#and then honestly cycling back to just kinda being :) abt that idealized version in ur head

[luobingmeis]

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#i’m trying to subtly post and i don’t trust tumblr read mores #least of all when i’m making a post on mobile #but consider this a subtle gender ramble bc uhhh #honestly i don’t feel like spamming a gc and uhhhhh irl is not happening rn #so i’m here!!! my personal diary for uh. some-amount-of-k people #(i’m joking idc if people read this just don’t reblog it) #but sometimes it all really feels like uh #finding something that feels good (like really good) #and then being unable to explain why it feels good it just does #and then lowkey panicking bc aren’t u supposed to be able to explain why something feels good?? but instead it just does???? #and then that :/ of ‘well who is gonna change how they perceive me anyway’ #and /then/ kinda just looking around irl like ‘hm do i wanna even bring this to light’ #and then honestly cycling back to just kinda being :) abt that idealized version in ur head #oh and then also super secretly shoving away that thought of ‘hm does this impact my sexuality’ bc idek #this is a whole lot of bullshit that may sound melodramatic?? but honest 2 god i just needed to ramble #like i’m not looking for validation or someone to solve my problems aksjdjsjdj #and tbh sometimes idek what’s going on so!! #yeah!!!!! #anyways sometimes it gives me a headache how many identity crises i have but also i feel like that’s not entirely. abnormal. #do/nt re/blog