#and then it hurt 24/7 for about a year

[mr-stottlemonk]

made a timeline for monk tv for the folks cause it makes no sense sometimes.

[more in the tags]

[update: stottlemeyer's timeline found here]

#tried my best #math really churned itself out here #fic writing resources ahoy #feel free to use <3 #monk 2002 #monk 2002 timeline #this only counts adrian's age #i got tired of plotting a fic and going “errr wait when does this happen and does this thing im mentioning fit with this period of time???” #esp now that im going crazy about pre-series monk ideas #monk wiki says stottlemeyer is 17 YEARS OLDER THAN MONK #im just??? wot??? #how can... that makes no sense. how can stottlemeyer be 81 and the head of security for some rich ass guy in mr. monk's last case? it dont #add up at all. ive always headcanoned that stottlemeyer is like 6-9 years older than monk #what were the writers thinking these ages are wacky #trudy is 4 years younger than monk too. #if we follow how she died when she was 34 #and theyd been married for 7 years... that makes her 27 but like. they met in uni. what age were they then??? #monk def had to be 23-24 when he met trudy. which makes her 20 :“) #its whack man. making sense of this makes my head hurt #anyway im here to stop all that suffering #here we go #A BETTER TIMELINE #ill update with stottlemeyer's own age timeline soon :>

[definitelynotnia]

im sorry i have to rant im so fucking pissed

my exams end on 19th and I have to get rid of some books and buy some books which are quite pricy online so I had planned on going to college street on 20th and selling my books and buying the new ones at a cheap price and i was frankly really excited about it because all I get is a one day break to relax bcz i have to start studying for entrances from 21st so all I have is 20th and i wanted to spend it at college street and then get some food and basically have like a solo date kind of thing.

and i was so so excited about it i told my boyfriend about it like 500 times bcz i kept forgetting i've already mentioned it and it was literally on my mind a lott so i kept bringing it up and ik it seems like not a big deal cz i can just sit at home and chill too but i literally do not get to go outside my house. like- the last time i went out was new years eve and after that the only time i've gone out is to school or to give my boards that is it. my mother has some weird like problem wiht me going out like even if i tell her that i just want to go to our terrace for 5 minutes just to get some fresh air she won't even allow that she'll be all suspicious and like sTaNd In ThE bAlCOnY aNd TaKe FrEsH aIr like she herself doesnt leave the house (and blames it on me and my brother ???? when have we ever stopped you bro, she said I HaVe To Be HeRe To KeEp An EyE like im 18 i dont need to be watched 24/7 stop blaming me for choices you put upon yourself) and i just feel so suffocated ALL THE TIME i feel so overstimulated and im so sick of rotting on my bed and i dont want to wait for some birthday party or friends meet up to be able to leave my goddamn house i just wanted to go and have a fun day and get me some books thats it.

anyway so initially the plan was that my mom would go along but something came up so she wanted to postpone it to 21st and i didn't want to bcz i'd already be missing 3 days bcz of my boyfriends birthday, holi and my brothers birthday (all of which are important and i dont want to miss which makes me the villain apparently bcz i should "adjust" and cancel my "parties" instead of trying to stick to my plan bcz that makes me too demanding and selfish apparently) so i suggested that ukw why dont u go do ur thing which came up and i'll go to college street by myself...which is when the solo date idea came which i had really wanted all along but didnt bring up bcz i knew she'd say no but now there's a valid reason for me to go alone so like, its a pretty easy fix i can just go alone but noooo. First of all,

