#and then treated like a real person

[dunkledog]

//blood and severed spy head [no gore]

just in case :)

they're smitten in their own ways

whoops i haven't posted in a while

here, take some messy sketches [imagine im tossing them at you like bird seed and you are pigeons in a park]

#tf2 #team fortress 2 #medic tf2 #heavy tf2 #heavymedic #red oktoberfest #spy head tf2 #demoman tf2 #the spy head gets a cigarette as a treat #i think medic talks to him like his own personal therapist #spy head told him to get a real therapist and then got locked in the freezer for a week. never again

[noknowshame]

always a fun time when real life people are doomed by their own narratives. like guys you know it doesn’t have to be like this right? this isn’t a stageplay the foreshadowing isn’t real until you make it real

#what do roman senators rock stars and real pirates have in common #i would love to write a magical realism psychological horror movie about a up-and-coming celebrity #in which the premise is that the more and more you garner a parasocial following #(i.e. #the more and more you are treated like a character instead of a real person) #the more you become subject to the rules of fiction and thus narrative fate #and the protagonist slowly but surely realizes that by becoming famous they’ve sold away their own ontology #// #this happened to my buddy roger waters #god. i need to find that sexy quote from pete townshend about how the music industry is perpetuated on human sacrifice

[tovaicas]

not me thinking abt how estinien is consistently one of the most emotionally intelligent characters (at least when it comes to other people) we have yet this is constantly forgotten or minimized

#estinienposting #sorry sqenix found my critical weakness. men with long hair. #but anyways yeah. he’s consistently the first guy to think of and point out how others are feeling or how people’s actions might affect #other people. like he’s the first person to actually really give a shit abt throwing the wol against a primal. he treats alphi//naud #like the kid he is and not the tiny adult he acts like. he correctly puts together for//dola’s real issue and he doesn’t know her. #this man Cares:tm: he’s just very weirdly adjusted bc Ish//gard is a hellhole that failed him in this essay I will- #saint.txt

[harbingersecho]

she should've been problematic at the club

#rvb #red vs blue #south dakota #agent south dakota #rvb south #mine #*24 #art #moden au bouncer/roadie/security guard south? 👀 #instead of the ai thing she's pissed off at north bc he's all 'so when are you going to get a real job? i'm just worried you're #wasting your potential :( there's a community college near me i could talk to the teacher to let you in :)' treating her like a teenager #'you're not going to want to be throwing drunks out of bathrooms when you're forty south just be realistic' and south's just 🖕 die. #+ AU where south says fuck pfl and becomes a mercenary/bounty hunter? maybe teaming up with sharkface? she could end up at chorus too? #maybe she could get an actual ch arc and finally get out of her brothers shadow + grow as a person?? idk guyss....shes got potential

[astrangergivingthestrangewelcome]

#dracula daily #dracula #like viago does not do this to his victims #he treats them with courtesy and makes sure they have a good date before murdering them for food #because he's a good fucking person #literally not one of the wwdits vampires would be so dickish to their victims #I mean I'm not saying they wouldn't torture them #but like be a dick to a random victim who has been perfectly lovely and helped you will your real estate law questions??? #no

[uncanny-tranny]

The effort to turn every trans person into a political activist and place the burden of political leadership onto us is the same mindset as thinking trans lives are inherently political. Combating this means holding trans people to individual standards. If a trans person occupies political spaces, it should be because they have chosen to, not because people look at their transness and the "political implications" and it is all they can see

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #like i've seen it time and time again where a trans person vents about something and the backlash they recieve is for 'the optics' of it... #...it's a bad-faith reading of trans people expressing real emotions where we are taught that 'optics > well-being' #like if you think am individual trans person does as much harm as - say - a transphobic political leader then you have drank their kool-aid #you have fallen for the idea that transness is inherently other/political/unnatural and everybody else is the default/natural/neutral #THAT is why it's not cool to do that. it's not cool to treat trans people transphobicly #like i talk about politics a lot on here because there is intersection between my life and trans life and politics #but that's not my only 'use' and i'd hate for my political posts to be the only thing i'm good for #like as a trans person i am a human being even if you don't like to think that

[impossibledial]

twelve is made for clara the same way victorian clara was made for eleven if that makes sense

#i was thinking about this the other day #how there’s a clara echo for every doctor - even future ones #clara’s echoes are also their own people and are not just extensions of clara #similar to the doctor’s regenerations #i’ve also always preferred eleven with victorian clara compared to the real clara #most likely because of the whole treating her more like a mystery than a person and the fact that when he looks at her he sees the clara he #lost. #i should start tagging these nonsensical ramblings of mine… #belle’s ramblings™️ #i’m not saying this is canon or anything this is just how i’ve begun to interpret it. #twelveclara #elevenclara #doctorclara #whouffle #whouffaldi #clara oswald #clara oswin oswald #twelfth doctor #eleventh doctor #doctor who meta #?

