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#and they got alot of other similarities!! and alot of things are suddenly Connecting in yellows mind!!
neptune-ian · 16 days
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hi neptue-ian, ok after reading your asks about dreams i wanna share with you my story so out if nowhere i got to know about someone firstly i didn't pay attention then suddenly i just wanted to take a look which i did and i found a person when i saw him i was so shocked i felt like i know him and a voice came from inside of me he is the one you were searching for. i was like what? it's him and i felt so at peace with this, obviously i was shocked so being in real world i didn't believe my intuition and i didn't pay attention to it but that person didn't get out of my head like i was not thinking of him bcz i didn't believe. He was physically not even my type but i was hearing he has everything you desired for in a man of your dreams i was like 🙄. he was on my mind 24/7 to which i got frustrated like i don't wanna believe this then i thought of tricking my mind by thinking of other men oh he is more of my type look i am more attracted to him etc but i failed and literally i felt how do i explain? like my soul was saying to me please don't think about anyone else he is the one you want. Long story short i kept ignoring this call. So as time passed i noticed that peron is becoming more of my type physically ( i had this feeling like the qualities i want in a person he has all of them so i was more focused on his physical appearance bcz i was finding an excuse to deny him) so i got confuse and bcz he became more of my type(physically) so i got interested in him unintentionally i was looking about his info all the time honesty i was frustrated of my feeling at the same time, so the whole last year i stalked him lol and at the time time i was hearing he is the one why don't you agree? i felt like how is this possible that i am getting signs and how is that even possible of my dream man wish came true? (issues of course) i got many signs whenever i tried to say no it cannot be. And when this year started out of the blue i started believing yes he is the one because i got so many signs. Interesting thing is this year i started talking to him not intentionally i was like oh so you really the one for me, huh? and he was like yeah, i thought it's my mind that us giving the answer bcz i daydream alot. But many times i ask a question and he answers and sometimes i try to find him in my mind and i get different places like now he is here and feeling like this and i got confuse how can i feel this so again i get signs like here's the confirmation that you are connected to him. and unfortunately a week ago he disconnected with me i felt sudden emptiness so i asked for signs and it was a yes i was angry and wanted to cry but i reassure him that he can always come back to me until we meet in 3D, after a day i felt like he regretted that decision and was unsure if I'll accept him back or not? but with my continuous reassurance he agreed. and from yesterday i feel like my heart is at peace. I literally feel like he talks to me and also its like i am guided step by step for this connection a month ago i was into another confirmation things and now i am watching & reading tarot readings regarding him and guess what everything is so similar but i keep a margin of inaccuracy still and these tarot readings that show up on my feed with the progression of this connection. I have been asking many reader as well about this and i am getting same things.
Now instead of being in confusion that whether he is the one or not. Now i am changing my mindset to the belief that i am gonna get my ideal man with my desired qualities and that i deserve this person that i always wanted. ( i am still keeping a margin of him being not that person but also praying that it's him) ugghhh my mind and my heart. (apologises for thus heart felt anon lol but i wanted to tell you)
Oooh that’s a good journey haha! That’s how it should start I think… I mean that’s how a love spiritual journey should start and you are very right to keep some distance with the readings and put that in contexte, perspectives and such. That’s the good thing to do!
Also, I agree with you for you to just keep in mind that you want someone like him whether or not you’ll meet him. That’s a good step to keep moving forward (and still have doubts of course) but to not fall on some tricks by New Age beliefs (*cough* TWIN FLAME *cough*). You are the one deciding what you want with him, you are the one to name him however you want be it « fs », « crush », « bestie », « the one I doubt » whatever 😂 as long as you find peace, learn your lesson and build your life and that you improve yourself that is all that matters. You could even end up with a different person than him but that you still love, don’t have regrets because if you feel in tune with yourself then you are in the right path.
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candiednova · 2 years
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#deltarune#addisons#OK LETS GO TOP TO BOTTOM OF MY RAMBLES#so i had the idea of yknow yellow literally never met spamton (drawings with spamton are my own post canon ideas so they dont count for that#that comes later shshhhhh)#so wouldnt it be funny if they are alot alot like how spamton was as an addison#so yea they want to make it big and impress all their older siblings#blue and pink proceed to be horrified because By Talos This Cant Be Happening#and orange also not really knowing spamton is blissfully unaware#onto next ones i iamgine when yellow and spamton DO actually meet (again in my own self indulgent au)#yellow is thrilled to finally meet their big brother!! and hey they got the same wing thing going on!!#and they got alot of other similarities!! and alot of things are suddenly Connecting in yellows mind!!#yellow and spamton and very talk-with-their-hands type of people! as another one!#yellow is always very freely stimming- their main stims are full arm flapping and drumming with their fingers to music!#speaking of they love very loud music and love making music! theyre favorite instrument is the drums !#and finally on the last two doodles#important to note in my post canon au spamton is able to tranform into his neo form#and yellow thinks neo is the coolest thing to ever exist and first seeing that hes like 'holy shit can we all do that why didnt you tell me'#in which theyre let down being told no all addisons most certainly CANT do that#thus it spending so much time trying to get spamton to tell them how he does that#spamton refusing to say anything besides how much yellow really doesnt want it but at some point he starts to lean into the bit of#telling yellow increasingly impossible/goofy ways it happened#ok i think i got it all out at least the base of what i wanted to#ty for reading this far and goddamnit i forgot my art tag again-#novaart#novart#again ty for reading my ideas :D
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xgummibearx · 3 years
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Hit with a quirk! Hawkes X (F) Reader
(Been taking my time to write here and there, thank you so much for your patience and allowing me to take a short break from this series! For context since I haven't updated in a while; the pro heroes awere hit with a quirk that turned them into children and the reader is UA's adolescent quirk development specialist. she works with children regularly and has been called to help monitor the heroes until the quirk wears off. Hint: all of the fics I am writing for this series connect. Enjoy!)
(X)= your name
warnings: none
(I've never written or even read anything for Hawkes or Endeavor before but!...I'll try! I'm actually going to be loosely basing Keigo as a kid off my own little brother, I feel he would have been similar lol)
"Hey man lighten up, you're a walking lava lamp! that shouldn't be hard for ya big guy." Hawkes was hovering at Endeavour's eye level, wearing a smirk as he crossed his arms. Endeavour growled, glaring at the stubborn bird brained hero. "Hey what can I say it was a good burn." He added with a snicker. Endeavor swatted at Hawkes as if he were nothing more than a pesky mosquito. His phone was ringing.
"Silence!" He snapped, "The agency is calling." He answered gruffly; "what is the meaning of this? I am working on a case!"
"About that sir!" A voice nervously responded, "we were just informed that Eraserhead and Present Mic disappeared while in pursuit of a lead? Regarding that villain you were pursuing..." Endeavor growled;
"Do I look like a street patroller?! Just get a hold of Fatgum; tell him, and stop wasting my time we're professionals!" He grumbled under his breath; "since when did we come to a time where pro heroes needed babysitters?" His receptionist quietly explained;
"That's the problem sir...Fatgum as well as his intern were the first ones on the scene; but...they disappeared as well, and never made a report." Endeavor froze; what was this? The league? All for One? He narrowed his eyes.
"I see...the situation is alot more serious than I thought, thank you for notifying me. Ensure that the rest of our units continue as normal but have them on standby if things get out of hand."
"yes sir..." Endeavor hung up.
"Come on Hawkes..." He grumbled. "We have work to do."
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Hawkes was flying high above the air, they were nearing Aizawa and Hizashi's last known location when he heard a loud shout. Keigo stopped, doing a double take. "HEY!" He looked down to see what looked like a group of kids being chased by some wierd looking guy in a purple cloak.
"Pick on someone your own size you psycho!" He shouted, swooping down and kicking the assailant square in the chest. He was knocked back into some garbage cans, making one of the boys cheer.
"Good hit mister!" Hawkes turned with a grin.
"Thanks, don't you worry I'll make sure you get home..." He froze, his eyes wide as he got a good look at the kids. One of the boys was chubby, wih a familiar wide grin. "...Fatgum?..." The kid with shaggy black hair that looked an awful lot like Aizawa suddenly screamed, pointing over Hawkes shoulder.
"HEY LOOK OUT!" The villain suddenly appearing and grabbing Keigo, not to mention Aizawa's shout startled poor Hizashi and he screamed loudly; bringing Keigo and the villain to their knees. In fear, the boy quickly turned and ran.
"Hey, wait!" Keigo tried to stand but the figure in the purple cloak hovered overhead with his boot planted on Hawke's back.
"Come on!" Taishiro quickly lead the others away after Hizashi, "we have to help him!" Hawkes couldnt move as he reached towards the kids.
"Dammit wait!" He froze as he felt a hand on his head.
"Nice try hero!" The last thing Hawkes saw was a cloud of smoke.
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Keigo was aching all over when he opened his eyes, his tiny body picked up like a ragdoll as the villain lifted him by the scruff of his shirt. The rest of the events were a blur, a huge man that looked like a walking roman candle burst in and punched the villain but as he was picked up, the second that Keigo had touched the man's arm he too was surrounded by smoke.
The next thing Keigo knew, he was sitting in a waiting room with a group of other kids. All of them tired, one kid with particularly shaggy black hair was passed out on the tile floor snoring loudly.
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"We made arrangements for Taishiro and Hizashi already; do you think you could handle Takami?"  (X) shrugged.
"Sure, but if he gives me shit when this thing wears off I'm blaming you!" She chuckled, shaking her head. Nezu laughed, walking alongside her to the waiting room.
"Takami?..." (X) called, glancing around the waiting room. Her eyes fell on a kid with small bright red wings wearing a familiar dazed look. Nezu walked Keigo over, explaining that she was going to look after him for a couple days. The small eight year old boy looked right up at (X) with a deadpan expression.
"So I'm staying with that old lady?" (X) narrowed her eyes, even as a child he had a sharp tongue.
"Keep that up and I'll make you take a bath when we get back home." The boy immediately shut his mouth, remaining quiet until they got home. Keigo was very unimpressed upon arrival as he found himself coaxed into getting a bath anyway. Afterwards as he lay in bed with a sweater that was much too big for him  however, even he had to admit he felt much better.
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"I want chicken nuggets!" The boy declared, his feet on the table and his pitiful wings proudly outstretched. (X) rolled her eyes, he had come barreling into her room at 6am begging to be fed. "I'M STARVING!" He had insisted. She glared at him.
"No." Keigo scrunched his face up and crossed his as he crossed his arms.
"Yes!" He snapped.
"I said no." (X) sighed.
"Well...I said yes!" She smirked.
"That doesn't change anything! You can't have chicken nuggets for breakfast, you're not supposed to have your feet on the table so get them off, and get some manners while you're at it.." (X) grumbled, standing up to the sound of the coffee pot announcing a fresh brew of the nectar of the gods. (X) sipped her coffee slowly, mostly black but with a tiny dash of creme.
"I wanna try some!" Keigo hopped off the table, bouncing at her feet.
"Definitely not, now I am going to wash my face and then I'll make us some eggs okay?" Keigo nodded.
"Okay, eggs are good..." He watched (X) leave then slowly turned to the coffee pot.
(X) returned to find an empty mug left on the ground, a half empty coffee pot and Keigo laughing uncontrollably in the next room. She gasped, he was hanging upside down from the ceiling fan. "KEIGO!?" (X) shouted, running to detatch him. As she got closer Keigo's feathers got caught on the pull switch of the fan and before they knew it he was spinning uncontrollably, was flung off through the air against a wall.
The rest of the morning was no better, he was running around nonstop, even flying indoors and sending things sailing. The school owed her a new set of dishes to put it simply.
Eventually (X) admitted defeat, taking Keigo to the nearby park to blow off some steam. "This kid is going to be the death of me..." (X) moaned, leaning back as exhaustion washed over her. She found herself dozing off, her eyes growing heavy snd before she knew it (X) was asleep. It like it had only been seconds when she was woken to the sound of thunder. There was a very light drizzle but it would definitely get heavier.
Everyone else in the park had left, Keigo was standing on the bench beside her. He was attempting to use his tiny wings as an umbrella. "You look tired...can we go home?" (X) smiled, laughing softly.
"Well aren't you sweet. Okay."
Warm clothes, hot bowls of beef stew, and plenty of  cartoons made for the perfect evening. By the end of their third film they had both fallen asleep on the couch, the tiny boy curled up beside (X) with her arms sleepily wrapped around him.
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It was still the middle of the  night when Keigo woke and was back to normal. It was unexpected, considering him suddenly being full size left him with no room on the couch and he loudly crashed to thw floor.
"mm...Takami?..." (X) mumbled, sitting up slowly. She looked at the floor to see Keigo, staring back up her. He could feel his face burning, the memories of the day flooding in.
"uhm...for what it's worth?...I don't actually think you're an old lady..." He mumbled slowly.
(X) smirked, shaking your head. "Come here you idiot..." Keigo curled back up on the couch with her. "So, you're not going to give me shit?" Keigo chuckled, she could feel his voice vibrate as he slowly pulled her into an embrace. His nose and mouth softly nuzzled into the top of her head.
"Maybe I'll wait a couple days first." (X) giggled, her face pressed into his chest.
"Maybe we should go on a coffee date."
Keigo laughed, "oh fuck off!"
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ashes-in-a-jar · 3 years
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There Are Moments Like These That Keep Me on My Feet
Martin realises a terrible truth regarding Jon's relationship with this new world and has to make a decision on how to handle it.
Hurt and comfort in the Apocalypse and their consequences.
Rated: G
Word count: 2.3K
Tw: non sexual intimacy, memory loss, bad tea
Looking back after leaving Upton House, Martin finally understood. He'd had a feeling, he wasn't completely blind but he had hoped, hoped so badly that he was wrong. That all those times were just a fluke. That he was imagining things. But no, Jon really did forget. It was almost unnoticeable, small things really, but Jon forgot them all.
It started at Kinloss Barracks. Jon had just finished whatever it was the Eye made him talk about. When Martin looked up and uncovered his ears he saw Jon with the tape recorder clicking off, looking pale and rattled. As Jon breathed deeply Martin got up from where he was huddled and crouched next to him, gently cupping his cheek.
"Hey, you alright?"