I've been to college street multiple times before so its not like its an unknown area to me

im going by metro which is quite safe

im going when there is stark daylight and i will return home much much before it gets dark and im literally 18

she never lets me go anywhere alone, not even take ubers alone if i want to get back from somewhere my bf has to come drop me everytime and then go backwards to his house which is so so so stupid and i never get to go out alone unless accompanied by family or by a male friend, so obv when i said i'll go to college street alone she refused to let that happen and started screaming about how 'if its so important to go on 20th bcz u dont want to miss a day of studying then cancel ur 'parties' and study then' and i was like no its not about missing a day its just that there's a very easy and logical fix to this problem which is i go alone and its not inconveniencing anyone so why cant i just do that but she will not listen to that bcz im 'adamant' and 'everything has to be according to me' bcz i found a viable solution to the problem. so instead of letting me just go she was literally ready to pay much more money and buy the books online, like.....why cant i just go bro??? (and she keeps telling me im a waste of her money bcz i will amount to nothing in life and my education was a failed investment or wtv so like now why are u wasting more money??? im literally trying to save the money that u 'waste' on me so just let me ???)

anyway i called my dad last night and told him and he was super ok with the idea he said its a good idea that i go alone and that he would speak to her but then today when i asked her if dad spoke to her she said yes, we'll go on 20th and i was like .....we? so apparently she CANCELLED her previously immovable thing for which she wanted me to cancel my 'parties', she cancelled that and agreed to go with me on 20th just so that i dont get to go alone- like ???????????????? what is ur problemmmm

so obv i was super annoyed and i went on a whole ass rant about how i literally struggle to even cross roads bcz i dont know shit about basic travelling bcz all my life ive been in a car and its a running joke with all my guy friends that i 'cannot navigate' and 'dont know any places' and obv??? if im never allowed to go anywhere then how tf will i know the places- the only places i know is bcz recently i've been paying a lot of attention and asking my dad stuff about what roads to take to reach certain places and when i go out with my friends i kind of try and learn a bit but thats it i've only ever gone alone completely alone to two places which is my beauty parlour thats 5 minutes away from my house and one bazaar one time that was 2 bus stops away, thats it. thats my extent of public travelling alone. and now im supposed to go to a whole new STATE for college and i cant even call myself an auto without struggling. and like- is this not a basic life skill??? like ok yeah its not rocket science and i will probably figure it out even if i start later in life but why not now? most of my guy friends literally go everywhere alone, why not me? and my dad agreed with all of this but my mom was just like "you'll be in the hostel only, no need to go out of the campus" like ARE YOU FOR REAL????????? and she's like "if u want to learn skills learn how to cook" like ok yes i will also learn how to cook for sure but i wont have a fucking kitchen in the hostel but somehow cooking is an urgent skill i should learn but going places by myself is unimportant bcz i should just never? leave? the? hostel?

anyway after much screaming and shouting my dad gave up and just cut the call bcz he doesnt want to get into an argument with my mother and my mother was being all suspicious like why do u hAvE tO gO aLoNe AlL oF a SuDdEn even though i literally explained why i want to do this alone but she doesnt think thats valid. so she refuses to let me go and i asked her for one reason why i shouldnt cz usuallt its always "no u have exam what if smthn happens" but now i literally dont even have exam so whats ur excuse now? streets will always be unsafe forever so "what if smthn happens" is not a reason to never let me go out without a man so just gimme one reason and she couldnt give me a single reason she just said "i said no, thats it".

and now she's gone off about how im useless and blah blah and "high maintainance" bcz i want books and "everyone else (some pishi's son) just studies online" and so the whole option of college street is apparently now cancelled and she's trying to set up a whole ass kindle account (half the books i need arent even available as ebooks) just because i wanted to go by myself.