[urlocalwhumper]

spy whumpee is discovered, and the enraged and betrayed people they were spying on take all their anger out on them, beating them bloody until they're practically holding onto life by a thread, then tossing them in a cell and leaving them for interrogation, if they don't die from their injuries first.

whumpee's squad back home begins to get concerned after whumpee doesn't give them their daily update. they send whumpee a message of their own... and get nothing back.

concern turning to genuine worry and fear for their friend, leader sends caretaker and two other teammates to go find whumpee, and bring them back if needed.

when whumpee wakes up again, they're laying in a military hospital. they feel like they've been run over by a semi-truck, but they turn their head to see their hand intertwined with caretaker's, who had fallen asleep in a chair at their side, and the deepest relief they've ever felt washes over them as they realize they're safe.

#whump #whump prompts #military whump #soldier whump #mine #this one feels a little lacking but eh #i feel like w/ spy whumpees it's always like #the people they're spying FOR treat them like shit and they end up defecting to the other side for real #OR neither side treats them like a person and it's just misery all around #and i don't mind either of those #but i wanted to do a spy whumpee who's team really cares about them and will rush in to bring them home at the slightest hint of danger

[unganseylike]

trc depicts a disturbing alternate reality in which a middle child is the favorite

#and in greywaren we learn its only bc they feared him. realistic #the real favorite was the youngest child as it should be #personally in terms of favortism #i would say my parents treated us equally but they probably like hanging out w me best bc im more similar to my parents and more cooperativ

[cas-poisoning]

The way people write John in fic bothers me so much sometimes. Not to judge other people’s writing specifically, just the general fanon characterization of John Winchester. Yes he’s bad a father. Horrible. So much to unpack there. Yet I find it so disappointing when I go to read a fic and he’s like. Cartoonishly villainous. Excluding the fans that actually like John (which is even more crazy), it feels like everyone treats him as like this big bad one dimensional monster which imo is a disservice to the complex relationship Sam and Dean have with them. It’s also a symptom of a broader pattern in media, or even real world events. It’s so much easier to flatly paint anyone bad as inhuman, one dimensional, and just plain evil. Monstrous. But the reality is, every horrible person is still a person. Humans are capable of the evil we do, not monsters.

So when it comes to John, like yes, he is deeply deeply flawed. He really hurt his kids. But often when people write him, it feels like he makes all of his terrible decisions for the sake of being mean and terrible and abusive, which undermines the dynamic because the reality is people can be abusive or neglectful or toxic without being a complete monster 100% of time. It would almost be easier for Sam and Dean if John had actually been like that. But he was their father, who did what he thought was best, and loved them even if he didn’t show it. They have fond memories with him. He’s their father. Which is what makes it so hard for them to actually unpack the trauma they have, because it is so so difficult to realize a person you love is actually actively hurting you. Harder than realizing a villain in your life is just being a villain.

#idk just felt like rambling tonight lol. whenever I read fic with John it’s always like him being as awful as possible #even when it doesn’t align with any character motivations #spn #supernatural #this is a reflection of how we treat morality in media too imo #like there has to be a good guy and a bad guy that is just bad. #and then people apply it to real life. like oh obviously that terrible person is just a monster #but no!!! the people that are kind to you. the people that love you. the people you love. are capable of doing bad things. #and we blind ourselves to realizing when people are harmful by dehumanizing these people because then it be aimed harder to accept #when someone that seems good is actually not

[jahiera]

Please,,,, please more rambles about astarion and him healing and his slowly changing relationship with (-tav-) Sex and intimacy and choice and-

LISTEN BUDDY...

Okay gonna talk about the Grave Scene. this scene truly lives in my head rent free. I've been rewatching it a few times and every way it plays out is so touching. Especially the way he.. hmm... expresses himself here? There's such earnestness to him that frankly is unimaginable to the person we met in act 1. He really went from being both so sly & yet obviously lying ("[you trusted me...] an objectively stupid thing to do.") to someone who admits and lists the way Tav makes him... feel.... SAFE? and held? and I understand why it's not something a lot of people focus on but I actually am so heart-touched by how complex and intricate his journey to reclaiming sex and desire is at the end of this conversation. None of it is gratuitous. None of it is for show. The blending of the nonsexual intimacy, and openness (the grabbing of the hands, the showing of the grave, the raw admittance of so much vulnerable material he gives to Tav; all things he would never have even CONCEIVED of offering up in even act 2.)

