#and thensome

[lord-westley]

The Mutual Games 2.0

July will be 2 years since ive done the original mutual games aka hungergames but with my moots. And I really want to do it again so here we are >:D

I dont have many moots, so i included a few blogs i enjoy. Hope you guys dont mind being tagged. I also like to note, its a requirement in the website i use to put in either m or f, so i hope that doesnt bother anyone

@wishingtobeinadifferentuniverse @thespiritoflife @justfollowtheroad @messiambrandybuck @danihow @tolkien-fantasy @erosofthepen @midearthwritings @imnotevenhere9 @imagines--galore @moonheartsposts @elvish-sky @cam-the-orange-cat @idle-thyme @hellsite-users-blog @entishramblings @7soulstars @gossip-girl-of-middleearth @beenovel @deep-space-elf @guardianofrivendell @icarus-fell-in-spring @riddlesia @sunflower1000

elvish-sky runs away from the Cornucopia.

midearthwritings finds a bow, some arrows, and a quiver.

imnotevenhere9 runs away from the Cornucopia.

messiambrandybuck grabs a jar of fishing bait while beenovel gets fishing gear.

Imagines--galore runs away from the Cornucopia.

entishramblings runs away from the Cornucopia.

deep-space-elf runs away from the Cornucopia.

7soulstars and tolkien-fantasy fight for a bag. 7soulstars gives up and retreats.

hellsite-users-blog runs away from the Cornucopia.

icarus-fell-in-spring gathers as much food as she can.

guardianofrivendell grabs a backpack, not realizing it is empty.

sunflower1000 retrieves a trident from inside the cornucopia.

gossip-girl-of-middlearth runs away from the Cornucopia.

wishingtobeinadifferent , idle-thyme , and Lord-Westley get into a fight. idle-thyme triumphantly kills them both.

thespiritoflife runs away from the Cornucopia.

riddlesia runs away from the Cornucopia.

moonheartsposts runs away with a lighter and some rope.

justfollowtheroad runs away from the Cornucopia.

cam-the-orange-cat runs away from the Cornucopia.

erosofthepen runs away from the Cornucopia.

Day One

moonheartsposts tries to sleep through the entire day.

guardianofrivendell receives fresh food from an unknown sponsor.

erosofthepen makes a wooden spear.

gossip-girl-of-middlearth injures herself.

deep-space-elf injures herself.

beenovel explores the arena

elvish-sky and tolkien-fantasy hunt for other tributes.

Imagines--galore explores the arena.

sunflower1000 begs for idle-thyme to kill her. She refuses, keeping sunflower1000 alive.

riddlesia , icarus-fell-in-spring , cam-the-orange-cat , thespiritoflife , and 7soulstars hunt for other tributes.

midearthwritings receives a hatchet from an unknown sponsor.

hellsite-users-blog overhears justfollowtheroad and entishramblings talking in the distance.

imnotevenhere9 and messiambrandybuck work together for the day.

Night One

Imagines--galore , sunflower1000 , and deep-space-elf get into a fight. Imagines--galore triumphantly kills them both.

thespiritoflife attempts to start a fire, but is unsuccessful.

idle-thyme sees a fire, but stays hidden.

elvish-sky cries herself to sleep.

7soulstars sets up camp for the night.

beenovel receives a hatchet from an unknown sponsor.

justfollowtheroad is awoken by nightmares.

moonheartsposts , midearthwritings , and gossip-girl-of-middlearth sleep in shifts.

guardianofrivendell screams for help.

riddlesia cooks her food before putting her fire out.

erosofthepen goes to sleep.

tolkien-fantasy thinks about winning.

hellsite-users-blog stays awake all night.

cam-the-orange-cat tries to treat her infection.

messiambrandybuck and imnotevenhere9 talk about the tributes still alive.

entishramblings looks at the night sky.

icarus-fell-in-spring looks at the night sky.

Day Two

justfollowtheroad is pricked by thorns while picking berries.

thespiritoflife makes a wooden spear.

7soulstars collects fruit from a tree.

riddlesia makes a wooden spear.

cam-the-orange-cat runs away from icarus-fell-in-spring .

elvish-sky receives an explosive from an unknown sponsor.

Imagines--galore and entishramblings hunt for other tributes.

moonheartsposts discovers a cave.

tolkien-fantasy travels to higher ground.

gossip-girl-of-middlearth and midearthwritings hunt for other tributes.

imnotevenhere9 makes a wooden spear.

guardianofrivendell chases beenovel .

erosofthepen travels to higher ground.

messiambrandybuck diverts idle-thyme 's attention and runs away.

hellsite-users-blog questions his sanity.

Night Two

Imagines--galore convinces cam-the-orange-cat to snuggle with her.

guardianofrivendell tends to moonheartsposts 's wounds.

entishramblings tends to her wounds.

thespiritoflife throws a knife into justfollowtheroad 's head.

imnotevenhere9 and idle-thyme hold hands.

7soulstars dies from thirst.

riddlesia thinks about home.

tolkien-fantasy begs for icarus-fell-in-spring to kill her. She refuses, keeping tolkien-fantasy alive.

gossip-girl-of-middlearth , midearthwritings , beenovel , and messiambrandybuck sleep in shifts.

elvish-sky stays awake all night.

erosofthepen and hellsite-users-blog talk about the tributes still alive.

Day Three

guardianofrivendell receives fresh food from an unknown sponsor.

tolkien-fantasy , idle-thyme , and moonheartsposts hunt for other tributes.

entishramblings and Imagines--galore fight beenovel and hellsite-users-blog . entishramblings and Imagines--galore survive.

icarus-fell-in-spring runs away from midearthwritings .

erosofthepen questions her sanity.

gossip-girl-of-middlearth receives fresh food from an unknown sponsor.

imnotevenhere9 , thespiritoflife , messiambrandybuck , riddlesia , and elvish-sky hunt for other tributes.

cam-the-orange-cat discovers a cave.

Night Three

tolkien-fantasy and gossip-girl-of-middlearth hold hands.

icarus-fell-in-spring , guardianofrivendell , and erosofthepen discuss the games and what might happen in the morning.

entishramblings stabs cam-the-orange-cat while her back is turned.

elvish-sky , thespiritoflife , midearthwritings , imnotevenhere9 , and Imagines--galore sleep in shifts.

riddlesia , messiambrandybuck , idle-thyme , and moonheartsposts sleep in shifts.

Day Four

erosofthepen attempts to climb a tree, but falls on gossip-girl-of-middlearth , killing them both.

messiambrandybuck scares icarus-fell-in-spring off.

idle-thyme sets an explosive off, killing guardianofrivendell , Imagines--galore , and imnotevenhere9 .

moonheartsposts stalks elvish-sky .

thespiritoflife defeats entishramblings in a fight, but spares her life.

tolkien-fantasy tends to riddlesia 's wounds.

midearthwritings tries to spear fish with a trident.