#in our house kids dont stay outside past 6:30pm'' but now all of a sudden its fine for my brother to play #till 10:30 at night #she literally stopped me permanently from going down in the evenings since i was in class 7-8 #this is why ive never had any friends outside of school bcz she wouldnt let me leave ths fucking house #and now that my brother is in class 7 #he's allowed to be out playing with his friends till 10 freaking 30 #he comes home an hour late sometimes...45 minutes and almost always at least 30 minutes late at NIGHT and she says nothing except like #one sentence #yeah im only the villain i only keep u locke #up in the house its all my fault #this is just so damn unfair #like literally insulting #im not a child what is her problem #what sort of fucking solution is 'never leave the hostel' like ok even if i do that what happens then??? after i graduate? #i'll be a 24 year old who doesnt know shit about going from one place to another without a man present] #and then this woman preaches how she 'always raises her son and daughter equally' like srsly shut the fuck up #my whole life i've been told abar late?'' #and for me bcz i would come home 5-10 minutes late nd i did it maybe once or twice she made me completely stop going down to play #5-10 minutes late from 6:30 wherein he comes an hour late from 9 fucking 30 #and this sounds so stupid bcz im an 18 year old now and i dont give a fuck abt how long i got to play but its just unfair dude #with me it was always smthn or the other either exams or she gets miraculously sick every time i want to go out to play #im not even kidding she did a whole “i have fever and ur going to leave me like this and go play?” on me one time bcz i was adamant abt goi #after months of not being able to go bcz of exam or smthn or the other #she did not have any fever it was fucking bullshit #and how am i supposed to help with ur imaginary fever anyway im literally 12 #its so fucking annoying man and then if i say anything at all she'll go on a tirade about how #like YOU DO THOUGH??????? im sorry ur feelings are hurt bcz i said you do smthn that u LITERALLY DO #istg not even 2 days ago she was having a fight with my dad abt how he should teach my brother to learn how to cycle so that he can go buy #groceries #i can cycle

[halogalopaghost]

I can really judge how bad of a day I'm having based on how hard it is to get tucked in bed. Sometimes just lifting my weighted blanket to get under it is a HERCULEAN effort. Im working on coming to terms with the fact that this is not my fault.

#all my life I've been surrounded by people who tell me to be more active #exercise more #try yoga #go to the gym #just to discover now that I have hypermobility which is causing chronic pain #(and weight-based exercise was making it worse) #and also along the way I've developed POTS #depression and ADHD have always made focusing difficult and now I have 24/7 brainfog #like. I couldn't have prevented this #I couldn't have prevented it! nothing I could have done. #literally as I'm typing rn the muscle in my forearm is burning just from the effort of moving my thumb #that's not from 'sedentary lifestyle' #that's something I do every damn day that sometimes hurts for no reason #exercise isn't going to help that #it's not. my. fault. #at the same time I feel like I'm getting buried under the weight of these conditions #adhd and depression and autism(?) and chronic fatigue that MIGHT be fibromyalgia? #and I think about my biological father. who was a drug and alcohol addict and died at forty years old #I didn't get all of these conditions from my mother #I wonder if he was just coping #anyway that's enough introspection for tonight

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

it's all fun and games until it's actually a game then it's more fun and games and also i will win it because i never lose a game

#guess who found out that one of their classes uses a program that just. gives me games to play. fun memory games. i love memory games #this shit rocks i love playing games 10/10 would recommend #games make me smarter btw i like got a fucking c in my economics class a couple years back and that hurt but i sucked ass at #economics but that doesn't matter bc that professor liked to let us play games with prop money and everything and when i tell you i fucking #ruined everyone in that class like i can tell you nothing about economics but i am damn good at games he even gave us a fake stock #market to play with and i beat everyone's ass by over 2 million dollars because i was on that shit 24/7 doing actual research on stocks #because i Do No Lose Ever <3 well. i got like the only c i've ever gotten in my life which sucks but i got to go wild and that was nice #so anyways i am having the time of my life i forgot how much i loved games and quizzes and tests these are things i can win i love winning

[v-arbellanaris]

i think the problem (?) is that the only kind of (fictional?) love that interests me is the kind of love that changes the world. the kind of love that derails the narrative, the kind of love that changes everything -- not necessarily by how special or unique the love is but by the very mundanity of it. the love that grows, not in spite of the barren lovelessness of Before, but out of it. i think that's why I'm always so invested in ships that are two people diametrically opposed to each other, or enemies-to-friends-to-lovers, or two people on separate sides of the morality issue coin, because i love it when love... not that it changes a person but it allows the person to Become. the space, the grace, to change. to love the monster, to love the unlovable and the intolerable, is to make it something other than a monster, than unlovable, than intolerable. i love it when being loved at your worst, ugliest, most horrible self is what makes you want to be someone worth loving. like is this ANYTHING to anyone or

