#and then forcing to find refuge from the dearly beloved places they called home--now rotting away. it's JUST terrible

[elvesofnoldor]

made the mistake of finishing reading this tolkien fic with the premise of “what if after fëanor dies he sticks around to see how things play out as a ghost instead of answering the call of mandos”. which is hardly even canon divergent cause this could have very well happened. it was basically re-telling of the events of the latter part of first age, but with a much greater emphasis on the war of wrath and sons of feanor--maedhros and maglor especially. 

i just didn’t expect the author to make maedhros’ death so horribly sad. like ofc i knew exactly what happened in canon, i came up with a more detailed narrative of what happened in my mind and i planned to make a comic out of it, yet i read what they came up with and i was still crying rivers of real tears sakdjflksa

#yolanda talks #not to be sad abt something fictional and also something almost nobody following me cares that much abt #but HEY #i wanna post some screenshots and make some Joaks but i have no jokes to make. and im just achingly sad for maedhros #i love how the author carefully plans out the war of wrath. which is something never written in detail abt in canon. i could never #map of beleriand is way more complicated than map of (rest of) middle earth. and map of middle earth is more complicated than thedas map #and they make the hopelessness and the bleakness of it all so...painfully real? even without a lot of detail descriptions of the landscapes? #it's like. wow it didnt hit me that these people (mostly elves) lived on this horrible apocalyptic landscape for a hundreds so years #after spending hundreds of years labouring to nurture it. only losing them all in a a decade. all happened within most of their life time #and then forcing to find refuge from the dearly beloved places they called home--now rotting away. it's JUST terrible #and then the oath. and what happened to maedhros and maglor. what they have done. it's all so terrible! it's just terrible! #tolkien used to write abt such painful and terrible tragedies. these ones from silmarillion are only published after his death #wish i care a bit more abt lotr and the hobbit. i still greatly enjoy re-reading lotr (for real. instead of skimming thru it like i did) #more so than watching the movie nowadays. but i wish my heart lies with characters from lotr and the hobbit more #but that would never happen. i care abt beleriand the most. and there weren't even ruins of it. it's gone beneath the waves #it's gone even in the fictional universe it was in. and the memories of it are eroded in thousands of years after #the passage of time can be so very cruel #i just wish that there is more detailed emotional reactions from the characters. the dialogues are great. very tolkien-like #but the characters can come off a bit too stale at times. and feanor didn't chime in and comment nearly enough as he should #his perspective is too omniscient. just something to justify emphasize on sons of feanor. #but i still love the fic. even tho it hurt me so. and it does REALLY make me wanna start off on the silmarillion re-telling i wanna write #in maglor's perspective. this time. #ah. which reminds me: no romantic ships too. which is something i oddly appreciate #there really isnt a ship in tolkien im super passionate abt. esp in the first age where everybody is all related #that being said i do wish the author has gone a bit more detail into fingon and maedhros' friendship. there is almost no dialogues between