Night Four

icarus-fell-in-spring and messiambrandybuck tell stories about themselves to each other.

midearthwritings throws a knife into moonheartsposts 's head.

riddlesia and elvish-sky huddle for warmth.

thespiritoflife receives a hatchet from an unknown sponsor.

idle-thyme defeats tolkien-fantasy in a fight, but spares her life.

entishramblings starts a fire.

THE FEAST | Cornucopia

thespiritoflife stuffs a bundle of dry clothing into a backpack before sprinting away.

Everyone else decides not to go to The Feast

Day Five

thespiritoflife defeats tolkien-fantasy in a fight, but spares her life.

idle-thyme stalks icarus-fell-in-spring .

entishramblings thinks about home.

messiambrandybuck 's trap kills midearthwritings .

riddlesia constructs a shack.

elvish-sky injures herself.

Night Five

idle-thyme , riddlesia , and messiambrandybuck sleep in shifts.

thespiritoflife stays awake all night.

tolkien-fantasy sees a fire, but stays hidden.

icarus-fell-in-spring begs for entishramblings to kill her. She refuses, keeping icarus-fell-in-spring alive.

elvish-sky climbs a tree to rest.

Day Six

tolkien-fantasy stalks idle-thyme .

riddlesia searches for firewood.

messiambrandybuck tends to elvish-sky 's wounds.

entishramblings runs away from thespiritoflife .

icarus-fell-in-spring hunts for other tributes.

NO ONE DIES

Night Six

messiambrandybuck attempts to start a fire, but is unsuccessful.

elvish-sky tends to her wounds.

icarus-fell-in-spring , idle-thyme , thespiritoflife , and riddlesia sleep in shifts.

entishramblings stays awake all night.

tolkien-fantasy screams for help.

Day Seven

icarus-fell-in-spring makes a wooden spear.

entishramblings diverts tolkien-fantasy 's attention and runs away.

thespiritoflife scares idle-thyme off.

elvish-sky catches riddlesia off guard and kills her.

messiambrandybuck tries to spear fish with a trident.

ARENA EVENT - A tsunami rolls in

messiambrandybuck fatally injures himself on debris.

icarus-fell-in-spring survives.

elvish-sky survives.

tolkien-fantasy and thespiritoflife smash their heads together as the tsunami rolls in, leaving them both to drown.

idle-thyme fatally injures herself on debris.

entishramblings survives.

Night Seven

entishramblings cries herself to sleep.

icarus-fell-in-spring destroys elvish-sky 's supplies while she is asleep.

Day Eight

entishramblings collects fruit from a tree.

icarus-fell-in-spring accidently steps on a landmine.

elvish-sky dies from hunger.

Our Winner is @entishramblings !!

#Westley Speaks #The Mutual Games #Hunger Games #Hunger Games Simulator #my moots #and thensome

[sadlittlenerdking]

every fictional character i love is inevitably the showrunners least favorite main and is brutally killed in some show of aggression towards the fanbase and it's happened more than twice, i have so many nickels

#the magicians #the 100 #teen wolf #veronica mars #supernatural #and thensome

[jingo]

I’m really popping off with these one-person conversations with myself today.  You guys are missing out.

#I've solved all the world's problems #and thensome

[eyesup-orion]

mods are asleep post old woman yuri (that i drew a while ago whoopsiiiieeee)

[loredumping time] The one with flowers in her hair is called The Mother and the one with the circular headress is The Sunriser. The Mother is the god nature, wildlife, and preservation (she is also called simply The Nature). The Sunriser is the god of the sun's movement and is partially attirbuted as the god of life, death, and time.

('nother sketch of these two) The Mother is not a god native to Eijahtothi (the land my ocs inhabit) she's actually from the Distant Continent and was born from a dying star. When The Mother moved from the Distant Continent to Eijahtothi, The Sunriser fell in love with her. The Mother gave The Sunriser three trials to prove the three factions of love to her: a trial of communication, trust and devotion, each. Distracted by completing these trials, the sun hung in the sky for 7 weeks.

Haoet', one of The Mother's children (kinda her favourite child), attempted to snuff out the sun and caused a flood and tsunami in the process. The Sunriser then killed him, which quickly ended the relationship between The Mother and The Sunriser.

#that doesnt mean i wont draw them kissing tho #i looove drawing these two kissing and thensome its so fun #i need to draw haoet' again too and all of the mothers other children...man thats a lot #eijahtothi stuff #oc loredumping #ill prolly never do this again btw heehe #art #eyesup art #my art

[dead-twink-storage]

You can pretty much guarantee that any mass shooter in the US had a thousand red flags and priors that would ban them from ever touching a gun but somehow, someway they always managed to get cleared to buy one. You have to wonder is it evil conspiracies or just DMV levels of human bovine not doing their jobs and never getting punished for clearing paper work by guys who are under like 5 different levels of surveillance.

#but clowns will cry their clown tears for the scratched paint #unlike pulse they wont down play the motive here they will amplify and thensome to get you bleeding in the street

[gamelost]

hi yeah can we just talk? about matt dating your muse? i just want to talk.

#matt looking at you wit his big ol bug eyes behind his goggles like O_O #hes such a good partner. he loves with every fiber of his being and thensome #he loves in a way that gives up every piece of himself and turns it into something small and vulnerable #𝖒. « 𝐖𝐇𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐆𝐎𝐍𝐍𝐀 𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐋? / out. »

[alazyparallelworld]

my eyes are blurring super bad . but i am being stubborn and Not wearing my glasses, even as i have to squint to read my phone

#i ramble ★ #im p sure its just exhaustion since. I am pulling an all nighter + thensome to realign my sleep #but it has been blurring more lately. Prolly just my eyes being tired ngl rather than it getting worse..

[glambytes]

{{ • 10 drafts, or 14 counting my remaining asks! Will either lurk or engage in dash shenans. Might attempt to queue some replies but no guarantees 👀

#{ 🐛 BugUnit | ooc 🐛 } #[[should i make a starter call at some point? probably. will it be tonight? gotta doc appointment tomorrow and thensome #so that's a problem for a future less busy me 👀💦]]

[queseraphita]

Everytime i try to go to bed i must do battle with the creative mania running a hamsterwheel inside my head that puts on a soap opera i know gods damned well i will not be able to write by the time the sun comes up but unable to NOT stop thinking about it

#mikh talks #it was like the equivalent of a manic daydream #where i just think about how endwalker would function if i wrote the twelve and the ascians using kingdomhearts logic #or if the end of days worked like kingdomhearts #and venat sundered the worlds and locked the shards behind kingdomhearts #and then my brain said WE NEED TO REPLAY FFX ITS IMPORTANR #cause i really wanted the twelve and deryk to have more of an input or thought on hey are we really doing this #and then i had that THE ASCIANS ARE ORG XIII #no standard wol or anything bc my azem lore is on the more convoluted side since i did not care for endwalkers azem lore whatevers #cause mikhail is reincarnated wish of a dragon and i function off of shoving ff worlds working with kh logic with the reality drakenier lore #it all wont make sense but i dont pretend like it will i very much want the black flower hellbent on destroying the world only to be sunder #sitting here with a red string conspiracy theorist board trying to map out all the characterization of the twelve i was given and thensome #to see what shit i could work with and others i could just say fuck it and make it up as i go #me: i hate writing large ensembles [proceeds to think about it]

[thebestofthebestofthebestof]

I went home from werk early yesterday cause im a lil under the weather, i still have energy but ive got a cough, yesterday i was battling waves of nausea and i was sweating all thru my shift. Today its pretty much just the cough but also i havent left bed lol i havent exactly been using up energy. Gonna take some neocitran, eat some soup i made last night and take another covid test which i am dreading =_= fucked up i only have the 1 day for recovery, im scheduled to work tomorrow....hopefully ill be feeling better tomorrow and hopefully this aint covid...the test i took yesterday came back negative but ill take one today and tomorrow as well just in case. Of course i manage to get sick the week of the work christmas party ;_; hopefully i can still go, but if its covid will my work tell me to stay home all week? I wonder.