#sorry im not here but im thinkin abt fic things and im really just! having some Emotions about things #idk? i see a lot of aspects of myself in villains. whoever you consider a villain. and i think there's a tendency in fandom #that I've noticed for like... years. where when these issues are portrayed in Good People it's always framed in an acceptable way #if they're angry it's never in a way that really hurts anyone - or everyone Just Knows they're going through shit #if they're depressed it's always the sad pathetic kind that makes people want to coddle you and not the kind that made me isolate and #unpleasant to be around #the urge/inclination towards violence to people who did wrong to me is a villainous act #trauma only ever affects Villains in a bad way. and their trauma MAKES them Bad and Evil people who should only ever just die to fix all #the damage they did to people. and idk man! don't you think that's kind of fucked up? don't you think that it's so fucked up to see yoursel #and the ugliness of your trauma and how it impacts you only ever represented by villains. and then the solution is ''they should just die'' #and in the rare moments those villains DO get redemption arcs or a second chance or whatever there's a large n frankly horrific portion #of fandom going i want this person dead or (other violent gruesome violating thing) because they're awful and horrible and their very #existence is unforgivable. i think they should die #and it's like i get it. i also get tired of having to see this message constantly blasted into my brain 24/7? #''why do you ship x with x--'' god i dont fucking know #maybe i want to believe we can get better. that people can change. #maybe i want to believe there's no end point where i have to weigh up the damage ive done to people vs the benefits ive brought and decide #i should die. maybe i want to believe that people are inherently good and want to do good and have the capacity for good!! #that we can do better if only someone believed we could!! #maybe i want to believe we're all worthy of love. of someone who will believe in us. who sees something good in us even when we're at our #worst & most unlovable. maybe i want to believe we can still BE loved after all that! idk leave me alone!! #tbd #i added the image bc its how im feelin rn

[cannivalisms]

VALLL please tell me more about cato & komik, i don't think i know about them yet!

jude my beloved how does this kindly april find you..

cato & komik are. essentially a tragedy in the making - supporting characters at the academy, childhood best friends with a shy helpless crush on each other. however, with cato coming from a wealthy family and pressure put on him to eventually marry and produce kids, and komik… not so much fitting the bill there (as another boy, who also manifested dangerous unpredictable magic in his early teens), these feelings were not quite ever acted on.

this is more due to cato’s internalized homophobia and panic over disappointing his parents than komik’s own reluctance, but komik has his own flaws in turn. like: doormatting all too easily for cato, under the (real but irrelevant here) excuse of not wanting to pressure him into anything. komik is a bit of a pushover in regards to cato specifically, so despite knowing he likes him and that cato likely does feels the same, he won’t act on it unless cato does first. also cause - well - cato doesn’t need the added stressor, you know? he’s already got so much up to live up to as his parents’ golden boy (despite komik’s parents also being quite wealthy he’s got an older sister re: producing heirs, and his family is more normal about homosexuality as is) … if he wants komik like that he can say so on his own terms… it’s okay… komik will wait for him and take what he can get, what cato wants to give.

meanwhile cato can barely acknowledge these feelings to himself, let alone even think about komik feeling the same, but he knows he’s selfishly, unusually desperate to keep komik close, to be there for him, to hold him, etc.

so what’s the socially acceptable form of that? a mage/core duo, of course ❗️

where sure, now their whole dynamic is reframed in terms of power and subjugation, and komik is half stripped of his previous status and pretty much seen in the eyes of the world as Lesser than cato and also sometimes gets hurt because of him, and cato can truly never act on any feelings for him now given how guilty he feels over said dehumanization (even if it was komik’s choice: see, being a smitten pushover) & hurting, but. hey. it’s a way for them to stay together, and it’s a way to excuse any affection between them, and it’s a way to also not disappoint his parents. so.

yeah the rituals to touch another man’s skin are intricate here. they are so fine with how everything is turning out

