#and then tries again a week later

[zeb-z]

“Red team was so selfish looking past the cursed team like that” listen man they were thinking about it often, and had evidence they were cursed too. They were convinced they were cursed too. Bad (with Pierre’s help I’ll be honest) singlehandedly destroyed any sort of civil relations and good faith between the two teams and this shot Blue in the foot when they tried to make the case about them being cursed last minute, about trying to rig it in the cursed teams favor.

There was never a cursed team in the first place, it was all a tactic to build paranoia and that feeling of betrayal and to get them to tear eachother a part. And it worked super well! At the end, neither would listen to the other about their evidence, not with an honest open ear, not with the willingness to think the other team could be cursed. It’s not a case of ‘Red just refused to listen because they wanted to win more than they cared’ they thought they were cursed too - if they were selfish, then so were Blue in the same way.

Every time Red had tried to talk first early on, it was met with extreme violence - and with Bad consistently proving he’ll play dirty to win, they didn’t trust Blue enough to listen to them in the later game. Maybe they should have listened then. Maybe Blue have listened earlier. The game worked as intended to set them against eachother.

#link is to another post I made back when they were debating about the cursed teams in purgatory and why red couldn’t trust blue and blue #couldn’t believe red. they were both stuck #and bless Tubbo he tried. he did try. but he was just as convinced he was right as Phil at the end. it was about convincing one another #more than it was about coming together and piecing together the evidence. yknow what I mean? they all cared about it but because of tension #and they also could not trust blue. which sucks because that’s hardly Tubbo’s fault but yknow #I dunno. it’s not simple like that. it’s not a case of red blowing it off being selfish not caring. they also thought they were cursed #AGAIN I’ll say it again bad burning bridges fucked a lot of them over for when diplomacy had to win because there could not be benefit of #the doubt or good faith or any sort of trust #it’s not just cut and dry red wanted to win more or blue wanted to win more. it was complicated and had way more factors #red thought they were cursed too!! they had solid evidence for this too!! #and like. again it’s a case of both parties kinda suck purgatory sucked it was always going to be like that because the game worked as #intended #idk. blue should have listened to red early on. red should have listened to blue later on. they were never going to do that on either side #idk from Tina’s pov it’s understandable why she said what she said. but knowing the others pov and what actually went down that’s not what #happened at all yknow? #they’re all gonna be feeling the effects of ‘we killed and betrayed eachother for two weeks’ for a while to come #mcyt #qsmp #qsmp purgatory #z speaks

[thatruerealmwalker]

So, Smiling Critters ay?

So I was scrolling, looking at art, and on occasion saw this Being:

Dogday, The Leader of this lovely band of misfits. I Looked at them, looked at how people where portraying the character, and had one simple thought:

"I Shall Grant Them VIOLENCE"

Look, Dogday being afraid and weak and helpless is nice and all, and makes sense in the games, he simply has a different energy from what we have from the cartoon. Bit of headcanon here, but they seem like the kind of Critter to grab the nearest weapon adjacent and start swinging when villainy happens and he's not in a good mood. He's perfectly able to act the same cheery way as he usually does, it's just his tolerance for stuff is negative.

Also PIPE

Villain of the Week: Destroys Crafty's newest art project and threatens her because they can. Dogday: Approaching with PIPE in hand Villain of the Week: "Why do I hear boss music?"

He just picked up this metal pipe and chunk of wood and chose violence. Kickin and Catnap are copying him, but with an actual weapons, one slight more sadistic then the other. Hoppy is considering joining in, but is being held back by Bobby. Bubba and Picky have no idea what's goin on anymore, and Crafty is sitting there wondering if she's happy about her friends wanting to defend her or concerned that violence was the go to option today.

I also made a background for em:

As well as it standalone:

I think this came out Wonderfully! May do the others the the future, but this is a good starting point!

#Later that day Kickin tries to get Dogday an actual weapon #He refuses cause he's “Not Violent” and it's a one off thing #The next week he's throwing hands again cause Catnap's Sick and he doesn't have the time for this #Critter Violence #poppy playtime #poppy playtime chapter 3 #smiling critters #dogday

[hoodieimp]

Completely fuckin forgot to post abt it the day of but

GUESS WHO ✨️FINALLY✨️ GOT THEIR DRIVER'S LICENSE LAST WEEK!!!!!!