("I've been dead in the ground for long enough. It's time to try living again." ... "With everything that life has to offer.")

It's an extremely nuanced and thoughtful approach to an SA survivor rediscovering & reclaiming what they want to make of their desires, their sexuality, in the aftermath of what was done to their bodies without their consent. It's so thoughtful & beautiful imo. Finally here at his grave, he tells Tav that they're someone he feels safe & accepted with, & he can experience intimacy on both sides with someone who has put forth the effort, the time, the willingness to learn and wait and watch and care for his own desires in a manner no one else EVER has.

("I feel safe with you. Seen. And whatever the future holds for me, I don't want to lose that.")

It REALLY... gets me in the heart here. It doesn't avoid the difficulties of sexuality in the aftermath of abuse, and it ultimately shows one individual's journey toward reclamation and reconciliation with autonomy on their own terms. That's so vital here, that he reaches out, chooses to make the step forward, HIS choice. There's no lingering gratuitously on the trauma, if that makes sense? the descriptions and vulnerability are raw; Tav is grounding person here, Tav gives him room to speak. The true balance of intimacy in verbalizing his feelings, intimacy in being close physically with Tav, intimacy in discerning for himself what he desires, intimacy in accepting touch, contact, affection, togetherness. It's all so... [BITES INTO FIST SCREAMING]. And the ending. Where he and Tav get to set off on another adventure. Get to explore who they are truly now, with each other, without any higher powers looming over and putting a yoke around their necks. I'm personally partial to the "finding a way for you to be in the sun," ending myself but all of them are just ... so delightful. He really SHINES in a way that exceeded my expectations so completely in act 3. he went from totally closed off and locked away and unaware of how to navigate his own personal relationships, no idea what a "relationship," even was, no idea how to express boundary or unravel his complicated ideas and feelings around his body, what it was forced to do for Cazador, to:

("For nearly two centuries I stalked the streets like a ghost while the person I was lay here, dead and buried. Now I need to figure out who I am. What I want.")

also laying a flower on his grave and all he says is "cute." but there's such a minor moment of tenderness there. I weep I wept I will weep.

#I do get why I've seen the interpretation that he's totally sexless after it all & far be it for me to stop people from #interpreting it that way; interpretation and all that; but I personally really love & appreciate the narrative's conclusion here #in which sex is treated as thoughtfully as it can be; real and tangible and /yes/ an avenue of true togetherness beyond #like. getting off. that's not what it's about at all. (and the way this contrasts his post-ritual ending with all the SHOW...) #there's so much genuine intimacy & beauty here both nonsexually & at the end when it's reclaimed like whaahhaahahhahhhhh #it's hardly nonexistent in media for sexuality and SA to be something explored thoughtfully but I admittedly HAVE NOT #seen it explored this thoughtfully in a major RPG video game before. not to this level and not in this way. #SA survivors re-finding bodily autonomy ohhh boy I have. feelings. #sa tw #sa mention #abuse tw #bg3 meta #bg3 spoilers

[nbnaruto]

Personal headcanons for the older Grayson bro Danny au:

whenever Dick comes over Danny threatens all the ghosts to stay in the zone on pain of second death

Red Huntress deals with any rampaging nonsentient ghosts while Dick is in town, he thinks she's cool as fuck but that feeling is diminished when he sees her and his brother's weird fucking flirting (for whatever reason Dick doesn't tell B about the ghosts or he does but B doesnt believe him, you decide)

Dick has very minor ectocontamination from being around Amity for so long, it's basically non-existent but now he has slightly longer canines (baby fangs!), an eyeshine, and cold ass hands (nothing to the extent of the Fenton kids who are constantly extremely off-putting to anyone who isn't from amity park)

Bruce: Did you have fun staying with your older brother this weekend?