#‘pushover’ isn’t the right word for komik. its more like terminal passivity #he’s too go with the flow about stuff concerning cato too okay with waiting a hundred years for him if that’s what it takes #and even then if it goes nowhere at least he was at cato’s side right? it’s okay it’s fine (he genuinely believes this) #komik is highly aware of his own feelings and also of cato’s own - he just wants cato to come to conclusions himself he won’t add #pressure to his life and such #he’s probably actually pretty ok with signing his life away to cato essentially he just doesn’t love how horrified cato keeps looking about #it. meanwhile yeah cato is constantly repressing just nonstop 24/7 #hating himself for ‘doing’ this to komik hating that he gets komik hurt hating that he’s kind of happy with komik getting hurt because #at least he has an excuse to hold him #soooo awkward. anyway. this is all internal ofc. if you ask him cato will swear up and down that he loves this system and might even #convince himself about it too #good intentions #talking with the wind #komik #cato #< no last names yet. will edit when they have some #anyway thank you 4 this jude… love you etc

[candlebel]

I did what I could with what I had.

#Coping mechanisms #Coping #Survival #There were times I surrounded myself with ppl who didnt like me or meant very little to bc being lonely hurt that much #I still kind of regret it... I believe “better off lonely than with bad” is 100% true but therapy wasnt in my radar at the time #So as my therapist put it... I did what I could to survive. #Then I couldn't give other ppl the attention they expected me to give them #so I went “I don't care about anyone I'm a narcissist I own it” but in truth I had them in my mind 24/7 #For years what I thought was my “true nature” that I was ashamed of was a coping mechanism #“if you don't do what I would do that means you don't care” that's outright cruel #I showed as much interest as my situation allowed me to #If only you had waited... #If only you had given me more time... #If waiting hurts you so damn much then don't. Move on. #Self compassion

[tyrianlynch]

I’m in so much pain it’s honestly been hard to function at all these past few days but the people in my life can only hear that so many times before they’re tired of me so I’m shouting it into the void

#my legs hurt so much I’m limping everywhere #my arms hurt so much I can’t use my phone without a wrist rest #my back hurts so much that changing my position in bed or on the couch is a long and horrible process #I talked to my friend of 6 years yesterday and she said to me ‘I met someone whos in pain all the time’ #and I was like ‘haha is it me?’ and she said no that it was some guy from a class she’s taking #and he’s in pain all the time #and she asked if it was like that for me #and I love this friend of mine so much so dammit if that didn’t hurt #it’s a punch in the gut to realize that nobody really understands #I’ve been telling her about my pain for years pretty much since it started #and this whole time she hasn’t understood #so I explained that I’m in pain all of the time 24/7 and she just said ‘oh’ #chronic illness and disability is already so fucking isolating #and it’s really hard to have moments like that where I realize I’m completely alone in this #the only one who can really understand what I’m feeling is me #wah wah pity party etc etc #sorry #I’ll delete later I just needed to put this somewhere so it was no longer in my head

[sammygender]

things no one tells you abt growing up number one: you start to get inexplicably mad at your dad all the time

#have literally never really experienced this before this year i just accepted him as Like That #i would’ve always classed myself as a mommy issues kinda guy even though i don’t really think i have Parental Issues so much as i just have #Issues. but at some point you realise the reason you have more negative memories about your mother is because your mother was actually THERE #not even in a blaming him way. he just had to work a lot and late hours when i was a kid #but still at some point you see the way he whines about doing things your mom does 24/7 and how entitled and easily enraged he is #and it annoys me because holy shit i’m like that. did i get that from you? the way i can be so snappy and aggressive and entitled? #Augh. it boils down to the fact that my (mildly transphobic/gender crit) parents know i am transgender #and my mom - while still not really supporting it whatsoever - has been Nice about it (though ive made it very very easy for her to be) and #calls me a gender neutral shortened version of my dead name (though still misgenders me cause. sure ok. ugh) #my dad doesn’t even make an effort 90% of the time and it just makes me so fucking angry #you can be transphobic that’s fine my mom is but it doesn’t hurt you one fucking bit to change the way you address me a tiny bit #ur literally the ONLY person in my life still using my deadname #oliver talks

