda wish i didnt watch the trailer and now that shed be cursed #know* #i think im gonna try to restrain from most shit leading up to it #bc i knew that max would be in a comma (but i didnt really believe it until i saw her bones snapping) and i knew chrissy would die #and i wanna know less going into it #but god help me i will watch the trailer the second it comes out are you kidding me #MAD respect for you tho #some of my favorite books ive ever read i didnt read the back at all i just judged the cover and went for it #i wish i could do that with shows #byler

[chambers003]

No I won’t let it sit silently in the tags. If ImpulseSV wins the life series (which he very much deserves to!), to fit with the motif of the Sun, the Stars, and the Moon, I believe he would be the Lover.

He loved. He was betrayed. He loved. He fell before he could succeed. He loved. He was loved, and he was destroyed.

He’s scorned, and yet he loves anyway. A clock, a token of the past. Shelter found deep underground. More than just echoes, too. He refused to kill his own, when it could’ve been so easy.

#LISTENNNNNNNNN #he loved the crastle. he went to bdubs to protect him. and he got a crossbow to the heart for it. #he loved the southlands and he loved the plan #he got an arrow to the eye before it could fully carry out #he loved bdubs and in their final moment bdubs accidentally killed him. it was pearl really but the death message doesnt lie. #my post #trafficblr #limited life #impulsesv #if we knew that bdubs could never win a life series then maybe he couldve been the clock #but the clock is bdubs. it has to be. #if it was the final ever season i’d be happy with Impulse #i forgot commas killed tags #Impulse the Clock #but we dont know that so we cant discount it #traffic!impulse <3 beloved #this is sort of.. trafficshipping huh. #like it’s not fully intended that way. #but we all saw double life right? like. we watched that with our eyeballs. #i’m not gonna tag it. yet. #someone POLITELY let me know if you want that changed #please.

[jackredfieldwasmyjacob]

#fito páez HOW DARE YOU #it would more or less translate to 'why did you ask me if i've missed you if in every song i write my love you're the accent' #i have to confess i've always thought the lyrics went 'si en cada canción que escribo corazón eres tú el acento' #without the commas #which would change it to 'if in every song i write 'heart' you're the accent' #like the accent in corazón #the tilde #anyways yeah #top 10 greatest lyrics of all time

[klonpa]

i ❤ having to whisper becaud my voice is gone. i love having to be a mime from fsr enough away becaus i simply cannot speak loud enough

#im being sarcastic for the most part but i habe been wanting to try communicating without words more #i almost went to work today and if i did i wouldve had to use gestures and facial expressions almost exclusively #was almost looking forward to that tbh . i love saying words as evidenced by #oops hit comma im not retyping that. as evidenced by all these damn tags #but speaking soemtimes sucks. many times id rather be quiet #mine

[mechahero]

//okay added these. its still kind of an empty room but these aren't so bad?

#//took a few hours of level grinding to get 40k diamonds and most of if not all of it went to this #//especially the desks but the little trinkets i got for it probably didnt help either #//i even went and added up the prices of everything i needed to make a decent room and holy shit #//all of the items together would cost 124250 diamonds #//theres a comma between 124 and 250 but its a LOT #//again a lot of the dorm items are so overpriced and i don't get why #//it sucks ngl #backup log {ooc}

[camelspit]

biting and clawing trying to write an essay rn

#i can write essays! but this teacher drives me insane #because ik no matter what i do its not going to work #not a single person this year has written an essay thats gotten in the 90s in her class #i have an 89 on one and thats it. thats the highest. #we do everything she fucking tells us to do and its not good enough #on my last essay she went over it. and marked all the stuff she didnt like. And i fucking fixed it. #and she was like 'lol no. 89' #and she has like a billion comma rules that she hasnt told us. so all of us lose points for commas every fucking time. #same shit with projects. #for our last project she told our team that we had her favorite project and she really really liked it #I even spent like $40 getting shit for it #And she gave us a fucking 82 #We went over each fucking requirement she wanted like 5 times and made sure we had everything #We did everything she FUCKING WANTED US TO #AND SHE DIDNT EXPLAIN THAT GRADE EVER?? #agh. i hate her so much. like girl go back to south dakota and leave us the fuck alone. #she doesnt even teach. she tells us boring ass stories about her life in south dakota and how she hates grammarly #like girl clearly you need grammarly because youve spelled shakespeare as shaeksepare twice now #she makes me hate english

[myrtaceaae]

Reading my old school reports is funny because

1. They can't decide if I'm "quiet and pensive" "highly sociable" or "needs to work at making friends with other children"

2. "Very good attention to detail, but needs to focus on actually completing things"

3. "Ready to master the use of commas" (consistent feedback from prep - yr 8)

#i wish my reports went beyond year 8. after that they're all just percentages #about me #but genuinely funny that grade prep: struggles with using commas. year 8: still struggling with commas... #the socialising one is because im very good at being horribly bullied 🥰🥰

[pallases]

being a humanities girlie in stem is constantly facing the horror of how bad your classmates are at writing