Jon inhaled one more time. As he resumed breathing normally he turned his face into Martin's hand, lips softly moving against his palm.
"I'm okay Martin. It was just. Alot. Like my first statements at the institute. " He huffed in amused irony and Martin's heart clenched.
"Do you need something? Can I help?" Martin hated how useless he felt when Jon's emotions were at odds with his... Patron.
"It's alright Martin, I'm alright. Maybe just... Stay like this for a bit?" Jon mumbled, holding Martin's hand in place where he was framing Jon's face.
"Okay. I can do that." Martin huffed a small smile and brought the other hand up as well, bracketing both of Jon's sides, making a barrier between him and the sounds of violence outside their little hideaway.
It didn't take long for Martin to slowly begin rubbing Jon's temples and soon enough he was gently massaging his face, trying to draw out the tension set between the eyebrows and beneath the hairline and throughout the pronounced cheekbones.
Jon sighed contentedly and closed his eyes, letting out small sounds of approval every few moments.
When Martin was done, Jon opened his eyes languidly and smiled softly at Martin. "That felt good. Thank you, Martin. For everything."
"It's nothing, I'm here for you."
"I know." Jon took a moment to just look at Martin with that tender but piercing gaze Martin was still trying to get used to ever since they left the Lonely, then took Martin's hands in his and helped both of them up on their feet. "Let's go."
Later, after the village, after the many questions answered and unanswered, after Helen's headache-inducing laugh dissipated with a creak of a door, Jon made a sound akin to a groan-infused sigh. Martin glanced at him and saw he was rubbing the bridge of his nose, moving his hands to his temples. Martin took a step to face him. "Do you want me to do that again?" He asked, raising his arms as indication.
Jon's thick eyebrows creased in confusion "Do what again?"
"You know, in the war zone when you finished…" Martin saw a deepening confusion and decided to forgo the explanation, "Here." He brought his hands up to rub Jon's temples. Once again Jon sighed and once again he thanked Martin softly when it was time they moved on. He didn't mention Martin doing that again afterwards, or ask for it when Martin didn't offer. Which he did every now and then, suspicion growing as each time Jon reacted in novelty.
But that wasn't the only instance. Martin brought with him his poetry book in his pack. When they were able to talk about the carousel again without mentioning the... Smiting, Martin insisted on defending the good aspects of poetry which the Stranger mostly lacked, namely identity and awareness. Jon countered by asking Martin to prove it and recite poetry. "That's not fair, I can't remember them by heart that well."
"Martin, you have a poetry book here, why not just read out of it?"
"You, you want to hear my poetry?" Martin nearly tripped.
"I thought it was obvious by this point there is nothing I'd like more." Jon smiled at him.
Martin recoiled and stammered incoherently. Jon interrupted.
"Martin, stop. I know your poetry is good. I've seen some." Blatantly choosing to ignore his own wince at the circumstances in which he managed to peek at Martin's writing, he went on. "It really is quite good. It'd be a shame not to take the chance to perform a bit of your words. You'll find I make quite a compelling listener." Jon smiled lopsidedly and Martin snorted.
"Okay, okay fine. One poem. And I pick!"
"Fine." Jon shrugged.
Martin intentionally chose one of his more mundane works. About rain and windows of opportunity being washed away. It did hint a bit at the times where his feelings for Jon felt unanswered but it wasn't as... Glaring as others he had.
When he finished he looked up expectantly. He was not prepared for the intensely affectionate expression he saw, nor the tackle of a bear hug that followed.
"Jon! Watch out, we're walking!" He gasped, muffled by the shock of Jon's tangled hair in his face. They had to stop anyway, as Jon refused to let go, tightening his hold and nuzzling into Martin's neck.
"Thank you." He said quietly. "That was... That was more affecting than I thought it would be."
"Really? It's just some words on paper." Martin teased, petting the hair near his face, mainly to get strands of it out of his mouth.
"But they're your words, Martin. They are a, a window into you, how you think and who you are. I don't Look to see what you are thinking a-and the you in front of me is more than enough! Truly! But it's nice to hear a bit more. And it's nice to see that, that I'm there too. This made me really happy, Martin. Thank you."
"O-oh." Martin squeaked, not expecting the forthright reaction. He laughed nervously "Well in that case, we'll make it a, a tradition? Once in a while, if you ask nicely, I'll read you a poem- If you want." he added quickly, feeling a little presumptuous.
"You already know my feelings on the matter. Don't worry, I will ask you again, you can be certain of that." And with that he planted a kiss on the dazed Martin's cheek, readjusted his backpack and began walking again. Martin chuckled to himself and rushed to join him.
But the request never came again. And later, when Martin tentatively asked Jon if he wanted another recitation, Jon's face lit up and said, "So you're finally willing to share? I thought I'd never see the day."
Martin looked at him confused but said nothing and instead chose a different poem about bridges and connections which elicited a very similar reaction as the first.
The request never came again unless Martin offered. Each time he was too afraid to try the same poem lest his concerns would be confirmed. He didn't want to know.
There were other times as well. The time after the Lonely estate when Martin insisted on sitting with their meager supply of tea and talking about small nothings. The tea was nicer than he expected and Jon was practically jovial with giddy relief at Martin's rescue and choice to stay with him, laughing sonorously and uncharacteristically at Martin's silly jokes. Later, he did not recall what they laughed about, nor understood why the tea supply was depleted when Martin tried to remind him. Other jokes in general too. Martin would make Jon laugh and when referring back to the joke, Jon would simply stare at him blankly. Jon did not remember when Martin brushed and braided his ever more tangled hair, fiddling with the stands wondering aloud when he'd done that. Jon forgot when Martin took out his sewing kit and fixed a hole made by the fires of the Desolation, wondering why his shirt suddenly had stitches. Jon forgot compliments, short rests when they quietly held one another close, brief exchanges of reassurance.
Martin tried not to think about it, tried not to make the connection. Tried not to read into the words 'They just get whatever hurts them the most. Even me.' that Jon had said when they were traveling with Basira on her tragic quest. Tried not to remember the times Jon, and even Martin himself, commented about the nature of this place,
'This is not a world where you can trust comfort.'
'Levity off the cards.'
'Nice things, they tend not to stay nice out there.'
But they were there. And he had to face it at some point. Because after they've left the wonderful comfort of Salesa's home, Jon, feeling rejuvenated, said with a dreamy quality to his voice, "Pity. It’s going away. That peace, the safety, the memory of ignorance. It's gone. Like a dream."
"That’s… Yeah, I guess that makes sense." Martin replied, resigned. It was all coming together now and Martin could not avoid it any longer.
Jon couldn't remember. He was the 'Archive' and whatever that meant ensured Jon retained all the pain and fear this world had to offer and nothing else. Jon could not keep the memories of anything nice or happy that happened to him personally in this hellscape. Every good word, every caring touch, every wide smile, bark of laughter. It all faded right after it occurred. Maybe if it was small enough he could remember. But Martin's mothering? Martin's hugs? Martin's tea? Martin's poetry? None of it stayed. Only Martin could remember those moments and what was lost.
As they walked away from the green and the sky Martin fell slightly behind, trying to reign in his tears.
Of course he remembered. This place ensured that Martin would remember so the pain of loss would be ever more acute later. It was what this world was. The worst pain it could inflict on them.
It's not fair! They had just got together, they had just begun to open up, share their deepest facets with each other, enjoy the closeness. Was that all pointless? Were all of his efforts worth anything in the long run at all? Martin felt himself slowly descending into a sharp kind of despair that became heavier and heavier as he sunk deeper.
No! He forced himself upright and shook his head vigorously,letting the tears shake off his face.
No! It was worth it! Those moments are there and they exist, even if the memory is gone. They have value and a worth inherent to them as the Good moments that they are, apocalypse rules be damned!
He balled his hands into fists, silently challenging whichever dread power was listening. They cannot take those moments away! The hugs, the soft gazes, the pure happiness, even forgotten will remain and have their merit. Martin will make sure there are more of them, always more of them, to spite the Eye! To spite the Fears! To spite this place! Jon will get all of the love he deserves, memory or not. Martin will double, no, triple the care he will give Jon, make sure he is okay in the quiet moments, give him a reason to smile.
He will see the braided hair afterwards, feel the ache in his cheeks from a long laugh, feel the lingering warmth around his arms and back, the tingle on his lips. The remnants will give him the strength to stand against the powers that be and retain the hope they cultivated. And Martin will be there, every step of the way. Loving, caring, smiling. Because that's what they deserve. And Martin will fight for it to the end.
Later, after that dreadful hospital and another long stretch of time walking quietly, contemplating. Martin was sure Jon was still agonizing over his decision to help Breekon by relieving him of his suffering, so Martin called Jon to stop.
"What?" Jon asked, confused.
"I am making the executive decision to make a stop and rest. I have a little bit of tea left and I will read you some of my poetry while we're at it."
Jon's face lit up, though still retaining its confused quality. "Alright, if you insist. What brought this on?"
Martin already settled down and began setting up a small fire for the water. "We had a time so now we're taking a breather. The air here is slightly fresher than what it was back there."
"Alright." Jon smiled.
Martin put the small pot on the fire and looked up at Jon still standing over him "C'mere, " he opened his arms.
Chuckling lightly, Jon unslung his pack and sank into Martin's embrace. Martin in turn pulled him in tight and nuzzled the top of his hair.
"I know it wasn't easy back there but what you did, it was the right thing to do."
"How do you know?" Bitterness seeped into Jon's voice and Martin began stroking circles on his back. Jon shuffled even closer into Martin's jumper, burying his face in his chest.
"I just do. You couldn't leave him like that. A small act of mercy. To spite this place."
"If you say so." Jon mumbled into the fabric.
"I do. Now move over so I can get my book." Martin decided to read the sappiest, most Jon-related poem he had, cringe be damned.
"I don't want to." Jon grumbled and leaned in, eyes closed, breathing deeply.
"Okay, we can wait. There's no rush." Martin said fondly.
They stayed that way for a long while until the water boiled over and they drank what was left if that dreadful brew that dared call itself tea. They sat there in a comfort later forgotten, reclaiming depleted energy and regaining motivation. A moment that had infinite value, regardless of what the past held or the future entailed. A tangible instant that was completely theirs within the infinite universe, unending in the singular space and time which no one can ever take away.
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sunareii · 3 years
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OSAMU MIYA ─ GULLIBLE
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sypnosis. you know you have it bad when you let yourself hope of every possibilities, what’s equally worse is people giving you hope, either from your friends, your crush themselves or even you and that’s not the worse part ─ it’s believing them
genre. unrequited love, moving on, slice of life
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♫ AS I’LL EVER BE ─ CHAZ CARDIGAN
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words can’t express how he felt humiliated from his own unharmful doings of believing. and since then he never gives love a chance to tempt him to love in such a ridiculous amount again. not when his heart still aches at the thought of his past with you.
it was simply your highschool puppy love — as atsumu would call it — osamu wasn’t sure when it started but he can recall how you suddenly looked ethereal in his eyes.
it was a day during a memorable spring time. osamu was generally doing his routine after school, walking home with his brother whilst smelling the great fragrance of the season of awakening. he looks down from the mount he was in. in that moment, he was witnessing the most beautiful sight that could affect his entire love-life.
you were under the cherry blossom tree with some of your friends, laughing and playfully hitting each other. baby pink petals slowly showering your head yet stills softly slides down to your hair. your appeal and kind smile made him so drawn to you and it surely didn’t help when he got to know you. he stopped moving his legs to look at you, radiating bubbliness. atsumu calls for him to hurry up in the background for osamu to completely ignore. he keeps his eyes on you, only to be surprised when you looked at him back, smiling before giving him a big wave that osamu has to look around of who were you waving at and the answer lies on him.
spring not only blooms flowers but alsohis affection for you.
it didn’t take long for the two of you to be closer in friendship, considering that you did the first action and it didn’t even matter whether the two of you had the same classes or not. osamu would come to your class and ask you to test one of his food creations which you’re always happy to try ‘cause.. well.. it’s food!
on the other hand, you would come to his practices even if you had any club activities or not. you also came to one of his games in a tournament one or two and osamu is always grateful for your prescence. it also didn’t take long for his brother to pick up on how osamu feels about you and the latter was occasionally held up to torture with atsumus teasing.
osamu really loved you, the smile you make when you see something you’re absolutely passionate about has his heart throbbing, the hum of satisfaction when you eat one of his cooking had to be one of the things that sounds like melody to him, your adorable giggles being the number one though.
he mistakenly thought he was making progress with you as months passed. he notices the small physical touches you did to him and it made him feel gooey inside.
while walking home from school, osamu thought he’d hear another relentless teasing from atsumu but instead came a statement that osamu wished he didn’t held on for so long in his heart. “you know, i think y/n likes you back”
osamu internally chuckles at the idea like he had never thought of it before, he proceeds to deny it “you’re speaking nonsense, ‘tsumu” atsumu was probably blind at the little smile his twin was attempting to resist.
“no seriously, hear me out! don’t they seem alot more er.. jolly around you?” atsumu started. osamu scoffed at him “they’ve always been like that”
“nowadays they seem to skip whatever they were doing just to come to your game? you saw what happened earlier right?” atsumu questions
it was about during one of their plays in the gym in the same day the regrettable conversation took place. you were sitting in one of the benches watching them play. osamu would catch a glimpse of you giggling at who knows what and at the time he presume you were snickering at him which always end up of him staring at you for too long only for atsumu or mostly kita to have his head back in the game.
“i’m pretty sure they thought of something funny to themselves”
atsumu continuous to blabber examples of your possible languages of your attraction to the grey haired miya. during that night, osamu nonstops toss and turning himself in his bed with a smile.
then comes, what now he calls, the dreadful day
it’s the day where he hated himself in every way possible, the embarrassment still washes over him like waves of the ocean every time he something reminded of him of this sad day.
the confession was like a sudden bolt of lightning, something that shocks him, something that made his hearing numb in which he could only his sharp impulse.
“kita and i are dating!”
osamu felt stupid, he felt his dignity and confidence plummeted. it was difficult to face you or even himself or anyone at all after that. atsumu could only symphatize at his other half, he, afterall reckons himself as one of what lead osamu on.
the weight of guilt and remorse clings into him until now, years later and now he has established his dream restaurant. osamu couldn’t see you much even if he wanted to since you’re busy helping his upperclassman with his own work. sometimes atsumus voice would chime inside his head for time to time.