[carbon--14]

taking the “system host” out of my bio because i have no idea where the fuck those bitches went

#APPARENTLY BEING HAPPY CONSISTENTLY DOES THAT TO A MOTHERFUCKER. #nah fr ik they’re still around in some capacity bc i still get the Very Real flash of pure will annoyance every time i #throw clothes somewhere that is not the clothes hamper (even for good reason) #and i still get the warm comfort of hugo every once in a while when things are overwhelming and its nice #but there was a hot minute where i was dissociating 24/7 #cuz i never went outside and i was stressed all the time and my social life was imploding #and that only got WORSE post covid bc the fatigue was so bad i was sleeping more than i was awake and my head hurt all the fuckin time #so i was inside more with my fam arguing all the time and now i’m. free??? #like i live on my own now. i have a dorm and an apartment next year and i take care of myself and i can go outside again (yay medicine!) #life is good? i have ppl who i believe care about me outside of my own system now #so. progress? #ell shut up #sys #ALSO I STARTED T THAT HELPED LIKE. A LOT

[vypcr]

hi besties I’m tired </3

#negative tw #[ooc] #that's code for getting hit hard by the stressy depressy again #idk just getting hit hard by a bunch of shit today out of nowhere #like a lot has happened over the past two years and basically the only friends I have in actual proximity to me live two hours away #so I can't go see them all the time. plus everyone is busy so we're lucky if we get to hang out once a month. #my best friend moved across the country last year and didn't tell me about it in advance or say goodbye #and we didn't fall out or anything and I should be over it but damn. idk. #the fact that I was at his house literally the day before he left to bring him a birthday gift and he said nothing to me about it #that shit hurt in a way I can't really explain. he was basically like my brother we grew up together. and then poof he's gone. #and I guess I didn't matter enough to be told about it lol #then the few other friends I had I kinda just. stopped associating with. mainly because they wouldn't return the energy yknow? #I felt like a permanent third wheel. #so really I'm grateful for the friends I've made here online because sometimes y'all are really the only ones who #don't make me feel like I'm alone 24/7 #I mean that with every ounce of love in my body. y'all don't know how you've helped hold me together this year. #but that's where my anxiety is a bitch because it's always this back and forth of like #one minute I feel like I'm not doing enough to reach out to my friends. the next minute I feel like I'm annoying. #which is literally just my brain being a bully. it's been like this for me for as long as I can remember. #idk fam I just needed to vent a minute I hold this shit in too much. back to shitposting now. #ignore<3 do not perceive <3<3

[lemontoad-old]

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#going to vent here bc too heavy stuff to directly relay on my friends but im in the uk so i cant just get a therapist #anyway #i have become. so insanely depressed recently. bc my physical health has been declining and thats also taking a mental toll on me #i dont use depressed lightly. ive been officially diagnosed with clinical depression before and then it was gone for about a year #but boy oh boy its Back #and all my mental problems came back bc my physical health decided to just peace out. and now my mental and physical health are making- #each other worse #physically i have become so tired 24/7 that i just cant do anything other than work (because i need that to live) #and i dont know why! my body just stopped having energy! for months and months now. ive just been working and being in pain and sleeping #<- but also having insomnia so more like laying in bed and watching something to not die of boredom #i dont even work that much anymore. just my contracted hours. and i can see my coworkers handle it fine. they have time and energy to do- #things they want to do and not just live to work. but thats all im doing bc the moment im off the clock im taking my cane out to limp home- #and collapse in bed #i have a doctors appointment on thursday and if they tell me that its just from stress or smth im going to flip #bc no it fucking isnt!! theres no stress in my life other than the fact that my health is giving up #sure yeah my mental health is crap BECAUSE of the fatigue and the pain. not the other way around. so order some tests or i will kill #im already getting myself worked up bc ive been waiting a month and half just for this gp appointment #and i know theres a good chance they are going to wave it off with some stupid excuse instead of actually trying to find out whats wrong #if i dont get medical attention to solve this i might legit just off myself. im barely living as is. work is not living. i want to cry 24/7 #everything hurts so much