#personal #the calc chronicles #did a group project and one of my group members wrote up a paragraph for it and there were just. no sentence breaks. for like a solid 6-7 #lines. when there should have been like that many sentences #not even commas to separate them i went in to edit and it took me a hot second to figure out what she was even trying to say for some of it😭 #but she is also the one who figured out the solution to the problem that the paragraph was explaining so. can’t complain at least getting #to edit and make the document all clear and concise and pretty made me feel useful lmao #the engineering chronicles

[dashuisofanubis]

I found an aftermath fic for HoA s2 I started writing waay back in 2017 and I actually still enjoy it so I thought I'd share some of it, and I might revisit it when i rewatch s2

The gist of it was the mystery and the exhibition are wrapped up and done, Rufus and Senkhara have been banished never to be seen again, but there's still seven weeks left of term! Featuring exams, coming to terms with your kidnapping/sort of death/sort of murder, washing up and summer plans!

Some highlights from it include:

Eddie trying to convince Patricia to dance with him

The woes of washing up (there was an entire chapter plan consisting of fabian trying to get people to help him with chores)

Jerome having a funky good time

Joy having a funky good time

Vera's farewell

Then this was the last sentence written and I'm dying to know what I was going to write next 😅

So yeah, a look into the mind of someone who was doing their gsces and binging HoA to cope 😂

#i do remember this fic and writing little scenes from it is what got me through my gsces tbh #i was planning for it to be around 20 chapters to deal with exams and summer plans (and foreshadowing ninas exit) #i have a section i wrote on a postit that i was very proud of that went #'Eddie Miller; proclaimed bad boy and teen rebel; did not care one bit about exams; revision or results.' #'Edison Sweet on the other hand; son of the headteacher was desperate to at least attempt to make his father proud' #(but with commas instead of semicolons bc tumblr tags) #i would like to revisit this though bc i have a lot of thoughts about what they got up to after the s2 finale and how they healed #i cant believe its been 5 years #its reminded me of my ghost au that i started 4 years ago and i cant believe its been that long for that too #i might revisit that as well once ive finished seven sins #so that might be a while down the line! #house of anubis #ngl 16 year old me didnt have a great grasp on tenses though theyre all over the place #i say this like im better now XD #id like to think i am

[uniquezombiedestiny]

what. the FUCK is going on with my brain today 👁_👁

#im like 80-90% sure i had a manic. thing ig #and now i think im in a more depressive one #its noticeable but not like. impairing #really none of my disorders are tbh theyve always been chill somehow #i have no idea what i have yet or if i have anything but theres no fucking waaaaay this is the sleep deprivation from 1-2 days ago #<- actually 2 days ago (stayed up all night day 1 #[i forgot i cant use commas oops] and slept at night on day 2) #whats weird to me though is that the manic thing only lasted like a few hours #and i assume this part will too #idk of thats normal or of its supposed to be longer #if* #oh and a 2nd weird thing - did a tiny bit of research so far #it said some symptoms of bipolar 1 and that its usually longer and i just. suddenly felt like crying/really sad over it??????? #calmed down and just left google tho lol and went here #since ive told noone about it yet #so.... yeah. oh and a semi related thing i think i may have ocd too #<- i will never get 2 brownies instead of 1 knowing i cant eat it all again #<- felt like they had to eat the 2nd one even tho it felt terrible to since i was full #so yeah our brain is. weird #oh also. 5s. like everywhere #i sorta. did actions/took steps in 5s at one point #and when i specifically put times in the microwave i end them with 5 #<- since i do that. pretty often #....and i have to have 25 tags on this now #which is easy bc i have enough to say to make it work B) -yesod

[k-phoenix]

The human body is like a badly written program that has like 5 error messages which could mean 10000 things each

#The error messages are: #Tummy hurty :( #Head pain :c #Whoops too hot #S h i v e r (Skeleton ready to hatch?) #Conciousness noping out #That's it. #That's all we got. Good luck figuring out what's wrong. #(though to be fair my current error message is so weirdly specific and bonkers that it appears more like a glitch than an error message #It's Oh hey you hear that high pitched whirring/scraping noise? Yeah that's your eyeballs moving. Have fun with that. #Also you can't balance anymore and feel motion sickness when moving your head lol good luck figuring shit out) #I wish the body would work like programming where you get an error message that most often points to the exact line in the code where #Something went wrong along with additional information like There's a comma we didn't expect #Anyways #Vent #Personal #Also if anyone knows what the hearing your eyes move is about PLEASE tell me. PLEASE.

[phenakistoskope]

india actually has a robust and affordable healthcare system from its early socialist days, little hospitals with basic healthcare and an emergency room that'll take care of you for a fee of 5 rupees ($0.06) not counting generic medication which can reach a whopping 60 rupees ($0.70) or surgery, also carried out at reasonable rates. the trouble is, the private healthcare sector is advertised and made accessible, while these facilities are hidden away to render them unused and eventually cut from government subsidies.

#source: this is where i went after i sliced my foot open on glass and they stitched me up for 43 rupees #i keep going back for tetanus shots because i'm prone to scraping myself on all sorts of things #ask me about overusing commas