#b4 u think of me as some kind of freak or asshole just know that of fucking course i wore a mask at work and ill be wearing it all week #and thensome if need be #jfc i dont know if saying that makes me sound like a fool or something but i dont want ppl to think im that kind of person

[catcze]

No but ehat if like wriothesley had an s/o or maybe someone hes romantically interested in who he sees mostly in the fortress and then they go outside together one day and he's like "i never realized how beatiful you are in the sun" and hes all cute and blushin and shit OUGGH OUGH OUGH I'VE BEEN SHOT THROUGH THE HEART WRAAAAAGHHSHDH

OUGHHASDAS YOU AND ME BOTH U AND ME BOTH

Reblogs are greatly appreciated !!

When you set out on your day off, you weren't expecting to run into your boss— certainly not in a cafe, of all places.

"Your grace?" you ask hesitantly, approaching the table that Wriothesley and Sigewinne occupy. There's a litany of small desserts before them, as well as a teapot and two tea cups filled with rather aromatic tea. You run a hand over your top, trying to smooth any wrinkles that there may be. You certainly hadn't been expecting to run into him here! Oh, if you knew you would have dressed a little bit better. As it is, you were just here to hunt down an afternoon snack, and you certainly looked it.

But Wriothesley lights up at the sight of you, a small smile curling the edge of his lips. Sigewinne grins too, waving in welcome.

"Hello there!" She says pleasantly. "We weren't expecting to see you here!"

You chuckle. "Same here."

"But it seems like you've come at quite the opportune moment," Wriothesley says, beckoning you into one of the empty chairs of the table. He straightens a bit, slouching less in his seat, and leans forward on his elbows. That smile is still on his lips, and his gaze hasn't left you for a second. "I'm afraid we may have gone a bit overboard with our order. You'd be doing us a favor by having some." Sigewinne nods in agreement. You feel the blood rush to your face though, turning it warm.

"Oh, I couldn't impose like that, your grace—"

"Sure you can," Wriothesley's smile broadens then, and you get a hint of his canines in his smile. A slight hint of a dimple on his cheek. "I already said that you'd be doing us a favor, didn't I? Besides, you can drop the 'your grace' while we're here. Treat this like... a serendipitous meeting between friendly parties, rather than between coworkers."

And oh, if you thought that your face was warm before, it had practically doubled in temperature now. Not wanting him to hurry you any further, you plop in the seat. Sigewinne giggles, pouring you a cup of tea and handing it to you which you take with a word of thanks.

"Here," says Wriothesley. He gestures for you to hand him your plate, and as you do so, your fingers brush. It sends tingles up your arm, and you damn near drop the plate out of reflex. Wriothesley, judging by how he clears his throat, his ears turning several shades redder, is not unaffected either.

He fills the plate with lots of confectionaries, desserts, finger foods, and sandwiches, and all sorts of other things. Sigewinne points out some things for him to give you on occasion, and he happily takes her suggestion and gives you some. Well. You've certainly got your afternoon snack and thensome.

As Wriothesley hands the plate back to you, he pauses just as you've taken hold of the other side.

"You know... I think this is the first time I've seen you in broad daylight," he muses. His cheeks redden a bit, and he chuckles at himself under his breath. "The sunlight makes you look even more stunning than usual."

And you make an embarrassed noise, because archons, you might just be in need of medical assistance by the end of this, because there is no way the flipping of your heart is normal. You take the plate, looking down and away so he doesn't see your flustered expression, but he has anyway, if his small laugh is any indication.

"If you ever want to come back here, feel free to say so. My treat." Wriothesley offers, gazing at you with his chin resting on his palm. He looks at you like he never wants to look away. "I'd be happy to see you in this sunshine again, if you'd let me."

#astronetwrk #「 🐈‍⬛ 」 catcze.desserts #wriothesley x reader #genshin impact x reader #cw gn reader #genshin impact #wriothesley

[onyxmilk]

Hello! Can you write about spy x family? (I'm obsessed with Loid) where OC is engaged to Loid/Twilight and becomes jealous of Yor.

Sorry, English is not my first language.

Twilight x gn!Reader; "Jealous"

notes; i love some twilight fanfiction, esp because everything is freaking SMUT (last time i checked)!!! we need some sfw ish in here!!! tw; Reader uses They/Them pronouns!, jealousy wc; 1.2k

Twilight and [CodeName] both got married on a whim for the benefits inside their spy company, neither did they expect to actually fall in love and want a proper marriage with each other, but they did! They were one of the cutest couples around, and when they worked together they were the absolute dream team. They would get the mission done and thensome, do some afterwork, clear the paperwork out, the two would go the extra mile to make sure no one had to clean up after them. 

When [CodeName] and Twilight renewed their vows because they ended up falling in love for more than mutual benefits, the two decided to go a little big. [CodeName] wore the most extravagant clothing, and Twilight wore a tailored suit to his liking. The couple held a huge after ceremony, inviting most of the company to join and celebrate their marriage. It may sound uncharacteristic for Twilight, but it was most definitely in character for [CodeName]. 

During the couple’s dance, as they were following tradition, [CodeName] leaned into Twilight and whispered “[YourName],” No explanation aside from a single name that left their lips. Twilight looked confused at first, but then it clicked- [CodeName] was dropping their real name. Twilight smiled warmly, bringing his partner in for a kiss. Twilight had long forgotten his name, but to know that [CodeName] entrusted him with such personal information brought warmth and joy to his heart. Especially on such a special night like this. 

[YourName] didn’t need to know Twilight’s real name, all they needed to know was that the man loved them and that he was accepting no matter what, which Twilight was. They just thought it would be a cute detail to drop on Twilight in the middle of, what the couple considers, their first real dance together as a ‘properly’ married couple. That night, [YourName] and Twilight got home, took off the over-the-top clothing, changed into pajamas, and shared a nice glass of red wine on the couch while watching some old TV shows that [YourName] enjoyed. 

It would be about three years later that [YourName] had to be put on a mission that placed them across the country. With a sadden face, [YourName] said their goodbyes to their husband and kissed Twilight one last time before them and a few other agents were shipped off. Twilight would be out of commission for about a day before he recovered, maybe he and [YourName] needed this split because the two of them were so dependent on each other. 

