#and then suddenly hector has a very buzzed and definitely crying darryl on his hands and has no fucking idea how to handle it bc wtf????

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wait hold on. this whole quest to help find two different people's children has gotta be really tough on Darryl. And yet she's the one who pretty much does the most work on it (not because the others don't want to, it just happens that way). Does she ever get bitter about it? That the others get a happy ending, or at least closure, while she couldn't?

I think she's put enough distance between herself and what happened that she's not *technically* bitter, or at least not because other people are able to get closure but she didn't

Because even though she prefers to keep to herself, I don't think she would have been too proud to think that she can just shoulder all of this shit on her own and not seek professional help at some point, because she would. And not because she's given up, because as you mentioned in an earlier post/tags, she'd still keep her eyes and ears open long after the case has gone cold in the hopes that she can pick up something, see if she can at least figure out what happened even if she can't find her actual son

But in the midst of that, she'd also try and get some fucking therapy, or maybe she already was getting some, but then had to add the whole missing son debacle on top of what she was already getting help with

So she would have realized that she has some major issues bc of the way her parents raised her, and because of how much responsibility they shoved onto her and expected from her, and how she basically had to step up and take care of Derrick when she felt their parents fell short, and would want to take care of that so she doesn't accidentally project anything onto her son by accident or end up doing what her parents did

But then her son goes missing, and suddenly she has to also deal with that. And as you said, there's clearly foul play involved, and it becomes more apparent the longer he's gone and the more she looks at the situation. And maybe they do find proof of foul play, but there's never enough to actually find him, or even find out what happened. And god knows the guy she was seeing at the time wasn't exactly an emotionally in touch person, so even though they both legitimately cared about their son and wanted to find him, their ways of handling it and dealing with the situation more or less caused them to split up. And since she's already getting help with the childhood stuff, she figures she may as well get through the new stuff as well

As for the bitterness... she knows that it wasn't Derrick's fault that Kellogg abducted his kid, and it wasn't Butch's fault either. They both did what they could to physically fight him off, and they have the benefit of having at least a lead, if nothing else. If she's bitter at anyone, she's bitter at the system that decided to give up on her after only offering a half-assed search attempt. And maybe she might have been a little bitter at the original Nick Valentine when he eventually had to focus on other things, but at least he actually cared enough to help as much as he did

She doesn't really think there's any point in being bitter at people for getting something that she couldn't, not if they had no say in what happened. She helps them out because she doesn't want them to have to go through what she did. If she were bitter at anyone for getting something she wasn't able to, then she just wouldn't help them, simple as that

#ask #rockshortage #fallout #darryl murphey #and i mean even though she still got help for everything #it can still affect her #bc it didnt go away. she just learned how to deal with it #this is going to make you sad but #i mentioned earlier when we were talking about how comfortable hector would be with showing skin #that if she saw his scarring then she'd ask about it #and if they were drinking then she'd want to show off some of her own Battle Scars #but i was thinking that at some point hector would eventually see the scarring on her stomach #and i think thar her son would be the one thing she doesnt really talk about. like how butch doesnt talk about blair #so hector sees that and is like????? you have kids??????? #and if they've been drinking then she'd probably talk about her son #but at first it would be a ''lol yea my son i loved my son'' bc she's a little sauced and hasnt had a breakdown over it in years #and at first thinks she's fine and doesnt feel bad when she mentions it #but then as she keeps going it starts really getting to her again #n she's like ''man im sorry about this'' bc why???? is she???? getting emotional???? she thought she was over it???? #and then suddenly hector has a very buzzed and definitely crying darryl on his hands and has no fucking idea how to handle it bc wtf???? #sure he's probably cried in front of her at that point. maybe they're even together by then. but he thought she was basically invincible #and now this??????? #uh oh