#and tonight again we sleep tomorrow

[orcelito]

FANTASTIC NEWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i finished & posted the ITNL 14 re-edits, WHICH MEANS!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm officially done with my re-edits project!!!!!!!!!! :D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ive been thinking a lot today about my plans for ITNL 15, AND i have tomorrow off, so if all goes well i'll be able to start writing again. TOMORROW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and if the chapter grips me like i expect it will then... hehehehehe

could be an update in as little as a few days, depending. i'll keep u guys updated

#speculation nation #itnl shit #im SO fucking ecstatic man ive been looking forward to this for a month and a half #that took SO much longer than i was expecting it to. but i guess editing 75k words while working full time is kind of a lot #it has been a journey. and it is now complete. #and now i can move on to the NEW THINGS!!!!!!!!! INCLUDING a chapter id been looking forward to for So Long #it's for the best that i went thru the whole fic again. itnl 14 was so hard to write bc i was just Not that mentally there with it #and also uh. The Everything. #i think 15 will be easier. MUCH easier. and im really looking forward to having proper writing motivation again. #AND......... IF ALL GOES WELL.............. i'll hopefully be able to ride that motivation train through the next few chapters #Which Means we could be seeing wolfwood in as little as a few weeks!!! maybe!!!!!!!! #i hope so !!!!!!!!!!! i wanna write him SO fucking bad #and like itnl IS a vw fic. it IS. i SWEAR. it's just mostly been grieving and pining from vash so far lksdjflsdjkfsdlkf #but it will have actual vw. eventually. #im like practically vibrating now but i need to go to sleep. so i can have the brain strength to write tomorrow hehehe #i took a melatonin to hopefully knock myself out soon. i GOTTA get some good rest tonight. for the Writing Brain. #and if i daydream about the start of next chapter.... hehehehe #more power to me then :]

[blackjack-15]

I KNEW NAT WAS PREGNANT i did not know she knew she was but i knew it!

RICHIE NO HONEY

"is that it?" *boink* "yeah" the bear is a comedy. full stop.

ebra you can do it baby i believe in you and i love you

and carmy's still cooking, still working. him and ebra.

oh syd's mum isn't there. she's not there is she she's dead or she's left or something

that was an Adorable story and i wanna see Syd imitate her mum who is definitely dead

oh candles. yeah. so why did she talk about her in the present tense to marcus? hiding it? hiding means there's prolly some trauma, and her mum wouldn't have been that old if she was the same age as her dad (he said they were both twenty when they started dating) so i'm gonna say sickness. might have been sudden, might have been prolonged, but sickness took her is my guess

"carm?" oh. i think i know who thiiiiiis issss

"claire. hi." yes, yes i did know who this is. that's not an enthusiastic reaction from carmy, but to be absolutely fair, he's rarely enthusiastic.

he is however very nervous here -- defensive posture, his face is red, tense jaw, etc. not sure these two were friends when they knew each other -- not saying they were enemies or anything, i'm just not getting the sense that they hung out much

mmm. based on this convo with syd and her dad? he's never been to The Beef in his LIFE. it would come up that they've closed down his Usual Sunday Place to do this if he had. adding that to the list of chekov's guns yet to be fired, and it's gonna be a friggin chekov's cannon ball depending on when that fuse is finally lit

"i have a partner!" "and you trust him" "yes!" gosh dangit. the subtext is text all right but like....conflict is coming

"i'm older than her now" oh land her mum died young then. and she does not believe her dad when he says she's just as wonderful as her mum was

i'm really hoping richie is gonna take a shower. that cannot be healthy

kay still talking with claire! great that doesn't make me nervous about this season at all!

"you wanted to fix [the broken arm]?" "i wanted to understand it" a very valid viewpoint, not knocking it.

but it does show the difference between them -- carmy, like in the party with the kids, like when he's checking in with richie and natalie and syd and tina, wants to help people, wants to fix stuff for them. claire wants to understand how things work -- two different approaches, two different foci.

oh. mm.

okay. okay. okay.

first off, carmy's "i should really listen to myself" about telling that kid not to become a chef? further proof if you ask me that carmy will end up stepping back from professional kitchens in some way

but

if someone so obviously does not want to be doing what they're doing -- if someone says they should not be a chef, for example, and then says that they're opening a restaurant? the first question most people would ask is: "why are you doing that then"

what claire says is "you're doing the thing!" which. i don't actually have words for that response. what in the brain-dead -- i don't care if that's what you remember of him from school or being kids or whatever, how on earth is that the response?