The two would always reference each other as partners for each other, and because the couple did work so well together and cleaned up after one another without needing a second thought, they did get paired up together what could be considered all the time. Now, sometimes [YourName] would be paired up with another person and other times Twilight would be paired up with a different person, and it never shattered each other. But being away from each other for months really took Twilight aback and he just needed a day to recuperate. 

During the few months that [YourName] was gone, Twilight was placed in charge of Operation Strix, which forced Twilight to find a wife and child. It had been quite some time since Twilight had to fake such an in depth relationship, and without [YourName] here to confirm that it was okay, or better yet have them play the role of his partner, he felt a little sick to his stomach. But a mission was a mission and it needed to be done. 

He wouldn’t get comfortable in his position, but he would get a better understanding of becoming a father in case he and [YourName] wanted children. Every day, when [YourName] was still out on their mission across the country and wasn’t here to call or see him in person at the hospital, Twilight thought about how different the mission would have been going if only [YourName] was around to assist as per usual. For some reason, he felt he’d be further in his investigation. Perhaps because they were truly married and didn’t have to put on some act for the world to see, or because perhaps the two of them have talked about a family before and this would just fill that hole temporarily. 

One day while at the hospital, looking over some papers, Twilight got a call that he was needed in the lobby. He had assumed that perhaps a patient was having a breakdown and needed some comfort from their doctor. Instead, nurses were welcoming a new nurse. “Loid!” His co-worker greeted as they walked over to him, “Have you seen the new nurse? Not to be unprofessional, but smoking hot,” The co-worker laughed but Twilight rolled his eyes while pretending to humor the thought, looking around for this new person. He didn’t expect to see [YourName], dressed in scrubs, holding a cup of juice, and laughing with a few of the other nurses. 

Twilight blinked a few times, a huge smile on his face when he made his way over. A few of the girl nurses giggled before shying away, while the guy nurses simply roamed off to allow Loid and [Name] to talk. “You’re back,” Twilight whispered, half shock and half relief flooding his face. “Mhm, and I’m assisting you on Strix. I’m a nanny on the side.” [YourName] replied in the same whispered tone. Twilight’s heart broke a little at the news, that was the last thing he wanted [YourName] to see; him acting as if he had a wife in front of other people. “I understand, are you caught up?” Twilight asks and with hesitation [YourName] nods their head. 

It would be a few days later that Loid brings up the idea of hiring a nanny to assist with Anya during the week. The nanny would come in the afternoon, help out with homework and study time, then head home around dinner. Yor of course thought the idea was wonderful and let Loid make a list of people, which most were fake just so they had no choice but to hire [YourName]. 

A few days later, it was a Saturday, Loid and Yor sat together on the couch while [YourName] sat on the chair across from them. Yor, to make their relationship look believable to the naked eye, wrapped her arm around Loid’s arm. It took everything in [YourName] not to break right then and there and claim Twilight as their own. They knew that this was for the mission, but unfortunately, jealousy doesn’t understand that. 

The interview went great and Yor agreed with Loid that [Name] should be hired, “Let me walk you to your car.” Loid offered. This was mostly so they could get alone time together before the night ended. “Do you enjoy a clingy wife?” [YourName] asked as they walked out the apartment complex, Twilight was taken aback before shaking his head with a small chuckle- he had never seen [YourName] jealous before and it was quite cute to witness. “No, darling, she simply wanted to sell what people think her and I have. I love you no matter what.” Twilight promised, opening the door for [YourName]. 

[YourName] nodded slowly, smiling eventually. “I want to kiss you so bad..” [YourName] says, “I know, one day soon, dear.” Twilight replied, allowing [YourName] to get into their car and he shut the door before stepping aside and watching [YourName] drive off to wherever they stayed for the night. Twilight hoped that they would stay at their home, so they could be around a familiar setting and smell familiar smells.

He wanted them to be comfortable, for [YourName] is his partner, and they are his.

#spyxfamily x reader #spy x family x reader #s x f x reader #sxf x reader #twilight x reader #loid x reader #loid forger x reader #anime x reader #x reader

[bottlecaprabbitgames]

Mind Games: Trepidation Chapter 5 FULL Update (and thensome)

It's finally time for the full public release of the Chapter 5 Update! EEP!!! (The weekly update will follow this in a few hours)

The demo link is here.

There is also a Google Form for fun on the thank you page, as I'm curious to how you guys choose your choices in each playthrough! It also provides a feedback area, but no questions are required, and you can answer as you like! (It's also completely anonymous.) You can also find the link for it here.

Dev Log (3/12/2023):

Added the full entirety of Chapter 5, also did some editing to the previous two scenes released in Chapter 5.1.

Added Interlude I.

Added a new variable that tracks your reputation as a P.I.

Added several new outfits.

Revamped the blurb on the startup page, as well as cleaned up the trigger list.

Fixed multiple errors in Chapter 3's meetings.

Small update to Chapter 2.

Updated the previous decisions section of the stats page some. (Still a WIP)

Completely revamped the Relationships page of the stats page.

Gender Update: You can now change your pronouns at any time, regardless of what gender you chose originally. You can find this option on the stats page; it also includes a section to input your own pronouns, and you can change this at will, whenever you want in your playthrough.

QOL: Added a confirmation page to choosing your name and surname, just in case you make a mistake or choose the wrong one by accident.

Several minor changes to wording in various sections of the game.

Several other updates to the stats page.

Added the Google Form to the thank you for playing page.

#mind games #mind games: trepidation #demo #demo update #mg:t #mg:t chapter 5 update #dev log

[thezombieprostitute]

For a kiss. 😘

15.…passionately.

With...😏

Navy, you are an absolute treasure! I've been looking for an excuse to write this out and you just hand it to me!

A/N: Ask based on this post. Reader is plus sized, female.

Warnings: Implied fat shaming, not actually written. Language.

Hal is in his workshop when he hears your car pulling into the driveway. He gives you a few minutes to park the car before setting down his work and going to help you with the groceries. He's startled to hear how loudly you slam the car doors.

He comes up to grab some of the groceries but stops short when he sees that you're fighting tears.

"What happened," he asks, going in for a hug.

You gently push him away, shaking your head. "Let's get the groceries put away first, please?"

He nods in agreement and grabs up all of the bags you haven't already picked up. Usually he does that to show off his muscles like he knows you enjoy. Today he's doing it to hurry up so you can tell him what's wrong.

When everything is put away, he pulls you in for a hug and you don't fight him this time. "What happened, Dove?"

"It was just some asshole joking about my weight," you confess. "I know I shouldn't pay any heed, that he's an idiot, and all that but...some days it's harder to ignore than others."

"Want me to kick his ass?" You chuckle at that and Hal smiles.

"No," you tell him. "I've wasted too much brain power on that asshat. I don't need you wasting your time and energy on him, too."

"What can I do to help?"

You take Hal's face in your hands and stare into his beautiful, blue eyes, "Hal, I need you to fuck my brains out. Fuck me so good that my only thoughts are about you and how much you love me."