“you haven’t moved on from them yet?” it spoke, no maliciousness are intended when atsumu asked him about it.
‘samu can’t blame him for asking and instead of a confident no, what comes is a broken yes
he didn’t know what could’ve happen if he wasn’t so hopeful then, if he had never expected something more to happen, or atleast if the two of you kept in touch then maybe he would still be comfortable to face you.
osamu stops walking down the street in a mediocre autumn day as he sees a familiar face at the street next to him. of course, it was you, who else could make him stop in his tracks? you were glowing with grace, the sight somehow similar to the time he first fell inlove with you ─ you haven’t noticed him yet, maybe it’s better that way — yet it only felt nostalgic, something he’d miss but can’t really come back to.
maybe he doesn’t love you anymore, ‘cause now when he looks at you, he just feels shame of how much he hoped for a connection, a result he aimed for. it isn’t the sweet yet agonizing feeling of butterflies in his stomach or the desire to have you in his arms anymore.
to answer atsumus question, yes, he has finally moved on from his feelings for you — or maybe he had moved on a long time ago? — osamu just haven’t moved on from his feelings towards himself.
it makes sense, he had only been mad and disgraced at himself for his foolishness. love and hope could either wish for you the best or just hurt you like that, unfortunetely for osamus case, there was more hope then love in what he was craving for.
osamu internally gives a soft, almost sorrowful but he doesn’t let it get through, laugh then a smile paints his lips. “heh, was i so gullible?” he thoughts to himself
he looks at you for the second time before continuing his stroll, letting the autumn leaves fall against him, he nods while holding a giggle coming from his mouth. “yeah, i was gullible” he says to hope
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WB is the worst when it comes to DC. It's no coindence that Constantine is leaving 'Legends of Tomorrow" in the wake of the upcoming HBO Max show. And this pandemic ruined a lot of plans. As you said "BL" wasn't meant to be in the Arrowverse put when it happened they were all gung-ho for it. They had plans for Jeff to visit Central City and for Anissa and Grave to chill in Gotham. But then the pandemic and whatever BTS drama that got "BL" canned. Like *something* happened. It got an early renewal in Jan then it was cancelled in Nov. And CW didn't even bother to have proper trailers for new episodes. Don't tell me somebody on the show didn't rub the network the wrong way to result in that level of pettiness
Yeah, WB isn't just the worst with DC, but really the worst with favoritism in my personal opinion
They tried so hard to make the DC streaming service a huge success but as soon as they saw it wasn't going to be they got rid of everything like it was on fire, HBO Max is the new golden child so they're cutting their own throats in other areas to make it succeed- IE: Theaters
My poor Suicide Squad 2 ;_; no I won't say "my THE Suicide Squad" it won't roll off the tongue it was a sacrificial lamb to the damn streaming service :(
I know it's an unpopular opinion to not be all over streaming but they're really clearly cutting way more than just corners in order to feed that specific beast and try to make it compete with Disney+, that's why they're starting to draw the string on the Arrowverse :/ The same thing happened, I think, with the DC streaming service though, when they saw that the biggest success of DC was the Arrowverse, they decided to pull their dying streaming service as well as the DCEU into it to pump the Arrowverse up more, now that the Arrowverse is starting to go under- with three shows being gone, Batwoman being in questionable territory, and the two biggest successes of the year being largely disjointed from it (Superman and Stargirl), I think they're going to try to scramble it like eggs :/ They're doing the same with the DCEU to a degree though, by having loosely connected stories that do more universe hopping and tone changes (IE: Joker coming out just months before Birds Of Prey and having been preceeded by Shazam!) I think since they're seeing more promise in that approach right now for the movies, they might be trying to do the same for TV- or they're just trying to let the Arrowverse die of neglect so they can pump up HBO Max like you said
Ofcourse now that WB has been bought by Discovery, we might get some big changes to this; Discovery already said they wanted to pour seven BILLION dollars into DC properties specifically in the first year alone, and I know the rumor is that they're only going to try to gloss up DC so that they can sell the assets to the highest bidders once their "probation" period ends but like.... seven billion is a hell of alot of gloss..... and if they can start pulling in more numbers like Joker, Superman & Lois, and The Suicide Squad (wich may have not been a huge hit at the box office but wich reportedly smashed the HBO Max numbers enough that WB is circling James Gunn like a starving shark), then I have a hard time believing they'd be wanting to get rid of it, especially when, let's face it, DC is easily the most well known and most marketable asset Discovery has ever had and probably ever will have purely because of Superman alone, you can't find a person anywhere who hasn't atleast heard of Superman, regardless of how much the film properties are hit-and-miss financially, I have a hard time believing anyone would just throw that kind of name power to the wolves....
But onto Black Lightning, I actually have a pretty strong theory about that one
I'm almost certain that China Anne McClain is why the show was canned
And do not get me wrong, I don't mean that in a snippy way, but China quit Black Lightning pretty urgently- to the point that she only wanted to do limited episodes for the final season
Backing up a moment here though, let me explain why I think this was the nail-in-the-coffin
Black Lightning was very quickly becoming centered around Lightning specifically
That doesn't mean to say that it wasn't still Jefferson's story and that Anissa wasn't still important, but Jennifer was getting set up to be The Powerhouse of the show, with the bulk of the drama probably surrounding her and the thought of her potentially taking on her father's mantel
It seemed like the idea of Black Lightning retiring or atleast putting on the suit a little less was starting to become a thing, and with Jefferson firmly accepting his daughters as part of the world of Metas at that point, that would have lead to Anissa and Jennifer taking much more of the spotlight than they had in the beginning- that's a natural progression of things, and although I actually prefer Anissa's storyline (it's just more my personal cup of tea), I will readily admit that Jennifer was the one who had the ability to carry an entire season's worth of story on her shoulders.... not so much Anissa, who has her wife (so romantic subplots are pretty toned down), her powers are developed and stable (nothing quite like the learning curves Jennifer was facing), she has a stable job and a stable superhero identity- two, in fact-, so no literal schoolyard drama or issues with "Am I in my father's shadow? Is this how the world sees me and do I want them to see me this way?" much like what Jennifer was starting to experience in the end of the show either
TLDR Anissa mostly had her shit together, wich is great for her, but it doesn't lend to being able to carry the most dramatic storylines like it does with Jennifer, who's still figuring out pretty much everything
I think Jennifer was already starting to take a very large amount of the story as of the last season and even starting to steal the spotlight before that, if they were to come back for more I feel like she would have been in a place of being much more obviously groomed to take on the main charector status wile Jefferson stepped back just a little bit to be more supportive to her journey instead of the other way around
And the show could still exist very much as Jefferson's story wile that story happened to center on Jennifer
.....Buuuuuuuuuuuuut that's where the problem comes in
China said before the show was cancelled that she was going to step down from playing Lightning because she wanted to focus on her faith more and be removed from anything that wasn't "in service to God", wich is totally fine for her, but it does put Black Lightning in a bit of a difficult position because the charector they were gearing up to make their breakout star was suddenly going to either have to pull a Winn and just... be.... gone.... or have to get recast
To be entirely honest, I'm not sure why they didn't stick with the recasting instead, I thought Laura Karuki did a fantastic job as Jennifer and the "Am I Jennifer or am I JJ?" story would have been a great thing to explore for an entire season, but if I had to guess, they maybe just didn't want to mess with it?
Black Lightning had good numbers but it wasn't in the top five or anything to my recollection, not since it's premiere season anyway, and it could have been a compound decision of "We weren't going to keep this up much longer anyway so let's just take this as a sign to wrap it up", although I think that the way the recast was done could have presented a stable option for them if they had decided to give it a go for a full season, although maybe that's just my opinion and they initially made the recast so that the people behind the curtain could see if Laura would work well enough as Jennifer and when they decided that the vibe wasn't right they went on ahead and pulled the plug rather than risk getting the same um... resistance.... than Batwoman met over their recasting choices
Although I could go on for days about why that situation is different (to be clear: I do like Ryan quite alot but I don't think the Batwoman situation was nearly as seamless as Black Lightning's in terms of recasts, but that's another story for another day)
TLDR I think if China had stayed aboard they would have gone on for atleast another season or two, but there are some shows where members of an ensemble cast are so essential that their leaving is too big of a blow to stay through
It's much like when Dylan O'Brien had to bow out of Teen Wolf for a little wile, I think you'd be hard pressed to find a fan who absolutely loved season six, and even before that people were having a hard time staying with a lack of Tyler Hoechlin, with some even stepping away when Crystal Reed left, even though- at both of those points- most of the core cast was still there and at no point did the titular main ever leave, I feel like Black Lightning's situation is very similar, people were just too invested in Jennifer
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As my current obsession The King: Eternal Monarch comes to a close, I want to do a review of the drama with some things I’ve been thinking about. This is all random and coming out as I reflect.
OST that makes me think of the drama: Gravity by Kim Jong Wan. One of my favorite songs from the drama and when it comes on it suddenly brings me back to some pretty epic moments.
Favorite OST: Orbit by Hwasa. This song was and is on repeat throughout the drama for me. Although it wasn’t played alot towards the middle and last half of the drama, it’s still superior.
OST I Didn’t Really Listen To: I Fall In Love, A Quiet Night and My Day Is Full Of You. Nothing against these songs, they’re all nice and I am listening to one or two of them since the dreams ended, but it didn’t grab my attention as the other songs.
Favorite Lee Eul scenes: Gon feeding Tae Eul and her joking about sneaking out touched the domestic side of me and I am living for it. Honorable moment is the neck kiss. I’ve never seen a neck kiss or a kiss this intimate in a drama before. I know he did something similar in another drama, but for me this is the first. I just love how perfectly placed it was. Tae Eul literally gave him her neck to do this. And I researched that neck kissed are pretty intimate and initiates a pretty intimate follow up. Now if Gon was trying to say something, I’m sure we understood and so did Tae Eul.
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Favorite Kiss: The final kiss. The reason I like it a lot is because of how natural it is. Gon leaning down, smiles, Tae Eul leaning in and Gon swoops in. His lips pucker up to meet Tae Eul’s and the height difference is super cute even though she’s sitting on the table. They follow up with more kisses and the happiness on their face is what nails it for me. Honorable mention is the bedroom kiss.
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Funniest Moment: When Gon prepared leaves in case they get stuck in “that time period”. Tae Eul’s face 😂
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Favorite Side Ship: Eun Sup and Yeong. They are both so hilarious and off the bat had so much chemistry. They were definitely a side ship that I was invested and interested in. Their final scene together was their parting and it got me emotional because Yeong broke down his wall and gave Eun Sup a hug which says a lot about his stoic demeanor.
Favorite Ending Scene: Oh man. I remember watching this episode and it did not have the main couple together because they were parted for obvious reasons. I remember Tae Eul having a hell of a night and then everything happened so fast. Gon rode in on his horse, blood shed, tears fell, hearts broken, glasses shattered, epic soundtrack, announcement of future Queen and of course epic hug. And then it was out, next episode. I remember grabbing my phone and shouting noooo. I was on the edge of my seat and the final reunion of the two finally happened and the ending credits rolled in. This was an epic ending scene.
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Favorite Lee Gon Outfit: It’s the simple black look and overcoat, but the material and the way he fit the form, I just really like it. Also he did some pretty bada$$ things in this outfit. So I find myself always thinking about this look. Some honorable mention is the iconic diamond fit, simple white and black vest (when he takes the overcoat off; it looks extra handsome) and then the light colored fit during his dates with Tae Eul.
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Favorite Jung Tae Eul Outfit: Tae Eul’s fashion sense is simple and comfy. She is often wearing baggy and loose jeans, one color tone sweater and a long jacket. My favorite would be this look because she adds a bit of sophisticated with her dress white and black turtleneck.
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Most WTF moment: When Lee Lim killed his doppelgänger self after going back to try and warn him. I was so surprised how fast he beheaded himself.
Underrated Character: Shin Jae. He is the other only character where I was in invested in his story. Kim Kyung Nam did a great job acting the pain and angst of his conflict with his mom. It really brought his character out.
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Characters I did not care for: Lee Lim and Prime Minsiter Seo Ryeong. They both did were the anatagonist, but honestly did not impress me. I was never quite sure what Lee Lim was actually plotting and he just kept bringing people over and killing people. Sure he had the upper hand in some cases, but honestly his greed and lack of planning is what killed him. Idk what he was doing for the last 70 years or so. As for Prime Minister Seo Ryeong, nothing impressive about her. Although the only time she was tolerable was in the new timeline in the final episode where she was in jail and Luna came to visit her because it looks like they’re sisters now. They interaction was sweet and familial bickering.
Character I didn’t expect: Luna. I was looking forward to her character and how she’ll play into the storyline especially with how the cast members spoke about her during interviews. And honestly at one point I felt like she was one of the only one who shook Lee Lim’s core which was super entertaining to watch while it lasted. I liked how peeved he was by her and she just went about her way, unbothered. I also realized how the writer was creating Luna’s character to be good and bad. She poisoned Gon, stabbed Tae Eul, but didn’t kill her father, didn’t stab Tae Eul enough to kill her even though it looked like she did. Tae Eul trusted her enough to let her go and be with her own dad. Luna’s story is still a mystery.
Biggest Twist: when Gon realized that Shin Jae was actually from his world and said he was Shin Jae’s King. 🤯
Favorite Lee Eul Hug: This one. No need to explain. 💯
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Relationship that surprised me: Luna and Seo Ryeong in the new reality. I really enjoyed their “sister” dynamic in episode 16 where Luna had a name change and became a cop and Seo Ryeong was unfortunately in jail, but their interaction even tho they both pretended not to be close, they were. It was funny and the best performance from Jung Eun Chae. Quite honestly I feel bad about where her character eventually ended. Her greed got the worse out of her.
Favorite Side Character: Yeong. I really like his character with his side glances/ glares at Tae Eul and his love and dedication to Gon. I’m glad he kept his promise to himself to protecting Gon. Also Woo Do Hwan did a great job playing two characters.