#dizzyisms #ONLY TOOK ME FIVE TRIES OVER WHAT. A YEAR AND A HALF #Ironically I was not the one to drive home afterwards bc I was too much of an anxious wreck fhdhdhhdhs #When I tell you I fucking burst into tears when the instructor told me I passed hdhdhdbxbx #mostly bc I was already wound up tighter than a damn spring and fully primed to start crying abt Screwing Up Again #it was a physical shock #but a good one! #at the time of FINALLY posting this. checks calender. a week later #I've gone to the insurance place to get my Actual license validated! now I wait for the Card to get mailed in #(Also Jesus POLEDANCING christ post editor in mobile browser is sending me into a fuxking rabid chimpanzee rage. It is SO BAD) #< leaving that tag in as I post this from desktop so y'all know of my struggles jfksdjfkds

[selfship-userboxing]

what does the dark mean in your dni ?

It means "darkship", AKA the proshippers who are loud and proud about being into inc*st, r*pe, and p*dophilia. Darkship, comship, and freeship are all just proship, they try to use other names to make you think it's something else. Which is dumb, just use the same label so everybody knows who to block

#Sorry this took so long to answer. My wifi was messing up when I originally tried to respond so I decided to try again later #Turns out 'later' meant a week later 😭 #not userboxes

[sleepyblr-heart]

I Did It. I'm Awesome.

#heart beats! #RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #EMEMBER KIDS: WITH A WEEKS WORTH OF PRACTICE YOU TOO CAN BEAT A LEVEL IN 35 MINUTES !!!!!!!!!!! #hi. it’s me like 12 hours later. didn’t realize tumblr finished processing this video. #mostly because i had already Tried posting this before and it still hasn’t finished. i doubt it ever will. #anyways RAAAAAAAA IM AWESOME 💥💥💥💥💥 #i did mount awesome again partly because me and that level are like a toxic relationship #but mostly because stars align had a bunch of data wipes #including the records #AND i wanted to get the -1 flag. for the funny #so yeah. i did it again. but better and awesomer #the corals love me for my loser swag

[sualne]

that guy

#one piece #eustass kid #my art #undescribed #<- its 2am and im brain has given up i'll go back tomorrow/later today to write some alt text #feel like i havent drawn anything serious in weeks. didnt vibe at first with the shading in the first one so i tried smth flatter. #i had thoughts i wanted to say about him but yeah. i like him. i like that he love his bestie a ton. and his style and kind of shitty #personality and worse temperament. he's fun. anyway goodnight. oh yeah. in french they translated a word as 'best friend' which made me #realized not a single characters that i can remember had ever called anyone best friend. then i check the english translation and turns out #they translated it as 'partner' (tis all about how kid and killer calls each other btw) a +100 eps later killer use the same word again thi #time its translated as 'partner' too and also i manage to catch the word these two been using. 'aibou' and well. there seems to Meanings an #all about this word im thinking i need to look it up properly when i remember to do it but i just happy these two love each other a lot yet #still refers to the others as 'teme' sometimes which man. so funny. i also love killer too btw. need to draw that hug. 12 years theyve been #in my life and i knew nothing of them till now its interesting feeling.

[disdaidal]

So, I met my nurse today and she said I'm finally getting scheduled for the ADHD testing on Dec 18th—after all these years. Albeit she said that it may not change a thing, but it's good to test it anyway.

I also had a discussion with my teacher today about my problems and we went through some stuff, and I might feel a little bit more enlightened about some things, which will hopefully help me.

Still. I'm having trouble with planning some stuff at my workplace because the staff there simply doesn't have time, and my instructor is also a very busy person (plus she's fussy and impatient and a little upset/disappointed with me which is not making it any easier for me), so that is still giving me a lot of stress right now.

So, I don't know. On the other hand, one teacher says I'm doing a good job and that I shouldn't quit. Then again, this particular school and their style of teaching simply might not be the thing for me and I expressed that concern today as well. I need help getting through with some stuff and nobody has time for me, so it's obviously not good.

I also need to find another place to train soon and that workplace would have to be something where I wouldn't have to manage 15 things at the same time and well. Finding that could be a challenge, too.

But. I suppose we're going somewhere.