Hal's eyes darken and he goes in for a deep kiss, full of passion, love and lust. He's more than happy to fulfill your request. He takes every chance he can to make sure you know how beautiful you are to him. He only pulls away so he can start alternating passionate kisses and bites along your neck, your moans encouraging as he quickly strips your clothes.

He should probably move you to the bedroom or the couch, but he's going to give you everything and thensome. It's one of the things you love about Hal, he doesn't hold back. He loves you with all of his being and isn't afraid to show it.

#zombie asks #hal carter x reader #hal carter x plus size!reader #hal carter fluff

[semisgroupie]

PART I — A BROKEN RECORD ON REPEAT

shidou ryusei x fem. reader

wc: 5.5k

warnings: foul language, alcohol, reader is in a loveless relationship, legal jargon, talk about babies, some angst

note: this is a very plot heavy chapter and very little shidou and reader interaction but that’s to build up for what’s to come!

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Mundane?

Could that be the word you’d use to describe your life currently? No, even that is being too nice. You could list off all the possible adjectives in your mind but they wouldn’t be enough to properly describe your emotions towards your life. You’d have to string together a sentence to do so.

So now what would the sentence be?

Your life is like a broken record that goes on nonstop and makes you want to rip your hair out of your scalp.

Bingo!

That’s what you would describe your life as. Everything fell into place and there was no excitement for you to look forward to—well there was something very exciting coming your way, you just didn’t know it yet. But it’s best to give some background.

You grew up in a traditional nuclear family. Your parents worked endlessly to make sure you and your younger brother lived a comfortable life. You appreciate them for that and in return you made sure to do your best in school to ease any burden on them. You were a straight-A student, captain of the debate and mock trial teams in your school and helped out in your community. For that, you ended up receiving a full ride scholarship to one of the top universities in New York City.

During your time in college, you worked your ass off to maintain the scholarship and thensome. That’s when you found your passion in law and attended law school which led you to where you were now. One of the top corporate firms in New York City, you always made sure to devote time to your family and you were able to buy your parents a beautiful home where they could finally relax and retire.

At the age of 23, you met your now fiancé, Niles Murdock. He put you at the top of his world, for the first few years you two were together. Then it seemed like once he put a ring on your finger, he just stopped trying. No more random bouquets, no more casual walks in the park, no more lazy nights where you two sat cuddled up and ordered takeout to stuff your faces, it was all over. His parents were decent people, maybe that’s a lie. They only saw people and actions as transactions and they were the ones to convince you to go into corporate law. “That’s where the money is!” They said and you followed like a pet.

When you graduated law school you had multiple offers but your heart was leaning towards a position at the prosecutor's office. You would’ve had to work your way up but it would’ve been something you enjoyed. But you took the offer at Baker, Fisher & Ross LLP. The first year was hell, sitting in meetings and conference rooms with men that only saw you as a walking sex doll and disregarded any of your opinions. Three years later and now you’re the youngest and only female being considered for a position as partner, at only 28.

That was currently the only perk in your life.

Sometimes when you sat in your office and looked out the window, you wondered what would’ve happened if you went into criminal law. Where would you be then? Would your relationship with Niles have ended? Would you be slaving for a dollar? But most importantly, would you be happy?

But those were all questions that would remain unanswered. You had to push them aside because you had more important matters to focus on. You had to make partner in this firm. You had to or else this route would mean nothing. It would mean that you threw away everything, for nothing.

In the morning you woke up in an empty bed, as per usual. Niles was a stockbroker so he had to go meet with his Wall Street coworkers and probably snort a few lines of coke to start the day. You walked out of your bedroom and went straight to the shower to wake yourself up. As the water cascaded along your skin, you went over your schedule for the day. You had three meetings and then after lunch you had to go meet with the mock trial team you were mentoring. You loved working with them. They all reminded you of yourself, all bright eyed and eager to the world of law. If you could, you would warn them about making the right decision. You wanted to warn them to keep the fire inside them lit and not let it die out like you had. But then you’d scare them off and there goes something to brighten your day.

You finished your shower and rummaged through your closet, grabbing your gray pants suit and heels to set on your bed while you prepared a pot of coffee and made yourself up. After you finished getting ready, you poured the coffee into your mug and grabbed your bag. Just like clockwork you walked to your car, drove to your office building then walked to the local bakery to pick up a croissant for your secretary. Jesse was an angel, he was someone that you could rely on and chat with whenever you felt like you were going insane. Hell, he probably could write novels about your life with how much you told him.

After paying for the croissant you made your way back down the block to your office building and made your way inside. The building had 18 floors and was filled with multiple law firms. Your firm took up the top 6 floors and you didn’t really know much about anything else that occupied the space. Maybe if you’re stuck in the office late you’ll go look around and figure out what’s going on inside the building. It’s not like security would confront you anyways, they were too busy sleeping or flirting on the job.

You made your way through the growing crowd of people and waited for the elevator. Then after a few moments you packed yourself inside the metal box that was kind of like a can of sardines waiting to be sealed. You held your bag and the bag with the croissant inside close to you and looked out into the crowd of people that were waiting for the next elevator. They all shared a similar expression of boredom but there was someone that caught your attention. Just as you were about to turn your complete focus to them, the doors to the elevators shut and you started your ascent to hell. But there was something about the stranger that would stick in your mind no matter how quickly you looked at them, their pink eyes.

The elevator ride was fairly quick and you got off at the 17th floor. The top floor was reserved for the big shots and partners and if everything were to go your way, you’d be up there soon. You made your way to your office and stopped by the desk that sat in the antechamber that connected you both. “Good morning to the best secretary in this hell hole, I brought you your favorite.” You set the bag down at his desk and received a bright smile.

“You’re the greatest.” He took it and quickly opened it to eat the contents of the bag. That’s one thing about Jesse, you could give him a bag of rocks and he’d still be thankful for it. You smiled and turned to head into your office, just as your hand touched the knob Jesse cleared his throat. “Sorry, I got distracted but I heard that at the end of this week is when you’ll find out if you make partner. They’re having a little party at Vincenzo’s and they’ll make the announcement there. But don’t say I told you, Mr. Fisher is going to come down to tell you the news, so act surprised.” You felt a surge of adrenaline rush through your veins at his words. You’ll finally know if your work has paid off and if you made the right decision. “You got it, I’ll start practicing my shocked expressions.” You winked at Jesse then made your way inside your office to gather what you needed for your first meeting.

Right before you got ready to take your lunch break Mr. Fisher made his way to your office. You looked up at the older gentleman, out of the three men who helped create the firm, he was the kindest, he still had some sense of humanity in him. “Good afternoon, I just wanted to stop by and let you know that we’ll be announcing our decision on Friday. I also wanted to thank you for your hard work, if it wasn’t for you I’m not too sure if we’d still be running as good as we are. Enjoy your day and keep up the good work.” He smiled and left your office, once he was out of sight Jesse got up and made his way into your office.