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Plot I am still confused about: the little boy with the yo-yo. I wasn’t quite sure how he fitted into the entire drama. He definitely peaked my interest and he was obviously traveling back and forth, but I feel like his story never connected to the main plot. Honorable mention was Park Jiyoung, the pregnant woman. Like what was the point of crossing her over?
Character Death: Prince Lee Jong In, I had a feeling he’d died but also didn’t expect it. Honorable mention is Seo Ryeong’s mom. She was collateral damage. When Seo Ryeong called to ask her mom what she had for dinner a code for her doppelgänger, and she answered jajangmyeon, the chills.
BONUS!
Favorite Product Placement: CHICKEN! Man I can’t tell you how bad I wanted korean fried chicken because of the drama. LMH ate this at every chance he got and he made me crave it. They did a great job selling it to me. 😅 Honorable mention is the coffee drink that everyone dranked and man when they shot that scene where Yeong had to throw the drink to Shin Jae and still had to show the product name, lmao the commitment. 🤣
Worse Product Placement aka the one that was painfully noticeable: Okay; almost all were in our faces, but the painful was the one where Tae Eul was using the Kahi lipstick/cheek/moisturizer all in one stick. 🤣 when she explained the product to Jang Mi during a stake out I nearly passed out from secondhand embarrassment. And honorable mention is the CELLRETURN LED mask although when Eun Sup used it to be iron man that was cute.
Overall rating: 8.5/10. There were some choppy moments here and there and some loose ends and characters that I didn’t quite understand or had to really think about it. But it was never enough to say this was a bad drama. In fact it’s been a while I was this invested in a drama where I had to come up with theories and such. Not a lot of drama makes me do that. As a fan of BTS, theories comes as second nature 😅.
There were some moments that happened off screen and later on we’ll realized something had happen prior which at the beginning was hard to decipher, but once I realized the drama was doing that, I enjoyed it because sometimes it’ll be a pleasant surprise. I love how the drama hardly opened up each episode with how it last ended, they always gave us a backstory/content prior.
I think Gon and Tae Eul’s character had growth and progression, especially Tae Eul who had to unpack a lot of herself. The more the drama went on the more we got to see different sides of her which peeled some layers she built up as a detective and some described her as cold. I think with all that she went through definitely shaped her quite a bit. And Gon I felt started off the show strong. He had strong morals, grasped things quite fast, but was also caring, strong headed, dependable and responded rather than reacted. Of course he has his moments of being childish and playful, but it never strayed him from being off or uncharacter like. I think Tae Eul describes it perfectly in one of the episode that he knows when to joke despite a traumatic childhood. She is simply saying he’s grown into a decent man who doesn’t let a past define him, he lives it fully and that comes off in all his actions throughout the entire drama.
As for the other characters, I am glad we got to see Shin Jae’s character development as well. I’ve said it before, but he was one where I felt the writer went deeper into his story. Yeong would be the second, although he remains a mystery even until the end. I never quite understood where he stood except that fact that he deeply cares and loves his King, and in what context, only he would know. The writer has written strong second leads before and sometimes even third leads, but I would say wasn’t her best, but again it’s not so bad where you would say the drama was a complete failure or unbearable to watch.
And finally I can’t wrap up without saying something about the cinematography. Because man there were some beautiful shots, some CG works and some transitions or angles that really came into play to make the drama what it was. I don’t have it, but one of my favorite is when Gon is poisoned and falls down and it transitions to his younger self, that was breathtaking. An example of the angles and transitions is below and it was dramatic and the camera got to play with all its angles. All this for a dramatic handshake and of course my favorite soundtrack adds to the flare.
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((I don't think I went through and did edits for this section...sorry in advanced 😂 second part of Undertale story))
He always claimed there was nothing left but I didn't believe him for one second! Settling at the bottom with the doors opening to darkness I stepped out without another thought so use to the sight but the slight whimpering from the elevator said not many people cared for the dark and stopped me in my advancement.
"Guys, I promise nothing is going to jump out and get you. I've done this so many times and it's always fine. Look, maybe this will help."
It didn't illuminate far but just enough as magic flooded my eyes and a simple bone appeared in my hand. It was probably the coolest glow stick around.
"Plus this thing can do damage too! So it's light and defense!"
One hit point of damage but they didn't need to know that part; Nicole stepped out first taking my empty hand and squeezed while waving the others out.
"Come on, the sooner we start walking the faster we get out of this place."
"Yeah, there's another elevator that takes us up and then out to hot land!"
Kloey had to tug Macie along linking hands and forming a human chain.
"F-fine...but make this a fast walk!"
Knowing that Macie was scared of something almost seemed like a useful weapon at school if she ever caused more issues and I was happy to use black mail if needed. With a slight pull we started on as I held the purple glowing bone out away from me lighting up the floor and some ahead of us; papers scattered everywhere and some trash but nothing to dramatic. I waved the bone around the sides showing off that there were just boxes and nothing more even in the direction of places I wanted to explore there wasn't much at all...one super big box but I couldn't open that even if I tried.
"Whats all in these boxes anyway Winny?"
Kloey spoke softly so not to startle anyone as we had mainly walked in the quiet.
"Parts, scraps of ther projects and unneeded tools. Alphys comes down here if she really needs something and knows it's been packed away but other then her most of these will probably go to waste."
"Why not give them to the humans?"
"Because we got these from a human. There's a big trash dump somewhere and that's where all of these were scavenged from."
"Oh...so humans were, dumping into the mountain for a long time."
"Yeah sadly."
She stopped there letting the silence join our company again for a bit more until we all screamed when Macie screamed so blood curdling I thought she was hurt.
"Something touched my leg! Oh my god something touched my leg!"
She ran around releasing her hold on Kloey to hide behind me grabbing my shoulders and shaking me.
"Kill it!"
"Macie stop!"
I hurt her elbowing into her ribs but it was the furthest issue from my mind as I turned and glared.
"Will you relax!? There is nothing here that can hurt you! It was probably just a piece of paper fluttering up from us walking and creating a breeze!"
"N-no!"
She was actually on the verge of tears shaking like a leaf when Kloey came around and held her.
"T-there were fingers! I f-felt at least two fingers brush my ankle!"
"There is literally no possible-"
"👇📫♒♏⚪◽📬📬📬"
((H-help...))
The girls screamed again but I panicked, wingdings, I knew them well given the fact that it was the only other language I knew and the only language Daddy and Uncle Papy knew besides English. He taught me that it was our family's language and I loved that I knew it. To the human hear it probably sounded like jumbled up backwards talking but to me it sounded like...home.
"🕈☟⚐ ✋💧 ❄☟☜☼☜?"
((Who is there?))
"Winny...w-what are you doing!? H-how do you know that it's staying!?"
Macie grabbed my arm shaking me but I yanked free as Nicole answered for me as I stepped away slowly towards the voice.
"You guys don't talk to her as much as I do or have...Winny's first language isn't English obviously since she's a monster kid. It's Wingdings."
"Wingdings?"
At least Kloey was calm as Nicole contiuned.
"Its just a language for her, her Dad and Uncle. From what she's told me no one else knows it."
No one else was suppose to know it so that's why hearing it here in the lab was just as terrifying. Did Daddy find out and come to cut us off and get hurt? But that...voice didn't sound like his. It was deeper and in pain or just so low on magic it hurt.
"👍✌☠ ✡⚐🕆 ✌☠💧🕈☜☼ 💣☜✍"
((Can you answer me?))
"✡📫✡☜💧"
((Y-yes))
I could feel coldness sliding up my back like a hand aiming for my neck as I released the bone letting it float further ahead illuminating close to the ground and finding someone I never knew, never saw even amongest the other monsters and I wondered if Daddy or Uncle Pap knew him. I thought they were also the only skeleton monsters around yet the ones laying on the floor on his back looking like he got ran over by a truck. His skull had cracks in it that seemed old so at least they weren't something to worry about. There were holes in his hands that layed limp on the ground scuffed up slightly from where he had fallen and dirt all over his clothes. He was a mess but he was alive who ever it was.
"✡📫✡⚐🕆 ✌☼☜📬📬📬☟🕆💣✌☠"
((Y-you are...human))
"☟✌☹☞ ☟🕆💣✌☠ 👌🕆❄ ✡☜💧📬 ✋💣 ☝⚐✋☠☝ ❄⚐ ☟☜☹🏱 ✡⚐🕆 ⚐😐✌✡✍"
((Half human but yes. I'm going to help you okay?))
He looked so weak and I think I saw just a bit of annoyance in his eye sockets as they looked me over but he was definitely not in a position to deny any help regardless.
"Winny..."
Nicole stepped closer laying her hand on my shoulder as she knelt down at my side.
"Sorry but, can you really help him?"
"Yeah I can...I have too. Sorry guys, tour is cut off early either way it seems."
I could hear Macie grumble as Kloey only nodded as I turned my attention back to the skeleton who's breaths came out as pained groans. Hovering my hands over his chest not knowing fully where he was actually hurt a soft green glow emitted slowly whisping around my skin and floated down into his shirt towards the bones hidden behind it.
"Whats that? Is that...your magic?"
Macie came towards me slowly probably wanting to be closer to the light it gave off yet still far enough from the unknown monster so it couldn't touch her.
"Its healing magic that Uncle Pap taught me. He's alot better at using it though so what ever I'm able to do can probably only be enough to make him more conscious."
His head rolled to look at me more directly from the corner of my eye as I looked up to Nicole with slight frown.
"I guess you should have stolen your mom's phone after all for this adventure."
"Yeah...but hey, at least we can all help carry him out if he can't walk."
I was glad Nicole was so nice and was a human that would prefer to befriend all the monsters then be scared or disgusted by them unlike some other people I knew.
"🏱🚩✌🏱🚩📬📬📬👎⚐ ✡⚐🕆 💣☜✌☠📪 🏱🚩✌🚩🏱✡☼🕆💧✍."
((Pap...do you mean Papyrus?))
I met his eye sockets with a small smile and nod.
"☟☜ ✋💧 💣✡ 🕆☠👍☹☜📬 👎⚐ ✡⚐🕆 😐☠⚐🕈 ☟✋💣✍"
((He is my uncle. Do you know him?))
His sockets widened noticeably enough as it seemed he was finally looking at me for real, his once fuzzy and unfocused eye lights steady.
"☟☜ ✋💧 💣✡ 💧⚐☠"
((He is my son))
"What?..."
I couldn't even answer back in wingdings feeling his words jump around my head with how for sure he just spoke them. Neither of them ever talked about their parents; I asked Daddy alot when I was younger if I had any grandparent's even and now that I thought on all the interacts he always seemed sad or confused. Like he tried to remember fully but he just...wasn't able too. And he seemed so quick to contiune adding on to the shock some more.
"Papyrus...and Sans...they are my sons...I haven't seen them for, a very long time I think."
"You think?"
He groaned getting the strength suddenly to move wanting to sit up as I stopped the magic and helped him to move till he could lean back against some boxes.
"You may not know much about healing magic...but it's stronger then you think..."
"So it's...helping?"
"Yes...thank you."
I was relieved that I was doing enough to help him and knew I could focus on the new information that still wasn't fully connecting.
"So you're their Dad...they never, talked about you..."
He hummed softly closing his sockets leaning his head back flexing his phalanges and moving his legs around like he was testing their function. Kloey, Nicole and Macie all sat around and behind me like backup incase something happened even if they couldn't do anything even if it did.
"What is your name?"
"Tell me yours and I'll share mine."
He chuckled some opening one eye that swirled with purple magic similar to my own.
"I don't even have to check your soul to know you are Sans daughter...he was always one to be suspicious of others on first meeting...my name is W.D. Gaster...and yours?"
"Winny Font...and these are my friends Nicole, Kloey and Macie."
"Friends?"
He scanned them over probably checking them, his eye lights lingered on Macie probably seeing the fact that was defiantly not the type of soul to befriend someone like me.
"Interesting."
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Chapter 27: Starlight’s Mother, Part 3 - Where Did She Die?
Starlight: But wait… if Sunset is both my mother… AND Sunburst’s Father’s little sister…
Starlight turns towards Sunburst
Starlight: Sunburst… that makes us cousins!
Sunburst: Oh my gosh… you’re right!
Starlight and Sunburst has always been close friends, Sunburst was Starlight’s only friend before getting his cutie mark brought him to Celestia’s school leaving Starlight behind that would end up practically being the final straw for Starlight who was already dealing with a highly secretive but well-intentioned father and no true mother figure to care for her when Firelight was working. As they just discovered now, they were related the whole time through a common link with Starlight’s mother who also happened to be Sunburst’s aunt.  Sunburst looks on over to his newfound Aunt.
Sunburst: I guess I should start calling you my Aunt… but wow… my father has been looking all over the world for you… I don’t know how he’s going to take it that his search has been in vain and you’ve really been dead for so long…
Sunset: Sunspot’s been looking for me this whole time...?
Stellar Flare: *sigh* Yes… though maybe not for the whole time you’ve been gone… he was with us for a good while, up to and including when Sunburst got his Cutie Mark... 
But once he realized you haven’t shown up at all for about a decade he decided to try to look for you, and he was so dedicated in trying to find you that he pledged he’d only come back if he had found closure. He still wrote letters to us every week or so to inform where he is, give us input if we had anything to ask of him, and/or to assure us he’s safe. But he obviously still hasn’t found the closure he’s wanted.
Looks like we just found it for him…
Sunset lowers her head
Sunset: Oh…Sunspot… he didn’t have to leave his family behind to try to find me… I guess I should have told him not to look for me either before I went…
Stellar Flare: And now that I know that you were her all along… now I understand why he never gave me or Sunburst your name… cause of a similar reason Firelight didn’t tell Starlight about you...
Sunset: Do… you know where he is right now?
Stellar Flare: I think in the most recent letter he sent, he said he was going to New Haven?
Twilight: New Haven? Isn’t that the small town in between Klugetown and… Nightmare Cliffs?
Time suddenly feels like it slows down for Sunset as she hears a mention of Nightmare Cliffs
Sunset: Nightmare… Cli-…?
*THUNDER BOOM*
Most of the Thunder strikes have been generally muffled now that they were in the house, but suddenly a close one makes a huge boom that startles the whole group. And at the same time, Sunset has her hooves on the sides of her head as suddenly she remembers something. She remembers a storm, but not the one currently raging above Sire’s Hollow, but one at the edges of Nightmare Cliffs. Two shadowy pony-shaped figures in front of her, and a 3rd much smaller figure up above her.
