#and theyd then know my name/pronouns and misgender me w that. and theyd give a million excuses

[synchlora]

oh green dysphoria jacket we're rly in it now huh

#literally have not taken off this jacket for more than a few minutes (apart from sleep) for. too many days. #oh no #just :( its just. a comforting jacket. #i wanna scream abt gender rn man what the fuck #i should paint my nails w sharpie #how fucking bad is that for you?? i will find out soon #its for gender reasons i swear #i know it sounds random but i sWEAR its Gender #and pls. pls can i get top surgery. somehow w/o telling my parents like god. can i just like not come out and still do that afsnsvgsnsg #my mom thinks theyre purely cosmetic surgeries and that its not worth the danger of getting surgery for it like hm. #like man my mental health would likely be more dangerous to me than a surgery. not finishing that thought. #could potentially get a binder and pretend its just a sports bra or some shit. dont think i could play it off as that tho #definitely cant play off boxers lmao #i am just (: my brain is spinning oh no #trying to figure out loopholes but theres none #they wouldnt likely be violent to me coming out but also it would just be awful bc i know theyd still cling onto having a baby **** and shi #and theyd then know my name/pronouns and misgender me w that. and theyd give a million excuses #anyway. i need to take some time either thinking a lot or shutting my brain off to some music hold on #dumbass thots #vent #vent cw #dysphoria #dysphoria cw