“Come on, you’re telling me what he said on our way to lunch. Oh and is your detective friend joining us today?” Your ‘detective friend’ is someone you met in college, more specifically one of your closest friends that you met once you started college. Joy Aurora, she was your college roommate from freshman year and stuck by your side through law school while she pursued a career in law enforcement. Now she works as a lead detective in the prosecutor’s office. She was the first person to sense the bad vibes from Niles but she wanted you to be happy so she didn’t interfere. That still doesn’t mean she doesn’t put her (not so) little opinion about him every time you two talk.

“No, she has to go to Long Island to try to find some evidence for a case she’s working on but she’ll probably be able to meet us later on this week.” You organized your things then went with Jesse to lunch at the local diner.

“So you’re telling me that you have to go to dinner with Niles’ parents tonight but he couldn’t spare the time to have lunch with your brother when he visited a month ago? I mean, I know he’s an ass but that’s a major dick move. But remind me, what do you see in him?” You took a few moments to think about your answer but the pause was enough to convince Jesse. “He was perfect when we were dating. He always surprised me with flowers out of the blue, he always found time to come over and would force me to eat while I was studying for the bar, he was sweet with my parents and brother, he made my heart skip a beat whenever I saw him and I had to catch my breath whenever he smiled at me.”

“But how do you feel about him now? And be honest with me, Y/N.” You knew he was going to ask that question but you still dreaded it. “I don’t know how to feel about him. I feel like he’s tired of me and I feel bored. I feel frustrated with him but I’ve gotten used to it.” You looked down at the engagement ring on your finger and looked at the diamond on it. “Niles surprised me with this engagement ring about two weeks after I started working at the firm. He took me to get my nails done, helped me buy a beautiful dress and took me to dinner at this French restaurant that I still can’t pronounce the name of. Afterwards we walked around Central Park and then he popped the question. Back then I felt like I was on cloud nine, now I feel like I made the worst decision of my life. Isn’t that funny? How your life can change in an instant. I like to think that he’ll change, that he’ll go back to the Niles I fell in love with but with each passing day the hope just fizzes out.”

Jesse got up from his seat across from you and pulled you into a hug. “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have asked. I just don’t like seeing how miserable you look. You always look like you’re longing for something else and I don’t know what to do to help you. You’re my friend and I hate feeling like I can’t help you.” You hugged him back and shook your head. “It’s something that I’ll have to deal with by myself, Jesse. I got myself into this mess and I have to get myself out of it, or at least make it more tolerable.”

The rest of your lunch break was spent hearing Jesse complain about his tinder dates and boring love life. After heading back to the office you went to gather your things for the mock trial team you were mentoring and went to the conference room on the 15th floor. The students were still on the way so you could set up everything and refresh yourself on the details of the case they’ll be arguing for their competition. On the elevator ride down you skimmed through the packet to get a general gist of what the case was then made your way into the conference room.

Once inside you set up the packets at each of the empty chairs around the table and set the extras in the middle of it. You checked the time, still about 15 minutes until the students were supposed to come in so you had 15 minutes to kill. Thankfully there was a dry erase board in the conference room so you walked over to it but there were no markers. “Just my luck.” You looked around the conference room, checking wherever you could just to find at least one marker that you could use. You were just about to start crawling around to check any nooks and crannies around the room when you heard a knock on the door.

You fixed yourself a bit and turned to the door. “Sorry to bother, I just came to bring these in.” You saw the male at the door with a box of dry erase markers in his hand. Your eyes roamed along his face and once you met his eyes you quickly recognized him. He was the guy you briefly saw in the morning right before the elevators closed. He had beautifully tanned skin that contrasted perfectly with his blonde hair and bright colored eyes. Your eyes quickly traveled to his slightly exposed chest since the top two buttons of his shirt were opened. But you shook yourself out of your little trance. “Thank you so much, I was on the hunt for dry erase markers.”

You walked over to close the distance between you two and stuck your hand out to take the box from him. Your fingers just barely grazed his and you took the box. “I’m Y/N, I work for Baker, Fisher & Ross. Nice to meet you.” You stuck your free hand out to shake his and you had to fight yourself from going into another trance. “I’m Ryusei, I work a few floors beneath you at Jameson & Cole. My boss told me at the last minute that she had thrown out the last dry erase marker and had me go on a supply hunt so that was a pain. So, if any of the big shots at your firm need an assistant please let me know.” He joked and you shook your head as you laughed, “trust me, if you’re annoyed over a last minute task you’d hate working for any of the partners at my firm. They’re all very snooty and think too highly of themselves.” He chuckled and leaned against the doorframe. “Thanks for the warning.”

You spent the next few minutes chatting with him until his phone started ringing. “Fuck, I have to go set up for my boss’ meeting. It was really great talking to you, I’ll see you around.” You nodded and lifted up the box of markers as he started to take his leave, “thanks for the markers.” He flashed a wink at you then turned the hall to go to the elevators.

You stood in place for a moment and collected your thoughts. At the end of the day he was a stranger that you probably won’t see again so there was no need to be hung up on it. So you carried on with what you were planning to do. By the time the students made their way in you had some notes written on the board and you turned to them. “Alright guys, my name is Y/N and I work for Baker, Fisher & Ross and I’ll be your ticket to winning this whole competition. First things first, we’ll do introductions and then do a little exercise to loosen ourselves up.”

The rest of your day went by quickly and then it was time for what you were dreading most, dinner with Niles’ parents. All you had to do was grin and bear whatever bullshit they had prepared for you but biting your tongue was no easy feat. On the drive back home you received a text from Niles that told you to just meet him and his parents at the restaurant. You had gotten used to just meeting Niles at restaurants since he could never be bothered to meet you at home so you two could go together. After a quick drive back to your loft, you showered and then redid your makeup and slipped on a black dress then quickly left to the restaurant.

Coincidentally it was the restaurant Niles took you to when he proposed so all those memories came flooding back. After parking you entered and the host led you to the table where your fiancé and future in-laws sat. “I hope I didn’t keep you all waiting for too long, I came here as fast as I could.” You gave a short hug to both of his parents then sat down next to your fiancé. Surprisingly he leaned over to kiss you and took your hand in his while his parents began to drone on.

Being with his parents was surprisingly pleasant this time. There were no offhand comments thrown your way and they didn’t let their privilege ooze all over the place. Well, that was until Niles announced that you were up for partner at your law firm. His mother spoke first, “oh dear, if you make partner then you won’t have much time. You two have been together for so long and I don’t have any grandchildren yet. When I was your age I already had Harrison and was pregnant with Niles.” You chewed on your bottom lip to try to fight the urge to roll your eyes then you mustered up a fake smile.

“I completely understand where you’re coming from Susanne but we still haven’t really discussed the topic of children yet and making partner is what I really want.” She shook her head and sighed which meant that it was time for her husband to steer the conversation. “Sweetheart, sometimes you have to push what you want aside. I mean, Niles is doing great on Wall Street and is making more than enough to support you and children. What do you think, son? Don’t you want children?” You looked over at Niles, hoping that he’d defend you in this matter. “Well, I do want children,” a genuine smile was threatening to spread across your face, he was finally defending you, “you guys are right. I can support us, baby. I think that’ll be the perfect next step for our future.”