The rest of the group just watching as Sunset suddenly froze up, eventually Sunset heaves her chest as if heavily breathing despite no longer needing to as a spirit.
Starlight: Mother! What’s wrong?!
Sunset: I… remember… a little more…
Starlight: Huh? Remember what?
Sunset: It’s… not alot of details still… but... Nightmare Cliffs was where I died… I’m now sure of it!
Everyone in the room gasps that mentioning Nightmare Cliffs has resurfaced some memory of Sunset’s death. It seems it will just take mentioning a few key details about what happened in order to unlock Sunset’s full memory of how she died.
Twilight: Is that the only thing new you remember now?
Sunset: Unfortunately, yeah… anything else is information you already know or doesn’t entirely matter. The three anarchists just appear as shadowy figures, two were facing in front of me, and another smaller one flying above me… and that it was storming at the time. But if there’s more things that can point towards what happened, and what was at least one of their names… I might be able to get my full memory awakened.
Starlight: At least we know where you died now, that’s still a pretty big jump from where we were… so Sunburst’s Father is currently in a town near there?
Stellar Flare: He’s certainly been looking everywhere if he went to a small town like New Haven…
Sunset: Well, if you listened to our conversation… dedication to one goal seems to run in the family. I don’t think my brother was an exception, you could also say he wasn’t named Sunspot for nothing. He was pretty good at spotting/finding things out, he certainly never lost a game of hide n’ seek when we were kids. Sometimes I’d even enlist his help when tracking down some threats when I was still Princess Celestia’s Protege
Starlight: In hindsight, Sunset and Sunspot certainly sound like a solid pair of names for siblings. Not to mention we have Sunburst too. All ponies who happen to be named in some way after the Sun.
Sunset: Our family’s been deeply connected to service of Princess Celestia for generations. I’m not even sure how far back exactly, though I’m willing to guess our ancestors include some of Celestia’s most loyal guards or staffers. Don’t suppose you know who it may have been, Princess?
Celestia: I’ve had many wonderful staffers or guards over many generations, it’d probably take some time to find out which ones ultimately led to you, Sunspot, and now Sunburst and Starlight.
Starlight: I’ve alway felt like being named Starlight meant I was more likely former night guard or staffer related in my ancestry, but then again… the sun itself is a star, so it may be a little more vague then I realize.
Sunset: I suppose it’s a good time as ever to go see my brother, especially if he’s been searching for me for so long. I’ll be bringing him back to Stellar Flare and Sunburst for good too. Though it’s going to be a pretty long trip from here to New Haven...
Stellar Flare: Not totally… Princess Twilight actually has a little trick for us to get there quick: Portal Gum! She and her friends have been using them since yesterday and 2 weeks ago to get to and from all around the world instantly. We can get to New Haven pretty quickly... always pretty handy to have that genie magic of hers!
Sunset: Oh yeah, genies have some impressive magic given they’re stock full of soul magic aren’t they? Though first… we should probably discuss how we’re going to do this.
Stellar Flare: Hm… how about me and Sunburst go in together to see him first, and then at some point we’ll tell him that his search is over. And that’s when you’ll walk in
Sunset: Alright, that sounds like a plan…
Stellar Flare grins and winks
Stellar Flare: If there’s one thing you should know about me my dear sister-in-law... is that I’m always chock full of plans. ehehehe!
Twilight pulls out a piece of gum to allow Sunburst, Sunset, and Stellar reunite with Sunspot over in New Haven. She blows and soon an image of a rather rickety tiny town shows up
Twilight: Here’s your portal to New Haven. If you can, try to bring Sunspot back here too
Sunburst: Of course, he may even just want to use the portal to his advantage by simply bringing anything he wants to keep from wherever he’s staying. Seeing Sunset’s spirit will bring the closure he’s so sorely wanted, he’ll want to move in back with me and my Mom for good.
As Sunset, Stellar Flaree, and Sunburst get ready to reunite with Sunspot. Some of Twilight’s friends get in a comment on what’s happening thus far.
Applejack: Ah lot o’ reunions happening today, ain’t there Twilight?
Twilight: Sure is, Applejack. But they were all needed, once we discovered this. We’re getting a lot of answers about some important questions, not to mention bringing closure and a chance for friends to talk with beloved relatives and/or other friends of their own that are among the deceased.
Rarity: All these bittersweet, but also happy reunions… I’m starting to fear my eyes are going to have no more tears to shed, with so many of these happening in a row!
Rainbow: Even I’m getting a little emotional about what we’ve learned so far! Sunset’s seems like such an awesome pony... and thanks to her we understand why Starlight’s magic is so amazing!
Scootaloo: We sure do!
Sweetie Belle: Now we sorta have the full context for Starlight’s cutie mark!
Starlight turns toward the 3 fillies and smiles
Starlight: Yes, I now understand my cutie mark much more then I did even just hours ago. So I’d like to thank all three of you. Once we’ve figured out everything that’s happened to my mom... the next step is deciding what I’ll do now with these revelations...
((Story continues after the break))
Stellar and Sunburst go through the portal, Sunset just says behind the portal until they’ve found where Sunspot currently is. Though she stays behind because as Stellar planned, she’s going to come in as soon as Sunburst and her inform Sunspot that his search is over. Sunburst looks around the small town, and very few amount of ponies who don’t even bat an eye as strangers come through a portal. Sunburst looks around the small town, asking what few citizens there were of a light yellow, orange maned unicorn with a cutie mark of light blue clouds.
They point to one particular house, Sunburst and Stellar thank them for the directions. Stellar heads over just outside the door… or rather lack of a door since none of the houses in New Haven really had one, while Sunburst fetches Sunset to come on over from the portal. Stellar & Sunburst head on in, while Sunset waits outside. Stellar & Sunburst then find Sunspot sitting nose deep reading a book.
Stellar: Sunspot, dear?
The voice of his wife surprises Sunspot, and with the book down his appearance in full view. He doesn’t have the mohawk he once had, instead it’s a pretty disheveled and long mane, and he’s even sporting a large beard.
Sunspot: Stellar… Sunburst… did you really come all this way on the train just to see me?
Stellar: We… actually came through a different, and much quicker way. But we hope you have been well, I get all your letters. So I know you’ve been ok this entire time, certainly doesn’t look like you’ve kept up your hygiene though...
Sunspot: Aheheheh… yeah… I’m sorry... it’s just I’ve still been on this search for so long… but…! I think I recently found a major clue when I searched around the top of the Nightmare Cliffs...
Sunburst: Um, Dad… about your search… you have no need for clues anymore…
Sunspot: Huh? What do you mean by that?
Stellar: Sunspot… dear… your search is over…
Sunspot gets out of his chair to stand and looks puzzled
Sunspot: Just what are you implyi-
Sunset’s spirit then walks into the house right in front of her older brother’s view. He’s mouth agape at first, wiping his eyes to even see if this is real. Sunset takes this as a need to speak to help convince her she’s really there
Sunset: I’m sorry, Sunspot… I’ve been dead since barely a week after I last left Sire’s Hollow… I’m afraid your search has been in vain…
Similar to Firelight earlier, he falls to his knees at the confirmation that Sunset, his sister, has been dead all along. Though unlike breaking down like Firelight did, he silently tears up and quietly says...
Sunspot: …I knew it
Sunset, Stellar, and Sunburst all gasp
Stellar Flare: What do you mean you knew it?!
Sunspot: It… relates to the clue I mentioned…
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Sunspot brings out a jar, and within it… a disembodied yellow horn. Sunset takes a look and just as suddenly as when Nightmare Cliffs was mentioned, she reacts putting her hooves on the side of her head again as more memory pours in. This time remembering a large rock that was dropped on her head at a precise spot that broke off her horn and gave Sunset a nasty head injury, preceded by and followed by, the sounds… of a child’s laughter.
Sunset: Aaaaagggggghhhhhh!
Sunspot: Sunset! What’s wrong?!
Sunset: Ergh… just… I… remember more… of the moment I died… this wasn’t what killed me exactly… but a big rock dropped on the base of my horn, and it was heavy enough to break it off and I got a brief concussion…
Sunburst: Then that horn in the jar…
Sunspot: Is all that’s left of her body… of course, it being just a yellow horn couldn’t 100% confirm it was Sunset’s... But… when I found it after carefully searching all around the top of the cliffs… I think my heart sank thinking it was hers… and now I know for sure it was…
Stellar and Sunburst both being unicorns themselves reflexively shiver at the sight of Sunset’s horn. The loss of a horn is many a unicorn’s worst fear.
Stellar: Sunset… did perhaps a stalagmite from the cliffs, fall and break your horn? Perhaps then you were fell down into the water not able to swim due to your concussion... and thus drowned…? Perhaps your death may have all been an accident?
Sunset: No, I was on top of the cliffs, I wasn’t down by the ocean where cliff stalagmites could fall on me. Somepony dropped that rock on me, on purpose, and thus crippled much of my control over my magic… it most certainly had to have been a catalyst for my death then… I still don’t have names or the exact moment of death made clear… but… I’m getting there… one more push could do it… if there’s something else that triggers more memory… I feel like it’s close.
Sunspot: A lot must of happened… but… can we begin with… how are you even able to appear after death? This seems like something out of Star Mares, but it couldn’t be that but for real… otherwise you would of been able to do it the moment of death…
Sunset giggles a bit hearing Sunspot mention one of his favorite book series.
Sunset: It’s… not quite the Star Mares force ghost thing… but basically Princess Twilight’s dragon son Spike summoned my spirit via a powerful gem called a Dragon’s Tear on Spike’s necklace. that’s how I was summoned here. It’d take a while to explain everything at once about our… let’s just say afterlife I guess.
Sunspot: I’m surprised there even is an afterlife at all… it astounds me. But I guess I did hear something about Dragon Tears having incredible powers in the hands of a dragon. Spike’s Dragon Tear is what saved Twilight’s friends in a battle in Saddle Arabia. Whatever the facts about our afterlife are though, I am so happy I get to see and talk to you again, Sis. I wish I could hug you again, but I bet I’d just go through you.
Sunset smiles, and decides to try to surprise him
Sunset: Go on, try anyway.
Sunspot: Why? What’s the point?
Sunset: Just do it, bro!
Sunspot: Well alright… but if I fall over…
Sunset: This is starting to sound like whenever I prank’d you when we were kids. But you can’t exactly tell Mom and Dad to ground a spirit *giggles*
Sunspot: That just makes me think that I will fall over *he spits his tongue out at his sister*
Sunset stretches her hooves out into a t-shape anticipating a hug with a smug look on her face
Sunset: Only one way to find ouuuuuut!
Sunspot anticipates he’ll fall over but even if he does, at least he’d be having fun with his sister again and make her laugh. So he gets in closer fully expecting to just slip through, but he is then surprised… with an actual, honest and surprisingly warm hug from his sister that he’s been searching for any trace of for just about an entire decade.
Sunspot: Wow… I didn’t expect Spirits to be so warm… can all Spirits actually hug anypony?
Sunset: Only those who were blood related, lovers, or close friends. I unfortunately wouldn’t be able to hug your wife for instance. But Sunburst probably could, he’s my nephew after all
Stellar shows that by trying to touch Sunset but her hoof simply just goes through like nothing was there. Sunburst approaches to ask for a hug
Sunburst: Mind if I give that a try?
Sunset: Of course!
Sunburst gets a warm hug of his own from his newfound spirit Aunt.
Sunspot: This is all quite interesting, I’d certainly like to know all about what’s been learned if I can
Sunburst: Princess Twilight, Princess Celestia, Spike, the rest of the Elements of Harmy, and a few other ponies are back in a portal back to Sire’s Hollow. If you have any stuff to bring back from this rather rickety home, you can move back in with us pretty much immediately. Now that we’ve found your sister at last, even if it was finding her spirit more then anything.
Sunspot: Of course, now that I know at least the conclusive part of my sister’s fate. I can finally return home for good.
Sunspot turns toward his wife
Sunspot: I’m sorry I made you wait, only for my sister to have been gone long before I even began my search…
Stellar: Oh it’s ok, dear… both me and Sunburst knew you were on a noble cause… and you at least kept us updated where you were, we missed having you at home, but we understood why this was important to you. Especially now that we know Sunset Shimmer of all ponies was who your sister was the whole time… she was a pretty important pony, not to mention she also turned out to be Starlight’s mother…
Sunspot: *gasp* Sunset, you were Starlight’s mother?! I remember Starlight from my time in Sire’s Hollow… but I never knew you married Firelight…
Stellar: I… can only recall that I saw Sunset visit Firelight from across town. But never really got any farther in knowing their relationship. it was before you moved in with me at Sire’s Hollow after our marriage in Canterlot. I didn’t even really get to know Firelight much until Sunburst became friends with Starlight. I’ve always wondered why Firelight didn’t have a mother around for Starlight, but I guess I didn’t realize that the time I saw Sunset may have been more then a random visit from Celestia’s protege at the time.
Sunset: I had a highly secretive wedding with just me, Firelight, and a trusted royal staffer in Canterlot to handle our vows and could keep a secret. They were allowed to mention it to Celestia, but only that I was married, and not who I married, but with some assurances that I wasn’t like… marrying somepony who was a threat to Equestria. I wish I could of gotten a normal wedding, but that was just too risky. I was still hot on the trail of many enemies.at the time. The next few years I managed to get most of them locked up or reformed, but who knows what the future held.
When I felt Equestria was likely to be safe in the time Celestia could find a new protege, I proceeded to start carrying a foal, step down from being Celestia’s protege within the first few months, give birth to Starlight about 6-7 months later… and unfortunately, ended up dying at Nightmare Cliffs while on one last job to save Equestria close to 3 weeks later…
Sunspot: I see now… Perhaps, I’ll have more of a reason to come back to Sire’s Hollow. I can reunite… with the niece that I didn’t even know that I had.
Sunset smiles
Sunset: I’d appreciate that very much, Sunspot. How about we get going back now?
Sunspot: Sure thing, I don’t actually have a lot of stuff to bring back, so you can probably close that portal once I’ve gotten through. I’ll certainly take back the Jar with your horn, the others will want to know the updated facts about your death, and the horn will be evidence. Anything to help you jog your memory, and figure out all that happened.