"because you're the bear. and i remember you." spit bucket please!

who the eff says that in a grocery store to someone holding frozen veal stock

he has absolutely no idea how to take that, wow.

in fact, yeah, i don't think carmy has any idea how to deal with personal attention like that, and he needs people to be fairly direct b/c he's sort of oblivious when it comes to how people think/act around him specifically -- he seems to understand People as a General Concept pretty well, just not as they relate to him -- which speaks to abominable self-esteem and i'm going to guess that when he says "i never had any girlfriends" it's not because a few girls (it was probably only two or three, especially being as Carmy as he is, but still) weren't interested in him, it's because he absolutely did not notice, God bless him and keep him

"i'll just get your contact information" oh here it issss here's the thing i know about

and they were so careful to have him recite his number earlier so we'd know what it is

"01....0....2." it's a VERY deliberate choice to give her the wrong number. this isn't a spur of the moment choice, he thought this through. and when she repeats it back and he has the chance to say "oh no 01 sorry", he just says "yup", no hesitation. they're emphasizing to the view that he's okay leaving it there, that this is done on purpose, that he's lying and that he knows he's lying

now there are a multitude of reasons for him doing this. if you think he does actually want contact with her, then it could be he doesn't believe she actually would want to talk to him, he doesn't have any idea how to handle her and is running, etc.

you could even say that this is classic Carmy repression -- he's not letting himself do something he wants to do because he's repressing the desire for it. that one's probably the strongest argument -- really the only valid argument -- on that side

but.

i think that the reason to have this in this episode specifically? is because he and syd have that conversation about the three-star call in this episode

remember what he says? first 10 seconds feels like a panic attack, b/c you know you'll have to keep it up. your brain skips any sort of joy or celebration, and settles instead on dread. that's carmy's experience with getting an honor few get in the culinary world, and it shows that he's actually not happy in being a Chef-with-a-capital-C. this episode fairly beats that into the viewer, honestly

i think it's the same thing here. he knows if he gives her his number that he'll have to keep it up. his brain skips any sort of happiness and settles on dread. and -- finally taking his own advice here, probably because he just mentioned he should take his own advice, carmy is quite introspective, he's just a little Blocked when it comes to his own emotions -- he decides that it's not worth it. the panic and the dread and the sheer effort it would take to maintain this is not worth it

this conversation is not shot like it's easy. carmy's leaning on the side of the freezer like he needs something to physically prop himself up. the lighting is great for claire, who's comfortable, but it washes carmy out, makes him look even more tired.

full disclosure, i don't know anything more than the fact that she goes behind his back (!!! i will have words!!) in the coming episodes sometime to get his real number, that's the extent of my knowledge.

but even without knowing that, watching this conversation? this isn't a full-fledged chekov's gun, this is at most a chekov's water pistol. she's gonna be here, but she's not gonna be omnipresent. her presence -- which i'm guessing will work largely as a distraction, pulling carmy away from The Bear, as well as being a Specter of the Past -- will cause conflict, rather than build a relationship. shot in the dark work, but given that we're shown how Carmy has a problem going all-or-nothing, and last season he went overboard on the "all" part of that, i'm guessing this season she'll be used to demonstrate the "nothing" part of his personality

which will cause problems and conflict, yes, and also provide an opportunity for the other chefs in the kitchen to grow into the roles they'll need to fill in carmy's eventual (permanent) exit from the kitchen. i get the feeling that the sign for "sorry" introduced here is gonna get quite a bit of airtime

this is long and rambly, but yeah! that's episode 2 -- two very relaxed season openers, i'll note -- we've got 8 to go, and i can feel the un-caged bear getting restless enough to start causing a ruckus....