Dick, who is usually an utter troll: Yeah, hunting down the reanimated food was kinda weird but I think that's just how the Fentons bond

Bruce: that's nice, Dick

Dick visits whenever he needs a break, Danny heads to Gotham/Blud to hang out when he misses his lil bro. They video call whenever possible and Dick is added to the fenton kids groupchat

Early on Danny phased through into the mansion basement out of curiosity and distrust of billionaires, he doesn't know why he's surprised (guess he will just have to ask Tucker to have his phone rigged to notify him of any Robin related vigilante activity that hits the news)

Amity park is pretty cut off from the outside world, no one there recognizes him as Richie Grayson and 90% of the population think batman is a hoax or aren't even aware he's a thing, whenever he visits he's just seen as Fenton's little brother.

I love yj Dick's creepy ass laugh so I'm keeping it and guess what? It's genetic. 3 goosebump-raising cackles coming right up

Dick teaches Danny and Ellie trapeze, Danny is kinda shit at it but it's fun bonding time anyway

Ellie has absolutely convinced Dick to set fire to a Valdco warehouse with her

Danny and Ellie have an ongoing competition trying to convince Dick that "Space/The ocean is coolest!!", they get into fist fights over it. Dick thinks it's funny so he will never pick a side (they're fun fights not I'm mad at u fights, it's cool)

Dick is the goth one, I will not elaborate

#dp x dc #danny phantom #this au is running circles in my head #unrelated headcanons: #jason is only a bit more ectocontaminated than dick since its not like the lazarus pit brought him back to life #it just healed him #Red huntress knows about danny being phantom #also red huntress is called red hunter in my head cuz the suit is much more androgenous and she wears a voice modulator #maybe crimson hunter? there are way too many reds #GRAY GHOST REAL #im a gray ghost truther 1st and person second #not related at all but i wanted ppl to know #i have more but i cant think of them rn so this is all #oh wait maybe Red Hunter/Huntress is part of justice league dark #as a treat for me personally #red hunter sounds kinda lame doesnt have the same finesse as huntress but whatever #too bad huntsman is already taken in dc #older grayson bro au #mine

[gxlden-angels]

Bro I hate fundamentalists and culturally-fundie parents they'll say shit like "spare the rod spoil the child am I right haha yea my parents used to have to beat my ass with a switch almost everyday but I sure did learn my lesson" but like??? no you didn't??? you were hit multiple times for something you very obviously did not, in fact, learn

Like studies about how harmful even lightly spanking children is aside, you're literally contradicting yourself?? Some even admitted they got worse as they got older cause they wanted to see how far they could push their parents before they got punished

And studies not aside, you're gonna get child raising advice from the same book that tells you to stone your wife if her hymen doesn't break on your wedding night instead of the decades of research we have now?? Just say you're a bad parent and move on my guy. Skill issue

#bro I had a coworker go 'unpopular opinion I think some kids really do need beatings' and I'm like???? #unprompted???? what's going on there???? #well anyways I ended up going 'yea so I plan on specializing in play therapy with autistic children so I've been learning about talking #to children and the ways their parents and environment affects them' #and they're like hmmm but beating this kid with a stick after they broke something or I upset them to the point of yelling is good actually #had a boss say it taught him and his kids respect cause they were hard-headed #and I'm like?? that's fear not respect! they fear punishment! they do not act out of respect for you! #he's a conservative christian black man tho so he's like 'But Authority!' like bro I don't even respect you what are you on about #'You don't respect police and their authority?' Nope! I fear them! I do not respect cops and every cop/cop-adjacent person I personally know #has reinforced that for me #'We'll agree to disagree' Cool! Doesn't mean you're not wrong! I could believe trees aren't real but that is in fact incorrect #then he pulled out the bible verse and I was like ah okay I forgot you like 'here's how to treat slaves' book you're so right bestie #I'm totally wrong now and so sorry for doubting you and your 2000+ year old book I don't believe in <3 #They'd go 'well I turned out fine!' then say something that directly contradicts that #anyways I need christians to get their grubby little hands off the current state of Child Protection and Rights in the U.S. #So we can actually start working on helping kids without the force of christian hands suffocating them #cause homeschooling and child raising by evangelicals are so fucked up bro I'm tired of this shit #I'd only stay in my current state to help children get out of that cycle since I'm in the bible belt #ex christian #religious trauma #child abuse tw

[inkskinned]

i've been in pretty much constant pain for the past 4 months. i have a slipped disc. the mri this weekend finally confirmed what i'd already suspected. mostly, i just put up with it.

i've been in a pretty bad mental space since winter began. my brain is leaking out from between my ears. i just don't care enough to listen to the rabid wet whispering of hope. i'm mostly just bored of being here, the swaddled joyless apathy.