And just like that, your hopes got crushed. “We’ll just have to talk about it more.” You faked another smile as you spoke and you moved your hand from his grasp. The rest of the dinner went by quickly and you walked with him and his parents to their car. Once they drove off, you and Niles made your way to your car since one of his buddies dropped him off. The drive back was silent and it was almost impossible to fight your frustration and bite your tongue.

It was just bubbling and threatened to boil over. Once you two were in the lobby of your building you had to get it off your chest. “Are you serious, Niles? You expect me to give up my career so I can be a housewife? You know how hard I’ve worked for this and you want me to just throw it away?” He pinched the bridge of his nose and turned to face you, his hazel eyes had no emotion to them, just like the rest of his face. “What’s so wrong with that? You knew from the start that I wanted to have kids and at this rate we’re not going to have them.”

Your eyes widened at his words. “We’re only 28. I’m not throwing away anything for children, I don’t care what you or mommy and daddy dearest think. For once I want you to act like my fiancé and support me and my decisions. Just once.” He opened his mouth to reply but you had already gone ahead of him into the elevator and pressed the button to your floor. Just as the doors were about to close a wrinkly hand stuck its way through then a familiar face walked in. “Just in time and my favorite neighbors are here.” You smiled at the elderly woman as she got on the elevator, “good evening Mrs. Bennett.”

“You two look so spiffy! Was it date night?” You shook your head and spoke to her during the short ride while Niles leaned against the opposite wall and watched you two in silence. Just as the elevator was about to stop at your floor Mrs. Bennett gently placed her hand on top of yours, “are you two in search of a puppy? My daughter’s dog just gave birth and we have too many puppies to give away. If you’re not busy just stop by my apartment.”

Niles opened his mouth to say something but you beat him to the punch, “how wonderful, I’ll join you on the way to your apartment and see the puppies.” Niles scoffed and rolled his eyes, “that mutt is going to be your responsibility, not mine.” He muttered and walked out of the elevator once the metal doors opened then you and Mrs. Bennett followed behind.

He went into the direction of your shared apartment and you went the opposite direction. Mrs. Bennett shook her head and looked at you, “trouble in paradise?” You shrugged and followed her to her apartment, “I guess you can say that.” She sighed and decided not to press the subject further. She opened the door to her apartment and right in the middle of the living room you saw a cardboard box with multiple eyes staring at you. “They’re akitas and just take your time with them to find your perfect match. Do you want some tea?” You shook your head and approached the box, there were 6 puppies in the box all begging for your attention. You played with them for a little then held up one, the one that practically clung onto you during your entire visit. He was a boy and had black fur with white spots over his eyes that made it look like he had little glasses. “I think I’ll be taking this one home.”

Mrs. Bennett approached with her cup of tea and smiled, “perfect and don’t worry about paying for him. Think of him as a thank you for all the times you came over to check on me and bought groceries for me.” You hugged her and with a short goodbye you left. As you walked through the hall you held the puppy up as you thought of a name for him. “Spot? Hm, that’s a little generic. Biscuit? I can see you don’t like that one. How about Atlas?” The puppy wiggled in your grip and yipped, which you took as a sign of confirmation. “Atlas it is.”

You unlocked the door to your loft and walked inside, Niles was in the kitchen with a glass of whiskey in his hand. “So you picked one out?” He didn’t even bother to look at you or Atlas as he spoke but you just shrugged it off and set Atlas on the floor. “Mhm, his name is Atlas. Don’t sound too excited.” You watched as Atlas approached Niles and nudged his leg with his nose but Niles just stepped away from him. You patted your thigh which caught the puppy’s attention and made him run back to you. Niles finally looked over at you and then looked down at Atlas, whose tail was wagging a mile a minute.

“Well Atlas is your problem, not mine. I don’t understand how you’re not ready for kids but can sign up to take care of a dog.” He downed the rest of the contents in the glass and put it in the dishwasher. “I’m going to shower then I’ll sleep in the spare bedroom since you’ll want to share our bed with that mutt.” You just watched as he disappeared into your shared bedroom to gather some things then went into the spare bedroom. You looked down at Atlas who looked back up at you with wide eyes and leaned down to pick him up. “Don’t mind him, he’s grumpy. I’ll just shower you with enough love for two people.” You kissed his snout and made your way to your bedroom to get ready for bed.

The rest of the week went by in a blur, you were able to fit Atlas into your schedule easily and even Niles warmed up to him. He even surprised the pup with a squeaky toy one night after coming home from work.

Soon, it was already the big day. The day where you’d find out if you made the right decision for your career path. You decided to wear what you dubbed your lucky dress, which was just a red dress that you wore to important consultations. You did your makeup and made yourself some coffee then brought Atlas to Mrs. Bennett’s so she could watch him while you were at work. On the drive to the office you felt excited, adrenaline surged through your veins and you sang along to whatever song played on the radio at the top of your lungs. You went through the usual morning routine, getting a croissant for Jesse and everything went as it usually did.

The day went by so slowly in your opinion. You wanted to know what their decision was already but you had to be patient. The time soon passed and you made your way to Vincenzo’s with Jesse. He wrapped an arm around your shoulder and kept you close to him as you two walked into the restaurant. “This is your big day superstar, did you pack your things for our move to the top floor?” You smiled and lifted a hand to gently pat his chest. “Once the announcement is made I’ll get my things ready.”

The restaurant was packed. It seemed like the whole office building was invited. You looked around but Niles wasn’t there but maybe he was running late. There was no way he’d miss an important day like this. Or at least you hoped he wouldn’t miss it. “I’m going to get some drinks, I’ll be right back.” You moved from Jesse’s grip and walked over to the bar, there stood Joy. You smiled brightly and hugged her tightly. “Hi beautiful, where’s your knight in shining armor? I haven’t seen him here yet.”

You shrugged at her question and grabbed a strawberry daiquiri, “no clue, I sent a message earlier to make sure he knew where to go but I haven’t gotten a reply from him yet.” Joy raised an eyebrow and even though she hadn’t said anything yet, you knew what was going to come out of her mouth. “I know, just give him some time. Maybe he got caught up or he’s on his way.” She shrugged and took a sip of her beer, “if you insist but I hope he shows face soon. If not, I’m going to talk your ear off about him and nothing will be able to stop me.” You laughed and nodded.

You spent the next half hour with Jesse and Joy then your attention was piqued when Mr. Baker, Mr. Fisher and Mr. Ross stood at the small stage and Mr. Baker tapped his microphone. “Good evening everyone. First off, thank you for taking the time to come and celebrate this event with us. This decision we’re about to announce took so much time and so much debating, I just want to say that both people who were up for this position are more than deserving for this position and it pains us all to offer it to only one person. So, with great pleasure I would like you all to congratulate Mr. Kuon Wataru!”

Your eyes widened at the announcement and your heart sunk to the pit of your stomach. “Kuon got it? He made partner?” You asked your questions to no one in particular and you watched as Kuon got up to thank everyone. Mr. Fisher made his way through the crowd and approached you with an apologetic look on his face. “Y/N, I’m sorry. I fought for you as much as I could but they wouldn’t budge no matter what.” You nodded and downed the rest of your drink as Mr. Fisher placed a hand on your shoulder and gently squeezed it before walking away.