#the bear #liveblogging #2X02 #that's the last post for tonight! my best friend is off the plane so i shall go chat with her probably and then sleep! #really enjoying this and i just know that the Conflict and Chaos that so marks the bear as a show is gonna start #so that was claire! interesting meeting her! she seems kinda like a nothingburger rn but oh. i know she's gonna get Worse #it's the only thing i know so i'm looking forward to the context to see if it makes it better or worse or different #no idea if i'm watching tomorrow since NYE but we shall see! i like this two-eps-a-day sort of thing i should finish by end of next week #possibly earlier but we shall see #once again block the liveblogging tag if this is awful for you! liveblogging just helps me parse the show #and there's a whole lot to parse

[welcometogrouchland]

Rewatching any sport in a storm rn trying not to think abt how close the finale is) and two things I love:

I LOVE that Willow describes flyer derby in terms of it's theatrics and drama. Because this girl used to be terrified of being seen! Much like her attitude to internal problems, her attitude to external problems has always been to be unassuming and thus avoid ridicule. Now, with friends and a new found sense of confidence (the way she looks out for Luz and Gus when they're getting chased in the first bit in hexside <3)- she wants everyone to see her! And again, because the main theme of this ep is being misjudged and how ppl use appearances to deceive, she wants to be in control of how ppl see her via flyer derby. It's just a really nice nuance behind why she takes to the hobby

LOVE that even at this stage in the show the trio are still kinda losers. Losers with lots of friends around hexside, certainly! But the way they market their clubs is dorky (willows "r u cruisin' 4 a brusin'?" Sign and Luz straight up asking why nobody's interested in the good witch azura). The main difference between now and season 1 is, again, they have more friends (the grudgby match and grom were turning points I think) and they're not really bothered by how their cringe-ness is perceived at school. I watched this ep back to back with Understanding Willow (it's Willow night tonight!) and it's just such a sweet development from season 1 and such a contrast

#ramblings of a lunatic #the owl house #toh #hehe bein silly #I'm probably not gonns finish all of asias tonight? it's late and i want to sleep lol #but I'll probably watch it tomorrow during school. bc i am a slacker #it put me in a 2B mood again (i also watched FatCDP and EaE). 2B is both the most fun era for me to play around in- #-besides hypothetical post canon specifically bc it was when i joined the fandom AND it's when the shortening took effect #hence there's a lot of free space to play around in. yknow? #it's the first time we start getting the sense of off screen adventures happening that the audience can fill in #(this is why we should advocate for spin-off comics. btw. i mean do what u want I'm not ur dad. but it'd be good)

[seariii]

ah.... thats why

#i started to feel bad like sad and shit and i first thought it was because of something with the bestie #but.... while yeah that probably has some to do i think the problem is that i gave more than i could afford regarding friendship finances.. #tbf it was for my brother... and when i told him tomorrow i saw his face that he wanted it tonight so it was kinda necessary... #he kinda needed it and i thought i could do it.... but i was exhausted and that finished draining me... #and now that everything got quiet again.... sigh... #its okay.... i'll go to my room try to answer a bit more and chill and let myself fall- ah right.... #i have to wake up early again tomorrow... #... and on tuesday i have.... and tomorrow night.... #.... and i have to get that done this week too... #.... i kinda wanna cry now... when can i get a proper break... #*deep breath* #its okay.... its gonna be okay... lets try to finish the questions thing because its fun and then see if we do sometihng else or we sleep

[tintedglasses]

i love him so much!! and i strongly anticipate that i will be crying about him in therapy tomorrow!!

#he has shown some interest in food again #and has been keeping what he’s eaten down #so that’s good #he has been sleeping a lot but it’s a Sunday and he was sedated earlier so that’s probably normal? #at this point im most worried about the fact that he hasn’t passed food yet #but I’m hoping the stress has just made his GI tract a little wonky #and that will be tonight or tomorrow #it’ll be kind of tricky if i have to take him in Tuesday or Wednesday because I have clients i really don’t want to cancel on #because we just had a week off two weeks ago #but I guess I’ll cross that bridge when I get to it

[truly-quirkless]

Twenty Day Challenge 2024 - Day Five

There are two options for this...either Yagi has to hold Fin, or Fin's gotta find something to stand on. Or both, in reverse order.