Sunset nods. Stellar gives her husband a smug look.
Stellar: Are you gonna do anything about your rather… disheveled look? *giggles*
Sunspot: Well… I’ll try to find a barber who can get me my ol’ mohawk back up, but I kinda want to keep the beard.
Stellar: I… guess that’d be ok… I do kind of like how rugged you are now~ Though can I at least ask you to trim it to a reasonable length?
Sunspot laughs
Sunspot: Sure thing, dear. I’d be alright with that
Sunspot, Sunburst, Sunset, and Stellar all walk back to the portal. Another family reunited, and a mystery closer to being solved once and for all.
UP NEXT: Chapter 28: Starlight’s Mother, Part 4 - The Tragedy of Starlight’s Past
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idk-my-aesthetic · 4 years
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U know how in the comics Aang starts rebuilding the air nation with ppl who are basically converts to their religion? By like teaching them about the air nomad’s ways and stuff?
What if he gave some of them air bending using energy bending? And they could start re-building the air nation and it’s culture by teaching them everything!! They could even start moving back into the temples now that they could fly and rebuilding
They’d even have the bison!! According to the wiki aang found a living herd after the war !!
Idk just. As a Jewish person genocide stories are really really personal to me. And the thought of being the last of my people is terrifying
I just really want the air nation to have a chance to rebuild in a natural way. And I think that like letting ppl choose to convert and gifting them with air bending would probably be the best way
Ik aang’s kids and grandkids have air bending but trying to rebuild an entire nation from one bloodline is.... not the best idea
And I also know that in lok a bunch of ppl are given air bending, but that whole story really rubs me the wrong way (no hate to lok though!! There are parts I like!!)
Under the cut is basically an explanation as to why I take issue w/ it and find it mildly offensive/an essay about cultural appropriation in general lol. but i don’t wanna kill ppl’s dashes so if you wanna see the explanation check there 
but i really think that aang like.... allowing ppl to convert, and teaching them, and gifting them w/ airbending in the most natural/best way for that story to go and i wanted to share that!! :) 
anyway time for a whole essay because i.... apparently need to explain and justify every single one of my opinions. i’ma blame the adhd. 
I have 2 main issues w/ the new air bender plot. a) the air Nomad religion/culture is pretty explicitly seen as a closed one and b) it’s sort of a cop-out.....
so... first:
 Air bending is pretty explicitly a huge part of the air nomad culture and religion and is extremely spiritual. bc of how religious and spiritual it is the idea of ppl just.... randomly being given it really rubs me the wrong way.
It’s really really hard for me to explain this or come up with an irl example, bc these ppl didn’t ask for air bending, or try to gain it in anyway. So it’s not really their fault. But to me it feels almost like accidental cultural appropriation? If that makes sense
Which like. cultural appropriation is obviously bad. Even in the comic I originally referenced (the promise) Aang is initally really really offended by the people practicing the air Nomad religion when he first finds out!!! Which he should be!!!
There’s a difference between cultural appropriation, culture appreciation, and sharing culture. The first is bad, and the second 2 are good when done correctly.
Ima use an irl example w/ Judaism just bc using this personal experiences is apparently the only way my brain knows how to explain things
Scenario 1: Amanda (who is xtian) decides to research the Jewish holiday of Passover and the traditions behind it just bc she’s interested in it
This is cultural appreciation! She’s just learning about smthn she finds interesting. This is generally ok! although in some cultures there is knowledge that you are not supposed to know or discuss if you are not part of that culture and you should 100% respect that if it is the case 
Scenario 2: Amanda learns about the Passover seder and decides to throw one herself
Dont fucking do this omfg. This is cultural appropriation. Passover is a super important and religions holiday! It’s one of the high holy days and celebrating it on her own isn’t ok! 
Scenario 3: Amanda asks her Jewish freind Alex if she can come to his Passover seder
This is cultural appreciation and cultural sharing!! It’s totally valid!! She respectfully asks to join in and be included! 
it’s diffrent from cultural apropriation for one huge reason. she is joining in, rather than celebrating it on her own with no jewish ppl present 
Scenario 4: Amanda eats gefitlefish just bc she likes it 
this is appreciation! even though there are no jewish ppl involved! bc gefiltefish isn’t a holy/religious/spiritual thing. 
different aspects of different cultures have different levels of importance. as a general rule, if smthn is holy/religious, you should not do anything with it, unless invited by someone of that culture. if it’s not then you can generally do it on ur own (though there is some grey area there. ie, moccasins are smthn that aren’t religious to native americans, but if ur not native you shouldn’t be producing and selling them. if you want moccasins by them from actual natives) 
scenario 5: amanda contacts a rabbi and starts the conversion process 
this is...... just conversion lol. when she is finished with the process (which can take months/years) she’ll no longer be xtian and be jewish!! just as much as anyone who was born into judiasm. she’ll be able to host her own seders and any of her children will be jewish as well :) 
sorry for the really long thing!!  but i felt it was necessary to show the difference between some concepts that seem similar but are actually vastly different!! 
anyway, i hope y’all understand the difference between cultural appropriation/appreciation/sharing. if ur asking urself “ok why does it matter tho” friendly reminder that alot of irl ppl have been murdered for trying to peacefully observe their cultures/religions :) 
including the air nomads! (hey segway...) 
they are literally hunted to extension because they are part of one culture/religion. you could argue it’s a racism thing (which it is) but race, culture, ethnicity and religion are all inherently tied. see: almost every non-xtian religion worldwide 
SO. when you consider that a) the nomads were killed for their religion b) airbending was incredibly significant part of that religion, isn’t it weird that random people who have 0 connection or interest in that religion suddenly have airbending?? 
again it becomes like accidental cultural appropriation. which you can’t really blame the characters for in-world
but, these aren’t real ppl. they’re characters in a situation that was written by real ppl, real ppl who can and should be criticized 
not that i’m trying to call the creators bigoted in anyway! this dosn’t seem like anything that was meant to be offensive. and it’s not really that offensive unless you think about it. to me it just seems like a plot point that wasn’t fully thought through. i don’t bring it up to shame the creators, just as a way to show others why it’s smthn not to be repeated 
and, to show a better way to do a similar story 
the reason i went so in depth w/ the explanation of cultural appropriation vs appreciation vs conversion is bc i wanna show why a different way of approaching a similar story would have been better
the reason i think my whole idea (of ppl basically contacting aang or the air nomads, converting to the religion, and then being gifted air bending through energy bending) is better than ppl being randomly gifted it is bc conversion takes work 
to convert to any culture or religion you a) need a connection to someone in that culture (usually made by reaching out to a religious leader) and b) need to actually be accepted by that group in order to be considered one of them. it takes work and dedication. it’s a literal transfer of culture!! it’s just... ack i’m not good at explaining it 
but dosn’t it make so much more sense that ppl who actually worked to integrate themselves into the culture and become one of them are givin airbending? not because it’s a privilege but bc they need to first become part of the culture in order to have any right or claim to it 
but by just giving it to random non-benders it’s basically the reverse!! yes they later learn the culture and religon, but???? thats not how that works??? wtf??? 
i feel like i’ve been talking in circles and i’m sorry if i’ve bored everyone to death but i hope u understand my point. 
anyway! next thing! (i swear this part will be way shorter) 
by just making a bunch of random ppl airbenders it basically retcons one of the longlasting effects of the 100 yr war and almost just... erases the impact of the air nomad’s genocide 
which. is gross and uncomfortable. genocide stories are touchy subjects and smthn that need to be treated with respect 
just giving random ppl airbending it’s almost like the genocide didn’t matter at all. which i take a huge fucking issue w/ ok and i don’t feel like i need to explain why 
instead of a natural rebuilding of the air nomads it’s just fixed with spirit magic. it’s just... an insult to the really compelling and well written genocide story that was in atla and an insult to the irl ppl who related to that story 
so. yeah.... again i’m not trying to call out the creators, i again think this plotline was more accidentally insulting than purposefully 
i already propsed a better way to do it by allowing converts to gain the ability to airbend. (hell it dosn’t even need to come from energy bending or aang. the air nomads were incredibly spiritual, maybe a spirit gifted it to the ppl who earned it instead of random fucking ppl) 
but the other reason that converts instead of just.... random ppl gaining the ability is better is bc there aren’t gonna be that many ppl to convert!! there’s not gonna be some sudden boom in the airbending population!! theres would still be a story of the nation slowly healing and rebuilfing itself instead of the insulting sudden magic fix
oof. sorry for the long freaking thing. i literally went into this just wanting to share an idea and instead spent over an hour analyzing this stuff lol.... 
i hope this was coherent but if anyone’s got questions about anything i said feel free to @ me or shoot me an ask :) as long as ur polite and stuff i’ll answer to the best of my ability 
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mangodid · 4 years
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Problems within the DID social media community that must be addressed.
Preface: The DID/OSDD community has the potential to be a great, supportive, informational place. I have found a support network between systems in this community, and for that I am grateful. However, there is much toxicity and misinformation present. Only a small handful of people (maybe around 5 on tumblr) seem to actively present correct information and uphold the standards of support and healing expected in any mental illness community. Below is a list of problems I have noticed once becoming active in the community. Hopefully this post will open some eyes and have people acknowledge that there is much progress to be made in the DID/OSDD community.
- The "all alters are valid" rhetoric that causes alot of harm
• Race, and how claiming "alters of color" or alters outside of ones race has become a "woke" form of cultural appropriation. This ties into how white people have always desired bodies of color without the consequences of being that race. Think body altering, big lips, darker skin, but as an alter.
1. White systems cherry picking the poc they want to listen to, aka whose opinion validates their racism, and taking that as the be all end all, saying they got their advice from systems of color to make themselves look "woke" but refusing to listen to those who talk about how harmful claiming "alters of color" is. I already dont take these systems of color telling you it's okay to have alters outside of your race seriously because none of them seem to know how to use "poc" correctly.
2. Most people in the community acknowledge that excusing an alter's abusive behavior is bad, but fail to realize that racism is systematic abuse and they are playing into it.
3. The excuse of "this alter formed from trauma so it's okay" don't use caricatures of an experience that is not your own to project your trauma onto.
4. Often these "alters of color" fit various harmful stereotypes, like a brown/Black woman alter who is aggressive or the sexual alter.
5. People saying that system diversity is good. It really says a lot about their healing process if they feel the need to make their system racially "diverse" to affirm their validity instead of working together and accepting that they are a collective
• Systems being fine with openly broadcasting that they have a socially inappropriate alter.
1. Alters don't form out of nowhere, they form based on your understanding of the world. Much of the community agrees with this, but the moment you say "oh then that means your n*zi alter reflects your beliefs" suddenly they switch it up and say there's no connection.
2. Alters are still connected to the system, they are not uncontrollable separate entities. Anything they would do is something the collective would do.
• Rise of n*zi alters in a community where many are the target of them.
1. Do i really need to say anything about this one?
- Fakeclaiming, misinformation, and the search for validity
• Quick to jump at anybody not displaying certain very specific symptoms. Most of the time, the things people call fake are other symptoms of DID not commonly spoken about, such as switching in an unnoticeable way, having many alters, and having introjects.
• The demonization and ostracization of alters who act out. Everyone reacts to trauma differently. And there's no point in demonizing a part of you, because that's what these alters are. To do so is basically a form of self-deprication and self-harm. It leads to further barriers between that alter and the rest of the system, impeding the healing process.
• Posts with bold, unheard of claims, with no sources, being presented as fact. Like ones saying there are 20 different types of persecutor/protector alters.
• The pressure to be as overt as possible, and if alters seem "too similar" or "too indistinct", you must be faking.
• The pressure for alters to fit into a label and if they deviate they're fake, alters expected to stay stagnant and adhere to their "role", the pressure for alters to even have/call themselves a role, and the pressure to be a completely distinct identity.
• The fear surrounding the concept of integration. It does not mean alter death, it doesn't even necessarily have to mean alters fusing into one. It can mean the breaking down of dissociative barriers and the facilitation of better communication. Sometimes integration even forms more alters as an act of healing.
- The feeling that you must disclose extremely personal information so others can judge whether you are valid or not
• Including but not limited to: discussions of trauma, alter roles, triggers, alter names, number of alters, treatment status
1. Not only is this a complete violation of privacy, it is also impossible and inconvenient for some systems due to dissociative barriers and number of alters.
(And another that may not seem as important but I feel as if it's a direct result of the others:
Much of the community being focused around memes. Normally this wouldn't bother me too much but the fact there is so much misinformation going around and all people are doing is reblogging every single dissociation meme they can find is alarming. If someone is questioning whether they have DID or not and they go into the tags and see nothing but memes about hosts and persecutors fighting, they wont get much out of that. What you put on your blog is up to you, but if you have a big, impressionable following, seeing memes that often present DID as being the same way for everyone is harmful.)
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caryssa83 · 4 years
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So now I'm aware that the sudden loud screeching noise from my son Ramani , is another vocal tic. All this time I thought it was him being silly or due to his adhd being hyperactive.
Sitting together his explaining himself to me he keeps having the urge to screech and made me realise that this is what it was all along, an involuntary vocal sound called a tic!
Were still both learning together new symptoms thay appear suddenly and I'm always making my son feel free and comfortable to speak to me about anything new or anything bothering him. We both have similar characteristics and he also knows I have my own motor tics.
After having to watch him at a young age having many motor tics such as involuntary eye rolling movements to a point I thought it was a seizure I had to take him to our local gp and get referred to a specialist for child development to find the cause.
At the child development appointment We was told it's a habit and that he will out grow it! I felt we was ignored.
Some months later my son developed along side his eye rolling tics, a mouth opening or what I'd say a mouth pulling tic.
Not long after showing ocd behaviour and hyperactivity he started to develop another tic having to lick his lips over and over again until they was red raw and cracked. This was for around 6 months on and off.
Again docs and specialists told me it was a habit and he outgrow this. Now after some more time my son had eye rolling, mouth pulling, licking lips and then developed a grunting sound from his throat. Grunting is a vocal tic I had researched and to which I tried to stress to new specialists who we was referred to and was ignored again!