Jesse placed his arm around you and held you close to him, shaking his head. “Fucking bastard, his father made that big donation during our last fundraiser so I wouldn’t be surprised if that’s what swayed their opinions. It’s not like all of us were born with a silver spoon in our mouths.” You felt like you were suffocating, like there were large hands clamping around your neck and they were squeezing down as hard as possible.

“I need to get some air.” You made your way through everyone as quickly as you could. All you had was tunnel vision to the exit, not even acknowledging anyone that was near you. You went out through the side entrance and leaned against the wall as your chest rose and fell with heavy breaths. You went through your bag for your phone and dialed Niles’ number. After a few rings you finally got an answer, “hey babe.” His words were slurred and you could smell the alcohol on his breath through the screen and you heard all the chatter and laughter in the background.

Your frustration quickly rose and you couldn’t even hold yourself back. “Are you fucking kidding me? You’re out getting shit faced during one of the biggest nights of my life? I bet you didn’t even remember what today was. You couldn’t even bother to reply to my text earlier. You know, I had a feeling you’d end up pulling some shit like this but I tried to push any doubt aside because why would my fiancé not show up? Why wouldn’t my fiancé be around for such an important occasion? But it turns out that you don’t fucking care! You don’t care about me and what I want, if it’s not about you getting your way then you don’t care! Don’t bother coming home tonight, don’t bother coming back at all, I’m done with you Niles. This is the last straw. It’s over.” You hung up the phone and tossed it back into your bag.

You felt the tears build up and they quickly blurred your vision. You wiped at your eyes to try to hide the tears, you’d just hate it if anyone came out and saw you like this. You didn’t want to go through the whole explanation of how your life turned to shit in less than 10 minutes. You decided that you should just head home and then you could drown yourself in whatever alcohol you had stored and cuddle with Atlas. You went through your bag to find your car keys and just your luck, they weren’t there. “Of course, I left them in the fucking office.”

You wiped your eyes once more and made your way to the office. You felt your phone vibrate in your bag, of course it was Niles trying to make up some poor excuse to explain why he didn’t show up but you weren’t in the mood to deal with it. You walked inside of your office building and stood in front of the elevators.

For some reason you looked down at your hands and saw the diamond of your engagement ring glistening in the light. The tears built up again as you looked at the ring. You were so caught up you didn’t even hear anyone approach. You sniffled and wiped your eyes then a voice broke you out of your trance.

“Hey, are you alright?”

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[avissapiens]

JBS retrospective.

Jockbull summer was definitely something where I shot for the stars. 15 tasks where everyone else had only 5. Fairly stringent time limited goals that got more intense and all consuming with each set that was developed. I knew I wasn't going to be perfect at it or even approach 50% completion. And yet i still feel fucking amazing to have done it! In an 8 week span i jockified certain segments of my life in ways that really did feel like they resonated through my whole being. It sounds a bit hyperbolic, I know. But I do think that undergoing such a structured battery of tasks, having it constantly in my mind every single day, even to the point that for 8 weeks straight my phone background was some of the images I generated for each set of post diaries did something to me. Thinking about these Jockbull tasks definitely left a mark on my mindset. And the tasks themselves left a mark on my life because I think some of them are simply going to stick with me. 

But they were starting to drag and i noticed myself getting more and more exhausted with..well..everything as the cut came to its end. So it had to come to a close as all good things must

Set A

 Of the tasks that are gonna stick with me here I definitely think elements of the competition task are gonna have a big impact. It was perhaps overenthusiastic to demand weekly competition from other people. But I have noticed my approach to things the longer I've held this task in my mind is a lot more geared towards winning and just enjoying competition in general. It’s still not fully realized yet though. There is more I can do to embody that jock mentality of victory at any cost. Maybe i should delve into some specific self programming so that i take it beyond just video games

The other task I think is going to stick is Baki. I just didn’t anticipate how fucking fun it would be and how much it aligns so well with my particular kink ecosystem. But moreover, I think deliberately pursuing baki rather than just mindlessly consuming it has opened me up for more media exploration, and exploration of the sort that will help me see the archetypes in more forms of art. That definitely had an impact on my vibes sets too. And in the time since then I've opened up to exploring shows like Letterkenny which has a whiff of jockbroness to it.

Set B

I feel like Set B was mostly more geared towards accomplishing a specific goal for the cut. And now that it’s accomplished and thensome I can thank it and file most of it away. Maybe bring some of it back around when I do a cut in future. One thing that will definitely be sticking is the Personal Training element. Keeping this task in my mind has really opened up the possibilities. Especially as I’ve talked it through with Abg and others more thoroughly. I want to keep synthesizing my loves and my passions. I moved here to NZ specifically because I wanted to combine my interests into something niche and eclectic but that could still serve me. And the same goes for Personal training. At first I thought I'd be stuck just working in a gym and I was fine with that. But I want more. I want to be able to take this knowledge, this business, and combine it with the different brilliant works I've already put so much work into. The abyss, the archetypes. I wanna do online training and help you all actually physically attain these goals and help you make a transformation Even more astonishing than my own. Combining Personal training and the hypnotic structures I've created. And I'd love to be able to make something steady and sustainable out of it so I can get my own space and grow even more while finishing my degree here. I know it’s lofty. But I've always put in the work and this is no exception. We’ll see how things go once I've got the quals.

Set C

I truly wish that the meditation task was the one I was gonna keep around. Set C however really illustrated how precarious setting too many things in stone can be. Daily routines, a biweekly creative work schedule, weekly fast days. It was a lot. Things eventually had to give and meditation was one of them. Now that I'm trying to gain some muscle mass, fasting days are actively counter productive. And being on commission mode means that a lot of my creative bandwidth is taken up by those. I will however be maintaining the daily routine. It’s not perfect. It never will be. And it sure as hell isn’t for everyone. But I am very much an abyssal creature of habit and structured chaos. And the creation of a daily routine for skincare, supplements, Breakfast. It all makes me feel a lot better and has 100% elevated my aesthetics. Not to mention really entwining himbo as something I relate with and aspire to more and more. For most of JBS i was also using a pretty strict time table for a bunch of summer related things.

But I've decided to retire it because the longer it went on, the more tired and numb I grew and the lower my success rate with any given day’s tasks were. But it was incredibly successful at the start of summer and allowed me to get a lot done and set a great momentum for the rest of it. My libido never really “went away” during the cut like sometimes happens to bodybuilders, but it defo got attenuated or at least shifted. But holy fuck now that i’m back on carbs you can bet that i’ll be doing task 3 almost unthinkingly

All in all, I really enjoyed this experiment and I’d love to try it again in a different form. Maybe with a wider sample of bros who might also benefit from the structure and accountability. In a way the dudes I generated these with stopped being the main form of accountability for me, and you all reading the blogposts and listening to the Voice logs kept me going instead. So thanks so much. Back to regularly scheduled programming

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