the back pain ebbs and flows, but it's there, so i take care of it. i do my physical therapy. i get in with a specialist. i'm lucky - there's no immediate need for surgery. it's bad, but it could be worse. when i talk about how i did it (it was a very bad sneeze), i usually start laughing. it's funny! i am never comfortable, but hey. i'm young. i'll bounce back, or so they keep saying.

i just found out it's not normal to wake up every night with a category-five panic attack. i'm lucky if i am still able to remember how to spell my name right. i spend my days in a weird blank haze, exhausted, desperate for respite - only to be unable to rest during the night. i say with a laugh - i really hate it when my mental illnesses start working together. i mean, sure. unionize. it's fine. i have lost all sense of myself. there's nowhere that's actually warm in my mind.

i feel bad how often i complain about my back. my friends immediately shush my apology. dude, you slipped a disc. continue complaining.

as a kid, i think i only really admitted to the bad things... twice. for some reason, when he didn't just dismiss it - it made my dad angry. he slammed a door at me. you're fucking ungrateful. what do you have to be sad for?

what an odd delight: the slipped disc gave me the oddest wave of relief. i'm allowed to actually hurt about this thing.

i have chronic conditions which aren't "real" things. i could write a novel on the weird ways people respond to my POTS & the rest of my fun physical acronyms. i am kind of ashamed to admit - i like the way it feels to be able to say well, because of a slipped disc. a slipped disc is a real thing. a slipped disc is serious and painful. there's diagrams and infographics about slipped discs. upon my diagnosis, they immediately offered me narcotics.

i haven't been able to get up out of bed for more than a few hours. i do less and less and less and less. i have started to sit down in the shower. sighing my way from deadline to deadline. this again. in one day and out the other. people tell me i don't really need my meds. i have run out of times saying i have depression, it's become almost transparent. it's so bad my therapist suggested meeting more than once a week, but i don't want to worry her, so i never finish setting up a second meeting. every creative spark in my soul has been entirely ravaged - but that's just capitalism, baby. i don't even take the day off of work. i just show up and do a bad job and get yelled at for it.

it's not real, after all. the pain is just imagined.

#spilled ink #warm up #is this clear? #i have chronic pain & illnesses which i will not be discussing on this blog #and i will say that the way i'm treated about those is often just as bad #but since i don't have the room to give it justice on this post #it's ... about that weird sensation of... #''oh this is a real thing that actually hurts people'' #when u have spent ur life in pain and being told that pain isn't real #feeling like you are '''allowed''' to finally ACTUALLY feel pain #that sense -- oh thank god it's actually bad #idk maybe im a bad person #but sometimes i do like to write about. the actual symptoms of mental illness #and sometimes the Illnesses Do Make Me Think Bad Thoughts #so if this is weird just tell me i'll bring it up w/my therapist ig

[bugeyedfreaks]

I have acquired the official story about the OTP of OTPs and you can read it HERE! 😆 The book is honestly very wholesome and cute, for some reason they call Junior "Tiny," and the story is filled with iconic sisterly sass and teasing. It's adorable, I love it.

Also...

get urself a man with one brain cell that only thinks about u 😩

#powerpuff girls #ppg #the amoeba boys #bubbles #for real though like... can you imagine just being bossed around and treated like garbage and then like #someone calls you a PERSON #i feel for junior wow he just got shown basic decency UGH... this sweet small blob... 🥹 #also inb4 ''why is an amoeba falling in love with bubbles CANCEL THIS SHOW'' LOOK it's just a goofy story for kids don't overthink it lol

[lesbians4yoohyeon]

THIS GIF AHHHHHHHH PLEASE THEY'RE SO CUTE :( MAX LAYING HER LEGS ON EL'S WHEN THEY WERE SLEEPING + THEM FACING EACH OTHER :( PLEASE I LOVE THEM SO BAD THEY'RE SO PRECIOUS AND CUTE :(

#stranger things #elmax #max mayfield #el hopper #this scene was so cute :( #my babies #max treating el like a normal girl okay i'm breaking down y'all 😃😃😃 #actually convinced at this point that max is the only person to ever treat el normally #AGAIN that one post that said max is the only person to meet the real el and vice versa... #yea. thinking very hard about them and CRYING #i love them :( #they make me so sad but so happy #more happy normal domestic regular elmax moments pls <3 #they do NOT need to be fighting monsters saving the world being tortured and abused repeatedly and dying all the time thank you <3 #the way max doesn't care that el has powers or was raised in a lab... she just wants to be her friend and take care of her :( #im broken. they broke me #elmaxisms