From the age of 3 to aged 7 my son developed both vocal and motor tics lasting many years on and off and waxing and waning... grunting, sniffing, saying inappropriate words, eye rolling and more movement tics I was fully aware after my research that this was a criteria of Tourettes syndrome.
I stressed to many specialists and to our family that this is what I believe it was and we still ignored.
I started to then keep a diary myself of all tics and new ones, also new behaviours and I also video his worst days.
School didnt notice no tics also when we was at the doctors appointments he never showed tics, how come? Why? I stressed myself how could this be possible noone sees his tics other than being at home with myself or with his father at weekends!
After speaking to his teacher one day asking if his seen any tics, I was told that my son never showed any tics in school and was told maybe he was stressed at home!
Wow now I'm to blame! Teacher thinks im lying!
Later after some time I asked his teacher to watch a recording that I had of my son sitting calmly and relaxed on my sofa watching tele.
His teacher was shocked! Told me my son looks calm and not stressed and has never seen this in his lessons. Now my son is aged 8 here by then. Around this time his younger brother Rys who is 1 year younger than him started to now develop motor tics, excessive eye blinking, nose twitching, lip licking and sniffing! Now this is serious, I want answers. I'm now having to take Rys for assessments too.
We attended many appointments and more referrals were done but, one specialist tried accusing me of emotionally abusing my son Ramani because I was taking him to too many diffrent doctors and not getting a diagnosis. Sometime after Rys showed signs of tics, my eldest son Rye then started to having a mouth opening movement and eye rolling tonone side then developed sniffing and muscle pulling in the neck!. Now theres definitely a genetic thing going on here and it most definitely isnt from there dad because they have diffrent dads. Not only had my eldest now got tics but also dermatillamania where he picks at his skin.
It wasn't until I had my last referral to a London tourettes specialist that I finally after 8 years of fighting and trying to support my son that the doc see my son and questioned him about his tics and family background which I stated his younger brother has now started to develop tics. The doctor then asked to show him a video I had and within 30 seconds of the video being watched he diagnosed my son with tourettes and ocd!
The relief I felt, I did it, I won the fight, I knew it!
Now since the diagnosis for Ramani and then continuing to support my other 2 showing challanging behaviour, Ramani started year 7 secondary school and by Easter that year he was becoming difficult. Poor attention, restless, tics becoming more apparent, impulsive behaviour and more. After some more assessments he was developed with ADHD and put on medication.
Rys later was having problems with ocd behaviours having to do routines and equal things out to feel right, he also was diagnosed with trichtilomania where he pulls his hair out. After more assessments Rys was diagnosed ODD oppositional defiant disorder. Now as a family we have a lot of things going on. But seems theres a strong connection from my Gene's and all neurological.
I have Bipolar disorder, BPD, tics, and OCD.
Ramani at aged 12 was then diagnosed with paranoia and possible Bipolar! We are told to keep a diary of any odd behaviours than usual. On high Days he wont sleep or eat, gets goofy, acts drunk and needs alot of my attention. When low mood he cant walk up, is extremely tired and cant do anything.
Or days his manic and down together where he suddenly becomes tired after being active and goes to sleep then wakes 1 hour later being active again.
I also have my youngest boy Kodie. His 6 years old. I said for the past 2 years that Kodie has no signs of tics or behaviour problems. Aged 4 Kodie still has no signs and I'm happy because surely one my kids need to be free from problems!.
Kodie shows signs now aged 6 of dyslexia but still early days to test I'm told.
Anyway recording Kodie singing a song and looking closely to him guess what?, his got a lip licking and lick biting tic! Oh my god. I'm now just shaken and scared what the future is for him now. His mouth red raw and sore. How can this happen? Not my little boy.
To be continued...
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nosarocelena · 5 years
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The white lion
Soooo this is my first post, if this seems familiar to you, you might have read this. This is from one of my books in wattpad.
Prompt: this takes place when haggar shot the wormhole but instead of being separated she change the course of the wormhole and separated the Paladins from the castle
"AHHHHH!" Were heard as team Voltron are about to crash land onto a planet
Lance's P.O.V
I groaned as I sit up, looked around the dark in my cockpit in panic
I pressed the comms "guys? Guys come in is anyone there?" I heard static at first before Hunk answering "y-yeah yeah I'm okay just hit my head a little bit" soon I heard everyone groan in pain as they all woke up.
"Is everyone okay? Are you're lions working?" Shiro questioned as I placed my hand on blue's controls "Mine Isn't working"
"Me neither"
"Same"
"Ditto"
I tried to talk to blue via connection "Hey blue are you okay??". I waited for a few minutes then she finally responded "Yes my cub Although it might take a while for me to start up again why don't you talk to the others first while I try to fix my self" I felt her leave our connection then I start to talk to the other Lions
No one knows that I have a connection with everyone's lions and I plan to keep it that way. I just don't want them to know because as far as I know the only one who was close to have a connection to their lions was Shiro but it lessened when he defeated Zarkon at the astral plane
Yep Black told me
I don't know how I managed to get a connection to all of the lions before their Paladins but I'm not complaining, To be honest I'm a bit glad that I could talk to someone else.
I opened up a connection with all the lions aside from blue "Hey guys are you all okay? Are any of you down?" I heard purrs of agreement from the others
"I got a fried circuit on one of my controls I tried to tell Pidge but they won't listen to me! Hell they can't even hear me!!" I heard Green huff as I heard a faint 'language' from Black
Chuckling I turned on my communicator again "Hey Pidge why dontcha check the circuits of you're controls?" I 'suggested' I heard a few shuffles before feeling Green come somewhat to life
"Well that did something thanks Lance I still gotta try to light her up besides how did you know?" I heard Pidge question "I uh had the same reaction while messing with the circuits"
"Alright If anyone can find a way to get their lion working again contact us immediately" I heard Shiro said before he turned his com off Followed by the others
I let out a sigh as I went back to the lion's connection again
"Thanks for that Lance I just kinda need to rest that magic took a toll out of all of us" I heard Green thank me
"Yeah I need to rest too my mechanical body isn't responding to me" Said Yellow
I then felt Blue enter the connection "My cub It seems that you are bleeding"
"What?!" Me and the others questioned but theirs is more demanding
I looked at my side then saw that I indeed have a bleeding wound
As I realized that I winced in pain, the adrenaline wearing off as I heard the others call out in worry
"LANCEY ARE YOU OKAY?!" Green
"KITTEN WHAT HAPPENED?!" Red
"KIT ANSWER US" Black
"LANCE PLEASE" Yellow
"MY CUB CALM DOWN YOUR HEART BEAT IS ACCELERATING! I FEAR YOU ARE ON THE BRINK OF A PANIC ATTACK" Blue
She's right I couldn't breath, I tried to calm my breathing but that turned out bad. I began to see dark spots at the sides of my vision.
"My Cub follow me, Count with me my cub 3 6 9 12 15 18..."
I began to follow as I finally caught my breath. I felt the other Lions give off a calming energy through our link
"Thanks guys"
"No problem Lance"
I then felt Blue move as the cockpit filled up with Blue lights
"Blue you're done already?!"
"N-no my cub I-I am not doing this..." I felt blue and the others Panic as I felt them move against their will aswell
"W-What's going on?!" I heard the others shout on the comms as the screen lit up showing our surroundings
It looks like that we were stuck in a plain field but the 'grass' are pink and the skies are a mix of White, Yellow, Purple, and Pink
I tried to touch the controls but they fell through the hatch on the floor
"H-hey what gives?! Green!"
"Red? What the"
"Yellow why?!"
"Black what are you doing?!"
"Blue?"
"I-I'm not doing anything I swear Cub"
Then suddenly Blue Began to fly through the field followed by the others
"HEY GREEN WHAT GIVES WHERE ARE YOU TAKING US?!" I heard Pidge scream as we fly full speed through the field
I heard the others say something similar but I didn't listen
"Guys where are we going?" I ask everyone but then I felt them give off waves of sadness
"I don't know for sure if where we're going is what's on our minds kitten but we just want to say we are proud of you" I can practically see Red's soft smile as he said that
"W-wait what do you guys mean?!" Before they could answer I felt the lions skid to a stop in front of a wall
I immediately went out of the lion to see everyone out already
"It is time" I heard Black say
"Wait wha--" before I could finish a bright Light covered the lions, so bright that we had to cover our eyes
When the light died down I saw everyone's jaw drop
The once mechanical and big lions are now LITERALLY Lions
Black is of course the biggest out of all of them, His fur literally looks like the black void in space as small little white glitters littered his fur like stars
Red looks beautiful Her fur looks like a vibrant mix of orange and red, And dare I say The fur at her tail and body seems to have an effect of a burning Fire. LITERALLY
Green looks very pretty, Her fur Is just the right shade of green, Flowers littered her fur and tail which cause some creatures that kinda looks like butterflies to surround her
Yellow looks so FLUFFY! His fluffy fur has just the right shade of yellow which added on his aura which LITERALLY Screamed "HUG ME!"
Blue looks majestic, Her fur has that shade of ocean blue and same with red her fur seems to have an effect of water floating around
"My cub I am... so proud of you" at Blue's statement everyone got back to their senses
"W-what do you mean and why do you guys look like that? And how are you speaking?" Pidge questioned
"*chuckles* My Paladin sure do ask alot of questions." Green said as Pidge's face went red in embarrassment
"Technically we aren't really speaking we are just speaking telepathically" Yellow said
"All will be answered in time Green paladin for now" Black then turned to me "My Kit you must find a way to open the secret door if she really chose you, you can be able to open it"
I walked to the wall then saw thousands of engravings but one engraving caught my eye
It looks to be a Hand engraved just bellow an engraving of a Lion
I placed my hand on it then suddenly White light filled the lines then the wall opened
I heard gasps from behind me
"S-so it is true" I heard red say
"W-whats true Red?" Keith questioned
But red just shook her head
I felt Blue walk up beside me "Go on my cub" as she nudged me forward
We walked inside the cave the lions being our light then came across another door
Just as I was about to question the lions they all roared at the same time then the door flashed white
Then It died down to reveal a Room filled with Sparkling Diamonds, well what looked like diamonds any way, there was also a small water fall that led to a pond on the center.
And By the pond is a white lion
A white
Fricking
Lion
It looks like to be 2 times bigger than black, it's fur seems to be shining and sparkling like the diamond like gems. It's eyes are a beautiful Shade of Blue unlike the yellow ones of the other lions
To mine and the other's surprise the other Lions began to bow
It's eyes travelled from the others, to the lions then to me
I swear I saw it smile a bit.
"Lance McClain, Paladin of the Heart of voltron and guardian of the oceans and sea. We finally meet" it's voice is Female I'm guessing she's a girl
"H-hello" I shyly said as I looked to Blue
"*Chuckles* There is nothing to be afriad of Little cub for now we must get you all out of here, I am fearing the worst for the Princess of altea and her Adviser" Was the last thing I heard before a bright light covered my vision
When I opened my eyes to see that we are back to the field were we started all the lions back in their mechanical form I couldn't see the others so I'm guessing that their back in their respective cockpit.
Blue and White are standing infront of me, I took in White's appearance. She looks very similar to black except she's white, her wings on her back, instead of a red and white one it was a White and blue one and she's 2x bigger than Black
As I walked to blue she suddenly put her paw in front of me
"Blue--?"
'My cub you must listen to me. I love you with all my heart, And it hurts me to do this but...I am not fit for you anymore, You are the first person that White has choosen and the moment she called you I knew, You deserve a better Lion. I am out of your league already my cub but you will always be welcome back into my cockpit.'
"B-blue what are you saying..?" I whispered as I felt tears roll down my cheeks. She nudged me to White
'Go my cub she waits...' I felt her nuzzle my head 'I shall miss you being my pilot...' I slowly walked into White's cockpit.
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stephicness · 5 years
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So this ask has some more specific spoilers in it, so I have it under the READ MORE, for you guys. c:
In this ask, we’ll be discussing Terranort, Ansem, and evil boys -- particularly their appearances and existingness! So if you wanna hear me ramble (XEMNAS STYLE!) about the differences between the boys, feel free to keep reading. But spoilers ahead, my friends!
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I think the major explanation behind it is kinda tricky, and took me all day to really reflect on. Because, boy howdy, you actually ask a really valid question!
There’s a kind of this weird manifestation darkness thing going on with it, maybe? For me, I felt like the different Norts that we see weren’t exactly Terra, but more rather different manifestations of Xehenort and his darkness/evils he kind of represents. :o Not so much of Terra himself. Ansem kinda looks like Terra supposedly, but I think it was around the time where ‘Terra’ became Ansem’s apprentice that it was actually Master Xehenort that took control. So it was kind of Terra’s body, but Xehenort’s being?
Which is I think why the designs overall start differing... But let’s just go one at a time, to keep things more organized. (Because, boy howdy, Xehenort has more images of himself than a narcissist on Instagram.)
Ansemnort: So the OG Ansem. Not Old Grandpa Ansem though. This is the main antagonist from the first KH games, and the one who was said to have been the original apprentice of Ansem the Wise before becoming dark and losing his heart. This is basically the Heartless version of Xehenort, so this is why Ansemnort has the coat of Grandpa Xehenort but looks kinda like Terra and when he was originally apprentice. Confusing, but keep in mind! The ‘Terra’ that was Ansem’s apprentice wasn’t actually Terra and his heart -- we’ll call him Apprentice Xehenort instead.
So I think because of this, we got more of Xehenort’s overall appearance -- darker skin, longer sleaked hair, etc -- with Ansemnort. And since Apprentice Xehenort kind of fostered not only Xehenort’s new heart and Terra’s heart, I think this is why the Guardian (REAL Terra) was able to be controlled by Ansemnort/Xehenort.
...Boy, this is alot to follow, but keep keeping up!
Xemnas: This is the VESSEL of the Apprentice Xehenort, so Ansemnort and Terra kind of had no real connection, I think, sans appearance. Xemnas had his own elements, own goals overall I think too, so he’s probably the most distinguishable of the Nort boys. In a way, he’s probably his own person, despite being a Nobody, so he’s straight-forward to explain. Basically, he’s just the empty body of older Apprentice Xehenort.