[panlyv]

hm

#self harm tw #against all odds i did not self harm today wow #i was this close but i didn't #simply bc it was a pain in the ass to patch up my right thigh so #it hurts like a bitch sometimes it makes me so annoyed gsdhajdkdj like yea yea self harm cutting open ur thigh is gonna hurt but can u stop? #my mood swings so much too im legit losing my fucking mind dude #i think i need to get back on meds fr. just dont know how to sit my mom down to tell her #like oh hey gotta a sec great so remember three years ago when i tried to kill myself? yeah its about to happen again #im actually gonna try to get my prescription back alone but if it doesn't work then ya ill have to tell her ugh #i need to book a psychiatrist bc idk if taking my old nortriptyline is gonna help or if i need something else #because my mind is literally kill yourself kill yourself kill yourself 24/7 👍👍👍 #and if i dont get the meds soon ill just be goneeeeeee #so ya #for some godforsaken reason maybe i dont wanna go #which is stupid bc ik the cycle is gonna keep repeating like it has for the past 10 fucking years #but. at least till only friends ends ig lmfaoooooo #anyway #going to try and sleep when im a side sleeper and both sides of my hips and legs are full of cuts 🫡 #dawn.txt

[stillthe1]

.

#third week of my migraine journey (17 years suffering): #i have an appointment with a migraine specialist today. my eyes hurt a lot and i’m dizzy 24/7. i really hope he can give me a solution. #and i really hope he doesn’t make sexist comments like the other neurologists. im tired. i need my meds. i wanna b able to go to the beach. #anyway. didn’t get era tickets but im weirdly not disappointed about it :/ it was like meh. okay. #ill answer the model max au asks soon !!! thank you all for the interest

[febuwhump]

FEBUWHUMP 2024 PROMPT LIST

this year's prompts were chosen through a suggestion poll (in which we recevied 2,281 prompts) and a subsequent vote, where over 1,000 people voted for their favourites. the top 29 make up the core prompts, and a mixture of the next most popular - and this blog's personal favourites - have become the alternates

i’m so excited to see what you all create with these prompts, and hope they’re inspiring enough to trigger a whole month’s worth of creativity for you! if you have any questions, please check out the blog's faq before sending an ask, or check out the previously asked questions on the blog!

please note: this year, notifying the blog of completionist status will happen through a google form that will be released closer to the end of febuwhump.

full write-up of prompts and rules under the cut:

FEBUWHUMP 2024 PROMPTS:

DAY 1: helpless

DAY 2: solitary confinement

DAY 3: "bite down on this"

DAY 4: obedience

DAY 5: rope burns

DAY 6: "you lied to me"

DAY 7: suffering in silence

DAY 8: "why won't it stop?"

DAY 9: bees

DAY 10: killing in self defence

DAY 11: time loop

DAY 12: semi-conscious

DAY 13: "you weren't supposed to get hurt"

DAY 14: blood-stained tiles

DAY 15: "who did this to you?"

DAY 16: came back wrong

DAY 17: hostage situation

DAY 18: too weak to move

DAY 19: "please don't"

DAY 20: truth serum

DAY 21: unresponsive

DAY 22: "you weren't meant to be there"

DAY 23: presumed dead

DAY 24: "i'm doing this because i care about you"

DAY 25: waterboarding

DAY 26: "help them"

DAY 27: left for dead

DAY 28: "no... not like this"

DAY 29: not allowed to die

ALTERNATE PROMPTS:

is there a specific day’s prompt you don’t want to fill? here are ten alternatives you can switch them out for!