#Colliding fists they’re/What’s gonna make you || Drawings #Together we run/Til we see the morning light || Queue #When you’re close to breakin’/Let me be your haven tonight || Cracked Facades #Writer's Yearly Challenge || 2024 #//honestly this just fuels the fire to me wanting to try my hand at doodling the two cuddling again #//but stars it was such a dumpster-fire last time... #//hnggggg #//maybe tomorrow will be nighttime/sleeping hcs I honestly do not know #//I wasn't gonna initially post this but then #//I ended up doing the shading before I went to work this morning and it looked--- nice???? #//so yeah

[theroseapothecary]

won't get around to watching the witcher s4 until sunday and i've blacklisted several tags as to not get too spoiled but i wanna see/read everybody's real time reactions 👀

#personal log #too tired to watch tonight gonna go to sleep soon then tomorrow i'll be working over 10hrs and only get home at night #where i'll undoubtedly be too tired and then work again on Saturday and my bf's birthday party after #so Sunday is the day we can start #i'd maybe have tried watching ep 1 tonight before sleep but my boyfriend doesn't feel like it but we've talked about watching it together

[mothram]

#diana's music diary #good evening I slept all day n.n #had a very very good night last night... been feeling so happy #last night and the whole day really... so comfy and cozy... #just a very nice night with some really chill people 😊 #my sleep is messed up a bit but really it was already bad so it's whatever honestly can't make it any worse ehehe... #I do plan on trying to fix it a bit tonight.. I never got much sleep so I can try and sleep earlier!! #once again not much is planned today but I did want to make sure Ophelia is ready for lancer tomorrow.. that will be fun... #excited to see the consequences of Ophelia's fuck up :3 #let's try to make today good however we can #also I've been on a cats milly streak again and ohh this song has been hitting me so hard this time round...

[esteeayen]

i have finally moved into my first place… a condo with 3 loves of my life at 20 Years Old. My God

#IM FEELING SO MANY THINGS….. AND I WILL FEEL THEM DEEPER ONCE I SLEEP THERE FOR THE FIRST TIME TONIGHT #unfortunately i have work. gross. but it’s my last day 🎉 #but tomorrow we are gonna paint and try to finish up 2 rooms. and then paint my room #AND THEN I CAN DECORATE ❤️❤️❤️ #our house is literally gonna be so beautiful. the most beautiful house 4 broke 20yr olds have ever had #CRYING AND SOBBING. FOR REAL. #also i accidentally got a full bed instead of a twin #which DAMN but i thought it wasn’t gonna fit in the room but it’s the perfect size. legit #and i’ve always had a twin. so this huge accident feels. very good LOL #like it’s so big…why are full beds so fucking big….i’m going to nest in there and never come out #AND I HAVE MY KEYBOARD AGAIN ❤️ #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i’m so excited. it has not felt real until todah #my posts

[omarfor-orchestra]

"Non farlo piangere" girl he literally cries in his mother's arms when he's trying to fall asleep because he gets frustrated when he can't and now I'm making him cry???????????????

#i don't understand how they see this child thing #he's a child. he cries. sometimes he cries for things you have to say no about #like you must say no. why is it so hard for you to understand it and most importantly why the HELL am I the one who's somehow behaving #like the mother when she's not around #I'm so pissed off about this situation Imma scream one day #again. i love my nephew more than my honestly unworthy life for what I'm doing with it #but I'm 23 and i never asked to be a mother and i just want to do my things and have like a little corner for myself #and to be left alone for 5 minutes #which can't happen apparently bc I can't even go to the bathroom without my mother going 'let's see what auntie is doing!' #gurl what do you think I'm doing??????? #I'm so fucking tired #and once again why the hell does he have to sleep here tonight when his father is perfectly able to take care of him #i swear if i were to see him once a week I'd be more than happy but every day gets exhausting #and in the middle of it all i also have to listen to my mother scold me for no reason. no one ever says 'oh thank you' #jesus christ #I'll never EVER have children btw #and i hope I don't fall in love with a cis man because if this is how they are I'm very tempted to commit a murder rn #I'm tired out of my mind bc me and my mother had to cook and clean the whole house for tomorrow. do you think #my father raised a single finger despite knowing we needed a hand? #fuck them when i get financially stable enough to leave they'll see me once a year #if they're lucky #again. I can't have my therapist tell me all this things which i start to think about daily and leave me on my own for a whole week #bc then i go insane #sorry I'll prob delate this later #rant #i realize now the post doesn't make sense without context but i was trying to make him sleep and he cried a little #like he. always does btw but somehow today it was my fault

[latitudesunknown]

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#took kitty to the vet last friday #coz she’d barely eaten in days #her bloodwork once again came back perfectly fine #but vet said she had laryngitis #gave her a shot and gave me some pills #shot must have been magic coz she started eating as soon as we got back home #ate amazingly well for 3 days then tuesday stzrted hesitating again #then today ate nothing and didn’t drink much either #but even more worryingly #has been throwing up about every two hours since noon (it’s 11pm) #first time i attributed to her gorging herself on catnip but after that… #she drank one hour ago and threw it up 5mn later #now she’s sleeping peacefully next to me #needless to say i am beside myself with worry #i’m calling the vet first thing tomorrow #i wanted to wait a bit coz i figured her throat was hurting again but #the vomiting makes me so anxious #please send healing vibes her way #god i don’t expect to get a wink of sleep tonight