Terranort/Young Xehenort: The little shit, basically. For me, he didn’t really look like Terra, so calling him Terranort is kind of different. If anything, he’s more like a Young Xehenort, and I feel like instead of him being more of a physical form like what Ansemnort, Xemnas, and the Guardian became, he was a form that existed in a dream. And pulled from that dream, Xehenort basically created a young version of himself: a representation of the twisted darkness that, I feel, probably existed when Xehenort was younger. So basically, this is a DREAM version of Xehenort, before the rise of basically becoming old again.
The Guardian/The REAL Terranort: It’s kinda weird with this one, considering that it’s been a million years and, ya know, NOBODY FREAKING AGED. But I think this is explained with Terranort mostly because of that explanation of people reforming together after their Nobody and/or Heartless is destroyed and freed. I think upon Ansemnort and Xemnas’s defeat, Terra was able to come back. But since it still wasn’t his heart -- considering that it was still trapped as the Guardian -- this allowed a young Terranort to appear and become a person again.
Grandpa Xehenort: How the heck was this guy able to stay alive and suddenly come back as Grandpa again?! Bad writing maybe? I don’t know, but I think it goes back to Ansemnort and Xemnas both being defeated and all, so that meant recreating Grandpa as a person again. Or maybe he just absorbed so much darkness that things got crazy. Dark realm shenanigans. 
Summary, for those who don’t comprehend what I rambled off (Me Included!)...
ANSEMNORT -- He’s the Heartless version of the Xehenort, after he possessed Terra. His control over the Guardian (AKA REAL Terra) is shown that he’s the dominant heart within the Apprentice Xehenort vessel, I think.
XEMNAS -- He’s the Apprentice Xehenort Nobody, AKA what Terra probably looks like were he to kind of age alongside the rest of the cast. Killing him allowed Grandpa and Terranort to return.
YOUNG XEHENORT -- He’s kind of like a dream version of Xehenort, and what he was probably like when he was younger. He kind of represents the origins of Darkness and the first idea of temptation, I feel.
THE GUARDIAN -- THIS IS THE REAL TERRA. He kind of was trapped as a Heartless, similar to Sora in KH one, so he was easily able to be controlled by a superior Heartless such as Ansemnort.
TERRANORT -- The real-life vessel of Terra, probably brought back after both Ansemnort and Xemnas were defeated. Honestly, this was a huge plot point that didn’t make sense, so we’ll just pretend the body was formed because two hearts equals two bodies.
GRANDPA -- The real REAL (old) Xehenort. He’s been body hopping more than that one demon lady in Supernatural did, so that’s how he stayed young for awhile until, well, he didn’t.
Hopefully that explains a little bit and helps you get some ideas of what the answer could be. It’s very tricky to explain. c’: Let me know if you guys agree or if you have any other ideas too!
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Self Experience.
It all began when I had turned 10 years old. The first trigger was my period and  my health never been the same since. 
I would get mysterious pain on my stomach and constant nausea. There was never a day I would wake up without an upset stomach. I would have to threw up and then deal with diarrhea. It was tolerable at first since I would get it occasionally and I bounced back quickly. I would feel perfectly fine after each episode. However that was only one problem. 
The other problem was my time of month. I would get excruciating pain from my stomach to my foot, back and hands. I could not even walk. Pain killers only took away 25% of the pain. The only peace I had was when I was sleeping and so I only slept for the entire day. This pain would last for two, at the most three, days and after I was healthy as a horse. 
We (My parents and I) don’t know if it was a coincidence that I got sick just around the time my first got my period or that it was connected to it somehow. However I didn’t worry about it since I was okay afterwards. Since I was fine and didn’t really care, my parents also brush it off because I kept telling them I was fine, I was okay and nothing was wrong. To be honest, I did feel okay so I didn’t feel the need to worry them unnecessarily. 
This lasted for some years until one of the worst nights of my life.
My watch alarmed signalling it was midnight. I sighed. I twisted and turned. I groaned in frustration. I was nauseous and unable to sleep. Suddenly a feeling of discomfort overcome my stomach. I curled up in a child’s pose and began to take deep breaths. In my head I kept praying and saying “please not now”.
 You see at this point I had gotten used to the agony I would get and this may sound weird but I could differentiate between my period pain and the other weird thing that has been happening to me and this is one of the weird ones. Although, in my head I knew it was the weird pain, something felt off. 
It worsen by the second and so I got up and had to call my mum. I couldn’t have handled it by myself, I was trembling in pain. Hence one of the worst episodes of pain. It lasted till around 5 in the morning and normally it would be around an hour. This time it was 5 hours of pain, vomiting and dysentery and this wasn’t the only different thing. Usually I would bounce back quickly, this time I felt weak, drained, tired and very sick. At first we didn’t care much but still was very worried. We were right to be, I got worse by the second.  
We decided it was time to visit a doctor. Honestly we went by so many I could hardly remember them all. I’ll only state the main ones. So the first set of doctors we went by they all told me the same thing. “There’s a virus going around, you must have gotten it. Don’t worry, here take these and you will be fine.” In my head I was like, There had been a virus going around 365 days a year now. That was the first year of my health deterioration. Endless doctors diagnosing me with some virus and medication took over my life.
Coming into the second year, we went by another doctor once again. This doctor for once told us something different. He said that I was lactose intolerant, that milk could be the cause because of all the processing and chemicals that are placed into the milk before it reaches the cartons. So we stopped all diary. This did help...for a little while and it was back to square one again. At this point I had done so many tests, blood, urine, stool and now probably the biggest test I did. It may sound all that scary but to me I was terrified.
We were recommended to a doctor by one of my teachers at school. The doctor was about 2 hours away from where I live considering traffic. We went and she told us that she needs to see inside my stomach. I was alright fine thinking it was a ultrasound. Boy, did I thought wrong. She said we needed to place a camera down your throat to see inside your stomach, it is called a endoscopy and a camera in another place I refuse to speak of to see your lungs and that is called your colonoscopy. As much as I didn’t wanted to, I had no choice and so the test was done. I asked to be asleep because there was no way on earth was I going to stay awake through that. 
After the test now. The results were, I was indeed lactose intolerant and also there was a gap in my stomach where acid is seeping through and that being the reason why I was nauseous the whole time. Despite all of this and new medication, I didn’t get better. 
At this time my father was really interested into car music, he wanted to make a sound system for his enjoyment only for our car. He met this person who was going to make a battery for his car and just so happens that same person also happens to be a family doctor. Upon learning about this, my parents informed him of my health and he told them to bring me in his office. 
Now this was the start of my healing journey. This doctor was the only one who actually listen to us and really thought about my symptoms. He said for my period problem I might have PCOS. PCOS is polycystic ovary syndrome and it affects everyone differently. We checked and it was that and that was one case solved. Unto the other problem, firstly he wanted me to do a blood test to check if my thyroids are low because that could be partially the cause for my illness. Low and behold my thyroids were dangerously low so that was another discovery made and he began treating for that. 
However he still suspected me of having a gut problem and needed to do more research to pin point the exact issue. Meanwhile he took me off all of my previous medication. It turns out too many different types of medication is very bad for your health and that could have also been a reason why I was getting worse. He started me with a pro-biotic tablet to restore some good bacteria in me and some vitamins c and d because let me tell you I was lacking alot in that area. 
Not only that, he told me that I need to go on a diet of no gluten, diary and soy. Basically treat me like a baby, let me heal and then one by one introduce back proper food in my life and see what agrees with me. This was probably the most hardest thing I ever had to. I could only eat provisions but no potato. Imagine that! But as much as I hated this, I have to admit, it did help. In less than a month I was atleast 50% better and kept improving. 
There was only one problem but we didn’t really care to pay attention to it since we were so focused on me getting better and that was what was wrong with me? What was the reason I was sick? 
Then one day my mum and dad was shopping in the grocery for my gluten free food where they met up with a lady. Her daughter was also ill, she had similar symptoms to me and her daughter had lupus. My parents and I knew I didn’t have that but we still wanted to know. The lady had referred us to their doctor. At first we didn’t bother to go until one night I had a relapse. It was the first time in a short while I ever felt like that. Just when I thought I would never have to feel that pain ever again. Life is quite funny huh? 
So we decided to pay that doctor a visit. Now let me tell you, that was the absolutely the rudest doctor I ever had met. Despite his attitude, I am still wondering how he even got his degree. He told us that the only solution is to operate on me. Cut me open. Why you may ask? Well I am wondering to. When we asked why, he said, you want to find the problem don’t you? Basically what this sorry excuse for a doctor wanted to do was to cut me open to look for something he, himself don’t even know about. 
After that day, I got another relapse and my parents were talking. Honestly we weren’t exactly financially stable, doctors took alot of money and so does medication and this food diet I am on. My dad told my mum that they should take whatever little money they had left and do the operation. At-least  then they can find the problem and take care of it and it will all be over. 
Luckily it didn’t get to that. This is where the real healing began. My dad is a mechanic and he has his own garage at home. He goes by this place to buy parts and one day the owner who doesn’t even know anything about our lives told my dad that he got problems. Now that haunted my dad that for a while he avoided buying parts there. The next time he went the owner said to come to his church Christ Our Banner Ministries, he said to come three times and decide if you want to stay. Every time my dad and mum would go, the owner would leave his business and come to talk to mum in the car. So just to get him off our backs we said we would go.
The very next Sunday we all got dressed but I got sick again and only my dad and sister was able to go as my mum had to stay with me. My dad came home literally a new person. He said the moment he step into that church he felt like all the weight has left his shoulders. The next Sunday I made it my mission to go and I walked out of that church healed. 
Since Pastor prayed for me on that alter, I knew it. I knew I will never be the sick girl ever again. Now I have no pain whatsoever. I can eat anything even diary. I am literally a new person and it just wonderful and I am forever thankful because Jesus healed me. I feel incredibly lucky to receive such a miracle and it is just so amazing. My family and I are happy now and are in peace, all given by our savior.
From then to now, we have been baptized, my mum converted from a Hindu to Christian. My dad was already baptized but over the years had strayed, now he is renewed. My sister and I were only dedicated but now fully baptized in the Lord’s name. 
This is not obviously the whole story, there’s alot more detail, unfortunately I really can’t remember them much and there more aspects to this other than the being sick part. If you have any questions at all or even your own story to tell please feel free to and also your thoughts. I would love to hear what you would have to say.
- Adina Gordon
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heero-yuy · 6 years
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What if Keith was never really supposed to have love interest? DOTU and VF kinda made Keith the default main chara by making him leader and giving him a love story. I read a meta that says Keith having a romantic arc doesnt help in his chara devt bc his thing is about opening himself to many people not zeroing in his focus on just one person. What if they're making Keith a symbol of ace representation?
Well, this is my interpretation of course..
But I feel like Keith already starts the show with having a love interest haha
I dunno if anyone noticed, but atleast until the half of season 3 it is just him zeroing his focus on one person..
Like this is why I was complaining so much about his extreme reaction to Shiro being gone. Because suddenly everything you thought Keith cared about (besides Shiro) flies out of the window and it all narrows down to just one thing - Shiro.
Keith going “screw everyone and everything I just want Shiro back (months or close to a year after Shiro’s disappearance too) is a pretty big deal. You can’t just ignore something like that, specially considering the big focus it got in the show and how it contrasts Pidge looking for Matt (which is done very quietly and without much drama, besides at the beginning when she didn’t even care about team voltron or Allura’s mission).
Also season 3 kinda went even further with it by making parallels between Keith and Zarkon, like you don’t just put parallels between Keith’s feelings for Shiro and Zarkon’s feelings for Honerva, and call one a romance and the other platonic.
I mean you can... And many people do, and this is how it usually goes in every show where you have two guys with really strong feelings for one another haha.
But like if you say Keith’s feelings for Shiro are platonic then you might aswell say Zarkon’s feelings for Honerva are that also. Because whatever that feeling is, it seems like it’s the same ( the ”I will screw over everyone in the universe for you”.) Feelings that extreme and intense (specially between people who are not blood related) are usually used in stories to show romantic love.
And all of Shiro and Keith’s scenes in the show have two very strong feelings about them: intimacy and intensity, and these things dun usually say “platonic”.
Another thing is that the relationship seems to get some of the past Voltron shows romance plotlines
Like why does Sven falls for Romelle in DotU? Because at his lowest and weakest points she was the one who supported him and made him believe in himself. A job that Keith seems to be doing for Shiro this time..
And their relationship seems to be kinda similar to Akira and Fala. (the most developed and believable instance of Kal/lura, that doesn't end up being a thing actually, but unlike the other shallow Kal//lura instances, actually should have!)
So you see, it’s very hard for me to ignore these things and say… yeah those all were kinda romantic plot lines but when it happens between Keith and Shiro it’s all just platonic haha
I mean if Keith or Shiro were a girl I dun think there would be many people who would not see this as a romance.
But something I agree with is that Keith’s character cannot center around Shiro so much. And honestly I wouldn't want it to center around Shiro so much. People complain if a girl character in a love story is all about her feelings for the guy, so it shouldn’t be different here. Keith needs to get some character development that is not Shiro related.
So bad news I guess, but logic says that getting rid of Shiro or separating them  in some way is step one for Keith having any kind of growth.
And I thought this was gonna happen while Shiro was gone, but then he came back so fast and Keith did nothing but cry over him for the period he was gone (besides that one week he took his job seriously). So Keith didn’t really have alot of growth on his own, and didn’t really connect with any other characters much, his character never stopped centering around Shiro from like the minute he was introduced.
So my feeling is that something has to happen that will break this fixation Keith has on him and will let Keith grow as a person and open up more to other people too. 
But also I feel like Shiro and Keith’s character development usually revolves around each other, like they’re intertwined and evolve together, so who knows, maybe it won’t be necessary. 
But again, establishing such strong relationships at the start of the story usually ends in one of the characters death, the characters going against eachother, and sometimes it’s a friends to lovers with many obstacles on the way kind of thing. But usually alot of conflict and pain is a guarantee haha.
So I dunno, Keith having no romantic plot line doesn’t makes sense to me personally, because I feel like he’s already in one since he saved Shiro from the Garrison people haha
But who knows how it’s going to play out and if he’ll ever be brave enough to confess or even admit he has these feelings to himself.
Based on all the previous versions of Keith, I always got the impression he was either aro/ace or gay deep inside tho and just living a lie there with Allura haha
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