#personal #last week i cried twice after a workday #and my nurse also mentioned today that i still have a learning disability which will definitely make things harder for me #but also that there's nothing that can be done about it so... great #so i mentioned this to my teacher and she wrote it down but #basically there are only two choices for me now #either i pass this training somehow and plan my displays at my current workplace so well that i never have to do this again #or i will only complete my training for this period and then find another workplace and do my displays there #i can't postpone them much later apparently or so i understood. so they are not giving a lot of choices there really #and we did talk about me considering another school as well #where i can spend more time in the classroom actually learning things and less time working and trying to study at the same time #because this clearly isn't working for me. i can't do two things at the same time. not well at least. and i want to do well #but i tried applying for that kind of school in this field last summer. i didn't get in & i was 8th in line #i would've gotten in working with kids instead. but that school was further away and i probably would've found it even more stressful #than what i'm doing now #so i don't know. this is so fucking stressful for me honestly #like i like what i'm doing but i also really hate what i'm doing because this also requires stuff from me that i am simply not good at #and i'd have to put extra energy into it but i don't have much energy in me right now tbh #ugh

[heavywithplot]

the ex super villain-super hero pair make a return! jean used to be a villain until alex sort of. convinced him to switch sides (the embarrassing reality is that alex had a crush on jean even when jean was very earnestly trying to kill him, and when jean got pinned under a car during a fight, alex asked him out while rescuing him, and jean said yes for reasons no one has figured out) then they spent six years working together in a group (that scribble to the left with the sort of motor cycle looking gear is what jean would wear because fuck costumes, he showed up to break bones)

jean’s default expression is nothing. one time he broke his arm badly enough it broke skin, and absolutely nothing on his face gave away that he was in any kind of pain. alex is still doing hero shit because you gotta pay those bills, but he kind of missed how stressful it is for jean, just because it’s. like. all of this is televised and inescapable, and jean didn’t bring it up until he had to pick alex up from the hospital after a close call, but alex is absolutely gutted when realizes how miserable jean was for the past 8 months.

#jean: oh no. oh noooo. please don't cry. #alex fully sobbing: i just love you so much #anyway a few weeks later jean's old boss tries to assassinate alex and sends some hit men to their apartment #those hit men get killed almost immediately because jean might have switched sides and also 9 months pregnant but he #also used to be an improbably perfect sharpshooter and he keeps a pistol hidden under the dining room table lmao #like jean used to be some kind of nightmare boogeyman for the heroes #everyone wants to know how alex convinced him to go legit and alex is like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ who knows! but we're dating now 🥰 #(mshdhg i dont want alex to come across as a goofy friendly kind of guy #cause he's both of those things but jean and alex did very much try to kill each other in earnest no less than 5 times #alex's loyalty is very person oriented so if jean ever wanted to go villain again alex would absolutely go with him no hesitation) #mpreg #SHSDFHGEH I WROTE SO MUCH ABOUT THE STORY im sorry i rambled so much about it lmao

[daydreamycrustacean]

consuming media when you're approaching the end of a semester is soooo dangerous because you should be focusing on work and you just never know which piece of media will be the next to give you absolute brain worms.

#i was like ´´oh i remember long ago i tried to watch nbc hannibal but I never made it past the second season`` #´´i should try again since i really liked will graham as a character´´ #´´maybe this time ill like it more and ill be less off-put by the gore´´ #<- a few weeks later i have finished the last ep of s2 and I am unable to function for a whole day

[unityrain24]

tumblr please stop with the unfollow glitch and block glitch. please tungle please

#just randomly unfollowed a mutual for like the 4th time??? without my knowledge? #and i'm still blocked by a mutual. that is 99% the same situation bc like. #they block me. i get sad and upset bc i'm worried i did something wrong. we get back in touch. they say they didn't block me #(and actually thought i blocked THEM) and that it was a glitch and accident and it's been happening to them with a lot of people they follo #a few days later they unfollow me and then follow me again saying it was a glitch #(which i 100% believe bc MY tumblr glitched and unfollowed someone that week too) #everything's good for a few days #then i randomly get blocked again and i didn't have a way to reach out this time #and that happened a WHILE ago #i tried contacting tumblr support and a MONTH after i sent the request they finally got to it and said they'd investigate and send #biweekly updates. they did not. #instead as soon as they sent that response i got an email saying “rate our service!” and that was it #??? #so. #unityrain.txt #tungle dot hell

[arctic-hands]

My last bout of sleep paralysis (which was when I was recently hospitalized for nine days and getting no sleep because literally almost every half hour someone was waking me up for vitals or a blood drawl or to give me medicine or to prod my stomach or the attending bringing in the interns because I'm a great case study or because my infusion pump wanted to make obnoxious noises for no reason) was so horrific that when I told my therapist about it yesterday she visibly paled and freaked out on my behalf. Is that a good sign?