[metal-mouse]

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#FaceTimed my mom during the leafs game overtime so I had someone to yell with #and when the leafs won she ended the call with ‘Reni go to bed at a normal hour tonight’ #and here we are at 1:40am #oops #look I’m easily distracted mkay? #it’s gonna be a sleeeepy shift at work tomorrow #reni complains again #personal #my sleep deprivation is for a good cause sometimes though #that good cause being: does it make reni smile? #if the answer is yes then it’s worth it

[sysig]

♥!

#Title because body text is too small to encapsulate my Big Celebration #So if you've been following along the breadcrumbs of my Real Life nonsense you'll know I moved last October/November #And since then a lot of my didn't-think-at-the-time-was-that-necessary-but-actually-turned-out-to-be-pretty-frickin'-necessary Stuff #Has been back away. Yes for six months. No I'm not happy about it either but literally what am I supposed to do about it lol #And one of those things was my hammock! My bed! My reading spot! My favourite place! #Well tied for my favourite place with my rocking chair but splitting hairs really lol #And we just straight up couldn't find it - found the base! But not the cloth-and-rope part the actual hammock bit #So we bit the bullet and just bought a new one - the old one had been fraying and snapping like mad anyway so it was time #And it finally - Finally! Arrived today ouq #It feels amaaaazzzzinnnnggggg ahhhhhhhh #I really want to draw my excitement but that would require leaving it - yes I am typing this while reclined and rocking it's delightful #And the airflow! Ah!! #The only problem(s) now are well a) I never want to leave it again lol b) it's rather large #And part of the reason we couldn't locate my Various Items was because I don't have a room yet - nowhere to put it #So it's just kinda....in the way lol #And then c).....my employer asked for a night shift. Tonight. And tomorrow. Out. So I can't sleep in my hammock :') Until Sunday #So :'D #But!!! OTHER THAN THAT!!!! Lol #Most importantly going forward I have my reading spot back ahhhhhhhh AHHHHHH #I'm gonna read so much!! I have so many reading plans!!!!!! #HAMMOCK!! AHH!! #Update: She called off ahhhhhhHHHHHH

[tacitusauxilium]

#ooc #kiki speaks #(I got off work early again today #guess what happened? kid was taking a second nap again. #so the little one was up an hour after we got home...so that exhausted me and made me unable to get on until now. #and now that i have the time to get on...i just can't feel it tonight. #I'm off all day tomorrow and will attempt to get stuff on the queue when the little one goes to sleep for a nap--feel free to send asks #cause i'll get to them tomorrow)

[nerice]

oh lads im having so many panic attacks tonight

#going to the hospital tomorrow #happy one year anniversary to the last time i walked into a clinic crying and incoherent we will do it again #just please let me sleep. please i have to make it thru tonight but the stress is so so much; #elia txts

[vriendenboekjes]

huge sudden water stains on the ceiling and on walls but we can call back tomorrow because with ascension day they cant save the reparation request now?? epic student housing situation 👍

#🌬️ #soo not what i need with my deadline on friday #how im sleeping tonight: ʘ⁠‿⁠ʘ #sorry for the complaining today i had such a lovely day because my mom visited me and now it's all BLEURGH #also i told the lady on the phone it seems to come from upstairs so then she said well we cant fix the issue if your house isnt the problem #which i totally get but then me and 2 housemates went upstairs to put a note on the door but we heard loud talking coming from inside so we #knocked and then they went quiet and were obviously discussing if they should open the door so i loudly said 'we have a leak and we think #it might be coming from you' and then they DID open the door but there was no water there so now im going to have to call them again #tomorrow to say the leak isnt coming from upstairs and now im soooo stressed it might be a burst pipe in the ceiling and it's going to cave #in and kill us and put us out of the house for months etc. #anyways. so i set an alarm to call them again first thing in the morning because this really really cant continue for another day #i already thought it had been smelling weird but i thought we just needed a new air freshener in the toilet 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #i swear other than this i am sooo chill all the time