ALT 1: human shield

ALT 2: "i love you"

ALT 3: found footage

ALT 4: human weapon

ALT 5: cpr

ALT 6: immortality

ALT 7: last words

ALT 8: killing game

ALT 9: lightning strike

ALT 10: last man standing

RULES:

SOFT RULES:

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[old-lorarri]

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─ summary . . . ❨ the daughter of lewis hamilton and a 3 time f1 world champion life is pretty great especially now that you have found a special someone ❩ ─ pairing . . . ❨ jude bellingham x fem! hamilton! redbull! f1 driver! reader ❩ ─ genre . . . ❨ social media file ❩ ─ author note . . . ❨ okay so I got this idea like a year ago and I have now finally gotten time to make it happen so enjoy! ❩

❨ taglist | masterlist ❩

yourinstagram . 4hrs ago

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yourinstagram

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yourinstagram winter break photodump pt. 5

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user my wife is a madrid...I don't know what to do with why self now

user stay away from my wifey mr. hey jude lookin ass

user MR BELLINGHAM WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE

user it couple is cookin ya'll

user love that mother is living her best life

user bae wake up Y/N posted a winter break photo dump

user OKAY BUT THAT LAST PIC EXCUSE ME?!?!?!

user madam who got you those flowers

user jude better be careful or papa hamilton gonna have his head if he even thinks about trying anything with his daughter

user why am I kinda living from the idea of these two being a couple

user are you dating jude?

user Y/N come home the kids miss you

user 4th wdc pending...

user so we all know who the guy in the last slide is right?

user love my soon to be parents

user the queen soft launching wasn't on my 2024 bingo card

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TRENTSKI

JUDITH

EXPLAIN YOUR SELF

JUDITH

huh?

RICE RICE BABY

did you really think you could sneek your way into Y/N Hamilton's ig dump and we wouldn't find out?

JUDITH

yes?

SANCHOOOO

SO YOU ADMIT IT

IT IS YOU

MEEK MEALS

glad you finally got together

I was getting sick and tired of you talking about her 24/7

JACK RABBIT

I'm surprised he even got the strength to talk to her

STAR BOY

right?

his brain normally turns to mush when ever her name is mentioned

proud of you bro

JUDITH

thx kyo

I always knew you were a real one

TRENTSKI

damn I see how it is then....

RICE RICE BABY

trents going dark lads

in his sad girl era

PHIL CHEESE STAKE

so wait who knows about you 2 being together?

SANCHOOOO

besides the entire intent after that photo dump?

MEEK MEALS

LMFAOOO

STAR BOY

tell lewis he's the goat

JUDITH

hahah funny

let us have our damatic soft launch

obvi you guys know

the only others that know are max, sebastian, and charles

I'll let lewis know when he figures out I'm dating his daughter this Saturday

JACK RABBIT

mate your fucked

TRENTSKI

DAMN

secret forbbiden romance

didn't know you were built like that jude

MEEK MEALS

what do you mean Lewis fucking Hamilton doesn't know you are dating HIS DAUGHTER

SANCHOOOO

pray for jude guys

these might be his last days with us

STAR BOY

he shall be missed

JACK RABBIT

dw jude I'll delete your search history of you stalking Y/N's ig and twitter

JUDITH

thanks guys...

wiss me luck

TRENTSKI

break a leg

RICE RICE BABY

don't die

MEEK MEALS

good luck

SANCHOOOO

you going to die

STAR BOY

what colour coffin do you want?

I'm thinking bright pink and rinestones

JACK RABBIT

do you need a get away driver?

PHIL CHEESE STAKE

before you die get me and ronnie a hat singed by Y/N and Lewis

JUDITH

I feel so loved rn

yourinstagram . 4hrs ago

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lewishamilton replied to your story!

he's a good lad

but if he hurt's you

winning a trohpy will be the last of his concern

okay dad I'll relay that message to him

good

also don't forget to use projection...

DAD OMG STOP

carlossainz55 replied to your story!

¡HALA MADRID!

maxverstappen1 replied to your story!

Christian is asking if Jude wants to come to the team dinner before the livery launch?

also if he hurts you I will run him over with our matching aston martins

landonorris replied to your story!

what does he smell like?

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