#would have loved if i had been hooked up to the heart monitor at the time to see how fast my heartrate shot up while it happened #and it would have been mildly amusing to see the nurses freak out over it #coincidentally and predictably my nurse did in fact come in a few minutes later to give me my meds #at like 2 a.m. because that's just how schedules roll i guess #and she say ME all pale and bug eyed as i desperately tried to distract myself on my phone because i didn't want to fall asleep again #and when she asked me what was wrong and i told her she clucked her tongue and said honey i wouldn't want to sleep after that either #I've had four boughts of it over the last six years or so which doesn't sound like an lot but one time is enough for me #so I'm gonna ask my PCP this week for a sleep study #sleep paralysis #sleep disorder #nightmare #the art i made about the sleep paralysis disturbed my therapist but i thought it was rather mild in comparison to the actual hallucination #art therapy #sleep deprivation

[trentskis]

who else wants round 2 of whatever this was next weekend

#remember havertz tried to do it again to someone else like a week later im pretty sure.. like bro go and take a walk

[floral-hex]

woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void #shits rough dawg #I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts #haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier #it’s cold #saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early. #and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed. #went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours #guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left #even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are #I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh #my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week #maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done. #I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting #woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside #hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning #can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding) #actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so… #I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience #anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments #I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired. #I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die. #is this relatable? #just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda. #gonna look at pictures of butts now #ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever #you can ignore this #text

[whoslaurapalmer]

not having very good luck with good dye young which is heartbreaking bc I love the consistency and the way it smells but it is just not showing up right (or at all) on my hair 😭😭

#i dont know if it's the color i picked or what.......i picked a magenta purpley one and the day we did it it was purple pink red #but then after and the first time i washed it....it didnt so much fade as like. dull??????? then it was just a. weird dark burgundy #in the right light. #i tried the dyeposit today but if anything. my hair looks more its natural color 😥 #maybe i didnt get it everywhere or leave it on long enough idk i will try again later in the week!!!!!!! #but i am. upset. i just want some nice vibrant hair again without bleaching. it can be done. but maybe not with this brand :(

[manlethotline]

finally got my covid booster why is it always such a struggle for me

#to be clear i tried to get it like #2 months ago #but waxky hijinx like being told i would have to pay 200 dollars for a free vaccine and then GETTING COVID AGAIN A WEEK LATER #got in the way

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#thats me in the corner. thats me in thr spotlight. rocking from side to side and not contributing to the conversation #which is to say. i made it to thr lab get together with an old lab mate. i really truely did not think i would #i was like 20min late bc of the crying and hyperventilating over a 6min drive down the road #i sorta freaked out while driving too. and almost turned around. its just that i kno i havent been sleeping enough and got overwhelmed #but i made it there. and i dont think i looked like id been crying but i probably looked a bit blank faced and miserable #as i rocked from side to side for like 2hrs listening to ppl talk. i enjoyed it exactly as much as i expected. it was good to see the guy #again but i just dont connect in group gatherings idk. im glad its done. also fucking we were sitting there and a group comes in and whos #in that group?? someone i have avoided seeing for like a loooong time. the guy who tried to be in a relationship with me back when i 1st #started as a grad student. i say relationship. i was explaining to him why i couldnt do any sort of romantic e tanglement and he was very #firm abt not wanting a relationship. and im like bro im explaining u why no romanticly adjacent thing is gonna work. u literally asked me #to physically hold ur hand thru this. u r somehow more emotionally invested in this than me and also are telling me that u just wanna fuck #me. so like u r not slick. whatever. it was so fucking stressful at the time. which i feel bad abt bc it wasn't really his fault #i was just less self aware so i didnt kno i have bad awareness in the moment. like i dont kno a lines been crossed until a week later when #im laying on thr floor falling apart. so like i wish him the best. didnt kno he was still around. hopefully this doesnt trigger stress #dreams. all this to say i was very fucking tense. and when i got back in my car i was like shaky and panting lol #idk looking back its just such a weird situation with that dude. if i was anyone else it woudlnt have been a big deal but #my brain just doesn't process physical touch right. so now ive got these horrible touch memories that like on paper r literally nothing #but for me they were so unfathomablly awful when i 1st aquired them. i literally could not deal with any romantic stuff for like a month #bc it would like trigger me. now thst its been like 3 years its not bad tho. just like gives me thr ick but i dont get #stuck in the memories too much. its so dumb. whatever. point is im all sore now from sitting all tense haha #unrelated